Bottle to go into Your Hands.. let it be YOU who can read the Message.. the Note inside this Bottle.. only YOU can make my dreams come true and my wishes be reals.. and I would put the Note into the Bottle.. and TOSS the Bottle into the Lake waters.. My arms around the Empty Glass Jar.. I look down and start to cry.. my tears runs down.. I need your Heart.. I really want Your Heart.. There is writing and typing.. I can write and type you many letters.. and tell you through all these letters.. but I am thinking about telling you with Words.. if I was to see YOU.. and meet you face to face.. how am I going to tell YOU with those words.. I want to tell YOU with my lips how much I love YOU.. and tell you so that it is Not only by the letters of writing.. but I am imagining when I see you.. will I tell you the right words.. will I scare YOU.. will I push you away because you say.. and for a long time.. I never stopped loving YOU.. I been here.. telling YOU.. telling you how much I love you.. letting YOU know the shape of my Heart.. how much My Heart truly loves YOU.. because I will never stop loving YOU.. as I would sit on the floor.. I would get up slowly.. leaving the Glass Jar on the floor and I see the Sun above me and It is so Hot out here.. sometimes I wonder why do I come to this Tree when it is in the Middle of the day.. when it is the Most hottest of the day.. But.. I have Your Picture with me.. I just love looking at YOU.. the Most Beautiful.. and before I came to this Tree.. I saw a field.. full of flowers and I would stop by to see this One Flower.. the Sun Flower.. and I remember I had to go and grab it.. before someone else can grab this Flower.. walking down.. I would start to sing.. I don't know where the song comes from but as I was walking.. holding the Sun Flower.. holding the Empty Glass Jar.. and I was told that there is a Big Heart.. it is sitting on the Top of a branch.. and told me to go and see it.. I wonder whose Big Heart it is.. but.. I received a Picture of YOU.. and it was a Drawing on a Piece of paper of a Big Heart sitting on top of the Branch.. I received it on the mail box and when someone told me about the Big Heart sitting on the Top of a tree on the Branch.. I smiled and knew whose Heart it is.. SO I would come to this Tree.. Before I was stopped by the Tree.. the field and the Sun Flower.. in the Room I had to go and grab the Empty Glass Jar.. just in case if The Big Heart falls off.. I want to use this Empty Glass Jar to catch Your Heart.. I have placed soft cottons.. many many around.. so fluffy and so soft so that the Heart will not get hurt.. I have come to this Tree.. I know if someone has spotted the Big Heart.. I am sure more people are able to see this Big Heart.. I don't want any one to take Your Heart.. But.. I can't believe it.. I see few people surrounding the Tree.. Cameras are flashing.. finger points at the Big Heart and I would hear some boys talking about getting to that Big Heart.. I am wondering.. there is a large numbers of people here and more people are coming to this Tree.. I turn and next to me is another man.. He has a empty Glass jar and turns and looks at me.. I am holding the same glass jar.. I smile big because I have placed a SUN FLOWER inside the Glass Jar.. so I know that when your Big Heart is able to look.. YOU can look at the Head of the Sun Flower.. so that YOU will know that it is me.. I want to give YOU this Flower.. in the middle of the day.. more people comes to this tree.. but many just stand around and complains it is so hot.. and starts to leave.. I am waiting for the people to leave.. I just want to be here alone and I will wait until all People goes.. people are talking.. and hungry.. I am waiting still.. as I am waiting for the time for all these people.. fifty people.. and I see the numbers goes down.. and It becomes Night.. I see the Moon comes UP.. and I see the stars shine.. I can't believe it.. the Man with the empty glass jar is still here with me.. I think He does not want to leave.. what am I suppose to do.. He keeps on looking up.. waving the Empty Glass jar around.. I smile because the Big Heart.. YOUR Big Heart is still sitting on the TOP of that Branch.. He be waving all through the day.. and I see that He is tired.. and he looks at me.. puts his head down and starts to walk off.. I am so glad.. so happy that everyone is gone.. I am able to take out the Picture of YOU.. Paste it and stick it on the Tree.. I am able to look at your picture.. do I get inspired by your Beauty.. I do love that YOU are so Beautiful.. I am Not going to lie to you that YOU are so amazingly Beautiful.. so Beautiful that I would walk close.. and press my lip on the Picture of YOU.. I will say.. MY MY.. YOU are so Beautiful.. WHY do you have to be this Beautiful.. what if my eyes decides to leave me.. my eyes can cry looking at your picture and will ask my Hand to open wide and both eyes can fall off crying because when I look at YOU through the Picture.. my Heart catches on fire.. it burns me from the inside.. I feel so Hot suddenly because my eyes look at your picture and I would say MY MY.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and I would be looking at Your Picture.. I would place the Glass Jar down.. PULLING out the Sun Flower and I would be looking at you through the Picture.. I want to give you this flower.. How can I give you this Flower.. Please tell me How.. I been waiting out here.. I been waiting where it be YOU and I alone.. in the middle of the Day.. it was pretty crowded.. and many people were waiting too like myself.. wanted to see Your Big Heart.. wanted to get close to Your Big Heart.. I know that Your Heart is sitting way up on the Top of the branch of this Tree.. I would look around.. I saw many people come.. even people would be leaving.. another group of people comes.. every time I wanted to pull out Your Picture and paste it on this tree.. I would hear group of people.. voices talking.. I would grab Your Picture pulling back to the pocket.. and I had to just stand here all day.. the SUN had to go down because people still came around.. and at last.. all of the people are gone.. but.. all the eyes were looking at.. It is Your Big Heart.. I even brought the empty Glass jar.. do YOU see it on the ground.. when I received a Picture of YOU.. and also a sketch drawing of Your Big Heart sitting on the top branch of the Tree.. I was so excited because I knew that YOU were telling something.. I would be standing by the window of my room in the House.. asking for Your Heart.. I be asking and asking.. begging for Your Heart.. I been praying if I can have Your Big Heart.. of course I would always ask.. never stopped asking.. keep asking until the answer would be answered.. so I would keep on trying.. asking.. give me a sign.. send me a miracle and I guess YOU must heard me.. I am here by this Tree.. and you gave me the answer.. telling me where Your Heart is.. but Why did you choose on this tree.. this tree is so Big.. I am so small compared to the size of this Big Tree.. I am thankful you gave me a sign.. But look at how tall this Tree is and how short I am compared.. I don't want to just stand here and look UP.. just wondering how I can get to that Big Heart.. as I am looking at your Picture pasted on this Tree.. I am holding the Sun Flower.. I want to give YOU this Flower.. But How.. if YOU are not here.. but Your Big Heart is way UP sitting on the branch of this Tree.. I want to give you this flower.. Tell me How can I give You this flower.. this SUN FLOWER first.. My next is.. I want to touch Your Big Heart.. is there a way I can touch and Hold your Heart.. my hands wants to touch and feel.. the warmth of Your Big Heart.. and My Arms wants to wrap around Your Big Heart.. I want to put my ear next to your Heart.. can I please listen to the beating of Your Big Heart.. I want to hear How Your Heart.. Your Big Heart sound.. I am here so I can ask YOU.. I want to get close to YOU.. I want YOU to know that I really want to get closer to YOU.. but Your Big Heart is sitting on the top of the Branch.. it is on the Highest Branch way UP there.. and YOU know that I am way down here on the ground.. so How do I get to that Big Heart.. It looks so beautiful.. I needs to Hear YOU.. I needs to tell YOU.. I want to talk to Your Heart.. but if Your Big Heart cannot hear me because I am way down here to the ground.. and Your Big Heart way UP on the top.. the highest branch of the Tree.. when I am looking UP.. do you know that my neck hurts.. that is How High it is for me to LOOK at Your Big Heart and yes.. I do see Your Big Heart.. it is so Big.. I am spreading my arms wide.. I want to hold Your big Heart.. and Hug Your Heart and say to Your Heart.. I been waiting for this day for a very long time.. to tell Your Heart How much I love YOU.. I want to bring Your Big Heart closer so that I can tell Your Heart.. speak to Your Heart and tell Your Heart.. I love YOU.. I wonder will you accept my words.. I am I allowed to tell YOU this to Your Heart.. that I do love YOU.. what would happen if I get Your Big Heart closer to my lip and I can whisper to Your Big Heart.. I love YOU.. I know for me.. on my part to able to tell you these words.. I am going to be hopping around like a big kid.. because to able to tell YOU these words.. It is a miracle for me.. How can a person like myself be able to tell

