I don't like his voice it's boring

I did not get to say goodbye to my brother

I lost a stranger who wasn't in my life on May 21st 2024. We have a diversity of ethnicity in my country. One of them is Indian and Javanese. I am of Indian descent and she is of Javanese descent from Indonesia. Gas is expensive so I walked to work. I changed from one route to another to save a few minutes. I walked past her workplace. By the time I walk past her workplace she and her coworkers took a break from work on the balcony on the benches. I saw people on the balcony at the conrner of my eyes. I heard them talking and laughing. One time I was concentrating on walking to work and their laughter broke my concentration. I looked towards the building but not towards them. So I didn't see any faces. It was this year of last year. I am not sure. And I am not sure if she was there. Because a a month before she worked somewhere else. In 2nd grade elemnetary school I had decided to only get a Javanese girlfriend. I know I was too young to decide that. But that is what I decided. In high school I started losing interest. After high school I put Javanese as a 2nd option. But I only wanted 1st place. So 2nd option was not really an option. I never looked at Javanese the same way like years ago. I had 1 Javanese coworker a few months after I started working. 3 years later, last year I had a 2nd Javanese coworker. They both knew each other from before they started working where I work. I didn't talk much to the 1st coworker. But after the 2nd coworkwr came I started talking to her and then started talking to the 1st coworker. I started to feel something again for Javanese again. But because they are a 2nd option I keep choosing the 1st option everytime I talk to my coworkers. This year in March a Javanese client came to buy a tv. Her face screams cuteness oveeload. So thanks to these 3 people both my 1st and 2nd option are 1st option. I have 2 choices but a higher chance for Javanese. The client wasn't interested in a nerd. I wear glasses. That doens't mean I am a nerd. That broke me a little. But I moved on. And now the girl from before commited suicide. She drove in the river. I later found out that my cousin work with her and they are girlfriends. I went to her funeral to meet her for the 1st and last time. I couldn't recognize her. Her face was swollen, because she was in the water for more than 12 hours. And her blood clogged at the mortuary and her skin became dark. My cousin said she looked sad. I told her that was her last emotion went she went into the river. Her boyfriend told her to trust him. He went to Dubai. A chinese guy. A coworker told me he is not that good looking. He was showing her pictures of other girls. She went into her savings for his birthday, learned to cook chinese, learned chinese, met chinese friends to be connected with him. She asked to put a picture of them on his profile to be connected with him. He saw this as an attack. Sh didn't trust him. In the beginning she didn't trust him. But she later trusted him. She said before he went to Dubai he knew it wouldn't work out. She said let's do a fun activity. You take an A4 paper. I take an A4 paper. Let's write things on the paper that our relationship needs to get better. He saw that as an attack too. That was in her last video where she also talked about having suicidal thoughts. She said she needed a clap in the back of the head for having these thoughts. She said people would know about why she commited suicide in case she wasn't alive anymore. She said she was being so dramatic. It was a tiktok video that she deleted along with a lot of video's that I could not see, because I wasn't on tiktok at the time. I downloaded tiktok just to look at her video's. I saw her daughter's video's too. In the 2nd to last video she said she wouln't commit suicide because of her daughter. Her daughter said she woke up at 3 am amd busted her phone then took her daughter's phone. Maybe she was screaming at the guy. I don't know. Her daughter's couldn't explain it well. She is still 9, almost 10. She passed away at 30. She took her mother's car, that she recently bought and still had to pay off, and drove in the river at around 4 am. I don't easily cry, but I am now crying everyday. Anything and reminds me of her. If I don't actively think about her I don't cry. I don't always cry when I actively think about her most of the time. I am sometimes tired of crying and I might not have any tears left. Don't know how that works. She was an introvert, but also an emo-girl in her teens. Took lots of pictures when she was youngers. Took lots of pictures and video's with her daughter. People talked to her amd said to end the relationship. She said it is easy to say but not easy to do. She loved hin a lot, but he didn't. He never did anything for her since the beginning of the relationship. She said took Valium in and couldn't think clearly. I wish I could turn back time to save her. I have guilt, because I don't easily talk, especially with strangers. I am also an introvert. If I talked then maybe we could have become friends and I could have helped her or she could have become my girlfriend and would still be alive. Even dates, times and numbers make me cry. She had a message for us from Suriname. Don't be like Sharon, having suicidal thoughts. You are your #1 priority. She said it was too late. Is it possible to fall in love with her after watching her video's and photo's of how much fun she had? What makes it worse is that she is Javanese. At her funeral I heard about her life, key moments, important moments. And that thought me so much. I learned so much from her. She is someone I look up to. Her personality and character are amazing. She also had an amazing humor. And so many other things. She was talented, funny. So many thing in my life went wrong. Even finding a girlfriend. Why did it have to go wrong like this? I wish I was more serious, more bold, took more risks to get a girlfriend. Her workplace was a 5 minute walk from my house. I had brought flowers for her grave. Me and my cousin rode an hour to her funeral. She lived about an hour from me and her work. Her bestie ex-coworker went abroad permenantly 2 weeks before she commited suicide. She had a daughter of 9 almost 10 years and a boyfriend of around 10 months. Had she held on maybe she could have found help. If she had seeked help I don't think I could have found out about her. I didn't have tiktok. And she locked her fb profile. Rest In Peace, Sharon Ismail. Just wait. We will meet for the 1st time in heaven, along with your daughter Joy and the rest of your family.

