Oink Oink.. I remember someone would say.. WHY if you know.. what if it never happens.. what if YOU never come around and I am just dreaming of a Vision.. only thinking that it be true when It is NOT.. a friend would tell me.. that it can be a fictional Tale.. that It is NOT true.. that what If.. and I would be looking at the friend and I would say.. I refuse to hear the words if YOU are against Me.. but I know that the friend can be right.. sometimes I do wonder.. if this is ALL fictional tale.. and I asked the Friend.. did YOU ever fell in Love before.. the friend looks at me and tells me that he did.. of course the friend does Not know what it means to write YOU a Letters.. to tell you a story of How much I love YOU.. does Not know what it means to be creative with Your Art and to master the Art by loving YOU.. to become the Master in the gift of loving YOU so much that Along the way.. the fictional tale can truly come True.. and I asked the Friend.. do YOU know what it means to share a Letter.. do you know what it means to write a Love Letter and to grow in love as a Real man can do and give.. the Friend looks at me and could not say a word.. Of course the friend could Not say because How can that friend relate with my Confession of Loving YOU.. NO ONE knows unless YOU give and try the best way to share what it means to really Love YOU and to grow the Love I have for you because it means it only comes from the Art.. I wish that YOU can see me as an artist in Writing.. that I do also have an Art to share with YOU and to tell you a story.. a story that ONLY can come Once in a Life time and to know that I will fight for the Love I have for YOU.. I will keep on telling YOU that I love YOU.. until the whole world will see that a Real man can truly define and also can express through the discovery of his OWN ART to tell you that this is the way I can also Love YOU.. I am not sure but many would say.. is Love by giving much money to Others.. is that the Only way you can show how much you can love.. by giving many expensive things to YOU.. buying you this and that.. But when I love YOU.. you have everything that YOU do NOT need a MAN to give you those things because when I choose to Love.. I know that YOU will become the greatest.. the Biggest.. the smartest.. can buy any expensive things without the Helping of a MAN because YOU are truly the Most independent person in the world will see.. I would be standing here.. my hand holding to the Handle bar of the drawer.. I am trying to go to sleep but I know that my Heart needs to see YOU before I go to sleep.. I struggle daily because I know there are Nights I just can't sleep.. after I see your Picture.. my Heart is dying for YOU and I am crying inside wanting to Hold YOU in my arms.. I believe as the Love starts to grow over a time.. I think the longing and yearning is real.. the distance of and miles of away YOU are.. and I be missing YOU.. and missing YOU drives me crazy.. sometimes I needs to bring Out the Bottle of whiskey because I just can't sleep.. I would be crying wanting to be with YOU.. and I would turn to LOOK.. a Heart shape Pillow.. in my room.. and I would be thinking of YOU.. holding that Heart shape Pillow as if YOU are in my arms.. as I turn to the Bed.. My hand on the handle bar of the drawer.. I know if I take a Look of this Picture of YOU.. I am Not sure if I am able to go to sleep tonight.. but My Heart knows what he wants.. I know that I came to this drawer because it if Your Picture and I want to see YOU.. I needs to see YOU and I would ask myself what do I do.. can this be real.. can my Heart feels this Real of loving YOU.. just like How the friend would say to me.. can it be truly fictional.. but I know that I have already made UP my Mind and when I made it.. I know I will go all IN no matter how Long.. what people would say.. even what the Friend told Me.. but One thing that I know is I know my Own Heart.. I know what I want and truly Need.. it is Love from YOU.. How can I get your Love without Me telling YOU that I want to Love YOU first.. and I began this journey of trying.. as I kept on trying and trying.. Now I feel in my Heart.. that I am really beginning to Love YOU.. at first I thought it be just FUN and exciting.. a new journey and a challenge.. I would even go to the Clinic to see a doctor.. and I would ask the Doctor there is something wrong with Me.. and the Doctor at the clinic would ask me and would look around.. I would tell the doctor.. I been writing a Letters and sharing what it means to love.. at first I though it would Not last at all.. I thought it be for a short time and would end.. the doctor looks at me and says what happened.. and I would say.. I have Not stopped.. and now I am beginning to be very serious about Love.. and I only told that to the doctor and Nothing More.. and to be honest with YOU.. I truly thought it would not last this far.. I thought it be a joke.. just clowning around for a short time.. but when I would be looking at your Picture and just telling YOU what my heart feels and expressing it Out to YOU through the Writings of letters.. I just could Not stop telling YOU.. I started to feel Pains in my chest.. Heart be aching.. It be so hard to breathe at a point.. going to the doctor too see how long will I live.. but loving YOU started to grow.. it kept on growing as I would try to stop myself.. I would say No.. I should not go too far.. but I knew that When I made up the Mind and make a strong decision for something I must do.. I will not give UP that easily even though I go to see the doctor.. to the clinic.. maybe I needs to replace my Heart.. or I need a new Heart.. I am feeling A lot of pains and it is so hard to breathe.. I am having hard time breathing.. and I would wonder.. One day my Mother and father walks into the room.. and sees Me laying my head on top of the desk and I die of the Heart attack of just loving YOU too strong.. and what if the Friend was right.. it was Nothing but a fictional tale and hearing the News of me dead in the room.. and yes.. there are days I would get these in the mind because I have came so far of loving YOU.. but also through this Great struggle of pains and Heart aches I go through of loving YOU.. there must be something ON the other side.. I know that the grass must be more green on the Other side because My Will and I am so determined to Love YOU.. I must Love you before I die.. I must see YOU before I die is what I would say.. even though can it be fictional.. but I know and I have faith.. I believe in Love and I believe in loving YOU so much.. I don't care if it is fictional because the strongest can break down that wall of thinking.. I know that I love YOU.. and I must conqueror and Master the Art of Love.. the Art of loving YOU telling YOU how much I really Love You.. I am standing by the drawer.. hand still hold onto the Handle bar of the Drawer and My hand pulls the drawer Out.. I am already here and have already pull the drawer open once.. I am not going to go back without because I have come here with an open mind to see Your Picture.. I just can't leave empty handed.. I did Not just come here for nothing and I must LOOK at your Picture before I lay back on the bed.. I love YOU.. YOU must know these words of Mind are reals to me Now.. at first it was like saying I like YOU.. but when YOU Put so much thoughts into and telling YOU.. expressing Out to YOU.. writing you for a while now.. I hope that YOU know that the Words YOU look now are more reals when I tell it to YOU that I love YOU.. and I hope that YOUR Heart can be open wide enough to receive it as true as I do say it and tell it and share it to YOU.. when I mean It.. I really and truly mean it Now.. that I say to YOU.. I love YOU and I miss YOU.. I would pull the drawer.. hand holding unto the Handle bar of the drawer and I see your Picture.. My other hand goes to grab unto your Picture and I look at it.. What have you done to My Heart.. it is only a Picture right.. and If it is only a Picture and Your presence is Not here with me.. does it means anything to YOU.. but when I been thinking of YOU.. and the More I put my thoughts into YOU and I look at your Picture.. when I am finding ways to tell you that I love YOU.. and looking for ways and I put my Heart in it.. I put all my Heart in it.. it becomes More than just a Picture.. because I see YOU.. I think of YOU.. you may think that I am Not joking.. that I may Not be real or keeping it real.. YOU will Not understand what I am going through UNLESS you can truly relate with Me.. HOW can you tell me that I don't love you when YOU do NOT write me a Letter.. I can write you thousands of letters with many kinds of story Now.. and Yes.. I have thinking More ways to tell YOU because My Heart is surreal at this Point.. My Love for you has grown the period of TIME and I hope that YOU KNOW it is Love.. if YOU want to believe Me.. YOU must come and sees my shoes.. then you will realize that what I am doing is because I really Love you.. I have Nothing to give.. and Like I tell you many times.. I am poor.. and I am sure you do Not want to hear this from me saying.. why am I so poor.. because I am an Artist.. a Real Artists are Not rich people.. a True Artist becomes Rich when they are gone but what I am doing is sharing my Art with YOU.. and One thing I have set in my Heart is to Master the Art of Loving YOU.. that I want to be a Great Lover.. I want you to think of One person in the world.. when It comes to mastery in Love.. from ALL of the MEN you know there should be ONE that will POP into your Mind and who has the gift and the Mastery the ART to be Your Lover.. My Heart is that One day.. some day YOU will know.. I know a Man who loved YOU so WELL.. you can feel Me.. YOU can see Me and keeps on dreaming of Me because a MAN who knows HIS OWN ART and has the Heart to master his Art
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MAH MAH.. I am thinking about the Meeting Board.. and watching the Moon that has come UP before me.. the Black smiths are all Hitting the swords with a Stone Hammer and I am waiting for My sword to be more sharpen and More stronger.. as the Master of the Black Smith is inside the place where He is at work.. and with the Seven Friends of Mine standing at the back of the training Ground.. waiting for the Swords.. and the 2nd Top rank General with the seven Generals are all with Me as they are too waiting for their Swords as many Black Smiths are using the Stone Hammers.. I can hear the hammers hitting Hard on the Blades of the swords as I am waiting for the Next Great War that is coming.. as I cannot believe that the 2nd top rank General has joined me as friends.. I have turned to LOOK up at the Moon and I am thinking of YOU.. the Queen.. who has approved the United Hands to work together.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you know that It has been since Long.. I have been loving YOU.. and as I am Looking UP at the Moon.. I just can't stop with a big Smile.. and I would think Back.. when I saw YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. My Father would be pulling the horse.. and I would be sitting on the TOP of the Horse.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would be begging my Father.. Just to take me Once to see YOU.. and I would be looking at the Art Sketch paper.. my arms around the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would Not eat.. I would Not sleep.. but in the Little ROOM.. after the Garden was restored and was Build UP.. My Father would take a LOOK at me.. finally I would collapse and Fell into a Deep Sleep.. and I did Not wake UP for three days and slept.. I remember my Father would be by my side.. he knew if He did Not take me to see YOU.. I might end UP dead Like my Mother.. when I woke UP finally.. my Father in tears looks at Me.. almost lost me there.. and told me that He was going to see YOU.. I just could not stop.. but My Heart kept on beating Louder and Louder as I grew to Love YOU.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I don't know why but I just can't stop.. my Heart just can't stop Loving YOU.. Please tell me why.. what have you done to Me.. to My Heart.. and My Father.. with the Horse.. He carried Me and Put on the Back of the Horse.. I am thinking.. am I dreaming.. please don't wake Me UP.. if I am dreaming.. if I shall Never wake UP in the Dream.. Please.. I just don't want to get UP.. as My Father would be pulling on the ropes of the Horse and I am sitting on the TOP of the Horse.. I remember my Father asking me.. WHY do I love the QUEEN so Much.. WHY do I love HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. what Makes you so Special that even I could Not eat for many days.. and even went into a deep coma for few days and been begging my Father for a long time that I must go to see YOU.. and what if I get caught by the Law.. which a servant Boy cannot Love a Royal BLOOD LINE.. that I can be put into death.. it can cost my own Life.. isn't my Life more precious than to Love and I would be sitting on the Top of the Horse as my Father would be asking me these things.. I would say.. I only live Once.. and I will just die if it means to Die.. but to Love is just Once in a Life time.. I can't just love anyone.. must be because I know that I have a BIG HEART.. even though I may be so small.. may be nothing.. has NO NAME.. be a slave Boy.. to LOVE is to love the QUEEN.. if my Heart can only love the QUEEN and NO ONE else and even it means my Life is on the Line.. I don't care what happens to Me.. even I went into Coma.. and does Not that tell YOU enough.. that I can only Love Once and when I love.. I want to love so Big that It be impossible and for Other MEN to say.. that is HOW a Real MAN should Love.. to Love His ONE TRUE QUEEN.. and My Father stops.. and He turns to LOOK back at me.. and he smiles.. but pauses because my Grandfather was close to the King.. which is Your Father.. PEH HA who just passed away.. Must mean something there.. He was the TOP COMMANDER.. to the Highest.. the Chief Commander He was is what my Father would say.. Must be something that I am connected to HIM because My Father never dreamed anything but just to be a Head of the servant.. and I am nothing like my Father.. I want to love My QUEEN.. I want to love my HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and when I put my mind and Heart into something that means something Real and BIG.. I will Never give UP.. until my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH sees me and believes that I may be so small what Others may be thinking.. but My Heart.. my Dreams and VISIONS are much more greater and in a SUCH HIGHER PLACE.. and My Father looks at me.. and asks.. what if I die because of this.. am I not afraid.. am I not scared and I would tell him.. if I was afraid or too scared.. I would never tried it in the first Place.. I would of never started something that I just could not finished.. I believe in Love.. and My Heart is very BIG even though I am a small person.. I am so small but my Heart and my Vision.. my Dreams of.. I will never stop until I know that my QUEEN.. which is YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH knows it the best in your Heart.. I don't care what anyone says.. but It has never stopped me to come this very far and still I have so much more to go.. and my Father laughs Out Loud and He pulls on the strings of the Horse and He begins to walk as he pulls the strings of the Horse. I am siting on the Back of the Horse.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I see the MOON appear before me.. I see the twinkles of the stars across the Sky and I am smiling as I am looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would say.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am coming to YOU.. I will see you soon.. it takes few days to arrive to the Palace and My Father shows the Card that HE is the Head of the Servant.. the Guards by the gate opens.. and He walks while pulling on the Strings of the Horse and He goes to the training Ground.. I am looking from a distance.. and I see you standing there.. the Chief Generals with the Commanders.. even the Chief Commander is there watching YOU Practice.. I am seeing YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. as my Father keeps on walking ahead pulling on the strings of the Horse and gets closer and closer.. and He stops.. bows HIS Head to you.. and I see you Looking UP.. I am sitting on the top of the Horse.. in my hands is the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. when I see YOU holding the Bow.. in one hand.. the Other is the Arrow.. My Heart.. WHY does it keep on beating.. My Heart.. looking at you closer.. I can't believe that I am seeing YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. it has been a long time.. after YOU came to rebuild the garden.. few months has gone by.. maybe it could been years.. I really missed YOU.. I wish that I could tell YOU this.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that I could not sleep for days.. I started Not to eat.. missing YOU has been so Hard lately.. and I remember one early Morning.. after I would beg my father.. asking him to take me to YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and my father would Not listen.. telling me NO.. that I should never Love YOU.. I just could not handle this Pain of missing YOU.. I started to starve myself to death.. maybe when I am dead and gone.. he can finally see how much I loved YOU.. anyways I just could Not live with this Pain of keep on missing YOU.. my Heart kept on aching and breaking.. I would sit in the Little ROOM.. I even asked my Father again because I wanted to say something to My QUEEN.. to my HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I had NO little ROOM.. I had No shelter to put over my Head.. I had to sleep outside or at the friend's house.. felt like a Homeless Poor Boy.. but now I had a Little ROOM that I can put my Head over.. can sleep.. and I would hear my father telling me NO NO NO.. it is just too dangerous for me to get close to YOU.. and he did not want to see his son dying before his eyes but I am already dying.. I feel like I am going to die if I don't see YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. and One early Morning.. I would had two full buckets of water walking back to the Home.. and I fell on the ground.. some one saw me laying on the road and knew who I was.. knew my father and called him to get me.. the doctor looks at me while I was in the coma.. because I did Not sleep for days and did not bother to eat for few days either.. I just did Not want to live any more.. missing YOU drives me crazy.. it really kills me instead and the doctor asks my father.. do I love any one.. because the doctor knew the cause of this Pain.. this suffering came because my Heart was aching inside.. of course my father did Not say WHO I loved or was loving.. but knew this is because of YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. it is because I never stopped loving YOU since the day I first saw YOU.. ever since I met you at the Garden.. and How you came to visit and you heard about this Garden.. the first time I saw YOU.. you were sitting On the TOP of the Horse.. but had a large gathering of people surrounded you.. I came here sitting on the Top of the Horse.. only One person who brought me over is my Father.. who serves YOU as the Head servant.. I know that I have put my father through many pains.. but I am suffering too.. for loving YOU I had to cross many rivers.. looking at many oceans.. through the travel of the feet.. even getting this Horse Back ride.. but My father knows now that I love you just too much that he does Not want me to give UP.. my father told me when the doctor came to see me.. He told me because my Heart was suffering.. in so much
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MAH MAH.. No.. if I die.. then He will know that I love YOU.. that is when I knew.. I really loved YOU this much that NOW I am here on the back of this HORSE with him.. as I would watch YOU looking at the Target on the training Ground.. it was at the back of it.. the Black smiths are behind the generals and commanders.. behind the Chief Commander.. and I am looking at YOU.. as YOU would PULL back the strings of the Bow with the back of the arrow and YOU would aim and hand releases.. I see the arrow goes fly and It hits right on the Red Dot.. the Guard by the Target stands and waves the White Flag.. shouting Out BULLS EYE.. and I would look at YOU.. even though YOU are my QUEEN.. you are also trained to be a fighter.. I would hear the Chief Commander shouting Out Loud and Clear.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to my QUEEN.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. all of the military soldiers would shout Out.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to the QUEEN.. MANSAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOU are wondering why do I love YOU so Much.. it has nothing to do with Me.. but it is because YOU are my True QUEEN.. because I know that YOU are the real HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and there is NO ONE who can take your place in my Heart but YOU.. I knew when I first saw YOU.. it came out of you being a real Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. and How you flourish to become the CROWN PRINCESS.. then when I saw the poor People.. people from the Garden who came.. from far distances.. long distances they have traveled to the Palace.. just to see you and always came before the King.. PEH HA.. asking Your Father for YOU to be the Next Ruler in Line.. they have come from such a far long place.. just to talk to the King.. that the People.. they wanted YOU to take HIS PLACE as the RULER.. when I saw That.. before even this would ever happened.. I knew when you came to the Garden and to rebuild the Garden into New Homes for the People.. I wanted to join and be a Part of.. serving and protecting the Nation YOU are going to build for the future.. I knew YOU were chosen to be the QUEEN.. MY HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the real TRUE QUEEN..I am looking at the Sun rising.. and I am standing next to YOU.. MAH MAH.. why are you crying.. and I am looking at you holding the Bow and the Arrows as you are pulling out to Shoot and YOU stop.. dropping the arrows on the ground.. I have never seen you in tears.. what is Matter with YOU MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I am watching the New Recruits Men coming Out of the tents.. My Heart is breaking as I am watching you In full of tears.. and I hear.. the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Your Mother is walking.. the servants and the Maid servants.. the men Servants who are attending her are all coming.. and the Queen drops on the ground.. and has a Letter in the hand.. and as I am looking.. this must be very serious case.. I feel like there is a great change about to come its place.. I had the Dream last Night about.. and when I look at your Mother the Queen.. and I see you just crying.. and I see you telling me to get the Letter in your Mother's Hand.. so I go over.. and grab the Letter out of her Hand.. the Six Princes also are coming with the Prime Minister.. the 12 Noble men comes.. and in my hand is the Letter and I would Unfold.. I would be reading this Letter and I am Not sure why I have to read this.. I am Not even the Messenger for the KING.. PEH HA.. but YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS is telling me that I could.. I just can't believe it.. Your Father.. His Official stamp Seal.. is giving UP his Position to Rule.. the King.. PEH HA does Not want to rule any More and has passed the Seat and as I am reading it a loud where all the Great Powerful Men and Leaders.. the Official has gathered before Me.. and I am also watching the Poor People.. the Ones WHO all came from the Garden.. mostly Homeless people.. and they are all standing hearing the Letter as I am reading before you.. I would fall on my two Knees.. and it states that the King is passing his throne to YOU.. the CROWN PRINCESS shall NOT be PRINCESS any More but to be CROWNED to be the QUEEN KING.. the Highest seat ever to be taken as the RULER and I would be shouting Out.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would turn to YOU.. and my hands let goes the Letter.. and I am Looking UP.. my two eyes filled with Tears.. just like my Dreams I had last night.. I never knew that It would happen this Fast.. but WHY so fast.. and I would hear.. all of the People great and small.. they all fall on their two knees.. lowering the Bodies to touch to the ground and say.. To the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOU are the new RULER for this Nation.. and I am thinking.. what is going to happen to your Mother.. is she Not the QUEEN and I am LOOKING at your Mother.. she also lowers and her head touches to the ground.. But that is YOUR MOTHER.. and I look.. Your MOTHER pulls the crown Off her Head.. the Messenger Comes with the King's Crown and it unites together as ONE BIGGEST crown.. and GOSH.. my Heart just keeps on beating fast.. the Messenger holding the Biggest Crown and He is walking with tears in his Eyes and I am looking.. all the people.. faces to the ground.. and the Seven of my friends comes out of the tent and they are all looking.. the Biggest Crown goes On top of your Head as the QUEEN of the Nation.. and they all fall on two knees.. heads touching the Ground as YOU are Pronounce to be the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MANSAE.. I would hear the Little Boys.. all raising UP their hands.. Little Girls too.. raising UP their arms and Hands.. MANSAE to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would hear all of the voices shout OUT.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. and all of the heads are touching the Ground.. I am LOOKING at the ground.. Just could not help the celebration.. that You have become the true new RULER.. I have never stopped Loved YOU.. but kept on loving YOU till I get to see this and hear this.. I never imagined even the Poor people WHO I grew UP with me.. they are together all in ONE watching this Happening.. witnessing something that just can't happen but did Happen going down in the History of what it means to become a TRUE RULER.. there is Another Messenger on the TOP of and he blows the trumpet and it is Loud.. I am wondering.. this sound of the trumpet does not sound good.. it means someone in the royal family just died.. and NO.. and every one starts to Cry.. and I am thinking.. is it PEH HA!.. is it your Father the King who just died and the Messenger shouts Out who is on the top of the palace wall.. the KING.. PEH HA just died.. and everyone starts to Mourn as I am hearing this News.. and I see you just crying Loud and loud for Your Father.. and My Heart.. I know what it means to have a Broken Heart.. and I just can't say a word to YOU.. but.. I know that YOUR Father truly loved YOU.. and YOU would cry loud and it grew louder as YOU kept on mourning for me.. it makes me cry more as I am watching YOU cry for your Father.. the King.. but why is my Heart breaking it more.. and I would think about How he promised that the King is going to be fair when He finds the Successor.. Not because He loved YOU more or Less but to rule is the Most difficult seat to be In.. Only the Strongest and the Wisest can take His place and can rule.. giving all of the six Sons too a chance to prove that they can be on the spot.. but.. YOU are the One chosen.. the Little One.. youngest from the men but as the daughter Only.. and I would just mourn because I remember YOU would be sharing about this One point.. I remember when YOU became the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU told me One night about How your Father wanted to give it all fair to His Blood Lines.. but Only ONE can be seated in the Highest seat.. and it is Not that He loved YOU so much.. He saw the People.. He heard about what YOU have done even for the smallest.. the poorest people.. and I know and believe YOUR father believed that the people who was at the garden all came to support YOU.. I remember.. the People from the garden came to me.. and asking me where the King Stayed.. His Chamber.. I would lead the People of the garden to the King's Chamber.. the Servant for the King shares the Message.. and the King.. PEH HA comes and He would be seated on the Outer courts.. I was there.. by the gates just standing to guard the Post.. the Parents of the Children falls on their Knees before the King.. and they shared about what YOU have done when YOU were Young.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. How much you cared and shared the Love for the People.. and they would cry before the King.. PEH HA.. to make YOU the RULER.. that they will serve YOU as servants of the QUEEN.. to Make you the Next to RULE and would be begging the KING.. PEH HA.. never letting the King go until your Father the KING made and keep the Promise to make YOU the RULER for this NATION.. as I would watch the People of the Poor crying Out in a Loud voice.. they have come and travelled long ways away from the Garden just to tell this TO your Father.. the King.. that the People of the Garden will give UP their CHILDREN for the King's services.. I saw Little Boys and girls.. and they would come forward and fall before the KING.. PEH HA.. to Let YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH to rule over them.. as I would watch by the gates of the door.. the Little girls and Boys would fall begging and they started to cry.. how the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH saved their parents Lived when
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MAH MAH.. Because I was reminded.. It was hard living in the garden as being broke and Poor.. had NO chance.. NO ONE did care about Us.. I started to Hit my Chest as I would cry thinking about what happened to the Garden the day YOU came.. the parents would be in tears as they are watching their children crying before the King.. PEH HA.. I am in the Back.. my Heart.. this Heart thinking about what I saw that day with the Parents when they too was a child.. I saw the King Looking.. YOUR Father was looking at all these People coming from the Garden and together crying Out because of what YOU have done as the Princess.. as the ROYAL BLOOD LINE and I saw Your Father.. the KING.. PEH HA.. his Heart was moved.. was touched by all these people coming together asking for YOU to be the Next Leader.. the QUEEN who can only rule for this Nation.. ONE BOY stands UP before the King.. your Father and tells Your Father that He is going to fight in the war.. even though he was Only a child.. I would watch a Girl stands up saying She will to enter the war to fight for this Nation and I begin to watch all the hands.. with the parents wanting to join in the Battle to fight in the war.. and I just could not believe they are going to give up their own Lived for this Nation.. for this Country.. for YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I am watching as the King.. PEH HA promises to the People who came from the garden that HE will keep his Promises because the People of the Poor in the garden came together and gave a WORD to Him to find His SUCCESSION.. and when YOUR FATHER.. the KING told the People who came from the Garden that HE is going to keep his WORD and his Promises.. I saw the Little Children with the Parents all getting up and shouting with a great uproar of joy that YOU WILL be the one to rule.. to succeed in HIS PLACE.. a Dancing and singing songs came afterward in the Night.. and I would be thinking about this which happen few days ago.. and I would be crying.. that YOUR FATHER.. who loves you the Most has kept his Word.. and as I would lift UP my Head.. I see you with the Letter in your hands.. reading what Your Father.. PEH HA.. the KING has wrote to YOU.. but I did Not read the Bottom because IT was only for YOU.. but I know what HE wrote.. how much HE is truly proud of YOU and knows YOU WILL do well to keep this Nation going strong and tells YOU.. HOW MUCH the Father Loves YOU.. that HOW MUCH he is thankful to have a such a strong heart daughter like YOU to take over his Place.. NOW your Father can rest in peace at last.. I am crying as YOU are crying reading the Letter at the end.. I am so touched.. and deeply moved because I know that HWANG WOO MAH MAH has A BIG HEART.. I see you folding the Letter and You turn your Head looking at Me and I would knob my head UP and Down.. I am letting you know.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the QUEEN.. I am also proud of YOU TOO.. YOU made it difference.. YOU made it very big.. Because YOU have such a BIG HEART.. I want to ask YOU QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. How can I hold your Big Heart.. I wish I can find a way to Hold your Big Heart.. and just kiss your Big Heart just once.. to let YOU KNOW.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am truly proud of YOU doing what YOU do and yes.. I do really really Love YOU.. why do you think that I still love you still.. because YOU are so special.. there is something about YOU that makes you really really special.. and the most important.. it is because YOU are just being real YOU.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Now I am looking back as when YOU first became the Crown Princess.. WAANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the day when It was announced.. it feels like it was like yesterday.. when I heard YOU becoming the CROWN PRINCESS even though NOW you have become the New RULER.. the QUEEN for the Nation.. just wanted to say.. I love YOU..I walk into the tent in the training Ground.. all the Men are inside the Tents.. and I would lay down.. before I would close my eyes to sleep.. I have a recent Picture of YOU.. a friend of Mine has gave me the Art Sketch paper.. and some one drew this Picture and the friend of Mine who kept it and gave it to Me.. it was before I came into the Training Camp with the Official Seal Paper.. the Letter which the Older man.. the Teacher gave to Me so that I can pass it to YOU.. MAH MAH.. and I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. and I would say again.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. do YOU know that I been looking at this Picture.. this Art sketch Paper that some one drew of YOU.. I remember when the Friend of Mine came to me.. knowing that I been Loving YOU for a Long Time.. He saw me with the Art Sketch paper.. it was when YOU were much Younger.. the Boy who went over to draw picture of YOU and who was caught after giving it to Me.. MAH MAH.. the One that I gave to YOU.. because I told you that I did not need it any More.. because I was next to YOU now.. and when YOU took it.. I saw you holding.. I asked you to Burn it.. but I see that YOU would Not.. and to be honest with YOU MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I had a recent One.. the Art Sketch paper which some one drew of YOU.. I know that YOU have ways to capture the Hearts of Many Men.. it does Not matter who Loves YOU but I know for sure that I can Love you More.. that is why I am telling YOU even though YOU may Not hear me on this very Night.. as I am holding this Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I just saw you before I went into the Tent.. but I feel like I still has to keep On seeing YOU.. I don't know what it is about YOU.. maybe because YOU are the Crown Princess of the Nation to be the Next Ruler for this Country.. for this Nation.. because YOU are the greatest.. the Biggest.. the best.. a true Ruler and that is why knowing this Truth.. the Strength and the Power and the control.. the Dominance you have in YOU.. the More I look at YOU.. the More my Heart be moving.. and I just can't let YOU Go MAH MAH.. WHY can't I let you go MAH MAH.. Please tell me WHY.. and I am laying down.. as I would LOOK at the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would fold into Half and lay it behind Me.. just thinking about YOU.. thinking about the People.. but when I saw YOU holding the Sword.. pointing to the direction which I did Not want to see.. I would be begging YOU.. to Stay with the People.. with the Little Children.. when I saw HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. pulling out the Sword.. the King's Sword towards the Other side where the Enemies are going to Come.. I just could Not help it to drop on both Knees.. because I did Not want to see you fight.. I don't want to see you going into the Battle field.. but I know how YOU are MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. once you put your Mind on something that YOU be aiming for.. I know you will go for It.. in One way this is the reason WHY I felt in Love with YOU.. YOU are so Bold.. and so Fierce when it comes to protection and fighting for something.. when it comes for the Nation of your People YOU love.. that YOU will do anything to Protect this Country.. this Nation because of the People.. when I saw YOU on that Horse.. in the Garden bringing the People from the Royal Palace.. to rebuild the Garden.. My Heart.. I just knew it from the start that you were.. Crown Princess be different.. when I saw you doing something.. when MAH MAH cared for the Unimportant.. the Little People.. a person like myself.. I knew that YOU are going to do something very Big.. because even the Poor and the Little People are also your People too.. the most smallest of all.. I came from that Garden.. I am the Most lowest person in that Garden and I saw you in that Garden.. all of the Knees went down when the People saw YOU in that Garden.. tears would roll from the eyes.. just could not believe.. the Crown Princess.. MAH MAH.. it was the HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. from all of the People out there in the royal family.. it was the CROWN PRINCESS who came with the Horse.. who has this Big Heart of even rebuilding what was under Looked.. NO ONE cares about the Poor people.. NO ONE loves the Ones who are hungry and dying in such poverty.. growing UP in the Garden.. there was NO Homes.. when it rained.. I would sit in a Hay House.. but I be wet from the rain.. I would look across at the neighbor Hay Home.. just like my home.. we are staring at each other watching the rain fall from the sky and both of us are getting wet.. it is very hard when it becomes Cold in the Winter.. many of the Children living in the Low poverty will die because it is just too cold for any one to survive in that condition.. many times and Many nights.. many winter nights.. I do wonder How did I even manage to come this very far.. I saw many families in the Hay Homes.. the Parents of the children are in their arms and left to die as they are crying for help.. my Heart breaks each time I think of being so Low.. being so Poor and having not much.. but How is it that I manage to get Out of that Garden.. and I saw many Mothers burying their Sons and daughters in the Garden.. Hay Homes would fall and crumble as strong winds comes to blow hard.. I would watch strong rains breaking the roof tops of the Hays down and it falls down on people.. I would watch Many People living without homes.. begging for Food and crying in the Night asking for Help.. rescue Me is what I would hear.. and WHO ever thought it be YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. out of the Blue you came along on that Horse.. what really got to My Heart is that Hays and straws were no longer use.. when YOU Came MAH MAH.. it became bricks and How you rebuild giving it
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MAH MAH.. As the DOOR opens.. I walk in with the Seven Friends.. the MAIN HALL ROOM.. and it is the Meeting Board.. on the Right side.. the Six Princes are standing from the First to Sixth SON and the Prime Minister with the 12 Council of Noble Men.. on the Left side is the Older MAN.. the teacher.. the TOP COMMANDER.. the Commanders.. to Chief Generals.. to TOP General.. 2nd Rank General to 3rd rank General and to the generals.. as I walk and I stop.. a stairs above me.. and the King's Chair.. the Messenger calls Out to YOU.. and I would stop.. it just can't be.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and the Scroll rolls Down.. and I see YOU walking UP the stairs.. and I see you turn around.. MAH MAH.. the Messenger walks UP to YOU.. the Crowns are changing.. I am wondering what does this Mean.. and the Messenger reads the scroll pronouncing that YOU be the QUEEN.. My Heart.. are you trying to KILL my Heart.. I know that It is going to Happen.. but is it going to happen NOW.. are you the True QUEEN.. to be pronounce.. and the Messenger walks UP.. holding the KING's Crown and Puts on TOP over your Head.. HAIL to the QUEEN of NATION.. and I fall on two knees.. and I am crying.. I know it suppose to be the Best day to celebrate.. but How about Me.. I am now suppose to call you HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that is the QUEEN.. and I hear the Voices in the MAIN HALL room.. in the Board of Meeting calling Out.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and voices grows louder and louder as they Shout to YOU.. knees all hits to two.. and shouts Louder HAIL to the QUEEN.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. and I am crying louder and Louder.. How can I love the QUEEN.. Please help me.. How can I love you when YOU are seated as the QUEEN of the Nation.. as HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I am looking at the ground.. I see you sitting on the King's chair and YOU stand UP.. pulling Out the king's sword.. hands all lifted UP.. and voices raises UP higher and people are all crying.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MANSAE.. MANSAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would open two eyes from the sleep.. I know that this means some thing very big is going to happen.. it must be a sign that YOU are going to rule for this Nation.. and I would stand UP and get Out of the tent.. and I am standing alone still dark.. with my hand is the sword and I pull it Out.. LOOKING at the Blade.. the War is coming.. first we needs to win and beat in this WAR but I know and I would JUMP UP in the air left right left right swing the Sword.. I know Not much time but for the CROWN PRINCESS.. for WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I must fight to Protect so that YOU can sit on that THRONE. the King's Chair to become my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH. as I would LOOK UP at the MOON.. my both feet lands on the ground.. and I turn to LOOK.. I see you standing there.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I know that YOU NEED to rest and I would fall on both KNEES.. my arms straight forward and Head looks down.. and I see YOU holding the Bow in your hand.. grabbing the arrow.. and I see that YOU are practicing shooting and Hitting every shot on BULLS eye.. I see you turn and you Point your Sword at me and I would say.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I just woke UP from a Sleep and Just came out waking from this One Dream I had.. what is going to happen to Me when YOU become the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I know that I can't Love you anymore if YOU sit on that KING's Throne Chair.. I know for a fact that YOU are chosen to RULE for this Nation.. and I know that YOU be a QUEEN who will rule.. but for me.. I know that I can't stay any longer.. after the War.. after the Battle and YOU win for the Nation.. I know that the People are going to choose YOU to take your Father's Place.. who will be the One to rule and direct for this NATION.. but if I can't love you any more.. I know that I must Go and YOU can select the MEN.. I will let them stay with YOU and I will go alone.. it is just too hard for me because I have been loving YOU since when I was a young Boy.. ever since I saw YOU for the first Time.. my Heart would beat more than it skipped the Beat.. but I know.. the people also who came from the Garden.. they are seeking for YOU to rule over them too.. that is why they are going to fight and unite so that they want to PLACE YOU over them.. if I can't love YOU any more.. there is NO reason longer for me to stay any more.. I can't live without loving YOU more.. that is the Part where it hurts me the Most.. I just can't keep it to myself and be silent.. if the council of Noble men sees me keep on doing this.. they are going to find ways to put my chains and will try to persecute ME.. they are going to try to kill me for this.. that is why I know that I must go after the War.. will you let me Leave Your sight after the War.. either way I am a dead Man now.. the Prime Ministry with the 12 council of Noble men tried to find ways to execute me because I am hearing words.. so Please.. if I can't love YOU any more.. please let me GO and I can go as far.. I am thinking about returning back to the Garden where I came from.. and I would see you pointing the sword and YOU remove the sword away from me.. picking UP the arrow.. putting on the end of the Strings of the Bow.. pulling it back YOU would aim and release.. the ARROW hits right in the Middle of the target.. I am thinking.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH is so good even at Night.. YOU just never miss the shot hitting this target.. in this dark Night.. it is so hard for me to see the target.. and I am hearing the Soldier by the target.. the flag is moving around.. But.. YOU know that I still Love YOU.. I will always love you no matter where I go.. it is just that It is getting so much harder for me Now to Love the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because I really Love YOU.. even from the Far.. when I was in a long distance I loved you then when I did Not see YOU.. Now I see you close that I love you more.. either way far or Near.. my Heart will never change of loving YOU more.. because I really Love YOU NO matter where YOU are CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I am watching the Little Children.. boys are walking into the training Ground.. I just can't believe that they are from the Garden.. the Parents of these children.. some of them are my friends growing Up and I am watching YOU standing by the Fence.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I never thought you be having this Big Heart.. Now look at the Hopes and Dreams YOU are planting.. the Parents who came with their Children.. thinking about their future.. and I am on the Two Knees.. tears just fills UP.. and I can feel my tears streaming down.. and One of the guy who came with his Son stops and Looks at me.. and He smiles.. and Just cannot believe that I am the trainer for the new Recruits.. and He cries Looking at me because.. I know that His SON can also dream for this Nation.. the Crown Princess.. who loves the People.. who are the One with the Big Heart for the People.. who is the One who helped the Poor People in that Garden.. Now.. the People has come because this Nation is growing stronger and stronger because of YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because YOU are here that all these things can happen.. I do remember.. the First time My Heart felt something.. I was in this Position.. I saw a friend laying on the ground.. He was very Poor and Lowly servant just like Me.. we had NO Place to Go.. No place to sleep.. hungry without Homes and just picking food from the Floors.. it was at the Garden.. He got sick eating watching Him hit the floor.. I was crying for that Friend.. he would throw UP in blood and he looks at me.. telling me that Being so poor.. it is NO JOKE.. and he tells me.. I am dying.. I was crying and crying as He lay on the Floor.. My Heart broke into pieces.. and He looks at me and says.. when He dies to plant him by my Mother's grave.. and my Mother was like an Auntie to him.. as I saw him laying sick.. I heard a Loud Voice.. and I turn to look.. the day YOU came to the Garden.. I turn too look.. I fell on my face looking at the ground.. I saw YOU sitting on the Horse.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. and I would cry Out Loud More.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please hear my voice.. and I saw YOU.. the YOUNG Girl you were.. YOU had a Sword.. small sword and Pointed to my direction to Speak.. and I would be crying.. could Not talk much but it was about my dying friend.. He was laying down.. and throw UP blood in front of me.. and asking me to bury him when he died.. But Help me MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are the Only ONE with the Power to save the Life of a BOY who has NO ONE else to turn TOO.. PLEASE.. MAH MAH.. HELP US and I would be crying Loud.. he is my best friend.. My father raised him like a SON to Me like a Brother.. SAVE HIM MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH... Please help my Dying friend.. and tears would be falling down.. and I can see.. Maybe I needs to die with him too.. if YOU can't help him.. I would lift UP my Head looking UP at you.. with tears in my eyes.. my Friend needs YOUR HELP.. the Crown Princess.. which is YOU raise UP your Little Sword and YOU would call for the Royal Physicians who came.. I was very shocked that they came here to the Garden.. I never thought YOU would do this for the Little People.. the Poor People.. for the Lowly lives who NO ONE cares about.. NO ONE cares for the Broken.. the Little People who has NO NAMES.. How do people know my Name
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MAH MAH.. Me brings His Son.. he was the Best Friend who was on the Floor.. on the ground talking about if He dies to bury HIM close to my Mother.. Now I am seeing his SON and I look at the SON.. and I lift UP my Head and I see you standing by the Fence and I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. can YOU please give me your ears and I see YOU standing with the White Dress and the Big Crown on the top of your Head.. and YOU would point the Sword direct at me.. and I would watch YOU walk closer to ME and stops next to me.. I would lift UP my Head looking at YOU.. DO you remember the Garden.. DO you remember this Man.. and I see you turn your Head looking at him.. and it seems like YOU don't know who he is and I would say.. he is the One who I was talking about.. the Day YOU came to the garden.. and I was crying.. I was asking YOU to save a Life of a Boy.. and YOU were sitting on the Horse and I was begging for Your Help.. pleading for a cause.. to help a dying Boy.. and It was when YOU brought the Royal Physicians.. two of them went over and picked HIM up.. do you remember that Day.. and I see you turn your Head looking at HIM and I see that YOU DO remember.. you would smile LOOKING at him.. Yes.. if the Royal Physicians did NOT show UP that Day.. I know that He would Not been alive this very day.. HE has remembered YOU ever since and TOLD ME.. One day HE is going to come to join the Nation where YOU stand.. NOW he is here with his SON.. and NOW we are reunited because of what YOU have done that day.. I was pleading.. begging and asking you to help me.. to Help Him and Now.. LOOK what has happened because of WHAT YOU have done that Day.. as I would hold his son around my Arms.. I want to teach this YOUNG boy how to fight for this Nation.. to raise UP the next YOUNG generations of these Boys to HELP forth.. to Push this Nation which YOU will rule.. for you to conqueror so that this NATION Of people would be so Strong for YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because of Your Big Heart for the people you love.. the People are the reason to help this Nation to become stronger so that YOU can RULE as the True CONQUEROR.. and I would see YOU pointing your Sword at me and telling me to get UP.. so I would listen and I would get UP on two feet.. as I get UP.. I am hearing sounds of foot steps.. and I turn towards the Fence.. and a Messenger comes on the Horse.. and He has a scroll in his hand and He gets Out of the Horse and Runs towards YOU.. stops.. two knees on the floor.. head looks down arm forward with the Scroll in the Hand.. I see YOU turn looking at the Messenger.. and YOU take the Scroll.. and YOU would unfold and YOU would read the Scroll.. and I see something is wrong.. what is Wrong HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WHAT IS wrong and I see you hand me the Scroll and I would take a LOOK at the Scroll and I would read it.. The ENEMIES are COMING.. and Another War wants to break its way.. and I am looking at YOU.. and I would fall on two Knees.. and My Head looks down.. arm goes forward and I know that YOU want to do something and My hand grabs your Wrist.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see you holding the King's Sword in your hand.. but I would pull on the Other Wrist.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. it is going to be more fierce then last TIME and NO.. I wish that YOU can hear the Heart of Mine.. I know that YOU are truly a fierce warrior and Would do anything to Fight and to protect for this Nation.. but YOU have to remember that this Time.. the Children has come into the training camp.. into the training Ground.. I just can't see YOU go out there.. last time My Heart wanted to fall down.. I saw YOU on the Horse and the enemies just got too Close to YOU.. I can't see something like this ever happening because YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. and it was YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. who opened the Fences for the Children.. these little children has come Long ways from the Garden and they have come under your Care.. and Only YOU can protect these children because they have all come to YOU.. for the War.. I know that we have mighty Men and soldiers.. the warriors who will go Out there to fight for this Nation.. to protect and to defend because this is the reason WHY I was born to do this.. to Protect YOU.. to serve and to defend YOU.. for the Nation.. I am asking YOU to be there for the Children who has come a long ways.. they have come to YOU.. they have thought about you when they came here and they just arrived.. and I would Be holding unto your Wrist.. so Please only for this time.. can YOU please listen to my Plea.. to my Heart because I just can't fight out there when YOU are fighting with me.. I just can't focus.. and knowing How strong and fierce YOU are.. I see you turn your Head and looking down at me.. but I can tell that YOU will not listen.. and I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. leave the Battle for Us.. for the Men that YOU have raised UP.. YOU have plenty of men who can fight.. How about Me.. How about my Heart.. I just can't see you out there.. I have tried when YOU were out there last time.. but I just could Not.. I wanted the sword to drive Into my Heart when I saw YOU.. I wanted YOUR SWORD to pierce into my Heart when I saw the enemies getting just too close to YOU.. I wanted.. rather I die.. rather come after Me and Kill me instead because I rather Die instead of YOU enter that Battle Ground of war.. I can't take it any more.. so Please.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. just this Once.. and how about these children.. they too needs your hands and Your care.. they wanted to meet YOU.. they want to be close to YOU.. look at the Children and I would watch you turn your Head looking at these Little boys and girls.. more than hundred children came with their parents.. and I would watch the New Recruits raising UP their wooden Sticks wanting to join in the Fight.. and I am Looking UP at YOU.. and I would watch YOU turn your Head looking at the Little children.. and LOOKING at the new recruits and YOU turn to LOOK down at Me.. CROWN PRINCESS.. Please say something.. Please answer me for Once.. even those families with the little children all needs YOU by your side.. they need Your hands to rest.. and I see YOU looking at them.. and I would turn to LOOK over.. I am hearing More foot steps.. and I see Six Horses.. and they are the Royal Princes.. the six Older Brothers has come.. on the Horses and I would see behind the seventh.. and ALL seven men would get out of the Horses.. and as I would watch the six Princes.. they would fall on two knees.. and they have brought their swords and I just can't believe.. the seventh person is the Older man.. the Teacher.. the master who taught me with his armor who came to serve in the military Arts.. I just can't believe.. and More Military Generals are behind the Horses of the Princes.. and ALL on the two knees Heads looking down.. arms out forward saluting to Your Authority as the One true Ruler.. and I am holding Your Wrist.. this is why I am asking YOU to please stay Behind.. YOU have men.. powerful strong Men who is going to Fight for this Nation.. the Little Children needs YOU too with their families.. because of what YOU have done in the past at the Garden.. YOU are able to see them grow UP becoming parents NOW and with children.. they have all come to support this Nation.. so Please help for the Next UP coming.. we.. CROWN PRINCESS needs you to be here with the families and the Little Children.. YOU are the Only ONE that needs to stay to preserve the next and to RULE for them too.. and I would watch ALL the voices shouting Out.. CROWN PRINCESS.. Please stay and protect the Families and the Little Children and I would watch YOU.. your sword is pointing to the War Ground and I just can't believe it that YOU want to fight in the war.. WHY HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. WHY.. and my Heart breaks because YOU would not listen to the voices of Your Men.. YOUR PEOPLE.. we shout Out loud More.. Please stay with children.. I would watch One boy picking UP a stick and he shouts Fight.. I am looking at the 2nd Line Top General.. and I am holding the sword.. and I would run and I jump into the Air with the Sword in my hand and swing Forward.. the Blades hit each other.. as he would swing the Sword back at me.. I land on the ground.. and I turn to Look back.. and I would jump back Kick and I would swing the Sword in my hand.. the Blades Hit each Other.. he does a front Kick and Hits my chest.. and I fall on the ground.. as I see my Sword next to me.. the Seven Friends of mine are in the back.. they would all Pull out the swords to Fight.. but I would grab the sword and raising UP the right Arm.. the swords goes back into the sheath and as I turn to LOOK at YOU behind.. YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. who are standing along side with the Seven friends of Mine.. I get UP slowly.. and the 2nd top Line general is standing with his Men.. the Generals and they are all smiling as I get UP slowly.. I have Lost before to this Man.. this Time.. I just can't Lose this Battle.. and I would grab the Sword.. and I would run UP and the 2nd rank General grabs his Sword and WE swing the Swords at each other.. Blades Hit and Hit.. I can hear the sound of the CLANG of the blade of the swords Hitting.. and I would go back as the 2nd rank General moves forward swinging the sword at me.. I would Counter block as the Blades Hit and I would duck and sweep the Leg and he falls to the ground.. the Seven Friends of Mine raises UP the Swords shouting.. and I jump into the Air with the Sword.. ready to