That I love YOU.. the I love YOUR BIG HEART.. will you allowed me to speak these words to Your Heart.. that is why I am here.. I am here at the bottom.. at the ground.. I am looking UP.. but I am able to look at your picture because it is pasted on the tree.. Showing Your Picture I am holding something in my hand.. a Flower which I want to say it came from the Middle of the day at the hottest.. the SUN.. can I please give YOU this Flower.. I want to give you to tell you where my Heart is.. why I am giving this flower to YOU.. I know that when I do give you this Sun flower.. I know I be at the most happiest place.. and for YOU to receive it.. the JOY that YOU give me just to give it away.. as I am looking at you through this Picture.. why can't you answer me.. I am looking at the paper.. the drawing of a Heart.. and I am standing by this Tall tree.. is this the Right Tree.. can YOU please tell me if I am standing at the right Place.. I see about twelve more Trees behind and All around this Park.. WHY are you telling me to come to this Park without telling me Which Tree to go too.. Is it because I have delayed my Coming.. DO I needs to tell YOU that I am so Sorry.. I am so sorry for Not coming to the appointed Time.. I did Not expect the changing of the weather.. Of course I did have that chance.. the day when It started to rain.. it was the Light rain at first.. then I heard the thunder and saw the flashing of lightening across the Sky.. I know that I should of come.. But when I saw the rain.. and it started to rain down Hard.. I was Not sure if Your Heart.. would YOU of still Put your Heart Up on the Tree Branch.. I want to Know.. I want to know because what if I came.. but.. I did Not see the Heart UP on the Tree Branch.. YOU know How much I wanted to see Your Heart.. but I was Not sure if YOU would of came.. Not saying that I don't trust Your Words but the condition that has taken place.. the situation that was causing to change the direction.. I still would of come.. but.. I had to truly wait.. truly had to delay the Time.. I wanted to say I am so Sorry that I could Not make it on time.. NOW I am paying the price of not coming.. as I am Looking.. I am standing.. which Tree.. is it the Second Tree.. Is it the Third Tree.. am I suppose to walk down to every Tree.. and to LOOK UP at every thirteen Trees that is standing around.. as I am holding the Paper.. I drew a Heart Shape.. Not sure How Big of the Heart it suppose to be but I drew the Heart.. Your Heart very Big on this Sheet of Paper.. I did Not find Your Heart on a Tree Branch on the First Tree.. as I would stop.. standing next to this Big Tree.. I would stand.. holding the Piece of paper.. it is a Drawing of Your Heart.. I want to show YOU.. I want to see if the Drawing on this Piece of Paper matches the Shape and the Size of Your Heart.. I want to show Your Heart.. and compare does it comes very close to your Heart.. I needs to know.. I needs to Know truly.. can YOU Please.. as I am looking at the First tree.. I would show this Tree.. the Piece of paper.. Am I suppose to talk to this Tree.. Maybe this Tree Knows.. maybe this Tree will answer and tell me if YOU put your Heart.. I have One picture.. the Picture of YOU.. and on the Other Hand is the Piece of paper.. the drawing of the Shape and the Big Size of Your Heart.. and I will say.. Please tell Me.. Please Help Me.. and as I am looking at this Big Tree.. the first Tree at this Park.. I know that YOU probably will not speak back to Me.. or tell me anything.. But I wanted to show YOU and ask YOU.. as I would turn the Picture and to show this Tree Your Beautiful Picture of Your Face.. I am Lost.. and I have not come at the Appointed time and had to delay the Time of the coming.. I even asked to forgive Me.. I wanted to say Sorry for Not coming on time.. But.. I did still come even though it was suppose to be few weeks back.. the weather was Not on my side.. it was Not helping me with the time of appointed me to come.. so I had to delay the time to today.. SO I am wondering.. DO YOU know the One who I love.. I know that YOU told me YOU Have left the Heart here.. the Heart.. and I would show this First tree.. the Piece of Paper of the drawing of the Heart.. showing the Shape and the Size of the Heart.. and also showing Your Picture to this Tree.. the first tree.. as I would wait in silent.. I wanted to hear an answer.. But it seems Like this Tree is Not going to answer me.. I feel like maybe this First tree Never saw YOU here at the Park.. or Not see your Heart.. I would Look UP.. looking at the branches.. to the One at the Top of the Branches and I do Not see the Heart.. Your Heart.. I would see people walking and they would pass by.. I see a Man walking By.. and I would stop the Man.. and He turns to face Me.. I would show the Man the Picture of YOU.. and I would ask.. DID YOU ever saw YOU before.. the Man looks at me and smiles.. and I say.. SO you do know who YOU are.. and I asked HIM.. and show him the Piece of paper and it is the drawing of Your Heart.. the Shape and the Size of Your Heart.. the Man looks at a Tree.. and He knows where YOUR Heart is at.. and On the Third Tree.. ON the top of the Branch is a Heart.. and I thanked this Man because He knows where YOUR HEART is at.. the Man goes ON his Way.. and I just can't believe It.. so it was Me who delayed.. if I knew at that TIME.. I should of come but YOU have come at the appointed time.. as I would walk leaving the First Big Tree.. I would pass by the Second Big Tree and I would walk.. Looking at the Third Big Tree.. I am Not sure why would YOU put and I would stop next to the Third Tree.. why.. and as I would compare the height.. I see WHY.. the third Tree is the Biggest Tree and the tallest tree from the twelve Other trees around.. and as I stand next to the Third Big Tree.. I Look UP.. looking at every tree branches to the TOP of.. and I see Your Heart.. I have never seen such a Big Heart.. it is so Big.. the size and the shape.. there is NO match to compete of the Size of Your Heart.. because it is SO BIG as it is.. HOW did that Heart get way UP there.. and what am I suppose to do.. as I am looking at the Piece of Paper.. the drawing of.. looking at the shape and the Size.. I know that I can't even draw at all.. I want to know.. How did YOUR BIG HEART reach UP way UP there.. and It is Not going to fall on the ground.. It seems like the branches are unable to HOLD because the SIZE is SO BIG.. YOUR HEART is so Big.. as I turn.. I am looking at the Third tree.. I would say.. I know that I am so Small.. and Yes.. many times I can feel so weak.. but I know that what I want and what I need is that Big Heart.. I know that YOU are Not here.. that is why I have chose to LOOK at this third Tree.. and If YOU can Hear me.. I can only speak to this Third Tree.. even though I want to tell YOU my Heart.. When you compare the size of Your Heart.. I want my Heart to be as Big as YOUR HEART.. so that I can tell YOU that I love YOU.. Only if the Shape and the Size of My Heart can grow.. and can expand as Big as Your Heart.. can I tell YOU then that I love YOU.. I need to say It to YOU.. I want to say it to YOU.. telling YOU that Course of time.. My Heart.. it was able to reach its height as Big as Your Heart.. if two Hearts are the right Size and Shape.. I know that I can Love you as Much as I can.. but it needs to grow and expand its reach Like Your Heart.. If my Heart is so Small.. How can I love your Big Size Heart.. Please.. tell me How can My Heart be as Big as Your Heart.. If My Heart can be big as Your Heart.. I know that I am able to float into the air.. and as I can be lifted UP.. I can Open my Arms wide.. and grab.. and PULL your Heart closer to my Heart.. TO my Chest and Let Your Heart hear my Heart crying inside because finally Our Hearts can meet each Other.. for the first time in a long time I can really let my tears fly Out of my eyes because I can say Finally I can tell Your Heart.. How much I love YOU.. How much I missed YOU.. able to share and tell Your Heart.. I have missed YOU so Much but also been loving YOU so much.. waiting over and over.. letting the time pass by.. but even when the TIME kept on going.. I have Never stopped loving YOU.. I have never stopped missing YOU.. always thinking of YOU.. thinking of when can I see YOU so that I can tell Your Heart.. I love YOU.. holding Your Big Heart into my Arms.. I would kiss your Heart.. your BIG HEART and say.. I can't breathe.. ready to exhale.. when I kiss Your Big Heart.. I can inhale.. when I exhale I will say.. can YOU Hear my Heart Beat.. wants to follow the Beating of Your Heart.. let our Hearts beat together and can make sound and music inside.. but I need YOUR Heart.. I first am asking for Your Heart.. so that I can tell YOU what My Heart truly feels inside when I am close to YOU and close to YOUR HEART.. able to let it ALL OUT and I would again.. Kiss your Heart and whisper to Your Heart.. I love YOU.. I wanted to say and tell YOU.. by telling YOUR Heart.. I have been longing for this day to Come.. I wanted this day to come sooner but it seems like the TIME is Not on my side right Now.. NO matter How many times I would say.. I would write and to tell YOU.. I wanted to say it a lot sooner.. waiting part can be very Hard.. can be difficult when YOU are unsure about the situation or about the TIME.. will it ever come.. WILL I ever able to tell YOUR HEART that I love YOU.. but.. as I am looking at this Big Tree.. the Third Tree in this Park.. when the rain came the first Night.. the SNOW started to fall on the second Night.. through the winter storm I saw.. nothing but SNOW was Out.. staying inside the House.. felt like I was locked.. because I knew that I had to go to see Your Heart.. it was killing me while waiting.. it was killing me because even I started to think about.. what if YOU did COME.. and YOU have placed Your Heart on the TOP of the Branch

