I read this when I was 16, always felt like it changed the course of my life. I always thought a modernized movie adaption could be amazing, if done right. The exposure to Gnosticism really opened my eyes to how diverse and someties dark our most sacred beliefs can be, almost like my discoveries were mirroring the protagonist of the story. By 17 I was trying to read Nietzsche and listening to Marilyn Manson, lol. But it really did spark an awakening. Man, I wish I could feel even half as alive as I did back then...

Good video, grew up with the same crap. Nicely articulated.

Thanks for the tips! Very helpful to keep in mind!

Thanks, it really helped. I am made the head of the school magazine editorial board. It really contributed to the process.

Thank you for talking about it! I hate gay fetishization , so it‘s really refreshing seeing someone talking for us :D

part 2?

I have a book that is punlished but I'm not getting a dime that is a poem book I would like to look into this matter do you have advice

Well you guys claim to be inclusive right???

Well, I just wrote something about this topic yesterday. Inspired by a FB ad. What d'ya think -- did I make any of the 14 glaring mistakes? "LEARN TO WRITE POETRY” $5/month (billed annually) Learn to write poetry. Learn to make your heart beat. Recall how to name the sunrise in Portuguese, a language you have never heard or seen. Define the color of spring without using the word 'green' Cruelty. I'm sorry it is one of the lessons. Will you give or receive it? Decide. Cry in the shower. Dig a hole and fill it with joy. Map the city of your heart. Map it on my heart.

I'm not new but love you anyways

Glad to see you're doing better!

Kaye, It sounds you are doing well in taking care of yourself! You have everything going for you to make a wonderful life for you and your son. I look forward to seeing all your wonderful successes and your journey.

Hi Kaye, I’d love to be a part of each other’s communities. I’ll have to take a look at your last video. I’m currently separated. Thank you for sharing your insights on propaganda. I’m from Canada, just a fun fact 😅 Definitely not a Trump supporter, I have no idea how people can support him 🤷‍♀️ Nice to meet you. Can’t wait to get to know you. I did watch your last video, I will be back to watch more videos.

Glad to see you as I was thinking about you last night and almost left a message on your previous video but know your going through a very rough time so wanted to give you your space… Merry CHRISTmas to you and your cutiepie! I’m a Christian conservative so yes I’m a Big President Trump supporter and obviously so are many others, after all he WON! but that’s ok that your not, I’m not following you for politics! I saw your divorce video and was 😱and heartbroken that a guy could act in such a way, so my prayers are with you! 🙏🏻🤗

I get the feeling this is a blessing in disguise for you. Stay strong during this difficult season.

I came here for the poetry tips but ma’am you will shine without him I promise you.

🤷‍♀️Wait please, I don't understand something-- Previous video you said your husband was actually building a crib during your pregnancy. I assume he CHOSE to build a crib, an "extra" endeavor that indicates enthusiasm about the baby. Yet after THAT, NOW your husband wants to be TOTALLY un-involved in his son's life? He's not willing to co-parent (with the divorce)?? I suggest you tell him that since he had time to build a crib, he can NOW carve out time to see a therapist (1st research to find a GOOD, EFFECTIVE therapist) to figure out how to become "ready" to be a dad to his son. If your husband has some belief that he's not ready/cut out to be some idealized/unrealistic version of what a dad "should" be, then a good therapist (AND you his wife?) could help him adjust his expectations (of himself as a "should be" dad) into realistic and do-able self-expectations of being a dad that he COULD live with. Your son needs to know his actual dad, who's flawed but trying his best-- not some perfect/idealized dad (which doesn't exist for any family, anyway). KZbin has many adult content creators who describe feeling incomplete due to having NO relationship with their biological dad: SOME kind of relationship with one's biological dad is almost always better than NO relationsip. I agree with commenters here who advise you to pursue child support from your husband, regardless-- If he decides to permanently leave you, his consequence is that he must step up to his financial responsibility of child support (which might cost him more money than if he'd stay & just be the best dad he's capable of being). Sincere Best Wishes & Prayers🙏🙏for you, your son and your husband.

♥️ love the idea of you writing a children’s book to help communicate some of what’s happening right now. Could be cathartic too!

𝓘'𝓶 𝓼𝓸𝓻𝓻𝔂.

Live near your family, that support system will be invaluable. My daughter just went through this with 3 small children and lives a thousand miles away but can’t leave because of ex. I truly wish he had just left their lives with his new girlfriend and my daughter and grandchildren could be near her family.

Watched to the end x

Brilliant video xxx

You and your son have so much joy and contentment together, being a parent is sooooo worthwhile xxx This is the first video of yours that I have seen, watched to the end x

You and your son have so much joy and contentment together, being a parent is sooooo worthwhile xxx This is the first video of yours that I have seen, watched to the end x

I hope things workout I will watch all your videos hope it helps just remember things usually work out for the best it’s hard now but it will get easier and you have a beautiful baby to pour all your love into

The worst thing about my divorce was losing my dog. Other than that, I love being single again. You will be OK.