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Oink Oink.. There are many people who are passing By and they would be looking at me if I am so crazy.. Yes.. it looks like I am a Homeless man.. who has No place to Go.. holding this Big Empty glass jar looks like I am begging and asking for money when I don't care about it.. I came here today because I wanted you to know that I am serious about this Big Heart.. Please show me your face once.. Please come to this Big Window and let me know that I am at the right Place of the location of your House.. I been waiting for a while Now.. I came here last Night.. and the Night is almost to end as I am seeing the Day setting In.. Please show me your Beautiful Face.. Please show me that this is the right Address.. I needs to Know.. only YOU can let me know if this Place belongs to YOU.. as I am holding the Big Empty Glass jar.. I am looking at the Sky.. and it suddenly grows pretty Dark.. showing me signs that It might be raining soon.. I cannot go until YOU show me your face.. I did not come all here just to stand here looking like a HOMELESS Beggar man.. I came because I have been asking you for One thing.. that One thing to me is so Special.. it has taken me more than three hours trip.. on a Bus I came.. I had to sleep in the Bus for about two hours.. did Not think that It be this Long of a trip but I had to come.. I would remember.. I would remember.. and I would hear the Loud roar of the thunder.. and as I look UP at the sky.. I see the rain drops falling from the sky.. what if you do Not show UP.. what if I am at the wrong Location.. what if I am at some one else house.. is this the right window because I am looking at the Number of the Address and It is correct from the Back of the Picture YOU gave me.. YOU are the One who wrong this Number and the Address down.. am I suppose to knock on the door.. if I knocked on this Big Window.. will you be hearing the Knocking.. and if you hear the Sound of the knocking of the Window.. will YOU please show me your Beautiful Face.. I think my arms are getting a little tired because Now.. few hours has pass down.. I been standing here as I am waiting for the Rain to pour down on me.. even though YOU may Not give me Your Big Heart.. at least if YOU can just show yourself and come to this window.. at least I know that it was YOU who really send me this Picture with this Address.. and as I would wait.. I see the rain falling down slowly.. I can feel myself getting little wet.. and I am still standing.. my arms around this Big Empty Glass jar.. I did Not bring this Empty Glass Jar to fill it with rain Water.. I should of known that It was going to rain today before I came.. But this is How my Heart feels when I don't see YOU.. when My Heart wants to be filled with water instead.. I came with a great big smile.. with tears in my eyes for Joy.. but I feel like I be leaving with this Empty Glass jar.. filled with waters of rain instead because IN my Heart.. as I am watching the Empty Glass Jar.. this Big Empty Glass Jar with rain waters instead.. My Heart feels like Tears of cry.. I feel like crying instead because I came here to see YOU.. YOU are not even at the Big Window.. I have been waiting out here and Now.. the Rain keeps on falling down from the sky.. I can feel my clothes are getting more wet as the Rain falls down harder from the sky.. as I am looking Up at the Big Window.. Please show me Your Beautiful face.. YOU know that the Bus is coming very soon.. and I do not want to leave without seeing YOU.. My Hope was to have Your Big Heart inside this Big Glass Jar.. I feel so sick.. I feel so Hurt because I came with a Hope.. I came with a one wish.. even though it may NOT be your Big Heart inside the Big Empty Glass Jar.. just YOU showing UP by this Big Window would been enough for me because at Least I would know and go with this Picture with Your Address was send by YOU.. it may not be this time but I can think of Next time when I come around.. I know where to Go and I know where to meet YOU at the Place of this Location when YOU decide for me to come to you.. I been writing you Letters.. I been waiting for an answer for a very Long time as I would keep on writing the Next One.. I had to wait and wait.. as I am looking at the Big Glass Jar.. I see the rain waters being filled UP to the brim.. and Holding it in my arms.. Now it feels so heavy with rain showering and falling down on me.. this is so Wrong.. I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted your Big Heart.. why do I feel that I have been wronged by YOU and I would start to cry.. It hurts and I feel like a Loser.. But I know that I love you More.. even a Loser can Love you know.. I may be a loser.. but I know How to love YOU.. learning how to love is the greatest thing I am learning in my life.. I don't care if YOU see me as a Loser.. but I know that I love YOU.. the More I love YOU.. One day I believe that YOU can see me a Winner too.. I want YOU to see me as a Winner.. but I feel like a Loser because I know that the time is Up.. I came here to ask you for One thing.. I been holding this Big Empty Glass jar and I had to walk for 30 minutes just to get to this House looking UP at this Big Window.. and I know that I have to turn and walk the Other way.. But I feel like I did Not do anything.. is asking for Your Big Heart.. am I doing what is wrong.. to tell you that I love YOU.. is it that I am wrong.. I am Not sure what is right then if all these things are wrong.. Please tell me.. am I at the right House.. at the right Place.. LOOKING at the right Big Window.. is this YOU who send me this Picture.. is the address wrote by YOU.. and as I would turn around to walk the Other way.. my arms holding this Big Empty Glass jar with rain water filled up to the brim.. I am standing there looking the Other way crying.. I would keep on crying Hard because I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to know if this is the right Place.. did I come because.. and as I begin to walk holding the Big Glass Jar filled with rain water.. the rain would keep on falling down as I am walking slowly.. 30 minutes of the walk back to the bus station.. and I hear something behind Me.. and I stop.. the grasp of air.. I hear something behind and I am thinking.. what is that Noise coming from.. why is my Heart be pounding inside.. I feel it being so Loud and clear and I would slowly turn around to take a Look of the noise.. and as I turn to LOOK up at the Big Window.. I see you standing there.. inside the House in a white dress.. I just can't believe it.. and my arms open and it drops the Big Glass jar.. the rain water all pours out of the Big Glass jar and it did not break.. I am looking at YOU.. YOU are so beautiful.. why are you so Beautiful to me and I would open my mouth crying.. and I would sit on the floor.. just crying my Heart out.. I been waiting for YOU.. I came all the way here just to see YOU.. I know that my emotions can be pretty rough which it is just me.. I just can't help it because I been asking for YOU.. and the response.. sometimes the response is taking you a lot longer than usual.. but for Me.. I been asking for YOU.. for Your Big Heart.. YOU do not know how it feels to turn around.. Not knowing and thinking you will never show UP at the time I am asking for.. what if YOU did not show UP.. or if I did not hear the Noise.. the sound which caught my attention before I was ready to walk faster away.. but I stopped when I heard something.. Just in case.. it has to be YOU right.. I am the one who has been waiting for YOU for a long time.. each letter has to count right.. I put some much Heart and soul into each as I am thinking of How can I love YOU more.. even though it may not be much to your eyes.. YOU have to remember it means everything to Me.. I put all what I can just to let you know that It is real Me who has been loving YOU.. How much More do you need to know that I do.. but you know that YOU are the Love of my Life and It hurts when I feel like YOU just don't care about me.. I have a Heart too.. I have feelings just like YOU.. who can express to let YOU know How much I love YOU.. I stand UP.. Looking UP at the Big Window.. I just can't believe it that it is YOU.. and I see YOU standing in the White Dress.. waving Your Hand and My Heart.. YOU got to my Heart.. you really got to my Heart.. can't YOU hear the Sound of My Heart which is making a lot of noises inside of Me.. I would go down and I would pick up the Big Empty Glass jar as the rain was slowly falling.. my arms around the Big Empty Glass Jar.. I know that I will be here soon.. I know that I could Not get the Big Heart I came for.. but YOU.. my Darling YOU.. as long as you just showed UP.. that means much more to me.. I know I will be back but Now.. I must go.. as the Bus is coming to the Bus Station.. I know that If I don't go now.. I can't catch the Next Bus unless another three hours goes By.. as I would walk UP slowly to the Big Window.. My hand touch the Big Window and I am looking at your Smile.. I love when YOU smile.. my Heart says Your Smile is so beautiful.. Your eyes is so Beautiful.. Your White Dress YOU wear is so beautiful.. just you being YOU is so Beautiful.. let me ask you this.. WHY are you so beautiful.. I know that I love you much More.. YOU may not see it Now.. but as time goes by YOU can truly feel my Heart that I truly DO love YOU.. YOU can't see Love but you can feel it when Love is real.. when I really Love YOU.. I know you can feel it from my Heart why because I love YOU more.. I love you more each and every day.. I keep on loving YOU more and More.. because I just really do.. as I would turn the Other way.. I am looking UP at the Sun as it is Out.. I never dreamed of a day like this.. I only Hoped and wished that it could Be.. but when I believe in our Love.. I know that It will happen.. as I would hold the big Empty Glass Jar and I would start to walk ahead.. I would reach to the Bus Station.. and Now
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I been wondering where YOU are.. I am just missing you so Much right Now.. is it because of me you have left.. or is it something else.. You know that I am always here waiting Underneath.. Just please Come Out side at Night.. Just Look UP at the sky at Night.. when YOU find the Peace within YOU.. and just loving YOU.. you do not have to do anything.. because I am Not asking for anything but just asking can I still love YOU.. will YOU let me Love YOU.. if YOU are going through some Hard times.. there is NO One who feels always Happy on the Other side.. always something is happening and Life can be a true Drama.. but Let me know something that is True.. something that is real.. that I love YOU.. NO matter what YOU are going through.. it can be sad.. sometimes YOU can feel mad and angry.. frustrated just because.. feels like YOU want to cry or even just being truly Happy and joyful.. that I still love YOU no matter the Conditions that YOU are weathering In.. as long as YOU can walk Out side and come when YOU see the Night.. I love the Night because I get to see the Big Moon.. and when I stand still and be quiet.. and Just be able to LOOK UP at the MOON at night.. I find true peace and Joy.. because I am thinking of YOU.. I get to take my time Out.. from all of the busy days of running errands and work.. but when I want to think of YOU the Most.. I be in the room.. sitting by the Desk.. I would open the drawer and when I look inside.. there is YOUR Picture.. I would pull the Picture Out and In my hands I be holding your Picture tight.. I would kiss the Picture of YOU and tell YOU.. of course I wish that YOU be here to able to listen to my words what I have to say to YOU.. but it is Only Your Picture I can talk to right Now.. and I would look over to the corner.. I am looking at the Little Piano who is sitting alone.. it breaks my Heart because ever since I loved YOU.. I always wanted to share something Out more then just a Letter.. I really wanted to tell YOU.. speak to YOU and also finding ways if YOUR Heart can be touched.. be Moved by something else.. some much More I wanted to give to YOU because I love YOU.. I remember the first day I saw the Little Piano.. my Mother gave it to me and told Me.. one day she wanted to watch me play this Little Piano.. I would make such a rude remarks about it because I did Not want to play at that Time.. teacher who teaches Piano came to my Home.. I would sit next to the teacher and she would play so well.. gave me home works to do to practice.. told me many times that I needed the time to practice.. I would Not listen to the voice.. never played and never practiced.. I remember my Mother told me.. what if YOU find someone YOU really Love.. it is something More than a Money can ever Buy.. it can be a gift from the Heart if YOU truly Love.. and you wanted to share it to someone so Special.. and I am looking at your Picture.. and I wish that I would of listened to the Voice of my Mother because she told me.. it is a GIFT that even a Money cannot buy a One's Heart.. as Long as I love YOU.. it would of been the greatest gift I could of given YOU because I know that My Heart.. who Loves you even More Now.. I love YOU much More because when I look at your Picture.. I can't stop but smiling.. my Heart feels so Hot and it gets warm.. gets Hot and turns warm.. when I grab Hold unto your Picture.. I can feel my Heart.. I can feel the Beating of the Heart goes fast.. I want to stop my Own Heart to stop beating so fast but like Me.. My Heart never listen to my voice.. when I look at the Little Piano IN my Room.. it is sitting there.. and I would be sitting by the desk.. I would be looking at your Picture.. there are Nights I wish I could turn back the Clock and I know my Mother would of loved me playing well.. because even though she is my Mother.. the Heart of a woman never lies about Another Woman what she can truly feel when a MAN can truly share and expresses HOW much I love YOU.. and be real with my Heart and my Words to YOU because it will show what MONEY just can't buy.. I know that being Poor can be very bad but having a lot of Money who cannot share anything.. LIKE a WALL.. what good is a MAN if He cannot tell the Woman HE loves that HE truly Loves YOU.. when you look at a wall.. what good is the wall if it be a MAN who can't speak UP and share.. I rather be poor.. and have very little Money but has a BIG HEART to always tell YOU that I love YOU.. that I can do whatever it takes until YOU be in my Arms.. into my arms I will hold you close forever.. until YOU say to me that It is very Hot.. then warm.. then it gets very HOT and yes.. I can make you feel so HOT because Love has NO Language.. it is an universal which ONLY very few MEN in this world can understand the Heart of a WOMAN.. as I would pull the chair and sit.. pull open the drawer and I would take Your Picture Out of the drawer.. the First thing on my Mind.. I will say.. I missed YOU and the Next would be.. I love YOU.. YOU may Not hear my words right Now.. YOU may say maybe it be never I can say it to YOU.. but I believe that Love can change Your Heart.. if I truly Love YOU.. and able to tell YOU through the Letters.. I am sure that One day.. it can hit into the right Spot of your Heart.. of course I do not know when or HOW long it can take.. but I believe that One day soon will be here.. after I take a Look at your Picture.. My Head turns to look at the Corner.. in the corner of the room.. the Little Piano sits and It waits for Me.. even though I would stare at the Little Piano.. I know it is telling me to get UP and go over to the Little Piano.. bring the chair and sit by the Little Piano instead.. but I would be reminded of my Mother's words.. that if I don't learn it Now.. later will Never come and when I become older and starts to Love.. there will be a time when I would look back and remember the Words of my Mother telling me.. why am I asking Now.. when my Mother pushed me so Hard then for me to learn it.. My Mother pushed me Hard.. and told me when I let this Go.. don't be crying back to her asking for another chance because by then it is just too Late.. and I would be looking at the Little Piano.. tears are filled Now because I wasn't serious about the Words she told Me.. my Mother said.. Music is like an Art.. something that can be expressed and can be very creative with.. something that I needed to learn my Own experimenting with it.. and I do look at my Mother and I do tell her.. she is Right.. because Now I love YOU.. I show the picture of YOU to my Mother.. and I would say.. Mother Look.. I want to play the Little Piano.. I want to share and say how much I love YOU.. but tell you More.. much more ways.. and I would be wiping the tears from my eyes as I am LOOKING at YOU in the Picture and I turn to LOOK at my Mother.. WHO sees the Little Piano in the room.. and I would say.. I regret Now.. it is so Sad that I feel this way when I look at the Little Piano.. and even though I be asking for a second chance.. I would say.. I need another chance.. I need a second chance to Learn HOW to play this Little Piano.. as I am getting older.. I feel my Heart hurt so bad because I missed out one of the greatest way to tell YOU that I love YOU.. Only if I learned at the Time.. because when My Mother told me to Learn it and the Teacher came.. it was the perfect timing.. I would be watching the fingers.. key bars hitting and sounds.. and I would be stepping back watching but I had the distaste for it at that time.. if I knew you back then.. if I saw you at that age.. when I was much younger.. I wonder what would of happened at that time.. it be the right timing.. the perfect timing.. and yes.. if I saw you then and Loved YOU then.. I would of gave my Whole heart learning and playing.. just for that One day when I see YOU.. I be playing the Little Piano and letting YOU know how much I love YOU.. I would still look at the Little Piano sitting in the Corner of the Room.. as I would stare at it many times.. I would love to play.. instead when I walk Out of the room.. I would walk out without looking at it because I know that I would think about regretting of the chance I had.. because I would be crying still because losing the chance really hurts me Now.. as I would walk Out of the ROOM.. I am holding the Letter in my Hand.. and I would be walking Out of the House.. and In the Night.. when I see the Moon UP in the sky.. I would walk alone by myself.. and I would stop as I stare at the MOON who is above me.. and I would turn to face the Moon.. and as I lift up the Letter in my Hands.. and I would read the Letter to the MOON.. I would say.. if I learned How to play the Little Piano years ago.. I would of brought the Little Piano Out here with Me.. does Not matter who is around.. but I would put the Little Piano in the Middle of the road.. and I would sit on the Piano Bench.. I be looking at your Picture.. and looking at your picture it inspires my Heart to tell YOU what my Heart truly feels of Loving you.. it does Not matter who would stop to listen.. people can pass by.. they can call me crazy.. or tell me to go Home.. but I do not care because I am Not out there for those people.. I am out here in the Night.. with the Little Piano.. playing a SONG to YOU.. I know that YOU would not be able to listen to the Playing of this Song.. YOU will Not even hear my voice singing out to YOU.. but I don't care.. I would close both eyes and I know that even though YOU may be far.. a Long distance from me.. in my Heart.. inside my Head.. in my thoughts.. YOU live inside of Me.. as far as YOU are.. in my vision and IN my Heart.. I can feel you close.. I guess it does Not matter about the distance because what counts is How much I love YOU.. that I know.. I believe that if I truly Love YOU.. On the Other side.. YOU are able to know
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All along.. I have been underneath this MOON.. every time I saw the Moon appear before me.. I would walk with the Letter in my hands and I know that I would pass the Little Piano that is at the Corner of the room.. it been better if I was able to bring the Little Piano Out with me.. maybe the reach of my words of sharing and reading could of been faster.. it can grab the attention to many people when they see me sitting Out in the middle of the road.. Playing the Little Piano.. underneath the Big Moon above me.. people would of heard it and let it be known.. but I know that I can't play the Little Piano and that is why it is taking a lot longer to reach YOU.. but It does not matter how long the wait because I know that If I love you.. I can wait.. I am ABLE to be patient to wait for YOU.. as Long as YOU Know still.. I still believe in Love and I do still Love YOU.. as Long as YOU can come Out at Night.. and Underneath the Same Moon at Night.. only thing I wanted to say and ask YOU.. if YOU ever show UP on a Night where YOU see the Moon.. can YOU hear me.. tell me that YOU heard me On the Other side.. because if YOU are hearing a Voice.. it is Me on the Other side.. speaking to the MOON and telling the MOON about How much I love YOU.. if YOU can hear a voice and knows that it is Only One voice YOU hear.. it is more like going to be Me on the Other side.. sharing from Heart as I would open the Letter I wrote to YOU.. telling the MOON.. I miss YOU.. that I love YOU and still been here waiting for YOU.. Until the day Your Heart knows who is the One loving me.. I hope that YOU will see that in your Heart.. that it is NOT another person but YOU know that It is me who be loving you.. because I want to say.. I really Love YOU.. and always I will love you still.. as I turn to LOOK at the House.. I see my room.. and My Heart breaks because when I walk into my room.. the Little Piano sits and waits for me.. asking me to Play if for YOU.. asking me.. begging me to play a Song to YOU.. I hit my chest because My Mother's voice.. there is something that Money just can't buy.. the day when YOU find someone YOU love.. it can be a gift to tell how much you love and Now.. I have found the One I truly Love.. I wish that I learned.. because.. I would of have the Letter in my hands.. but also be playing the Little Piano telling YOU that I love YOU.. YOU will hear the News about me.. it be everywhere because when I am able to tell YOU that I do.. I really would keep on telling YOU.. even when I die.. even when YOU die.. I be by your grave and tell YOU.. with the Little Piano and with the Letter.. I still Love YOU.. I have the tape Recorder in my hand and I would stop the record and Push the Play button.. Listening to the Song in the back ground.. I am listening to my voice.. it was the day I got very drunk and I just can't help myself and just pouring Out my Heart.. I was sitting down on the Desk and I would be looking at the Letter I wrote to YOU.. letting you know How much I am dealing with this Missing YOU.. there are times when I feel so Lost and it drives me Mad.. it drives me crazy when I am dealing with YOU when YOU cannot be found.. as I am sitting down by the Desk.. listening to the Tape recorder.. I can hear myself crying as I am sharing my Heart to YOU.. telling YOU how much it hurts to be missing YOU and when will be the time I can be with YOU.. I know it sounds so non sense but there are days I just needs to be with YOU.. that I want to be with YOU close.. and I am wondering How can I get YOU close to Me.. so that I can tell YOU how much I missed YOU and been loving YOU.. why can't I tell you these words of Mine to YOUR ears.. and No matter How much time Flies.. the Love I have for you seems to grow stronger and stronger because all I ever want is for YOU TO be close to my Heart and for you to always remember how much I love YOU.. as I would press the Stop button on the tape recorder.. I want to mail this tape Out to YOU.. I wish there was a way for me to give you this Tape which I just heard my voice telling you that I love YOU.. will you believe my words when I tell you this.. if you receive this Tape that has been recorded by my voice with the Piano sound in the back Ground.. would you believe me that it is my Heart that I put into for YOU.. as I would sit and LOOK at the tape.. I know that I can't mail this to YOU.. I know that YOU won't listen to the tape because there is A lot of crying on the Other side.. I was so drunk.. I do not remember much because it seemed like I blacked Out after.. but I do still want to give you something from My Heart.. it is to give YOU a song.. I want to write YOU a Song.. a Music.. but I am Not sure will you listen to the Music.. to the song that be send to YOUR Way.. as I am looking at the Little Piano.. I put the Little Piano next to the desk.. and I have the Empty Glass Jar with me.. and I wish that If you cannot be here with me.. if I am going to be missing Your presence.. at least leave me with Your Heart.. I would be asking.. if you can please give me Your Heart instead.. then I would not miss you too much because at least I can look at your Heart.. I wish that I can have your Heart.. will you please give me Your Heart.. I want your Heart so that I know that YOU will come.. Only way YOU can come a little Closer is when YOU have your Heart.. I can truly imagine Your Heart.. as I would open the Door.. front door and I would see a Small Box in the front.. as I would take the Small Box into my room.. and I been giving YOU a Note.. a Note that went to YOU asking for Your Heart and I believe if you have read this Note.. I be asking.. if YOU ever stop BY.. if you are close By.. there is Only ONE thing.. One Wish I need from YOU.. all I be asking was that ONE thing.. it is Your Heart.. Let me please have this Heart so that I can surprise you with a Gift.. as I am holding this Small Box.. I see the Note attached.. I just could Not believe that YOU have responded to the Message of the Note.. because when I looked at the Note YOU have placed on the TOP of the Small Box.. I would read what I have wrote to YOU for One WISH I needed.. I am touching my Chest.. I can feel my Heart beat as I would look at the Note and It was my Own writings of the Note.. It means YOU have read it and you have responded to the Message which I felt my Heart be touched of Your reaction to this One request I been asking you for A Long time.. I sit on the floor.. and I open the top of the Small Box and I take a LOOK into the Small Box.. It is a Heart.. Not just any Heart.. but it is Your Heart.. for a Long time.. I been asking and Needing this from YOU.. I would hold your Heart with Both Hands.. and as I would stand UP on two feet.. I go over to the Empty Glass Jar.. inside the Glass Jar is soft Cottons laid inside to Protect Your Heart.. I place your Heart gently lowering inside where your Heart lays on the Soft Cottons.. I can't feel my Heart.. I feel like my Heart is skipping its Beat as I am looking at your Heart.. It must be that I love Your Heart.. that I love your Heart as much as I love YOU.. I would place the Glass Jar with Your Heart inside on the TOP right side of the Little Piano.. I know a friend who can play the Piano well and brought him over to Play a SOFT songs for Your Heart.. as I am looking at the Letter I wrote to YOU.. it was last Night I had to sit by the desk and I would write through the Night.. as My friend comes and he sits on the Piano Bench and I look at his Hands.. his fingers touches the Piano Bars and starts to Play a Music.. Play a SONG.. I would Look at the Letter.. as I would LOOK at your Heart inside the Glass Jar.. and I would start to Speak to your Heart as I would get closer to the Glass Jar.. I would say to your Heart.. ALL I ever wanted is for YOU to come close.. I know that I am poor.. I have truly nothing to give YOU that is really important.. I am hearing the Sounds of the Little Piano playing.. with such a soft tunes and I would look at the Glass Jar.. Looking at your Heart.. I would say to Your Heart through the Glass Jar.. I have been asking for your Heart.. But it seems like YOU never wanted to show me Your Heart.. I always wanted to feel close to YOU.. a Heart to Heart close is what I am talking about.. I been struggling trying to figure Out How can YOU Love me.. I know that I have found a Way to tell YOU that I love YOU.. to transfer and to deliver to YOU some way and some how.. even though when I would walk Out side.. and when I look UP at the MOON.. I see and clearly feel the Long distance between Us.. I see How High the Moon is when I look UP at the sky.. and How far it is to get to that MOON.. it is the same way I feel when I think of YOU.. How High and How far it is for me to get to YOU.. but I know that I will never give UP.. as Long as I know that there is that ONE DAY.. and I believe strongly in that some Day.. NO matter How many times My Heart can Break or How Much I can feel the Hurt and the Pain I must endure.. and How much time I needs to wait.. even though it can be Never to be with YOU.. as Long as YOU know that I still Love YOU and I still believe that some Day it can happen.. having that Hope and to keep on dreaming of loving YOU still.. I know that It can come true.. as YOU can see I never thought that I can write YOU a Letter.. who ever thought that I can believe in this Love.. but there was that One day.. I would start to think beyond.. I start to think about the MOON and think about going Beyond.. what if I can JUMP over the MOON.. walk if I can walk on the MOON.. even though I may never be able too but I can still dream very BIG and never give UP on that dream to Love YOU.. as Long as YOU are able to receive on the Other side and that YOU are able to give a Little bit of that TIME.. and for you to open and to look at just One Letter that I write to YOU telling you that
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Because YOU know that I been here loving you for just a Long time.. Don't you want to love the One who loves you the Most.. don't you want to know who loves you the Most.. because It is Me.. It always has been me who been loving YOU still.. all I want you to do is just remember me because this is the Only thing I am hoping for.. just that One wish is for you to Know and to remember that there is a MAN out there.. if YOU feel lonely and alone in times.. YOU should walk Out side.. and be by yourself.. and Just LOOK UP.. if the Moon appears before your eyes.. that is when the time YOU can see.. some one is thinking of YOU always.. who is loving YOU still.. who is on the Other side who been LOOKING UP at that same MOON as your eyes be looking.. that On the Other side.. I feel the same way.. that I do feel lonely in times and many times when I walk out side.. I am alone but I love to LOOK at the MOON when I am alone because It reminds me of YOU and I be thinking of YOU and I smile while I am looking at that MOON because I know that MOON knows me.. Knows my Heart.. knows How much I love YOU.. telling YOU.. looking at your Picture as I am standing Out side alone.. as the MOON is before my eyes and I be opening UP my Heart looking at your Picture and I am sure the MOON can hear my voice.. can hear my out cries when I share from my Heart of How much I miss YOU.. How much I love YOU.. but I would say looking at your Picture.. it hurts.. Loving YOU is the greatest feeling in the world to have but missing YOU hurts me the Most.. it kills me in times because I want you close.. I want you close as my arms can wrap around YOU.. as near I can feel your Heart Beat and listen.. and I can know that Your Heart is so beautiful.. just the sound of the Beating of Your Heart is all I can say when I listen.. because I love YOU.. as I am looking at the Glass Jar.. the friend stops playing the Little Piano because.. I am looking at your Heart inside the Glass Jar.. and it is moving.. Your Heart is moving.. does it means that Your Heart is beating for Me.. I am Not sure what that means because I would stop reading the Letter I have place before me.. and I turn to look at the friend.. I know that I love YOU still.. it would be a Lie if I say I don't.. but it seems like I am growing to Love you More each time I share.. each time I write YOU a Letter.. I can feel my Heart just growing more.. that I want to say.. WILL you ever come close to Me.. I want YOU to come close to me.. Please help me How do I do that.. Please help me a way so that I get close to YOU.. close to your Heart so that I can tell YOU.. can I love you forever.. WILL you let me say How much I love you forever.. I can tell you forever that I love YOU still because I know that I will die if I can't love you.. I know I will die if I can't tell you how much I love YOU.. it is in my BLOOD to love you for ever because YOU are my forever Love.. Please show me your Heart so that I can keep continue to Love you more and More and to grow to Love you more and more over and over again.. I just wanted to say.. I love you still.. Watching the Rain falling from the sky.. I came Out side.. just could not get YOU off my Mind.. thinking of YOU hurts My Head because it starts with my Heart be missing YOU.. trying to keep my Mind.. my thoughts out of YOU.. I decided to walk Out side.. but did Not expect the Rain to show UP.. as I am standing.. I see the Light rain showering Down.. When I am in the Room.. I been drinking a lot.. the Bottle is inside in the Room.. and Now it is empty bottle.. How can I take a Message to YOU.. How can I tell YOU that I am waiting for YOU.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. will you let me Love YOU over and over again.. waiting here.. I know that I just can't tell YOU.. as I am Out side.. I brought the Little Piano.. and I been trying to record the Playing of the Piano on this Recorder.. I can Put the Tape into the empty Bottle.. so that I can send it to YOU.. But How.. that is the Question that has been popping in my Head all this Time.. I be in the Room.. siting by the desk.. and I be looking at your Picture.. as I would LOOK at the Picture of YOU.. there is something that I must say.. I must tell YOU before it be Just too Late.. Not sure what it is but I know my Time is running Out.. and the TIME tics very fast.. that is WHY I have NO Other time but Now to tell YOU.. what's been in my Mind.. what's been in my Heart.. and I needs to tell YOU.. But.. How am I suppose to get it across to YOU.. if I am here.. standing Out side.. Looking at the Rain falling from the Sky.. it is lightly Rain.. the Little Piano is telling Me that I needs to play a Song for YOU.. that I needs to hit the Key bars which brings Out a tune of songs.. something that YOU can listen too.. but I be asking my self.. WHAT DO I Play.. I be looking at this Little Piano.. who is standing Next to Me Out side.. if I know that I can't even play this kind of Instrument.. but my Heart is telling me that I needs to play a SONG for YOU through this Little Piano who is with me right Now.. it hasn't been played for a Long time.. but it wants me to Play something.. but I know that I can't.. that is HOW I feel about YOU.. that I wants to be with YOU.. that I wants to see YOU.. and be near YOU so that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. that My arms been missing YOU.. asking myself I needs to Hold YOU close in my arms.. I needs to hold you tight.. but I know just standing here Out side.. after LOOKING at your Picture and taking some shots of the Liquor in the Room.. I feel like looking at this Little Piano who is next to me.. even though the Presence of the Little Piano may be near me.. I can't even play a Song.. I can't compose or write a Music.. I can't sing while playing the Little Piano.. but it is very close to Me here.. so I been asking myself.. what is better.. If you were near me and very Close but I can't do anything with YOU.. or is it better that YOU are so far away and I ache of missing YOU.. but.. is it the Letter that I can write to give YOU.. because I would sit by the desk.. and I would look at the Pen in my hand and I would LOOK at the Piece of paper in the front.. LOOKING at your Picture of YOU.. just aching and Missing YOU.. I would pen it DOWN on the paper.. sharing and telling YOU as I would write.. what My Heart be telling me.. How much I been thinking of YOU and Missing YOU.. that YOU are the Only One who I love.. that YOU are the Only One I think of and the One who I misses the Most.. as I would stop.. Pouring on the Shot Glass the Liquor.. and I would sit.. Aching this pain from my Heart.. I would like to tear my Heart Out of me because it hurts.. Missing YOU hurts me.. and also just loving YOU hurts Me.. and also just thinking of YOU hurts me even More because there is NOTHING I can do.. and I would LOOK.. Look at the Little Piano.. and I am holding it in my arms.. I want to play.. I want to sing.. I want to bring Music Out of by pressing on the Key bars of this Instrument to bring Music OUT so that I can sing songs to YOU.. it drives me Nuts.. it drives me crazy because I see the Little Piano.. and I think of YOU and I want to share More to YOU and express this Heart to YOU.. but How can I if I can't Play on this Little Piano.. to tell YOU by singing songs.. I would be crying OUT my Heart as I would tell YOU through the Voice.. singing and singing Out my Heart as YOU.. as I would have the Letter In my Hand and through the Letter I would write.. I write my Heart which has YOUR NAME on the Front telling YOU.. WHY is my Heart be burning and why do I feel like I am dying.. drowning deeply.. LOOKING at the Little Piano makes me Cry.. it makes me want to cry Harder because it is a way to tell YOU.. if I would of learned years back of playing.. and when I did had that Chance to practice.. Only If I could turn back at the age of the YOUTH.. I should of learned at that TIME of the Chance.. I know if I did take that Chance at that TIME of the YOUTH.. I would be playing on that Little Piano.. and I would also record my Voice to tell YOU.. even though I may not have a GOOD voice to sing to YOU.. I would of practice my voice if I learned HOW to play this Little Piano.. and I would find ways to tell YOU MORE.. I be able to sit on the TOP of the MOON if I can.. and I be holding the Little Piano in my arms.. and sitting on the TOP OF the MOON.. I know that YOU are able to hear me Out.. I would turn to YOU.. and will say.. CAN YOU SEE ME.. I am sitting on the TOP of this MOON.. I do not know How I got here but I begged for two WINGS and It was provided just for this ONE VERY NIGHT.. to Put on ONE show.. I have written YOU a Letter so that WHEN YOU hear me playing on this Little Piano.. YOU can hear my Voice.. every Night.. I been thinking of YOU.. My Voice hurts but I had to practice.. every NIGHT I sang Out from my Heart.. crying because My Heart tells me HOW MUCH I love YOU.. Crying to tell YOU that THIS IS what Happens when YOU LOVE.. I don't want to be Like a Little GIRL because I am NOT.. but I can express and tell YOU.. as I be going into the rest room.. and singing SONGS.. working Out with my VOICE to be Heard.. it be that Just One Night.. where I can Sit on the TOP of the MOON with me is the Little Piano with me.. as I sit next to the Little Piano.. and my fingers on the Key bars of the Little Piano.. I would have your Picture with me.. showing YOU here is YOU.. Your Picture and if YOU can see me sitting in the TOP of the MOON.. my fingers would Hit the Key bars and it brings Out the Sounds.. making Songs with the Music from the LITTLE PIANO.. I would pull out the Letter.. and I would read the Letter Out Loud where YOU can hear my Voice telling YOU.. and I would say.. I been practicing for a long time.. Of course YOU would of Not know it because It was truly Behind the curtains.. I would Not tell any
@user-vr8uv7ro9g9 күн бұрын
YOU.. can YOU see me now.. Can you hear me Now.. Please give me Your time for few minutes because It is Not going to be that Long.. I been loving YOU.. and I am Not just saying it so that it make you feel nice.. I am saying it and telling you because It is In My Heart whose been loving YOU for So long.. can YOU hear the Little Piano playing a SONG.. can YOU Hear the Music that is coming out of this Little Piano.. I had to write the Music so that YOU will know that It came from me to YOU.. SO Please.. give me few Minutes of your time to hear me Out because I will Not be Long.. and as I would tell YOU what I have written on the Letter.. I will say to YOU.. I am Not sure when the Next time would Be.. when I will get another Chance to sit on the Top of this Moon.. but if the MOON allows me to get back here again.. I would so that I can tell YOU more with the Little Piano making song and music to Come alive.. I am only doing this to YOU so that YOU can see the real side of My Heart of How much I truly Love YOU.. and as I am standing next to the Little Piano.. I am Looking UP at the MOON.. and the rain starts to fall harder and harder and starts to pour down.. and I know I am getting More soak wet as I just stand here.. I am Only LOOKING at the MOON high above Me.. and I am NOT siting on the Top of the MOON any more.. I know that the Only way YOU can hear me.. that YOU can see me is if I can sit On the TOP of that Moon.. and show YOU this Little Piano with me.. playing to tell YOU how much I really Love YOU.. as I turn toward the Door.. I am able to take the Little Piano with me Back to the House.. I can't play the Little Piano what breaks my Heart.. even if there was a Chance for me to Sit on the Top of the MOON and the Little Piano with me.. I still would NOT able to share.. or Play the Little Piano to YOU.. that is how I feel most nights.. WHEN I look at your Picture.. when I pull your Picture and I take a Look at YOU.. I can only look.. but I want to have YOU close.. I want to be with YOU and tell YOU can I be with YOU forever.. will you be mine for ever please.. and I sit by the desk.. aching.. and I feel like I am getting sick because Just like the Little Piano in the ROOM.. in the Corner of the ROOM it just sits there and I would go over to the Little Piano.. I would touch but I can't Play or bring out any songs or make Music to this Little Piano.. when I sit by the desk.. I sit and looking at your Picture.. My Heart feels so sick sometimes.. because I can't be close to YOU.. I been telling YOU.. I been writing YOU letters.. and getting inspired by your Picture when I look at YOU when I think of Loving YOU.. I would tell YOU over and over.. typing to YOU to tell YOU how my Heart feels so Sick.. I think I am getting sick because I need YOU.. I need your Love.. I need you to be with Me.. I want to hold YOU and tell YOU that I am sick in my Heart because I love YOU just too much.. YOU are the One who can come and heal this Broken Heart of Mine.. my Heart is drying for Your Love.. I am dying for Your Love.. and when I look at the Little Piano.. I want to cry.. I want to sob and weep Out Loud because.. just like when I look at your Picture.. this is all I can do.. Nothing More I can do.. when I look at the Little Piano.. I can't do much with It.. I want to play.. bring SOUNDS.. the Joy of singing songs while Playing on the Little Piano will make me the Most happiest person like the DAY I can finally see YOU and meet YOU face to face.. I don't think My Heart be dying any more or be sick any More.. I be the Most happiest person in the world because it is just YOU.. it is YOU who I love the Most because all I want to say is I LOVE YOU..I am laying on the Bed in the room.. I am hearing songs playing in my Head.. even though I can't sing.. I can't even dance.. I can't even write Music or even compose.. I can't even write any lyrics.. But.. tell me why is a SONG playing in my Head.. and the room is dark because the Light has turned off in the room.. I am moving side to side.. and I am thinking of YOU.. I want to play a SONG for you.. only if I was a musician.. I would sit.. writing lyrics.. and writing the song notes.. composing a Music.. and I be thinking of what to say.. to express this Heart.. and to tell YOU through Music.. playing instrument to say that I love YOU.. but How.. How can I tell YOU that I love YOU more.. if only I have listened.. and what good is it now of regretting.. the Times when someone came to try to teach me how to play a song.. as I am sitting on top of the Bed.. I feel like the Times has gone by so Fast.. that I realize I am missing something to share.. to tell YOU more.. Is only Letters that I can tell YOU.. But My Heart wants to tell YOU so much More.. How can I tell YOU when YOU can't hear me on the Other side.. and I want to say something to YOU.. to YOUR HEART.. as I am looking at the corner of the ROOM.. I see the Little Piano.. it has been sitting there for a Long time.. and I would touch the key bars.. I would just press the key bars to bring Out the Sounds.. but I know that I can't play anything on that Little Piano.. but I wish I could.. I wish I have so that I can tell YOU.. only if I have two things.. YOUR HEART.. when are YOU going to give me Your Heart.. so that I can place YOUR Heart close to this Little Piano.. at least YOU can hear noises and sounds coming Out from that Little Piano.. and I would place your Heart.. Putting inside the Glass Jar.. and I would sit.. bringing a chair so that I can sit next to the Little Piano.. I would place the Glass Jar.. with Your Heart.. on Top of the Little Piano.. and I be crying looking at Your Heart as My Heart be burning inside of me because I love YOU.. I would say.. do YOU Hear me.. can YOU Heart this Heart.. it is burning and beating fast at the same time.. WHY can't YOU see me.. why can't you hear Me.. as I would pull the Letter.. with the pencil in my hand.. and I would LOOK at the Glass Jar.. LOOKING at Your Heart.. OH HOW MUCH I wanted to say something to this Heart of Yours.. and it has been such a Long time I been asking for this Heart.. why did it take so Long for Your Heart to come.. Now I am much older and grey.. do YOU think that I can walk properly and just waiting for the grave.. can I still tell YOU when I am laying on my own grave.. it has taken this Long.. I am an Older Man now.. and YOU are wondering.. will I still be able to love YOU as where I am Now.. I believe the age is nothing when it comes to Loving YOU.. fully embracing my self.. my Heart to love YOU and to tell YOU HOW much I love YOU.. and as I would be writing YOU a Letter.. with the Pencil.. I be crying looking at the Glass Jar.. crying because I am able to express fully.. to tell YOU by looking at Your Heart.. I am dying inside because I love YOU so Much.. I am dying because I love YOU.. I can feel my own blood rushing down because I can't stop but just loving YOU.. if YOU are to ask me why I died.. what will be written is because I just loved YOU to death.. I couldn't stop loving YOU so I died just waiting for YOU.. I would be writing a SONG.. playing on this Little Piano of what happened to me the Night before I died.. it is because I loved YOU SO MUCH.. just waiting for YOU but YOU never showed UP.. as my hairs turn grey.. and Just waiting.. it is because I love YOU.. after I write on this Letter of How much I love YOU.. I would look at the Glass jar.. looking at Your Heart and I would look at the Key Bars of this Little Piano.. I am Not sure what to push.. which key bars to press down.. the sounds are Not going to come Out right.. but would YOU still listen to the Sounds that each Key bars makes when my fingers presses down.. It is because I want to say something to YOU.. if YOU are asking me what am I going to say through the Sounds of playing on this LITTLE PIANO pushing the Key bars.. I don't want YOU to listen to the Music sound because it will Not make any sense of tunes it brings.. but What counts is that I want YOUR HEART to listen.. please listen to the voice I want to speak as YOU can hear the back ground sounds playing something.. I want to show YOU that it is Not the Noise or the sounds of the Little Piano speaking to YOU but it is My Heart.. I have a heart just like the Heart I am looking in the glass Jar.. I just want to say that I love YOU.. as my fingers starts to press on the key bars of this Little Piano.. my eyes are On the Glass Jar with Your Heart inside.. I want to touch Your Heart.. I want to feel Your Heart.. can YOU hear me now.. Can YOU hear my voice speaking.. I am talking to Your Heart.. that I love YOU.. HOW MUCH MORE WORDS I must say.. I must tell or share for YOU to understand My Heart.. as I am crying looking at Your Heart.. I just want to spend the rest of my Life of just loving YOU.. but YOU are so far away.. this Miles and separations.. the long distances that is killing me from the Inside.. sometimes I wonder what do I do if I keep on missing YOU and I am asking for Your Presence.. I would ask.. take me away because I am suffering.. Take me away first.. Please let me Die.. then I don't have to bear all this pain.. I am suffering because I love YOU.. I feel so painful inside because I love YOU.. I want to see YOU and be close to YOU.. what am I suppose to do when YOU are so far.. miles away that it feels I can never reach YOU.. as I am looking at the fingers.. I do hear sounds coming out from this Little Piano but I have NO idea what I am playing.. it sounds very bad because there is NO song.. this is NOT a music at all.. and YOU are asking me why am I playing on this Little Piano if I can't play a song.. and It sounds so bad.. I want Your Heart to know that it is Not the Sound or the Music.. but Please hear my voice.. YOU can hear my voice clearly if the song is not playing right.. so that I can speak to this Heart.. to Your Heart.. I want to tell YOU
@user-vr8uv7ro9g9 күн бұрын
My Lips is moving.. Words are not coming out.. it is because I am sitting on the TOP of the Bed.. the ROOM is dark.. and the Little Piano is on the corner.. and I am trying to go to sleep.. but I just can't.. and Keeps me awake.. My Heart is crying.. My eyes are crying.. My Head is crying because I am crying.. crying for YOU.. wanting YOU close in my arms.. and to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. but I can't.. I get Out of the bed.. since I can't sleep.. I walk to the window and I look Out.. I see the rain falling from the sky and it is still raining slightly.. I feel like this Rain.. my Heart wants to rain because my eyes kept on raining.. will these tears ever stop from my Eyes.. how about my Heart.. I can hear my Heart weeping Loud inside.. asking for YOU.. calling Out your Name.. asking for YOU over and over again.. when can I see YOU again.. when will that day be.. YOU know that I feel like the rain I am seeing outside this room.. and it just don't stop.. lately it has been raining so much.. that It reminds of myself when I look YOU at.. when I look at your Picture.. and I sit.. I be asking for YOU.. that My Heart keeps on raining and when will this rain STOPS.. as I turn away from the Window.. in the Dark.. I see the Little Piano Looking at Me.. asking me to Play a SONG for YOU.. and I would stop and just look at it on the corner.. asking the Little Piano.. what song can I play for YOU.. I can't even play any instrument.. I wished that I learned when I had the chance.. but I did Not wanted to when I was young.. But Now I do regret so much for Not learning because If I learned at that time.. and I would of mastered playing the Little Piano.. I could of have composed a Music and wrote a song for YOU.. and even wrote a Lyrics that goes with the SONG.. I would of have brought the tape recorder in front of me and of course I would of played the Little Piano.. bringing sounds but it be a song just for YOU.. as I would of sang YOU the song while sharing the Lyrics.. after I would of finished playing the Little Piano and sang YOU the SONG.. I would also of read the Letter that I wrote so that YOU know that How much I put into the work.. of telling YOU that I love YOU.. I would of said to YOU.. In front me is the Glass Jar.. Please just imagine with Me.. that I have a Glass Jar.. Inside that Glass jar is Your Heart sitting there.. I would look at YOUR Heart and with Loving YOU I be inspired to share and to write YOU something.. telling YOU.. I saw YOUR Heart.. I saw Your Heart which I waited for a Long time.. I just could Not let Your Heart get away.. when I saw YOUR Heart.. I decided to Put your Heart inside this empty Glass jar.. I did Not want Your Heart to get away.. DID NOT mean to scare YOU at all.. but it is Your Heart.. I know that Only way YOU can come close.. is only if I have Your Heart with me.. I want YOU to come close.. and I thought of Your Heart.. I would Put your Heart.. in the Glass jar.. and there is the Little Piano in the room.. I would place the Glass Jar on top of the Little Piano.. My Heart be touched when I look at your Heart because I wanted YOU.. I wanted to be with YOU.. I wanted YOU to be with me forever so I put inside the Glass jar.. I would say.. I have learned how to play the Little Piano for this very reason to tell YOU More.. how much I love YOU.. I would pull up a chair and I would sit next to the Little Piano.. and My fingers started to press the Key bars.. and a song came Out.. I looked at the Glass jar.. looking at Your Heart.. I would be hearing sounds becoming songs and I sang from My Heart telling Your Heart.. How much I love YOU.. my tears kept on running down as I would sing the song to YOUR HEART so that YOUR Heart can remember how Much I love You.. so that YOUR Heart will never forget that there is someone who loves YOU.. who loves Your Heart.. as I am sitting on the top of the Bed.. in the dark room.. I would lay back down on the been.. and trying to fall back asleep.. but My Heart kept on crying.. and I kept on crying for YOU.. Only if I learned How to play the Piano.. the Little Piano.. right now I be making Music and singing Songs to YOU telling YOU that I still Love YOU.. that I will never stop but loving YOU still.. I just can't stop looking at this Little Piano.. why is it keep on telling me to come Near.. and I am thinking of YOU.. I need your Heart.. I need your Heart here with Me.. that is only way I can tell YOU what is IN my Heart.. I am asking YOU.. Heart to Heart.. Please.. tell me can I have your Heart close to Me.. so that I can tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I want to say that I love you like I am so Crazy in Love with YOU.. Please.. How can I have your Heart close to Me.. I turn to look at the Little Piano.. it is telling me to play a tune.. telling me to touch the Key bars.. that Only it is fingers away from the Touch.. if I can only play.. If I can only write the Music.. compose a Song.. write a Music so that YOU can hear something Out of this Little Piano.. but.. I know that I can't play a tune.. I can't make a sound.. it just be so noisy in your ears.. the tunes will Not sound right which it should make you feel something very special but If I play on this Little Piano.. instead of smiling.. YOU can be angry with me instead saying.. WHY can't I play a Good music that makes you smile and makes you happy.. that is why I am telling YOU I can't play.. but the Little Piano who is in my room.. is looking at me telling me.. I want to play something for YOU.. to tell you that I love YOU.. I have the Recorder in my Hand.. and I put a tape inside the recorder.. and on the Top of the desk is the Empty Glass Jar.. inside is Your Picture.. I took your Picture and someone was able to make it pretty big.. the Picture I put inside the Glass Jar.. I can see your Beautiful Face.. only if YOU were in this room.. Only If I can have your Heart.. and Place your Heart inside the Glass Jar next to Your Picture.. I am able to tell YOU something.. I would turn to look at the Little Piano.. I would ask.. would you let me Play.. even though I would Not be able to play anything.. I can push the Play Button of the Recorder and the Instrument of a Piano.. a Professional Pianist can Play.. I would stand next to the Little Piano.. can Act like I can Play.. when YOU hear the sound of the Music coming Out of the Recorder of playing the Piano.. I would turn and I would LOOK at the Desk.. I would look at your Picture.. I would Look at the Heart.. only If I have your Heart.. I be saying to YOU.. I have written YOU a Letter.. I wrote it last Night.. I was thinking about this very night so I had to write it.. and I had to memorize what I wrote to YOU in the Letter to tell YOU.. Can YOU hear the Song.. the Instrumental of this Piano Playing.. If YOU look towards me who is standing by the Little Piano.. YOU can be pretty confused because It looks like I am playing the Piece of Music.. Yes.. my fingers are pressing into the Key Bars of this Little Piano.. but.. I have turned off the sound that comes Out of this Piano because.. the recorder is playing instead.. Can YOU hear the Music of this Piano Playing.. Please if YOU can't.. Open your ears.. Please tell me that YOU can hear Me.. Please.. open your Heart for me and listen to the Sound of this Music of Piano.. the Instrumental Playing.. I want to give you this Song.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I know that YOU are hearing the Sound of this Little Piano Playing.. it is what I will say to YOU.. that I love YOU.. My Heart can't take it no more.. My fingers pressing.. hands wants to pound on this Key Bars on this Piano.. when ever I think of YOU.. when ever I want to say I love YOU.. I can hear my own Heart.. telling me It wants to beat faster.. it beats faster because I needs to say it and tell YOU that I love YOU.. as I turn to look at the desk.. Looking at the Glass Jar.. I am looking at your Picture.. and.. Only if Your Heart be placed inside.. I be crying Out Loud.. I love YOU.. you do not know what YOU have done to me but I want to say that I love YOU.. as I turn to look at the Little Piano.. I feel so sad.. I feel so happy but sad again.. because all I see is myself.. I don't see YOU.. But I needs to see YOU.. I want to see you.. I needs your Heart here with me.. so that I can tell your Heart.. I do not know How long.. but I have to say to Your Heart.. I love you.. How Long.. I will say it I love YOU.. looking at the Little Piano.. I know that It feels My Heart.. it knows My Heart because it knows my Heart.. I believe the Little Piano hears my voice.. as I am playing and touching the Key bars.. it knows that I love YOU.. knowing how much I needs to be with YOU.. but I will say.. YOU are so Far off.. WHY do you have to be so Far that I can't see YOU.. I wants to find a way where YOU can be near.. will you let me come close to YOU.. Please let me know because.. I want to take this Little Piano with Me.. and stand next to YOU.. I would turn to LOOK at you.. and I will tell YOU.. this is the Little Piano I was talking to Your About.. every Night.. I would turn to look at this Little Piano.. I feel stuffy inside.. sometimes I feel frustrated because I want to be close to YOU.. when I feel so stuffy inside.. I get close to this Little Piano.. and I would turn it on.. where when My Fingers touch the key bars.. and it presses into it.. YOU can hear the sounds of each key bar when YOU press it down.. it makes a noises.. and as my fingers touch and presses into the key bars.. I want to play you a Song.. making a Music and I would face the Wall.. Only if YOU can be right there.. Only if YOU can be that close to Me.. and I would say.. WHY do you have to be so Far.. that I can't find YOU any where.. I can't see YOU any where.. I want to tell YOU so that YOU can hear me but I know that NO matter how much I speak.. or how much my fingers press into the Key bars
@user-zb1de5nb6e11 күн бұрын
좋은 곳 많이 돌아다니누
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thank you taeyeon.