Heart away so that I cannot see Your Big Heart any more.. there was One Part.. maybe YOU did Not come.. but another side of me told Me.. I know that YOU will keep your Part.. You will keep your Promises which when I asked the MAN who was passing By.. He told me He saw YOU coming.. You were Holding Your Heart.. Your Arms around Your Big Heart.. and as He stood there watching YOU.. it started to rain.. YOU would start to climb UP on the Third Tree.. with Your Big Heart On your Back.. and saw Your BIG HEART crying as YOUR arms and hands let go climbing back down ON the Big Tree.. the MAN looks UP.. Your Big Heart keeps on crying Out to YOU.. as YOU turn away.. getting Hit by the rain.. and had to run Off because YOU were getting HIT.. a lot by the waters of the rain.. HE said He was touched and deeply Moved of YOUR WORD keeping the promise.. when I heard this as the MAN leaves.. who saw all these things.. He came to stop by.. Just to see if Your Big Heart was still there and that is when I ran to HIM.. that is why the Only words I can say.. I am so Sorry for delaying on my Part.. I should of Know that YOU are so determined to keep Your Word.. I know that YOU are so Strong.. your WILL.. YOU are very determined.. and YOU are so Strong.. that is One part of YOU that I saw is what Made My Heart to say I love YOU.. where my Heart.. it tells Me to love YOU more.. because I know that YOU are so special.. YOU are so unique and so Different.. and even though I was delayed of coming.. I still had to come just in case.. when I heard that YOUR BIG HEART was still here at this Park.. that It was located on the Third BIG TREE.. I would be walking with tears in my eyes.. because I knew that I should of Came before.. that I should of come on the appointed time that YOU TOLD ME to come.. I could of saw YOU.. if I saw YOU.. I would of grabbed unto Your Arms.. and pull YOU closer into my arms because I would say.. I love YOU.. I would say to YOU.. if I came that day.. the appointed time that YOU gave me the Note to come.. I would asked YOU.. it is very dangerous to climb up.. when the rain comes Hard.. things can happen where YOU would Not believe but.. that Courage and being so brave.. I just wanted to say.. I am so sorry that I did Not come that day.. But.. I now see why YOU have a Big Heart.. such a Big Heart that I want My Heart to be as big as YOURS.. so that I can tell YOU in many words.. how much I love YOU.. and to tell YOU how much I been missing YOU lately.. that I know deep inside.. I need YOU.. I need YOU to need me too.. I need to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I need to say to that Heart.. Your Big Heart.. that I love you.. and I am so sorry that I love YOU and I thank YOU.. thank you for being YOU and also having that Big Heart.. NOW I know how much My Heart needs to grow.. so when My Heart starts to grow as BIG as YOURS.. I can finally say.. holding YOUR BIG HEART.. I love YOU and kiss Your Big Heart and tell Your Heart over and over.. this is why.. I love YOU.. that is why I need YOU so that I can continue to say to YOU that I love YOU.. Feels like the Spring time.. as I am holding the Empty Glass Jar.. around my arms.. I am thinking of Your Heart.. I know that I am missing your Heart.. I want to see your Heart.. WILL you let me see that Heart of Yours.. and I am walking and I stop by this Tall Tree.. and I am wondering if it is this Tree.. I been waiting for this very day.. the weather Out side has been very cold.. looking at the Snow falling.. even it has been raining a lot around this time.. I could Not come to this Tree.. I do missing this Tree.. which I received a Note.. YOU be telling me to come to this Tree.. and I just could not come around for a while.. But.. I am here today.. wondering.. DID YOU leave your Heart here.. I had a dream.. dreaming of the day.. my arms can wrap around.. looking at YOU.. but.. asking if I can see your Heart.. if I am allowed to speak to your Heart.. will you let Me.. will you allow me to talk to Your Heart because that is all I want.. that is ALL I need.. I want to first tell Your Heart.. how much I love you.. but I needs to say It.. I needs to tell It to your Heart.. without Your Heart.. My Love will Not last.. it cannot go very far.. that is why I am asking first for Your Heart.. so Please.. tell me that YOU have left your Heart behind.. as I would sit on the ground.. I would pull out the Paper which was inside this Glass Jar.. I started to Miss you Last Night.. for some reason.. I started to Miss you all over again.. I would be sitting at the desk.. and ON the corner of the Desk.. I would put your Picture.. and as I turn to LOOK at the corner of the Desk.. I would grab Your Picture and I would take a closer LOOK at YOU.. looking through the Picture.. I would say to YOU.. even though YOU may Not hear me.. YOU may never hear my voice.. I would look at Your Picture.. looking at YOU.. I would smile and say to YOU LOOKING at the Picture.. I miss YOU.. and I do Love YOU.. but first.. why do I keep on missing YOU even though I have your Picture with me.. why do I keep telling myself but Looking at YOU through this Picture.. I know that YOU can't hear me now.. But I know.. I believe that One Day YOU will hear me Loud and clear.. Holding YOU close in my arms.. I will say to YOU.. LOOKING at and asking.. is this YOUR HEART.. can I tell YOUR HEART that I love YOU.. will you please let me say it.. that I love YOU.. as I would be looking at the Picture of YOU.. I be very sad.. because when I start to think about missing YOU.. I really really do Miss YOU.. and I would pull out a clean piece of paper.. there is nothing written but just a Blank sheet.. I would grab me the Pencil.. and of course I have Never seen Your Heart.. but start to draw a Picture of Your Heart.. thinking maybe this is How YOUR Heart Looks Like.. the shape and the size of It.. I wish that I can have a picture of Your Heart.. How Big is it.. the shape of It.. can I take A picture of It.. only If I can see YOU.. and YOU holding a Heart in the hands.. I want to click to take a Picture with the camera.. but.. only thing I can do at this Point.. just draw a Picture.. Picture of Your Heart.. and I would put.. Can I write My Name in Your Heart.. would you say something about It if I do.. Please tell me if YOU don't want me too.. because I want to write my Name in your Heart and speak to this Piece of paper of drawing of Your Heart.. I love YOU.. I want to say It.. and tell YOU what My Heart truly feels.. I received few months back.. a Note from You because I have been asking for Your Heart.. that I want to see your Heart.. I been calling YOU On the Phone.. only hearing your Voice.. that is all I can receive from YOU.. but.. I want More than just hearing your Voice.. that is why I started to ask.. If I can see Your Heart.. will you allow me to see Your Heart.. can I get close to Your Heart and Know what is really in your Heart.. I want to hear Your Heart.. even though it can be very far.. even it can be from a long distance.. but I am just asking for this One thing.. Can YOU Please tell me where is Your Heart.. and I be putting YOU on the Loud speaker.. wanting to hear your Voice.. and YOU telling me you be sending me a Note.. when the Note arrives.. YOU are going to tell me where to GO.. and There.. YOUR HEART is going to be there too.. after I heard this from your voice.. I waited for the Note.. day would go by but it be very long as I would wait for the Note.. the Note comes and it arrives.. as I received the Note from YOU.. I open the front door and some one put the Note on the ground.. I do remember when I opened the front door.. I only found the Note on the ground.. I would go to the Note to pick It UP.. as I hold on and looked at your writing on the Note.. I would read it.. It is at the Park.. there is a Tree.. on a top of the Branch.. the Heart is there waiting.. I should of gone when I received it.. I should of walked right when I received It.. but it was raining Hard and I would hear the wind blowing Hard.. and I wanted to go but why on this day.. and I would just close the Door behind.. I do regret not going at that time.. I should of Gone because It is YOU.. I even told YOU that I be waiting for YOU.. for the Note which it came to me.. I do remember grabbing the Note.. walking into the House.. the Next day.. the Snow comes.. and It be very cold.. for weeks it would be cold with the Snow falling from the sky.. I should of Gone is what I should of done.. the weeks turned into Months now.. I would be waiting for the Snow weather to die down.. But why did I not come at the time YOU send the Note to Me.. as I am sitting on the Ground.. I am just looking UP at this Tree.. hoping maybe your Heart is still here.. am I just too Late.. did I come at the wrong time.. It is because I did Not come right.. I am looking at this Note.. with the Date YOU have written it to tell me when.. But.. LOOK at the time now.. I have decided to wait a little more longer.. and I should of come at the time.. at the Moment YOU wanted me to come and to show the Heart.. as I am sitting.. I would pull the Paper.. the Drawing of Your Heart.. I am still wondering.. will YOUR Heart be here.. I know that deep inside YOUR Heart is not going to be here.. because it is ME to be blamed for Not making it ON time.. I am the One to be blamed.. I was asking YOU.. I was begging for a Chance to see Your Heart.. I wanted too.. I also even brought the Camera with Me.. it has the straps around my Neck so that I can take a picture of Your Heart.. Just in case Your Heart falls from the Branches.. I can catch YOUR Heart with the Glass Jar.. as I would sit on the ground.. I feel so Sad.. I feel so Hurt all of a suddenly.. because I missed Out.. was I afraid to come because of the rain.. if it did Not rained at all.. I know that I would of showed UP 100 percent.. and I would push back saying.. maybe tomorrow.. but even when the tomorrow became today.. the weather did

