If you can't, it's probably because you need an actual emotional connection rather than a come dump.

Clozapine is dangerous & I'm glad you are still alive. Thankyou for your testimony. Clozapine has been linked to 100s of deaths & you are NOT a coward.

Very dangerous drug. That's the one they take blood for. You aren't a coward, you are right. People who take it for a long time end up like zombies. GOD saved you...

Thank you so much for sharing.

So in conclusion is ok to do what we like and whatever makes us feel comfortable. Hugs

You’re such a pure and beautiful soul Johnny. Thank you for sharing your heart - 💓🙏🏻

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im 16 and suffer with this, didnt know anyone else would ever understand this struggle. From my short years of experience of having this, the only thing you can do is embrace it. Theres people dying in hospital beds that would do anything to be healthy. Be thankful your alive find god and embrace being yourself

This video makes me so sad, i see your suffering and people can be so cruel. Remember you are an inspiration for many out there, you are not your thoughts and you are not your disease. I hope your feel better soon, i know it takes time but you will get there, im sending you love and strength ❤❤❤❤❤

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Jonny we knew you were gay when you were at school (QHS), it didn’t and doesn’t matter, you are an absolute star, I am extremely proud of you for being who you are!!

I went to school with Jonny, lovely chap

how did your parents react?

I'd spoon with you, bro! Also: you voice sounds exactly like George Michael.

Just came across your channel. I think you're amazing. Never apologise for being you. Wishing you good heath and happiness.

Hey I’m like 5 yrs late but my wild algorithm led me here. I’ve met some people with delusional beliefs but it seemed no matter how evident the truth was, it was impossible to get through to them. The fact that you’ve come to this much realization is honestly beyond impressive. I wish you all the best

Rocking is a self comforting behaviour, so don't worry about it. (If you come back and visit your 8 year old post and see this😊)

Sounds like you might be ‘A’ Sexual. As you are 100% happy with just a hug. Just do what makes you comfortable, or makes you feel safe and happy. Life is to be enjoyed, so don’t hold back. All the best from Melbourne Australia

Hi Jonny, I'm not sure if you check KZbin comments but I wanted to affirm how inspiring you have always been. Your journey towards healing and peace motivates all of us, and renember you will find peace because you are peace! Take care

You’re a lovely person❤ I hope and pray that you are well

I’m bawling and blushing and feel your pain

Your salvation can be effected if you avoid sin and follow the teachings of Christ, it's a new way to live with grace.

Johnny man how do I get in touch with you brother x I want to give the biggest hug mate ❤

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ABSOLUTE MIRROR And I also feel like a big part of this is reminding yourself that there's a difference between making a difference, and the FEELING and spotlight of seeming like you are making.. key buzzword? validation! We must learn to validate ourselves and know that the work we does matters whether or not society sees it, deems it valuable, whorships it or demonizes it.. Telling ourselves every day that the work we does matters whether or not others agree is our battle. Alienation (ie not seeing how the fruits of your labor help others) can also be a large barrier and is why corporate jobs can be so soul crushing

Johnny I have followed you for years, ever since the incident of the man finding you on the bridge. My son suffers from a similar illness as you do. I just wanted to ask if you have considered listening to Dr Chris Palmer on the ketogenic diet as a cure to many diverse mental illnesses? I can’t get my son to follow this diet yet but I am definitely going to persevere! It seems to be something that is working for many, many people. We love you Johnny! Don’t take any notice of the trolls! They are everywhere and it is nothing to do with you. You are amazing! Please look at the information on the ketogenic diet and Dr Christopher Palmer! You won’t regret it! Hold on in there Johnny! Best wishes to you from all of my family xxx

I am a 26 year old closeted trans guy from India..I have been sexually abused by my brother when I was young..I deal with multiple psychological issues like depression , extreme social anxiety, loneliness and OCD.. 6 years in medschool made me even more depressed and lonely..I do not even have a single person to talk to..Its been months since I even interacted with a human being..I feel suicidal these days

This was just recommended on my feed. Thank you so much for this as it is one reason it took me until my 30s to come out and I still have not slept with a guy and dreaded coming out due to fear of being mistreated, which quite possibly has affected my libido, especially when meeting guys in person. I feel like I might be considered "demisexual" as needing more of an emotional connection to have sex, but I'm potentially meeting a guy tomorrow who is 21 years older than me (I'm 38 now) after trying on other apps like Grindr, Tinder, Hinge, Bumble. So we'll see how that goes, but it's nice to hear someone such as yourself speak so candidly about how they feel regarding sex and it feels completely relatable. Thank you again! 💗