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탱구tv 다시 살려줘요. 보고싶어요
@se_1294714 күн бұрын
지금도 좋지만 이 감성 넘 그립다•••🫧
@user-og3sq7re7u14 күн бұрын
이 영상이 왜 이렇게 좋은 걸까…
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모지 갑자기 떴네
@user-vr8uv7ro9g16 күн бұрын
Oink Oink.. You and facing YOU.. and to open my lips.. open my mouth to say what I needs to say.. WILL you even allow me to talk.. to speak to YOU.. would you even give me this kind of permission that I am able to say all these things to YOU.. would your Heart be open enough to Let my Words tell YOU what I needs to say to tell YOU Heart to Heart.. that is why I would come and face this Mirror.. and I know that It will happen one day soon.. I must face YOU.. would I shiver.. would I be showing you that I shake.. or be bold.. showing you the Confidence that I have when I be telling YOU through writing and typing.. that is WHY I must prepare for YOU now.. or I know that I will never get the chance to stand before YOU to tell you more things I needs to say that is in my Heart.. would you allow Me to say more words to YOU.. would you give me the Permission so that I can speak to YOU.. to your ears.. to your Heart so that YOU will really know that I love YOU.. as I am looking at the Mirror.. and I am holding your Picture.. in my right hand I am holding unto your Picture and looking at it.. and turning to Look at the Mirror in front of me.. I would be thinking.. if YOU were to stand here right before my eyes.. am I not to say any words to YOU.. and I would look at the Mirror and I would think of YOU standing in front of Me and I would say.. I have written you a Letter.. but I am Not going to give you the Letter this time because I had to write.. also I had to do double the work.. meaning I had to sit down and start to memorize the Lines of each sentences that I choose to say to YOU and I am just sharing.. what I wrote you in the Letter but I am able to speak it Out from the Lips of my Mouth.. would you please give me the time so that I can tell YOU what I wrote YOU in the Letter last night.. I am not sure if you even have the time to give Me.. but Please give me the Permission.. please allow me to speak so that I can share what is Deep in my Heart.. it would Not take too long for me to tell YOU what I said last night.. I would say to YOU in the Letter.. I only think of the three Little Words.. you can be thinking I miss YOU.. and That is correct.. I have been missing YOU for a long time.. without Your Presence.. without YOU being here.. I know that I am missing you all the time.. sometimes I would wake UP in the Middle of the Night.. because I would be Looking at this Picture.. and I would raise UP my right arm.. my hand holding unto the Picture of YOU.. do YOU see what I means why I can't sleep in times.. I be looking at this Picture.. without YOU being here.. Your presences being so Far away.. I would look at your Picture and tell YOU through this Picture.. I been missing you.. I wish that if there is a way I can get close to YOU.. so that at least I can tell YOU what my Heart truly feels and what it means to say I love YOU as I get to look at your eyes.. Your eyes are so Beautiful.. but I know that YOUR Heart is more beautiful than ever.. this Picture is the reason why I keep on missing YOU.. why I keep on wanting you to be close.. to see you in the presence.. to feel you close and knowing that we can beat with the Heart that beats in One.. I needs to Know what YOU are thinking.. because I want to see what Your Heart.. even looking into your eyes when I tell you these words.. does it means anything to YOU.. because all this time I wanted to tell YOU so much More.. I still want to tell YOU much more than this.. as I am looking at the Mirror.. and I am looking at myself staring at the mirror.. I would Look at the Picture that my hand is holding unto.. but when YOU see your face instead of seeing YOU.. I do forget the Lines because I think my face can share myself sometimes.. when I look at the Picture of YOU.. it is because Your Beauty.. because I know that YOU are so Beautiful.. but I am Not that handsome.. I guess just average but YOU are just too beautiful for Me.. it is like a Dream that Only can seen when I lay down to go to sleep at Night.. I would try to fall back to sleep.. but waking UP because I am thinking of YOU.. constantly you are in my Mind.. there are nights I can sleep in good rest.. but from time to time.. I would just sit UP from the bed.. and I am asking for YOU.. thinking of YOU.. telling myself only if I can tell you to your ears.. How much I miss YOU.. How much I love YOU.. but if you were here staring at me face to face.. would I be able to tell you all these things to YOU.. or will I shy away acting like I am truly someone else.. YOU be like am I a stranger instead.. seems so different from the Letters than meeting face to face and I want it all to be Right.. to be correct.. both in and Out.. meeting me Face to Face and even when YOU be receiving the Letters that I am the same person I always been to YOU.. who always loved YOU and who always missed YOU.. Now.. the Other Three letter words I would say is to tell YOU.. I love You.. it is the best three letter words to Hear.. as I turn to look at the Mirror again.. I would show you the Picture in my Right hand and I would say.. without this Picture.. I am Not sure how far I could of gone.. would I be even able to tell YOU anything from the beginning.. it is when I received this Picture and I saw YOU.. and I would wonder.. how do I get to YOU.. I know that I must tell YOU something.. I must tell YOU that my Heart.. I needs to tell YOU that I will never stop with a Like it began but it would start to change in my Heart to Loving You.. when YOU start to love.. the word I love you starts to come Out from your Heart.. and able to share and describe How much I love YOU.. it is not just words to make you feel good at the moment.. of course it does start at the moment of feeling good.. but then I wanted to take it much more further than just good.. the Like was Not enough to me.. I know that I wanted Love.. and more than just the Like and more than just Love.. I wanted to Love you.. but How do I tell you this.. the Picture that I have coming into my Hand and I would look at it over and over.. I am asking myself.. and I would turn to LOOK at YOU in the Picture and I would ask YOU even though you would Not hear me at words.. I feel dumb when I do ask when I knew that YOU would not hear me but I still would ask.. How do I get to YOU.. Please tell me How.. How do I tell you that I like YOU.. Like is Not enough for me because I wanted it to be much more stronger than Like.. I wanted it to be Love the strongest way to transfer to let YOU know that I am very serious about YOU.. so I would start with the Letters.. but I would ask.. what am I suppose to say in these letters.. I just can't tell you that I love YOU.. it is just too weak and YOU would never believe the Words are real and serious that when it transfer to YOU.. YOU be able to see it and receive it.. and that is when I would just ponder to myself.. I remember going through so many thoughts in my Mind.. confused and sick in my Heart because I wanted you to Know.. More than a Like but Yes to the Love I wanted to let YOU know I really wanted to Love YOU.. I sat down.. on the table.. I saw a Bottle.. and there was a shot Glass next to the Bottle of whiskey that was filled Up.. and I opened the top of the Bottle and I would pour into the Shot Glass and I knew I had to drink it.. I grab the Shot Glass and I slammed it into my Mouth.. I sat down.. Looking at your Picture.. pouring the bottle of whiskey into the Shot Glass.. at least I took more than four shots.. and I am sitting down by the table.. looking at your Picture and started to cry out of the Blue.. what am I suppose to Do.. because I want to tell YOU that I like you but I wanted more than just the Like.. I wanted YOU to know that I loved YOU instead.. but how do I take it to that level.. and I be scratching my Head.. just did Not what to do.. there was a Piece of Paper and the Pencil.. and I knew maybe this is the Only way.. there was NO Other way I can tell YOU anything.. but this must be the Only way.. I grab the Pencil and I started to write down my feelings that I be feeling from my Heart about YOU.. More than Like.. I did Not like the word Like at all.. I wanted much More than just Like.. I wanted Love.. and I wanted YOU to know that I am going for it all In.. not for the word Like but for Love and to know that One day YOU will know that this is real and it be true.. not for the Moment but for a Life time deal is what I am talking about.. I want YOU to know that I love YOU.. I started to write YOU more Letters.. than I started to LOOK at the key board and started to type it down too.. and I knew I had to get it out to YOU some way and some How.. Now.. I am walking to the Mirror.. looking at myself and just thinking about the day I will see YOU.. and YOU are wondering.. what if I don't ever meet YOU or see YOU.. I don't care what YOU be thinking right Now.. I believe in Love.. and I believe in loving YOU is all I am thinking and if something is going to work out and happen.. I must start now with something More I have with the time.. as I would approach the Mirror to LOOK at myself.. I started with the Letter in my Hand.. in the right Hand is the Picture of YOU.. and I would be nervous at first trying to stand there looking at Me and just reading out loud.. I am Not that good with communication and speaking with my Lips but I know that I must keep on trying till I get it right.. till I have the courage.. to be bold.. and to show YOU that I have confidence that when I stand before YOU.. YOU can feel that I been trying Hard.. been practicing for a long time to get Out of the shadows of myself living and hiding.. but to come OUT front and tell YOU.. Hold your hand and I would look direct at your eyes and say.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I love your eyes.. something about your eyes that I am not sure why I must look at it.. I just needs to let YOU know for a long time I wanted to tell YOU this.. that I love YOU.. I must have you for myself.. that I
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MAH MAH.. I am looking at the Sun rising.. and I am standing next to YOU.. MAH MAH.. why are you crying.. and I am looking at you holding the Bow and the Arrows as you are pulling out to Shoot and YOU stop.. dropping the arrows on the ground.. I have never seen you in tears.. what is Matter with YOU MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I am watching the New Recruits Men coming Out of the tents.. My Heart is breaking as I am watching you In full of tears.. and I hear.. the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Your Mother is walking.. the servants and the Maid servants.. the men Servants who are attending her are all coming.. and the Queen drops on the ground.. and has a Letter in the hand.. and as I am looking.. this must be very serious case.. I feel like there is a great change about to come its place.. I had the Dream last Night about.. and when I look at your Mother the Queen.. and I see you just crying.. and I see you telling me to get the Letter in your Mother's Hand.. so I go over.. and grab the Letter out of her Hand.. the Six Princes also are coming with the Prime Minister.. the 12 Noble men comes.. and in my hand is the Letter and I would Unfold.. I would be reading this Letter and I am Not sure why I have to read this.. I am Not even the Messenger for the KING.. PEH HA.. but YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS is telling me that I could.. I just can't believe it.. Your Father.. His Official stamp Seal.. is giving UP his Position to Rule.. the King.. PEH HA does Not want to rule any More and has passed the Seat and as I am reading it a loud where all the Great Powerful Men and Leaders.. the Official has gathered before Me.. and I am also watching the Poor People.. the Ones WHO all came from the Garden.. mostly Homeless people.. and they are all standing hearing the Letter as I am reading before you.. I would fall on my two Knees.. and it states that the King is passing his throne to YOU.. the CROWN PRINCESS shall NOT be PRINCESS any More but to be CROWNED to be the QUEEN KING.. the Highest seat ever to be taken as the RULER and I would be shouting Out.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would turn to YOU.. and my hands let goes the Letter.. and I am Looking UP.. my two eyes filled with Tears.. just like my Dreams I had last night.. I never knew that It would happen this Fast.. but WHY so fast.. and I would hear.. all of the People great and small.. they all fall on their two knees.. lowering the Bodies to touch to the ground and say.. To the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOU are the new RULER for this Nation.. and I am thinking.. what is going to happen to your Mother.. is she Not the QUEEN and I am LOOKING at your Mother.. she also lowers and her head touches to the ground.. But that is YOUR MOTHER.. and I look.. Your MOTHER pulls the crown Off her Head.. the Messenger Comes with the King's Crown and it unites together as ONE BIGGEST crown.. and GOSH.. my Heart just keeps on beating fast.. the Messenger holding the Biggest Crown and He is walking with tears in his Eyes and I am looking.. all the people.. faces to the ground.. and the Seven of my friends comes out of the tent and they are all looking.. the Biggest Crown goes On top of your Head as the QUEEN of the Nation.. and they all fall on two knees.. heads touching the Ground as YOU are Pronounce to be the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MANSAE.. I would hear the Little Boys.. all raising UP their hands.. Little Girls too.. raising UP their arms and Hands.. MANSAE to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would hear all of the voices shout OUT.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. and all of the heads are touching the Ground.. I am LOOKING at the ground.. Just could not help the celebration.. that You have become the true new RULER.. I have never stopped Loved YOU.. but kept on loving YOU till I get to see this and hear this.. I never imagined even the Poor people WHO I grew UP with me.. they are together all in ONE watching this Happening.. witnessing something that just can't happen but did Happen going down in the History of what it means to become a TRUE RULER.. there is Another Messenger on the TOP of and he blows the trumpet and it is Loud.. I am wondering.. this sound of the trumpet does not sound good.. it means someone in the royal family just died.. and NO.. and every one starts to Cry.. and I am thinking.. is it PEH HA!.. is it your Father the King who just died and the Messenger shouts Out who is on the top of the palace wall.. the KING.. PEH HA just died.. and everyone starts to Mourn as I am hearing this News.. and I see you just crying Loud and loud for Your Father.. and My Heart.. I know what it means to have a Broken Heart.. and I just can't say a word to YOU.. but.. I know that YOUR Father truly loved YOU.. and YOU would cry loud and it grew louder as YOU kept on mourning for me.. it makes me cry more as I am watching YOU cry for your Father.. the King.. but why is my Heart breaking it more.. and I would think about How he promised that the King is going to be fair when He finds the Successor.. Not because He loved YOU more or Less but to rule is the Most difficult seat to be In.. Only the Strongest and the Wisest can take His place and can rule.. giving all of the six Sons too a chance to prove that they can be on the spot.. but.. YOU are the One chosen.. the Little One.. youngest from the men but as the daughter Only.. and I would just mourn because I remember YOU would be sharing about this One point.. I remember when YOU became the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU told me One night about How your Father wanted to give it all fair to His Blood Lines.. but Only ONE can be seated in the Highest seat.. and it is Not that He loved YOU so much.. He saw the People.. He heard about what YOU have done even for the smallest.. the poorest people.. and I know and believe YOUR father believed that the people who was at the garden all came to support YOU.. I remember.. the People from the garden came to me.. and asking me where the King Stayed.. His Chamber.. I would lead the People of the garden to the King's Chamber.. the Servant for the King shares the Message.. and the King.. PEH HA comes and He would be seated on the Outer courts.. I was there.. by the gates just standing to guard the Post.. the Parents of the Children falls on their Knees before the King.. and they shared about what YOU have done when YOU were Young.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. How much you cared and shared the Love for the People.. and they would cry before the King.. PEH HA.. to make YOU the RULER.. that they will serve YOU as servants of the QUEEN.. to Make you the Next to RULE and would be begging the KING.. PEH HA.. never letting the King go until your Father the KING made and keep the Promise to make YOU the RULER for this NATION.. as I would watch the People of the Poor crying Out in a Loud voice.. they have come and travelled long ways away from the Garden just to tell this TO your Father.. the King.. that the People of the Garden will give UP their CHILDREN for the King's services.. I saw Little Boys and girls.. and they would come forward and fall before the KING.. PEH HA.. to Let YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH to rule over them.. as I would watch by the gates of the door.. the Little girls and Boys would fall begging and they started to cry.. how the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH saved their parents Lived when NO ONE else cared if they lived or NOT.. that because of the Parents able to stand and live through it.. NOW they are here.. the Little children has come to help the CROWN PRINCESS and I would stand there crying.. watching.. the Guards had to push the Little Boys trying to go cling to the King's leg.. I just could not believe what I be seeing.. just my Heart.. My Heart as I am beating with my hand.. and I would fall on two knees and I started to cry with the Little CHILDREN.. and I would think about my own situation.. the Chance that the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH gave me.. I am here Now.. I was at the garden too.. I am looking at the Little children.. they are crying.. heads on the ground to the King because of what YOU have done.. even I was there.. I was there too at the Garden as the Little Boy.. these Parents many that I know has grown UP.. but they too were once like Me little BOYS and Little Girls in the garden and It broke me Down because I was reminded.. It was hard living in the garden as being broke and Poor.. had NO chance.. NO ONE did care about Us.. I started to Hit my Chest as I would cry thinking about what happened to the Garden the day YOU came.. the parents would be in tears as they are watching their children crying before the King.. PEH HA.. I am in the Back.. my Heart.. this Heart thinking about what I saw that day with the Parents when they too was a child.. I saw the King Looking.. YOUR Father was looking at all these People coming from the Garden and together crying Out because of what YOU have done as the Princess.. as the ROYAL BLOOD LINE and I saw Your Father.. the KING.. PEH HA.. his Heart was moved.. was touched by all these people coming together asking for YOU to be the Next Leader.. the QUEEN who can only rule for this Nation.. ONE BOY stands UP before the King.. your Father and tells Your Father that He is going to fight in the war.. even though he was Only a child.. I would watch a Girl stands up saying She will to enter the war to fight for this Nation and I begin to watch all the hands.. with the parents wanting to join in the Battle to fight in the war.. and I just could not
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MAH MAH.. Father.. PEH HA.. the KING has wrote to YOU.. but I did Not read the Bottom because IT was only for YOU.. but I know what HE wrote.. how much HE is truly proud of YOU and knows YOU WILL do well to keep this Nation going strong and tells YOU.. HOW MUCH the Father Loves YOU.. that HOW MUCH he is thankful to have a such a strong heart daughter like YOU to take over his Place.. NOW your Father can rest in peace at last.. I am crying as YOU are crying reading the Letter at the end.. I am so touched.. and deeply moved because I know that HWANG WOO MAH MAH has A BIG HEART.. I see you folding the Letter and You turn your Head looking at Me and I would knob my head UP and Down.. I am letting you know.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the QUEEN.. I am also proud of YOU TOO.. YOU made it difference.. YOU made it very big.. Because YOU have such a BIG HEART.. I want to ask YOU QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. How can I hold your Big Heart.. I wish I can find a way to Hold your Big Heart.. and just kiss your Big Heart just once.. to let YOU KNOW.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am truly proud of YOU doing what YOU do and yes.. I do really really Love YOU.. why do you think that I still love you still.. because YOU are so special.. there is something about YOU that makes you really really special.. and the most important.. it is because YOU are just being real YOU.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Now I am looking back as when YOU first became the Crown Princess.. WAANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the day when It was announced.. it feels like it was like yesterday.. when I heard YOU becoming the CROWN PRINCESS even though NOW you have become the New RULER.. the QUEEN for the Nation.. just wanted to say.. I love YOU..I am looking towards and I am watching the Arrows flying and many arrows flying over the Wall of the Tower.. I turn to look at the Left.. ten men sitting on their Horses.. bows in the hands.. Looking UP.. and Arrows shoot Fire and I am truly Touched.. these are the Men that belongs to YOU.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see the Chief General standing on the Tower.. and He arm raises holding the Sword UP.. and ALL the Men up on the Tower of the walls.. They are too holding the Bows.. and arrows are shooting out.. I grab the Bow.. and I turn back.. grabbing two Arrows.. I remember when YOU.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. when YOU were a girl.. I saw YOU on the Practice training ground.. I was sitting on the Horse and My Father next to Me.. I have never see a Princess.. Now a Crown Princess.. grabbing the two Arrows.. and the TOP GENERALS.. the CHIEF GENERALS who were standing behind YOU.. and they kneel.. two knees.. heads looking Down.. asking Only to shoot One Arrow.. and I would watch YOU.. the two ends of the arrows.. pulling back the strings of the Bow.. and pulling aiming and off you release.. the two arrows flies fast and Hits the Target on the red BULLS EYES.. the Chief General.. the teacher holds the flag and swings.. BULLS EYES.. and the five TOP generals.. three are Chief Generals.. they raise their heads too look.. hands would all clap.. and I would sit on the Horse.. my hands start to clap.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. MANSAE WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. my hands would clap.. as I am holding the Bow.. two arrows in my hand.. DO you know How much I love YOU.. I was touched in my Heart.. I was truly touched in my soul.. I was truly inspired when I saw what YOU did when YOU were young.. I even started to practice.. when My Father was with me.. I would ask HIM that I wanted to protect YOU.. How do I protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please help me to be the Protector.. and I remember my Father looks at me.. and lowers.. Do what the Crown Princess has done.. I started to practice Shooting arrows.. as I am looking at the wall.. I look UP sitting on this Horse.. I raise up the Bow.. putting the two ends of the Arrows and I pull back the strings.. and I aim looking towards.. I release the string and the two arrows flies Off.. over the Wall and I would keep on looking back.. two arrows.. pulling back the strings and release.. the two arrows would keep on flying over the walls.. I hear the foot steps.. I hear the Horses coming.. and I see the seven friends and they all stop behind Me.. and pulling their Bows.. grabbing the arrows with me.. and aiming looking over the wall.. More arrows are shot fired out and the Eight of us kept on pulling Out the Arrows.. shooting over the wall.. and Chief General turns who is standing at the tower of the Wall and shouts.. they are retreating.. and He raises the Sword UP and Shouts in loud cry.. and I raise UP the Sword.. the Seven men behind Me.. they raise up their swords.. and the ten Men on the left side.. all shouts.. MANSAE to the Crown Princess.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE TO CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I can feel the tears flowing down my Eyes.. CROWN PRINCESS.. the enemies are going to come back.. But right Now they have retreated.. SO we have WON this Battle.. and I turn around.. Protect the Crown Princess.. Protect HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and as I turn to look back.. I just can't believe it.. and the seven men also turns to look back with Me.. I see YOU.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and YOU are riding on the Horse.. even few Chief Generals and the Commanders are on the Horses and YOU are leading.. I see the Bow in your Hand and also the Sword on the Side.. and I just can't believe it.. YOU must not GO.. the Battle is going to be fierce.. we won but the More are coming this Way.. and I get Off the horse.. and I would walk fast and I kneel before YOU.. two knees.. Head looking down.. my arm up.. and I see you stop the Horse.. Now the seven friends of Mine also gets off the Horses.. and they are behind me.. kneeling.. two knees and heads looking down. arms are Up.. and I see you raise Up the Sword.. and I lift up my Head to look at YOU.. I just don't want YOU to go out there.. I have been waiting for this Battle.. for a Long time.. I been practicing for so long because I knew that one day this day was to come.. I promised YOU that I wanted to always protect YOU.. when I was young.. just before YOU came riding on the Horse.. I was sitting here.. I thought about when I was YOUNG boy.. I sat on the Horse and I saw YOU on the practice training ground.. Of course YOU did not see me.. but I came with my Father.. the Day when YOU grabbed the two Arrows.. YOU took my Breathe away Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I saw YOU.. Three Chief Generals.. and two Commanders stood behind YOU.. my Father told me the reason why took me on this day.. the Crown Princess was to pick two Arrows and going to start shooting to hit the Target Board.. I wanted me to see the Heart of the Crown Princess for the Nation.. and I remember Your Teacher.. the Chief General by the Target.. with the white Flag.. and I saw you grabbing the two Arrows.. grabbing the Bow.. and putting the two ends of the arrows on the strings of the Bow.. and aiming the arrows.. and your hand releases the string of the Bow.. the two arrows goes straight and Hit the Red Dot.. the flag was raised UP and the Chief General swings the Flag.. I was sitting on the Horse.. my hands would clap with the Chief generals and the commanders.. and they would shout.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. MANSAE.. HOORAY and I was truly touched.. I asked my Father that very Night.. when I was at Home.. I wanted to Protect the Crown Princess.. How can I protect the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please Father tell me.. Please.. and He tells me.. DO what the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH has did and what I saw that morning.. every Night.. I looked at the Target that my Father made.. with the RED DOT Circle around it.. I started with One Arrow.. my hands would hurt.. my arms would ache.. and I knew YOU were so strong.. because pulling the strings of the arrow.. my Father would tell me to keep on pulling it over and over.. for months I had to do the basic training.. just to pull.. then He gave me the arrow to shoot.. It would not shoot at all.. as Months.. more months went by.. I started to shoot the arrows.. hitting on left far to the right far.. But I was thinking about YOU.. I was thinking about that if I don't this.. I can't protect the Crown Princess.. but I have made UP my Mind and made a Promise that I will protect YOU and always will love YOU.. from Months goes to years as I would start picking UP two Arrows.. starting to shoot over and over until It would Hit the Red circle big Dot.. every Night.. I would look UP to see the Moon.. into the woods.. and the Target stuck on a tree.. I would aim.. two arrows I would shoot from the distance to Hit the BULLS EYES.. I been waiting for this very Day CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I don't want to see YOU Hurt before My eyes.. I don't think anyone here wants to see YOU out on that Battle field.. WHO wants when YOU are the Next Ruler.. YOU are going to be the QUEEN for this Nation.. How can any of Us want to see you out there.. I don't want YOU to go.. that Is why I am taking the steps.. I know YOU are a very strong woman.. and also the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. but I don't want to see you Out there.. I even asked my Father.. How can I be a Protector.. How can I protect YOU.. and he told me the way.. and I did it.. practiced and trained for multi of years so that YOU don't have to go to that Battle Field.. if someone is to Die.. let me be the One to die for YOU.. at least I can say I have tried Hard
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MAH MAH.. Sword.. It is from the KING'S hand to YOU.. and I am looking at the Blade.. and I see the teacher.. the Chief General who is with YOU.. and he is the One to help you to get back to the Palace.. and I am so amazed.. so inspired by this Sword.. this is which the King has won many battles with.. who fought in many wars and in the battle fields.. as I keep on looking at YOU.. I can't take this Sword.. because it belongs to YOU CROWN PRINCESS.. I have a sword with me.. which My Grand father gave to my father to give it to Me.. I want you to take the Sword which belongs to Your Father the King.. Please.. and I would lay the King's sword on the Ground because I know I can't.. and my Head looks on the ground.. arm raises.. I see you walking.. and I see your hand grabs the King's sword.. are you considering to stay in the Palace.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I just can't see you on that Battle field.. Please consider.. Please be safe.. and I see YOU on the Horse and YOU hit the Horse on the side and It goes Off.. I just can't believe it.. WHY.. Crown Princess.. WHY are you breaking my Heart.. I asked you to Please Consider and I see you raising up the King's Sword.. and the Men.. the soldiers.. Commanders and the Generals.. Chief Generals.. they are all preparing to go Out to the field.. ready to fight Out.. as I turn to LOOK at YOU.. I hear other voices.. Please Consider.. Please stay in the palace.. Crown Princess.. I Look up at the sky.. Please help me Father.. help me because the Crown Princess does not hear my Voice.. the Battle is going to get fierce.. my eyes can't see the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH out fighting.. Do you want to see a bloody Heart.. How about a bloody Tears.. YOU are suppose to be the One to rule Next.. and I would stand UP.. Crown Princess.. Please Consider.. Please hear my words.. Hear my Heart.. Please reconsider my request.. and I hear the seven friends also asking the Crown Princess.. Not to go.. Not to go Out to fight.. we have plenty of men who will fight for YOU and will die for this Nation.. I came here so that I can Protect YOU.. I came and became the Swordsmanship for YOU.. so that I can protect YOU.. because when YOU love.. YOU just don't want to see hurt and I would start to show you my tears.. Crown Princess.. Please Consider.. Please reconsider my request.. the Chief General UP on the Tower.. he raises the Sword and the Horn Blows.. saying the Enemies are coming again.. the Horn Blows.. Get ready for Battle.. I am thinking of You.. as I am holding the stick in my hand.. I would say.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. My One wish.. I just want to Love YOU but also with this Sword.. I want to protect YOU and I would swing the Stick.. and My friend who is also holding the stick blocks with the stick I swing at him.. and He would look at me and swing the Stick in his hand and It hits me on the Arm.. I would swing the stick I am holding with my hand and it hits his head and my friend falls on the Ground.. and He looks UP on the ground.. I stood there.. just thinking of YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. my hand grabs his hand and I pull HIM up on his two legs.. as the Moon is High Above.. the Six Friends are making a circle on two of us.. and they are all holding the Sticks.. and as I am thinking of YOU.. I would look at the Seven Friends.. I have to go back to the Palace.. I have to go see the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and as I am on the two Knees.. My Head looking on the Ground.. the Seven Friends are Behind Me.. both on the Knees.. Looking on the Ground.. arms UP saluting to YOU as the Crown Princess.. as I hear more foot steps walking.. I see you with the Big Crown on top of Your Head.. I see you turn around looking back.. there are seven Chief Generals.. with their Foot soldiers all walking to YOU.. and Five Commanders behind with the Foot Soldiers.. they all stop.. both on knees.. Heads all looks on the ground.. arms UP and I see YOU.. a great large of army military men has gathered around you.. As I am holding the sword.. I would Lift up my Arm up with my hand holding the Sword.. and I would shout Out.. MANSAE TO CROWN PRINCESS.. the Seven Men.. my friends all would pull out the swords.. hands holding the swords.. arms lifted UP and they shout out with a Loud Voice.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would shout Out louder More.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. to Crown Princess.. and I would hear.. the Chief Generals and the Commanders.. they pull out their swords holding in their hands.. arms lifted UP high.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Seven Friends with the Foot SOLDIERS all lifted UP their Swords holding their hands.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to Crown Princess.. and I would raise UP my Voice Louder and Cried OUT.. MANSAE to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. to Crown Princess.. and I hear all of the Voices.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see you stand in the Middle.. our heads looking at the ground.. and I would say.. YOU are so Great.. Look at you because the men has gathered.. I know there is something that is about to happen.. but my Heart.. to Protect YOU.. and Too keep on protecting you to the end.. and I see YOU looking down.. as I would lift UP my Head looking into your eyes.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I hear something behind.. a Messenger riding on the Horse.. and He has a scroll in his hand.. and the Heads would all turn to look.. the Horse stops.. the Messenger gets out of the Horse.. two on knees.. arm UP and Head looks down.. hand holding the Scroll.. and I am wondering.. what does this Mean.. a Private Messenger only for the Crown Princess.. and I see you raise YOUR HAND.. and the Messenger gets UP.. and He would unroll the scroll.. and starts to share.. a War is going to break Out.. and the enemies are coming to the Fortress.. and they are bringing many foot soldiers.. horse riders.. and the Six Princes are in the Eldest house and they are drinking having the Party.. and the Messenger goes down both knees.. Head goes down and arm up.. and I am wondering.. a War.. and I turn to LOOK at YOU.. and YOU look at me.. there has been a talk about a war for a Long time.. and it is happening.. I look at YOU.. Why did YOU not tell me about this war.. then I would of been preparing for a battle.. but why did YOU not tell Me.. and I looked at YOU.. it does Not matter Now.. because it is going to happen anyways.. and I Just can't believe you have kept this from me.. I told YOU that I wanted to protect YOU.. and that is what I have said.. I have promised YOU that the reason why I am here.. it is to Protect YOU and Your nation.. if YOU told me about this War.. then I could of found More men.. gathered more Men.. and I would look behind YOU.. which there was more than thousand Men.. they are ready.. has been prepared for this War.. and of course.. I knew that you had the men power.. but I also wanted to bring more so that we can win this War.. and I get UP.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I told you.. ever since I saw you from the Garden.. that I was going to come to YOU.. I have made the Promise in the garden.. when I was only looking at the garden of flowers.. even though I am a lowly servant son.. that One day I am going to see you and meet you at the Palace.. I told you that I will make this promise that I will become a Swordsmanship so that I can guard and protect.. Because this is all I can give and this is all I can do for YOU.. I may be very small.. and not be much to YOU.. but I know that I will never give UP on you.. I will keep on fighting for YOU as long as YOU give me a chance to stay.. and Now.. here I am.. I have kept my words.. I have kept my promises to YOU.. it took me long long long time to get and come this far.. but I am here right Now beside YOU.. I told you when I was young Boy too.. but when YOU first stopped and saw me at the garden.. I fall on two knees before YOU and told YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. that One day I will love YOU and One DAY I will come just to be by your side to protect YOU.. at least you could of told me about this war that is going to break.. there was NO reason for YOU to hide this from Me.. why would you hide this.. what would of happened if I did Not come to YOU.. few days ago.. there was something heavy in my Heart.. it was few days of riding this Horse.. Me and the seven friends.. if I just stayed by the ocean of waters.. I would of Not known this.. I would of missed Out this great war.. if YOU told me this sooner.. I would not even go to the Ocean waters but been practicing and training to prepare for this War.. I come with the seven friends and Now I am hearing about this News that I never knew in the first place.. if I did not come.. I know that YOU have great fighters and great warriors.. they have more experience then me at the art of swordsmanship.. but having more Men it be better for this war.. and My Heart.. I just can't believe I have to hear it like this.. at the last minute when I did Not know anything.. and I just can't see YOU go out on the Battle.. I know that YOU would and you will.. I can't see you at the battle field.. I saw you training with your teacher who is the Chief general.. when I saw YOU with the stick.. I knew something was going to happen.. YOU know that I can't lose YOU.. YOU know How much I love YOU.. and it be better if I die rather than YOU.. and I hear the Horn.. and someone is blowing the Horn from the far.. and I know now.. so I would get UP.. both feet.. and I turn around.. and I look at the seven Men.. the friends.. I am going alone first.. and I am looking at the Horse.. and I get on its Back.. holding the sword with my hand.. and I see your hand telling me
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MAH MAH.. The Horse.. and I swing it and the Horse takes Off.. the Six Friends behind Me.. they too grabs the strings of the Horses and swings it.. and follows behind Me.. as the Horse keeps on running fast.. I turn on the Side.. putting the Sword into the sheath and I pull the Bow on the side.. and behind is the arrows.. and the Horse keeps on running.. leaving the Palace.. and it is going to the Fortress.. and the Horse stops.. and my hand hits my Chest.. How long was this been going On.. How long was it for this talking of the war.. I wonder how the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH felt.. knowing there is going to come this war.. and have to keep it inside for a long time.. and I grab the Two Arrows.. putting on the Strings of the Bow.. PULLS the strings Back and I would release the strings.. the arrows shoots far off.. and I would sit on the Horse.. and I would think about when I was a young Boy.. watching YOU from the far.. when YOU were young.. I was sitting on the Horse.. the Commanders behind YOU.. the Chief General next to the Target Practice.. with the Flag.. my eyes full of tears.. YOU were holding the Bow pulling back the strings with the Arrow.. and release the strings and the arrow shoots and hits the red dot of the target.. and hearing the cheering and hands clapping.. flag swings around.. BULLS EYE.. and as I am sitting on the horse.. being still.. what bothers me the most.. I was by the Ocean water.. thinking about YOU coming to the Ocean waters.. but YOU just stood.. YOU just sat on the Horse.. watching me from the distance as I am looking at the waters.. but did Not tell me anything about it there.. it bothers me when I saw YOU looking at me.. sending four new friends to me.. and I saw You turning the Horse away and in silent you left the site.. but the Heart.. was it heavy leaving without mentioning about what was to come.. why did YOU not say anything then.. why did YOU not tell me that something was about to happen.. why just leave in silent.. YOU know.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. if YOU told me.. I would left everything behind and just went with YOU that night.. I would of not think about anything but to Just to protect YOU and to Protect Your Nation.. I would of done anything.. If YOU just said something.. I would come with YOU much sooner.. I feel like a foolish person now.. because I would told YOU that I was Not coming.. I do remember you be asking me to come with YOU.. but I told YOU that I needed some time away.. that I wanted to stay by the Ocean water.. but if YOU just told me then.. what was happening.. YOU know that I would leave it behind and came with YOU without making you feel frustrated.. because I know that I can be some kind of Help of your Need.. why do YOU think I wanted to be a Swordsmanship.. WHY would I learn this skills and this Art of holding the sword.. I have promised you.. I remember when I was YOUNG.. I made a Promise to YOU.. even at the Garden when I knew Nothing about the Sword.. I told YOU that One day.. I am going to master the Art so that I can be useful and to be a part.. to Love YOU and to protect YOU forever.. and YOU have seen me through it ALL.. YOU have seen me when I had no skills at the sword.. when I was working in the garden as a flower Boy.. just as gardener.. Now here I am with the Sword.. at least you could of told me then.. I would not feel so bad right Now.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU know that I would drop everything just for YOU and to Protect YOU because YOU know How much I love YOU..I am sitting on the Horse.. as the Horse runs.. I am going back to the Palace.. I am thinking of YOU.. I have never stopped Loving YOU.. I would be pulling the strings of the Horse.. and I see the Horse running very Fast.. Behind me is seven Men.. four are new friends who has joined.. and they are all riding on the Horses.. as I am on the front.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I thank YOU.. I would be shouting.. as I am going to the Palace.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would scream from my lungs.. Do you know that I still Love YOU.. I am coming.. I am going to YOU.. as I see the Moon behind Me.. I am hitting the Strings hard.. the Horse runs faster and faster.. and as the New Day comes and the Sun rises.. I am at the second training ground.. I am standing next to the Horse.. It was my Father's horse.. it was once Young but has gotten older now.. as I am standing next to the Horse.. I watch YOU.. My Heart.. it is My Heart.. I watch YOU walking in the center of the training ground.. the Seven Men.. my friends are all behind me.. they are all sitting on the Horses.. I am crying.. as I am watching YOU.. the fences.. the wood bat fences.. and I am looking at YOU.. as YOU are holding a stick.. I see you about to spar and the Chief General.. the TOP of the generals.. he steps out with a Stick.. and He is the One who taught YOU how to fight to be a swordsmanship.. I never knew that YOU wanted to be a swordsman.. as I see the sticks hitting together.. My Heart would jump.. I see you swinging the Stick.. and the Chief General ducks.. and He would swing the Stick.. which.. I wanted to go Inside to Protect.. to fight Back.. but the Fence stops me.. I know that I can't go in.. I see two guards guarding it.. and they would NOT let me in.. but I see the Stick swings and Hits YOU.. I grab my Sword.. and one of the Friends would shout.. which.. it makes YOU stop.. and YOU look back.. and I pull out the Sword.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Are you Hurt.. can I go in.. YOU know that I came here.. I came here to ready to Fight On your Behalf.. Please.. tell the guards to OPEN the fence Door.. so I can fight that General.. and the Men.. seven Men all gets Out of their Horses.. and they all Pull out their swords.. and We all Kneel.. both on the Knees.. and arms Out.. Heads looks on the Floor.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and with One Voice.. we Shout.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please.. and all Eight of Us.. heads looking on the floor.. which it stops YOU from practicing on that training Ground.. and I see you.. ON the White Dress.. I see you coming.. and I see you walking forward.. and I see you close to the Fence.. and I hear YOUR VOICE.. as I lift UP the Head and too look at YOU.. I have promised YOU.. that I am never going to Let YOU go.. even though I may not be with YOU.. there must be a way something can Happen.. but for right Now.. I have promised YOU that I am not going to let YOU down.. YOU also even send four new Men to join my team.. without YOU how can we be added like this.. I know that I may be so Small in your eyes.. I may not have much to give YOU.. but I know that I can do one thing.. to Protect YOU.. if YOU allow me to protect YOU.. I can do a little service.. and with these men.. I know that we can help.. I came here without eating.. we practiced and trained all through the Night.. I was thinking of the Promise.. I know that I can't do much.. but My Heart.. tells me if I love YOU.. there is something that I can do.. and It hit me Hard.. and I just started to think of YOU.. I know that YOU have many soldiers.. you have great generals to Chief generals.. also Commanders are with YOU.. but YOU have gave me four New Men and added.. why would you do something like that for Me.. and I told the seven Men.. Let us ALL go back.. Let us all go back to Protect YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. is this is the Only One thing I can Do.. I can do it the Best.. I can give YOU my Best.. all I can Give.. I remember while I was sitting on the Horse.. I begin to think of YOU.. Only YOU because I never felt so Important.. I would turn around.. LOOKING at the four New Men.. they joined with the three friends of Mine and together they were singing songs.. they were singing to the new Unity of building a Dream together.. and wanted to be a part to see the greater works in play and they were all singing joyfully and I sat on the Horse.. tears started to fall from My eyes and I saw the seven Men turn to look at me.. they all came and surrounded me.. around the horse asking why was I crying and I told them.. it is NOT about Us.. but about the Kingdom.. all about the Palace.. that we were put together to Protect WHO.. and we all raised Our voices together.. and with the Swords UP.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I told the seven Men.. Let us ALL go back.. let us go to the Palace.. and Be a part.. Just to protect YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I saw each Man get on his Horse.. and I would lift UP my Head.. looking at the Moon.. It is this MOON that brought us together.. It was around this TIME I would look UP at the MOON.. asking about the Crown Princess.. and I started to Hit the strings of the Horse and He just took Off fast.. and the Other Seven men follows.. I came this early in the Morning.. One of the Guards at the entrance told me that the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH is going to the Second Training Ground.. DID NOT tell me anything else.. but YOU were going to be there.. SO I would tell the seven friends of Mine.. Let us go there and wait together.. I would be the One who stood by the Horse.. Letting the Other seven Men to rest while sitting there.. I saw YOU.. from the distance I saw YOU walking.. it is when we eight of Us arrived.. YOU were holding a stick.. I don't know WHY.. I wanted to run over.. to let YOU know that I have come.. the two Guards guarding me.. I asked if I could go inside.. to Greet the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. but they would NOT allow me.. telling me NO ONE can go inside but Only the Crown Princess.. I saw the Chief General walking with a Stick.. wondering.. why Is He able to go Inside and I can't.. what is going On.. tell me
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MAH MAH.. Going to go with Me.. and Help me to Protect YOU.. I could not see anyone Hitting YOU with the stick.. My Heart would Not allow it.. My Heart just couldn't see that.. and I would be showing YOU my tears running down.. I am on my both knees.. the Swords struck on the ground.. the seven Men are behind me.. arms out.. swords are all struck on the ground.. I have come.. so that I wanted to say.. I love YOU.. and I wanted to protect YOU.. Me with these seven friends of Mine.. that is How my Heart feels because this is the Only thing that we all can do.. and I would hear YOU speak.. of course I did Not know that the Chief General is Your teacher.. and even since YOU were young.. and How you wanted to protect Yourself from the dangers of Your Six Brothers.. the Six Princes who wanted to be the Crown.. The King.. PEH HA send the Chief General to be your Body Guard but also to teach the Art of the Swordsmanship.. and Now.. He is like a second father to YOU because He cares for YOU like a Daughter.. as I would hear YOU.. My Heart is moved by how It is unsafe to stay in the Palace as a Young girl.. scared of being killed by the older Brothers.. and my fist.. I would clinch my fist.. that is WHY I came here.. that I wanted to Protect YOU because I love YOU.. What more words Can I say.. I know that it is NOT easy to be the Crown Princess.. But Now.. YOU also have eight of Us.. Unity together as we stand.. to Protect YOU so that YOU can be the QUEEN.. I hear the Seven Men behind me they all would shout Loud.. QUEEN.. to be Our Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH one day.. and I would lift UP my arm.. and Head looks ON the Floor.. and the Seven men behind me would also lift UP their arms and heads looks down as we are all on our knees.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I just want to see YOU to succeed.. I want YOU to be seating as the TOP.. as I would look on the Floor.. My tears are hitting the Floor.. I am looking back.. the Four of Us by the ocean.. and I would turn to look back.. I would see the Four new men.. One is holding bunch of wooden sticks.. and I would look over them.. I see YOU.. YOU are sitting on the Horse.. and I see YOU turn around.. the Horse turns away and I see the Horse starts running off with YOU sitting ON it.. I am looking at the Four New Men.. One of them saying.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. to be a part of this brotherhood.. and I am looking with the three friends of Mine.. I just can't believe it.. WHY would the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. WHY would you sent these four Men.. and I would look at them.. I just can't believe it.. I am Not worthy to have.. I can't even lead a thing.. But why would they come.. and I would grab a Stick.. and One of my Friend grabs a stick.. and he is the One who came to visit me when I was IN prison.. as I am thinking.. and I am on two knees.. and I would hear Your Voice.. and I would lift UP my Head to look at YOU.. and my tears is rolling down.. I can't even lead.. I am Not even on the special Guard.. I am Not even a Body Guard.. I am only the one who stood by the back Gates of the Palace.. why would YOU trust me with four new Men.. I am unworthy to Have.. because their lives are on the Line.. If to Die.. I rather die alone.. I don't want to take any other Lives with Me.. and I see YOU.. and YOU smile.. I wanted to grab Your hand.. I wanted to touch Your Hand.. But I can't.. YOU are going to ask Me to kiss this Hand right.. but I can't kiss YOUR HAND.. I rather be distance then to be close kissing Your Hand.. but HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. do you remember that before YOU left.. before the Four New Men came.. YOU asked me for something.. YOU said.. to Promise YOU something.. that I am Not going to leave.. and YOU told me to make that Promise Now.. because Later will be just too late and while YOU came close.. I was looking at the Waters of the Ocean.. you stood by me.. asking me to Promise YOU.. that I am Not going to leave YOU or forsake YOU.. before YOU would go back to the Palace.. and I remember standing next to YOU.. I can't promise kissing Your Hand.. but I can promise YOU that I can keep on loving YOU.. I can promise that I will Not leave YOU or forsake YOU.. that I will go back and I will be there for YOU.. by Your Side.. and I told YOU.. I do Promise I be there.. to Protect YOU always.. and I do remember you looked at me and YOU gave me the same smile as YOU are looking at me on the Other side of the Fence.. DO you know How much I love YOU.. that I just can't never let YOU go.. I came with the seven Men because I made the Promise I will.. this is the main reason why I am here.. because I am keeping my Promise I made with YOU.. to Always Love YOU and to Always protect YOU..I am still standing by the waters.. Just thinking about YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I wish that I could be with YOU.. I have dreamed ever since I was a young Boy.. even though I knew that It was never to be happened.. I know that I can't be with YOU because YOU are so Big.. but what can I do as a MAN who can Only dream and believe that Maybe if there was a Chance.. How can I be with YOU.. to Love YOU.. all I ever wanted ever since I laid my eyes on YOU.. when I saw YOU.. even though I know I can't.. but I still do believe that I can.. all I am asking is for YOU to know my Heart.. to know How much I love YOU.. I want to be with YOU and spend the rest of my life by your side just to love YOU.. to tell you how much I love YOU and love you until I die.. do YOU know that I never will stop.. as I am looking at the waters.. and I turn to look back.. I see you on the Horse.. YOU are sitting on the top of the Horse.. I see you wearing the White dress.. so Lovely.. how come you only wear that White Dress.. why are you showing me that YOU are so Beautiful.. if YOU keep on showing me how Beautiful YOU are.. what am I suppose to do.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and as I am on the ground.. with the three of my friends.. Looking at the ground.. I can't come with YOU right Now.. I know I can't go.. I just need some time to be alone.. and before YOU came.. One of my friends told me.. He saw Six Princes and they were standing next to the King and Queen.. PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am wondering who those six Men were.. I know they were from the Royal Blood Line.. as I heard your voice.. I would listen to your Voice and with the three friends we all get Up.. as I wanted to come closer to YOU.. I see the Big Crown on top of your Head.. I see seven Men behind YOU.. the Chief Generals and Commanders.. DAE JANG GEUN.. they all showed UP and standing behind YOU.. and I just can't believe this happened so fast.. I knew that this day would show UP but so Fast was unexpected.. and I would lower myself.. on two knees and I would ask.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I am asking for the permission to speak.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. can you please give me the permission to speak.. and I hear YOUR voice.. I am wondering about the Six Men.. they were Princes.. who were standing next to the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. may I ask who are those Six Men.. and I would hear the Head of the Servant who shows UP.. He looks at me and pulls Out the sword.. I see YOU lifting UP your hand to back down and he goes back.. and I hear you tell me.. and Me and the three friends are all shocked.. and I am wondering.. How can this Be.. they are the Older Brothers of CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I am wondering.. How can this Be.. if the Crown Princess has six Older Brothers ahead.. and YOU have succeeded to next in Line to get the Throne.. and I feel like a Storm is going to come in the Palace.. and I look at YOU.. and I see YOU put your hand Out.. and I am thinking in my mind.. YOU have great army with YOU.. look at the Chief Generals and also the COMMANDERS who got Your Back and has your Support.. even the King and the Queen.. PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH are the ones who gave you the Crown.. I saw them both kneeling and kissing Your Hand.. of course I did Not see any of the Six Princes kissing Your Hand but now I know why.. But why do YOU need Me.. YOU have even the Prime Minister.. TAE SAH JAH.. and even the COUNCIL OF NOBLE MEN.. all the Maids.. even the HIGHEST KITCHEN LADY.. and even the Chief Doctor too.. WHY do you need me to help Me.. YOU know that I am so small.. I am Nothing when You look at all these great and important people around YOU.. and I see YOU getting Off the Horse.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please.. Stand back.. YOU don't need to come closer to Me.. YOU know How Great and Important you are and has become for the Kingdom you represent.. and I have become so Low.. Now it is so hard for me to get close to YOU.. when I see these great Men.. warrior Men surrounding YOU.. and with me the three friends would step back.. but I see YOU coming.. looking so Beautiful.. with the big Crown wearing the white Dress.. WHAT am I suppose to Do if I feel like YOU are this Great.. if you are this Big in my eyes.. what am I suppose to do.. and I am looking at the floor.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. and I would hear Your Voice.. and I would stop.. I would listen to Your Voice as I lift UP my Head to look at YOU.. as I would show my tears in my eyes.. How am I suppose to Love YOU.. if YOU are this Great and this Big.. and I feel so small when I am around YOU.. I just feel like I can't do anything any more.. because I have Nothing.. and I see YOU standing there.. YOU are wondering what happened to the boldness.. the courage.. the confidence that YOU saw in Me.. It is still here inside my Heart.. but.. at this Point right Now.. YOU have just gotten bigger.. and More stronger.. YOU have gotten.. that is why I am asking YOU for some time