Just for one day.. I choose not to come because of the weather.. but if I should of known that I would Not see your Heart here today.. then I could of made up my mind to show UP.. because do you not see that Now I am here.. I have come to see your Heart.. prepared and brought everything I told you that what I am going to do.. I told you that I wanted to take a picture of Your Heart.. to get the closer look.. I even told YOU that I drew a Picture of Your Heart.. Not sure the shape or the size but I wanted to know if it is going to be the same imagine of the drawing and Your Real Heart.. I want to see It.. I want to see Your Heart.. I want to hear Your Heart.. even it can be at the Way top of the branch.. as long as it is You.. it is Your Heart.. as I am looking at the Piece of paper.. looking at the drawing of Your Heart.. I wish that I came sooner.. I wish that I came early.. I wish that I would of walked and ran in the rain.. Just to see Your Heart.. just to see the Shape and the Size of Your Heart.. no Matter How wet I be.. or can be sick from the rain.. I could of catch the flu from the cold rain.. but at least I could see Your Heart.. taking the Picture of it.. your Heart.. and when I get the Photo picture of your Heart.. I would of pulled Out the Blank sheet of paper.. and LOOKING at the Photo picture of Your Real Heart.. I would try to draw the One that is in the Photo picture of Your Heart.. and let you see that this is the Heart I see on the Top of the branch and I would of called YOU and ask YOU.. sending the Picture of it.. and I know that at least YOU will know that I came and saw It.. I would be standing in the cold rain.. as I would lift UP the Camera.. as the rain waters would hit me.. I would be standing still.. cold and wet.. but.. as Long as I am Looking at Your Heart.. even for few seconds.. just for blink of an eye.. and I am able to lift UP too take the Picture .. ZOOMING in closer and I would hit the click of the Button of the camera.. I be standing still.. crying in the rain.. and I be saying to myself.. I have been waiting for this very day.. just to look at your Heart.. even from the far.. the distance that leaves me cold and wet.. but I have showed UP.. I have come because I wanted to look at Your Heart.. to see your Heart and to say loud from the afar.. I love YOU.. I came to tell Your Heart.. it is standing on top of the Branch.. so Beautiful.. I want It.. I want that Heart and I would scream from my Heart.. I want It.. I want Your Heart.. Please.. Please give me YOUR Heart because I love YOU.. why can't YOU give me Your Heart so that I can tell YOUR Heart and say to your Heart How much I truly.. really really love YOU.. but the feeling would be at the Best as I would be able to turn the other way.. after I get to see Your Heart.. after I get to LOOK at the Drawing Picture of what I think your Heart looks Like and looking UP at the TOP Branch of this tree and looking actually at Your Heart.. and taking that picture.. taking the picture of Your Real Heart.. and I am able to print out the Photo Picture.. and I do not have to think if it is right but when I am holding the Actual Photo Picture of what I have taken of the Real Heart.. I know that I do not have to imagine it.. but can trace it and copy drawing on a Clean Blanket of Piece of paper.. and I can tell YOU.. I have seen Your Heart.. and here is the proof.. here is what I saw.. and when I saw Your Heart.. I just had to take a closer LOOK.. looking from the ground UP with my eyes was very Hard to know.. but when I put the Camera up.. and I looked through the Lens of the Camera.. able to focus and ZOOM it to get a closer look of your Heart.. I was Moved.. my Heart was moved.. I was touched deep inside.. because It is Your Heart I am looking at.. it is Not another person's heart.. but it is Your Heart who I be loving.. and wanting to see even from afar.. I would say.. even though it be hard for Your Heart to hear me from the ground.. I will tell Your Heart.. I love YOU.. for the first time.. I am saying it loud to YOU.. will you please accept these words of Mine to YOU.. that I love YOU.. and I am just waiting for the day.. I can Hold Your Heart in my arms.. I want to hold Your Heart and tell YOUR Heart.. I am so sorry that I missed YOU.. but I am Not sorry for loving YOU.. missing YOU hurts me More than anything else in the world.. but as long as I can get close to Your Heart.. I only want to see this Heart.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. allow me to love Your Heart please.. will you please let me love YOU more.. love your Heart too.. as I am sitting on the ground.. I would start to cry.. I know that I came just too late.. I am only looking at the Piece of Paper.. the One that I drew thinking this is the shape and the size of Your Heart.. but I needs to see Your Heart.. not what I think it should be.. I should of come.. I have waited just too long or delayed too long.. Now I am missing Your Heart.. tell me where is Your Heart so that I can go.. go where your Heart is so that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. I am so sorry that I came just too later.. Please forgive me and help me again so that I can see Your Heart.. I want to say to Your Heart.. I love YOU.. please tell me.. where do I go now.. where is Your Heart so that I know where to go.. please tell me.. please.. I am looking at the Tree.. standing and it is so Hot.. I see the Sun above me and It is so Hot out here.. sometimes I wonder why do I come to this Tree when it is in the Middle of the day.. when it is the Most hottest of the day.. But.. I have Your Picture with me.. I just love looking at YOU.. the Most Beautiful.. and before I came to this Tree.. I saw a field.. full of flowers and I would stop by to see this One Flower.. the Sun Flower.. and I remember I had to go and grab it.. before someone else can grab this Flower.. walking down.. I would start to sing.. I don't know where the song comes from but as I was walking.. holding the Sun Flower.. holding the Empty Glass Jar.. and I was told that there is a Big Heart.. it is sitting on the Top of a branch.. and told me to go and see it.. I wonder whose Big Heart it is.. but.. I received a Picture of YOU.. and it was a Drawing on a Piece of paper of a Big Heart sitting on top of the Branch.. I received it on the mail box and when someone told me about the Big Heart sitting on the Top of a tree on the Branch.. I smiled and knew whose Heart it is.. SO I would come to this Tree.. Before I was stopped by the Tree.. the field and the Sun Flower.. in the Room I had to go and grab the Empty Glass Jar.. just in case if The Big Heart falls off.. I want to use this Empty Glass Jar to catch Your Heart.. I have placed soft cottons.. many many around.. so fluffy and so soft so that the Heart will not get hurt.. I have come to this Tree.. I know if someone has spotted the Big Heart.. I am sure more people are able to see this Big Heart.. I don't want any one to take Your Heart.. But.. I can't believe it.. I see few people surrounding the Tree.. Cameras are flashing.. finger points at the Big Heart and I would hear some boys talking about getting to that Big Heart.. I am wondering.. there is a large numbers of people here and more people are coming to this Tree.. I turn and next to me is another man.. He has a empty Glass jar and turns and looks at me.. I am holding the same glass jar.. I smile big because I have placed a SUN FLOWER inside the Glass Jar.. so I know that when your Big Heart is able to look.. YOU can look at the Head of the Sun Flower.. so that YOU will know that it is me.. I want to give YOU this Flower.. in the middle of the day.. more people comes to this tree.. but many just stand around and complains it is so hot.. and starts to leave.. I am waiting for the people to leave.. I just want to be here alone and I will wait until all People goes.. people are talking.. and hungry.. I am waiting still.. as I am waiting for the time for all these people.. fifty people.. and I see the numbers goes down.. and It becomes Night.. I see the Moon comes UP.. and I see the stars shine.. I can't believe it.. the Man with the empty glass jar is still here with me.. I think He does not want to leave.. what am I suppose to do.. He keeps on looking up.. waving the Empty Glass jar around.. I smile because the Big Heart.. YOUR Big Heart is still sitting on the TOP of that Branch.. He be waving all through the day.. and I see that He is tired.. and he looks at me.. puts his head down and starts to walk off.. I am so glad.. so happy that everyone is gone.. I am able to take out the Picture of YOU.. Paste it and stick it on the Tree.. I am able to look at your picture.. do I get inspired by your Beauty.. I do love that YOU are so Beautiful.. I am Not going to lie to you that YOU are so amazingly Beautiful.. so Beautiful that I would walk close.. and press my lip on the Picture of YOU.. I will say.. MY MY.. YOU are so Beautiful.. WHY do you have to be this Beautiful.. what if my eyes decides to leave me.. my eyes can cry looking at your picture and will ask my Hand to open wide and both eyes can fall off crying because when I look at YOU through the Picture.. my Heart catches on fire.. it burns me from the inside.. I feel so Hot suddenly because my eyes look at your picture and I would say MY MY.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and I would be looking at Your Picture.. I would place the Glass Jar down.. PULLING out the Sun Flower and I would be looking at you through the Picture.. I want to give you this flower.. How can I give you this Flower.. Please tell me How.. I been waiting out here.. I been waiting where it be YOU and I alone.. in the middle of the Day.. it was pretty crowded.. and many people were waiting too like myself.. wanted to see Your Big Heart.. wanted to get close to Your Big Heart.. I know that Your

