I Am Not The Man (poem version)
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Beyond Kilimanjaro film
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UC/IBD/HOPE (Hold On Pain Ends)
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I'm Goin' Home
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Brake The System subtitled
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Final thoughts
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PLEASE STOP STEALING MY IDENTITY
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#bekindtoyourmind
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My self-care routine
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@soapoperavideos
@soapoperavideos 4 сағат бұрын
Came across this video by accident. However this resonates with me as I am a facial blusher. It doesn't help that when I exercise or am in hot weather my face is super hot. But somehow, as of late, I have stopped blushing as much and I am not sure why. I still get the neck flush from time to time but I tell myself its ok! There are others out there just like us. :)
@charlesgoodson5774
@charlesgoodson5774 5 күн бұрын
Bro is handsome.
@1carlportl
@1carlportl 6 күн бұрын
looked for you - wishing you all the best
@fomoran
@fomoran 7 күн бұрын
For whatever resson my youtube watch algorthm kerps churning up old vids of yours... i take it as a reminder that your iutput will be there for those who would do with a voice calling from where *they* are rather than those of people who don'tvunderstand and want them to somehow "snap out of it" (yeah i know hlw idiotic that sounds...but ive heard it expressed) Yeah chances of you ever seeing this are astronomical... but im kinda also rslking psst you to the future watchers and comment readers Stay strong and try and stay true to yourself throughout your journey/struggle with mental health. There are prople who empathise and get where you are coming from. You ard nkt alone in this. Do tryband seek out dome help And try not to get too discouraged by setbacks.
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 5 күн бұрын
Ahh thank you for your comment. I really appreciate it. Your kindness means more to me than you know right now :)))
@crawford.farm.1119
@crawford.farm.1119 13 күн бұрын
Thanks for making the video! You are a great person! Sending you lots of love!
@FriendofDorothy
@FriendofDorothy 21 күн бұрын
Please examine your relationship with SHAME, possibly with a gay therapist or counselor. I have the feeling you were taught a crock about gays and gay sex and have bought into it. Many of your facial expressions and body language suggest embarrassment and shame related to sex. It is perhaps healthy to express your feelings on YT as a way to cope but I think your issue goes deeper. Hook-up sex is not a performance, it is an exchange of human contact and pleasure and is an activity to be experienced with responsibility on the part of both participants. Consider meeting men in real life through activities or hobbies (hiking? animal care? gay sports? book clubs?) and stop looking for love in the halls of illusion that are marketed as "dating sites" but are really just hook-up sites. Everyone becomes a sex object on those sites and they know it. Most gay men want to be sexual conquerors because they were taught to be so as boys; then the reality sets in and they find out there's little or no emotional nutrition in such Pavlovian behavior. Best of luck dear man; seek and you will find your answers.
@JillySquirrelcuba
@JillySquirrelcuba 23 күн бұрын
I am also struggling with blushing and low Self esteem i had this for 5 years and it Makes Life a living hell people dont understand how frustrating it is to always blush or blush harder i think i have chronic blushing now since i dont remember a day that i didn’t. Not blush it gave me anxiety from people and socializing so much i also have no Friends and Never had a girlfriend i hate when people laugh at me or are staring at me just off the fact that i am blushing i wish i one day can be the Social Person i was years back at the end off the day i am aware people dont really care and mind their OWN business it is a Battle inside the Head of negativity and low Self esteem which i carry i just want to be a HUMAN and Not be ashamed just because of my existence… ❤
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 5 күн бұрын
I’m so sorry. I really do hear you. It’s extremely tough. You are not alone my friend
@tbl5138
@tbl5138 24 күн бұрын
Maybe autism?
@ochinski3568
@ochinski3568 Ай бұрын
You have such a nice sounding voice. You are great. 😘
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 5 күн бұрын
Ahh thank you!
@MoonChicken1
@MoonChicken1 Ай бұрын
Mate. first of all youre half way there having the courage to make this video. Instead of getting caught up in the rabbit hole of thoughts and going through that whirl wind, you just have to put it out there...the more you fight it the stronger it will be. The only way to beat it is stop fighting it. Tell people what it is, Erythrophobia, you're struggling with it. You hate it. It ruins lives and ends lives. People will take it as they will depending on the kind of oerson they are. But.....i can tell you.....almost 100%, give it time, you will realize one day that you havent thought of blushing in ages!!!!!!! Whats the cause of it? I dont know but suspect youre a very sensitive lovely human and there is a great value there. I see the pain in you and wish you the best. Yes i have gone through this. Yes it has ....changed my life. But im still here. It will happen every once in a while but i barely ever even think about it now. Thinking back to horrible it was....yeah.....its torture.
