I love the fact Amai is as akward as well all are 😭

I swear to God I love this man ❤😭😭

I missed Amai being himself.

this was so fun to listen to~ thanks for sharing 😆

12:52 you: 🤓☝️ (jk also I love the ranting vids 🫶, very relatable)

So goofy! But so cute!! 😂❤ and yeah. Better not let him to make any decisions alone in the future. 😂😂😂

“They said you walk like a penguin” 😂😂 got me laughing so hard because my mom and my aunt once said I walked like Donald Duck. 😂😂😂

I've seen so much of myself In your words. I was not praised in life besides academical scores and grades and today I feel like I can only enjoy something if I'm good, very good, at it, life sucks by living like that, I've given up in so many things I wanted to do, to the point I stopped trying because I knew the chances of being bad at it were higher then being good. It's true that practice leads us to some improvements, but that's not enough when you feel like you need to be the best in everything you spend your time doing. Funny enough I'm here, scrolling on KZbin because I gave up on studying for an exam after getting so many exercises wrong, and this is frustrating because it feels like I'm losing the only thing I was good at. The statistics part, oh God. I don't get any proof that I'm good at whatever it is I will forever doubt myself... Don't even get me started about relationships, at this point I just accepted that I would be better for me and whonever is the other person that I follow my way by myself. As an overthink, texting someone and getting nothing back or getting a dry, uninterested answer every time does not help at all. But it's not you, you sound so nice, I'm sure they would change their minds if they gave you a chance, sometimes it feels like people doesn't give a chance with fear of being rejected too... So social interactions it's not just on you. I'm glad gaming can offer some light on your days. That's what your voice and videos have doing to me. I know there is not much to be said that can help in this type of situation. But I'm glad you came here and talked to us about it. At least I don't think I'm so alone now. Sometimes I feel like I don't have any option but keep going and trying to figure things out, but it's tiring as f If I'm being honest, not sure if living life is that worth it if this is all that it is. I also got your jokes about Asian culture, as someone outside of it. I can perfectly understand what you are saying. They are all topics everyone can go through but it seems that for cultural reasons they escalate to the next level on Asia. Whatever life brings to you, I hope it will lead you to a wonderful space and everything will make sense to you at some point Take care.

Having someone share this feeling is so comforting. It's so hard for me to word things, and expressing my emotions has been ruined by my last relationship. Im trying to enjoy things again and not be embarrassed by what i like. Appreciate you coming out here and rambling about your feelings and still being a content creator. (I have a lot of good things to say, but I'll stop here so i dont overshare. This is about you.) Thank you for going out here and creating and sharing things.

I would fold SO QUICK if my crush or bf learned a song I liked and played it.. I wouldn’t shut up.. I’ll brag a little…. Or maybe a lot…. But ykw idc it’s a BIG w. Also.. its not embarrassing to perform a song for a girl you like :’) IDE BE KICKING MY FEET and you aren’t bad at boyfriending its just no girl has probably given you that reassurance bc you PUT THE EFFORT and I think a few woman… overlook it..?? Uhh.. the pool thing.. ide js giggle bc that is kinda cringe but in a cute and silly way. But on a serious note it’s ok, you’ll find the girl that will appreciate your efforts and like you for you:) <33!! You’re adorable btw anyway byee:3 <33 Ps. I like the rambles.. it’s like we on ft or smth lol

11:13 - I think when people say random reassurance to make you feel better, they dont actually know if youll be alright, they just have faith/hope you can make it alright. Nothing is ever a garuntee, we gotta make everything work in our lives

Ur glow up after u got ur period lmao 🤣. Im sorry that was funny. You have to start somewhere, everyone does. Don't underestimate mediocrity, being dependable is a good thing. Ppl at the top aren't liked by everyone, or at least not as much as they think lol. You need to find your community, where you feel good about yourself. (It doesn't have to be a big community.) everyone goes through a "winter" period, these moments are when we learn the most about ourselves and our relationship to society, it's a personal growth period, you should treat it as such. I love a good rant, and this for sure didn't disappoint lol. Therapy is majority positive, just have to find the right kind, it may take more than a few actually. We know you won't give up, we won't give up on you. And yeah don't put so much stress on yourself, (easier said than done) but just try to do things you enjoy, when you feel stressed. You're doing great, don't let ppl who don't really know you, dictate how you live your life.

omg Amai you were bullied too?!? 😳 are you my long-lost non-mexican brother?!?! 😳🍜... -BUT YOU HAD ABS?!?!- 😱🤯!!! Idk how intense your bullying was but with regards to people commenting on your voice: you have almost 30k subs so I'd say it's not something to worry about anymore 😌🍜The Proof is in The Numbers 😤🍜 But also-also I was about to say something along the lines of "I hope you don't take this the wrong way since most asian parents/communities take this the wrong way, but have you considered therapy?" and then you mentioned it later and I'm like "OMG JINX!!!" 😊🍜 but ye, I I hope you find therapy soon 🙇🍜 it takes a while to find the right therapist but defo keep trying!!! They're pog 🙇