Is sitting way up on the Top of the branch of this Tree.. I would look around.. I saw many people come.. even people would be leaving.. another group of people comes.. every time I wanted to pull out Your Picture and paste it on this tree.. I would hear group of people.. voices talking.. I would grab Your Picture pulling back to the pocket.. and I had to just stand here all day.. the SUN had to go down because people still came around.. and at last.. all of the people are gone.. but.. all the eyes were looking at.. It is Your Big Heart.. I even brought the empty Glass jar.. do YOU see it on the ground.. when I received a Picture of YOU.. and also a sketch drawing of Your Big Heart sitting on the top branch of the Tree.. I was so excited because I knew that YOU were telling something.. I would be standing by the window of my room in the House.. asking for Your Heart.. I be asking and asking.. begging for Your Heart.. I been praying if I can have Your Big Heart.. of course I would always ask.. never stopped asking.. keep asking until the answer would be answered.. so I would keep on trying.. asking.. give me a sign.. send me a miracle and I guess YOU must heard me.. I am here by this Tree.. and you gave me the answer.. telling me where Your Heart is.. but Why did you choose on this tree.. this tree is so Big.. I am so small compared to the size of this Big Tree.. I am thankful you gave me a sign.. But look at how tall this Tree is and how short I am compared.. I don't want to just stand here and look UP.. just wondering how I can get to that Big Heart.. as I am looking at your Picture pasted on this Tree.. I am holding the Sun Flower.. I want to give YOU this Flower.. But How.. if YOU are not here.. but Your Big Heart is way UP sitting on the branch of this Tree.. I want to give you this flower.. Tell me How can I give You this flower.. this SUN FLOWER first.. My next is.. I want to touch Your Big Heart.. is there a way I can touch and Hold your Heart.. my hands wants to touch and feel.. the warmth of Your Big Heart.. and My Arms wants to wrap around Your Big Heart.. I want to put my ear next to your Heart.. can I please listen to the beating of Your Big Heart.. I want to hear How Your Heart.. Your Big Heart sound.. I am here so I can ask YOU.. I want to get close to YOU.. I want YOU to know that I really want to get closer to YOU.. but Your Big Heart is sitting on the top of the Branch.. it is on the Highest Branch way UP there.. and YOU know that I am way down here on the ground.. so How do I get to that Big Heart.. It looks so beautiful.. I needs to Hear YOU.. I needs to tell YOU.. I want to talk to Your Heart.. but if Your Big Heart cannot hear me because I am way down here to the ground.. and Your Big Heart way UP on the top.. the highest branch of the Tree.. when I am looking UP.. do you know that my neck hurts.. that is How High it is for me to LOOK at Your Big Heart and yes.. I do see Your Big Heart.. it is so Big.. I am spreading my arms wide.. I want to hold Your big Heart.. and Hug Your Heart and say to Your Heart.. I been waiting for this day for a very long time.. to tell Your Heart How much I love YOU.. I want to bring Your Big Heart closer so that I can tell Your Heart.. speak to Your Heart and tell Your Heart.. I love YOU.. I wonder will you accept my words.. am I allowed to tell YOU this to Your Heart.. that I do love YOU.. what would happen if I get Your Big Heart closer to my lip and I can whisper to Your Big Heart.. I love YOU.. I know for me.. on my part to able to tell you these words.. I am going to be hopping around like a big kid.. because to able to tell YOU these words.. It is a miracle for me.. How can a person like myself be able to tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. the I love YOUR BIG HEART.. will you allowed me to speak these words to Your Heart.. that is why I am here.. I am here at the bottom.. at the ground.. I am looking UP.. but I am able to look at your picture because it is pasted on the tree.. showing Your Picture I am holding something in my hand.. a Flower which I want to say it came from the Middle of the day at the hottest.. the SUN.. can I please give YOU this Flower.. I want to give you to tell you where my Heart is.. why I am giving this flower to YOU.. I know that when I do give you this Sun flower.. I know I be at the most happiest place.. and for YOU to receive it.. the JOY that YOU give me just to give it away.. as I am looking at you through this Picture.. why can't you answer me.. I needs to hear you say something.. but I am not hearing anything right now.. I needs to know.. I want to know.. so Please tell me.. I wants to hear YOU.. and as I am looking at the picture of YOU pasted on this tree.. I would look UP.. at the top branch of the tree.. YOUR BIG Heart still sitting there.. I want that Heart.. I want Your Heart.. NO matter how many times I tell YOU and ask your Picture.. YOU don't answer me.. I look UP at Your Big Heart.. is it because Your Big Heart just can't hear me what I am saying by looking at your picture pasted on this tree.. But I know that I am Not too far.. of course there is a distance.. but I am able to stand here and look UP.. I can see Your Big Heart.. I know that Your Big Heart can here me right.. I been asking and asking.. looking at your picture.. I am looking at this big Window.. and I am wondering is this the right House.. I am holding the Big empty Glass Jar.. around my both arms.. will you please show me if this is the right House.. because I am standing out side looking at this window.. I received Your Picture and YOU wrote me the address to the house telling me that I can stop By.. I wrote you the Letter and the Answer.. finally the responding to the Letters.. YOU have gave me this Picture.. and as I am holding this Big Empty Glass jar.. I asked you for the Big Heart.. I am Not asking for anything else but just this One request.. if YOU can Please give me Your Heart.. WHY do you think that I am standing Out here.. there are many people who are passing By and they would be looking at me if I am so crazy.. Yes.. it looks like I am a Homeless man.. who has No place to Go.. holding this Big Empty glass jar looks like I am begging and asking for money when I don't care about it.. I came here today because I wanted you to know that I am serious about this Big Heart.. Please show me your face once.. Please come to this Big Window and let me know that I am at the right Place of the location of your House.. I been waiting for a while Now.. I came here last Night.. and the Night is almost to end as I am seeing the Day setting In.. Please show me your Beautiful Face.. Please show me that this is the right Address.. I needs to Know.. only YOU can let me know if this Place belongs to YOU.. as I am holding the Big Empty Glass jar.. I am looking at the Sky.. and it suddenly grows pretty Dark.. showing me signs that It might be raining soon.. I cannot go until YOU show me your face.. I did not come all here just to stand here looking like a HOMELESS Beggar man.. I came because I have been asking you for One thing.. that One thing to me is so Special.. it has taken me more than three hours trip.. on a Bus I came.. I had to sleep in the Bus for about two hours.. did Not think that It be this Long of a trip but I had to come.. I would remember.. I would remember.. and I would hear the Loud roar of the thunder.. and as I look UP at the sky.. I see the rain drops falling from the sky.. what if you do Not show UP.. what if I am at the wrong Location.. what if I am at some one else house.. is this the right window because I am looking at the Number of the Address and It is correct from the Back of the Picture YOU gave me.. YOU are the One who wrong this Number and the Address down.. am I suppose to knock on the door.. if I knocked on this Big Window.. will you be hearing the Knocking.. and if you hear the Sound of the knocking of the Window.. will YOU please show me your Beautiful Face.. I think my arms are getting a little tired because Now.. few hours has pass down.. I been standing here as I am waiting for the Rain to pour down on me.. even though YOU may Not give me Your Big Heart.. at least if YOU can just show yourself and come to this window.. at least I know that it was YOU who really send me this Picture with this Address.. and as I would wait.. I see the rain falling down slowly.. I can feel myself getting little wet.. and I am still standing.. my arms around this Big Empty Glass jar.. I did Not bring this Empty Glass Jar to fill it with rain Water.. I should of known that It was going to rain today before I came.. But this is How my Heart feels when I don't see YOU.. when My Heart wants to be filled with water instead.. I came with a great big smile.. with tears in my eyes for Joy.. but I feel like I be leaving with this Empty Glass jar.. filled with waters of rain instead because IN my Heart.. as I am watching the Empty Glass Jar.. this Big Empty Glass Jar with rain waters instead.. My Heart feels like Tears of cry.. I feel like crying instead because I came here to see YOU.. YOU are not even at the Big Window.. I have been waiting out here and Now.. the Rain keeps on falling down from the sky.. I can feel my clothes are getting more wet as the Rain falls down harder from the sky.. as I am looking Up at the Big Window.. Please show me Your Beautiful face.. YOU know that the Bus is coming very soon.. and I do not want to leave without seeing YOU.. My Hope was to have Your Big Heart inside this Big Glass Jar.. I feel so sick.. I feel so Hurt because I came with a Hope.. I came with a one wish.. even though it may NOT be your Big Heart inside the Big

MAH MAH.. I am Kneeling.. two knees are down and Holding the End of the Sword in the sheath.. I would Pull the Sword Out and the sheath hits the Ground.. and I am Looking at the Blade of this Sword.. it is very Sharp.. and YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH who is standing before Me.. with the Big Crown.. King's Queen's Crown putting Together.. and I am Looking at the Blade.. MAH MAH.. I want to tell you something.. for a Very Long Time I wanted to hold this Sword.. because there is ONLY ONE thing in my Mind.. One thing in my Heart.. I know a LOW BORN like myself who came from the Most Poorest Place really Has Nothing to give YOU.. what can I truly give YOU MAH MAH.. I know that having Nothing.. coming from the Least and from the Most Poorest Place where there is NO CHANCE to survive.. I had One Dream though.. if there is NOTHING that I can Do.. and Only thing I can do is wait to Die.. then I know that I at least needs to do something before I do Go.. and I would watch the Boys who grew UP in the Garden.. Always wanted to hold a real Sword.. and if there was a way MUST have the WILL to do so.. and I know that I had to do something to HOLD.. a real Sword like this.. growing UP as the Poor in the Garden and Only thing was holding the Sticks.. branches of a stick that has fallen off.. when I heard about the Opening for the Military Arts.. the training Camp on the training ground.. I knew that I wanted to Go.. I wanted to grab this real Sword.. but I knew that I was just too young when I first heard the Good News about the Opening wide for New Recruits.. I remember asking my Father if I can go and enter the Camp.. the training camp.. My Father told me that I could NOT go because they would NOT accept Me because of my age being just too YOUNG.. I wanted to Hold this real Sword because I wanted to FIGHT.. Fight on your Behalf.. my Heart is to always to Protect YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. to protect you whatever It takes.. even at the YOUNG AGE I was at.. I would Beg my Father.. I had to go.. if they reject me there.. at least Let me try to ask if I can GO.. but my father told Me that I just could NOT go at that time.. I was heart broken.