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Oink Oink.. How big is your Heart.. is it big enough where my arms can wrap around it.. because I know that I want a Big Heart like yours.. even my words would Not be enough for YOU to take it all in.. I want to see how Big is Your Heart.. can I love you More and can I tell your Heart How much I love YOU.. because it is Not enough for me Yet.. I want to keep on telling YOU.. because as long as YOU have a Big Heart.. I know I can give you many more Letters.. I would be sitting down on the carpet of the Room.. Looking at this Big Box.. and I would Open the Top of the Big Box.. and Pulling Out.. it is this empty Glass Jar.. why would you give me this big Empty glass Jar.. am I suppose to put something into this Empty Glass Jar.. that is why I asked you a Question.. so that I can have answers to give YOU if YOU wanted an answer from Me.. I wanted you to Give me Your Heart.. at least Put it inside this Big Empty Glass jar and I would pull it Out of this Big Box and set it on the Carpet floor.. I did not see but at the bottom is a Picture.. I see two pictures and this Big Empty Glass Jar was on top of it.. I would go to get and grabbed two Pictures.. when I would take a Look of the two Pictures.. One is picture of YOU.. arms around the Empty Glass Jar with a big Smile.. and the other picture is what I been asking for.. a Picture of a Heart.. and It is a BIG HEART.. and I am looking at the Picture of Your Big Heart.. How am I suppose to Put this Heart.. your Big Heart inside this Big Empty Glass jar.. YOU know that I can speak.. I can speak words and tell your Big Heart a secret that NO ONE can tell Your Big Heart.. I can say.. I been missing YOU for so Long.. longing for days to get shorter so that I can see you sooner.. because some days seems a lot longer than usual.. because I am thinking of YOU and I am thinking of Your Big Heart.. I need to know.. how can I get to Your Big Heart.. how can I put this Big Heart I see in this Picture into this Big Empty Glass Jar.. do you want to see me Cry.. because I can cry very Loud and make the statement clear that I need your Big Heart first.. but How.. I want it so bad YOU know.. nothing else that gives me a smile is when I can see YOU and see your Big Heart with me.. I would ask and ask.. keep on asking until you be fed UP with me until I can see that Big Heart.. Do you know what I will do.. I will Cry as I am holding Your Big Heart in my Arms and will be crying for a long time because I can say.. it has taken me this Long.. the Worth the wait of course but Its been so Long and so Hard.. it has Not been easy on me to be asking and asking for Your Big Heart which you never seems to care much about giving to Me.. but I need this Big Heart of Yours more than YOU can have it on YOU.. so Please.. let me please have it.. let me hold your big Heart.. In my arms I would hold it still and cry as I am looking at the Big Heart.. I be saying.. what has taken it so Long for this Heart.. your Big Heart to arrive to me.. I been waiting for days.. it has been even longer than days because it becomes weeks.. when several weeks goes by it becomes Months of waiting.. looking at the four seasons come and goes.. I been waiting still.. I would be looking at this Picture.. the One with Your Big Smile.. arms holding around this Big Empty Glass Jar.. I wonder why you send me this Picture.. what does this means.. are YOU asking for this Big Empty Glass Jar to return back to YOU.. or are you asking me for something More than just this Big Empty glass jar.. when I look at the Picture and flipped to look at the back of this picture.. it stated.. Be more creative.. and I am thinking.. Oh.. it must be that YOU want this back but being creative means.. that is my part I needs to do.. as I would turn to LOOK at the desk.. I am thinking in my Mind.. is that means to give you Letters.. that is the Only thing that I can do for Now.. I can't give you much more than this.. and am I suppose to apologize for being so Poor that this is the Only thing I can give YOU.. I may be poor and Not have Much to give YOU.. but I know One thing for sure.. I have a Heart.. my Heart is also very big Like Yours.. when It comes of Loving YOU and telling YOU how much I love you.. my Heart seems to grow to send and to give and to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. and maybe you are telling me.. Fill it UP with Letters in this Big Empty Glass Jar and send it to YOU.. I am Not sure.. but Yes.. I been asking for Your Picture and asking for Your Big Heart and Now it seems like you have responded to my request.. so Now I am able to tell you this Heart of Mine.. as I would Place the Picture of YOU.. your arms around the Big Empty Glass Jar down.. I would pick UP the One picture of Your Big Heart.. and I would stand UP.. and Pull the chair so I can sit.. I am looking at your Picture.. of your Big Heart and Placing on top of the desk.. I would turn on the Monitor of the computer and I would set the Key Board up.. Looking at the Picture of Your Big Heart.. I just want to Hold your Big Heart in my arms.. is that something wrong.. am I being wrong for asking YOU if I can hold your Big Heart because I love YOU.. to see How it feels to be in my arms and to feel how soft and tender your Big Heart can feel.. will you let me Hold your big Heart in my arms.. will you let me love you so Tender that YOU can feel that It is because I been loving YOU still.. that warmth and the closeness I wanted to feel and treasure.. to cherish that feel of Your Big Heart close to me.. is it wrong for me to ask for this to YOU.. all I want YOU to know and to feel on my part.. that I been loving YOU for so long.. that it hurts me Once.. that it can hurt me twice and over and over again it hurts me because I been loving you so Strong.. even with this great distance.. even with the Miles apart.. I still love you even though you are so Far away.. How can I love you when YOU are so Far.. even it is so hard for me to ever meet YOU.. YOU are wondering.. How can I love you still.. it is because it is so Hard to Love.. it Love was so easy I think I would of never told YOU that I love YOU.. How can I love you when Love is so easy.. it just don't make any sense.. but my time is worth of YOU.. YOU are the true value of my Heart.. because YOU means everything to Me.. that is How I know.. it does Not matter How far YOU are.. or if I can't see YOU.. If I can't be with YOU.. it is better to Love you from afar if I am able to tell YOU how much the Cost and the Price of loving you Means.. because YOU are so Hard to Love and I do enjoy loving YOU being so Hard and so Difficult.. why.. I know that there will be a day.. the One day.. the Some Day that when YOU are in my Arms and YOU can show me How Big your Heart is and that my Arms finally can wrap around Your Big Heart and my Lips can kiss your Big Heart and say to your Big Heart.. I love YOU.. it is going to be speechless.. my breathe will be taken away from me because I know because I have been loving YOU for so Long.. that Long time means everything the day I see YOU and can finally speak the words out of my lips to tell your ears.. I love YOU.. It has a true meaning behind everything.. it has a true purpose because I never stopped loving YOU.. OH that day.. I am just waiting for that day.. My eyes be loaded with tears when I can put my ear on your Chest and say.. can I listen to Your big Heart.. I want to hear it beat.. Please let your Big Heart beat for me and I am crying as I am listening to the Beating of Your Heart.. because YOU know how much time passes.. and How long I have been waiting for YOU.. it is Day in the Sun and the Night is the Moon looking UP at the stars.. and I am reaching my hands.. my arms out and say.. I know you are that much away from Me.. but the day YOU LOVE ME.. I know you will be here with me.. in my arms I will hold you forever.. I want YOU to love me for you to come to me.. without loving me it means all nothing.. why do you think that I am telling you through all these letters that I love YOU.. so that One day.. YOUR BIG HEART can realize there is someone out there beneath the pale BLUE NIGHT.. underneath the MOON in the Night.. Some one is thinking of YOU and just loving YOU.. wishing on the MOON that One day YOU be loving me back soon.. but I know I need your Big Heart first.. I want Your Big Heart to love me.. but let me first introduce my Heart who is the One loving YOU.. who never stopped loving you since the day I started to tell YOU that I love YOU.. as I am looking at the Picture of your BIG HEART.. my hand touch the picture of your Big Heart.. How do I get to YOU.. get to Your Big Heart.. Please let me Know.. as I am looking at the Monitor of the Computer and I am looking down at the key Board.. my fingers would lay to touch the Buttons and I would close my eyes.. picture of YOU with the big Smile.. arms around the Big Empty Glass Jar and I would open my eyes and I am looking at the top of the desk.. I am looking at the Picture of your Big Heart and I would start to type.. I have just received a big Box from YOU.. I put in the floor of the Room and when I opened the Big Box.. there was this Big Empty Glass Jar.. I taken the Big Empty Glass jar out of the Big Box.. underneath the Big Empty Glass jar lay two pictures.. One is YOU holding.. arms around the Big empty Glass jar and the Other which got to my Heart was the Big Heart of Yours.. I would flip one picture to look back and it says.. TO be Creative.. I was not sure what that meant at all but only thing that I can do and I can give is these Letters.. I am Not sure if this is what YOU wanted but Now I am telling YOU this.. ever since I saw the Picture of Your Big Heart.. I want Your Big Heart.. I want to love your Big Heart.. if that is even possible for me to do.. but ALL I ever wanted is for Your Big Heart to know that I been loving YOU for a long time
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I wish that YOU were here.. I still can't believe it is taking me this long to see You.. are you trying to play games with me.. and Yes.. YOU are winning in this game if you are playing with my Mind and with my Heart.. but the more I wait for YOU.. it seems like the More YOU want to stay away from Me.. why can't you be more reals with Me and tell me where YOU are.. I am missing you like craze these days.. last night.. I heard the thunder roar.. and sat by the window in the living room.. watching the rain shower down as I would be thinking of You.. I would sit on the couch and I would turn my Head looking at the Chair.. it is Your Chair.. the empty chair now because without YOU being here.. what good is the use of that chair still be here.. but.. I know that if I throw that Chair away.. what if YOU come when the chair is gone.. and if YOU were to ask me.. what happened to the chair YOU sat down.. the chair that I bought YOU on your birthday.. the day I told you I have a surprise to show YOU.. I remember I told you to come Into the House.. putting a blind fold over your two eyes.. I would hold.. grabbing unto both of your hairs.. and I would be walking back.. but I told you to follow my voice and hear me.. I would listen to your voice.. as you would give me a Big Smile.. and I told YOU.. there is something I wanted to give YOU but.. you may not like it at first.. and I remember you be asking WHY would I get you something YOU might Not like.. I told YOU because it comes with a TIME.. you will understand it after some time goes By but when YOU look at it at the Moment.. YOU be like WHY.. but I wanted to tell YOU and show YOU.. but also to give YOU something that goes beyond just what YOU see.. I remember we were in the dining room.. and I would stop.. which it made you stop walking forward.. I am just missing these little times we had.. I believe what I started to miss everything about YOU.. you told me that it is Not the Big things that counts in your Heart.. but it is the little moments of special times we would spend.. I was Never happy of giving you the Little things because I wanted to always give you Big things because I loved YOU.. of course I never understood that at the time because I wanted to show YOU.. my Heart can be Big when it comes to Loving YOU.. You would push me.. angry fire comes Out and yelling at me because I could never understand what YOU be going through.. never could get it right the first time.. and of course.. How do I know.. I make a lot of mistakes too you know.. I am Not perfect person.. of course I am going to make you feel very angry in times.. makes fire rose from your Heart.. and Yes.. spitting words to Hurt and cut into.. what am I suppose to do or say when I am trying to understand YOU.. but just remember that I have tried many times trying to get it right the first time.. even though I may not get it right but at least YOU should know and remember that I never stopped loving YOU.. what do I do when I am still be waiting for YOU.. I would be sitting on the couch.. looking toward the Window in the living.. I saw the rain pouring down.. I felt in my Heart.. I must been so bad to YOU.. why make me regret all the time when I wanted you to know that I loved YOU.. I still love YOU and that is why my arms are still open wide waiting for YOU.. telling you to please come Home.. even the Chair.. when I turn to look at the diner room.. looking at the table.. I see one side of the Chair.. the One I would always sit on that chair.. but there is One on the Other side.. it is where YOU sat.. sat down with a big Smile.. asking me that YOU love this Chair.. then at least come Home not for Me.. for the Chair you be telling me you started to Love.. what if that Chair has a Heart just like me and be waiting for you.. now with a Broken Heart because the Chair is missing YOU like crazy.. if I can go back to the time of Your Birthday.. I remember I told YOU.. YOU can take off the Blind Fold from your two eyes.. I remember you would Look after the Blindfold be off your Head.. and I would be standing and behind me was Your New Chair.. when I walked off to show YOU.. I see your eyes rolling at me.. but I would say.. If you can only listen to my voice for Once.. When you start to sit on this Chair.. things will start to happen.. that is the key.. of course I am holding two hands of yours and I would lead you to the Chair.. and watching you sit Down.. I would look at YOU for a few minutes.. I guess you started to grumble because I just stood there with a big Smile.. like am I playing a joke on you.. I went to the Kitchen.. and I would grab the Big Teddy Bear.. which was sitting on the kitchen floor.. and I would come Out.. and Put the Big Teddy Bear on top of the Diner table.. and I would go back into the Kitchen.. and I grabbed your Birthday cake.. with strawberries around.. and Placed the Cake next to the Big Teddy Bear.. with a Lighter set the candles on fire.. and I would give you a tape recorder.. and I would press the Play button.. I would walk to the Living room and sat on the couch.. I do remember on your Birthday it was raining out side.. and I sat down turning to face the window looking at the rain showering down.. I would turn my Head.. looking at YOU sitting on the Chair.. it was a gift that I got and it was not a cheap Chair either.. wanted to get you the Best kind because guess who is going to be sitting on that Chair.. it is YOU My Love.. and for a while.. there was nothing on the recorder.. but suddenly you would hear my voice telling you something.. I been waiting for Your Birthday.. at first I was Not sure what to get YOU because I did Not want to ever disappointed YOU.. of course by Now YOU know what I got YOU.. I hope that YOU are not disappointed of the choice I gave to YOU.. YOU are going to wonder from ALL of the gifts.. there is many different flowers I could of got YOU.. even chocolates too.. cards.. even clothes.. I guess there are so many choices of options to make YOU smile More.. but I would think about where YOU can spend the Most time with me.. DO you remember what YOU told me once.. that what YOU loved the Most.. it is not the Big expensive things with sparkles that counts.. but it is the little memories we can build our dreams together that YOU wished.. and I would put those words into thoughts.. and I would remember your words be telling me because if it is important for YOU to tell me.. I must consider to take action with your Words and mark it into my Heart.. if it is important for YOU.. it needs to be important with me as well and YOU are Now sitting On the Chair.. of course at first you are not going to like what I got for YOU because YOU would say.. there is NO true meaning behind this Gift.. but.. YOU told me that It is the Little things that YOU truly care for.. it is the little things that YOU want to see me to do.. of course YOU may not get it right now.. but I have plans that I want to show YOU what it means of this gift.. I have put all things into actions that YOU will see because it starts with YOU knowing How much I love YOU.. do you even know what Love truly is.. the real meaning of love.. of how Much I love YOU.. that is why I wanted to show YOU by putting YOU to the seat.. that It starts with YOU sitting on that chair.. it is Your Chair and I put a lot of thoughts into of choosing this Chair.. you may not see it or get it Now.. but I choose that thinking of YOU.. Look at the Big Teddy Bear.. and Look at the Birthday Cake.. look at the candles but it came out of YOU first sitting on this Chair of gift I got YOU.. after I got this Chair.. I remember asking the person who was selling.. what does this person think about the chair as the Birthday gift.. I saw the person laughing at me because.. there is a lot of Other birthday gifts and I told the person it was YOU.. the One who I truly Loved.. the person laughed at my face.. of course I did not say much but I want to say to YOU Now.. it starts with YOU sitting on that chair.. where I can pull myself more closer to YOU.. that I have ears which are opened to listen to YOU.. and I have a Heart who can also listen.. but I have also words I can share to give YOU comfort and Words to tell YOU how much I miss YOU and How much I truly Love YOU too.. and it starts with your Chair.. which the More YOU sit on this Chair.. your Chair.. the More I can be a servant to serve YOU.. YOU will see what I am going to do because a part of me Loving YOU the Most is when I can serve you the Best.. to make YOU the Most.. make you feel the Most important in this world can ever live.. all you got to do is sit on this Chair.. and I will come to you to serve what YOU truly need as the One who loves you the Most.. and as the Tape recorder ends.. and it stops.. I see you push the Stop button and YOU turn your Head looking at me sitting on the couch.. I am looking at the window as it is still raining out side.. and I turn my head looking at the Diner table.. looking at you sitting on that Chair.. I would see YOU get UP from the chair.. and YOU show me your big Smile.. as Your Arms around the Big Teddy bear.. and I would stand UP from sitting on the Couch.. I want to see you blow Out the candles on the Birthday Cake.. I am Not sure if YOU are going to like the Chair.. but I would walk to the Diner room and I stop next to YOU.. YOU know that I love YOU.. all I wanted to give is something that may be just too little but it has value in some what ways so that YOU can at least remember my Heart.. something that can count and YOU can say I loved YOU.. and could remember how much I did.. and still Do.. you told me that It is the little things that counted for YOU.. so YOU wanted me to buy you a car and say.. this is the little things but I am not rich at all.. it would be nice if I was wealthy rich and could afford to get YOU a car.. but this point in my Life.. YOU know that I can't afford that Much.. but it starts with this Chair
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Something More but why did YOU leave me so Soon.. if you waited a little longer.. you could of seen the change in Me.. change as a person to show you much more of How much I love YOU.. but when YOU left.. my life has been shattered into pieces but I did take the next step in my life and Now I know that if YOU could just give me One more chance.. I can love you better.. and give it better than before.. Only Please.. be fair with me.. only Please give me One more chance to prove that my Love is real.. has been real all this time but had to know it the hard way.. I only want you to come back Home.. the Chair.. which has been sitting here.. has been lonely without YOU.. has been waiting for YOU so that I can now deliver my words and can show YOU now that I can love you more.. Please.. Baby Please.. come back home to me.. as I am standing by your Chair.. the empty Chair.. I hear a Beep.. and I am Not sure where that Sound came from but it is a Message that has been sent to me.. and I would be looking for the Phone.. the Cell Phone which YOU gave me on my Birthday.. just the Chair I gave YOU on your Birthday.. and I would be waiting.. I would turn to look at the Living room.. the Window.. the Rain has stopped and I know that something good can happen out of this.. that I believe that YOU will come.. YOU will come home soon because I believe in Love and Change is what it needs to be done for the Love to keep on going.. only it is YOU my Love.. come Home where the Chair.. the Empty chair is missing YOU and Now.. for my Promises to be fulfilled.. Please Come Home.. I am missing you so much right Now.. I went to the table.. I saw the Empty Chair.. still wondering if YOU are coming Home.. but as YOU can see I don't know why YOU are Not still here.. Looking at the Plate.. the Food I made for YOU.. which you did Not come home yet.. and staring at the Chair.. the Chair you would sit.. I would watch YOU across the table when we eat.. many times I would watch YOU smile and then YOU would laugh.. I do really miss those days.. even when YOU came home.. Long day of work.. sometimes when It rain Out side.. and I would hear the DOOR open.. I would walk Out of the kitchen.. preparing and making the Food.. putting the Plate on the table.. just waiting for YOU to come Home.. the smile.. and I would watch YOU sit.. sit on that chair.. as I would just watch YOU eat while I am sitting on my side of the chair.. How come this had to happen.. why are you NOT coming home yet.. I received a message.. also YOU send me a Picture.. a recent picture of YOU.. I would see you sitting On a chair.. Holding a Giant Teddy Bear.. and with a Bow on the top of your Head.. I am Not sure where the location or the Place you were at.. but YOU send me a Message with a Picture telling me How you are doing.. and of course.. I would smile looking at this recent picture of YOU and I would ask YOU.. where are YOU.. Please tell me.. if YOU are close by in the area.. can I go to YOU.. and I would be waiting for the Message but a Long pause.. YOU would text message me saying.. YOU are Not in the area and that YOU are far off.. at Least YOU are starting to share and telling me how YOU are doing.. but.. I am still waiting for YOU.. all I can think of is YOU coming Home.. when I would pass by the diner room.. I would look at the table.. and I would LOOK at your chair.. the empty chair that has been sitting there waiting for YOU for a long time Now.. and It is asking Me.. when Are you coming HOME.. when are YOU going to sit on this EMPTY CHAIR.. I would tell the chair.. I am Not sure when because YOU never tell me when YOU are coming Home.. all I can think of is YOU.. just missing YOU every Night.. every Night feels like I am going to die here alone.. without YOU.. I feel like this Chair.. Like this Empty chair.. just sitting here and just waiting for YOU.. and ALL I do is look at the New recent picture YOU gave me.. I would look on the Phone.. and in the front of the phone your Picture.. the recent picture.. the ONE you are sitting on the Chair.. with the Big bow on top of your Head.. arms wrap around the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I want to cry.. because NOW.. I wish that I could be that Giant Teddy Bear.. WHY does that GIANT TEDDY BEAR seems so Happy.. of course it is because YOUR Arms.. How about my arms.. how about ME.. I want to be held by YOU.. feel the JOY and LOVE that Only can comes from YOU.. Only YOU can bring that Big smile ON my face.. NO One else can make me more happier than YOU can.. as I am standing.. I am in the kitchen.. just thinking about.. as I am looking at the Plate.. I made this Food last night for YOU.. I would take a Picture of the Plate with the FOOD that was made and I would send it to YOU.. telling YOU.. it is waiting for YOU.. and I would look at your Chair.. who is also waiting for YOU TO sit on.. and I would sent the Picture of Your Chair and the Plate.. NOW.. I am in the kitchen.. I know that YOU did not come home because I see the FOOD still on the Plate.. as I am putting the FOOD on the trash.. and I would start to wash the dishes with water.. knife and fork.. cups.. and Now my tears.. I can't stop the tears falling from my eyes because it can get this hard on me some times.. I am asking YOU.. but YOU never response.. YOU never tell me that why YOU are not coming Home.. after washing the Plates and the cups.. the knives and forks.. I would use the towel to wipe it dry and Put on the Counter where I would put all these things there.. of course.. I feel so sad.. and many times broken hearted when I would walk Out of the room.. and I stand to see.. going to the diner room.. hoping that YOU came.. hoping that I would see you sit on your Chair.. hoping to see YOU eating and finishing the Food on the plate.. to see YOU turn Your Head to look at me and smile and telling me HOW finally YOU came HOME to me.. when I would walk out of the room and I stand still.. as I look toward the Diner room and I see it be empty.. looking at your Chair.. the empty chair.. and LOOKING at the Plate.. I would see the FOOD still here.. I turn to look towards the door.. I find NO shoes of yours.. my Heart.. it feels like YOU have thrown a hard ball.. a rock and Hit me on the stomach.. I can feel something sharp because my expectation of YOU.. if YOU came HOME.. it hurts to watch.. it hurts to stand here looking at the table.. LOOKING at your Chair.. and I would just want to fall down.. but I just look.. knowing that YOU did not come.. and I would wonder.. I send you the picture.. I took the picture of the plate.. and the FOOD in the plate for YOU to see what I have cooked and made you for this very night.. I can't believe that YOU still do Not want to show UP at all.. How much do I must miss YOU.. what am I suppose to do for YOU to know how much I love YOU and how I am still sorry of what I have done.. I know that I have made just too many bad mistakes.. and yes.. it is all my fault.. but just give me this One more chance.. I think that My Heart is burning.. and it is going to be burned because My Heart just can't stop loving YOU.. every Night.. after I would prepare.. looking through what I should cook or make for YOU.. it takes time for me to Know.. looking through many chef videos.. trying to do something different so that YOU would come Home.. I think I watched over 100 videos of cooking chef.. trying to cook something for YOU.. but.. I feel like how much more can I do.. I look at your chair.. I look at this empty Chair.. should I put your chair in my room instead.. because it drives me crazy when It sits here all alone.. this Empty chair is missing YOU because I know that IN my Heart.. I am the One who misses YOU.. I know that I can think like this empty chair because when I would watch YOU sit.. I was the Most happiest person in the world.. because I was able to express and show YOU something that I loved the Most.. to share and to tell YOU.. to make and create and to cater something that comes beneath my Heart.. I wanted to show YOU that I love YOU.. so I do remember going into the Kitchen classes.. I wanted to be the Best Chef.. just for YOU.. that is what counts.. that is what should counts.. NO ONE should care because as long as I be able to give you something that CAN Only comes from the depth of my Heart.. I wanted to impress you by showing YOU.. I am the Most happiest when I can give you this FOOD.. would you please take a taste.. would you please come and sit at this table and let the Plate I give YOU.. to fill your stomach because each time YOU eat.. it makes me full.. it makes me smile inside because I put all my energy and efforts into so that when it gets to YOU.. MY words would not be enough but the action of giving you this Plate.. this food on the Plate.. I put everything on the table so that when YOU COME to eat.. I can turn the other way and cry with a joy.. NOT sadness anymore.. I started to take classes.. getting new ideas to put food on the Plate and I would start to make it at Home.. I would look at your Empty Chair.. my Heart keeps breaking when I would pass by.. Looking at your chair.. which is an empty chair.. I would stand there.. WHY can't you be here.. why must YOU had to go.. why leave me here with this Chair.. why couldn't you take this chair with YOU.. or at least you could of helped me by removing two eyes.. if I be blinded.. I know with my eyes be missing.. I won't see this Chair.. this empty chair.. I would walk by.. I can feel something sharp in my chest.. just longing for YOU.. but being very busy taking lessons with the top chef.. what I learned and what I cooked in the class.. I would tell the TOP CHEF about YOU.. how much I missed YOU and wanted to create and make.. cook something for YOU every night and He started to show ME
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Would get UP.. I would walk to your side of the table.. Looking at your chair.. the Empty chair.. I would lower to take the picture with the Phone.. the Plate with the Food I made for YOU and I would turn to LOOK at your Chair.. the Empty Chair and send it to YOU.. and I would write.. YOUR Chair misses YOU tonight.. I miss YOU tonight.. here is what I made while learning from the TOP CHEF at the kitchen class and I would stand UP.. Looking at your Chair.. LOOKING at the empty chair and I would turn to LOOK at my room and I would walk in closing the DOOR behind me.. As I am in the Kitchen.. just thinking about the many weeks gone by.. now few months has gone by too.. and I am looking at my Phone.. LOOKING at the recent picture YOU have sent to me.. Is that the Giant Teddy Bear I got for YOU.. I think I remember that GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. but I am Not sure.. then how about the One in my ROOM.. there is A GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. looks just like this In my room.. on top of the Bed.. I am not sure if this is the same One or Not.. but I miss YOU.. the TOP CHEF been telling me that I am getting better at cooking.. He tasted some of the things I made in the Class.. I don't care what that Man says because the Most Important is YOU.. I want YOU to taste and tell ME how it taste Like.. I am doing all these things for YOU.. and Yes.. I have grown to love this craft.. because it is all about giving.. I just want to give YOU more.. More of my Heart.. More of How much I love YOU.. I want to tell you now that I have grown to love you More and more because.. I been thinking of you while cooking and making all these dishes I made on the Plate for YOU.. ONLY is YOU.. for YOU to come Home.. and for YOU to sit on this Empty Chair.. this Chair misses you so Much.. I feel like this Chair.. when I pass by Your Chair.. and I stop too look at Your Chair.. I can feel and relate the Pain of missing YOU.. this Pain of ache and longing that It just don't go away because of missing YOU.. and WHEN My hand touches your Chair.. I feel something.. a sharp pain because I feel like this chair.. LIKE an Empty chair.. without YOU.. I feel like I can't go on.. I need you here.. I need to see YOU.. I want to see YOU.. just to tell YOU.. Please sit on this Chair so that IT does not feel so empty like HOW MY HEART feels without YOU.. I need you because I love YOU.. will you please come Home.. Please come back to Me.. I am missing YOU like crazy.. I am just missing you.. and as I turn to LOOK toward the window.. I am starting to see the rain falling.. it just keeps on getting worse as days go by.. without YOU it feels like I can't go ON.. that is why I need YOU.. that is why I needs to tell you that I love YOU.. Please Come HOME and help me to Love YOU again.. I need YOU.. I need to love YOU again and only way is if YOU come home.. where this Chair.. empty chair is waiting.. just like ME.. waiting for YOU To come home.. I am looking at the Empty Chair.. Looking at the chair where YOU use to sit.. I would walk over.. and Pull the chair and I would sit on your Chair.. I am missing YOU so Much.. it seems like years are going by but it has Not reached that far.. for several weeks.. I am looking at the Plate.. the Food I made just for you to eat.. It has gone cold and My Heart.. I just wish YOU can come Home.. why are you taking so Long to be here.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. hurting and Piercing through my Heart.. why.. DO you not love Me.. I have told YOU many times that I love YOU.. I even told YOU.. send YOU many messages that I miss YOU and that I was so wrong.. that I am so sorry.. WHY can't you believe my words.. these words of Mine that truly comes from my Heart.. I even got your Answer.. YOU even wrote me back.. telling me that YOU are coming Home.. as I turn to LOOK at the window.. I am wondering are you coming Home tonight.. are you coming because I am waiting for YOU.. as I get UP from sitting on your Chair.. I would move and back UP.. and I just wanted to say.. I would walk into the Room.. grabbing a Note and writing on the Note.. telling you as I write on the Note.. I missed YOU so Much.. that I sat on your Chair.. the Plate.. the FOOD on the Plate is cold Now.. It has been sitting there waiting for YOU.. My Heart I think is cold as the FOOD on the Plate.. just missing YOU so Long.. I can't even feel my Heart beat any more.. I am losing myself because I am losing YOU.. and I would walk out of the ROOM.. putting the Note next to the Plate of Food just in case YOU would come Home.. I would walk back into my ROOM.. closing the Door behind.. On the desk.. I put Your Picture.. I would walk up to the desk.. I miss YOU.. I want YOU back.. and I need you near.. WHY do you have to do this to Me.. DID you not tell me that YOU are coming Home soon.. if you have a change of Heart.. a Change of Mind.. why would you text me the message that YOU are coming Home.. I told you that the DOOR is always open for YOU.. YOU are allowed to be here with Me.. so Please Come Home.. as I am standing by the desk.. my Hand grab and pick UP the Picture.. I would pull your Picture close to Me and I am looking.. staring into the Picture LOOKING at YOU.. WHY are you so Beautiful.. WHY do you take my Breathe away and leaving me speechless.. DO you remember these words I told YOU.. DO you remember when I told YOU the first time.. and I showed you this House.. would you like to come inside and check Out this House.. I do remember you smiling.. and how you would enter this House with Me.. going to the Diner table.. the first.. YOU would look at the two chairs.. One on the right.. One on the Left.. and looking at the two.. Both chairs and YOU would say to me.. the One on the Left.. that chair is YOURS and NO one can sit on that chair.. and I remember you pulling Out the chair with a Smile and YOU sat On the chair.. with a Big Smile.. which made me smile back at YOU.. and Now.. OH I would miss Your Smiles.. since YOU are gone.. when can I see your smile again.. as I would turn around.. I am holding a camera in my Hand.. and I would open the Door.. putting the Camera in front of Me.. Looking through the Lens.. I am focusing on your Chair.. WHY is it that I see YOU sitting on that Chair.. Is it really YOU.. did YOU come back Home.. and I would see YOU eating.. Fork and Knife on your hands.. cutting through the Meats and fork into green beans and corns.. and I see you Lift Your Head and YOU are looking at me.. Is it really YOU.. did YOU come home.. when did YOU arrive.. But all I see YOU just looking at the camera and when I put the Camera down.. I only see your Chair.. it is the empty Chair.. OH WHY.. WHY do you have to do this to Me.. why don't you show UP.. and my hands and the camera falls Out of the hands and Hits the floor and My Heart.. My Hand hits My chest.. I just can't breathe.. I am at lost.. I can't breathe and I would fall back to the ground.. and I just can't believe that YOU are gone.. and YOU are Not coming Home.. I have been waiting for YOU.. why tell me YOU are coming HOME.. why give me Hopes and give me dreams of another chance but I still see the Empty Chair.. If YOU are going to say something.. YOU show know how to keep your words.. and I just can't help it now.. what am I suppose to do.. all I see is that Chair.. LOOK at that Chair.. Your Chair.. the EMPTY CHAIR.. by why is My Heart feels like it is tearing apart and Into pieces.. I see that Chair.. Your EMPTY chair.. I want to toss that Chair over.. I want to grab that Chair and smash into pieces.. It is just driving me Nuts.. It is just driving me Crazy because I keep on thinking of YOU that YOU will return.. YOU told me that YOU be coming home.. WHY do you Lie to me if YOU are not going to keep the word.. I have made Promises and I try my best to keep the words.. How about YOU.. why can't you be reals like How I am.. and as I am sitting on the ground.. having Your Picture in my hand.. grabbing from the desk of the room.. I would take a LOOK at YOU.. WHAT have you done to my Heart.. WHY all these pain and bruises in My Heart.. do YOU really Love Me.. then why do YOU keep on hurting me if YOU say YOU love me.. I would Not hurt you any more.. so Please.. if YOU love me.. return and come Back Home to me.. as I watch.. I am wondering.. is this a Dream.. It this a vision.. am I going crazy again.. AM I seeing things.. I hear something Unlock.. and the Door opens.. and I am looking UP.. as I see you standing there.. I just can't help it.. am I going crazy.. because I am seeing YOU.. but is it really YOU this time.. or am I just imagining things again.. I am Not sure any more because I know that I love you too much.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. and I see YOU walk into the House.. and the door closes behind.. and YOU are standing there like I am crazy.. two lines of tears starts to fall from my eyes.. I am so Hurt.. My Heart is so Hurt.. I am Not sure if what I am seeing is true or Not any more.. I think loving YOU like this got me crazy.. I just came out of the room.. Looking at your Picture from the desk.. I grabbed the Camera and I walked Out with your Picture in my hand.. as I place the Camera and the lens before my eye.. I would look at your Chair.. I just saw YOU sitting on your Chair.. YOU were eating on that diner table.. I just saw YOU.. picking UP the knife and fork.. when I put the camera Down.. it was Nothing but just the empty Chair.. I saw nothing.. Only your Chair.. it was empty.. and I saw the Plate with the Food on top of the Diner table.. I felt the Pain.. it felt so Hard inside.. this Pain of missing YOU.. this Pain of seeing that YOU are Not here.. that YOU are really gone and I just fell on the floor with the Camera Out of my hands.. Is this real.. or am I going really crazy.. and as the tears starts to
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Do Love Hurts.. why do YOU hurt me.. I don't get it because I know that I love you just too much.. If I love YOU.. then there should be No pain or hurts at all.. But Loving YOU so much.. I know it hurts me too.. my hands reach.. and I grab the Camera in my Hands.. my arms wrap around the Camera.. all I need is YOU.. ALL I need is for YOU to be close.. so that I can love YOU.. so that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. as I see YOU stand UP.. and I see you pulling Your Chair.. and YOU sat on your Chair.. I started to cry More.. and I just can't help it.. I always needed YOU.. needed you to be here.. to come Home.. Is it true.. am I really seeing this.. and I would get UP on two feet.. and I see you with the Knife cutting the Meats.. I put the Camera close.. my eye look through the Lens.. I just can't.. I can't look through this Lens because what if I put the Camera Down and YOU are gone.. I will end UP having the Heart attack.. and I place my eye and Pulled away fast to take a Look.. I only see the Empty Chair.. I only see the Note.. Plate with Food.. and Your Chair there.. I am waiting for you.. How long has it been since I saw you last time.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. holding in my hands.. by the table.. I am waiting for YOU.. you told me that YOU are going to come.. I just received a message.. sending me a text message.. and I have been waiting but now it is getting later in the Night.. I would walk to the side where I would sit.. I would sit on the chair.. putting two plates.. I was in the kitchen.. cooking for few hours because I received your message.. My Heart.. I have never felt this Heart Beat hitting.. and for a long time I could not even hear from YOU.. I called you many many many times.. for more than weeks went by.. I even left you my voice on the message at the end.. asking YOU and begging YOU please to answer.. asking YOU that I wanted to hear you on the Other side.. I would call.. hearing the ringing.. and even typed a message on the Phone.. but for a long time now.. I have not received.. I even took pictures of the Plates.. different nights and I would send it to your Number.. and I know that YOU received it.. I been waiting for the answer.. just been waiting for YOU.. it seems like it has been years on my part of waiting.. asking YOU to come Home.. but YOU never answered and Finally I got Your Message.. and YOU even texted message me back telling me you are coming Home.. I even fell off the chair I was sitting on because I just could not believe.. I wondered if this was a Joke.. maybe a prank.. but I knew that It was YOU because it came from Your Number.. garlic Bread.. green beans with Corn and a Steak.. placing the Plate On your side of the table.. and I was so happy.. I would go across my side of the table and I sat down.. of course YOU never told me the hours when YOU would come Home.. I sat down just waiting.. as I pulled out your Picture.. I would be staring.. looking at Your Beautiful Face.. your Smile so Gorgeous and it lights My Heart on fire.. I would watch the Clock on the wall.. as it went from 30 minutes and it hits to about a hour.. I watch the time.. the clock keeps on ticking.. AS I sit on this Chair waiting for YOU.. but I do not hear anything from YOU.. I would lift UP the Phone.. I am dialing up your Number ON my phone.. but I decided to stop calling YOU.. as I would look at your Picture.. I would have to face another day.. another night comes.. I sit here alone without YOU.. I been waiting and waiting for YOU.. why don't you want to come Home.. why did YOU leave me a message telling me YOU were coming Home.. I even took the Picture of the Plate.. the Dinner I made for YOU so that we can eat together.. I send the picture to YOU.. I know that YOU received it.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. are you playing games with my Heart.. do you want to hurt Me because I know that I am hurt so Bad.. without YOU.. my days goes so Long.. it drags and the Clock stops ticking in front of Me.. YOU know that I been missing YOU.. I been needing YOU.. is it because YOU know How much I miss YOU.. that you are causing this Heart ache.. is it because YOU know How much I love YOU.. you are causing my Heart to cry inside.. I want to run in the rain.. I want to be washed UP by the waters of the cold.. soaking me to be wet.. my eyes would weep as I would stare into the night.. LOOKING at the walls asking for YOU.. begging for YOU to come Home.. why don't you want to see me.. why don't you want me to love YOU any more.. YOU know that I will love YOU.. you know how much I love YOU.. but why don't you come closer.. please tell me.. help me to understand why YOU want to put this distance between Us.. if YOU know.. I am like a lone wolf.. by myself I am howling loud for YOU.. wailing in my Heart.. screaming from my Lungs.. I need YOU.. I miss YOU.. I love YOU.. why don't you want me to Love YOU.. please tell me.. please help me to understand.. I been waiting for YOU.. YOU told me you were coming Home.. now four hours has gone by.. and my hour.. the time has pass by for me to sleep.. but I am still sitting here.. I am looking across.. looking at the Plate.. looking at the Chair.. the empty Chair where YOU sat once.. I feel so Bad because Now I am only looking at the chair.. that chair once that gave me the JOY.. the true happiness.. the smiles.. of course I did not know how much NOW I miss you.. and Now I see how much I love YOU because I am only looking at the Chair.. the empty chair where YOU sat down Once.. I do remember my friend came Over.. He looks at me and I was crumbling inside.. holding UP the Hard liquor and taking Shots from the Shot glass.. and He looks at me asking what is wrong.. and I would turn my Head.. and I would be looking at Your Chair.. which He saw me and He knew what I meant.. what My Heart was missing is YOU.. and He did come around when YOU were there.. knowing How much I am torn into pieces.. and I am crying in front of HIM because this Heart.. I was aching inside.. this Pain.. it felt like something sharp plunging into my stomach.. it hurts so bad.. I just couldn't breathe well and He knew.. My Pain.. and losing YOU how it affected everything I had.. and I saw the Chair.. now that chair is empty.. It hurts.. WHY does it hurts so bad.. it hurts me because I now know how much I love YOU.. and the Friend told me He can introduce me but I told that friend.. I don't need another.. I wanted YOU.. it does not matter how many sits on that chair.. it does not feel the same because I want YOU.. only YOU can sit on that chair and I would look and say to You.. I love YOU.. Now I am sitting here alone.. watching the Clock as it keeps on ticking slowly and waiting for YOU to come Home.. as I am looking at Your Picture.. I would say looking at your Picture.. did YOU just lied to Me.. were you not serious about coming Home.. why did YOU tell me through the text message that YOU are coming Home.. asking me to make Your Favorite Dish.. I even wrote back the message that I am going to the kitchen so that I can cook for YOU.. and I even took the picture of the Plate.. your favorite Dish and YOU also send two thumbs UP saying it is YOUR Favorite dish.. what you did not see is that I smiled when I received the two thumbs UP.. my Heart beat so fast because it is from YOU.. and I just could not believe that YOU send me text message.. it has been a while since I heard anything.. and after I took the picture and send.. I sat on my side of the table.. and kept on looking at the clock.. as the clock kept on ticking.. I wanted to ask when are YOU coming Home.. but I told myself just to be patient and just to wait.. Now I am looking at the Clock.. it has been five hours since the last message.. the text message I received.. I wonder if YOU are going to come Home tonight.. feels Like I needs to go to my Room and sleep through the Night.. will I see you tomorrow if I wait UP.. will you be here when I get UP to a new day or do I have to wait all over again.. it repeats over and over.. of course this time is a little different since I did received a Text Message.. a lot better than previous days.. weeks.. NO answer was such a Harsh reality to wake UP too.. but I do feel a little better because I know that it was YOU who sent me the message.. I guess I just needs to wait for More.. just give YOU more time.. and I believe the Time is the Only way it can heal what is going On.. because NO matter where YOU at.. I am always here waiting for YOU.. looking at your Picture.. telling You in the Picture How much I love YOU.. that I will always love YOU.. as I would get UP from the Chair.. I would look across.. the Plate.. and I see two Chairs.. I am wondering where did that Other Chair come from.. and I do remember that YOU brought another Chair.. Next to Your Chair.. YOU would sit the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I do remember you be playing with that Giant Teddy Bear.. telling me that YOU are her Friend.. and I would watch you holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. as YOU were sitting ON your Chair.. the Giant Teddy Bear had her own Chair too.. and I am smiling.. I do remember YOU telling me.. bring the Camera.. the Picture I am holding.. there was another Picture behind It.. I never knew that there were two pictures I was holding.. when I looked at the second Picture.. It was YOU smiling.. and YOU were sitting on your Chair.. and Next to YOU.. the Giant Teddy Bear sitting.. How you asking me to bring the Camera and to take picture of Both.. YOU and Your Friend.. I never knew that This was the last picture I would take before YOU would be gone.. I stood there.. looking at the two empty chairs.. I can feel my tears.. filling UP my eyes and two lines of tears streaming down.. only if I could go back to this time.. to be more careful with my Words.. Not to tell YOU anything that would Hurt YOU.. why did I
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With me.. I want to tell YOU and ask YOU.. I love YOU.. will you please let me love YOU.. YOU know how much I want to love YOU.. if YOU were here.. I would hold you in my arms and will cry telling YOU that It has been a winter in my life.. without YOU I can see winter.. the Trees are dead.. leaves crumble.. it feels like it every day.. why can't YOU be here.. and I am standing here.. I am waiting for YOU.. YOU told me that YOU were coming Home.. why aren't you here yet.. as I turn around.. I hear a knocking on the door.. BUT.. for some reason.. I can't get to the door.. I hear knocking on the door.. on the front door I hear more knocking.. But I can't get to the door.. I hear it.. but.. for some reason.. I can't go to answer that door.. I am laying on the floor.. I don't know what just happened but I am laying.. I feel so dizzy.. I feel so confused.. all I hear is the Knocking on the front door.. I am wondering.. why can't I get UP to answer that door.. but I know that I needs too.. I close my eyes slowly.. wondering if this is it.. but I miss YOU.. and I love YOU.. WHY didn't you come any sooner.. when I wanted YOU the most.. but Now.. I can see my eyes closing.. I miss YOU and I love YOU.. Please help Me.. Help me to Love YOU.. if only I can love YOU.. I think I can open my eyes and tell YOU.. I love YOU because that is all I want to Do.. to Love YOU..I am looking at the Empty Chair.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU sitting on the Chair.. I want YOU home.. I want you here next to Me.. sitting on this chair which right Now I don't see you here.. as I am looking at the table.. I want to sit but I can't.. because I know that I am going to miss YOU if I don't see you across the table.. with YOUR beautiful smile.. I just keeps on missing YOU.. Please come Home.. Please come Home to me because I am missing YOU so bad.. will you please come back.. and I walk over.. I am standing by the Chair.. Your Chair.. the empty chair.. I am asking myself.. when will I see you again.. My hand.. holding your picture.. I lift up my hand.. holding Your picture in my hand.. YOU are holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. YOU are sitting on this chair.. the empty chair which right Now I am standing by.. on your lap is the Giant Teddy Bear sitting.. I can't believe YOU are not here.. I still can't believe YOU are Not here.. I been waiting for YOU more than a Month.. where are YOU now.. I been asking for YOU.. even begging YOU to come home.. I am taking pictures on the Phone.. sending you Plates.. your most favorite dishes I would make for dinner.. and Yes.. YOU are receiving the pictures.. because it goes direct to Your Number and yes.. I see that YOU are able to see the Pictures I would take.. looking at the Plates.. the dishes every Night so that I want YOU to come Home.. there are Nights I be waiting.. sitting on my side of the chair.. I am eating alone.. looking across is the empty Chair.. I feel so hurt.. I feel so Bad.. I feel like I have messed UP so bad this time.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do next.. But I need YOU here because I have called you several times.. I would tell YOU with the Voice Message How much I have messed UP and that I am so sorry.. so tell me this.. are you with some one new.. are you with another guy because I truly want to know.. if YOU are leaving me Now for another guy.. please tell me so that I can let YOU go.. I would even write text messages asking you about this many times.. But YOU would Not answer me.. it breaks my Heart because I would call.. Phone number dials.. my ear listening to the ringing on the Phone.. and I am asking Please.. pick UP the phone.. Pretty Please answer so that I can at least hear YOU say that YOU are alright.. But I would call. I would not hear any answers.. and I am speaking to YOU through the Phone asking YOU Please come back to me because it does not matter if YOU are with another guy.. as long as I am still in your Heart.. just please come home.. as I am standing by next to Your Chair.. which is an Empty Chair.. I just want YOU HOME.. I want YOU close to me and I am missing YOU.. why can't you tell me that YOU miss me too.. tell me what is in your Heart so that I know how you are doing.. I am looking at the Chair.. the Empty Chair.. I just want to cry.. I want to just pour out my eyes out.. just pour out my tears because I want to see YOU.. it is so hard not seeing YOU for Month.. I need to see YOU.. at least say that YOU do know my Heart.. as I am looking at the Phone.. I have made another Dinner dish.. a steam fish with veggies and I would look at the camera and I would be looking as I would click and I am looking at the picture of Dish I made for YOU this very night and I would look for YOUR Number and I would send it to YOU.. I would be look at my chair.. I would walk and sit on the chair.. and I would start to eat late into the night.. I would be looking across.. looking at Your chair.. the Empty Chair.. I can feel the Heavy in my Heart.. I would look across looking at the Empty Chair.. the Chair YOU sat when we would eat dinner together.. I would open my mouth and say.. I really miss YOU.. why do you have to be the one to Break my Heart.. shattering my Brains and my thought into pieces.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. you know that by NOW.. I am truly sorry and yes I can feel the suffering and pain in my Heart.. I am in so much ache because I need YOU here.. I am missing YOU so much.. why do you have to do this to me when YOU know that I love YOU.. Please come home.. I am looking at your Picture.. YOU are sitting on the Chair.. smiling with the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on your Lap with the Plate.. as I have the Bottle on the top of the Table.. I also placed the Shot Glass.. I just hate feeling this Pain.. Out side I can hear the wind blowing.. and it is lightly raining out side.. I just came from the Out side waiting for YOU.. wondering if I would stand out there.. I would see YOU coming Home.. still having that ray of Hope that YOU would come Home.. knowing at least YOU are receiving all of the Pictures of the dishes I made each night I send.. asking YOU I made this and that.. if YOU come home.. I would be in my room sleeping.. but YOUR Plate.. dinner is set by the Chair.. on top of the table waiting for YOU.. I would wake up each morning.. Hoping that YOU came late last night and had that dinner.. each Night and every morning I walk out of the room.. I would look at the top of the table.. LOOK at the plate and looking at Your Chair.. the empty Chair.. I be heart broken because Nothing has been touched.. the food still be on that Plate.. never been touched.. and I would grab the Plate.. the Food goes into the trash and my Heart be broken because I am hoping that YOU came because I made it just for YOU.. but each night.. I would make it.. and after I am done eating.. I go into the room to sleep.. expecting you to finish the Plate when I wake UP the new next day.. its been a month now.. and I am still wondering.. are you going to come.. because I am waiting for YOU.. but I know that I have to still make the Favorite dinner dish.. the Plate just in case YOU come home and I don't want to see YOU hungry.. I want to see YOU.. I been missing YOU and My Heart is crying inside me.. I just came from Out side.. that is How my Heart feels inside this Home.. like it wants to rain down.. I am looking across.. sitting on my chair.. but my eyes keeps on looking across.. asking for YOU.. I want YOU close.. I want you in my arms so that I can love YOU.. but all my eyes can see right now is Your Chair.. the Chair is empty.. and I feel empty inside like that chair which is empty because YOU are not here.. But I need you here so that I can say it to you how much I am so sorry.. I want to say it to you so that YOU know my real Heart.. that I am missing YOU.. I want you here.. but Now.. I see that I can't see YOU.. as I open the top of the Bottle.. and I would pour into the shot glass.. and I put the bottle Down.. I raise UP the shot glass.. with liquor inside.. I open my mouth and take a Shot.. I hear something ringing.. and I am not sure if it is the Liquor getting to me.. and I would turn too look at my phone.. I see that someone is calling me.. I raise up the Phone to look. I just can't believe it.. and I am wondering.. it must be the Shot glass playing tricks on me.. it must be my eyes seeing things.. and I would pick UP the Phone.. and I hear YOUR voice.. it has been about a Month.. and I have not heard anything from YOU.. and I hear you saying something and only thing I can say is that I am so sorry and that I miss YOU.. YOU know how much I miss YOU and how much I love YOU because Now I know what YOU really means to me.. YOU means everything to me.. You always been everything but I just couldn't express it how.. but now I am able to tell YOU.. How much I missed YOU because I am looking across.. I have seen that the Chair has been empty.. its been missing.. missing YOU.. and I would hear YOU.. that YOU wanted to come Home.. and I am telling YOU to come home.. because in this house I am waiting for YOU Only.. I am looking at the Phone.. able to look at the screen.. I see your Beautiful Face.. I just can't believe YOU have finally answered.. but why did it take this long for YOU to tell me How you are doing.. why can't you tell me sooner.. I have brought the Giant Teddy Bear.. I wanted to show YOU something.. and Placed the Giant Teddy Bear on your Chair.. able to switch it where YOU are able to see it as I am showing you How much this Giant Teddy Bear been missing YOU.. I am sure more than Me.. usually YOU would sleep with this Giant Teddy Bear and I know without Your Presence.. it does Not feel the same.. and I am showing YOU.. LOOK.. who is waiting for YOU.. as much as Me.. and I see you smile looking at the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on Your Chair.. and I am