You really inspired me and helped me through things thank you so much❤

Wim Hof breathing helps me tremendously, give it a try

When you recorded this video and people in the comments were in the same situation as you, i was 9 years old and living my happy life, could not imagine i would feel better after reading these comments. I am glad that i am not alone. My anxiety came probably when i was 10 after changing a school (horrible classmates), but i should have been happy, at least i was not blushing. Now i am a university student and blush everyday, yes, even with my parents. "university life is so cool" not for me, cause i have to run and run from people

Hey brother I just found your channel today. I immediately appreciate the work you've put in helping others. I think youre really cool for doing this and I appreciate the cadence of your speech. You come off as very genuine and thoughtful. I hope things are going well for you as you explore a different way of living. ☮️

Came across this video by accident. However this resonates with me as I am a facial blusher. It doesn't help that when I exercise or am in hot weather my face is super hot. But somehow, as of late, I have stopped blushing as much and I am not sure why. I still get the neck flush from time to time but I tell myself its ok! There are others out there just like us. :)

Bro is handsome.

looked for you - wishing you all the best

For whatever resson my youtube watch algorthm kerps churning up old vids of yours... i take it as a reminder that your iutput will be there for those who would do with a voice calling from where *they* are rather than those of people who don'tvunderstand and want them to somehow "snap out of it" (yeah i know hlw idiotic that sounds...but ive heard it expressed) Yeah chances of you ever seeing this are astronomical... but im kinda also rslking psst you to the future watchers and comment readers Stay strong and try and stay true to yourself throughout your journey/struggle with mental health. There are prople who empathise and get where you are coming from. You ard nkt alone in this. Do tryband seek out dome help And try not to get too discouraged by setbacks.

Thanks for making the video! You are a great person! Sending you lots of love!

Please examine your relationship with SHAME, possibly with a gay therapist or counselor. I have the feeling you were taught a crock about gays and gay sex and have bought into it. Many of your facial expressions and body language suggest embarrassment and shame related to sex. It is perhaps healthy to express your feelings on YT as a way to cope but I think your issue goes deeper. Hook-up sex is not a performance, it is an exchange of human contact and pleasure and is an activity to be experienced with responsibility on the part of both participants. Consider meeting men in real life through activities or hobbies (hiking? animal care? gay sports? book clubs?) and stop looking for love in the halls of illusion that are marketed as "dating sites" but are really just hook-up sites. Everyone becomes a sex object on those sites and they know it. Most gay men want to be sexual conquerors because they were taught to be so as boys; then the reality sets in and they find out there's little or no emotional nutrition in such Pavlovian behavior. Best of luck dear man; seek and you will find your answers.

I am also struggling with blushing and low Self esteem i had this for 5 years and it Makes Life a living hell people dont understand how frustrating it is to always blush or blush harder i think i have chronic blushing now since i dont remember a day that i didn’t. Not blush it gave me anxiety from people and socializing so much i also have no Friends and Never had a girlfriend i hate when people laugh at me or are staring at me just off the fact that i am blushing i wish i one day can be the Social Person i was years back at the end off the day i am aware people dont really care and mind their OWN business it is a Battle inside the Head of negativity and low Self esteem which i carry i just want to be a HUMAN and Not be ashamed just because of my existence… ❤

Maybe autism?

You have such a nice sounding voice. You are great. 😘

Mate. first of all youre half way there having the courage to make this video. Instead of getting caught up in the rabbit hole of thoughts and going through that whirl wind, you just have to put it out there...the more you fight it the stronger it will be. The only way to beat it is stop fighting it. Tell people what it is, Erythrophobia, you're struggling with it. You hate it. It ruins lives and ends lives. People will take it as they will depending on the kind of oerson they are. But.....i can tell you.....almost 100%, give it time, you will realize one day that you havent thought of blushing in ages!!!!!!! Whats the cause of it? I dont know but suspect youre a very sensitive lovely human and there is a great value there. I see the pain in you and wish you the best. Yes i have gone through this. Yes it has ....changed my life. But im still here. It will happen every once in a while but i barely ever even think about it now. Thinking back to horrible it was....yeah.....its torture.

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