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I wanted to see YOU again.. at least be in the Camp.. in the training ground even if I can't see you around.. because I knew at least I be much closer if I was at the Training Camp.. breathing Hard because I knew.. I just could Not wait.. but I knew that my Father was right.. He knew that I had to wait until I grew a little Older.. but I never stopped Dreaming.. I would keep on coming OUT at night.. LOOKING UP at the MOON.. should I go and try.. even if I be rejected.. and the Camp will Not allow Me to get In.. should I still try.. maybe some way or some HOW I can go.. and I would LOOK UP at the MOON and Cry.. MAH MAH.. I would shout from the TOP of my Lungs.. and say MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. DO YOU Hear Me.. Can you Hear me because I am dreaming of a way to get more CLOSER to YOU.. I know that YOU are very busy as the HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. if YOU cannot come to Me.. I know for sure I will make the time to go to YOU.. at least help ME to enter the CAMP.. that is the Only way My Dreams can come true closer because here in the Garden.. I know that It is so much Far.. WHAT DO I DO.. ever since I saw YOU by the Ocean Waters with your FATHER the KING.. PEH HA.. I know that I just can't stop thinking of YOU.. with me is the ART SKETCH PAPER.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. MAH MAH.. if I go to the CAMP.. will you ALLOW me to stay there.. will you allow me to be a part of the Military Armed service to become a Fighter and a Protector for YOU.. I NEED the SWORD.. I need the real Sword in my Hand.. so that I can say Finally I am a part and that NOW my Dreams are coming true because I am so much closer to YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please help me.. I had to wait for a long time.. when I met the Older MAN.. the Teacher and the One who was a great friend to my grand father.. there was a real Sword in his House and I remember He told me the story of Many Battles He fought with my Grand father next to HIM.. winning many Wars.. it was fierce when YOU fight on the ground in any Wars you must face against the enemies who is trying to KILL YOU.. and I remember that the Older MAN.. the Teacher told me that when HE gives me and writes the OFFICIAL SEAL for me to go into the Training Camp.. and I was able to take the Sword that my Grand father had with him.. When I passed the test the Older MAN.. the Teacher gave me with the Official SEAL.. the Letter.. he also gave me the Sword which my Grand father would Have.. WHEN I held the Sword.. the REAL SWORD.. I thought of YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. pulling the end of the Sword Out of the Sheath.. and LOOKING at the Blade of the Sword.. ONLY YOU.. I would LOOK at the sword of the Blade and I cried that very NIGHT.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I now have a real SWORD in my Hand.. that means I am getting closer to YOU.. NOT JUST for Me.. I know that there is NOTHING FOR ME to give.. I am very Poor.. what can a POOR man do.. but coming this Far and had to wait this Long.. and leaving the Garden and leaving the POOR life behind me.. I am entering a NEW LIFE stage that is going to YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I always dreamed of holding a real Sword so that I can HELP rebuild.. I can support YOUR RULING to defend.. to HELP defend YOUR NATION and even to Protect YOU.. I have put ALL of it.. My Heart has go ALL IN to get this Real sword to be held by my hand.. because ALL I think of YOU.. I know that I may Not give Much or can't give YOU anything at all.. But I do want to say that I love YOU.. that I never stopped believing in Loving YOU that ONE DAY SOON I will see you again.. that I am going to get closer to YOU.. Looking at the Blade of the Sword.. I fell on my two knees.. and I am LOOKING toward the MOON.. and I would put my arm stretch Out forward and I would LOOK my Head to the Ground.. the proper way to TELL YOU that I am Going to YOU.. to TELL YOU MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I have passed.. the Teacher.. the Older MAN who took care of ME and has teach me the Military Arts.. He told me that I am now ready to enter the Camp to make a Soldier.. a Warrior for YOU.. I just could NOT believe that I was holding this real Sword.. and It belonged to my Grand father.. I am NOTHING LIKE my grand Father because HE was the CHIEF COMMANDER.. but I am Nothing.. but having this Sword held in my Hand meant that NOW I am able to use it with a Purpose.. that I can NOW fight.. and go into the CAMP to be a REAL Soldier to know More about the Military Arts and that is the way to get MORE CLOSER to YOU.. Knowing this is the Key Point.. that I can NOW enter the CAMP means a lot.. and Looking UP at the MOON.. and waiting for the New Day to Come so that I can go to the Palace.. to the training CAMP and trying to Pass the exams.. that was the Only Focus I had because I knew that was the Only way I can see YOU AGAIN.. that I can be closer.. that when something Happens I can be right There ready to FIGHT to defend and to protect YOU MAH MAH.. and it has been such an Amazing Journey ever since I passed even at the Training Camp.. and entering the Training Ground.. BUT MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am holding the Sword that my Grand father once held who was here at the Palace.. who was serving Your Father who was the Late King.. PEH HA.. and I heard He would enter many Wars that broken here.. NOW I am holding the Sword which it is the ONLY ONE THING I had in my Heart that can ONLY be the Key to get closer to YOU.. MAH MAH.. I never stopped Loving YOU.. that was the engine in my Heart.. that WILL and the Drive only can COME because I knew that I kept on loving YOU.. for one Purpose is to Protect.. I never stopped the Promise of making to YOUR FATHER.. to My FATHER and to YOU MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is the PROMISE I made to keep my Word because I kept on loving YOU still.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the reason why I am sharing this Story is because Letting YOU know still.. that I love YOU.. that it is because I kept on thinking of YOU and I would miss YOU most times.. and Only this SWORD helped me to keep me alive this very Day.. losing YOU and knowing that YOU.. MAH MAH was so far.. but I had One set in mind.. that I only needed to have and held this Real Sword.. Once My hand gets to it and my Hand can hold this Sword.. I believe loving YOU and Letting YOU know how much I do love YOU will come sooner.. that I be closer to let YOU MORE as the time keeps ON going.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. can YOU please Look at this Sword I am holding.. it is the Sword that I never thought that I can have.. but it is a real Sword Now that I am holding into my Hand.. and It meant to always Fight and to Protect YOU MAH MAH.. for this People and for this Nation when danger comes around.. when the enemies attack.. it is this Sword who is going to help YOU to rebuild this Nation to be in its right Place.. and I would see YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the QUEEN.. as YOU would walk closer and YOU STOP.. my hands both holding the Side of the Sword and arms lift up and I see your hands grabbing and holding into your Hands.. it is because of this I am allowed to get into the Camp.. into the training camp because without this Sword.. the real Sword.. I know that I would NOT be here today letting YOU Know how much YOU means to me and that YOU are the Love of my Life.. that I love YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am letting YOU know because.. My Heart

MAH MAH.. YOU this Much.. loves YOU this Far.. that NOW you can see How much and How far I came because I never stopped Loving YOU and kept on dreaming of getting Closer to YOU.. I just wanted to say to YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. thank YOU for Opening the Gates and receiving the Letter.. the Official seal stamped by the Teacher.. the OLDER MAN to help me get inside to the CAMP.. I know my Words can't express enough.. my Words are Never enough but I started from the Poorest Place.. who had NO DREAMS at ALL.. I came from where People just can't have dreams at ALL.. but just be ready to Die.. and I would ask myself why even be born if there is NOTHING MORE to Life than to wait to Die doing Nothing.. and having Nothing.. and It really crushed my Heart when I only saw that at the Garden.. that is why I wanted to flee for a Long time.. to a Better place to have a Better chance to see a Better future.. that is when I met YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. when YOU were sitting on the Horse.. and Your Father.. PEH HA.. the KING.. who was walking on bare Feet.. pulling on the strings of the Horse.. when my Father FELL before the King.. PEH HA.. and I heard him say PEH HA.. I knew that YOU were his Daughter.