How incredibly selfish and thoughtless he is. He probably is jealous of the baby and the time it takes away from him. You will be fine. You don't need 2 babies right now.

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I think it's a great idea to write some childrens books. It'll be good for you and good for your baby.

Did you ever read Siddhartha? The concept is very similar but the storyline is a little more developed, if you like Demian you would enjoy it

Thank you very much

I’m sorry to hear what you’re going through. Divorce is not fun! I love hearing babies talk. I hear you, watch time is the hardest part of KZbin. I’m separated after 29 years of marriage. Financially I can only help by watching your videos to the end. Not on mute, just low volume. ❤❤ That’s a good idea with the children’s book to help him understand. I’m here for you. Hopefully we can be friends ❤

Most men never grow up. Don’t want to take responsibility for anything. They just want a mommy they can sleep with. It’s not your fault. Better off without him. Stay strong n God bless

My kid is 15 and it goes so fast. A dad being that selfish for such a short piece of life is tragic. Karma will get him.

I love you and im so sorry , youre my best friend and thats my adorable nephew. Remember youre so strong.

This is the first introduction to you and I'm glad I landed here. Not sure what the references were to the election, but really appreciated your sharing of what you have garnered from therapy thus far. Such a good choice to have gotten right into therapy. Trust in yourself. Love your baby. Though others may need to hate on your husband for his behavior, you don' t have to. You can, of course, but it's okay to love him as you leave him. Your child shares half his genes. Too bad he's not ready for parenting. You're going to be a wonderful mom! (Ordered your books and look forward to spending time with them and giving as gifts.)

P.S. Kaye, you need to be encouraged that there are many, many new friends out there who have you in prayer and will be praying for you and supporting you every step of the way - - so many friends you never realized you had. Lean on your family, lean on your friends, lean on God. You will get though this and be a better, stronger person for the journey.

God bless you, Kaye. Please be encouraged that all this trauma will eventually work for your advantage and you are being blessed for doing the right thing and enduring what is absolutely outside your control. Take courage, God has this.... He will not let you fall, He does have a plan for your life--- far beyond what you can ever imagine! Get close to God, stay there, pray a lot, and wait for God to do what He does best - - love and take care of His own. You absolutely will be better than OK, please trust God to take care of you as you travel along a painful, unknown path. You are on a journey of magnanimous proportion. Trust, there is a grand life ahead for you and your son. Keep a journal, you will be able to look back and see where your were being carried when you haven't the energy or direction, have no discernment of how, where, or when this situation will be resolved. Unfortunately, you will have to feel the pain for a while. There will be tears, but you will heal and not only heal, but eventually find true happiness. Hold on, keep the faith... God loves you and know there are prayers going up on the behalf of you and your son. Take comfort in knowing there indeed is a merciful, gracious, kind power watching over you.

Don’t care if you’re getting divorced I raised my daughter myself 😂

You are going to be fine. You are a strong lady. If he doesn’t want to be a dad, make sure he at least supports you financially. Don’t waver in that.

I'm sorry divorce is a bad thing I've been through it Raised 2 on my own while working a full-time job Just remember the world will turn and you will get through this 🙏 for you

A man that can walk away from his son is not worth having! Consider yourself lucky💜💜💜💜💜

Your latest post came on my feed today. Divorce can be painful. Even if I was the one who wanted it. I'll be praying for you.

First let me say I'm so sorry this is happening to you! My heart goes out to you! As a divorced father of two great sons I will never understand any man who abandons his wife and child! I can't think of a more selfish cruel act! He will never know the love and joy children bring into your life. Like others have said, it's better that your baby is young and won't form an attachment to this loser of a man-child. You will get through this no matter how much you're scared and hurting. Lean on family and friends for support. Also whether he likes it or not he's financially responsible for supporting your child so don't let him off the hook in that regard! I'll pray that God watches over you and your baby and uplifts and strengthens you and comforts you during this difficult time! Hugs!

When he said he does not want kids you should of turn 180° and run !

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Kaye, you mentioned a poetry book? Can you tell us a little bit more about it and how to purchase it. You are a sweet thing and now a new mother…have faith in yourself, your worth and your future…love and hugs.

There's someone else out there who will love you. One day this will be over and your life will be wonderful and filled with mommy memories 😊 As you go thru this, you will learn and you will grow. For now, just embrace the suck.

Girl. Get off social media until your divorce is over. Do not provide ammunition that your spouse might use against you. 1-INTERVIEW atty's. Don't settle. Get a really strong one that will help you and your child long term. 2-Create a plan and a plan B.

Stay strong. Being a mother is the best thing in life

And a question… this didn’t happen overnight… you had to have had some inkling that he was not fully committed?