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Oink Oink.. Beating on Me.. what if I stop beating.. and I can't feel my Heart beating inside of Me.. I guess in times like that.. I can be glad that I am behind the screen.. because If I were to face YOU.. and has to talk to YOU directly.. would I say the things that I can say and share like the way I am able to write to YOU these Letters.. what I have the Words to speak and tell YOU all these things that I can when I am able to sit by the desk.. and I would pull the drawer and the Key Board is there.. I would turn on the screen and I would Look at the Blank white Screen.. and the first thing is that I would Look at your Picture.. I would say.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and I would ask the Question.. WHY are you so Beautiful to Me.. when I look at you through your Picture.. I can feel this Sharp Pain.. it hurts me more than YOU can say One word to me because this Sharp pain never goes away unless I needs to say It.. to tell YOU from my Heart.. How much that It is Hurting me because I been loving YOU.. just loving YOU does hurt me because it is what you do to MY Heart when I look at you and Your Picture.. YOU are wondering.. you can be thinking that is it going to end very soon.. WILL I ever stop writing.. Will I ever end telling YOU these words and maybe YOU can think that way because It can feel like.. what if IT does end.. and I will ask YOU.. will you be missing Me.. is it then when I will know your true Heart.. if YOU ever did Love Me.. but to speak truth in love is this.. It is so Hard for me to end because it is YOU who I love.. when a MAN like myself has Nothing to Lose.. I really have Nothing to Give YOU to be honest with YOU.. I am Not wealthy.. I am Not even smart.. I don't have Any Master degrees.. and I don't even have a Great Job.. what I will look like to YOU is a MAN who has failed many times In my Life.. seems Like I am going Nowhere.. I guess that is where it all begins because I do truly Have Nothing to Lose.. that I am Not afraid to tell YOU that I do Love YOU.. it does Not matter what YOU think of Me.. I can be the Most smallest Person on this earth.. I may be very small but when It comes down to Love YOU.. I know that I can run through Snowy roads to get to YOU.. even if it takes Miles and miles apart from here to where YOU are at.. I know that NO matter what.. If I have the Heart to go to you now.. I know that I can.. I can even climb up on Mountains.. if falling down and rolling down.. hitting the floor and falling down.. just remember that I can get back UP.. and I will try one more time because I believe in Loving YOU.. give me two wings.. and I will put the wings so that I can fly to YOU.. just to tell YOU that it is me whose been loving YOU.. I don't care because I love YOU more.. that is why I want to prove it to YOU HOW much I really do.. I can run.. I can walk.. I can fall back and bounce back.. but as long as I know that I love YOU.. I will do what my Heart says in me.. to keep on trying until YOU can get it to Your Head.. I believe that In due time.. One day I do believe that YOU will love me too.. I am Not asking you to love me Now because I know that YOU just can't.. do you know why.. because I am Not ready yet to be with YOU.. the day that comes for me to be with YOU and when I am ready.. I know that YOU be ready to receive the Love I want to give to YOU.. I am only letting YOU know that I been here.. Looking at your Picture.. but when I do look at your Picture.. my Heart burns in me.. and my eyes get watery these days.. it did Not happen before.. but Now.. I am Not sure what is happening to My Heart.. but I know that I am beginning to Love YOU more.. I focus on telling YOU.. How to tell YOU that I really do Love YOU.. which way.. is it to the North.. is it to the East.. how about to the West.. looking down to the South.. any direction as long as I can find YOU so that I can tell YOU that It is Me who is loving YOU.. as I would look at your Picture.. I would be wiping the tears from my eyes.. as my Chest hurts.. and YOU are wondering.. if My Heart Burns and It is hurting me with this Sharp Pain.. why don't I go see the doctor.. why don't I tell the doctor that I have a Heart problem.. if the Doctor asks me why am I in for the Office check.. I will tell the Doctor.. and I will show the doctor the Picture of YOU.. and I will point to YOU to that doctor and say.. when ever I look at this Picture of YOU.. I can feel my Heart burning and I do receive this sharp Pain of sensation that just don't go away.. and My eyes becomes watery and I just want to pour Out my emotions as I want to cry loud as I be looking at YOU.. looking at your Picture.. It hurts me that this is the Only thing I can do.. that It hurts me more.. it hurts so sharp.. I wish that this pain can go away but it becomes more stronger and stronger each time I would LOOK at your Picture.. I know that I want to stop.. but I just can't.. I wonder what the doctor would say.. unless he gets rid of my Heart.. but I want My Heart because I love YOU.. I need my Heart because I know that this Heart can only tell YOU how much YOU mean to me.. I want to go to YOU.. if I have to swim in the Oceans.. in the cold water and telling me this is the direction I needs to take.. I will go and will go to find YOU just to tell YOU that It is Me who is loving YOU.. when It comes to loving YOU.. I have this drive.. it is driven in my Heart.. this will in my Heart that I want to love YOU more.. what am I suppose to do or say to the Heart.. I am determined to Love YOU more.. YOU can tell me and Push me.. telling me to GO away.. kick me.. push me so that I fall on the floor.. but I will tell YOU.. I just can't.. I needs to love YOU.. and More I needs to love because it makes me alive when I do love YOU.. I am Not sure if you ever have this kind of experience before but lately.. I am feeling it More and more.. the Picture in my hand.. I would hold unto.. and I will say.. I am going to love YOU.. I am going to show YOU one day which is HOW MUCH I really do.. YOU can test me the day YOU meet me and I will do anything just to be close to YOU so that I can finally say to YOU.. I love YOU.. when My Heart be burning inside.. and I feel this sharp pain inside.. it is after I would take a LOOK at your Picture.. looking and saying to myself.. YOU are so Beautiful.. why are you so Beautiful.. that I know I am going to Hurt myself because I know YOU are just good to be true.. I would sit on the top of the bed.. just thinking of YOU.. I would say.. holding unto your Picture.. sitting on the top of the bed.. I look at your Picture.. looking at YOU.. I just can't keep you away.. am I nuts.. am I going crazy.. do YOU call me insane.. that there is something wrong with me.. and I would get Out of the Bed and Sit on the chair.. and drawer pulls out.. I would LOOK at the Key Board.. I do remember when I first started to type.. many years ago.. I would be looking at the Keyboard constantly.. fingers trying to push down on Letters.. when YOU practice typing for such a Long time.. and when Years went by.. I am able to look at the screen.. my eyes don't need to look at the key board any more because my Fingers knows now where to push the Letters as I be thinking of YOU and telling you How much I love YOU.. that shows how much I had to practice over the Years.. where I can only LOOK at the screen.. I would LOOK at your Picture.. I can feel my Heart calling Out to YOU.. calling Out your Name as I would keep on typing.. telling YOU through this How much I needs to be with YOU.. How much I needs to be the One to Love YOU.. Only YOU are the One who can give that answer an account.. YOU are the Only one who can let that happen.. and I be hoping.. I wish that these Letters get to YOU.. that YOU know my Heart.. my Mind.. my Soul.. How much I love YOU.. I remember when I first saw Your Picture.. and I would be looking at YOU.. and I would say.. How can I tell YOU that I love YOU.. I want my Mind to go across.. I wanted to tell YOU something.. and I would say How.. that is when I saw the drawer.. and I saw the Key board inside the drawer.. and the Idea came into my Mind.. and Into my Heart.. that I needs to tell YOU that I love YOU.. as My fingers would touch the Keyboard.. and I would start to type by pushing into the Letters.. I saw something that felt like Impossible turn into some thing special to Me.. that It was possible to get it Out to YOU.. that I am able to share my Heart.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. and ever since the day I saw Your Picture is when it began.. that I needs to say It.. I needs to tell it to YOU.. needs to tell you that I love YOU.. and I will never give UP on YOU because I know.. maybe One day.. Maybe some day soon.. I know that YOU can too love me back too.. and still I am believing in that Dream I have in my Heart.. YOU are the One for Me.. and I know that YOU are the Only One who I know I can love.. I never gave UP on that Dream till this day.. when I first saw that Dream.. can a Man like me ever Love.. Can I turn a Like into some thing Bigger.. Can it change to be Love.. at first it started as just liking it.. but Now I know in my Heart.. I am in love with YOU.. when It becomes Love.. NO matter How much it hurts.. the Sharp Pains that keeps on coming.. the Burning of the Heart.. missing YOU like crazy.. and just Loving YOU just because it is YOU.. I know that I now love YOU more.. and growing more stronger each day because I never stopped loving YOU.. YOU are the One for me.. always been the One for me even till this day Now.. just wanted to say.. I still love YOU.. ever since I saw your Picture.. I just knew that I am going to start loving YOU.. when YOU believe in Love and loving YOU.. I believe anything can happen as long as I know.. YOU are the One for Me.. and I am just hoping that YOU believe in the same way too.. YOU are everything to Me.. that I know that YOU mean everything to me and you
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MAH MAH.. I walk into the tent in the training Ground.. all the Men are inside the Tents.. and I would lay down.. before I would close my eyes to sleep.. I have a recent Picture of YOU.. a friend of Mine has gave me the Art Sketch paper.. and some one drew this Picture and the friend of Mine who kept it and gave it to Me.. it was before I came into the Training Camp with the Official Seal Paper.. the Letter which the Older man.. the Teacher gave to Me so that I can pass it to YOU.. MAH MAH.. and I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. and I would say again.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. do YOU know that I been looking at this Picture.. this Art sketch Paper that some one drew of YOU.. I remember when the Friend of Mine came to me.. knowing that I been Loving YOU for a Long Time.. He saw me with the Art Sketch paper.. it was when YOU were much Younger.. the Boy who went over to draw picture of YOU and who was caught after giving it to Me.. MAH MAH.. the One that I gave to YOU.. because I told you that I did not need it any More.. because I was next to YOU now.. and when YOU took it.. I saw you holding.. I asked you to Burn it.. but I see that YOU would Not.. and to be honest with YOU MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I had a recent One.. the Art Sketch paper which some one drew of YOU.. I know that YOU have ways to capture the Hearts of Many Men.. it does Not matter who Loves YOU but I know for sure that I can Love you More.. that is why I am telling YOU even though YOU may Not hear me on this very Night.. as I am holding this Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I just saw you before I went into the Tent.. but I feel like I still has to keep On seeing YOU.. I don't know what it is about YOU.. maybe because YOU are the Crown Princess of the Nation to be the Next Ruler for this Country.. for this Nation.. because YOU are the greatest.. the Biggest.. the best.. a true Ruler and that is why knowing this Truth.. the Strength and the Power and the control.. the Dominance you have in YOU.. the More I look at YOU.. the More my Heart be moving.. and I just can't let YOU Go MAH MAH.. WHY can't I let you go MAH MAH.. Please tell me WHY.. and I am laying down.. as I would LOOK at the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would fold into Half and lay it behind Me.. just thinking about YOU.. thinking about the People.. but when I saw YOU holding the Sword.. pointing to the direction which I did Not want to see.. I would be begging YOU.. to Stay with the People.. with the Little Children.. when I saw HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. pulling out the Sword.. the King's Sword towards the Other side where the Enemies are going to Come.. I just could Not help it to drop on both Knees.. because I did Not want to see you fight.. I don't want to see you going into the Battle field.. but I know how YOU are MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. once you put your Mind on something that YOU be aiming for.. I know you will go for It.. in One way this is the reason WHY I felt in Love with YOU.. YOU are so Bold.. and so Fierce when it comes to protection and fighting for something.. when it comes for the Nation of your People YOU love.. that YOU will do anything to Protect this Country.. this Nation because of the People.. when I saw YOU on that Horse.. in the Garden bringing the People from the Royal Palace.. to rebuild the Garden.. My Heart.. I just knew it from the start that you were.. Crown Princess be different.. when I saw you doing something.. when MAH MAH cared for the Unimportant.. the Little People.. a person like myself.. I knew that YOU are going to do something very Big.. because even the Poor and the Little People are also your People too.. the most smallest of all.. I came from that Garden.. I am the Most lowest person in that Garden and I saw you in that Garden.. all of the Knees went down when the People saw YOU in that Garden.. tears would roll from the eyes.. just could not believe.. the Crown Princess.. MAH MAH.. it was the HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. from all of the People out there in the royal family.. it was the CROWN PRINCESS who came with the Horse.. who has this Big Heart of even rebuilding what was under Looked.. NO ONE cares about the Poor people.. NO ONE loves the Ones who are hungry and dying in such poverty.. growing UP in the Garden.. there was NO Homes.. when it rained.. I would sit in a Hay House.. but I be wet from the rain.. I would look across at the neighbor Hay Home.. just like my home.. we are staring at each other watching the rain fall from the sky and both of us are getting wet.. it is very hard when it becomes Cold in the Winter.. many of the Children living in the Low poverty will die because it is just too cold for any one to survive in that condition.. many times and Many nights.. many winter nights.. I do wonder How did I even manage to come this very far.. I saw many families in the Hay Homes.. the Parents of the children are in their arms and left to die as they are crying for help.. my Heart breaks each time I think of being so Low.. being so Poor and having not much.. but How is it that I manage to get Out of that Garden.. and I saw many Mothers burying their Sons and daughters in the Garden.. Hay Homes would fall and crumble as strong winds comes to blow hard.. I would watch strong rains breaking the roof tops of the Hays down and it falls down on people.. I would watch Many People living without homes.. begging for Food and crying in the Night asking for Help.. rescue Me is what I would hear.. and WHO ever thought it be YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. out of the Blue you came along on that Horse.. what really got to My Heart is that Hays and straws were no longer use.. when YOU Came MAH MAH.. it became bricks and How you rebuild giving it a NAME and it became a Town.. now I hear that it has changed to a City like.. market place where people are Now Living.. and watching many People who came from the Garden.. to pay respect for YOU.. many children grew UP well after YOU came to rebuild that Garden into a Town to City.. a market Place where More People are going there to Work.. MAH MAH.. if YOU did Not show UP.. I am Not sure if I would of made it here today and that is why I wanted to tell YOU that I am so thankful that I get to Love YOU now.. and every day I can Love you more because YOU have given me a Place.. where I can be so close to YOU.. just wanted to say to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. thank YOU for rebuilding that Garden.. Now that Place is flourishing and more people are going to come here after they make it Out of that Garden.. as I would close Both eyes and I am dreaming.. I am Not sure but I look at the door in front of Me.. behind me is the Seven Friends of Mine.. as the DOOR opens.. I walk in with the Seven Friends.. the MAIN HALL ROOM.. and it is the Meeting Board.. on the Right side.. the Six Princes are standing from the First to Sixth SON and the Prime Minister with the 12 Council of Noble Men.. on the Left side is the Older MAN.. the teacher.. the TOP COMMANDER.. the Commanders.. to Chief Generals.. to TOP General.. 2nd Rank General to 3rd rank General and to the generals.. as I walk and I stop.. a stairs above me.. and the King's Chair.. the Messenger calls Out to YOU.. and I would stop.. it just can't be.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and the Scroll rolls Down.. and I see YOU walking UP the stairs.. and I see you turn around.. MAH MAH.. the Messenger walks UP to YOU.. the Crowns are changing.. I am wondering what does this Mean.. and the Messenger reads the scroll pronouncing that YOU be the QUEEN.. My Heart.. are you trying to KILL my Heart.. I know that It is going to Happen.. but is it going to happen NOW.. are you the True QUEEN.. to be pronounce.. and the Messenger walks UP.. holding the KING's Crown and Puts on TOP over your Head.. HAIL to the QUEEN of NATION.. and I fall on two knees.. and I am crying.. I know it suppose to be the Best day to celebrate.. but How about Me.. I am now suppose to call you HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that is the QUEEN.. and I hear the Voices in the MAIN HALL room.. in the Board of Meeting calling Out.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and voices grows louder and louder as they Shout to YOU.. knees all hits to two.. and shouts Louder HAIL to the QUEEN.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. and I am crying louder and Louder.. How can I love the QUEEN.. Please help me.. How can I love you when YOU are seated as the QUEEN of the Nation.. as HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I am looking at the ground.. I see you sitting on the King's chair and YOU stand UP.. pulling Out the king's sword.. hands all lifted UP.. and voices raises UP higher and people are all crying.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HAIL to the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MANSAE.. MANSAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would open two eyes from the sleep.. I know that this means some thing very big is going to happen.. it must be a sign that YOU are going to rule for this Nation.. and I would stand UP and get Out of the tent.. and I am standing alone still dark.. with my hand is the sword and I pull it Out.. LOOKING at the Blade.. the War is coming.. first we needs to win and beat in this WAR but I know and I would JUMP UP in the air left right left right swing the Sword.. I know Not much time but for the CROWN PRINCESS.. for WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I must fight to Protect so that YOU can sit on that THRONE. the King's Chair to become my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH. as I would LOOK UP at the MOON.. my both feet lands on
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MAH MAH.. People are going to choose YOU to take your Father's Place.. who will be the One to rule and direct for this NATION.. but if I can't love you any more.. I know that I must Go and YOU can select the MEN.. I will let them stay with YOU and I will go alone.. it is just too hard for me because I have been loving YOU since when I was a young Boy.. ever since I saw YOU for the first Time.. my Heart would beat more than it skipped the Beat.. but I know.. the people also who came from the Garden.. they are seeking for YOU to rule over them too.. that is why they are going to fight and unite so that they want to PLACE YOU over them.. if I can't love YOU any more.. there is NO reason longer for me to stay any more.. I can't live without loving YOU more.. that is the Part where it hurts me the Most.. I just can't keep it to myself and be silent.. if the council of Noble men sees me keep on doing this.. they are going to find ways to put my chains and will try to persecute ME.. they are going to try to kill me for this.. that is why I know that I must go after the War.. will you let me Leave Your sight after the War.. either way I am a dead Man now.. the Prime Ministry with the 12 council of Noble men tried to find ways to execute me because I am hearing words.. so Please.. if I can't love YOU any more.. please let me GO and I can go as far.. I am thinking about returning back to the Garden where I came from.. and I would see you pointing the sword and YOU remove the sword away from me.. picking UP the arrow.. putting on the end of the Strings of the Bow.. pulling it back YOU would aim and release.. the ARROW hits right in the Middle of the target.. I am thinking.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH is so good even at Night.. YOU just never miss the shot hitting this target.. in this dark Night.. it is so hard for me to see the target.. and I am hearing the Soldier by the target.. the flag is moving around.. But.. YOU know that I still Love YOU.. I will always love you no matter where I go.. it is just that It is getting so much harder for me Now to Love the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because I really Love YOU.. even from the Far.. when I was in a long distance I loved you then when I did Not see YOU.. Now I see you close that I love you more.. either way far or Near.. my Heart will never change of loving YOU more.. because I really Love YOU NO matter where YOU are CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH..I am watching the Little Children.. boys are walking into the training Ground.. I just can't believe that they are from the Garden.. the Parents of these children.. some of them are my friends growing Up and I am watching YOU standing by the Fence.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I never thought you be having this Big Heart.. Now look at the Hopes and Dreams YOU are planting.. the Parents who came with their Children.. thinking about their future.. and I am on the Two Knees.. tears just fills UP.. and I can feel my tears streaming down.. and One of the guy who came with his Son stops and Looks at me.. and He smiles.. and Just cannot believe that I am the trainer for the new Recruits.. and He cries Looking at me because.. I know that His SON can also dream for this Nation.. the Crown Princess.. who loves the People.. who are the One with the Big Heart for the People.. who is the One who helped the Poor People in that Garden.. Now.. the People has come because this Nation is growing stronger and stronger because of YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because YOU are here that all these things can happen.. I do remember.. the First time My Heart felt something.. I was in this Position.. I saw a friend laying on the ground.. He was very Poor and Lowly servant just like Me.. we had NO Place to Go.. No place to sleep.. hungry without Homes and just picking food from the Floors.. it was at the Garden.. He got sick eating watching Him hit the floor.. I was crying for that Friend.. he would throw UP in blood and he looks at me.. telling me that Being so poor.. it is NO JOKE.. and he tells me.. I am dying.. I was crying and crying as He lay on the Floor.. My Heart broke into pieces.. and He looks at me and says.. when He dies to plant him by my Mother's grave.. and my Mother was like an Auntie to him.. as I saw him laying sick.. I heard a Loud Voice.. and I turn to look.. the day YOU came to the Garden.. I turn too look.. I fell on my face looking at the ground.. I saw YOU sitting on the Horse.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. and I would cry Out Loud More.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please hear my voice.. and I saw YOU.. the YOUNG Girl you were.. YOU had a Sword.. small sword and Pointed to my direction to Speak.. and I would be crying.. could Not talk much but it was about my dying friend.. He was laying down.. and throw UP blood in front of me.. and asking me to bury him when he died.. But Help me MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are the Only ONE with the Power to save the Life of a BOY who has NO ONE else to turn TOO.. PLEASE.. MAH MAH.. HELP US and I would be crying Loud.. he is my best friend.. My father raised him like a SON to Me like a Brother.. SAVE HIM MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH... Please help my Dying friend.. and tears would be falling down.. and I can see.. Maybe I needs to die with him too.. if YOU can't help him.. I would lift UP my Head looking UP at you.. with tears in my eyes.. my Friend needs YOUR HELP.. the Crown Princess.. which is YOU raise UP your Little Sword and YOU would call for the Royal Physicians who came.. I was very shocked that they came here to the Garden.. I never thought YOU would do this for the Little People.. the Poor People.. for the Lowly lives who NO ONE cares about.. NO ONE cares for the Broken.. the Little People who has NO NAMES.. How do people know my Name.. they just don't and I was touched.. But YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS cared.. my best friend was dying before my eyes.. and I cannot do anything to help.. I am watching him throw UP blood and He is asking me to bury HIM next to my Mother who is already GONE.. and I would close both eyes crying Loud.. my Heart hurts because He is telling me that HE is dying.. this pain.. and I would watch the Royal Physicians walking into the Garden.. and two of them goes over to my Best Friend.. I watch HIM being carried by the two doctors.. and I would walk the wood cutters and stone builders and they have come with Nurses and even the Maids and kitchen Ladies all comes to this Garden.. feeding the Poor.. feeding the Lost.. feeding thousands of children with no homes and I would watch the remodel of the Garden as the Homes are being placed in the Garden.. and as I come to my senses.. and I am both on the Knees Looking at the ground.. the man who knows Me brings His Son.. he was the Best Friend who was on the Floor.. on the ground talking about if He dies to bury HIM close to my Mother.. Now I am seeing his SON and I look at the SON.. and I lift UP my Head and I see you standing by the Fence and I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. can YOU please give me your ears and I see YOU standing with the White Dress and the Big Crown on the top of your Head.. and YOU would point the Sword direct at me.. and I would watch YOU walk closer to ME and stops next to me.. I would lift UP my Head looking at YOU.. DO you remember the Garden.. DO you remember this Man.. and I see you turn your Head looking at him.. and it seems like YOU don't know who he is and I would say.. he is the One who I was talking about.. the Day YOU came to the garden.. and I was crying.. I was asking YOU to save a Life of a Boy.. and YOU were sitting on the Horse and I was begging for Your Help.. pleading for a cause.. to help a dying Boy.. and It was when YOU brought the Royal Physicians.. two of them went over and picked HIM up.. do you remember that Day.. and I see you turn your Head looking at HIM and I see that YOU DO remember.. you would smile LOOKING at him.. Yes.. if the Royal Physicians did NOT show UP that Day.. I know that He would Not been alive this very day.. HE has remembered YOU ever since and TOLD ME.. One day HE is going to come to join the Nation where YOU stand.. NOW he is here with his SON.. and NOW we are reunited because of what YOU have done that day.. I was pleading.. begging and asking you to help me.. to Help Him and Now.. LOOK what has happened because of WHAT YOU have done that Day.. as I would hold his son around my Arms.. I want to teach this YOUNG boy how to fight for this Nation.. to raise UP the next YOUNG generations of these Boys to HELP forth.. to Push this Nation which YOU will rule.. for you to conqueror so that this NATION Of people would be so Strong for YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because of Your Big Heart for the people you love.. the People are the reason to help this Nation to become stronger so that YOU can RULE as the True CONQUEROR.. and I would see YOU pointing your Sword at me and telling me to get UP.. so I would listen and I would get UP on two feet.. as I get UP.. I am hearing sounds of foot steps.. and I turn towards the Fence.. and a Messenger comes on the Horse.. and He has a scroll in his hand and He gets Out of the Horse and Runs towards YOU.. stops.. two knees on the floor.. head looks down arm forward with the Scroll in the Hand.. I see YOU turn looking at the Messenger.. and YOU take the Scroll.. and YOU would unfold and YOU would read the Scroll.. and I see something is wrong.. what is Wrong HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WHAT IS wrong and I see you hand me the Scroll and I
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MAH MAH.. YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. and it was YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. who opened the Fences for the Children.. these little children has come Long ways from the Garden and they have come under your Care.. and Only YOU can protect these children because they have all come to YOU.. for the War.. I know that we have mighty Men and soldiers.. the warriors who will go Out there to fight for this Nation.. to protect and to defend because this is the reason WHY I was born to do this.. to Protect YOU.. to serve and to defend YOU.. for the Nation.. I am asking YOU to be there for the Children who has come a long ways.. they have come to YOU.. they have thought about you when they came here and they just arrived.. and I would Be holding unto your Wrist.. so Please only for this time.. can YOU please listen to my Plea.. to my Heart because I just can't fight out there when YOU are fighting with me.. I just can't focus.. and knowing How strong and fierce YOU are.. I see you turn your Head and looking down at me.. but I can tell that YOU will not listen.. and I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. leave the Battle for Us.. for the Men that YOU have raised UP.. YOU have plenty of men who can fight.. How about Me.. How about my Heart.. I just can't see you out there.. I have tried when YOU were out there last time.. but I just could Not.. I wanted the sword to drive Into my Heart when I saw YOU.. I wanted YOUR SWORD to pierce into my Heart when I saw the enemies getting just too close to YOU.. I wanted.. rather I die.. rather come after Me and Kill me instead because I rather Die instead of YOU enter that Battle Ground of war.. I can't take it any more.. so Please.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. just this Once.. and how about these children.. they too needs your hands and Your care.. they wanted to meet YOU.. they want to be close to YOU.. look at the Children and I would watch you turn your Head looking at these Little boys and girls.. more than hundred children came with their parents.. and I would watch the New Recruits raising UP their wooden Sticks wanting to join in the Fight.. and I am Looking UP at YOU.. and I would watch YOU turn your Head looking at the Little children.. and LOOKING at the new recruits and YOU turn to LOOK down at Me.. CROWN PRINCESS.. Please say something.. Please answer me for Once.. even those families with the little children all needs YOU by your side.. they need Your hands to rest.. and I see YOU looking at them.. and I would turn to LOOK over.. I am hearing More foot steps.. and I see Six Horses.. and they are the Royal Princes.. the six Older Brothers has come.. on the Horses and I would see behind the seventh.. and ALL seven men would get out of the Horses.. and as I would watch the six Princes.. they would fall on two knees.. and they have brought their swords and I just can't believe.. the seventh person is the Older man.. the Teacher.. the master who taught me with his armor who came to serve in the military Arts.. I just can't believe.. and More Military Generals are behind the Horses of the Princes.. and ALL on the two knees Heads looking down.. arms out forward saluting to Your Authority as the One true Ruler.. and I am holding Your Wrist.. this is why I am asking YOU to please stay Behind.. YOU have men.. powerful strong Men who is going to Fight for this Nation.. the Little Children needs YOU too with their families.. because of what YOU have done in the past at the Garden.. YOU are able to see them grow UP becoming parents NOW and with children.. they have all come to support this Nation.. so Please help for the Next UP coming.. we.. CROWN PRINCESS needs you to be here with the families and the Little Children.. YOU are the Only ONE that needs to stay to preserve the next and to RULE for them too.. and I would watch ALL the voices shouting Out.. CROWN PRINCESS.. Please stay and protect the Families and the Little Children and I would watch YOU.. your sword is pointing to the War Ground and I just can't believe it that YOU want to fight in the war.. WHY HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. WHY.. and my Heart breaks because YOU would not listen to the voices of Your Men.. YOUR PEOPLE.. we shout Out loud More.. Please stay with children.. I would watch One boy picking UP a stick and he shouts Fight.. I am thinking of You.. as I am holding the stick in my hand.. I would say.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. My One wish.. I just want to Love YOU but also with this Sword.. I want to protect YOU and I would swing the Stick.. and My friend who is also holding the stick blocks with the stick I swing at him.. and He would look at me and swing the Stick in his hand and It hits me on the Arm.. I would swing the stick I am holding with my hand and it hits his head and my friend falls on the Ground.. and He looks UP on the ground.. I stood there.. just thinking of YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. my hand grabs his hand and I pull HIM up on his two legs.. as the Moon is High Above.. the Six Friends are making a circle on two of us.. and they are all holding the Sticks.. and as I am thinking of YOU.. I would look at the Seven Friends.. I have to go back to the Palace.. I have to go see the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and as I am on the two Knees.. My Head looking on the Ground.. the Seven Friends are Behind Me.. both on the Knees.. Looking on the Ground.. arms UP saluting to YOU as the Crown Princess.. as I hear more foot steps walking.. I see you with the Big Crown on top of Your Head.. I see you turn around looking back.. there are seven Chief Generals.. with their Foot soldiers all walking to YOU.. and Five Commanders behind with the Foot Soldiers.. they all stop.. both on knees.. Heads all looks on the ground.. arms UP and I see YOU.. a great large of army military men has gathered around you.. As I am holding the sword.. I would Lift up my Arm up with my hand holding the Sword.. and I would shout Out.. MANSAE TO CROWN PRINCESS.. the Seven Men.. my friends all would pull out the swords.. hands holding the swords.. arms lifted UP and they shout out with a Loud Voice.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would shout Out louder More.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. to Crown Princess.. and I would hear.. the Chief Generals and the Commanders.. they pull out their swords holding in their hands.. arms lifted UP high.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Seven Friends with the Foot SOLDIERS all lifted UP their Swords holding their hands.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to Crown Princess.. and I would raise UP my Voice Louder and Cried OUT.. MANSAE to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. to Crown Princess.. and I hear all of the Voices.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see you stand in the Middle.. our heads looking at the ground.. and I would say.. YOU are so Great.. Look at you because the men has gathered.. I know there is something that is about to happen.. but my Heart.. to Protect YOU.. and Too keep on protecting you to the end.. and I see YOU looking down.. as I would lift UP my Head looking into your eyes.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I hear something behind.. a Messenger riding on the Horse.. and He has a scroll in his hand.. and the Heads would all turn to look.. the Horse stops.. the Messenger gets out of the Horse.. two on knees.. arm UP and Head looks down.. hand holding the Scroll.. and I am wondering.. what does this Mean.. a Private Messenger only for the Crown Princess.. and I see you raise YOUR HAND.. and the Messenger gets UP.. and He would unroll the scroll.. and starts to share.. a War is going to break Out.. and the enemies are coming to the Fortress.. and they are bringing many foot soldiers.. horse riders.. and the Six Princes are in the Eldest house and they are drinking having the Party.. and the Messenger goes down both knees.. Head goes down and arm up.. and I am wondering.. a War.. and I turn to LOOK at YOU.. and YOU look at me.. there has been a talk about a war for a Long time.. and it is happening.. I look at YOU.. Why did YOU not tell me about this war.. then I would of been preparing for a battle.. but why did YOU not tell Me.. and I looked at YOU.. it does Not matter Now.. because it is going to happen anyways.. and I Just can't believe you have kept this from me.. I told YOU that I wanted to protect YOU.. and that is what I have said.. I have promised YOU that the reason why I am here.. it is to Protect YOU and Your nation.. if YOU told me about this War.. then I could of found More men.. gathered more Men.. and I would look behind YOU.. which there was more than thousand Men.. they are ready.. has been prepared for this War.. and of course.. I knew that you had the men power.. but I also wanted to bring more so that we can win this War.. and I get UP.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I told you.. ever since I saw you from the Garden.. that I was going to come to YOU.. I have made the Promise in the garden.. when I was only looking at the garden of flowers.. even though I am a lowly servant son.. that One day I am going to see you and meet you at the Palace.. I told you that I will make this promise that I will become a Swordsmanship so that I can guard and protect.. Because this is all I can give and this is all I can do for YOU.. I may be very small.. and not be much to YOU.. but I know that I will never give UP on you.. I will keep on fighting for YOU as long as YOU give me a chance to stay.. and Now.. here I am.. I have kept my words.. I have kept my promises to YOU.. it took me long long long time to get and come this far.. but I am here right Now beside YOU.. I told you when I was young
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MAH MAH.. They have more experience then me at the art of swordsmanship.. but having more Men it be better for this war.. and My Heart.. I just can't believe I have to hear it like this.. at the last minute when I did Not know anything.. and I just can't see YOU go out on the Battle.. I know that YOU would and you will.. I can't see you at the battle field.. I saw you training with your teacher who is the Chief general.. when I saw YOU with the stick.. I knew something was going to happen.. YOU know that I can't lose YOU.. YOU know How much I love YOU.. and it be better if I die rather than YOU.. and I hear the Horn.. and someone is blowing the Horn from the far.. and I know now.. so I would get UP.. both feet.. and I turn around.. and I look at the seven Men.. the friends.. I am going alone first.. and I am looking at the Horse.. and I get on its Back.. holding the sword with my hand.. and I see your hand telling me to wait.. but.. I know that it is time.. I needs to GO and handle some business here.. I look at the closest friend and I tell HIM.. to Protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. be with you.. and.. I see the Other Six Men.. they all get on the back of the Horses and holding the swords in their hands.. I am looking toward the Fortress and my Heart.. it is Hurting me More.. when I am thinking about this More and More.. my Heart keeps on hurting.. why didn't WANGSEJABI MAH MAH did Not tell me anything about this situation.. I know I may not be much.. but I know that I will fight for YOU.. I will do anything for YOU.. even I know that I can die for YOU.. I am sure I can bring some enemies die with this Sword.. but why is My Heart keeps on hurting me.. this is NO JOKE because this is a War.. and I would turn to look back.. and I am looking at YOU.. the Crown Princess.. DO you not know how much I love YOU.. and I am grabbing the strings of the Horse.. and I swing it and the Horse takes Off.. the Six Friends behind Me.. they too grabs the strings of the Horses and swings it.. and follows behind Me.. as the Horse keeps on running fast.. I turn on the Side.. putting the Sword into the sheath and I pull the Bow on the side.. and behind is the arrows.. and the Horse keeps on running.. leaving the Palace.. and it is going to the Fortress.. and the Horse stops.. and my hand hits my Chest.. How long was this been going On.. How long was it for this talking of the war.. I wonder how the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH felt.. knowing there is going to come this war.. and have to keep it inside for a long time.. and I grab the Two Arrows.. putting on the Strings of the Bow.. PULLS the strings Back and I would release the strings.. the arrows shoots far off.. and I would sit on the Horse.. and I would think about when I was a young Boy.. watching YOU from the far.. when YOU were young.. I was sitting on the Horse.. the Commanders behind YOU.. the Chief General next to the Target Practice.. with the Flag.. my eyes full of tears.. YOU were holding the Bow pulling back the strings with the Arrow.. and release the strings and the arrow shoots and hits the red dot of the target.. and hearing the cheering and hands clapping.. flag swings around.. BULLS EYE.. and as I am sitting on the horse.. being still.. what bothers me the most.. I was by the Ocean water.. thinking about YOU coming to the Ocean waters.. but YOU just stood.. YOU just sat on the Horse.. watching me from the distance as I am looking at the waters.. but did Not tell me anything about it there.. it bothers me when I saw YOU looking at me.. sending four new friends to me.. and I saw You turning the Horse away and in silent you left the site.. but the Heart.. was it heavy leaving without mentioning about what was to come.. why did YOU not say anything then.. why did YOU not tell me that something was about to happen.. why just leave in silent.. YOU know.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. if YOU told me.. I would left everything behind and just went with YOU that night.. I would of not think about anything but to Just to protect YOU and to Protect Your Nation.. I would of done anything.. If YOU just said something.. I would come with YOU much sooner.. I feel like a foolish person now.. because I would told YOU that I was Not coming.. I do remember you be asking me to come with YOU.. but I told YOU that I needed some time away.. that I wanted to stay by the Ocean water.. but if YOU just told me then.. what was happening.. YOU know that I would leave it behind and came with YOU without making you feel frustrated.. because I know that I can be some kind of Help of your Need.. why do YOU think I wanted to be a Swordsmanship.. WHY would I learn this skills and this Art of holding the sword.. I have promised you.. I remember when I was YOUNG.. I made a Promise to YOU.. even at the Garden when I knew Nothing about the Sword.. I told YOU that One day.. I am going to master the Art so that I can be useful and to be a part.. to Love YOU and to protect YOU forever.. and YOU have seen me through it ALL.. YOU have seen me when I had no skills at the sword.. when I was working in the garden as a flower Boy.. just as gardener.. Now here I am with the Sword.. at least you could of told me then.. I would not feel so bad right Now.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU know that I would drop everything just for YOU and to Protect YOU because YOU know How much I love YOU.. I am looking towards and I am watching the Arrows flying and many arrows flying over the Wall of the Tower.. I turn to look at the Left.. ten men sitting on their Horses.. bows in the hands.. Looking UP.. and Arrows shoot Fire and I am truly Touched.. these are the Men that belongs to YOU.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see the Chief General standing on the Tower.. and He arm raises holding the Sword UP.. and ALL the Men up on the Tower of the walls.. They are too holding the Bows.. and arrows are shooting out.. I grab the Bow.. and I turn back.. grabbing two Arrows.. I remember when YOU.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. when YOU were a girl.. I saw YOU on the Practice training ground.. I was sitting on the Horse and My Father next to Me.. I have never see a Princess.. Now a Crown Princess.. grabbing the two Arrows.. and the TOP GENERALS.. the CHIEF GENERALS who were standing behind YOU.. and they kneel.. two knees.. heads looking Down.. asking Only to shoot One Arrow.. and I would watch YOU.. the two ends of the arrows.. pulling back the strings of the Bow.. and pulling aiming and off you release.. the two arrows flies fast and Hits the Target on the red BULLS EYES.. the Chief General.. the teacher holds the flag and swings.. BULLS EYES.. and the five TOP generals.. three are Chief Generals.. they raise their heads too look.. hands would all clap.. and I would sit on the Horse.. my hands start to clap.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. MANSAE WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. my hands would clap.. as I am holding the Bow.. two arrows in my hand.. DO you know How much I love YOU.. I was touched in my Heart.. I was truly touched in my soul.. I was truly inspired when I saw what YOU did when YOU were young.. I even started to practice.. when My Father was with me.. I would ask HIM that I wanted to protect YOU.. How do I protect the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please help me to be the Protector.. and I remember my Father looks at me.. and lowers.. Do what the Crown Princess has done.. I started to practice Shooting arrows.. as I am looking at the wall.. I look UP sitting on this Horse.. I raise up the Bow.. putting the two ends of the Arrows and I pull back the strings.. and I aim looking towards.. I release the string and the two arrows flies Off.. over the Wall and I would keep on looking back.. two arrows.. pulling back the strings and release.. the two arrows would keep on flying over the walls.. I hear the foot steps.. I hear the Horses coming.. and I see the seven friends and they all stop behind Me.. and pulling their Bows.. grabbing the arrows with me.. and aiming looking over the wall.. More arrows are shot fired out and the Eight of us kept on pulling Out the Arrows.. shooting over the wall.. and Chief General turns who is standing at the tower of the Wall and shouts.. they are retreating.. and He raises the Sword UP and Shouts in loud cry.. and I raise UP the Sword.. the Seven men behind Me.. they raise up their swords.. and the ten Men on the left side.. all shouts.. MANSAE to the Crown Princess.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE TO CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I can feel the tears flowing down my Eyes.. CROWN PRINCESS.. the enemies are going to come back.. But right Now they have retreated.. SO we have WON this Battle.. and I turn around.. Protect the Crown Princess.. Protect HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and as I turn to look back.. I just can't believe it.. and the seven men also turns to look back with Me.. I see YOU.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and YOU are riding on the Horse.. even few Chief Generals and the Commanders are on the Horses and YOU are leading.. I see the Bow in your Hand and also the Sword on the Side.. and I just can't believe it.. YOU must not GO.. the Battle is going to be fierce.. we won but the More are coming this Way.. and I get Off the horse.. and I would walk fast and I kneel before YOU.. two knees.. Head looking down.. my arm up.. and I see you stop the Horse.. Now the seven friends of Mine also gets off the Horses.. and they are behind me.. kneeling.. two knees and heads looking down. arms are Up.. and I see you raise Up the Sword.. and I lift up my Head to look at YOU.. I just don't want YOU to go out
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MAH MAH.. You grabbing the two Arrows.. grabbing the Bow.. and putting the two ends of the arrows on the strings of the Bow.. and aiming the arrows.. and your hand releases the string of the Bow.. the two arrows goes straight and Hit the Red Dot.. the flag was raised UP and the Chief General swings the Flag.. I was sitting on the Horse.. my hands would clap with the Chief generals and the commanders.. and they would shout.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. MANSAE.. HOORAY and I was truly touched.. I asked my Father that very Night.. when I was at Home.. I wanted to Protect the Crown Princess.. How can I protect the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please Father tell me.. Please.. and He tells me.. DO what the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH has did and what I saw that morning.. every Night.. I looked at the Target that my Father made.. with the RED DOT Circle around it.. I started with One Arrow.. my hands would hurt.. my arms would ache.. and I knew YOU were so strong.. because pulling the strings of the arrow.. my Father would tell me to keep on pulling it over and over.. for months I had to do the basic training.. just to pull.. then He gave me the arrow to shoot.. It would not shoot at all.. as Months.. more months went by.. I started to shoot the arrows.. hitting on left far to the right far.. But I was thinking about YOU.. I was thinking about that if I don't this.. I can't protect the Crown Princess.. but I have made UP my Mind and made a Promise that I will protect YOU and always will love YOU.. from Months goes to years as I would start picking UP two Arrows.. starting to shoot over and over until It would Hit the Red circle big Dot.. every Night.. I would look UP to see the Moon.. into the woods.. and the Target stuck on a tree.. I would aim.. two arrows I would shoot from the distance to Hit the BULLS EYES.. I been waiting for this very Day CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I don't want to see YOU Hurt before My eyes.. I don't think anyone here wants to see YOU out on that Battle field.. WHO wants when YOU are the Next Ruler.. YOU are going to be the QUEEN for this Nation.. How can any of Us want to see you out there.. I don't want YOU to go.. that Is why I am taking the steps.. I know YOU are a very strong woman.. and also the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. but I don't want to see you Out there.. I even asked my Father.. How can I be a Protector.. How can I protect YOU.. and he told me the way.. and I did it.. practiced and trained for multi of years so that YOU don't have to go to that Battle Field.. if someone is to Die.. let me be the One to die for YOU.. at least I can say I have tried Hard.. and I did it for YOU.. just to protect YOU and coming this far to SHOW YOU that I can and that I love YOU.. Please don't refuse my request.. Please think about it before.. because I can't see YOU out there.. my Heart would not let me.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please consider this request.. and I hear the seven friends.. Please reconsider the Request.. and I see you looking down sitting on the Horse.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. there are plenty of Men here who are ready to go and fight for YOU and for this Nation.. I want YOU to be kept safe.. and I see you looking at me.. and I see you putting down the sword.. the Men raises up the Voice.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. MANSAE to WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE TO Crown Princess.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see you giving me your Sword.. and I just can't believe it.. it is the King's Sword.. from PEH HA!.. How is it that YOU give me this Sword.. It is from the KING'S hand to YOU.. and I am looking at the Blade.. and I see the teacher.. the Chief General who is with YOU.. and he is the One to help you to get back to the Palace.. and I am so amazed.. so inspired by this Sword.. this is which the King has won many battles with.. who fought in many wars and in the battle fields.. as I keep on looking at YOU.. I can't take this Sword.. because it belongs to YOU CROWN PRINCESS.. I have a sword with me.. which My Grand father gave to my father to give it to Me.. I want you to take the Sword which belongs to Your Father the King.. Please.. and I would lay the King's sword on the Ground because I know I can't.. and my Head looks on the ground.. arm raises.. I see you walking.. and I see your hand grabs the King's sword.. are you considering to stay in the Palace.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I just can't see you on that Battle field.. Please consider.. Please be safe.. and I see YOU on the Horse and YOU hit the Horse on the side and It goes Off.. I just can't believe it.. WHY.. Crown Princess.. WHY are you breaking my Heart.. I asked you to Please Consider and I see you raising up the King's Sword.. and the Men.. the soldiers.. Commanders and the Generals.. Chief Generals.. they are all preparing to go Out to the field.. ready to fight Out.. as I turn to LOOK at YOU.. I hear other voices.. Please Consider.. Please stay in the palace.. Crown Princess.. I Look up at the sky.. Please help me Father.. help me because the Crown Princess does not hear my Voice.. the Battle is going to get fierce.. my eyes can't see the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH out fighting.. Do you want to see a bloody Heart.. How about a bloody Tears.. YOU are suppose to be the One to rule Next.. and I would stand UP.. Crown Princess.. Please Consider.. Please hear my words.. Hear my Heart.. Please reconsider my request.. and I hear the seven friends also asking the Crown Princess.. Not to go.. Not to go Out to fight.. we have plenty of men who will fight for YOU and will die for this Nation.. I came here so that I can Protect YOU.. I came and became the Swordsmanship for YOU.. so that I can protect YOU.. because when YOU love.. YOU just don't want to see hurt and I would start to show you my tears.. Crown Princess.. Please Consider.. Please reconsider my request.. the Chief General UP on the Tower.. he raises the Sword and the Horn Blows.. saying the Enemies are coming again.. the Horn Blows.. Get ready for Battle.. I am looking back.. thinking about the Time.. both eyes would close.. I am standing by the Horse.. and in my both hands.. I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I just wants to be with YOU.. Missing YOU.. I just wants to go back.. looking at the Picture of YOU.. the art sketch paper.. and my Father walks and stops next to me.. and He has the Bow in his hand.. and Pulling the strings of the Bow back.. my father looks at me.. and I turn to LOOK up at him.. what if I never see YOU again.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I know that I am so Little.. I am so weak right Now.. there is Nothing that I can give YOU.. what am I suppose to do because I know that I am powerless and useless right Now.. all I can do is just pull out this Art Sketch Paper.. my eyes would look at this Picture of YOU.. but there is NOTHING THAT I can do.. that is Hurts my Heart so bad.. but Just loving YOU.. can it really work.. can anything truly work Out like this.. Look at me.. I am so Poor.. I am uneducated.. I am so weak and so Little.. have NO power or NO strength.. what can I do.. and I be looking.. tears would fill my eyes and it starts to roll down my two cheeks.. what do I do.. I just can't give UP right Now.. do I suppose to give UP now.. and my Father looks at Me.. He grabs an Arrow.. put the end of the Arrow.. pulling the back of the string of the Bow.. and He aims.. the target in center of the Tree.. and He lets go of the string and the Arrow Flies and It hits the Middle.. BULLS eye of the target.. I am wondering.. what do I do Now.. I can't think of anything else.. the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH has become so Big.. become so Great.. My Father.. which he takes out another arrow and Put the end of the arrow of the Strings of the Bow.. and He pulls back and aims.. and I lift UP to look.. He releases and the Arrow flies and Hits the Middle of the Target again.. I am looking UP at my Father.. He smiles.. and I am wondering.. when can I ever be good like my Father.. I want to learn to shoot the arrow Like this.. I see my Father turns away and He walks Off.. I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I know that my Father wants to show me and teach me something.. and I look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU again.. I really want to protect YOU.. I really want to be there for YOU.. I wish that It is ME who can truly Love YOU and that YOUR HEART can open UP to accept.. but I know that even though I want to give YOU all my Heart.. all my Love to YOU.. I look at myself.. I am a Low Born.. I know that I can't afford to be with YOU.. WHO am I to Love YOU.. I have Nothing.. what can I give or bring which YOU have already just too Much and plentiful.. My Father stands behind.. and I would turn to LOOK back.. I see his Figure but could Not see HIM.. but I hear his voice.. telling me.. If I love YOU.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I am not afraid to Die for Love.. It should NOT matter at ALL because Love comes from the Heart.. if I truly Love YOU.. I will do anything to be close to YOU.. if I truly choose Love and Death.. and if it does not scare me.. I can just truly Love YOU forever.. does Not matter about what will happen to me.. if I can only Protect YOU.. and that is the Mighty Weapon I carry just to be with YOU.. Just to be close with YOU.. Just to get to know YOU little.. that is all it matters.. because Love is the greatest gift that A HEART can give to a person you truly Love.. and I hear my Father.. telling me that the secret Weapon is the Bow and the Arrow.. and to DIE for YOU means to protect not just YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. but also Your Nation