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. who can give a chance to better Life.. better Place and a Better Future to Fight and to protect for YOUR NATION.. and seeing How Big your Heart really is.. I knew that Only way is to Go to YOU.. GO to the camp with the Real Sword is the Only way I can enter the Training camp for the Training Ground.. and I want to say NOW as my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. thank YOU for accepting Me and allowing me to enter this Camp.. Now do YOU see that Sword in your hands.. I had to fight to get that sword into my Hands and Now.. I am holding that Sword just to Protect YOU and to say that I really Love YOU.. that I do Love YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. YOU know that I love YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please let my Words hits Your Heart that I wants to make it clear.. that I love YOU.. I am kneeling before You.. two knees are down with my arm stretch forward.. my Head looking at the ground.. I just cannot believe that YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. which I was sitting in the prison.. waiting for the day for me to die.. waiting for the death sentence.. YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH giving me another chance.. and I see you.. MY QUEEN.. wearing the White dress with the Big KING QUEEN Crown on top of your Head.. behind you is the Master Black Smith.. who was making my Sword sharper and stronger for the War.. and He is walking and He falls before YOU.. two knees are down.. Head looking to the ground.. hands holding the Sheath of the Sword.. hands UP.. arms raised UP and I see YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH turning around to LOOK at the Master Black Smith.. I hear shouting behind me.. and is this real HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you are giving me back my Position.. are you really letting me enter the War.. and as I turn back my head to LOOK back.. the Seven Friends of Mine.. they are standing there with Tears in the eyes and I turn my Head to look at YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. and My Head looks on the ground.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. YOU know that I deserve the death penalty and I was ready to DIE.. even if I can't enter the war.. the battle ground and If I was sure to Die for this Nation this WAY.. I still of been the Most Happiest Man.. happiest person that I get to serve and be right CLOSE to you as I am.. YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. has allowed me to be at the service.. even it was YOU who allowed me to come into the training Camp.. into the Training ground to practice More.. I remember YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. when I was practicing at the Military Arts and I showed YOU the Official Seal.. and YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you could of rejected me at the Door of the entrance of the gates.. I remember One Night.. sleeping in the tent with the Recruits.. and they were as New as I was.. I saw YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. sitting on the Horse.. and with the TOP CHIEF OFFICIALS.. and I walked out of the tent.. just to see the New Morning of the day.. I saw one of the Men.. who were the Highest Chief standing and He comes to me.. and gave me a Key.. I had no idea what this was all about but the COMMANDING OFFICIAL in the highest position at that time looks at me.. if I go with this Key.. it is where the BOOKS are located and has many studies of the military Arts that I can look at.. it be enough once I read all of the Books there.. I be able to Protect and to defend HWANG WOO MAH MAH and I saw him leaving me and walking to YOU.. I just can't believe that YOU gave me this One key.. and I knew I had to check it Out.. and has to start looking into these BOOKS.. to study and to learn.. to train and practice the Military Arts.. My HOPE and DREAMS is to bring this NATION to you so that YOU CAN RULE over and be at the Head over.. and I knew.. if I did NOT do this NOW.. I believe some one else can do it before Me who has Power and has family line connection to your Father.. the KING.. PEH HA.. as I watched YOU sitting on the Horse I see the Horse turning around leaving the Training camp where I was in the Tent as the New Recruit.. I remember early in the Morning.. I would get UP.. the HIGHEST CHIEF officer gave me this paper Map.. so that I can enter the DOOR.. with this NAME BADGE only to go into the BOOK keeping Place.. I went into the Door into the room.. thousands of BOOKS all over the Place only for the Military Arts.. I remembering having the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. and I would unfold to LOOK at you in this Picture.. I started to cry.. I just could Not believe that YOU are giving me this Kind of chance that can change My Life for ever and I was NOT going to waste no time trying.. I would look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU and I would say.. How can a Low Born person like me ever learn like this.. How can I ever thank YOU for this KIND of chance.. I had No idea there would be knowledge for the Military Arts but I would Keep dreaming that I needs to always fight ON your Behalf.. I had to see something greater because I came from the Garden.. there was NO Learning at the Garden.. NO HIGHER education.. where I can grow.. I needed to grow More and as I be looking around this ROOM filled with BOOKS everywhere.. I just could NOT stop.. opening ONE BOOK and I would cry flipping page to page reading and looking at the pictures of hand movements of Arts.. the MILITARY ARTS.. even though I may be very small as a Person.. I know that I want to do bigger and greater things to help YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH to accomplish YOUR PLACE as the TOP HEAD over the Kingdom.. the NATION you will rule.. with this KIND OF help.. I would be looking at your Picture.. the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. and I would say.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I see how Big your Heart really Is.. I see that YOU Have a BIG HEART.. Not even a person like me can think of this.. who would ever help a LOW BORN like Me.. NO ONE cares about me but I see that YOU DO and I would start weeping Loud as I be looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. I remember grabbing One Book.. leaving the ROOM and locking the Door and walking to the training Camp.. to the training Ground.. in the morning practicing with the New Recruits and at Night.. I would be looking at the BOOK reading and studying the Military Arts.. I would LOOK at the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU and say.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. ONE day YOU will see that this Key that YOU gave me.. It was NOT a waste of Your time of giving the key to the person.. because I am going to do what is right to HELP to rebuild YOUR NATION.. as I am Looking at the Ground and thinking about when I first came to the training Camp.. and started to practice on the training Ground.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I would return back to that ROOM where the BOOKS were and I would start to read Another Book after I finished the Previous One I had in my Hand.. I knew that It was the starting point for this NATION to become.. without the Knowledge and understanding.. without the Learning I believe that I would of been just Another Recruit who never had anything More to give.. but when I saw YOUR HEART HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I knew that YOU.. MY QUEEN.. YOU are going to do greater things.. I believe that I am NOTHING.. I came from the Most POOREST PLACE.. who would ever thought that I can do anything.. but when I saw that YOU HAVE received the OFFICIAL SEAL.. and gave me the key to enter the ROOM to have BOOKS.. my Heart of loving YOU grew so Large.. because I knew I was at NO MATCH.. there are these royal PRINCES.. from different kingdoms who would Love to make you their WIVES.. WHEN YOU received the Flower.. the rare flower that was at the Garden which My Mother gave to my Father before her passing.. telling me to give this Flower to the ONE WHO I truly Love and when I saw YOU receiving it even though I knew it had NOT much of meaning at that time.. for Me it means the World to Me.. I cried watching you taking that Flower because it came from my MOTHER giving it to me.. I never saw my Mother and I know it mean something when she gave it to me through my Father.. when I saw that.. even though it may not be much to YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I knew I wanted to change to be the Strongest and smartest for YOU.. YOU ARE the QUEEN of the NATION.. I wanted to be the best I can Be for YOU.. just to protect and to defend is all I wanted to give YOU.. but that is the HEART I always have

MAH MAH.. And I started the Process.. NOW I am here.. even with much BOOKS of reading and learning.. knowing and understanding.. I begin to see that I wanted to be More closer to YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. to be the right MAN for the MILITARY ARTS as the warrior who can protect YOU and this NATION for ever.. and I would hear the Seven friends of Mine.. they all came running and Kneeled.. two knees goes DOWN.. arms stretched forward and the Heads all looks on the Ground.. and the 1st Top General with His seven Men and the 2nd TOP General.. with his Seven Men.. all goes Down.. kneels before YOU.. two knees hit the floor.. arms stretched forward and Heads all Looks on the ground.. My QUEEN.. I see you holding the Sheath of the Sword from the Master Black Smith and I see you turn and I raise UP my arms and you laid if down on my hands.. I can't believe I am having this SWORD BACK.. YOU have helped me to get me where I am At.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would put my arms down and my Hand grabs the end of the SWORD and I pull it Out of the sheath and LOOKING at the BLADE.. it shines through.. I put the Sheath down and raise UP the Right ARM hand holding the Sword.. closing Both Eyes.. I would shout Hard.. MAN SAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I head all of the MEN behind me raising UP their VOICES.. pulling Out their Swords with the RIGHT ARMS HOLDING the SWORDS.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN.. and I would raise UP MY VOICE HIGHER.. MAN SAE TO HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I hear all of the MEN BEHIND ME SHOUTING OUT LOUDER MORE after hearing the story I shared to THEM.