“You can achieve great things without sacrificing your wellbeing”… you know it took me a minute to realize that might be talking about you as well. I’m proud of you for realizing that if that’s the case. Ryan I miss you more than life. I wake up and in the morning I don’t want to get up yet because it’s like I can still feel you with me for a little while in my heart after my dream… It’s almost like you’re in my arms 😭 It’s awful having to go about the day without you here. I’m not saying I could never face doing something for a single day without you when we’re together. It’s just harder every single day without you because it’s been so long and I don’t know when I’ll see you again. You need to understand how hard that is for me. I know you’re tired of hearing it, and I’m tired of repeating it… but please take me home very soon. I can’t take this much longer. Nights are awful without you in my arms and mornings are like that small moment of peace I don’t know how to hold onto without you with me. Waking up for the day is a whole chore of its own without you to wake up to, without you with me. Take me home soon please. My heart can’t take this much longer.

Thank you Divine Spirit abd thank you Universe!

Thank you My Spirit guides🌹🌹🙏🙏🌹🌹

0:51 “I want to feel like I can protect and provide for you” 1:42 “In a few days, a few weeks at most, I promise we’ll be together”. Where are you Ryan?

Acha hai msg motivation ka game kheli rho agar faida milta hai to ok bye❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Thank you God. Amen

amen✨🕊️🙏🕊️✨ thank you Jesus✨🕊️🙏🕊️✨I love you.

Thank You 🙏🏼🌸

Lots of gratitude towards the kind words and advice through your messages 🫶😇u r like an angel in my life...xoxo🧡♥️🧡

Thank you

My Soulmate and stability

I claim it too

I claim it

I trust the timing of the Universe. Thank you Universe for always working in my favor.

Thank You♥️🙏🏻🙏🏻✨✨

I forgive you babe 😘

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amen ❤ thank you spirit guide ❤ and universe ❤️🙏❤️

Thank you universe 🌹

Thank you my future self for your love, support and guidance ❤❤❤❤

I love acting

That quote you are mine, would’ve comforted me a lot, I tried to look like I was moving on cuz I wanted to see ur jealousy. I wanted u to speak out. I was sad the month u left cuz I saw u had made friends one even reached out to bully me. Actually everytime u went to hang with someone else I cried inside I get a burning feeling of sterile pain in my body when you hang out with anyone else. I’m possessive, and I don’t want you near others, but the thing is I’m not gonna tell you who you can or can’t hang out with unless they’re dangerous or abusive. I wanna be in charge of u but I wanna respect you to. But yeah I was so sad so I tried mask Myself to as moving on, but no one will ever come close to me again. I thought truly no one loved me at the time, you may be surprised at how many people hate me and would laugh over my grave, over my tears, over public or private harassment

I need you beside me

Thank you it's so hard when l set someone up just to tell myself l was right again been threw hell l know life threw and threw l home into survival mode that's all l know dealing with this guy that's living here going to end up bad l had enough tramua l got nothing to lose l will take life into my own hands fear nothing at all and will show no remotes to the sort of people the world's better without them

Yes my matter is selflove and money Love is matter to me only 50 percent ... That's why my husbend tortured me to love 100 percent.....

Its been a while since I checked in your channel. Tonight this was spot on to read and so was the music. Just did a silent scream on the way home in an uber ride. In this moment, I am okay. Waking up tomorrow may not be okay as I move thru my day... thank you for the message. I will play it over and over in my mind between now and when this current life situation comes concludes. May I have the strength and endurance needed. May the physical harm be temporary without long term negative consequences

Thank you my spirit guides for your love, support and guidance ❤❤❤❤

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Thank you dear guides. ❤😊

Oh...

Always in faith..always in divine opportunity❤❤❤❤❤

Ryan you already know what matters most to me. My gifts from God matter the most to me: that’s you Ryan, you were meant to be a gift I could HOLD in my arms and we could rely on each other, and then, my voice and the connection of my mind and heart that allows me to create and understand. These are my 3 most precious gifts God has given me, plus my cat and my brother (the only other truly compassionate one in my family). I want my reunion with you, a permanent reunion. The life you and I are supposed to have together, loving each other and building a home and family, and creatively together. No more funny business. Just up front, honest reunion. I know what method acting is, seems irrelevant. I’m not an actress. Give me something to work with. I’m a hard worker if it’s worth it, but I’m tired of giving my energy and time and soul to things that don’t give back enough for me, or don’t feel meaningful enough. Stop looking down your nose at me and GIVE me something to work with, like you were given. It’s your turn to be the giver. I need something to work with if you want to see what I’m capable of with the right support. It’s not fair any other way, and you know it. God’s angels are protecting this message and our union 🪬 Alhamdullilah, Ameen 🙏

Why don’t YOU take a leap of faith and show up on my doorstep like I showed up on yours a few years ago? Grow 👏 a 👏 spine 👏 I’m not upset about the past!! I’m upset that you’re not holding me in your arms and including me in your life RIGHT NOW even though I’ve been asking for years!! I can’t wipe the slate clean for you if you won’t even touch me and hand over the slate!!

It’s 👏 not 👏 about 👏 our 👏 PAST. It’s about NOW. I’m upset that you’re not here right NOW! Show up if you want me to be happy!!! You absolute fool, what is so hard to understand about that???

Nothing happens if you don’t make it happen Ryan. Get a clean device and clean number, and give me a call. Show up to my door and knock with flowers in hand. Do something PRODUCTIVE about our relationship here. I’ve done all I can over the years, and I can’t do more if you don’t reciprocate and do something more real that I can see in front of me.

