Song is Good.

❤❤❤ Beautiful song ❤❤❤❤❤

Negative people be blaming like it’s stupid asf like and they will snitching on you like you a snake 🐍

Healing for my soul💗

Anything outside the now is a distraction. NOW is the real deal savor it. N= notice O= Observe W = Witness

16 years alone in the dark in my bed. With a sleep mask on. With ear plugs in my ears. I.did. not. give. up. or. in. So yeah, I am a fighter. No doctors or experts could help me, or lacked the competancy to do so. With my spare energy which was max 5 hours in total per week, I trusted my intuition and started collecting transcripts from my blood work going back 14 years. Then I started researching scientific papers, still max 5 hours a week. An hypothesis started growing and define itself. Still doctors and experts were hesitant. Finally, I summarized all relevanr articles and papers and summarized my own theory, intuition, and examples of knowledge and change from people who had experienced the same. And I firmly planted that binder of papers on my personal physician's desk, to yet again being met with a wall of mistrust and misbelief. Still, I did it one more time, in addition to support from another doctor from the field of immunology and years of knowledge into hormonal health and imbalances. This time, he reluctantly forwarded a request for me meeting and testing at an endocrinologic clinic. 2 Months later I met up to my appointment, talked briefly with this head of the clinic who tested me physically and somewhat holistically like for ex cognitive ability. Results showed a test score of 13 of 13 possible symptoms. After 30 minutes with him I got the Diagnosis "hypogonadism", severe lack of testosteron over last 2 decades. Last blood test showed 1.5 where as a normal range lies between 9-35. That was a major breaktrough. The minor one was extremely low level of D-vitamin, also that over 2 decades. Long story short: After receiving T.R.T (testosteron replacement therapy) the slow but steady improvement over the next 3 months was unbelievable. Like night and day. Feeling 50% better after 6 months, and honestly close to a 100% improvement after 1 year. My extreme fatigue is gone, anxiety, depression, avoidance and isolation gone away too, so is symptoms like brain fog, short and long term memory loss and so much more, and i am more or less back to normal. I am capable of working out again, working, socializing and so much more. The only thing left is allowing myself getting back to normal step by step, and also allowing me going through a process of sadness, sorrow, anger, frustration, acceptance and joy. That pendulum must have room to go back and forth a few times before I finally say enough is enough. Life is right now, and I want to live it fully. I lost what was suppose to be the best of years, but on the other hand many never get better or find some way or solution out. So I don't take anything for granted, I just count myself blessed, I am here and I am alive. Sorry for the long ramble but the song inspired me to put it down in writing. If this can help 1- ONE person it is so worth it. I know there are people out there struggeling, feeling isolated and alone, and not feeling being taken seriously. I am here to give you all my love and good vibes today, and support you in that you are loved, worthy, good enough, and beautiful just as you are. Never. Ever. Give. Up. Changes happen, miracles too. Be well, I love you, just for today, regards Steinar All because of trusting my intuition expressing that there is something else causing this. And I did get better by myself, no one else did it for me thats for sure. So yeah, today I can scream it out loudly: I am a fighter!