10 years! Of anxiety and panic disorder still going 🙃

More than anything

My uncle died in 2023 between 2022 And they were my loved ones. I always stand by their side my only ones that I loved.

My uncle just passed and I had so many memories of camping with me

I was emotionally abused, physically abused,for years

I lost my dad at age 5❤❤❤

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 I'm crying

I am an older sister to one younger sister. My dad introduced us to Ben platt. This song describes our sibling relationship. Me and her are both competitive dancers and this will be our duet

My grandma died when I was born

i wish i have seen the signs that my idol my sister would never be here any more

lost a loved one 3 days before my birthday on june 8th, 2024. rest peacefully marty u will forever be loved and missed and never forgotten 🥹♥️.

i lost everyone in my family but losing my sister was the final blow now i have no one left to talk to and seek advice from and it be trusted that it stays between us . i miss you Karen I love you

I just left my ex best friend because she was really mean

My father passed this February I love and miss him so much 😢

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It help me clam down

i'm good but i'm lying :'

it's hard for me, what should i do ? :'

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My cat died in 1/4/24 I’m really sad for your loved ones that passed away god bless you cancer suck I wish are loved ones had one more chance Batman I love you he was my one in only cat that I loved I wish my cat would have one more chance.

Nice song love it.❤❤❤😊😊😊🥰🥰🥰

Am letting my girlfriend go on a course in Scotland. Made a wrong decision. Got a call at 3 in the morning saying my girlfriend has been in a fatal accident and didn’t make it. I cryed and cryed. The hardest thing was making the call to the person who was doing the course with her. She flipped her Skoda and didn’t make it. The other car was totally wrecked and everything was falling off. My girlfriend car flipped in a hedge and if there wasn’t a tree to stop her that car would have been left there and luckily there was a tree to stop the car. Drove that road this afternoon to go on a horse racing competition and saw the brake marks and the car in the hedge. Police haven’t moved it yet. Rip my girl

2024 here👇

Favorate song

Lost my wife of 42 beautiful wonderful years. She was everything to me and our 4 children and 4 grandkids and one Great grandson. You know I thought we would live for many more years. But that collapsed my hold life when she passed. I almost couldn't let them shut her casket. But all my guys gathered around me and held me very tight. It was only through them I can make through the whole procession. We all know that it's possible when you fall in love that one of us would not always be around. Time never heals when two people truly love each other in that way time will only let you exist. But I believe that anyone's spouse would not have wanted it that way. ALWAYS TELL ONE ANOTHER THAT YOU LOVE THEM JUST IN CASE YOU NEVER SEE THEM AGAIN ♾️✌️💯

I love this song it’s kind of how I feel about my crush

This song is helping so much thank you❤😢 my heart broke my head broke my lie broke but I’m still hear struggling ❤😢😥😢😥😭😭😭😭😭

This song got me crying my relationship is falling I need a hug Man

My gf brok up with me 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Lost my mom in 1993 in September I came back home from California on August of same year after being gone for 9 years I didn't get to say I love you or good bye still hurt to this day

My crush at my job 😔

but I swear I'm the same ❤

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“AM I EXACTLY WHAT I FEARED 💔“

I hate that i don't have a mom like this. I fucking hate my childhood. I'd never wanna be reborn again.

This was mine and my husband's first dance song, and we play it for our unborn daughter who starts moving around like crazy... this song is perfect for everything

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I keep happy crying because you are just such a wonderful great singer ❤❤

My name is steed as well. 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤😢😢😢😢😢😢

Today I feel so numb not only because of heartbreak also health issues, academic setback and I don't know how to face this phase 😞

I’m crying 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😢😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔

This song is me, I can’t stop crying

People in 2024 👇

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This song describes me so much and i cant no more i just WANNA BE SO GONE OUT OF THIS WORLD I DONT WANNA BE ALIVE ANYMORE !

Everything was perfect when we met but now everything is gone only memories left 💔💔 times flies 😢 I miss u bu 😢😢😢😢