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 5 күн бұрын
Ahh thank you for taking the time to write such an empowering message. It really means a lot to me :)))
@kev60154
@kev60154 Ай бұрын
❤❤❤❤wow
@127baltic
@127baltic Ай бұрын
Must have mega magnesium and not think about anything before. Wait until other part of brain tells you something. Had this problem.....statins then became hell. Not so bad these days but nought perfect. Ciao
@iBenjaminTM
@iBenjaminTM Ай бұрын
Neville Goddard (Feeling is the secret) and Joe Dispenza (You are the placebo)- check them out. 🙋🏻‍♂️
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 5 күн бұрын
Thanks I will have a look!
@EdwardKnight-ll5ze
@EdwardKnight-ll5ze Ай бұрын
Bro they been playing in my head for a few months now like silent black white films from the early 1900s! Hahaha
@joyceadegboyega8524
@joyceadegboyega8524 Ай бұрын
Your not alone I am at the same stage Joyce Adegboyega
@jarjarBANKZ
@jarjarBANKZ Ай бұрын
Hey Johnny I think about this video often. I hope you’re well
@niloyninad5351
@niloyninad5351 Ай бұрын
❤🧡
@user-hv4zg5zp8s
@user-hv4zg5zp8s Ай бұрын
I am brown but my face can still go so red, once, I was playing basketball when I lost a round and started turning red because I was embarrassed in front of my friends. Then the opponent came up to me and was like "Yo, your face is as red as a...tomato! Your blushing so much, look at your fucking red ass ears, steam is gonna blow out!" and another guy said, "Ya, are you like outraged cuz you lost or are you sunburned?" Then my friends approached me almost scared and said, "WOAH, your face is like...red red....I mean red!!" All this started making me a little angry because I already have slight anger issues and it was a hot day, I was just not in the mood, so I got so angry and bursted, driving me even redder than I was! I was shirtless and somehow my chest started turning red and so did my stomach, making me look sunburned. One guy approached me and said "The sunburn seems to be making you quite mad, but you're brown-skinned...I didn't know you guys could turn redder than me! I was just pure annoyed that people were focusing on my red face, like can't they leave me alone, they know my anger issues and have seen me blush before! I was red for a while before it started fading off. But the thought of that moment made my face go red again, at the most random times. Now every time I exercise, I go very red making people stare and question me. No one in my family has this blushing red face thing that I have, everyone thinks its cute saying I have rosy cheeks, but it is not as simple as rosy cheeks, my whole body will go dark red and burn. Some people point out that my red face just makes me angry, and for some reason, I get super red when I get angry! And I have quite large ears, and my ears go red too! Like what the actual hell!? Once I was at a waterpark, and everyone wanted me to go shirtless so I could show my "muscles'', and I was like "Uhmm no, you have seen how red my chest goes, if my face goes red, I'm going to look sunburned again! And we were in an indoor waterpark so that made it more awkward. One kid said, "You sure tomatoes can go down such a slide?!" My anger was so bad I felt like fighting but I controlled it, just making me more red. Honestly having a red face is just torture. If there was a blushing society I would immediately become president.
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 5 күн бұрын
Thanks for your comment. People don’t realise that their words/actions can truly impact another person. I wish they would be kinder and more considerate. You’re not on your own with both blushing AND the way people respond. I would recommend the book Red Face. It should be on Amazon. It really helped me and I think it might help you too
@LOVEALLLOVEALLLOVEALL
@LOVEALLLOVEALLLOVEALL 2 ай бұрын
🤍👑🤍JESUS IS KING🤍👑🤍
@sneakerfreak2002
@sneakerfreak2002 2 ай бұрын
It sounds like you are “Demi sexual “. That’s how I describe myself. I was hanging on your every word and I completely understand ❤❤❤
@fomoran
@fomoran 2 ай бұрын
Mate, you build muscle by doing stuff, your arms have and maintain enough muscle for you daily and regular needs nonwasted effort no wasted time in the gym developing RSI from reps hehe. You bod is beautiful, especially all your lovely dark hair. You cannshare the sixpack of drink with the guy who likes idly running his fingers through your belly and chest hair while you watch TV on the sofa... You'll find your hugging appreciative dude buddy. If I'm appreciating the he'll outnof the wonder of a man that is you... then there must be a multitude the same way, and a few who will come into your orbit. Stay cute...for you, it's effortless hehe
@fomoran
@fomoran 2 ай бұрын
Returning to some of these vids is bittersweet Such affecting verse and impactful chats... But we know that you are innsuch turmoil when you sometime turn to your arty outlets over your engaging vlogs and informative vids. Chances are you'll never see this... i had to say thankyou All the same
@craiglatta6378
@craiglatta6378 2 ай бұрын
Howdy 👋 Are you familiar with metabolic therapy I would suggest to look up dr Christopher Palmer Hope it helps 👍
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 5 күн бұрын
Ok I’ll have a look. Cheers
@rafeaalsudai3284
@rafeaalsudai3284 2 ай бұрын
The treatment that was useful to me was reading the Holy Quran
@learnmore2286
@learnmore2286 2 ай бұрын
which medicine do you take for UC / crohns
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 2 ай бұрын
I take mesalazine (salofalk) prolonged release granules. The granules help me more than the pill form i think.