I literally *sent* you a flipfone in the mail in the stuffed yoda a few years ago. I tested it, it calls my number just fine. Why they heck didn’t you use it for the whole year I had minutes on it for you?

“This connection is no longer stagnant” *looks at wristwatch* ⌚️ Any day now right? 😐

I’ll keep praying… I feel motivated, I just don’t have the means or the support and it would help a lot to have you with me. There’s not much I can do here, that I haven’t already tried. You haven’t tried facing me and be honest to me, face to face. It would make all the difference, Ryan, if you’d only allow it. Life’s been slow whether I like it or not, and after 3 years of this I’m sick of it. … I’m not sure what to make of this, what you’re saying here. It’s a whole bunch of fluff and nothing. It doesn’t sound like bad advice, on the surface, but you’ve been giving me this for years and it feels like a flowery cop out. It doesn’t give me the answers I need and deserve.

Yes

Thank you My Universe 🌹🌹🙏🙏🌹🌹 Thank you My Spirit guidance🌹🌹🙏🙏🌹🌹

Xxtyxx you universe xx ❤️ Amen

Are you saying you acted toxic to me? I never knew…. To be fair I can be overly oblivious about things later that can seem obvious… but trust me I am super oblivious once my friend pulled the same prank 5 times a week for a entire year and I didn’t know. That still makes me laugh, I’ve never seen u as toxic. But to be fair every thing I know I learned on my own, my parents being hyper religious closed minded and not involved with me left me with not being taught what being toxic is. Meeting my friend I started to know more but by the age of like 8 I was completely oblivious to many things and yes I got hurt by not knowing, I mean I knew English and writing and basics, but other then that I never hung out with anyone else. The only reason I did was to alleviate the pain of feeling alone after you and her got busy, even though you wherent busy I’ve been very disconnected from this world and people to begin with I hate feeling like I don’t know things because of this

1 of course I want you, I’m not sure how much you want me, so to answer honestly and truthfully I’m not sure how to gauge my level of want to yours, but yes I want you a lot, but I’m very nervous of this in between state in general 2. Yes your lips are cute the way they poke out is adorable! And your orange hair is so different (I’m jealous and wish I had orange hair like yours) not that looks are everything but I do check you out occasionally. Your physical build is hot, but I wanna fatten you up with yummy foods Your freckles are cute to. And having light colored hair actually really looks good on you specially with leg hair, if your face hair was black it would be less preferable, but I love your facial hair because its orange I only like your hat because the next time I see you wear it ima take it away from you and secretly smell it in my room while you can’t look and probably sleep with it and it’ll be my trophy Also I noticed you grew ur hair. I asked you to do that and DAMN it looks hella fine on you. I saw it once irl but mostly in my dreams, I love the pony tale, next time you cut your hair give it to me so I can be happier 😜😜🤣🤣🤪😜 I can’t fully describe it but you are sexy to me, handsome to. But I don’t say sexy a lot heheh 3 I’m not sure what you mean are you good enough for me, your the most decent human being I have met other then my girl crush (I’m getting married to both of you) 4 I don’t see why you’d be a bad life partner, I think we’re very similar and you don’t give me the ick, many people give me the ick Not you though your what I have wanted in a male partner since I have been maybe 5? You are like the love stories I read in fairy tales, accept we live in a world so far I find boring and opaque Truth be told I’ve felt hurt but every-time something would happen I immediately forgave you the moment you did anything triggering. I tried to tell you this before but sometimes maybe you don’t hear my words? Anger isn’t a typical feeling I feel with you

Please do not think everything is all your fault. I wish you knew I was never even open in the first place, never really spoke my truths to you, I put on an act before I met you. I never even opened up to my best friend of 14 years to be as open and honest as I wanted to be. I always have hid my emotions before I was 7 I have in fact been very secretive, not on anything bad. But just in general, in my family being open would leave weak spots in my personal life, being open about anything would make me a target. It seems like you blame yourself to much. Sure you think you have been harsh. But it’s the people who have purposely bullied me behind closed doors away from people who would protect me on why I’m silent. I am craving opening up to you…. This really hurts. But my pain rarely ever comes from you, others are to blame. Including myself.. do you understand?

You’re a cutie.. Of course I’m open to speaking, I just need to know you love me like maybe you communicating something like I love you Because if I hear something remotely painful come from you my heart will recoil in on itself so hard, everyone already pushes me again is such strange and unfair ways, and you’ve had a act on where you pushed me away, I just don’t wanna have harsh words sent to me, sometimes I may doubt you love me… I mean I love you a whole lot and I can sense you and dream about you and it’s all love but I still doubt in my heart and it’s very painful, sometimes I think did you text me!? And I’m afraid you sent a message that would be judging me or saying something harsh But I understand the misuse of words on accident I know the darkness can make things go wrong inward and outward. Please do not think I’m actually wanting to distance myself from you, It’s not that, just draw me in closer, I deal with panic attacks and at worst fainting, please be gentle with my heart Sidenote I’m like a deer I don’t attack .. I either run or freeze.. or faint

Everytime I get the thought of us talking I become scared for some reason, but I promise you I’ve been thinking of you obsessively all day 🩷

Thank you my angels and god 🙏🏻 ❤️ I claim

Yessssssss amen

Thank you Jesus Amen ❤❤

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