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Oink Oink.. I can't wait until I see your Heart.. for many days.. for many nights I have been waiting for Your Heart.. I think it has been years that has gone by and still I am waiting for an answer.. there has been a Knocking at the front door and Now I am going to the Front Door to open it.. as I open the Door to Look.. I see a big Box left.. I am Not sure who left this Big box.. and there is a Note which has been written to Me.. and All I see is a Name on the Note.. But.. why is this Big box left to the front door to my House.. did I ever asked for something.. was it a wish I made years ago.. and Now it has arrived.. was it a Prayer.. I been praying for Your Heart.. but I don't think you can answer it right?? but I been waiting all this time.. It can't be Your Heart right!? and this Big Box.. I have to lift it UP and I would carry it to my Room.. wondering why is it this Big.. the Note of the Name.. it is Not even my Name.. but has a Name on it.. is it suppose to deliver to my Place.. to this House.. and I am wondering as I would lift UP the Big box and carrying it to my room.. and I am thinking.. what if it was Not to me.. maybe came to the wrong house.. I been asking over and over.. asking as I would Look at your Picture.. wishing looking UP at the Moon.. wondering does the MOON even care about my Wish at the Nights.. every night.. walking Out side.. I would stand LOOKING UP at the sky.. Looking to see if the MOON would appear.. in my hand is Your Picture.. looking at YOU through this Picture.. wishing that if I can have Your Heart.. would you Please send me Your Heart to me.. I have so much to say.. so many words.. even I can write many words directing to Your Heart.. only if YOU can send Your Heart this way.. Only if YOU can have ears to listen to the words I needs to say.. what I want to say is NOT going to be enough but it is the Needing of Your Heart.. to say that I been loving YOU.. YOU are wondering.. if I am only looking at your Picture.. How can I say that.. am I lying to YOU with these words.. am I just using the words to Look like I am.. and if you want to see if I am true with my Words.. if I am reals with my Words.. you can truly try me and test me to see if I am truly a Fake One.. but One thing for sure that I can share and tell YOU and be real with YOU.. that for a Long Long Long Time Now.. for two decades that time passed by.. I been able to share and type and write all this Time.. I been sharing and telling and writing as long as I remember.. but I can say that for more than 20 years Now.. I been sharing and typing and writing.. never giving Up and coming this far.. YOU do not have to trust me.. YOU do not have to believe me at all.. YOU can call me a Liar or a Fake all you Want.. but when YOU look at me as the Writer.. I been reals all this Time.. and this is one thing that I can tell YOU that Now.. I have the experiences that YOU need to know that now.. when it comes of Loving YOU.. I know that I can Love you Good.. I know that I can love you right.. and I know that I can tell YOU through the Letters that I do love YOU.. coming Out at Night.. I love the Peace that is in the air.. I can stand still looking UP at the dark skies.. LOOKING at the stars and the MOON.. on this very night.. My Hand is holding Your Picture.. I am Not sure why I just can't let go of Your Picture.. but I would take a LOOK at YOU.. wishing that I can cry Looking at your Picture because I don't know why.. but all I want to say and tell YOU is this.. How much I love YOU.. I am Not sure if you would ever believe Me.. but all I am asking if for One chance.. give me a chance so that I can say to YOU that I really Love YOU.. I want to tell YOU even when I don't see YOU.. only if YOU can come Out side at night.. on the Other side.. when you see the Dark Skies.. see the stars and the MOON appear before your eyes.. when we are looking at the same MOON.. I am sure you can hear my Heart Beating for YOU because I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. but as days go by.. maybe to YOU it seems like such a distance.. miles and miles away.. and seems like it is going to be impossible for me to ever tell YOU.. but when I stand alone.. looking at the Moon.. in the Night.. I have your Picture in my hand.. and I am LOOKING UP.. I would smile looking at the Moon.. do YOU know why.. YOU may think in your Heart.. what if I never meet You.. what if It never happens.. what if this is all Fake is what YOU are going to say to Me.. and How can I smile on the Other side if I can't meet YOU right?? YOU have to remember how it gets delivered.. YOU have to remember that behind the screen is Me.. and I am thinking of YOU always.. and to transfer love means I needs to tell YOU.. I needs to say what I needs to so that It can go direct to YOU.. that it delivers and transfers.. remember like 20 years ago.. it was impossible for anything to ever happened.. and I think about when I first started to share.. when It was Nothing at All.. I had No name.. I had No face.. I have NO reputation.. there was Nothing when I first started to share.. when I think about at that time.. I was Nothing at all because YOU did Not even know my Name.. YOU did not even know there was me in the first Place but to come this very far.. and Now I do have a Place.. I do Have a face.. and Now has a Name.. I am sure you know my Name right.. and that Name has a face.. is a person.. a MAN who has been loving YOU ever since.. I been sharing to YOU.. but it is when I saw Your Picture.. when Your picture came into my hand.. I would look at It wondering.. why is your Picture in my hand.. How did it get to me.. what is it that my Heart be feeling.. I wanted to brush it Off at first.. I wanted to say.. I just can't.. I just don't have the time to do this but.. when My hand holds unto your Picture.. something about YOU in that picture gets to my eyes.. gets to my mind.. my brains and to my Heart.. I just had to let it ALL OUT.. what is it that brings something from my Heart.. as I would Look at the key board in front and LOOK at the screen.. I would LOOK at your Picture and My eyes.. my heart tingles inside saying.. I must tell YOU a story.. a story I call how much I love YOU.. a story that Only can happen ONCE in a Life time.. to tell YOU that what I am best at and put in the time into work as I would write YOU a Letter.. a story only YOU can hear that is coming Out from my Heart.. from the Mind of the creative side of How much I love YOU.. it started with that One Picture that came across.. and I wanted to let YOU know.. I must have YOU.. I must be with YOU.. I must love YOU.. and I started to think.. How can I tell YOU this Heart of Mine.. How can I show YOU that I really do Love YOU.. that when I am standing Out side alone in the Nights.. and LOOKING UP at the Dark skies.. stars and the Moon.. there are days and Nights that I just want to see YOU.. days and Nights when I miss YOU.. YOU be wondering.. How can I miss YOU when we don't really meet.. if I don't see you in person.. How can I miss YOU right.. if there was some kind of friendship or had some kind of relationship with YOU.. it can happen of missing YOU.. I miss wanting to be with YOU.. I miss YOU because I want to be close to YOU.. to have you near.. and in my arms is what I am talking about.. is it wrong for me to Love YOU and to miss YOU all at one time because I do crave for Your closeness.. I do long for your Presences and just you be here next to Me.. even you don't have to say any words to me.. but YOU just being there.. giving me a smile if you can be the greatest gift a man like myself can have.. because I am Not asking Much.. just YOU.. and for me to keep on loving YOU.. and to transfer that love.. to deliver the message so that you know who is the One loving YOU.. I would LOOK Up.. holding unto your Picture.. looking UP at the Moon at Night.. just wishing upon the stars.. asking the Moon if it can hear me.. and I would ask the Moon.. can I have Your Heart.. I be wishing upon the stars that I see at Night.. can I please have Your Heart.. would I hear any answers.. to be honest with YOU.. I don't hear any answers from any thing.. but I know that as Long as I try.. maybe I know someone can hear me.. when a Voice is calling Out.. and sometimes it can cry Out Loud into the air.. asking for YOU.. calling Out your Name.. asking for YOU.. wishing and praying for Your Heart.. for YOU.. I been asking for your Heart.. and ever since the first day.. when I saw your Picture// into my hand I would hold unto.. and my hand would never let go of your Picture.. and YOU be asking.. why do I want your Heart so bad.. why am I asking.. why am I calling Out.. why for your Heart.. because if I can have your Heart.. I know that I can call your name.. that I can get your attention.. that YOU can see me the way I do.. and YOU will believe me that it is me who has been loving you.. that I am Not lying or it is Not a fake Love.. but a real Love from my Heart.. just asking for Your Heart means I can call your Name.. so that I can tell YOU that I love YOU.. and Your Heart will understand.. your Heart will know that It is me who truly Loves YOU.. that is why I know without your Heart.. it is impossible to tell YOU.. that my need to say it will Not go through to YOU unless I have your Heart.. many Nights it has been so Hard.. very lonely when YOU stand Out alone.. when YOU do not hear anything on the Other side.. it seems like Hopeless.. it seems like It is going to be Nothing.. I would stand Out.. at Night.. hand holding Unto your Picture.. Looking at YOU.. and I would ask.. why can't I tell YOU.. why can't you hear me.. it is that distance of being far away from YOU.. why can't I be close to YOU so that when YOU are near.. I am able to say it right there and then.. and tell YOU that it is ME who been loving YOU.. going into the room.. after I been asking for YOU.. and I would feel down.. and I
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Heart that I love YOU.. and I really mean it Now.. that I truly understand.. that I do really Love YOU.. Now.. I want to say it and tell YOU.. I need your Heart.. I want Your Heart because I want to be heard when I call your Name and YOU know who is the MAN calling your name because it is I who loves YOU and has been loving YOU till this day.. so Please.. when I call your name.. Please answer so that I can have YOUR HEART.. I need Your Heart.. why.. I want Your Heart so that I can Love you More and More.. I grow More as time goes by because it is the Only thing that is the Best I can do.. to tell YOU that I love YOU..I been looking at this Door.. I tried to knock on this Door.. I would even stand by this door.. from the Sun Set to Sun Rise.. I even saw the Stars and the Moon appears in the dark Sky.. I would look at the door.. I been asking for Your Heart.. I wanted to show you this Art Sketch Paper.. I drew a Heart on the Piece of paper.. wanting to show YOU.. wanted your Approval if does this Drawing of the Heart looks like Yours.. and I wanted the answers from your Words.. But No matter How many times I would knock on this Door.. I would hear YOUR voice inside this House.. but The door never opened for Me.. It broke My Heart.. ALL I ever wanted was YOUR answers that Does this Heart LOOKS like YOURS.. if YOU only told me that It is the drawing of Your Heart.. I was going to ask YOU a Question but that Question comes with asking a Favor from YOU.. and I wanted to ask.. If this Heart of drawing which I drew in my room thinking of YOU resembles Your Heart.. can YOU Please write YOUR NAME on this Piece of paper.. in the center of this Heart saying this is YOUR HEART.. and If you would of told me yes and Writes YOUR NAME.. I would ask you a Favor.. is it okay I can call Out your Name looking at this Piece of Paper.. the Art Sketch Paper of Picture of Your Heart.. I want to call Out your Name and tell your Heart YOUR NAME and tell you that I love Your Name.. I will start with just loving Your Name and thinking of Your Name.. I would say.. can I love this Heart.. with Your Name in the center.. I can call out your Name.. every Night.. I would walk Out side.. I would turn and LOOK UP to the sky.. LOOKING at the MOON and I will show the MOON the Piece of paper.. LOOK at this Heart.. Please say the Name of this Heart.. and I would open my mouth and say YOUR NAME before the MOON up there and say.. I love this Name.. and I love this Heart means I really Love YOU.. But.. I am looking at this Door.. the same Door.. and many months has passed by.. of course for a while I begin to think.. Maybe YOU are Not going to open this Door.. maybe it is My voice.. is it just too rusty for YOU to hear.. is it because I am knocking on this door so Much YOU just grew tired of this same person.. I would see the Figure in the Window and I know that YOU are inside this House.. I saw the figure of YOU.. and Yes.. I heard your voice too saying something.. I kept on knocking and knocking.. but YOU never answered.. YOU never opened the Door.. and YOU are wondering.. why did I come back.. why did I return back to the same DOOR which it never opened for Me.. I don't know.. and If you want an answer.. I just don't know why I keep on coming back to YOU.. even though the Door never opens for Me.. YOU are asking.. DO I ever give UP.. and I will tell YOU NO.. I never will give UP on Love.. especially when It comes on Loving YOU.. How can I give UP ON YOU.. I just will Not stop trying until YOU OPEN this door for me.. I would unfold the Piece of paper.. and I am looking at the Drawing of the Heart.. It has been a while since I looked at it but I do remember.. I would sit by the Door.. and turning away from the Door.. I would sit and cry.. I only wanted YOU to answer Me.. I only wanted to see if this Looks Like Your Heart.. why don't you answer.. I wanted to know does this LOOKS like your Heart.. so that at least I can tell this Piece of paper.. the Drawing of Your Heart.. that I love YOU.. that I want YOUR HEART.. and for ever can I just stand by this door and tell it by the door and YOU can hear me from the Inside when I am standing Out side.. How much I want to be with YOU.. but I need your Heart.. Please give me YOUR Heart and tell me that It looks like your Heart.. so that I know that I can start saying and telling YOU.. telling your Heart that I really Love YOU.. but why don't you answer the Door.. why don't you open the Door.. why don't you tell me that It does looks Like or resemble YOUR Heart.. Please tell me the truth.. give an answer to My Ear so I can hear you say something about this Piece of Paper.. that It is a Drawing of Your Heart.. I want to start loving YOU.. BUT I just can't love you until YOU tell me the answer.. I want to tell YOU and Love you so Bad.. why don't you answer.. why don't you tell me something.. or just anything.. and I would be sitting.. Looking at the Piece of Paper.. the Drawing of the Heart.. which I only drew of thinking of YOU.. all I want is YOU to say.. I needs to hear you tell me.. give me the approval that I needs to know that It looks Like your Heart.. as I am standing by the Door.. I am just thinking about the last time I came to this Door.. I was crying.. and It started to shower down the rain.. I do remember I would stand UP from sitting on the ground.. and I started to walk straight.. and I would walk and stop.. turning too look at the window.. I stood there.. hands holding the Piece of paper.. the Drawing of the Heart.. and I am getting Hit by the rain and I am looking at the paper.. as I see it getting wet by the rain and It would tear slowly and into halves It became.. and I would open my mouth wide crying in the rain.. ALL I wanted to know is does this Drawing looks Like your Heart.. why is it so Upsetting to me watching this Piece of paper tearing apart in front of the eyes.. and I started to feel getting more wetter as the rain would fall down on Me.. and I would be crying and crying.. looking at the window.. LOOK at this.. LOOK at the Art Sketch Paper.. I came all the way down here to show YOU but to ask YOU for one thing.. It is all about YOUR HEART.. why can't you answer Me.. why can't you tell me what is in your Heart.. all you do is open that door and ALL I wanted to hear yes or No.. but why did YOU Not answer the door.. and as I am getting more wet by the rain.. I hear the Thunder and flashes of lightening making sounds.. and ALL I wanted is a simple Yes or No.. but I wanted to hear the answer YES more than No.. I came here to ask just this One question and also had a Favor in Mind.. as I would wait for YOU to appear in the window.. I don't see you there.. and I would turn around and started to walk slowly.. My head looks down and My Heart.. it feels so Hurt.. it feels so Broken inside.. I can't even hear my Heart or feel my Heart any more.. I just can't feel it no more.. as I am standing here.. why do I feel so Sad all of a sudden.. was it because of last time painful experience I had going away.. walking away.. if It hurts this bad.. why did I come here again.. and I stood by the door.. I know that I won't hear YOU.. I know that YOU are Not going to open this Door.. even though I already Know.. WHY did I come.. and my two hands holding the sides of this Piece of paper.. and I am looking at the Drawing of a Heart and I would smile.. YOU are thinking I should of been frowning HUH.. NOPE.. because I am thinking of another way.. different method appear to me in my Heart and IN my Mind and I came with a new Plan and I know that It does NOT Matter if YOU don't open the Door.. Just don't open it for Me.. Please keep it locked and DO NOT even come out to see this Heart.. WHY.. I am going to tell YOU what I think of Your Heart.. I know that If YOU are standing on the Other Side.. YOU can hear Me.. that is a GOOD thing because as Long as YOU can hear My voice.. and Hear my words and Knows my Heart.. I know once it gets to YOU ON the Other side.. ONE day Your Heart can Open.. I believe that YOUR HEART may Not accept me Now.. But YOUR Heart can Hear and can understand when IT comes from MY Heart of How much I LOVE YOU.. I know you know what Love really Is.. If YOU are truly LOOKING and thinking of Love.. SO AM I.. I been trying to tell YOU many times what it means to Love YOU.. as Long as YOU can Hear ME from Where you are.. YOU can be standing or can be sitting.. if YOU can Hear me.. I know that is a GOOD thing.. it is when YOU tell me to Leave YOU alone and Get Lost.. that is when I have NO Chance to Love YOU.. but able to come here.. even the DOOR is still locked and YOU are not opening the Door.. I know who I love.. and I want to boldly claim my rights to Love YOU.. and I know you can hear me on the Other side.. behind this Locked DOOR.. I know you are inside.. I saw the figure on the window when I was coming back to this Door.. and I waved at YOU.. what got to my Heart.. YOU waved back.. that is when I knew.. DOOR can be locked all YOU want.. BUT it is Not going to stop me to tell YOU a story of what it means to really Love YOU.. as long as YOU can hear me and listen to the Stories I love sharing and telling YOU.. I know I will love YOU still and I would walk UP to the Door and I would stand by the Door.. and My Hand Hits the Door.. DOK DOK DOK DOK DOK.. and Hand Hits the Door again.. and I hear.. DOK DOK DOK DOK DOK.. I was about to hit the Door but why did YOU hit it back.. I see.. I know YOU hear me.. behind this Door.. I see that YOU are there.. and also I am here just to say.. I missed YOU and I love you too.. and I can finally cry Out Loud knowing we are looking at the SAME MOON.. that YOU can hear me speak.. YOU can hear me talk and share.. that I know YOU are listening to My Heart.. that I can
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I love YOU.. I asked you to love me.. I even told YOU that I love YOU.. you told me that you loved Me.. then why are you not getting this Picture.. YOU told me how much YOU loved the Moon.. Here is the Moon that YOU love.. I just want to give it back to YOU because YOU can hate me.. but I will always love YOU.. I will still love YOU until you know that I love YOU and that YOU know in your Heart that YOU love me too. I am looking at the Moon.. I am waiting for YOU.. just thinking about YOU.. Looking at the Moon.. I feel like I am starting to Miss YOU.. when can I see YOU.. can I hear Your Heart.. Can I see your Heart.. Please let me touch Your Heart.. because I need YOU.. I truly need YOU to love me Back.. only wish.. Only hope.. only dreaming if YOU can show me your Heart.. as I am looking UP toward the Moon.. I can picture in that Moon.. the Shape of Your Heart.. I want to see Your Heart.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens Wide.. my Other arm reaches.. stretches Out.. My Other Hand opens Wide.. if YOU can hear Me.. If YOU are able to hear.. Please listen with Your Ears.. Hear my words because I am talking to that MOON.. can YOU Hear through that Moon.. I want to know.. If YOU are Unable to hear my words.. If YOU are Unable to Hear my Voice.. On the Other side.. Is it Night.. because at this Point.. the Sun has went down and Now.. it is the Moon's Turn to get UP.. and I am looking at this Moon.. Hoping that It is Night on that Other side.. if it is.. Can YOU please come Out.. If YOU are able to see that MOON.. Please come Out from the Place YOU are.. I want to tell YOU something.. I want to speak and tell YOU something.. my hands are both open wide.. asking.. Can YOU Please give me Your Heart.. I will be standing still.. Until you give me Your Heart.. I been asking YOU for a long time.. Did you not forget.. ever since I first laid my eyes On you.. all I ever wanted is Your Heart.. All I ever talked about and asking YOU is for that Heart.. Please give me Your Heart.. Please Open your Heart.. I do not want anything else but Just for YOU to show me Your Heart and Please.. let me have Your Heart.. My Heart has been breaking.. It has been shattered into Pieces.. I am trying to put the Pieces of my Heart together.. without YOU.. I know that the Pieces of my Heart cannot come together.. that is why I am asking for Your Heart.. Only if YOU can show Me.. so that I can see the Shape of Your Heart.. and I can open my chest.. and Put your Heart inside the Chamber.. which been waiting for your Heart.. I need Your Heart.. I want to have YOUR HEART and Put close to my chest.. to see How can I live without YOU.. I know that I can't unless I have Your Heart.. I told YOU already.. How is my Heart be broken and How was it torn into Pieces and Cannot put it back together.. I broke my Own Heart.. So that I can put Your Heart instead of Mine.. that is How close I want to feel Your Heart.. to Feel the Beating of Your Heart.. to hear the Beating.. to hear the sound of Your Heart.. I want YOU very close.. SO close that I can hear Your Heart inside of Me.. so that I can see YOU close.. I am truly missing YOU.. I don't know why.. because it is so Hard to explain at this Point.. if YOU are asking me.. WHY do I miss YOU so Much.. I just saw your Picture.. which I would have it close to Me.. I would take a Look at your Picture.. and only Wish.. Only Hope when can I see YOU close.. will you ever come close to Me.. because the More away YOU are.. the More I want to see YOU close.. the More I miss YOU.. the More My Heart breaks.. breaking and hearing the sound of my Heart.. just breaking into pieces.. and I want to know.. Does Love hurts.. does it hurt you.. because for Me.. it hurts to Love YOU.. it hurts me so much that I can feel the breaking of my Heart.. I want to cry.. I want to cry a lot because it Hurts me more when I don't see YOU.. when I miss YOU.. when I step out side.. and I stand still in silent.. and I look UP.. toward the Moon.. I want to shout at the Moon and Cry when looking at the Moon.. I would say.. Can YOU please come Out tonight.. I wonder if it is Day.. Or is it Night.. If I am able to see the Moon tonight.. can YOU Please step Out side.. On the Other side.. do YOU see the Moon appear before Your eyes.. Look UP at the dark skies.. do you see the stars.. do you see the Moon.. if YOU can see the Moon appear before YOU.. Can YOU Hear me.. Can YOU Hear my voice.. Listen to my words because there is something very Important that I would like to say.. to tell YOU.. and I know for sure you know this and maybe heard it more than thousand times by Now.. But I never get tired of telling you this.. I just hope that YOU never get tired too.. If you do please tell Me so that I can stop.. if YOU hear me.. Please LOOK at the Moon.. can YOU see that MOON.. the same Moon that we can see together.. as I am standing still alone.. I am here by myself.. Looking at that Moon.. I been coming here.. from time to time.. when I think of YOU a lot and my Mind.. it gets very busy because I am thinking of YOU.. before I came Out side.. I saw Your Picture.. I saw the Picture of YOU smiling.. when I saw Your Picture.. My Heart was touched.. I put my hand on the Chest.. and I can feel the Beating of My Heart.. and I would tell Your Picture looking at YOU.. I love YOU.. YOU do not know How much I love YOU.. I am still here.. I am still able to tell YOU.. I am able to write to YOU still.. that shows that I have never lost the touch.. that I think of YOU always.. when I saw Your Picture.. it felt Like I got drunk.. I wanted to fall.. and sit on the floor.. I felt dizzy and my knees got weak when I saw YOUR picture.. I told myself.. I should Not keep on looking at your Picture.. because once I start to look.. I would miss YOU.. Missing YOU leads me to walk Out side.. Missing YOU leads me to Look at the Moon.. and my eyes would wander looking UP at the sky.. Looking for the stars.. and Looking for the Moon.. I would close my eyes.. Both eyes shut closed as I would put YOU in my Head.. a Picture pops in my Mind as I would think of YOU.. and envision YOU.. wanting to see YOU.. I would open my eyes.. as I am staring at the Moon.. I would look at the Moon.. and I would open my mouth and say.. Do you know why I am here tonight.. Do you know why I am lead here.. I saw YOUR Picture.. I saw your Beautiful Picture.. saw Your Beautiful Face.. Now Look what YOU have made me do.. I am asking YOU if YOU can hear me.. Please say something back.. Please tell me something because My Heart is listening.. say something because My Heart is opened to listen.. Say something because my ears wants to hear Your Voice and Your Words.. Please say something because tonight is the Night I really want to hear YOU.. that this very Night.. for some reason I am missing YOU much more.. even though every night I miss YOU.. and I want to see YOU every day.. But on this very Night.. I really really want to hear from YOU.. I want you to Know that I love YOU.. I really really Love YOU.. Why can't I hear from YOU on the Other side.. is it because YOU can't hear me at all.. YOU know that every time I come Out.. every time I look UP at the sky and Look towards the Moon.. I am always expecting to hear from YOU.. but every night.. I would be the One who is speaking.. saying something as I am looking toward the Moon.. after I am done speaking as I am looking UP at the Moon.. I would be so sad.. My Heart be broken.. My Heart be breaking.. My Heart be crying as I would go inside back to the House.. because I would come Out side on this Night just to hear something.. Your Words and Your Voice but I don't hear anything from YOU.. I would be Looking UP towards the Moon.. asking YOU.. if You can Hear me.. if YOU want to hear my Voice.. to hear my words.. I am here this very Night.. I am standing here All alone.. Just waiting for YOU to show Up on the Other side.. if YOU can see the Moon.. If you can hear Me Out.. Please say something so that I know I am speaking to YOU as I am here On the Other side.. I want My words to be Heard.. I want my Voice to be Heard.. if I say the Word I miss YOU.. I am telling YOU from My Heart.. that Means I really Miss YOU.. if I say the Word I love YOU.. it comes from the Deep within expressing my Heart felt to tell YOU that it is what it is.. that I am telling YOU this because I do.. But I am not sure if My Words are being heard.. if My Voice is being heard on the Other side.. What If YOU are Not there.. What if It is Night there.. and yes.. the Moon has come UP.. but YOU are Not standing Out side where YOU can see that Moon.. I want my Voice to be heard for YOU.. I want my Words to be Heard to YOU.. because None of it is empty words.. it is Words that comes from My Heart and My Mind.. from Inside of Me.. that is why I been asking for YOUR HEART.. If I can have your Heart just for One Night.. if I am able to put Your Heart inside the Chamber in my Chest.. and I close the Chamber of the gates of my Chest.. I know that if YOUR Heart is inside of Me.. I can walk out alone.. stand by myself in the Night.. Looking UP at the MOON.. so that My Words can be Heard.. so that My Voice may be heard.. and if YOUR HEART is inside my Chest in the chamber.. I would look UP at the Moon.. and YOU are able to hear all of My words.. my Voice.. and even what comes within Me to tell YOU.. YOUR Heart being so Close to Me.. I know that My Words would not go empty.. and I can just express and tell YOU.. and YOU can Hear me.. that YOU can hear me finally and that I know that YOUR HEART is able to hear my words and My Mind.. and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would know for sure.. I can come Out side every night.. without questions rather YOU are listening or Not.. But I know for sure YOU can Hear Me
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Waiting for me.. I would ask this Angel.. How can I be an Angel.. because I just want to be close to YOU.. even though I do not ask for your Love.. I am not asking YOU.. can YOU love me.. it is what is in my Heart.. who is the One loving YOU.. I am truly feeling like I am filled and Full just by loving YOU.. and the Angel would look at me.. if I become the An angel.. I can't ever be with YOU.. but can be Near YOU.. be close to YOU and Just love YOU from the Far.. from the distance just to be there and just to love YOU and Only thing I can do is miss YOU.. and I would ask the Angel.. am I able to share.. tell and write letters to YOU.. the Angel tells me.. I still can.. I can always love YOU.. and able to tell you.. express the Joy of loving YOU.. I do remember begging this Angel.. that I needed to borrow the two wings.. or if I can be an Angel instead.. as long as I can love YOU.. as long as I can write you Letters to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. so I made the Deal with Angel.. he is going to bring me two wings and gives to me as a Gift and I will become Your Angel.. the One who loves YOU from a far and from distance.. I do remember sitting by the desk.. pulling Out the White Sheet of Clean Paper.. grabbing a Pen and started to write YOU a Letter.. to tell YOU this.. I would say.. I am Your Angel.. Please do not be afraid of Me.. but to know how much I love YOU.. when I get close to the window and the Sun goes down and the Moon with the Stars comes UP the sky.. I would open the Window and stare into the Night.. just thinking of YOU.. just missing YOU always.. I do not want to miss you any more.. there is this Ache in my Heart.. there is this Pain in my soul.. looking into the Night.. Looking at the Moon.. I am watching the Moon looking at me.. and when I look at the Moon.. I think of YOU.. YOU keep on crossing my Mind.. I can feel this pain.. a sharp Pain because I want to be close to YOU.. When can I see YOU.. When can I come close to YOU and reveal to YOU that It is Me who be loving you the Most.. would you please let me come close.. so that I don't have to keep on missing YOU.. I feel like I needs to make this Move first.. that I needs to get close.. even though I may not be able to be with YOU.. I know that if I am your Angel.. at least I get to see YOU.. see you closer and able to love you More because I don't miss YOU.. this wall.. this distance that is not able to let me get to YOU.. I know that I must break down the wall.. break down the distance.. this missing YOU.. so that I can be at least to tell YOU that I love YOU.. it is driving me Insane.. it is driving me crazy Now because I know my Heart.. I know what is IN my Heart and WHO I be loving for such a Long time.. that is why Now.. I just want to be close.. would you please accept these Letters that I write.. I just want to tell you what crosses my Mind.. and that without YOU.. I know that I can't Live.. without YOU I can't breathe so Please Help me to Love YOU more.. as I am writing on the Clean Sheet of Paper.. and I hear the Knock on the window.. and I turn to Look.. it is the Angel who has brought me the gift.. the two Wings.. NO more asking to borrow but Now I have two wings.. Once I put the two Wings on the Back.. I will become Your Angel.. who can be near YOU.. Not missing YOU no More.. I see the Angel leaves the two Wings by the Window and He leaves.. I am looking at your Picture.. I am so sorry that I have to be an Angel.. only thing I can do is to be Close.. just to be there and just loving you from the Distance.. But I do get to tell you how much I love YOU.. at least I have the Voice to share from these letters.. to tell you I love YOU.. for so long.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. will you please let me Love YOU still.. as I open the Window and grabbing the two wings.. I am looking at them.. both hands holding the two wings.. I am looking at your Picture sitting on the top of the desk.. I can't breathe.. because it is so Hard for me to breathe right Now.. I want to go.. I want to be with YOU Now.. if I can't do this.. I know I be going crazy.. so please understand why I am doing this for YOU.. I put the two Wings on my Back.. and I fall on the Floor.. and crying.. as I am holding your Picture.. IN my hand is your Picture.. I want to be with YOU.. I want to be with YOU forever.. If I stay here.. I know that I will miss you more.. and Missing YOU drives me Crazy and in such great pain.. I feel aches all over my body.. I am wiping my tears as I am looking at your Picture.. why do I have to be so far from YOU.. why do YOU have to live so far that I must do this.. WHY.. as I feel this Change.. I become Your Angel.. but as long as I can still love YOU and tell YOU How much I love YOU.. I don't care what happens to Me.. as long as YOU know.. YOU know that My Love for you is surreal.. that I love you for real.. and as long as YOU get this Message.. I am looking at the Bottle.. I been taking few shots.. before I would write you a Letter.. I would have the shot Glass.. and with the Bottle of Rice Wine.. I would pour on the Shot Glass.. My Heart could not take this Pain.. this Ache.. so I started to drink.. so that I don't feel this Pain in my Heart.. help Me to love YOU.. Help me by accepting the Letters so that I know that I have a chance to Love YOU... as I would stand UP.. on two feet.. I would roll the Paper and I would grab the Empty Bottle of the rice wine.. put the Rolled paper into the Bottle.. and I am standing.. walking to the window.. and I am looking at the Moon.. I would walk away from the room and go out side.. as I am standing outside.. One hand holding your Picture.. Looking at your Picture.. and On the Other hand I holding the Letter inside the Bottle.. I know that I must get to YOU.. I must fly over the Moon and go where YOU at.. Please be where I met YOU.. Please know that I am coming and I am going to YOU.. I have just written a Letter.. I have told YOU in the letter.. I have asked the Angel.. if I can be Your Angel.. so that I can be near YOU and love you from the distance.. if I stay here.. How can I show YOU that I love YOU.. How can I tell YOU that I love YOU.. so Now.. just standing here.. going out side and just looking at the Moon is Not going to do anything for Me.. I hope that when YOU receive the Message.. the Letter inside this Bottle.. will you open the Letter.. will you please accept and read it.. because I put so much time and thoughts.. my Heart into each Letter.. letting YOU know How much I miss YOU.. I miss you that It drives me Insane.. I miss you that it drives me crazy.. if YOU can't come to me.. then I will go to YOU.. but Now as your Angel.. please accept my Heart.. Please accept the Letters I give YOU.. and I am looking UP the MOON as I am speaking from My Heart.. I am looking UP at the Moon and telling these Words to the Moon.. I know that YOU can't hear me.. because of the distance.. for being so far away.. but I will let you know soon as I fly over the Moon to the Place you are.. Please Open YOUR Heart.. Please let me In.. Open your Heart for Me.. and please don't reject how much I love YOU.. how much I miss YOU.. Please open your Heart and receive and accept.. I am crying Out as I am saying these things.. LOOKING UP at the Moon.. Looking at your Picture.. Holding hard on the Bottle.. I want to give.. I want to give as much as I can.. I want to give YOU how much I love YOU.. I just want to give you my ALL.. my everything to YOU.. and the two wings starts to flap.. as I feel myself being lifted from the Ground.. WHY must I change to Love YOU.. why can't I love you for Me.. WHY do I must have two wings.. why have to be an angel to Love YOU.. I just want to love YOU.. but standing here.. I know I can't get to YOU.. I know that just standing here and standing still.. Nothing will be done.. so Please forgive me for changing into I am waiting for the Moon to appear.. in my hands is a Letter I have written for YOU.. but I am waiting for an Angel.. Do you know that I believe in Angels and I would ask if the Angels could Come as I am asking for One to appear before my Eyes.. as I was sitting by the desk.. and I would write.. pulling the Piece of paper before me.. I would be looking at your Picture.. Only if YOU know my Heart.. trying to let YOU know How much I love YOU.. I been practicing writing on this Pieces of Papers.. I would even grab One Piece of paper.. walking to the Mirror in the rest Room.. I am Not a Person who can speak well in speech.. I may not be able to speak right with the Words when it comes face to face.. But I know that I needs to practice my Speech telling YOU and Letting YOU know How much I love YOU.. as I am in the rest Room.. I am Looking at myself the Mirror is in front of me.. I know that I can let YOU see the Letter.. but.. I am alone in this House.. so I would show UP.. looking at myself and trying to Picture YOU standing on the other side.. will I have the Boldness.. WILL I have the courage to Tell YOU what My Heart feels.. WILL you let me speak to YOU about How much I love YOU.. as I am looking at myself.. Looking at the Mirror.. Holding the Piece of paper.. and I would try to talk.. try to speak.. but my Words would Not come Out because I am Looking at Me instead.. but I know that I needs to practice.. practice more to speak to YOU.. to tell YOU.. to have the Guts and Courage.. but I am wondering will YOU even give me Your Ears to listen.. will YOU give me the attention that I need from YOU so that I am able to talk to YOU.. to get something Off my Chest.. letting YOU know what I am thinking.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. I would open my Mouth.. and I would start to read from the Letter.. and I would say to YOU.. even though YOU are not here.. But I am envisioning that YOU are here and able to listen to the Words I am telling YOU.. speaking to YOU.. I would say.. I can't get my Mind Off of YOU
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I want to be well prepared.. I want to be ready to Tell YOU that I have a Love story that Only YOU can hear.. that I can share to YOU.. would you give me Your Time and energy.. your attention is all I am asking for.. all I need so that I can tell YOU.. I been looking.. trying to speak.. because I am not well in speech.. but I do know how to write Many Letters now.. and the Best way.. fastest way for me to reach YOU is by giving YOU this Letter.. I can look at myself and holding UP the Piece of Paper in my hands.. and reading the Letters.. How long can I be doing this.. and I would ask.. How far can it go if only thing I do is read the Letters looking at myself at the Mirror in front of Me.. I would keep on trying.. after sitting down by the desk.. I would pull up the chair.. with the Pencil and write YOU a Letter.. letting YOU know there is so much going On my Mind.. burning inside of My Heart.. that I still Love YOU.. I would pick up the Picture.. taking a Look at YOU.. and always.. it brings me great Love and Joy and Inspires me to write and to tell YOU a Story that I love YOU.. the Only thing that I can do.. the Only thing I can bring out from My Heart.. and I go to face the Mirror.. and I look at myself.. I wish that It be YOU on the other side.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to read the Letter to YOU.. but I am only looking at myself and it breaks my Heart that I am only reading to myself.. But I want this Letter to reach YOU.. so that YOU know my Heart.. my longing has been growing.. missing YOU brings Hate in my Heart cause of the pain that comes with it.. I wish that YOU know that Loving YOU sometimes Hurts me the Most because I miss YOU.. I can't stop thinking of YOU.. going back and forth.. to Sitting by the desk.. writing a Letter.. getting UP from and walking to the rest room.. Holding UP the Letter.. looking at myself looking at the Mirror and reading the Letter Out Loud.. I would look at my self.. and it hurts Me because I miss YOU.. I been missing YOU for such a Long time.. going back to sit.. Looking at your Picture.. my Heart starts to burn inside.. I want this Burn to come across Your Heart.. I wish that YOU can deal with the same Burning and this Pain that is aching inside my Soul.. I feel like it is NO fair sometimes because.. WHY is it that I am the One who has to deal with this Pain of ache.. this Pain of missing YOU and It feels Like YOU do not feel anything on the Other side.. do YOU know that I am waiting for YOU still.. that I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I don't want to spend the time looking at the Mirror and Looking at myself and just reading the letters.. it is NOT for me but for YOU.. so I have decided to change a New Way.. I would wait.. waiting until the SUN goes Down and asking for the MOON to come UP.. I would walk Out side.. and stand alone as I see the Night has approached.. I am holding the Letter In front of Me.. and I have heard that there are Angels WHO is able to listen to an OUT CRY of the Heart when YOU LOVE.. I would stand.. Open the Piece of Paper.. the Letter is in front of Me.. and I started to LOOK UP at the Moon.. but I am Not asking the MOON anything.. but an Angel.. if the Angel can hear me on this very night.. can the Angel be the One to do me a Favor.. I have One wish.. and It is very simple Wish.. to Hear the Heart of Mine crying for YOU.. I know if the Angel can hear the sobbing of my Heart.. my Tears of pains that comes from inside.. if the Angel can hear me and can feel sorry for Me because I am asking for the Angel to Give this Letter to YOU.. I can sit on the ground and weep.. sob in tears for many hours if I have too.. but if an Angel.. who is passing by through My direction and catches me in tears.. I know that the Angel can stop and Looks DOWN from the Sky wondering what is wrong with me.. and I can say to that Angel.. I am man who loves to write Love Story.. but it is a story of YOU.. story of how much I love YOU.. and that I am asking that Angel.. if He can do me a favor.. to give this Letter I have written to YOU.. to send the Message that I been here.. all along waiting for YOU.. if the angel asks.. I would tell that Angel.. I have even tried.. I even went to the rest room.. after I sat on the chair by the desk.. and I would show the angel the Picture of YOU.. and tell the Angel.. who YOU are and I would say to that Angel.. I would write with the pencil on the Piece of paper.. and I would get UP and go to the rest room.. and I would stand looking at the Mirror of myself and I would read the letter that I wrote to YOU.. I been doing that for a while.. but It seems like it has no Hope.. because I am only reading it to myself.. I want YOU to hear me.. hear my voice.. hear my words that I do speak.. I do talk and say.. share what is in my Heart.. but what good is ALL that when YOU can't even hear me.. if YOU just don't know or understand.. and I started to LOOK at myself on that Mirror.. in Pain.. what good is it if I am the Only One who knows it for myself.. so I have decided to walk Out.. and WHEN I saw the Moon.. if I love to stare at the MOON in the Night.. I am sure an Angel can also Love the Moon just like Me and can spend the Night looking at the MOON.. if I can be loud and Clear and if the Angel who is staring at the same MOON I am.. I know for sure.. the Angel can hear me Out.. hear my misery of NOT able to get the Letters to YOU.. Hear this Heart of Mine crying in the Night as I am staring at the MOON.. if the Angel sees Me.. with a Broken Heart and the Longing.. waiting for YOU.. waiting for your answer.. I am sure the Angel can look.. as I would walk Out side.. Not just Once.. but each Night.. two days.. four days.. ten days I am out.. holding the Letter.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. open my mouth so that YOU can hear me Out Loud.. I am sure after many times of walking with the Letters.. the Angel can see that I am very serious.. I am Not asking Much but it is so simple.. to let YOU know my Heart.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. to Let YOU see the Heart of Mine.. that I am falling for YOU.. I need YOU and I need you to know that I love YOU.. that I be missing YOU.. DO you even know that.. can YOU SEE that.. and I know that One night.. with your Picture in my Hand.. and I be looking.. on the Other Hand is the Letter.. after I look at you through the Picture.. My Heart breaks into tears.. and I am missing YOU.. I will say why do I keep on missing YOU.. why must you be so far that it is so Hard for me to reach YOU.. why leave me like this stranded.. why let me die here just to Love YOU.. why do I must crumble and be hurt.. why be so miserable but at the same TIME the Joy to Love.. with this ache that leaves me this Pain.. it Hurts a lot sometimes because YOU are so Far away.. but I want YOU so Near.. so Close that my arms can wrap around YOU.. and to let YOU see the letters.. here is One that I written for YOU.. I know that I may not be good with speaking.. talking with good speech.. but I know that I can memorize the Letters that I have written for YOU.. to tell YOU a Story.. My Love story of How much I love YOU.. so that YOU can know forever that I love YOU.. as I am Looking UP.. Looking at the MOON.. I am holding the Letter.. and I open my Mouth and I read the Letter Loud.. I would say Out Loud.. do YOU hear Me.. can YOU Please hear me.. will YOU please listen to what I needs to say.. to tell YOU something that Keeps on coming from My Heart.. that I been coming Out here.. LOOKING at the Night.. I see the stars.. I see the Clouds and I see the Moon above me.. and I am waiting for an Angel.. I do truly believe that an Angel can hear me right Now.. and if an Angel who is passing by decides to stop and to listen.. I am sure that the Angel can come to my aide to Help me with this Letter.. so that this Letter can go to the right person which is YOU.. I want to say.. I been loving YOU.. I keep on telling YOU how much I love YOU.. but do you really believe in this Word that I am telling YOU.. I know that My Heart is Not mistaken.. but it is real because the Only thing I can do is tell YOU that I love YOU.. there is Nothing More I can say.. there is Nothing but the three Letter words I can tell YOU.. which is I LOVE YOU and I want YOU to know.. I want you to know this truth before I go.. because I know that One day SOON.. YOU will know for sure the truth.. that I do really Love YOU and meant it with my Words.. I been waiting for the Angel.. so that if the Angel appears before My eyes.. I can tell that Angel.. and show the Picture of YOU.. and the Angel is going to get it.. will understand it.. the problem is this.. what if this Angel comes and sees YOUR picture and also that Angel falls in love with YOU.. even with the distance and miles away.. I love YOU.. even with not spending time.. and knowing YOU in face to face.. I just love YOU as your are.. I don't need to be in your Presence or be with YOU as in face to face in person to Love YOU.. even with this Miles separated between US.. I just Love YOU just the way YOU are.. if YOU don't believe me.. I know that when the Angel shows UP with my Letters In the hands and gives to YOU.. and when the Angel holds the Picture of YOU and shows YOU.. I believe by that time YOU will know that I love YOU.. I don't needs to be there to Love YOU.. because it is all about Just Loving you First.. when I love YOU.. YOU will know what a Love means in a time when I can't love YOU anymore.. I am Not sure How long I will live.. but as long as I am alive.. I know that I still can love you.. breathing.. I know I can say to YOU that I really Love YOU..I am looking at the window.. as I am in the room.. I just keep on thinking of YOU.. I know that I am missing YOU.. will I ever see YOU.. and I would walk closer to the window.. and I would kneel and looking Out the window.. I am wondering.. do you think as much as I am thinking of YOU.. I can see that the Moon is come Up
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Looking for an Angel.. WILL the Angel hear me this very night.. can the Angel hear my voice.. or the Angel is Not there.. and I am looking UP.. looking around.. I can't see the Angel.. I don't see any Angel over here.. But I wish that the Angel can hear me.. I wanted to ask.. can I borrow two Wings.. can I have two wings.. I know that staying here in my room.. looking through the window.. and just looking UP to the Moon.. this distance is not going to take me any where.. I be missing YOU.. I want to tell YOU something.. I need to say something.. Let my words say something.. kneeling here and just looking UP at the Moon.. it is going to take me No where.. I want to be with YOU.. I want to Hold YOU.. if it is cold there.. If it is snowing.. or raining.. I want to Hold YOU.. let my hands touch your hands.. let me pull you closer.. so that I can hear your Heart Beating against Mine.. will you let me stay by your side please.. I am looking for the Angel.. I been praying and wishing for an Angel.. I would enter the room.. and I would look at the window.. and I would walk closer to the window in the room and kneel.. looking through the window.. asking.. Are you there.. I am speaking to the Angel.. I know that YOU can hear Me.. because every Night.. I come to the same spot.. asking for the Angel.. I know that YOU be tired of hearing me asking for the same thing.. so why Not just show UP and tell me that YOU are there.. can I have your two wings.. I need two wings.. If you can't give me two wings.. at least let me borrow two wings from YOU.. can YOU Please say something.. I need two wings.. and if the angel would finally show UP and tell me.. I am going to look UP.. Angel.. I want to have your two wings.. and can I borrow it just for one Night.. I want to spend my time Just being by YOUR side.. if the Angel Allows me to borrow two Wings.. I would place the wings on the right and left of the shoulder blade.. and I know that just for that One Night.. I want to be Your Angel.. and I be asking You.. can I fly over the Moon.. and if YOU believe in an Angel.. at least YOU know that I love YOU.. this Angel will Not let YOU GO.. this Angel will stay by your side.. just to tell YOU that I love YOU.. YOU know how much I missed YOU.. How much I been loving YOU and still been loving YOU.. I want be sitting on the top of the tree branch.. just watching you from the distance.. and having YOUR picture in my Hand.. to show YOU NOT to be afraid of me.. Look.. I will tell you.. LOOK at the Picture.. I am not a stranger.. and I would be with a Letter.. LOOK.. I am the One who has been typing YOU.. sharing to YOU how much I love YOU.. so that YOU would not step back or scream.. the Prove that On the Other side.. for a Long Long time.. I been asking for Your Heart.. for YOU TO Love me too.. even though I am not asking you right Now.. but I am asking you.. will you please love me some day.. I do not know How long it is going to take but until YOU can tell me that YOU love me.. but I would show UP as your angel.. and I would flap the two wings and I would lower to look at YOU.. and I would say.. I did not come here to hurt YOU.. I did not come here to scare you either.. I came here to say.. I have been missing YOU for such a Long time.. I had to ask.. I had to beg.. I had to pray.. I had to wish.. and Many Many Many Nights.. I would enter the room.. and go to the window in the room.. and kneel.. I would LOOK UP to see the Moon.. and I open the window and I would be asking for an Angel.. if the Angel is real or true.. and I would be asking for the Angel to answer me.. I would keep on going to the same spot.. until One night the Angel came down to the Window I was kneeling.. I just could not believe my eyes.. I started to cry when I saw the Angel and the Angel asked me why I kept on calling for Him and I asked the Angel.. two wings to Borrow.. just for one Night.. and I would show the Angel the Picture of YOU.. and I been telling the angel My Heart.. How much I been missing YOU.. How many nights I had to come out.. asking for you.. I would start just standing Out side by the House.. and Looking at the Moon.. I would pour out my Heart to the Moon about YOU.. and I knew that NO matter How much I would tell that Moon.. the Moon is Not going to tell me any thing.. it hurts because I wanted YOU to know.. so I went to the room and I believed in the Angel.. Maybe the Angel can Help me instead.. so that is when I started to call for the Angel.. which the angel came.. I asked to borrow the two wings.. which the Angel gave to me for just one Night.. I showed the angel the Letter I been writing to YOU and also the Picture of YOU and I had to be the one to go to see YOU.. I been missing YOU so much lately.. I just had to come.. Now.. I been sitting on the tree branch.. I saw YOU in a distance in a shop.. so I waited.. Of course I did not mean to scare YOU.. but the Angel gave me the permission to be an Angel for this one Night.. Now I am looking at YOU.. I don't want to leave.. I want to stay by your side.. and be there with YOU.. I want tell you how much I love YOU and if I do go.. I know that I am going to be missing YOU.. I hate missing YOU when I love YOU.. why can't YOU come with Me.. or why can't I stay with you.. I brought the Letter to show YOU.. it is Me who been telling YOU and sharing you my Heart.. so that YOU would not think I am crazy.. Do you see this letter.. Do you see the Picture.. it is YOU.. I been having this picture for a Long time.. and Only this Picture.. when I feel down.. I would take a LOOK at your picture.. I can't stop crying.. Because YOU Look so much prettier.. Because YOU look so much Beautiful.. Why do you have to be this Pretty.. WHY do you have to be this Beautiful.. When YOU Love some one.. YOU look much more Beautiful in my eyes then ever.. I don't know what it is.. maybe it is because My Heart sees so much More.. I see Love that Only I can bring and tell and give to YOU.. I just want to hold YOU.. to tell YOU that I have never stopped loving YOU.. I came all down way.. flying over the Moon.. Just to see YOU for this One Night.. Now.. I don't want to leave.. I can't go because I know that I be missing YOU again.. I want to see YOU again.. I want to tell YOU how beautiful YOU are.. How much I want to be with YOU.. that when YOU leave.. when I go.. I know that I am going to ask the Angel again for the two wings.. if I can have the two wings so that I can every Night.. flying over the Moon.. waiting for YOU.. sitting on that Same Tree on that branch.. Just to tell YOU how much I miss YOU and how much I love YOU.. but Now.. since I saw YOU.. and I gave you the letter.. I know that I have to go.. YOU are the Only One who I love.. that is why I just can't go.. I just wanted to say.. I been on the Other side.. just waiting for YOU.. I even stoop by the House.. when the Moon came UP at Night.. I would stare at the MOON as it stare at me.. and I would hold Your Picture.. asking if the Moon can speak.. I first tried by asking the MOON to be the Voice I really needed to tell the One.. I been showing the Picture.. to that MOON.. to take a closer LOOK.. and LOOK at the Picture.. to Please Come Closer.. if the MOON has an ear.. can the MOON hear my words.. I first came for few months.. I stood in the same spot out side of the House.. with your Picture.. but I just grew tired because the MOON never seems to care.. did not come closer.. did Not speak.. it just stood there staring at Me.. so I had to try another way.. Now.. Look at these two wings.. I do thank the Angel who responded to my request because Now I get to see YOU.. I get to give you this Letter.. when YOU took this Letter.. My Heart stopped.. and I felt the beating of my Heart goes faster because YOU are the Only One who I love.. My Heart keeps on beating faster as I am looking at YOU.. But.. I just don't want to leave.. WHY do I have to leave YOU.. I just can't leave.. But I know that I must because I made the Promise to return.. to give back the two wings that I borrowed.. But I came here to see YOU.. I kept on missing YOU.. just looking at your Picture was not Enough.. just telling YOU through writings was Not enough for Me.. I started More.. I started to feel in my Heart I want More of YOU.. I want Your Love.. I want to see YOU.. your Presence.. your Smile.. Your Beautiful.. Your Scent.. I wanted More because My Heart started to Love YOU more.. I want More of YOU because I love you a lot More now.. why can't I be with YOU.. WHY can't I hold YOU.. my arms is killing me because it is YOU I want to hold so tight.. I want to hold you close to tell YOU.. why can't YOUR Heart be opened to me.. please tell your Heart to be open to me so that YOU will know who is the ONE been loving YOU.. It is Me who loves YOU.. I don't think there is Another WHO can Love you More and More as I can because I am able to tell YOU Heart to Heart.. if a Person is like a wall.. what good is that Person.. do NOT tell you how Much but YOU know that I can tell YOU.. PULL you into my arms.. and LOOK at your ear and I will speak.. telling YOU.. I am the One who Loves YOU.. Open your Heart.. Please.. Tell your Heart to Open to me so I can tell you more and more.. I love YOU.. as I am holding Your hand.. My hand just can't let Go.. and It is killing me because I know that it is time for me to go.. I am looking at the paper.. the drawing of a Heart.. and I am standing by this Tall tree.. is this the Right Tree.. can YOU please tell me if I am standing at the right Place.. I see about twelve more Trees behind and All around this Park.. WHY are you telling me to come to this Park without telling me Which Tree to go too.. Is it because I have delayed my Coming.. DO I needs to tell YOU that I am so Sorry.. I am so sorry for Not coming to the appointed Time.. I did Not expect the changing of the weather.. Of course
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Oink Oink.. I am looking at myself.. looking at the Mirror.. I would say.. what are you doing to Me.. I wish I had answer.. maybe a solution.. but right Now I just can't figure OUT what do I do.. there is Nothing I can do at this point.. then tell me.. how do I get to YOU.. How do I get close to YOU.. tell me how so that I can tell you My Heart.. at least tell me where can I find Your Heart.. if I can't get to YOU.. let me please speak to your Heart.. let me please have your Heart.. then I know for sure there is a chance.. that there is an assurance that some day.. One day I am able to get close to YOU.. because this situation I am in is taking me NO where.. I am going insane.. it is driving me crazy.. I been holding that Giant Teddy Bear.. and I don't want to hold that Giant Teddy Bear any more because I want YOU more.. I want YOU instead.. but holding that Giant Teddy Bear only reminds me that I am going crazy.. because I wish.. I am wanting.. Please Help Me.. tell me and show me something.. Please give me an answer so that I know which way to YOU.. I need Your Love.. I need Your Heart.. I need YOU close.. I need you in my arms instead.. and It is killing me that YOU are so far.. that there is a long distance between us.. at least show me that YOU know where Your Heart is.. show me Your Heart.. tell me your Heart because I need to Know.. I want to know that I am heading on the right direction.. which is to YOU.. to Your Heart.. please.. as I am looking at the Mirror and sharing it to the Mirror.. You know How I feel.. YOU know that it is so Hot Outside and I have been waiting for YOU.. I even called you on the Phone but you don't answer.. You gave me a Note.. and this Note with a Picture of YOU.. and I have decided to come.. I had to sit for a long period.. thinking of YOU.. I be sitting by the desk.. Should I go.. or Should I just sit here and do nothing.. I would grab your Picture.. and I would look at YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. the My Mind feels like it is going on whirl wind.. just can't stop thinking of YOU.. wishing to see YOU.. and I would take a look at your picture twice.. I would look again over and over.. and it drives me crazy that I can't be with YOU.. that I am sitting down here by the desk.. just can't do nothing at this point.. AS I would grab the shot glass.. and Pour the bottle.. I would lift the Shot glass.. and smell.. Open my mouth and slam into my mouth.. I just can't.. but I want to see YOU.. but look at me where I am at.. just sitting here.. Unable to move.. but I want to get UP and go to YOU.. you know that it is so hard when YOU sit.. and all I can do is look at Your Picture.. My Heart cries.. cries from the inside because I want to be with YOU.. I want to hold Your Hand.. I want to feel YOU close.. but.. right Now.. all I can do is sit and stare.. just wait and my Heart cries while waiting and Looking at Your Picture.. I would pour the Bottle into the shot Glass.. I hate drinking this because of this Pain.. the pain of just can't be with YOU.. I want to be with YOU and tell you how much I love you.. DO you know how it feels when YOU just can't.. but Your Heart wants to say.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to say to YOU that I love YOU.. why can't you be here.. why can't you be near.. so that I can hold YOU.. would you let me hold YOU.. can I wrap my arms around YOU and tell YOU that I love YOU.. would you let me say these words to YOU.. that NO matter How hard things are.. I am not going to give UP on loving YOU.. sometimes I wish that I can.. just let everything go.. but.. I have already made up my mind to love YOU no matter what.. to love YOU even though you may be far off over the Moon.. as long I can tell you some how.. I just hope that it can get to YOU.. some way or some How.. that my Love.. my Heart.. the way and HOW much I love YOU.. I know that one day It will catch YOUR heart on fire and let it be known that there is some one.. a person like myself here.. still waiting for YOU.. waiting for YOUR love.. as I grab the shot Glass.. I open my mouth and slam it into my mouth.. Now I can feel something.. and Now.. I know I be missing YOU.. but do you know how much I do.. Do you know that I think of you every day.. every night.. I think of you and many times you cross my Mind.. as I grab and to look at Your Picture.. I wonder where is Your Heart.. Please.. show me Your Heart.. I needs to know.. if I can find Your Heart.. and if I find Your Heart.. would you let me have Your Heart.. I want to have to hold and keep forever.. would YOU let me have Your Heart.. I needs to know.. I needs to know your answer.. I have been waiting.. and I am still waiting.. but YOU have not given me any answers yet.. Please tell me why YOU are not letting me know.. is it suppose to be a secret.. is it something that I just can't hear.. Please let me Know.. let my Heart breathe.. Let My Heart know because I love YOU.. But YOU know my Heart.. How much I want to be with YOU.. How much I miss YOU.. How much I love YOU.. How much I adore YOU.. YOU are the most beautiful.. so Please let me know.. as I pour the Bottle on the Shot Glass.. and I would take the last shot into my mouth.. and I would get Up.. I know that I needs to Know.. I want to know because sitting here by the desk.. and just looking at Your Picture.. and just asking You through this picture.. I know that YOU will never answer me back.. I can't just sit here when YOU will not speak back through this Picture.. I be looking at your Picture.. and just be talking to It.. it hurts that YOU never answer back.. but I needs to know.. Please tell me.. why can't you speak to me through this Picture.. I needs to know Your Heart.. can I have your Heart please.. I needs to know.. but I been here.. sitting for many hours.. in the same spot.. No response.. but Now I feel.. I be looking at the Bottle.. it is Now an empty Bottle.. I drank it all through this Shot Glass.. I see two empty Bottles.. I feel like I want to cry Now.. because I needs to know Your Answer.. But YOU would never talk back.. I hear No answers.. so I get UP.. out of this chair.. and Yes.. I know that the Note is here with me.. telling me to the location.. to the Door.. I needs to go to the Door.. but would you answer the Door if I knock.. I know I want something from YOU.. I need Your Heart.. I need Your Heart please.. as I would walk Out my door.. It is very hot outside.. I know that staying and sitting by the desk.. I will never get any answers.. I know you will never talk through the Picture.. but with this Note.. telling me where to Go and with the Picture I have.. Now I am going to this Door.. I am going to your Door.. the door where YOU are staying.. Would you come Out if I knock on the Door.. would you answer the Door.. and tell me.. I see that the SUN is Out and it is very Hot outside.. I am not sure if it was a good idea to drink and now.. I just wants to go over and ask YOU.. I need Your Heart please.. as I go to the Door.. I am standing by your Door.. would YOU answer the Door.. would you tell me Yes if I asked you if I can have Your Heart.. would you even respond.. so I would look at the Door.. I do see a door knob.. My Hand grabs the Door Knob and I would twist to turn.. I can see that the DOOR is locked.. I can't open the Door.. SO.. Am I suppose to knock on this DOOR.. please answer this Door.. so I would roll my hand to fist.. and Knock.. DOK DOK DOK.. as I stand there waiting.. I don't hear anything.. so I would roll my hand into the first.. and knock.. DOK DOK DOK.. do you hear this Knocking at Your Door.. I am the one who received this Note.. and also I got your Picture.. I hope you have send it to the right address because It came to my Door.. DO you know that I am the right person you send it too.. Please come and check for Yourself.. was it suppose to be me who suppose to receive this from YOU.. Please.. show me that I am the right person that YOU send and gave too.. So I stood by the door.. and just waited.. But I hear no answer.. I know that it came to me.. if this is from YOU.. am I the person you are trying to reach too.. because Now.. I feel so confused about this situation.. and My hand roll into the fist.. and knock.. DOK DOK DOK.. Hello.. DOK DOK DOK.. am I the one who is suppose to knock at this Door