Amai... -YOU HAD ABS- wait, you TOO sought attention?!? 😲 But at the pool?!?! 😳 but also you had ABS?!?! But ye I feel like we have so much in common except the playing-sports part. Or anything competitive really 😳 Also the part where you called yourself "normal"... sounds like me whenever I do this thing were I go "But I'm such a good person!!! 😭" and ye, I found it relatable 🙇🍜

AGIAN AGIAN this man is so cute

Im treating this as a podcast episode. advice: The people you surround yourself with are the people who influence you the most so if you think you aren’t doing good even though you know you are good enough then leave the people who you think make you feel worthless. If you put yourself first then no one other than you should be your first option. Bonus tip: you wont learn until you try and doubting yourself and your abilities will only bring you down so if you want to make friends the first step is to introduce yourself to someone you think is attractive or someone you want to befriend, even if its awkward its all a learning process and it’ll all progressively get better. 17:33 so true 18:50 take it from me don’t talk to people you know in real life online, far as I know its only gone bad so if you know them irl and see them not busy or something just wave or go say hi and ask them about their day, favorite food, how hard a project is, favorite color, make it a tad bit personal and from there everything flows. Apart from that though on a personal note, I feel it all from the “Asian bloodline” to like the “I dont feel good enough” is all something I relate to I personally struggled with this but surrounding myself with people I love and leaving my comfort zone helped me heal and find myself again and made me realize how important I should feel just because of the love I give myself and not the love I get from others. Placing yourself on a pedestal to compare yourself to others is valid but comparing the way you love yourself and how others love themselves is even more “eye-opening” than anything else I’ve experienced in my opinion.

Honestly, I love these rants, and it comforts me to hear people with similar experiences. I personally struggle with confidence. It started when I had to move countries when I was young (making puberty extra difficult) and I feel it has faltered further ever since the “panini” of 2020. I relate so much with being good at things but never being good enough to confidently share your abilities to others. Sometimes I’ll make a perfect cover that I feel great about it and decide to post it, but then I see the two-digit numbers and I feel like I’m not good enough. I have many projects sitting in my drive and I can’t get myself to complete them out of fear that it won’t end up great. But something I found that helps me deal with my extreme perfectionism is to deliberately make things imperfect. Like if it’s 65% complete, it’s good enough to share. That helps me not worry about perfection. In terms of confidence with people, that will forever be a battle for me that I don’t know I can overcome, which is why I have never tried to pursue a relationship no matter how much I liked a guy. I have some scars that involved guys, so I still feel uncomfortable approaching them irl (even with guy friends). Listening to bf audios like yours makes me hopeful that maybe I will find a good man that I can fully be myself with. TLDR: your channel is my safe space and l resonate your rants

8:52 the "EGH" scared the shart out of me...(cause my volume is all the way up)

gg

8seconds after the post is just wow, genuinely

Oooo you are single 😍😍😍

I could listen to your stories for who knows how long lol That's kinda comforting that I'm not alone in being like that thou I'm more of an anxious awkward mess/no life. Good luck with all YT thingy. You are cool 😎

if a guy spent his time learning songs on guitar FOR ME...? i'd never shut up about it. maybe i should try this, i want a bf so hopefully i can sit at my piano and play their favourite video game ost until one spawns in or smth idk 😭😭

15:15 TO BE FAIR I once had a crush for 3 years and never confessed and that didn’t work either so…

You should change yourself WITH your partner not FOR your partner. Talk to people you’re interested in with transparency that you want to be together NOT under the guise of friendship

the voices are so adorable hahaha xD you are so so awesome, thank you so much for this one :D

I fell in love once and was even delusional enough to think i had a chance but found he had a gf so obviously i backed off ( i wasnt flirting before anyways) .. lmaooo

Amai ur cool 😎

Who the hell was hitting on me?! 😭

It's ok, we believe ur totally normal😉lol. It depends on if you think, that persons worth going all in for. As long as u aren't debasing yourself that is lol. When you're interested in sumone You're supposed to get to know their interests. If that 1 thing is ur only rly cringe moment, ur doing pretty good lol. Keep practicing ur guitar/singing lessons tho, that'll impress neone 😸 lol. Ya cope, that's my favorite high lmao🤣.✨💫

U should always be yourself with someone u like or love. For me personally I like someone who can make me laugh since I laugh at everything. I like someone who texts good morning and asks me how my day has been. But mostly i like someone who I have something in common with and accepts my differences. But yeah always be yourself. You seem to have a good sense of humor and seem sweet ❤❤❤❤

Chat am i cooked? i think its gojover for me. Perma maidenless incoming ong

The cringe is real and this fr some boy failure moments 😭 but hey, some guys never stopped doing cringe, fully convinced they have the suave after the girl is repulsed

Honestly, my sister was obsessed with One Direction, if you had learned any of their songs for her she would've immediately swooned

Yeah! I wait for embarrassing performance stories!

BING BONG (I also can’t rizz, apparently 💀)

13 seconds ago no way

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