@jonxchristopher
@jonxchristopher 2 ай бұрын
i can’t thank you enough for making this.
@trapdoorfloyd
@trapdoorfloyd 2 ай бұрын
I suffer from delusions of normal. Yeah I thought that if I could find a way to make a lot of money I could change my life for the better. Well I did find that way and after that nothing changed for me. All I wanted was to have a nice girlfriend and some loyal friends that's all I wanted. I instead somehow got the shaft instead. It's straight out of the twilight zone for me. This world sucks the big one.
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 2 ай бұрын
I'm sorry. I really hear you. Truly. This world is deeply inhumane. I'm trying to find my own path/way out of the "norm". I don't fit in with society as it is and i've finally come to accept it which help[s a bit!
@MrBAILIES
@MrBAILIES 2 ай бұрын
I used to have this issue, olanzapine has really helped me clear my mind and think about things that I want to think about
@PaulGoode-xb6eu
@PaulGoode-xb6eu 2 ай бұрын
I first found your channel ten years ago and u saved my life so many thanks and I owe u a lot
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 2 ай бұрын
Wow i hope you are doing ok at the moment my friend :)
@fisherqueen8260
@fisherqueen8260 2 ай бұрын
Believe there is a way forward, your in the eye of the storm and it will get better. It’s amazing you are facing this many can’t, be your captain of your ship, show up for yourself like a good best friend and nurturing mother List ERN to your gut it’s guiding you well, safe journey my fellow human Janicex
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 2 ай бұрын
Thank you for you words. They really help me :)))
@rafeaalsudai3284
@rafeaalsudai3284 3 ай бұрын
Well guys, if you hate redness you will find it, What I mean to say is that you must accept it and love it 🤷‍♂️
@EricAdshead
@EricAdshead 3 ай бұрын
I'm watching this seven years later and I understand you. I sort of feel the same way about meaningless sex and I can't tell you how long it's been since I've been with another guy. And I'm told I'm good looking and blah, blah, blah, but one nighters, especially at my age do nothing for me. You are beautiful inside and out and I pray you will find someone who will love and cherish you as you are. In fact, I know you will. Be blessed. From NYC. ❤❤
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 2 ай бұрын
Ah same right back at you. Stay strong!
@rablow1280
@rablow1280 3 ай бұрын
Johnny Ive watched a few of your videos and you have helped me so much . I to have schizoaffective disorder and I can relate to your social anxiety I withdraw badly and I hadn’t left the house in 4 years. I hope you get start to feel better I wish you all the best .
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 2 ай бұрын
I'm sorry to read this. It's so tough. You're not on your own. Even though it may feel like it at times. Sending a big hug
@SN-XZ
@SN-XZ 3 ай бұрын
I found one of your videos saying you were coming off the medication just now. I noticed it was 8 years ago. Then I looked into your channel and wanted to know how you are doing now. Then I watched this latest video. I roughly knew your story. You may not see this comment. I still want to tell you: your mental health is always the most important thing to you. Take good care of yourself!
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 2 ай бұрын
Thank you for this :)
@Chris-iq7gy
@Chris-iq7gy 3 ай бұрын
You need to be admitted to to a hospital to start clozapine your full of shit
@Pianda
@Pianda 3 ай бұрын
Better don't give advice...look at things as they are resp. went...