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Oink Oink.. I am looking Out the Window.. Looking for the Truck.. I know that the time.. looking at the watch.. the Clock in the room and I am looking through the window.. the empty Bottle on the top of the desk.. and I know that I been drinking.. trying to get YOU off my Mind.. ever since the New Picture came.. when I opened the envelope and I would pull out the Picture you have placed inside.. I would be looking at it.. ever since I saw this new Picture.. trying to erase YOU off my Mind because I been thinking of YOU and just looking.. telling your New Picture.. How Much I wanted to see YOU.. asking you through the New Picture.. when can I be close to YOU.. but only thing I been getting is No responses because it is Only a New Picture of YOU.. as I would write YOU another Letter.. telling you how angry I am getting because it seems Like I am the Only One who sees YOU.. am I the Only One who is going crazy.. is it only Me who be missing YOU.. is it only my Heart who misses you the Most.. is it only my Head which I am thinking about Love.. just wanting to say I love YOU.. do you not miss me at All.. do I ever cross your Mind.. how about your Heart.. if only I can ask your Heart.. what do you feel about Me.. am I truly special to YOU.. am I the Only Man who can Love YOU.. please tell me some words so that I can hear YOU.. that I am able to smile knowing even miles apart.. miles which leaves such a long distance.. but I needs to see YOU.. as I would sit by the desk.. pouring on the Shot Glass.. I would be taking shots after another shots.. as I would be looking at your new Picture.. the Photo that YOU gave to the Mail man.. who came last week and gave me the envelope.. Now I am going to ask him if I can go into the Truck and if the Mail Man can take me to the Place you Live.. I may Not walk towards YOU.. but close by I want to stand to see.. I just want to know How you are doing.. How would I feel if I see YOU in person.. even though there will be a distance between Us and I know that I can't come close right Now.. but enough room and space knowing that YOU are there.. I am Not asking you to come close to me Now.. but at least YOU can see that I am doing Good.. and that still I be loving YOU.. I may Not be able to say it to YOU yet.. but when YOU see me inside the Truck.. which the Mail man would drive to take me where you are.. I just want you to know that it is Me.. whose been longing for YOU.. whose been waiting on the Other side.. by my mail Box I would be waiting for the Truck.. for the mail man to stop by on my block as I would wait by the mail Box.. just to give you a Letter putting inside on the envelope so that He can take it to YOU.. but this Night.. I know that I must go.. I must go with the Mail man.. be inside his Truck and I want to deliver the Message in this Bottle.. I want to surprise you.. so that YOU will remember that it is I who is loving YOU.. not to scare YOU but to show YOU that all this Time.. YOU would only think of the Truck.. the mail man who was inside the truck.. and he was the One who gave you the envelope with the Letter that I wrote inside to YOU.. but please.. forgive me when I show Up on this very night.. I must go and see How you are doing.. I must be there to give YOU this Bottle.. inside the Bottle is a Letter that I have written for you.. when YOU see me inside the Truck.. don't think that I am a stranger to YOU because It is me.. it was me all along who gave you the Letters.. inside on this envelope.. after a while.. you are only seeing the Truck passing through and it stops at the Mail Box.. just to give you the envelope.. that is all you see back and forth.. but How about me.. how about the person who sits in this ROOM.. who is the One pulls Out the Clean sheet of paper.. who would be holding a pen or the pencil and who thinks of YOU.. YOU do not see me because I am always behind the scene.. you may think that Am I afraid of YOU.. am I scared to show UP.. you may be thinking maybe it is the truck.. or the mail man being friendly to YOU.. and He would smile inside the Truck as he gives you this envelope.. I know when YOU receive the envelope and once you open the envelope inside is the Letter.. but Do you see my Face.. do you even think of my Name there.. do you know who is the One who is telling you all these things.. expressing Heart to Heart.. when I sit in the ROOM.. by the desk.. I am thinking of YOU.. constantly thinking of YOU.. looking at the new Picture.. my Heart is crying inside for Love.. I am crying in my Heart for Love too.. but it seems like after awhile you begin to forget.. you forget because YOU are looking at some one else but How about Me.. do you know who is the One who be really loving YOU.. all this time.. who is the One putting every thing In and Out.. and telling you how I feel.. I do not want YOU to forget about me.. I am putting into so much work here.. you know that it is not easy to tell YOU all these things.. and it breaks my Heart when YOU forget the face.. forget the person who has a Name.. who is the One loves YOU the Most.. who be missing YOU and thinking of you constantly.. what will happen when a Day Comes.. the Truck stops on your Mail Box.. and you are starting to forget the Man who loves YOU the Most.. and you stand there looking.. the mail man looks at you and says.. there is No envelope today.. and the Truck keeps on coming to your mail Box.. and every time YOU stand there.. the mail man tells you the same thing.. there is NO Letter today.. there is NO envelope.. and I know if you start to forget the One who loves YOU the Most.. I also can be the one to delay the Letters.. because I feel like YOU are forgetting the Face.. the name and the man who loves YOU the Most.. as I would look at the Empty Bottle.. and I would roll up the Letter I have written for YOU.. I do not want YOU to forget me.. because YOU know how much I love YOU.. have been loving you just too Long.. but also I know that I must Man UP.. I must tell you that I am still here.. and that I am going Nowhere but waiting patiently till you are truly ready for Me.. I want to get close when YOU are ready so that I can Love you fully.. and able to speak to YOUR ears.. and tell your ears.. looking at your Heart.. that all this time.. I want your Heart.. I want your Heart to know that I love YOU.. and Now.. sitting by the Window.. I put the Letter inside the Bottle.. and looking out the window.. and just waiting for the Time.. the arrival for the Mail Man in his Truck to stop at the Mail Box.. I been taking few shots on this shot glass.. and it has emptied the Bottle.. I wrote this very night telling you that I missed YOU.. and I just don't want you to forget about Me.. because it is I who loves you the Most.. I would get UP from the chair.. holding in my hand is the Bottle inside is the Letter.. and I would walk Out of the ROOM.. and going to the front Door.. I open and I close behind me.. I am looking at the Mail Box.. and I know that the truck be arriving very soon.. so I would walk down to the Mail Box.. waiting for the truck to come.. and as I am waiting for the Truck.. I see the Lights and I turn to look.. I see the Truck Coming and the Truck stops by the Mail box.. the mail man looks at me and smiles.. and I ask HIM.. can YOU please take me to where YOU are.. and I show him the Bottle.. and inside is the Letter I wrote to YOU.. and the mail Man was kind and telling me to come inside the truck and to stand by the steps.. as I would stand there.. and the truck would be driving.. and the Mail man drives to a Mail Box and he stops the Truck.. and as I am standing there.. I see you on the Other side.. YOU are standing by the front Door and I am standing on the steps and I see your Mail Box.. as I am looking towards the front Door.. I see you looking at me.. I do not know what it is but my Heart.. can YOU hear my Heart beating.. It would not stop beating as I am looking at YOU by your front Door.. and I would say to YOU.. I am Not the Mail man.. and I am Not a volunteer either.. but it is me.. if YOU are not sure who I am and why I am here.. all I wanted is to give you this Message In the Bottle.. I want you to remember a Face.. Please remember my Face and that this face is a person who also has a Name.. I may not be well known name to YOU.. but I am a person.. a MAN who is the One loving YOU.. all I ever wanted is to give you Letters.. Only way that YOU know that I love you is by giving you these Letters.. I don't want you to think that I am afraid of YOU.. that is why I have asked this Mail man if I can go into the truck so that I can tell YOU that I am here because I want YOU to remember me.. remember who is the One.. the One Man whose been loving YOU.. the One whose been thinking of YOU.. whose been missing YOU on the Other side.. who is the One giving you these letters.. so that YOU will not think of some one else is doing so.. that is why I had to tell myself and to have courage to tell YOU this very Night.. I wanted to surprise YOU.. so that the Impact of Your Heart you feel inside.. it has meaning of what I am doing today.. that is to tell YOU that it is me who is the One loving YOU.. some times when a person do not show UP.. you think of it is some one else but the truth is to be told that is it ME.. who is the One loving you the Most.. I just wanted to come out this very night to make a clear statement.. that I do not forget the One who I love.. and I wanted to see YOU face to face.. to see you in person so that YOU would remember.. that there is someone like Me who has been loving YOU.. and I would look at your Mail Box and I would open and I would place the Bottle.. inside is the Letter and I put into your mail Box and closed the Door.. and I see you just looking at me.. and the mail man would start his Truck and it would leave your mail Box.. as he was driving the Truck
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MAH MAH.. I am watching the Little Children.. boys are walking into the training Ground.. I just can't believe that they are from the Garden.. the Parents of these children.. some of them are my friends growing Up and I am watching YOU standing by the Fence.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I never thought you be having this Big Heart.. Now look at the Hopes and Dreams YOU are planting.. the Parents who came with their Children.. thinking about their future.. and I am on the Two Knees.. tears just fills UP.. and I can feel my tears streaming down.. and One of the guy who came with his Son stops and Looks at me.. and He smiles.. and Just cannot believe that I am the trainer for the new Recruits.. and He cries Looking at me because.. I know that His SON can also dream for this Nation.. the Crown Princess.. who loves the People.. who are the One with the Big Heart for the People.. who is the One who helped the Poor People in that Garden.. Now.. the People has come because this Nation is growing stronger and stronger because of YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because YOU are here that all these things can happen.. I do remember.. the First time My Heart felt something.. I was in this Position.. I saw a friend laying on the ground.. He was very Poor and Lowly servant just like Me.. we had NO Place to Go.. No place to sleep.. hungry without Homes and just picking food from the Floors.. it was at the Garden.. He got sick eating watching Him hit the floor.. I was crying for that Friend.. he would throw UP in blood and he looks at me.. telling me that Being so poor.. it is NO JOKE.. and he tells me.. I am dying.. I was crying and crying as He lay on the Floor.. My Heart broke into pieces.. and He looks at me and says.. when He dies to plant him by my Mother's grave.. and my Mother was like an Auntie to him.. as I saw him laying sick.. I heard a Loud Voice.. and I turn to look.. the day YOU came to the Garden.. I turn too look.. I fell on my face looking at the ground.. I saw YOU sitting on the Horse.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. and I would cry Out Loud More.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please hear my voice.. and I saw YOU.. the YOUNG Girl you were.. YOU had a Sword.. small sword and Pointed to my direction to Speak.. and I would be crying.. could Not talk much but it was about my dying friend.. He was laying down.. and throw UP blood in front of me.. and asking me to bury him when he died.. But Help me MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are the Only ONE with the Power to save the Life of a BOY who has NO ONE else to turn TOO.. PLEASE.. MAH MAH.. HELP US and I would be crying Loud.. he is my best friend.. My father raised him like a SON to Me like a Brother.. SAVE HIM MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH... Please help my Dying friend.. and tears would be falling down.. and I can see.. Maybe I needs to die with him too.. if YOU can't help him.. I would lift UP my Head looking UP at you.. with tears in my eyes.. my Friend needs YOUR HELP.. the Crown Princess.. which is YOU raise UP your Little Sword and YOU would call for the Royal Physicians who came.. I was very shocked that they came here to the Garden.. I never thought YOU would do this for the Little People.. the Poor People.. for the Lowly lives who NO ONE cares about.. NO ONE cares for the Broken.. the Little People who has NO NAMES.. How do people know my Name.. they just don't and I was touched.. But YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS cared.. my best friend was dying before my eyes.. and I cannot do anything to help.. I am watching him throw UP blood and He is asking me to bury HIM next to my Mother who is already GONE.. and I would close both eyes crying Loud.. my Heart hurts because He is telling me that HE is dying.. this pain.. and I would watch the Royal Physicians walking into the Garden.. and two of them goes over to my Best Friend.. I watch HIM being carried by the two doctors.. and I would walk the wood cutters and stone builders and they have come with Nurses and even the Maids and kitchen Ladies all comes to this Garden.. feeding the Poor.. feeding the Lost.. feeding thousands of children with no homes and I would watch the remodel of the Garden as the Homes are being placed in the Garden.. and as I come to my senses.. and I am both on the Knees Looking at the ground.. the man who knows Me brings His Son.. he was the Best Friend who was on the Floor.. on the ground talking about if He dies to bury HIM close to my Mother.. Now I am seeing his SON and I look at the SON.. and I lift UP my Head and I see you standing by the Fence and I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. can YOU please give me your ears and I see YOU standing with the White Dress and the Big Crown on the top of your Head.. and YOU would point the Sword direct at me.. and I would watch YOU walk closer to ME and stops next to me.. I would lift UP my Head looking at YOU.. DO you remember the Garden.. DO you remember this Man.. and I see you turn your Head looking at him.. and it seems like YOU don't know who he is and I would say.. he is the One who I was talking about.. the Day YOU came to the garden.. and I was crying.. I was asking YOU to save a Life of a Boy.. and YOU were sitting on the Horse and I was begging for Your Help.. pleading for a cause.. to help a dying Boy.. and It was when YOU brought the Royal Physicians.. two of them went over and picked HIM up.. do you remember that Day.. and I see you turn your Head looking at HIM and I see that YOU DO remember.. you would smile LOOKING at him.. Yes.. if the Royal Physicians did NOT show UP that Day.. I know that He would Not been alive this very day.. HE has remembered YOU ever since and TOLD ME.. One day HE is going to come to join the Nation where YOU stand.. NOW he is here with his SON.. and NOW we are reunited because of what YOU have done that day.. I was pleading.. begging and asking you to help me.. to Help Him and Now.. LOOK what has happened because of WHAT YOU have done that Day.. as I would hold his son around my Arms.. I want to teach this YOUNG boy how to fight for this Nation.. to raise UP the next YOUNG generations of these Boys to HELP forth.. to Push this Nation which YOU will rule.. for you to conqueror so that this NATION Of people would be so Strong for YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it is because of Your Big Heart for the people you love.. the People are the reason to help this Nation to become stronger so that YOU can RULE as the True CONQUEROR.. and I would see YOU pointing your Sword at me and telling me to get UP.. so I would listen and I would get UP on two feet.. as I get UP.. I am hearing sounds of foot steps.. and I turn towards the Fence.. and a Messenger comes on the Horse.. and He has a scroll in his hand and He gets Out of the Horse and Runs towards YOU.. stops.. two knees on the floor.. head looks down arm forward with the Scroll in the Hand.. I see YOU turn looking at the Messenger.. and YOU take the Scroll.. and YOU would unfold and YOU would read the Scroll.. and I see something is wrong.. what is Wrong HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WHAT IS wrong and I see you hand me the Scroll and I would take a LOOK at the Scroll and I would read it.. The ENEMIES are COMING.. and Another War wants to break its way.. and I am looking at YOU.. and I would fall on two Knees.. and My Head looks down.. arm goes forward and I know that YOU want to do something and My hand grabs your Wrist.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I see you holding the King's Sword in your hand.. but I would pull on the Other Wrist.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. it is going to be more fierce then last TIME and NO.. I wish that YOU can hear the Heart of Mine.. I know that YOU are truly a fierce warrior and Would do anything to Fight and to protect for this Nation.. but YOU have to remember that this Time.. the Children has come into the training camp.. into the training Ground.. I just can't see YOU go out there.. last time My Heart wanted to fall down.. I saw YOU on the Horse and the enemies just got too Close to YOU.. I can't see something like this ever happening because YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. and it was YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. who opened the Fences for the Children.. these little children has come Long ways from the Garden and they have come under your Care.. and Only YOU can protect these children because they have all come to YOU.. for the War.. I know that we have mighty Men and soldiers.. the warriors who will go Out there to fight for this Nation.. to protect and to defend because this is the reason WHY I was born to do this.. to Protect YOU.. to serve and to defend YOU.. for the Nation.. I am asking YOU to be there for the Children who has come a long ways.. they have come to YOU.. they have thought about you when they came here and they just arrived.. and I would Be holding unto your Wrist.. so Please only for this time.. can YOU please listen to my Plea.. to my Heart because I just can't fight out there when YOU are fighting with me.. I just can't focus.. and knowing How strong and fierce YOU are.. I see you turn your Head and looking down at me.. but I can tell that YOU will not listen.. and I would say.. CROWN PRINCESS.. leave the Battle for Us.. for the Men that YOU have raised UP.. YOU have plenty of men who can fight.. How about Me.. How about my Heart.. I just can't see you out there.. I have tried when YOU were out there last time.. but I just could Not.. I wanted the sword to drive Into my Heart when I saw YOU.. I wanted YOUR SWORD to pierce into
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MAH MAH.. side.. they need Your hands to rest.. and I see YOU looking at them.. and I would turn to LOOK over.. I am hearing More foot steps.. and I see Six Horses.. and they are the Royal Princes.. the six Older Brothers has come.. on the Horses and I would see behind the seventh.. and ALL seven men would get out of the Horses.. and as I would watch the six Princes.. they would fall on two knees.. and they have brought their swords and I just can't believe.. the seventh person is the Older man.. the Teacher.. the master who taught me with his armor who came to serve in the military Arts.. I just can't believe.. and More Military Generals are behind the Horses of the Princes.. and ALL on the two knees Heads looking down.. arms out forward saluting to Your Authority as the One true Ruler.. and I am holding Your Wrist.. this is why I am asking YOU to please stay Behind.. YOU have men.. powerful strong Men who is going to Fight for this Nation.. the Little Children needs YOU too with their families.. because of what YOU have done in the past at the Garden.. YOU are able to see them grow UP becoming parents NOW and with children.. they have all come to support this Nation.. so Please help for the Next UP coming.. we.. CROWN PRINCESS needs you to be here with the families and the Little Children.. YOU are the Only ONE that needs to stay to preserve the next and to RULE for them too.. and I would watch ALL the voices shouting Out.. CROWN PRINCESS.. Please stay and protect the Families and the Little Children and I would watch YOU.. your sword is pointing to the War Ground and I just can't believe it that YOU want to fight in the war.. WHY HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. WHY.. and my Heart breaks because YOU would not listen to the voices of Your Men.. YOUR PEOPLE.. we shout Out loud More.. Please stay with children.. I would watch One boy picking UP a stick and he shouts Fight.. I am looking Across.. Standing by the Gates.. with the three Friends.. as the Back of the Palace Guards.. I am looking at YOU.. and so many people has gathered.. ALL of the TOP Generals.. the Commanders.. the Head servant.. maids.. even the Highest Kitchen Lady.. and ALL of the Special Body Guards.. the servants and I can hear a Great Celebration.. on the Outer Court.. I am watching YOU.. looking through the gate Bars.. I am wondering.. what is going to Happen after this.. WILL I able to still love YOU.. Look at the place I am standing.. and my three friends who are standing next to me sees Me.. I am sad.. My Heart is broken because NOW.. it is so Hard to Love YOU.. of Course I should be the One who should be the Most happiest to support YOU.. I know that it was ME who told YOU to leave.. to GO.. to go back to the Palace because It is the King.. PEH HA is calling.. He wanted to show YOU and give YOU something.. I was so Happy to hear this News.. that something Great was going to Happen.. and I am now Sad.. NOT sad in a Bad way.. I am just so sad because of this Distance.. I want to come Close.. I want to be near YOU.. able to hold Your Hands.. able to be close and to tell YOU at least I miss YOU.. or say I love YOU.. YOU don't have to accept the Words but.. If I were able to get closer to YOU.. at least YOU are able to feel the energy.. able to see me Smile.. but.. NOW.. I feel like only looking at the MOON can be more closer than for me to LOOK at YOU.. I am looking through the Bar Gate.. as I am watching the People.. the Most important People.. even the Prime Minister has come.. also the Queen.. the People all lowers and falls to the Floor.. QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. people all shouts on the floor.. lowering as she walks.. YOUR Mother has come and Me with the three friends all hit the Floor.. even though she can't see us.. knowing that the QUEEN has COME.. there is a Throne Seat.. in the Middle.. but a stage which YOU are on.. and Now the Messenger Shouts Out.. PEH HA!! the King is Coming.. the KING has come.. PEH HA! and all the people shouts Loud.. PEH HA! and me with the three friends shouts together PEH HA! and the King says for the attendants.. all rise UP and every one stands UP on the two feet.. so me and the three Friends all get UP.. the King is on the Outer Court.. and there is stairs.. He looks at YOU.. HE is with tears in his Eyes looking at YOU.. and there is a Big Crown.. and as the King steps UP He tells YOU to sit on the Throne.. and I look.. It can't be.. and He places a Crown ON the TOP of Your Head.. and He looks at YOU.. kisses Your Hand and says.. Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. SOON to Lead.. SOON to take over the Place.. and everyone Falls ON to the Floor.. lowers all.. and Says CROWN PRINCESS.. I am On the Floor.. with the three Friends.. HWANGTAEJABI.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. and every one shouts.. YOU sit there very shock.. but We all knew that IN time YOU will become the TOP RULER for the Nation.. People cheers and shouts Out.. WANGSEJABI.. CROWN PRINCESS.. we honor YOU.. the Commanders comes and they take a Bow to YOU.. kneeling and lower the Heads.. to the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. and Each Man comes to kiss your hand.. few Commanders.. the TOP 1st Chief Generals line UP.. to the 2nd In command of Chief Generals.. to the 3rd in command of Chief Generals.. and the Lower top generals and I am watching.. this is the Most biggest celebration.. very close of becoming the Ruler.. and I am falling looking on the floor.. What am I suppose to DO.. One side of my Heart.. I am truly joyful.. and I am so Happy for YOU.. I knew in time YOU would become the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would feel so happy that Now you are going to be taking over.. even though there is NO crown Prince.. but YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA made that calling.. Knowing that YOU are ready.. I am looking at the King and the Queen.. both lower themselves before YOU.. I am in shock.. It is PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and they made this Happen.. Now.. On the Other side.. I am watching all of these Most important people who works for the King.. they are all going over kissing Your hand.. I see a long Line and I would be on this Position till the Sun Goes Down.. and I see YOU still sitting on that Throne with the Crown TOP of your Head.. as I am hearing foot steps.. and it stops by the gate door bar.. I know someone is coming.. Is it my turn to kiss Your Hand.. If I kiss your hand.. I know that I can't love YOU any more.. what about me.. What about my Heart.. WILL you still let me Love YOU even after I kiss YOUR HAND.. I want to know.. will you let me still come close.. because I told YOU that I did not want to Come.. I knew that THIS would happen.. I told you before.. when We were back at the garden.. up on the Hill side by the tree.. I told YOU to let me stay Alone.. that I did Not want to go with YOU.. that I told my friends to take YOU instead.. because I knew that this is going to happen to Me.. WHY are you making my Heart to Bleed.. WHY don't you just give me a sharp blade knife and cut UP my stomach instead.. it be better if I just die like this.. I told YOU that YOU SHOULD go alone.. and I know that YOU wanted me to see YOU and to join in the celebration.. Yes.. it is the Best day I see.. it is the greatest day I am feeling at One side.. that Now.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. but the next thing I want to know.. what am I suppose to do with my Heart.. I have been loving you for so Long.. I mean it has been such a very long time.. and I began to think.. if it is all about MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI.. the Crown Princess.. YOU becoming the Next Ruler.. I told you that I did not want to come because the Distance is going to push me far away from YOU.. that is why leaving me behind would been a great idea because my eyes seeing YOU Close is good but bad when I can't ever come close to YOU.. DO YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. DO you know that I love you so much that I did decide to join.. decided to see this Celebration.. NOW My heart is breaking inside because I know there will be Distance between US.. but able to see YOU close.. but loving YOU far hurts me far more than FOR me being at the Garden.. on the TOP of the HILL side by the tree been better because at least I don't have to see YOU.. it is the same feeling because of the distance.. it kills me more that I can't love YOU.. it kills me even more that I want to love YOU.. but How.. HOW can I love YOU when YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. Please tell me How.. I hear the Bar Gates Opening.. and the Messenger is standing there.. telling me to get UP.. and the four of Us all get up.. the Crown Princess is calling is what the Messenger is telling.. the three of the friends started to walk forward.. But I stop.. I am not going to walk over.. I can't kiss YOUR HAND if I can't love YOU.. I rather NOT go and just turn the Other way.. the Messenger stops and turns to look at me.. the Crown Princess is waiting.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH is waiting for YOU.. but I would not make any move.. I can't go.. I don't want to walk over and kiss Your hand.. and If my Heart cannot love you any more.. Just please END my life here.. I rather DIE.. and the Special Body Guards walks over.. One pulls out the Sword to my Neck.. and He wants to strike me on the Neck with the Blade of the sword.. and I hear the voice.. the sword be place down.. I turn to look over.. as I look over.. the Important people all lowers and goes to the Floor as YOU stand UP from the Throne and YOU are looking at me.. I see the Big Crown placed.. and I am waiting for YOU to End my Life.. I know that I can't kiss Your Hand
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MAH MAH.. But IF it ends this Way.. and YOU are forcing me to Kiss Your Hand so that I can't love you any more.. I am telling YOU now I will not.. I will Not kiss YOUR HAND.. so Please.. Let me GO back to the place where I belong.. Maybe I don't belong here any more because NOW.. I have reached a Point.. I can die.. If I can't love YOU.. Please let me go to see my Family.. I can meet them on the Other side.. since I know now I can't love YOU.. and My tears begins to roll down.. YOU know that I am badly hurt right Now.. YOU know that It hurts if I can't love YOU.. it hurts even missing YOU but to stand here for the rest of My life.. just to look at YOU but can't never love YOU.. I can't.. WHY did you even bring me to this Place if YOU knew it was going to end UP like this.. If you would of told me if YOU Knew this was to happen.. I would of chosen to Be at the Garden.. be close to the Buried family members.. I am not trying to start anything.. Not a war.. Not trying to bring any kind of Trouble.. but just telling YOU.. letting YOU know that I should of never come.. YES.. I do love that YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. I am truly happy for YOU.. that YOU are going to be ruling soon.. I already told YOU it was going to happen., of course never thought this SOON though.. BUT it has happened.. If I walk over.. and YOU give me YOUR HAND.. and I kiss that Hand.. that means I can't ever love YOU.. I will not kiss YOUR hand if I just can't.. I rather turn My Head and look up to the Sky and LOOK at the MOON and just talk to that Moon thinking about YOU.. I have been asking the MOON like he be a friend and sharing.. How much I love YOU and how much I been praying to meet YOU and always wishing that I can meet YOU SOON.. that part it has come true.. but I started to fall for YOU.. maybe because It Hurts so Much I started to love YOU.. maybe it was because missing YOU TOO MUCH I started to Love YOU.. but just thinking about YOU.. it made My Heart to Fall in Love with YOU.. because YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. knowing that this was going to happen.. because of THIS.. because YOU are HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. knowing YOU are the Best.. the greatest is why I loved YOU.. ever since I was a young Boy.. I knew that YOU were going to be someone very special.. and NOW I see.. my eyes are seeing.. that because YOU are.. that is why I rather just love YOU and Not kiss YOUR HAND..I am looking at the 2nd Line Top General.. and I am holding the sword.. and I would run and I jump into the Air with the Sword in my hand and swing Forward.. the Blades hit each other.. as he would swing the Sword back at me.. I land on the ground.. and I turn to Look back.. and I would jump back Kick and I would swing the Sword in my hand.. the Blades Hit each Other.. he does a front Kick and Hits my chest.. and I fall on the ground.. as I see my Sword next to me.. the Seven Friends of mine are in the back.. they would all Pull out the swords to Fight.. but I would grab the sword and raising UP the right Arm.. the swords goes back into the sheath and as I turn to LOOK at YOU behind.. YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. who are standing along side with the Seven friends of Mine.. I get UP slowly.. and the 2nd top Line general is standing with his Men.. the Generals and they are all smiling as I get UP slowly.. I have Lost before to this Man.. this Time.. I just can't Lose this Battle.. and I would grab the Sword.. and I would run UP and the 2nd rank General grabs his Sword and WE swing the Swords at each other.. Blades Hit and Hit.. I can hear the sound of the CLANG of the blade of the swords Hitting.. and I would go back as the 2nd rank General moves forward swinging the sword at me.. I would Counter block as the Blades Hit and I would duck and sweep the Leg and he falls to the ground.. the Seven Friends of Mine raises UP the Swords shouting.. and I jump into the Air with the Sword.. ready to Stab but I stop.. we are in the same Team.. How can we fight against each other.. the Seven Generals would all pull out their swords and they circle AROUND ME.. I see YOU walking forward.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. YOU pull out the Sword and YOU Point.. the Generals all put their Swords Down.. and I would Put the sword Down as well.. the 2nd Top rank General gets UP on the Floor.. and Puts the sword Down.. and He kneels.. and two Knees goes.. and I just can't believe this.. In front of the CROWN PRINCESS.. In front of the HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. we are fighting for Nothing.. for What and I would kneel.. two knees on the floor.. head looks down.. arm raise up forward.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. and I see you stop.. with the Big Crown on top of the Head.. wearing the white Dress and YOU would look at the 2nd Top rank General.. and His head Looks on the ground.. with the Seven Generals.. they all fall down before YOU.. two knees and raises UP the voices.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. We are so Sorry for this.. and the Seven friends of Mine.. they all fall before YOU.. two knees.. Heads all look on the ground.. arms raises UP forward.. saluting as the TOP Commander.. and I see you Pointing the sword at me.. and I would say.. We have a History.. of having a Bad Blood against.. I remember when I first came to the training Camp.. and the Guard would say to HIM when He was just a general.. that I learned from the Old Man.. the master.. which NO ONE believed Me.. of course NO ONE will believe me.. and HE wanted me to prove that I was really His student learning from a teacher.. so.. I do remember we fought on the training Ground.. I lost using the wooden stick sword.. and he was very good.. and when I was struck Down by the WOOD STICK.. HE saw me on the ground and I couldn't get back UP.. started to Laugh at me and spit at me.. telling me that I am a Liar.. I been holding this grudge for a Long time.. that I know that One day we will meet and today is the day.. of course I never thought I would put him to the floor.. but I knew.. if I can't Now.. I will never if I let him go.. but.. I saw Your Face.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I saw YOU standing by and In my Heart.. we are under the same Nation.. YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. and He is also a part of Your Solider.. How can I fight someone who is with YOU.. that is when I saw YOU.. I saw the Big Crown on the top of your Head and started to think.. these are YOUR MEN.. they all belong to YOU.. as the ruler for this Nation.. for this Country.. How can I dare to put a sword to HIS FACE when HE is also a HIGH ranking Officer.. and I realize How fool I have become because I know myself.. HOW Little I am and How Little I must Be.. because I am very small.. that is the Only way I got here today because I started so Small.. WHO am I.. and what am I doing.. and I see YOU looking at me.. I see you putting down the sword.. and I have tears in my eyes.. I do not want to hurt any one.. but if there is a war who is against YOU CROWN PRINCESS.. even though I want Peace and Harmony and Unity and Joy with LOVE.. if someone wants to mess with YOU and YOUR NATION.. your people.. I will fight if I have too.. I will never back DOWN on a fight when it comes to YOU WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. and your hands touch my hands.. and I just can't believe it.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. WHY would you hold my hands.. why would you touch my hands for.. and I am looking towards the Fence.. I just can't believe my eyes.. and I am looking at children.. Little Boys are walking.. holding hands with their Mothers and Fathers and they stop by the Fences.. and More People are coming as they are stopping by the Fences.. and I am looking.. and I recognize one of them.. there is a man.. and he is around my age.. and I do remember he was a friend growing UP in the garden.. are those people common people from the Garden.. and the Sons.. the Boys are holding little Sticks in their Hands and I see YOU.. the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. as YOU turn around to LOOK back at the Fences.. and people.. thousands of People who lived in the Garden comes and they all Lower.. face to the ground and they shout.. Please teach Our Sons to fight.. Please teach our daughters to COOK for the Palace.. and my Heart.. I would start to cry more and More.. tears are shedding down hard.. the Night YOU came.. you gave the People their freedom.. many people who were dirt poor had NO HOMES.. medical treatments.. and HOW you called the people from the ROYAL PALACE to go to the Garden.. and How you made the Place a New.. I believe some of the People thought about YOU MAH MAH.. and Now.. LOOK.. look at these People with children.. and Now.. they want to join and repay the debt they had because of you Crown Princess.. the Heart to Love even the MOST UNLOVED people in this world.. THEY just want to pay it back.. Just Like Me.. DO you see My Heart Now.. CROWN PRINCESS.. can you see the Heart that I have for this Nation.. for YOU and Your People.. and the Little Boys are raising UP the Sticks in the air wanting to be a part of the large gathering to Fight for the Nation.. the LITTLE BOYS can grow UP with a Future that Only YOU can give.. because NOW they have come.. LOOK at all those little Children.. they are standing by the Fences.. wanting to JOIN in the Military arts.. as YOU would turn to LOOK at them.. I would say.. this is why I started to Love YOU.. it was the Day when YOU came to the Garden.. People in the Garden had NO HOPES and NO DREAMS.. just POOR.. NO future.. where can the Most Lowest People go.. they do NOWHERE.. I do remember the Day
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MAH MAH.. Nothing to Lose.. I have Nothing.. BUT YOU gave me a chance.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it was just that ONE chance I truly needed from YOU.. I think back at the Garden.. walking Out of the gates.. I see you ON the Horse.. sitting on the Horse.. and these ROYAL People comes to the Garden.. many sick and dying.. people were so hungry and had nothing to Eat.. no Homes to live.. but YOU came.. rebuilding that Garden and giving People to dream.. I remember after I saw YOU.. and I was touched.. I wanted to give YOU the Flower.. in my hand was One flower that I had.. there was Nothing that I could of give YOU but just that One.. what can a Poor Boy living as homeless can give.. from my Mother's grave.. a Bed of Flower.. a SUN FLOWER was blooming.. I grabbed that and I wanted to say.. YOU are like this FLOWER to me.. as Bright as the SUN.. when you think of a FLOWER.. it just melts YOUR HEART.. it makes you smile as IT melts as you keep on looking at it.. as I saw that Flower.. I remember I ran.. and I saw YOU on the Horse.. and I gave it to YOU.. I did Not think that the CROWN PRINCESS would take a Flower from Me.. but I watched.. many people who were hungry and dying.. the sick.. and homeless people.. the Crown PRINCESS has the BIGGEST Heart.. YOU may not know it then but NOW.. LOOK at the Fences.. the People who came from the Garden are here and they want to JOIN with YOU.. LOOK WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS LOOK at those people by the Fences.. they just want to be a part of this Growing Nation of Yours to HELP YOU to fulfill your Dreams as the RULER for the Next.. the day I saw YOU On the Horse.. and YOU brought the Royal people from the palace to help the Poor people in the Garden.. and I gave YOU that SUN FLOWER was the day when I said to My Heart to YOU.. I love YOU.. that is when I made UP my Mind that I am going to go to that palace to be close to YOU.. to Love YOU from afar when YOU don't see it.. the Day when I saw YOU take the SUN FLOWER from my Hands.. I would unfold the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. I would tell the Drawing picture of YOU that I love YOU.. you may Not know How much I love YOU but I wanted to show YOU how much.. I think YOU will know this by Now because.. even the People from the Garden has come long ways just to tell YOU.. they have children to give to YOU.. to raise UP the Next Generations of for the Palace.. for the future generations to help you to Conqueror this Nation.. as I am watching YOU.. I see YOU looking at the people by the Fence.. I would raise UP the Sword.. and I would shout Out.. MANSAE!! to Crown Princess.. HOORAY TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Seven Friends of Mine picks up their Swords and raise it UP HIGH and Shouts Out.. MANSAE to CROWN PRINCESS.. now the 2nd top rank General Raises UP his Sword and shouts.. MANSAE to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and the 7 generals raises UP their swords in the air and says.. HOORAY TO CROWN PRINCESS.. and I see you.. the Crown Princess turning to Look at the military soldiers.. and I would raise UP the Sword in my hand.. tears are just streaming down my face.. MANSAE to Crown PRINCESS.. and everyone.. even the People who came from the Garden all raises UP theirs arms crying in tears says.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to Crown Princess.. TO WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. and I see you holding UP the Sword in the Air.. and Everyone shouts Out Loud.. MANSAE to Crown Princess.. HOORAY to HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and My Heart.. It just can't stop beating.. it keeps on beating and beating as I would be Looking at YOU.. as YOU are standing by the Fences.. hands are touching YOU on the sides.. I see you Open the Fences.. and the people from the Garden.. they start to walk in.. Little Children.. boys and girls want to join in to be with YOU as their Crown Princess.. I am looking at YOU.. as YOU are coming closer.. I see you walking and YOU stop.. as I tell YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. Please do not come closer to Me.. I don't want to kiss YOUR hand.. I just can't.. because YOU know my Heart.. Please.. tell me rather to Leave the Palace.. stripe away my title.. and My Position.. I rather Live as a Slave Instead.. I don't deserve to Kiss Your Hand because I know My Heart.. I know How much I love YOU.. that is why I won't.. Please stop there and DO not come closer.. I rather walk away from the Outer Court.. and I would Hear.. the Queen is coming.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I see you turn the Other way.. the Queen in tears.. coming to Kiss Your Hand.. and I see her lips kiss.. putting YOU in charge of everything.. I would walk the ten Council of Noble Men walking and they all stop behind the Prime Minister of the Nation.. and I see the King.. who is on the Floor.. He is crying.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANG WOO.. QUEEN.. come to me.. and I see the Queen turn around and she walks to her Husband as She also falls on the Floor.. with tears.. and I am standing there.. each Council of Noble MAN.. walking forward.. each Man comes to Kiss Your Hand.. and I am standing there.. My Heart is truly Touched.. truly Moved.. and I am standing thinking.. WHY can't I kiss Your Hand.. is it because it is My Pride.. WHO am I to tell YOU this.. WHO am I as the Lowly servant.. I am only the Palace Guard.. How can I reject Your Hand.. but It is because I love YOU.. I know that I must kiss but I know if I do.. I become Your Subject.. as I would watch each person kissing Your Hand and they Bow and lower to the Knees.. and LOOKING at the Big Crown on top of Your Head.. now the three of my friends goes over.. and Each of them decides to Kiss Your hand.. I am now standing alone.. if I don't kiss YOUR hand.. I know that I must leave this Palace.. this Outer Courts.. so I would turn to face the Gates.. I know that I must leave.. I just can't stand here any longer.. I just can't kiss Your hand and just become NO ONE to YOU.. and as I behind to walk down by myself.. the Special Body Guard runs.. and He stops me.. putting the Sword in front.. and I turn around and I still see YOU.. YOU just standing there.. with the White Dress.. SO beautiful.. WHY are you stopping Me.. I told you already that YOU are going to be a Great Ruler for the Nation.. Everyone gets on their Knees before YOU.. the Prime Minister.. the Commanders.. Chief Generals.. Generals.. the foot soldiers.. the Ten Council of Noble men.. all the Maid and servant.. EUNCH.. the Highest Kitchen Lady.. the Doctors of the Palace.. all falls before YOU.. shouting Out.. Crown Princess.. MANSAE.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY and Tears are all falling.. saying the Next RULER coming UP and I would look at YOU.. my tears are flowing DOWN.. I am so Sad because HOW can I love YOU now.. LOOK at me.. I can't even do anything.. How can I love YOU now.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would fall on both knees and start too weep in Pain.. I am aching because LOOK at me.. WHO AM I to love a CROWN PRINCESS like YOU.. and I am looking at the Ground.. wailing and Weeping loud.. I know that I am wrong.. I know that I should of never started but NOW to turn back.. it is just too late to turn.. I have come long ways of loving YOU.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. WHY.. WHY did I even come.. if I could of stayed behind.. then It would not hurt me this Much because the Loving YOU always hurt but Now.. it hurts more.. I don't want to lose YOU.. because I know that I love YOU.. as I am would stand UP.. and I look toward the Gate.. and I started to walk.. passing the Gates.. I know that I can't come back.. I will remain as a Slave.. and I started to walk.. but.. this Special Body Guard keeps on following Me.. and Puts his sword to STOP me to go.. and I would turn.. I see YOU walking.. and coming closer as I am stopped by the Gates.. I am wondering.. YOU have everything here.. WHY are you doing this to me.. the more you do this.. the More I will be hurting in inside.. YOU know that I am little.. with such no Power.. I have no strength but YOU have all the strong People around YOU.. who also decided to choose YOU to be the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have all the troops.. even the people all.. I would see the People.. common people.. they all fallen on the Floor.. and People.. the common people.. when they see YOU.. they would shout OUT with the loud VOICE.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and People are on the Floor.. on the knees looking at the ground.. and I am standing here.. SO touched.. winning the Hearts of many people.. in the Palace and Out with the Common people.. YOU have won as the Next and I know that YOU WILL DO great.. that is why Now.. YOU have no need for me to be here.. because YOU have taken the seat to RULE.. and I told YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I will not kiss Your hand.. if YOU are asking me to come.. and be your subject.. and wants me to kiss YOUR HAND.. that is why I rather leave.. I would live in the deep of the forest and into the mountains.. I will not be known to YOU anymore.. and I see YOU coming very closer.. and your hand touch my shoulder Blade.. and I hear the word Stay.. and I turn around to face YOU.. HOW can I stay with YOU
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MAH MAH.. Have my own Voice.. my own words to say it and tell it.. as Long as I can love YOU far.. it be hard because I be missing YOU from far.. but at least I can let my Voice be heard to that MOON.. so that It knows my Heart how much I love YOU.. I don't want to be standing here.. very near to YOU unable to speak about or to express.. I just can't live like this.. that is why I rather choose Far.. away and to Say it then.. that is why I am making the decision right Now.. to walk away for love.. I rather be far and to say.. to express it and even it means to speak to that MOON.. I am going to let my VOICE be heard by something or someone.. if it is Not YOU.. I would hear YOU and YOU saying something to Stay.. and the Special Body Guard tells me.. it means I don't have to Kiss Your hand.. and I am shocked.. How can I stay if I don't kiss Your hand.. everyone else has kissed your hand.. But why would you not let Me because I know there are so many eyes looking at Me.. they are going to go against Me if I don't kiss Your hand.. but YOU are telling me to stay and Not to kiss that Hand.. even the King.. PEH HA.. also the Prime Minister.. TAE SA JAH.. and the Queen.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I just saw with my eyes.. they came to give you that respect and Honor to rule.. and has shown me by kissing YOUR HAND.. even the Biggest people.. the Most important People has chosen to Kiss and has become your Subjects.. So I would fall on both knees before YOU and My Head looks on the floor.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I can't go inside because I am breaking the rules of this tradition.. How can YOU tell me to go and the rule is that only by kissing your Hand.. I am admitting it with highly regard and with honor and respect that YOU can rule over Me as Your Subject.. and ALL of the powerful people in that house.. they have come to YOU for you to RULE over them.. but YOU are letting me to slide.. I can't just slide.. I needs to be punish by the Law and needs to be punished severely.. I can't go inside if I do not take this Part of and I see the Three of my Friends coming and they have stopped behind YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the King.. PEH HA.. the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. they are asking for YOU.. a Banquet is going to be thrown inside.. they have send us to ask for YOU to come.. and I am Looking on the ground.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Please go inside.. Your Parents are waiting for YOU and asking for Your presence.. I know that I cannot go inside like this.. and I see YOU.. your hand touches.. telling me to stay.. But.. I know that I must go.. and I would see you turn Your Head.. looking at my three friends and telling them to Go with me.. and I hear YOU say.. come back after.. it is a command YOU gave me.. and I am touched.. WHY would you do this.. WHY do you keep on doing this to Me.. I know that I don't deserve to be treated like THIS.. Punish me severely.. for Making YOU feel because I know that I don't deserve You.. YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I am as low as a servant.. How can YOU treat me if I am from the Most lowest Clan.. the Lowest of all.. I am a son of a servant.. I am still a servant even though I am now a palace Guard.. still at the lowest.. I just can't believe it.. either I should be banned or exile.. I should of been striped and placed in prison.. But WHY are you being so Kind to Me.. WHY are you so Kind when I should be demoted and also lived in the Mountains.. in the caves as servant.. and I see YOU walking and I only see your White Dress as YOU are going inside.. celebrating and having a big feast of Banquet.. I am still on the Floor.. How is it possible for me to still be breathing.. and I would hear the three friends.. and They would help me to get UP on the floor.. and I know that I can go alone.. I want my friends to stay and I will go alone.. never to come back.. but.. they would keep on walking with me.. and together we keep on walking.. I am standing in the training camp.. and I see you coming over from the Fence.. the Big Crown on the Top of your Head.. and the White Dress.. as I see you walk alone.. YOU take my breathe away.. and I can feel my Heart beating so fast.. and as YOU come to meet me in the Center of the training camp.. the New Recruits.. over 200 men are standing by.. as YOU stop.. in my hands is the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and I am standing looking at YOU as I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I do not need this any more.. but Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have to always remember that when you were Never around.. this was the Only THING that Held my Heart because whenever I missed YOU.. this was the Only thing that helped me through the way.. When I was left alone for a Long time.. this was the Only thing.. it may Not be anything special to YOU.. It may not be any of the importance to YOU.. YOU may just look at it as a paper.. that someone drew long ago.. and it may only seems like the past piece of Art.. but to Me.. it has many memories of loving YOU.. many Memories of Looking UP at the Moon.. standing Alone in the Nights.. there was SUN.. but also there was the MOON.. there was a time when Winter came by and it be very cold outside.. when times I saw the falling of the rain.. when I lost my Father.. and I felt my Heart broke all the way.. when I could Not see YOU and even the BOY who drew this Picture.. How he had to sneak into the Palace gates and How from the Far he drew YOU.. who got caught and arrested.. He was beaten and Put to death.. telling me that this is for me and knowing that HE wishes that My Dreams came true and that ALL this did Not mean Nothing to Me as he died by the Sword.. Even the Older MAN.. who was the teacher in my Life saw this Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU who knew WHO you are.. but told me to GO.. and to Protect YOU and to defend the Nation which it belongs to YOU and this Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU was the main reason WHY I could go On.. when I was at the Garden.. and I saw YOU there for the first TIME.. I wanted that Boy to draw.. of course I knew it be just too late to call HIM.. when I saw YOU by the gates of the Garden and I walked Out and saw YOU.. I wanted to ask YOU.. Can you Please draw another or Give me another Picture from the Art Sketch.. but.. when YOU left.. Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABIN MAH MAH.. the Day you left the Garden is when I knew the Only thing I had was this.. and my arms would lift as my hands are Holding the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. it was only this I had because I knew.. I was Not sure if I could ever see YOU again.. when I would see YOU again was my thoughts.. going UP the Hill and standing by the tree below was the Garden and Across I would see the palace.. and Knowing that is the Place where YOU at.. I wanted to Go.. I wanted to be close to YOU.. but what if I am NOT ALLOWED to get in and be put into the Prison instead.. But.. I made UP my mind.. I can die tomorrow and I will say I love YOU.. I can die the few days Later.. as Long there is still a Breathe IN me.. I know I can still Believe in Loving YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. and I do remember leaving the Garden after I made UP my Mind.. in the Snow walking and knowing How cold it was.. and knowing I could die A lot sooner.. I felt the Last Push of my body as I kept on walking through the SNOW.. I was thinking of YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I am not sure How much More I have in Me.. But I will still try to go to YOU and I kept on walking in the Snow and I felt my body.. it could NOT go no more and I fell down in the Snow.. I kept on thinking of YOU until the last breathe saying I am so sorry I might Not make It.. As I was on the Guard.. watching the Post at Night.. and How I became the Palace guard guarding the back gates.. I do remember pulling the Art sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. and LOOKING.. I been needing to LOOK.. thinking of YOU.. saying to this Art sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. YOU may not hear my voice be telling YOU but I say it as I look at YOU.. that I love YOU.. do you know How much I love YOU and I would hold the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture close to my Heart.. to my Chest.. I wish that I be holding YOU instead but.. it be this paper instead.. someone telling me that Behind me is the Chamber of Your ROOM.. and I remember I turn back to LOOK.. I saw YOU.. looking Out from the patio of the Chamber of Your ROOM.. the MOON was Out.. I would LOOK UP at.. I would say MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. can YOU see me.. I am here and it has been such a Long time coming.. and Now.. I know that I do Not need this Piece of Paper.. the Art Sketch paper any more.. I want to see YOU take this from Me.. Now I am here close to YOU.. I told the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. Once I meet YOU.. I can Now send it away and give it to YOU because it belongs to YOU.. it has come to the right Person WHO I love the Most.. so Please take this from Me because I am giving YOU my Heart.. My Heart is in it because it is YOU who I never forgotten.. and I see YOU LOOKING at me.. as I am on two Knees.. My Head is Looking on the floor.. my arms raise with the Paper.. the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. Please take this From me because I don't need it any more.. why do I need it when I see YOU here.. there is NO POINT for me to have because it is YOU.. I see your hands take the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and my tears.. it starts to flow Out of both eyes of me
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saudades .. atualiza essa conta mulher
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Mai saputo che la bimba fosse stata qui in Italia, torna per favore !!
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この時のビジュが本当に大好きすぎて
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I miss Taeyeon. 😔
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Oink Oink.. I have the tape Recorder in my hand and I would stop the record and Push the Play button.. Listening to the Song in the back ground.. I am listening to my voice.. it was the day I got very drunk and I just can't help myself and just pouring Out my Heart.. I was sitting down on the Desk and I would be looking at the Letter I wrote to YOU.. letting you know How much I am dealing with this Missing YOU.. there are times when I feel so Lost and it drives me Mad.. it drives me crazy when I am dealing with YOU when YOU cannot be found.. as I am sitting down by the Desk.. listening to the Tape recorder.. I can hear myself crying as I am sharing my Heart to YOU.. telling YOU how much it hurts to be missing YOU and when will be the time I can be with YOU.. I know it sounds so non sense but there are days I just needs to be with YOU.. that I want to be with YOU close.. and I am wondering How can I get YOU close to Me.. so that I can tell YOU how much I missed YOU and been loving YOU.. why can't I tell you these words of Mine to YOUR ears.. and No matter How much time Flies.. the Love I have for you seems to grow stronger and stronger because all I ever want is for YOU TO be close to my Heart and for you to always remember how much I love YOU.. as I would press the Stop button on the tape recorder.. I want to mail this tape Out to YOU.. I wish there was a way for me to give you this Tape which I just heard my voice telling you that I love YOU.. will you believe my words when I tell you this.. if you receive this Tape that has been recorded by my voice with the Piano sound in the back Ground.. would you believe me that it is my Heart that I put into for YOU.. as I would sit and LOOK at the tape.. I know that I can't mail this to YOU.. I know that YOU won't listen to the tape because there is A lot of crying on the Other side.. I was so drunk.. I do not remember much because it seemed like I blacked Out after.. but I do still want to give you something from My Heart.. it is to give YOU a song.. I want to write YOU a Song.. a Music.. but I am Not sure will you listen to the Music.. to the song that be send to YOUR Way.. as I am looking at the Little Piano.. I put the Little Piano next to the desk.. and I have the Empty Glass Jar with me.. and I wish that If you cannot be here with me.. if I am going to be missing Your presence.. at least leave me with Your Heart.. I would be asking.. if you can please give me Your Heart instead.. then I would not miss you too much because at least I can look at your Heart.. I wish that I can have your Heart.. will you please give me Your Heart.. I want your Heart so that I know that YOU will come.. Only way YOU can come a little Closer is when YOU have your Heart.. I can truly imagine Your Heart.. as I would open the Door.. front door and I would see a Small Box in the front.. as I would take the Small Box into my room.. and I been giving YOU a Note.. a Note that went to YOU asking for Your Heart and I believe if you have read this Note.. I be asking.. if YOU ever stop BY.. if you are close By.. there is Only ONE thing.. One Wish I need from YOU.. all I be asking was that ONE thing.. it is Your Heart.. Let me please have this Heart so that I can surprise you with a Gift.. as I am holding this Small Box.. I see the Note attached.. I just could Not believe that YOU have responded to the Message of the Note.. because when I looked at the Note YOU have placed on the TOP of the Small Box.. I would read what I have wrote to YOU for One WISH I needed.. I am touching my Chest.. I can feel my Heart beat as I would look at the Note and It was my Own writings of the Note.. It means YOU have read it and you have responded to the Message which I felt my Heart be touched of Your reaction to this One request I been asking you for A Long time.. I sit on the floor.. and I open the top of the Small Box and I take a LOOK into the Small Box.. It is a Heart.. Not just any Heart.. but it is Your Heart.. for a Long time.. I been asking and Needing this from YOU.. I would hold your Heart with Both Hands.. and as I would stand UP on two feet.. I go over to the Empty Glass Jar.. inside the Glass Jar is soft Cottons laid inside to Protect Your Heart.. I place your Heart gently lowering inside where your Heart lays on the Soft Cottons.. I can't feel my Heart.. I feel like my Heart is skipping its Beat as I am looking at your Heart.. It must be that I love Your Heart.. that I love your Heart as much as I love YOU.. I would place the Glass Jar with Your Heart inside on the TOP right side of the Little Piano.. I know a friend who can play the Piano well and brought him over to Play a SOFT songs for Your Heart.. as I am looking at the Letter I wrote to YOU.. it was last Night I had to sit by the desk and I would write through the Night.. as My friend comes and he sits on the Piano Bench and I look at his Hands.. his fingers touches the Piano Bars and starts to Play a Music.. Play a SONG.. I would Look at the Letter.. as I would LOOK at your Heart inside the Glass Jar.. and I would start to Speak to your Heart as I would get closer to the Glass Jar.. I would say to your Heart.. ALL I ever wanted is for YOU to come close.. I know that I am poor.. I have truly nothing to give YOU that is really important.. I am hearing the Sounds of the Little Piano playing.. with such a soft tunes and I would look at the Glass Jar.. Looking at your Heart.. I would say to Your Heart through the Glass Jar.. I have been asking for your Heart.. But it seems like YOU never wanted to show me Your Heart.. I always wanted to feel close to YOU.. a Heart to Heart close is what I am talking about.. I been struggling trying to figure Out How can YOU Love me.. I know that I have found a Way to tell YOU that I love YOU.. to transfer and to deliver to YOU some way and some how.. even though when I would walk Out side.. and when I look UP at the MOON.. I see and clearly feel the Long distance between Us.. I see How High the Moon is when I look UP at the sky.. and How far it is to get to that MOON.. it is the same way I feel when I think of YOU.. How High and How far it is for me to get to YOU.. but I know that I will never give UP.. as Long as I know that there is that ONE DAY.. and I believe strongly in that some Day.. NO matter How many times My Heart can Break or How Much I can feel the Hurt and the Pain I must endure.. and How much time I needs to wait.. even though it can be Never to be with YOU.. as Long as YOU know that I still Love YOU and I still believe that some Day it can happen.. having that Hope and to keep on dreaming of loving YOU still.. I know that It can come true.. as YOU can see I never thought that I can write YOU a Letter.. who ever thought that I can believe in this Love.. but there was that One day.. I would start to think beyond.. I start to think about the MOON and think about going Beyond.. what if I can JUMP over the MOON.. walk if I can walk on the MOON.. even though I may never be able too but I can still dream very BIG and never give UP on that dream to Love YOU.. as Long as YOU are able to receive on the Other side and that YOU are able to give a Little bit of that TIME.. and for you to open and to look at just One Letter that I write to YOU telling you that I love YOU.. I am sure the Message will get around soon or Later.. I am Not worry about today.. I am Not worry about yesterday.. I am Not worry about tomorrow because as Long as my Heart can still love you.. that is the Only happiness I get to feel.. I am Not asking you much.. I am Not even asking you to Love me back.. but.. when YOU ever walk Out side.. and when It becomes Night time and there is this peace in your surroundings and YOU are able to LOOK UP at the MOON.. all I want for you to is remember Me.. every time YOU Look at the MOON.. YOU LOOK up at the sky and you see the Big MOON looking at YOU.. I am sure there will be a time and space where you are able to think alone.. I am just wishing.. I am just hoping that YOU can make a room for me just for few seconds.. for few minutes.. just to say I do remember a man who loves YOU so Much.. who loves YOU more than YOU can love yourself or even who you can start to Love back because YOU know that I been here loving you for just a Long time.. Don't you want to love the One who loves you the Most.. don't you want to know who loves you the Most.. because It is Me.. It always has been me who been loving YOU still.. all I want you to do is just remember me because this is the Only thing I am hoping for.. just that One wish is for you to Know and to remember that there is a MAN out there.. if YOU feel lonely and alone in times.. YOU should walk Out side.. and be by yourself.. and Just LOOK UP.. if the Moon appears before your eyes.. that is when the time YOU can see.. some one is thinking of YOU always.. who is loving YOU still.. who is on the Other side who been LOOKING UP at that same MOON as your eyes be looking.. that On the Other side.. I feel the same way.. that I do feel lonely in times and many times when I walk out side.. I am alone but I love to LOOK at the MOON when I am alone because It reminds me of YOU and I be thinking of YOU and I smile while I am looking at that MOON because I know that MOON knows me.. Knows my Heart.. knows How much I love YOU.. telling YOU.. looking at your Picture as I am standing Out side alone.. as the MOON is before my eyes and I be opening UP my Heart looking at your Picture and I am sure the MOON can hear my voice.. can hear my out cries when I share from my Heart of How much I miss YOU.. How much I love YOU.. but I would say looking at your Picture.. it hurts.. Loving YOU is the greatest feeling in the world to have but missing YOU hurts me the Most.. it kills me in times because I want you close.. I want you close
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I am looking at this Book.. and I would close the Book.. looking at your Picture.. It has been so hard finishing the Pages of this Big Book but.. I just wanted to let you know.. I wanted it to be done because we made a Promise.. the promise which I must keep on my part.. when I try to do something and if it is going to be something that I know in my Heart I just can't keep.. I will not do it at all because I don't want YOU to see me as a failure.. some one who cannot finish or cannot keep the Word.. that is why it is something that has to be Special.. it must be an Unique experience because I believe it is so Hard to keep a Word or to Keep a Promise.. it has gotten harder over the Years but when I think of YOU.. I know that IN MY Heart.. I must have YOU.. I must win your Heart and make you Mine forever.. to say to YOU.. to tell YOU to come closer and I would ask for Your Ear.. can you please lend me your Time and Lend me your Ear.. I must say few words so that YOU can hear my Heart.. and I will say to YOU when I see you Close.. when I see your ear approach me.. I will say.. My Heart is crying.. Not just crying but heart is dying for Your love.. dying just to say I love YOU.. and I been looking at your Picture.. sitting by the desk.. LOOKING at the Pages of this Big Book.. I would be thinking.. should I not read at ALL.. but when I think of the first time I saw YOU.. and just to get closer.. I must do my Part and that is to read.. as I would Pull the Note Book before me.. reading part.. flipping through many pages.. and trying to sit and focus.. concentrate on the Words on the Pages of telling Me.. but next is the Picture of YOU.. and I would stop.. thinking the Focus is gone.. can't concentrate when I be looking at the Picture of YOU.. because YOU are so beautiful to Me.. I would flip back few pages to re read.. and yes.. the Time flies very fast when YOU start to day dream.. holding your Hand.. and Pulling you close in my arms and LOOKING at YOU.. looking at your ear.. if I can speak.. if I am able to tell YOU the way my Heart feels about YOU.. I would say.. Please.. let me explain this Heart of Mine.. Please let me speak so that I can tell YOU.. and I would say.. ALL day.. when I did Not see YOU.. I started to miss YOU.. wondering when I can come close to YOU.. will you let me come close.. Please let me by your side.. because I need to be with YOU.. why.. because I miss YOU and I love YOU.. and I would look down.. looking at the Pages.. trying to write the summary of this BOOK.. trying to write more than a sentence.. the More I try to read this Big Book.. the More I want to see Your Picture.. but.. it took me back and forth of fighting myself that I would say.. I have made a promise to YOU.. and that is the End of the Line.. I told YOU and yes.. we made the agreement that If I finish this BIG BOOK and write the summary on the paper for this BOOK.. you will let me in the BOOK CLUB.. it was yesterday.. when I went to the Library to see YOU.. and I would be waiting in a Long Line.. feels like YOU are a famous Arthur.. because I have never seen so many People waiting in the Line.. and with a BOOK in one hand and the Paper on the Other hand waiting to be the Next.. to Join the Book Club.. I was excited when I saw People sitting down and there were many Cuts in between.. feels like an Audition to make a Movie.. and YOU are like the director who be looking for Actors and Actresses.. but I knew that I spend Many Hours.. re reading this Book.. going back and Forth.. writing on the Pieces of papers.. scribble this and Scribble that.. papers be rolled and thrown into the trash Can because I just could not Write well.. but as I let go of your Picture for few Hours.. opened the drawer and Put your Picture into it and closed the Door.. felt like an addiction.. wanted to open that drawer.. struggling to LOOK at your Picture but I told YOU.. I must finish this BIG BOOK first and then I can look at your Picture as Much time as I want.. so I had to focus and started to write the summary.. it felt so GOOD to finish Both the reading of the BIG BOOK and also the writing on the Note Book summary of the Book and taking it to YOU.. I would smile.. when the BIG BOOK hit the Final Page and I would close the BIG BOOK.. I smiled and said.. It is DONE.. I have kept my Word to YOU.. I have kept my promise to YOU and after writing on the Pages of the Note BOOK about the story what It means to me.. I just had to share what is real from my Heart.. not to act like I know but just be real with myself to YOU.. telling YOU my Thoughts about the story on this BIG BOOK.. as I would enter the Library.. and I am watching the Lines of People going down.. and I would see many people would fail trying.. I saw many stormed Off the Library and angry is what I saw in most people's faces.. as I would get closer and closer to the table and I would see YOU there sitting with Your Friend.. there were more guys in the Line than ladies so I guess the Intentions or the Motives must be Like Mine.. who wants to be Just Close to YOU.. as I would be the Next in the line.. and I would sit on the chair of the table.. and I look at YOU.. who is sitting across from me.. and YOU are looking at me.. probably thinking that I am just like All of these Other guys who came for the wrong reasons.. and who did Not keep his Word or His Part of the Deal means the Promise.. but.. It was such a great struggle on my part.. when I saw YOUR Picture inside the Big BOOK.. it was distracting me A lot because of Your Beauty.. How can someone who is so Beautiful Like YOU loves to be in a BOOK CLUB.. I am Not say all the Beautiful ladies are the same.. but it seems like YOU are so Different because YOU are so Beautiful.. I remember when I first Walked into the Library.. and I saw YOU walking.. holding BOOKS in your Arms and I just had to get Close to YOU.. I slip and tripped and it got to YOU.. the BOOKS fell on the Floor and I fell alone with YOU inside this Library.. I know that I just can't tell YOU any words Yet because YOU are not going to Like me at first.. and that is why when I heard of YOU telling me about this BOOK CLUB.. I must join into this Club to be part and that is the Only way to get close to YOU.. I would push the BIG BOOK towards your direction and told YOU.. I have read the Whole Book.. the pages are so long.. but I still had to do what I told I was going to do.. that is to keep my Word.. to Keep my promises I made to YOU.. and Do you remember that I called you on the Phone and You Picked UP.. I had to delay because I knew that the time line for me was just too short to finish in on time.. and YOU also told me.. that YOU wanted me to write YOU a Summary on the Pieces of papers of this Story that I read in this BIG BOOK.. and I would put few papers down and I would Push with my hand towards YOU.. and YOU looked at me.. and I guess you thought that I was not that serious type.. I am very serious when it is very Important for me to do.. when I want to so something and made the choice and made the decision to do something.. I will do it no matter of the Cost.. How hard or difficult it is to finish.. I just don't try but I go all in if it is YOU.. if you are very Important in my Life.. I can also make the changes for YOU TO know my Heart.. I see you grabbing the pieces of papers.. and YOU would start to read what I wrote on the Pieces of papers.. and YOU would pass the Pieces of papers to your Friend who is sitting next to YOU.. and I would take the Picture of YOU and Place it on the TOP of the table.. and I would say.. I would look at this Picture.. your Smile.. and How beautiful YOU truly are really amazes Me.. I had to struggle looking at your Picture.. if felt Like I was getting More drunk the More I saw your Picture.. I even opened the Drawer and placed YOUR picture inside in and closed for few Hours.. I was shaking in my hands.. wanting to Open the drawer and to take your Picture Out of the drawer and to have a Peek.. the truth is that More I see your Picture.. the More I would forget the story I was reading in the Pages of the BOOK.. I would grab the Drawer and I would try to pull the Open so that I can look at your Picture.. but I knew that there was something far more Important for me to do at that point and it was to keep my Promises I made to YOU so I would start to look at the Pages of the BOOK and kept on reading.. reading more and More reading as the pages would be read and I would flip the page to the Next.. I would be thinking about YOU.. thinking about the Meeting and How this is Much more Important to me than just LOOKING at the Picture of YOU.. and I would see you turn YOUR Head looking at your Friend.. and I see her smile.. and YOU turn to LOOK at me.. I see your hand out.. telling me that I can join in the Book Club.. and I thought this was a Joke.. I never been in any Kind of Club before.. but when YOU gave me YOUR hand Out.. I knew that this mean it is true.. I put my hand out to shake YOUR HAND.. and I could not believe It.. I get to be close to you.. it does Not matter what YOU think of me at first because I believe it starts with the first small step.. I stood in the Line.. and I saw many men sitting on this Chair and they were rejected.. and I saw men getting UP with such anger and they just walked Out.. and could NOT join in this Club.. as I am in the ROOM thinking about what happened yesterday.. because YOU gave me another BOOK.. but this BOOK is Not that Big.. and How you told me that YOU really enjoyed and Loved reading this Book because of the Story. as I am looking at your Picture.. I am missing YOU now.. I am missing you so bad right Now.. because Yesterday.. I never felt so happy in my Life.. when I saw YOU looking at me.. to able to show YOU something but to see you giving me a Smile.. Just that One glimpse of Smile is all I needed
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Of your most favorite BOOKS.. that YOU read many times.. and over and over you would keep on reading It.. what happens when I start to love this BOOK you Love.. will you let me keep this BOOK.. If I can connect to Your Soul and to connect what it means to relate as a reader just Like YOU.. I wonder will a day will come when YOU can really Love me too.. that I am waiting for that Day where YOU can say to Me.. that YOU Love me.. as much as I love YOU.. you also can say to me that YOU love Me.. I am waiting for that Day.. that One day.. the Some day that can come soon.. as I am putting the new BOOK on the TOP of the desk.. I would open the cover of the BOOK.. I see another Picture.. a new Picture of YOU.. I am wondering what does all this means.. so that I can Miss YOU and that I can love you.. if I do.. is it right for me to tell YOU that I miss YOU and that I really really love YOU.. Please.. tell your heart to be open for Me so that I am able to tell you all these things to YOU.. I been reading few of the Pages the Book you gave Me.. Pulling out the Piece of Paper.. I am trying to write the Summary of what the Book is telling me.. of course if YOU are asking me do I enjoy reading this BOOK.. I would tell YOU.. the BOOK has just too many pages to read.. and I would flip through the pages because some of the things that is Telling me is truly boring to read.. it is Like.. why do I needs to know about this Information.. this Historical portion and I would be scratching my Head.. wants to yank my hairs Out because I would Yawn and tries to GO back to the Pages.. If I don't understand It.. I would re read it over and over so that I can tell YOU what I think of this Book.. when I take a Pause.. it is YOUR picture.. I would put your Picture next to the Book and I would take a LOOK at YOU.. I would smile and ask.. why is My Heart be burning.. It keeps ON burning whenever I look at YOU.. I feel like this Burning deep inside seems like it never stops ON ME.. DO you think that this is what I call Love.. what do you think about this Heart of Mine when It keeps On burning inside of me.. it is when My eyes takes off the Pages of this BIG BOOK and I turn to LOOK at your Picture.. I rather LOOK at this Picture for Hours and even with the Hours goes By.. I don't think I would ever get tired of LOOKING at YOU just like when I write to YOU.. I never get tired of telling YOU.. Letting YOU know How much I still Love YOU.. I can tell YOU millions of times and I would say.. Let me see your ears please.. can I step a little closer to YOU.. if My Voice can be Loud.. I can lower my voice and even whisper.. Just to tell YOU.. that I miss YOU.. Have been missing YOU for a Long time.. but.. Just wanted to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I can stand Out.. go Out side and even Yell looking at the MOON who is looking.. showing the Face.. My Face and turn to the MOON.. with YOUR NAME.. I can say it Out loud.. I love YOU.. I don't want the MOON think that I am telling It.. that is WHY.. or Not the angels be confused or the neighbors around.. But with YOUR NAME say it and say to YOU I LOVE YOU.. but WOULD you let me be Close.. would you let me come closer to YOU.. would YOU open your Heart and Open your ears to listen.. would you receive the Words I want to tell YOU.. can I tell it to YOUR HEART that I love YOU.. as I am sitting on the chair by the desk.. with the BIG BOOK in front of me.. the BOOK is opened Now with the pages on right and left.. with Letters written as I would try to read the page.. going from chapter to the Next.. looking at the Numbers as I am flipping through the pages of this BOOK.. I would read and Pause.. my eyes would turn to LOOK next to this BOOK is your Picture.. I can't hide your Picture away.. I need your Picture with Me so that It reminds me who I love.. that I be loving YOU for reals.. can I take a Look at your Picture Please.. and it is YOU who left this One picture inside.. I remember before I started to read the Pages of this BOOK.. I called your Number.. and I even told YOU that I have found a Picture of YOU.. of course I would hear a Long Pause on the other side before you would say something about It.. I know that YOU did Not put the Picture here for me.. but when I saw the Picture.. It just helps me with the Pains I am suffering right Now.. I know that We are suppose to meet about a Week for Now.. but It seems like it is taking for ever.. time is ticking so Slow even though I am so Busy trying to Finish this Whole book.. and NO.. I am Not a good reader either.. that is why I had to ask for a delay for two weeks.. as I would try to go back to the Pages.. to read the pages.. it is not that easy for me.. too many difficult words would come around.. I have to pull out the dictionary to find and to understand the meaning of this Word.. and trying to read the sentence to go back to understand what it is telling Me.. I been going through Hardship of looking at the second Book.. which is the dictionary.. I remember you told me.. after I am finished reading the Whole book.. YOU be asking me to write to YOU a Summary of the book.. I have been sitting here.. with this One Piece of Paper in front.. trying to write something.. I am tempted to write about something else instead.. I am trying to think about this Story of this BOOK.. but My mind.. my eyes would LOOK at the Picture instead.. I would look on the ground.. there are few papers that has been rolled into balls.. because I started to write to YOU a Letter from my Heart.. and instead of trying to share about this BOOK.. My Mind and Heart takes me somewhere what My Heart wants to tell YOU.. if you are asking me.. what did I write that I had to roll into balls instead.. Maybe I should write TWO instead.. One that is from me to YOU and the other from the story of this BOOK.. the Summary you wanted to see.. when I would look at the Balls rolled UP from the Pieces of paper.. I would write.. I been missing YOU.. I wish that I can go to the Library.. if I go to that Library.. will I see you there.. would you be at the table the last time I saw YOU at.. but I don't want to show UP like I am spying on YOU because I am Not.. I am showing UP because My Heart misses YOU and I want to see YOU more.. of course.. I decided Not to GO.. but Last Night.. I do remember.. My Heart.. I started to miss YOU.. looking at your Picture.. It would stop me from reading more Pages of this BOOK.. I had to put the BOOK down because I would be missing YOU.. and I was struggling.. and I knew last night.. that was the day I saw you like two weeks Back.. and I would grab the keys.. and I knew.. should I go to the Library.. I know that If I do go.. maybe there is a better chance I will see YOU there.. so I took the keys.. and I went into the car.. and I started the Car to drive But.. I knew.. I should Not.. I am going to be making the mistake of showing UP just too early.. I don't even have the paper of the summary for this BOOK and NO.. I did Not finish the BOOK yet.. so I had to pause and think before.. so I did Not drive the Car.. I came Out of the car and stood Out side.. and I would LOOK UP at the sky.. LOOKING Above me is the MOON.. as I am looking at the MOON.. I would Open my Heart and Open my Mouth LOOKING at the Moon.. I would say.. what am I doing.. I know that I made a Promise to YOU.. and YOU gave me two weeks.. even though YOU wanted to Meet sooner.. I know that if I showed UP.. and I am Not ready to show you the presentation.. and If you were to ask me about the BOOK.. and If you say.. did I finish the BOOK.. and I am sure you would say.. why ask for two weeks if I am able to share Now and makes me a Liar.. I don't want YOU to see me as that Kind of a Person when ALL I wanted to say is that I missed YOU.. I been missing YOU for a while Now.. and why can't I just show UP just to tell YOU that I miss YOU.. but.. would Your Heart be opened to receive.. will your Ears be opened to hear the Words I need to say.. But I know that My Heart truly needs to tell YOU.. that I really Love YOU.. YOU may Not believe me.. or the Words Yet.. YOU may think that I am Not being serious about the situation or about My Heart to YOU.. but.. YOU do not have to believe anything Yet.. because I know that In time everything can change that.. there will be a TIME when YOU WILL Finally understand and able to receive when the TIME is right.. that is why I am Not asking it for today.. I am Not asking it for Now.. but I believe.. there will be a TIME you will know the truth.. that the TRUTH will do Its work and will set it Free.. Set me free because I am Not lying.. just sharing just the way it is and has been in my Heart.. that I love YOU.. what More words can I say to YOU that I been loving YOU.. and I would Be looking UP at the MOON.. just pouring from My Heart and speaking.. of course YOU are Not there to listen is the Problem.. that YOU are not there to hear these words of Mine.. that YOU just don't know yet how much I love YOU.. and as I would be sitting on this Chair by the desk in my room.. I am just looking back.. thinking back of what has taken its place.. and I am looking at the Picture.. Your Picture that is Next to this Big Book.. I wish that YOU could see me like this.. only if YOU are able to see me Now.. how can I get YOU to know that I been thinking of YOU.. that I am doing my Part.. that I am reading through these pages.. which It was not my choice.. if I go back where I saw YOU at the Library.. I would of chosen a Different Book.. and something much more Smaller with Pages.. and I would show YOU.. can I read this One instead.. and I can write YOU the Summary on piece of paper and tell you about the story I read of this book.. but.. it was Out of Nowhere.. sitting on the table.. across from YOU.. with a Smile.. YOU would push this BIG BOOK.. I wanted to be your Friend.. a reading club.. and it took me by a
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LOOKING on the side.. next and wants to skip looking at the pages instead.. I enjoy and Love looking at your Picture.. I feel bubbly inside and sometimes my eyes wants to cry looking at YOU.. I would say.. I be seeing you soon.. Next week.. and to see YOU SMILE will be the greatest moment for me to look at YOU.. when I see YOU.. I come into the Library.. with the Piece of paper written with the Summary.. holding the Big BOOK to tell YOU I have read it all.. Now here is the piece of paper.. sharing my summary about this BOOK.. and I would tell YOU.. I have written YOU another Paper.. but it has nothing to do with the BOOK but it comes from My Heart.. can I please read the Letter to YOU instead.. Please Open your ears to listen.. and Open your Heart to receive the Words.. then I will give you the Paper.. the Letter that is written from Me.. and when YOU Miss me.. YOU can read it over.. re read it if YOU have too.. but read it when YOU miss Me.. that is HOW you know that I love YOU.. I just wanted to say that I love YOU.. and If you are asking me what DO I love you the Most.. that I see that YOU love Books.. Just as much as I am starting to enjoy and Love reading BOOKS.. so that I can kiss your Forehead.. your Intelligent is what I am kissing.. the Smart that is Inside your Brains because I am going to be very smart for YOU.. as I would turn to look at the Pages of the Book.. I would look at the letters and I would start to read once again.. just thinking about YOU.. thinking of the story about this Book but More for YOU.. so that I can tell YOU and share with YOU.. so you will know that some day.. it is because I love YOU.. that One day SOON.. your Heart will know I love YOU.. and I just want to draw closer to YOU and tell you from My Heart.. How much I really Love YOU and that I have never stopped but always loved YOU STILL.. The Word I love you is the Only word that Comes to my Mind.. comes from my Heart.. only the words I can say when I see YOU.. when can I see you again.. Please tell me that it be soon.. I am looking at the book.. the Pages are just to big.. over 800 pages to read.. but I know that I must read it to keep the friendship going.. what if I want more than your Friendship.. because I felt something More than just friends.. if you call me a Friend.. I think that I must reject It.. I must be Honest and truthful to YOU.. that I want More than just your friendship.. I want your Heart.. I want to be Your Lover.. can I be the One who can say and tell YOU that I love YOU.. as I would look at the book.. My Mind would go back.. my mind would think back to the Library.. the Place where I first saw YOU.. the Place where I bumped into YOU.. even though my Mind is going back to the Library.. I know that I needs to start reading this Book.. I know that we made a deal.. YOU told me that I needs to share after I read this Book.. but do you Not see the pages.. LOOK at the size of this Book.. did I even tell YOU that I am Not a book worm.. I don't even like to read much of the Books.. and if you were to ask me how many Books I read in the Past.. I think the Numbers would be so much less and YOU be so shocked of the truth.. I am Not of a reader but just a beginner to read a Book.. I meet YOU and I ran into YOU.. and YOU dropped many books.. I could see that YOU love to read a lot of Books.. but.. I did Not tell you the truth because I did Not want to lose Your touch.. I did Not want to see you pushing me away just because I don't read.. But Now.. since I am a part of the Book club.. what if I can't read all of these more than 800 pages of this Big Book.. as I start to flip from One page to the next page.. I am wondering do they have any pictures where I can look.. maybe I can start by looking.. and as I start to flip few pages down this Big book.. I stop on a page.. there is a Picture.. One Picture and as I grab to take the Look of the Picture.. I flip to take a Look.. it is the Photo Picture of YOU.. I am wondering.. is it YOU who has place this Photo picture in here.. I don't remember me asking for Your Picture.. did I ask for the Picture and YOU gave it to Me.. and was it I who put the Picture in between these two pages.. I am sitting on this Chair.. in my Room.. trying to think about if it was Me.. I am Not sure.. because now I feel so confused.. what if it was I who placed it here.. what if It was not me but was it YOU then.. did YOU know that I was going to be taking this Book Home.. I never asked for Your Picture.. and as I turn to LOOK back of the Photo Picture.. there is a Number written on it.. whose Number is this.. Is this Your Number.. was this all planned ahead of time knowing that I was going to take this Book home or just out of Nowhere.. I am wondering.. of course I do Love this Photo Picture.. from time to time.. after reading this Big Book and I get tired.. I can turn to LOOK at your Photo Picture and to relax my mind.. and to Love YOU.. maybe this is the main reason why I had to lie to YOU.. could not tell you the truth.. could Not be honest with YOU because.. it was My Heart.. it was YOU.. the first glance.. when I turned to LOOK at YOU.. and yes.. it was me who ran into YOU knowing YOU were heading my direction.. I had to get Your Attention because I wanted to get to YOU.. there was something about YOU that my eyes just can't stop looking.. there was something about the Time.. the Place where you put it the Most.. I saw you from the distance walking with your friend.. I looked around and I wanted to start reading Books.. I saw in your arms.. YOU were holding many books.. something about that Time.. where you put your focus the Most.. and where you put your eyes and Your Heart into.. I looked over knowing that YOU are going to be some one very special.. some one very Hard to find.. that is different from myself but.. at the same time.. I can learn to change and adapt to situation.. any circumstances because I am not afraid to try some thing New.. that is when I told myself.. I needs to get to YOU.. before some one else will come and Love YOU.. I know that there are so many Young men in this world.. who would Loves to be in my shoes.. who would try to get to YOUR Heart.. so that is when I told my self.. go to your direction and run.. bump into YOU.. but Not hurt you.. just enough where you can feel something to get to YOUR HEART.. I just wanted to say I am sorry if I got to YOU in a wrong way because that was Not my intention.. I just wanted to be a part and to be close to YOU.. Not to hurt YOU or scare YOU.. because I am Not a creep.. I am Not a weirdo either.. just a Man who wants to tell YOU that I love YOU.. making this Kind of Move.. and also.. knowing my own weakness of Not to Love to read Books is at my fault but.. I told YOU.. if I love you.. I know that I can change.. I know that I can even adapt to this change.. Not to impress YOU but just to be close.. just to let YOU know that I love YOU.. but.. I know that I was Not right with YOU.. as I am sitting down on this chair.. in the Room close to my desk.. I have this Picture.. the Photo Picture.. I am wondering.. what if I did Not say Yes.. I am wondering.. what would happen to this Photo Picture.. if some one else came and sat on my place.. because I don't remember I be asking YOU.. or was it I who asked you that I needed your Picture.. as I am trying to read these pages.. I was flipping through the pages trying to look for some Historical Pictures.. some comes in the Black and White Photo Pictures.. but for some reason.. as I was flipping through the pages of this BIG BOOK of 800 pages.. I found this Photo Picture.. It is Your Picture because the One who is in the Photo Picture is YOU smiling with a Flower in your hand.. the Flower looks so lovely and yes.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I can stay here.. I can sit here and just look at your Photo Picture all day Long and Never get tired of it.. and I am just trying to figure Out.. was it YOU put it here.. and if it was YOU.. can I call this Number.. is this Number Your Phone Number.. and I know that it is pretty late.. so that I am not going to call YOU or disturb YOU late into the Night.. as I am looking at your Photo Picture.. I would put it on the Top of the desk.. and I would flip the pages back to the first Chapter.. and I would start to read from the Chapter 1.. and I would look through the first line sentence.. and as I would look across and going down.. it is written small but so much to read even the first Page of this first chapter.. and I am just trying to figure Out.. did YOU even finished this Whole 800 pages of the Book.. this Big Book.. I wanted to ask.. I wanted to know so that we can be on the right pages on the same book.. I grabbed the Phone.. it is late but Not too late to sleep late.. so as I look at the back of the Photo Picture.. I would dial the number which is written in the back.. and as I would wait.. I do hear the ringing on the Other side.. and I would wait and wait.. I do hear on the other side.. I hear your voice.. and I tell YOU.. Do you remember me?? of course YOU don't know my number.. so I would say.. It is the Guy YOU met at the Library.. the One you gave the Big Book.. with the 800 pages and the Historical figure story.. and Of course you remember.. and I would say.. as I was looking through the Pages.. I wanted to know if it had the Black and white Photo pictures and started to flip through many pages.. and I stopped at One where I found your Photo Picture.. and when I grabbed to take a LOOK at it.. it was YOU smiling with a Flower in your hand.. I have never seen such a beautiful Flower.. and YOU are even more Beautiful than the Flower you were holding.. and I was Not sure if making this Call be right or wrong.. but I just wanted to check something.. and I hear you say something.. of course.. I am so sorry for calling you this late but I have a One Question.. I wanted to check to see and ask YOU
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Thinking about YOU.. so if I am suppose to meet YOU in three weeks later.. for three weeks.. to me it feels like a Long time to see YOU.. what if I start to miss YOU.. and I know that I needs to see YOU.. DO I call your Number just to hear your Voice.. but I know that I can't just do that.. so as I would take the Big BOOK in my hands.. and I flipped.. I am truly touched.. My Heart just melted as I am looking at the first page.. I asked YOU if YOU finished reading this.. and YOU told me that YOU did.. and YOU have read this Whole BOOK.. I am truly touched and truly Impressed by.. because right Now.. I am trying to read the first line sentence and I would start to yawn.. but I know that I have a deadline and I have promised you and YOU told me that I must and meet you on that day.. so I would start to focus.. as I would start to read the first page of this chapter.. as I would read he first page and I would flip the page to the next.. Just looking at the size and the thickness.. it is a lot of pages.. which I have never read this much of pages in my life.. But.. I know that I love YOU.. I must finish reading.. but my eyes would wander off.. as I am looking at the next page.. my eyes seems more interested of looking at Your Photo Picture.. my hand grabs to take a Look.. and I want to see YOU again.. I want to see you soon.. but three weeks later seems like it is just too long for me.. I should of said how about two weeks.. maybe two weeks could of been a better choice.. so that I don't miss YOU.. so that I can look at you closer and be as near as possible to YOU.. How can I get close.. but in order for me to get close to YOU and to love you close.. I must do my part to show YOU.. I am a man who keeps my Word.. when I make a Promise to YOU.. I try to keep that promises and m word when I tell YOU I will do something on your belong.. to keep YOU closer to My Heart.. but My eyes.. keeps on wandering off.. it does Not like to LOOK at the Page of this Book.. but rather focus and concentrate on YOU.. your Photo Picture.. please tell me why is this happening to Me.. why does Love must be this Hard sometimes.. some times It feels so impossible to reach.. but.. LOOKING at How much time YOU put into.. and How you had to read this Whole Book.. this 800 pages of it.. it brings me to shame on me if I can't finish it.. as I would turn to look at this Page.. I would be reading from the top of the sentences and my eyes goes across and to the next line.. and to the next line until it goes down to the end of the page.. I would turn to look at another page.. If I love YOU.. and it has taken you a long time to read and to finish.. I would try to read again.. but my Mind.. my eyes keeps on looking.. why can't you see what I am going through.. even though I wants to concentrate on what Must I needs to do.. I keep on reaching.. I keep on looking for Your Photo Picture.. my hand just cannot keep away from YOU.. my hand touch and grabs Your Photo Picture.. I know that I should stop.. and try to put Your Picture Away.. or stick it on the pages of this Big book but I know that when it comes to Loving YOU.. I just can't.. I just won't because My Heart keeps on searching to LOOK at YOU.. I feel like YOU are the Only One who can make me smile.. Over and Over.. I find the true Joy when It comes looking at YOU and just telling myself.. my Heart that I love YOU.. that I just can't Let YOU go.. my Heart just can't Let YOU go.. that when I try to put it away.. I start to miss YOU.. and missing YOU brings more pain then ever.. so I have to Put your Photo Picture near me.. just knowing that YOU are close when YOU are so Far away.. as I would Look at the clock.. Looking at the Time.. I can see that Now it has become late into the Night.. where I needs to close this Big BOOK and needs to sleep.. so I would shut the Big Book in front of me.. and Putting on top of the Desk.. my Hand cannot let go of Your Photo Picture.. I know I needs to see YOU.. the More I see you in this Photo Picture.. it is so much harder for me to let it Go.. My Heart be missing you.. my eyes be missing YOU.. and I just miss everything about YOU.. as I look at your Photo Picture.. I will say to Your Picture.. I love YOU.. I know that YOU may Not able to hear it right Now.. but I wanted to say.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. for the first time.. I am able to tell YOU.. I know that you cannot hear me.. that is why I say it.. I tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. I am sitting by the desk.. Looking at the Book.. I opened the Book.. trying to focus to read this Page.. for some reason.. YOU keep on showing UP in my Mind.. I can feel My Heart Beating faster when I think of YOU.. trying to tell My Heart to stop beating so Fast.. I needs to erase YOU off my Mind.. I have your Picture laying on the TOP of this desk.. I know that I should put it away.. because I know that when I turn my Head and I look towards your Picture.. I know that I would think of YOU first.. but I have this ONE BOOK.. and I went to the Library to borrow it.. I am still stuck with the first Page.. the first chapter and whenever My eyes tries to read the first line sentence of this first page.. I would turn my Head towards your Picture and I get stuck right there looking at YOU.. I can feel my Heart beating fast from the Inside.. and My hand.. into the fist wants to Beat down on the chest.. so that I can stop hearing.. or feeling the Beating so Fast of this Heart.. I would turn to look at your Picture and tries to put the face Down.. turning the Picture over so that I don't look at your Beautiful face of this Picture.. my hand just can't.. I am shivering and shaking.. my hand whenever I touch the picture.. My Heart wants to cry every time I turn the Picture over so that I don't look at YOU.. why am I so addicted to YOU.. it is like a Cup of Coffee.. I just can't stop.. I tell myself I needs to stop because but I just don't.. Please tell me How to stop.. because My Heart keeps on beating so Fast.. when My Head turns to look at YOUR picture.. my eyes looks at YOU.. I can feel my Heart.. the beating grows faster and Louder I hear My Heart keep on crying and calling Out Your Name.. I am spinning around and around because It feels so crazy all of the sudden Attack that has been happening to me recently.. but I have borrowed this One Book.. and I do remember YOU are telling me that YOU loved this Book.. and Have read many times.. and the Next time we meet at the Library.. YOU are asking me if I can share and tell you the story about what I felt about this Book that came from YOU.. so I am trying Hard at this Point.. to get it right.. to go on this Pace.. I saw YOU smiling and YOU asked me.. can we be Library Partners.. and I am thinking what is that.. I do remember asking YOU.. what is the meaning of being the Library Partners.. YOU smile so Big and told me that we can share the Books we read together.. I can share my Heart and my thoughts to YOU about the BOOK and that YOU also able to give your Point of view.. I remember our hands touched and we shake our hands being the Library Friends.. of course that is How I left the Library.. but for some reason.. I asked you another before I left the Library.. I asked.. can I have your Picture.. and I am speaking to my own Head.. why would I ask you this if we are Just Friends.. YOU SMILED and gladly given me a Picture of YOU.. I was shocked that YOU did because I wanted to see if YOU would really give me Your Picture.. of course at the Library.. YOU were holding a Book and told me.. YOU have just finished reading this One BOOK that was in your hands.. and it can be a start and gave me the Book.. of course I would look at the title and I would look at the Cover of this Book.. it seems so Boring.. it is a History BOOK.. I did so horrible when I have taken the History class because It was so Boring and it felt Like I was going back to school.. I guess.. of course YOU are so Beautiful.. I did not decline it because I wanted to show YOU that I can be Your Library Partner.. my Heart came alive after we shaken our hands.. it was my first day going to the Library and Never expected to Meet YOU.. SO Beautiful.. I felt something in my Heart.. I do not know what it was but I felt My Heart.. it Bumped into something.. LIKE the Beating was very fast I felt.. I am trying to read this History Book.. about someone's Life.. I do not like the Cover of this Book.. it seems so Boring to Me but I know that I Must.. I would read the Back.. it seems interesting but.. at the same time It seems like a BORING story to Me.. I am trying to read the first line of the sentence.. I am yawning Out loud.. My Head turns too keep on looking at your picture.. YOUR Picture is more exciting to Me.. because I just can't pass the first Line of the sentence of this BOOK.. What have YOU done to Me.. I am also asking myself a question.. am I making the right decision.. Usually when I make a decision.. I try to keep it all the way.. but this.. It be hard.. I am flipping through the pages.. and It also got pictures.. black and white pictures of the Old Times.. and I know.. it is Not going to be easy for me to finish this Book.. but.. I have made a promise to YOU.. that we are going to be meeting next week.. the same Hour at the Same Library and I needs to be ready to share what I think about this Book.. to continue this Partnership.. I must be ready to share it to YOU.. I am trying to drink cold glass Ice water.. my eyes are being Heavy.. I want to sleep instead.. My Head turns to LOOK at your Picture.. my hand touches the Picture.. holds the Picture and I would look at Your Closer from this Picture YOU gave me.. I would be thinking of YOU.. that I am so excited to see YOU again.. and I would turn too look at the page of this Book.. I would flip it back to the first Chapter one.. and I am asking YOU.. Looking at your Picture
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Impression.. even though I have Nothing to prove myself to YOU.. but.. I do want to keep my Promise to YOU.. I have already decided to read this BOOK.. as I would sit.. LOOKING at Your Picture.. I would close the Book.. and I would think about the experience of meeting YOU.. holding Your Picture in my Hand.. I do remember I be walking into the Library.. did Not expect much to happen that day but just to borrow a Book.. as I would walk and I see YOU.. why did I stop.. there is a lot of People in the Library.. but I saw YOU walking.. with a Friend YOU were talking.. and I wanted to get Your Attention but.. HOW.. as YOU and Your Friend passes me by.. I would act like I did Not see YOU and I bumped into YOU.. as the Books You were holding in your hands falls to the Floor.. I would help you by picking UP the Books that is laying on the ground.. as YOU stood UP with your Friend.. I grabbed the last Book.. and I would rise UP and I give it into your hands.. Your Friend had many books in her hands holding the BOOKS you were carrying.. I looked at YOU.. and I said sorrow.. as I watch YOU pass me By with your Friend.. at a table YOU sat with her.. I knew this is the Only Chance.. I may Never see YOU again.. who knows when YOU will come to this Library.. and as I walked UP to the table.. of course.. I saw YOU Looking UP with your Friend.. and the two of YOU were sharing.. I asked if I can join this table.. and Just wanted to ask you One question.. How to join this Group.. and your friend looks at Me and she smiles and YOU look at me with a Big Smile.. YOU be telling me that to join this club.. a BOOK CLUB.. I needed to read the books YOU and your friend was reading and to part take.. to share.. as I pulled the chair Over and I sat across YOU.. and I would ask YOU.. share what.. and I see YOU laying the BIG BOOKS on the top of the table.. It is so much to read.. a lot of pages to read I am thinking.. and every Week.. YOU and your Friend would meet at this table and would share.. and I am thinking.. YOU are so Beautiful.. Not just beautiful but also so Smart.. if YOU are reading all of these Books.. there is so much YOU can share with Others I believe and the Friend looks at me.. and she smiles.. as I look down.. there is a Line of People.. and they are standing behind YOU.. where is all of these People coming from.. and I see YOU turn to LOOK back.. they are Your Partners.. I am thinking.. there is a lot of People who wants to be Your Friend and be Your Partner.. it is because YOU are so Smart.. Not just beautiful.. But so Smart too.. as I am thinking about the day.. I know that I wanted to see YOU.. and I want to tell YOU what My Heart feels.. I want to tell YOU what my Heart Thinks and what it feels right Now.. can I share with YOU what I think when I look at your Picture.. when I see YOU again.. can I tell YOU my story of HOW MUCH I love YOU.. I can tell YOU a lot.. share you a lot More when I look at YOU.. when I look at you in the Picture.. I want to close the BOOK.. and open my Heart to YOU.. my Heart can be a Book.. has pages of letters to tell YOU that I LOVE YOU.. will you let me share my Heart to YOU.. Please tell me that I am able to open my Heart.. that YOU will have ears to Listen so that I can tell YOU.. I love YOU.. and for the whole week.. I been missing YOU.. it drives me crazy when I miss YOU.. when I look at your Picture.. and I think of YOU.. My Heart wants to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I love you and want you so Bad.. I love you and need you so Bad.. I love you and I miss YOU over and over again because when it comes to YOU.. when it is all about YOU.. I can open my Heart with letters and the pages of the letters can say that I love YOU.. I feel it in my heart and in my soul that I can't never stop but keep on loving YOU over and over again.. will you please let me Open my Heart to YOU.. My Heart is dying.. I am dying.. without YOU I know that I am dying and that is why I needs to say it.. I needs to tell YOU something.. that has been written in my Heart all about YOU that Only YOU can erase the pages of Letters that is written in my Heart just for YOU.. why can't YOU open YOUR Heart to accept it.. I am Not asking YOU much.. but it is this Simple.. to Open Your Heart for me.. to Let me In.. Please let me In and Let me write in your Heart and tell Your Heart that I love YOU.. as I am sitting by the desk.. LOOKING at the BOOK.. I been flipping through the pages and I can feel my Heart be burning from the Inside.. I know like this BOOK.. like the pages that makes it into this BOOK.. the written words on the Pages like Letters.. when It is ALL about YOU.. when it is for YOU.. when My Heart and My Mind thinks of YOU.. I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. I can tell you more than these pages of the 800 pages of this Book.. as long as it is YOU.. I know that I can share and write and tell YOU more.. because it comes from my Heart which I wanted to say even till Now.. I love YOU.. you do not know how much I love YOU but even till this Day.. YOU Know my Heart.. ever since the first day till Now.. I been loving YOU and still I love YOU.. You told me to come and wait for you.. I wanted to know the answers why YOU wanted to break UP with me.. last night.. I just could not sleep at all.. I wanted answers.. and I wanted to know if it was me.. is it because I wasn't the One.. is it because YOU have met someone new.. before I can close and shut.. I had to know why you wanted to leave me.. so I remember messaging YOU back.. asking YOU to meet me at the spot.. the same table.. at the Library.. I even told YOU that I am going to write YOU a Letter.. a Letter that I haven't written in a long time.. I do remember when I first met YOU.. and we started to date each Other.. My Heart.. I just don't know what it was about YOU.. but My Heart.. I would be going into the House.. with a Smile that I just could Not.. looking in the Mirror.. going into the rest room.. and turning on the lights.. I would look at myself in the mirror.. wondering what is matter with my Heart.. that I just could Not stop smiling after seeing YOU.. after meeting YOU.. after leaving.. just being close to YOU.. My Heart just could not take it that I had to leave YOU.. I am sitting on the table.. with the Book you gave me.. I am sitting by the table where we met for the first time.. as I open the front cover of the Book.. there is Your Picture.. and behind the Picture is the Letter I have written for YOU.. I am looking at the Picture.. thinking about going to the fair park.. YOU wanted me to get YOU a Big Bear.. a Brown Big Bear and I do remember winning the contest and able to get this Big Brown Bear.. I am looking at the Picture.. YOU were smiling and holding on the side of this Big brown Bear.. I just could not help it.. but tears.. why do you want to end this relationship.. why is it so Hard to let YOU go when we been through so much together.. I am sitting here quietly waiting for YOU.. I wanted to see YOU and meet eyes to eyes.. I want to hear from your voice.. I wanted the answers of why can't I be loving YOU any more.. why did you tell me that YOU wanted to break UP with me.. do you not know that it is Me who is hurting the most.. I am still wondering.. what have I done to deserve this Kind of pains in my Heart.. please tell me what have I done so that I know that if it is right.. I can truly walk away and Not to bother YOU.. Not to love you anymore.. I have written YOU a Letter.. if YOU open the folded Letter which is in Half.. I wrote last Night.. I was looking at Your Picture.. the One you would tell me.. after I took this picture of YOU holding the side of this Big Brown Bear.. YOU told me with a Big Smile.. that YOU loved me.. I just could Not believe the Words I heard.. from your own lips.. from your Own words YOU have expressed and confessed the Love.. I did not hear it before.. it would be me who be telling YOU.. many times I would send.. write letters to tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. that I miss YOU.. that I wanted to be with YOU for the rest of my life.. that can it be YOU.. can it be Me who can love you forever and tell YOU that I do love YOU.. and to confess and express.. being thankful for the chance that I get to say and to share that I love YOU.. but Now.. YOU are telling me that YOU wanted to leave.. to break UP this relationship.. I am still waiting.. sitting by the table.. and I asked you if we can meet.. I been waiting for more than two hours Now.. and still I don't see you.. as I am looking at the people.. they are walking into the Library.. some holding books.. while others are going into other tables.. I see some people sitting on chairs by the tables.. some by the computers.. I am waiting for YOU.. and I am wondering.. should I call YOU.. am I suppose to call you and ask YOU when will you come.. are you even coming at all.. and I look down.. looking at the Book.. Looking at the Picture of YOU.. and when I lift UP my head to look.. I see you have finally come.. but who is that.. as I see you holding hands with another Man.. and YOU are smiling.. WHY are you going to do this to Me.. why are you bringing another Man into the picture.. and I see you stop by the table.. and I stand UP.. I see you pull the chair and YOU sit.. the Man next to YOU.. He smiles and pulls the chair and He sits next to you.. I am wondering.. DO I needs to hear this because Now I know.. I get the picture.. I know your answers now.. It is because of Someone else.. do YOU even love Him.. if YOU love him.. then why are you hurting Me.. did YOU ever loved Me.. why did YOU show up like this.. is it because YOU wanted to hurt Me.. to destroy my Heart.. YOU know that I also have a Heart.. and I learned how to love YOU with my Heart.. it took me a long time to learn but Now I know that I love YOU.. but what YOU are doing is so wrong.. because I did not want to come here if YOU came to show me what It means to