@chrisbenj3819
@chrisbenj3819 4 ай бұрын
Bro you got this I swear you do you have to believe it
@momopo5289
@momopo5289 4 ай бұрын
I got fired for blushing im sure , My boss and his dad both doctors started asking me personal questions like my hobbies or interests and i felt my face turning redder and redder i could tell he could tell 😂 a day later i was let go lol
@happyfeliz6564
@happyfeliz6564 3 ай бұрын
What really
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 2 ай бұрын
I'm sorry. It's so tough. No-one gets it
@enricobolzanino1781
@enricobolzanino1781 4 ай бұрын
I'm an Italian Man. And You are a very Handsome and Sexy Guy. I want YOU for Love. I like too much hairy men. And You are a very sensitive Boy. And i like it. Kisses from Vicenza, Italy, 70km from Venice, the Town of the Love.
@JDoe001
@JDoe001 4 ай бұрын
I can’t take that kind of medicine that you’re talking about the beginning. People rave about it being the greatest, but I have only personally seen not good from it. Perhaps it is the same for you too maybe? From what I’ve seen, it would be better they didn’t make that medicine. Just talk with your doctor about it. Maybe? This video is radically different than the one I saw of you, that the other KZbinr used.
@JDoe001
@JDoe001 4 ай бұрын
✌🏻☮️✌🏻
@JDoe001
@JDoe001 4 ай бұрын
I am worried about you. Are you OK?
@JDoe001
@JDoe001 4 ай бұрын
Gee wiz! I just discovered you through another KZbinr just a few minutes ago. Don’t worry about the trolls I mean, there’s more people that aren’t like that then they are… that sentence for a better since before I said it, I’m using my microphone. Anyway, I hope you get this and Happy Birthday. You seem terrific Shine on! 🎉👋🏻🤍
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 2 ай бұрын
Ah thank you so much!
@lillytalks7084
@lillytalks7084 4 ай бұрын
Hey are u still here? I am a female I have the same problem… I blush around ppl who are more confident than me… I have social anxiety because of my appearance and this reason…… I think I do this around everyone especially good looking ppl and people who are more stern or confident.. regardless of age… I feel embarrassed about this, and ppl just think I have crush on them sometimes in school they used to mock me and it makes me feel crushed and humiliated.. now in my job, after 3 years of quitting jobs after few weeks I remained in a job that needs no interview… for 8 months, I still have a long way to go here cuz of Covid I get to wear face mask and hide my blushing face… and I’m not attractive so it’s giving me anxiety…
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 2 ай бұрын
I'm sorry. It's so hard. I really hear you. Please know your not alone. Even tho it might feel like it at times. Stay strong!
@maggiewright7843
@maggiewright7843 4 ай бұрын
I spoke to you many years ago about starting Families in Trauma and Recovery and was inspired by what you do for others, and still am. 🙏 I work with Dr Daniel Fisher from Massachusetts MD Phd, who developed eCPR (emotional CPR ) and set up the National Empowerment Centre , and i believe you would find his story helpful as he also came through major psychotic episodes . Your desires for humanity resonate with so many of us - including Dr Fisher and would love to connect you with him as i feel he would also be helpful to you given his own recovery journey from schizophrenia. PM if you would like that. (But know that you may need this space at present - and totally respect that. ). Best wishes for wherever your journey takes you. Maggie. 🙏👍
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 2 ай бұрын
Ah thank you Maggie i would love to speak with him :))))
@frizzyred1292
@frizzyred1292 5 ай бұрын
You have a tan which helps. Im pale with red cheeks so i blush terrible and it stands out way more. But I know exactly how you feel.
@nedakiadaliri
@nedakiadaliri 5 ай бұрын
Hey I hope you're taking care 😊 fuck the trolls. They'll always be there unfortunately
@ashleyt6021
@ashleyt6021 5 ай бұрын
Dude, I’m legit in the Truman show…..
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 2 ай бұрын
I hear you. I really do. Have you spoken to anyone about it. I talk to my therapist about it and it helps so much
@JourneyWithHavi
@JourneyWithHavi 5 ай бұрын
I admire you so much for your courage and honesty. Just know you have made an impact on me.
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 2 ай бұрын
Big hugs friend
@HarrisonLars-Hansen
@HarrisonLars-Hansen 5 ай бұрын
The more I think about it the more it happens, thank you for sharing. The same facial flushing happens to me when I am anxious, nervous, etc.
@mrjonnybenjamin
@mrjonnybenjamin 2 ай бұрын
I get it. Truly. It's not fun at all :(