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN and I would be in tears crying.. MY HEART is truly Moved and touched by your kindness to me and I shout LOUDER MORE.. MAN SAE TO HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN.. and the MEN BEHIND ME SHOUTS OUT LOUDER MORE.. MAN SAE TO HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN and all of us are in tears crying.. and I put the sword down on the ground.. thinking about the key.. thinking about reading the pages of the BOOK when I had NO CHANCE to do so.. I am thinking about YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. sitting on the Horse as I would watch the Highest CHIEF COMMANDING OFFICER returning back to YOU after giving me the Key to enter that ROOM full of BOOKS.. and I just can't stop thinking that DAY.. waiting in the Line with all the new MEN wanting to join the military arts.. and when I came to the entrance.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is standing with the Guard sitting on the table and I gave you and show you the Official Seal and YOU looked at me.. the Guard tells me to leave but YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH lets me in with my friend.. and I just can't stop thinking about those days of the beginning because I just had to be with YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I never stopped dreaming of the day that we would meet again.. I have looked UP at the MOON.. days walking alone thinking about when can I see YOU again.. that I needed to be close to YOU that I needed to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would be looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I had many nights and weeks.. days and months and years to practice telling it that I love YOU.. I would say it to the Art sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. MAH MAH.. I love YOU.. but.. I know that YOU do Not know it that I do.. even though I may be able to say it to the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. after a time.. I would feel so Sad because I want YOU to hear it and for YOU to know it.. what good is it if I say it thousand times or millions of times to the ART SKETCH PAPER.. the Drawing picture of YOU but never be able to say it to YOU In Person MAH MAH.. and I knew I had to say it before I die one day.. does NOT matter If I die by the sword that day I say it to YOU because at least YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH will know it before I am gone.. I would sit and LOOK at the Art sketch Paper.. Nights pulling to look at the Picture of YOU.. I would say it to the Picture of YOU.. MAH MAH I LOVE YOU.. WHY CAN'T you hear Me.. MAH MAH.. do YOU hear my words telling you that I love YOU.. can YOU Hear me.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I love you.. put the blade of the sword on my neck.. Let me say it to YOU ONCE.. before I die.. and I had to get to YOU even if I died in the road traveling to YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. but one thing about loving YOU is this.. that I am NOT afraid to Die because of loving YOU.. when YOU are always prepared to die.. and YOU KNOW that ONE DAY YOU WILL.. you don't be scared any more.. but when YOU start to love.. the way I do Love YOU MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. dying becomes something you are ready to give because that Is HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. the day I do die.. at least YOU WILL remember that there was a PERSON of the Least.. the smallest person you have known who never stopped Loving YOU because even then I never stopped LOVING YOU.. even this very day My Heart of loving YOU is still the same but Stronger.. I have become more stronger Loving YOU.. I had to face many storms just to get to YOU and still facing.. but.. I love YOU.. NO MATTER what comes in the way.. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I love YOU.. MY QUEEN.. I LOVE YOU.. and I would lift UP my Head.. LOOKING at YOU standing before YOU with tears in my eyes.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I LOVE YOU.. MAN SAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I LOVE YOU.. HOO RAY TO MY QUEEN.. I LOVE YOU.. and my arm stretches out forward and My Head looks at the ground.. I am looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. in the Prison.. I am missing YOU already.. even though YOU just left HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. if you never came to visit Me here in the Prison.. I think I would not feel this Hurt in my Heart.. even though I love you where It has end me here.. I know that I must face what is ahead of Me.. but I wish that YOU came remember Me if I die in here.. if I do not get Out of here in the Prison and I know that I am ready to Die if I have too.. it is all UP to YOU MAH MAH.. it is ALL UP to YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am going to go where I needs to go if there is NO NEXT.. and if this is where I am suppose to end right here.. I know that I did my Best to get where I am at.. but if there is Next.. Please HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. please reconsider.. Please think of Me HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. know that I get do and go a little More for this Nation.. for this Country if YOU are willing to help Me.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. you know that I did ALL this because I love YOU.. even to able to write and to tell YOU a LOVE STORY that I needed to share.. I needed to tell YOU THIS in a way that ONLY YOU can receive.. How can I tell YOU and write YOU this Kind of a story.. it is because I loved YOU when I first saw YOU.. of course I did NOT KNOW what it was at first.. but I knew that there was going to be some kind of a story I wanted to tell YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU this because It comes from the Bottom.. the very soul and the root of my Heart.. I just could not get YOU OFF my Mind when I saw YOU smile.. I just could not believe you even came to the Garden.. in the Garden is the Poorest Place.. at the rock Bottom of People.. that NO ONE looks for and NO ONE cares for.. it is a place where I came from.. I knew that I was at the Most Poorest place that NO ONE thought about.. But when YOU came to visit the Garden the first time.. I am here sitting in the Prison.. having this Much time gives me the space to think about the very first day.. I am looking at this Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and given me this much time here.. I am able to think about the first day.. before It was so busy of trying to bring people together.. MEN to train and practice for the War.. but I had no time to really think about anything then.. but here in the Prison.. sitting here and LOOKING at the ART SKETCH PAPER.. the drawing picture of YOU.. it gives me more time of HOW Important it is for me to have this space.. to really think of YOU MAH MAH.. to Know that I been loving you for such a Long time.. that I been always loving YOU but never given a time like this to think of HOW much I love you.. I asked the Prison Guard for a sheet of Paper.. and with the brush and Ink.. and I am putting the time to write you this Letter.. if it is time for me to go soon.. if My time is coming to the Close.. coming to the end and I am suppose to die here anytime soon.. before I breathe my Last breathe and MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you can't get me Out.. then I want to tell YOU through this Letter before I go.. before I am gone.. and to tell YOU this Heart of HOW MUCH I Love you.. YOU know this MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you know this as much as I know.. the First time YOU came to the Garden.. I was on the UP HILL.. standing by the tree.. Looking at the Bed of Flowers.. that was the day that changed the COURSE of my Life.. I never thought or even dreamed of YOU.. MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN ever visiting the GARDEN.. when I heard from the friend calling me to get down.. and that IT was YOU MAH MAH.. I thought it was a prank.. a JOKE.. why would HWANG WOO MAH MAH come visit the MOST LOWEST PLACE.. why come to this GARDEN when YOU belonged in the Palace.. where ALL of the People who are looking for work.. they would ditch and relocate to the Palace.. asking the KING.. your FATHER.. PEH HA for a place of work.. NO ONE LIVES in the Garden and everyone who does lives here wants to escape the Life of this POOR.. the most poorest poverty and they go.. and I am thinking

MAH MAH.. the NEXT SUCCESSION.. after watching YOUR FATHER PEH HA.. the KING.. walking alone with YOU.. I knew at that TIME.. something very important MESSAGE is being passed down to YOU THAT DAY.. why would the NEXT RULER on the LINE come to a place.. there are so many people from the TOP NOBLE FAMILIES that goes to the Palace.. wanting a Place of seat to be close to the RULER.. the SUCCESSION.. and I came down thinking.. if this is a prank.. I am going to choke and WHEN I SAW YOU on the SAME HORSE that day.. sitting and waiting.. I fell down.. my face flat touching the ground.. I just could NOT BELIEVE it is HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. is it really HWANG WOO.. IS IT REALLY MAH MAH who is sitting on that HORSE and I am thinking to my self.. WHY WOULD YOU COME to the GARDEN.. and of course I never knew because I Heard you walked in that Garden before I was called by the friend which I was at the HILL TOP by the tree.. HE called me when YOU were leaving the GARDEN.. of course I did Not know any of this but after YOU departed.. after I gave you the FLOWER and before YOU left for good.. the Guard who put the sword on my neck which HE could of executed on that spot.. when YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH told that GUARD not too.. my eyes both closed SHUT.. and when I opened the eyes to LOOK.. I saw you on the HORSE.. sitting on the TOP of the Horse and I saw the Guard behind walking.. following the Horse.. and I knew.. there must be a reason WHY you came.. WHY WOULD HWANG WOO MAH MAH come to the Most LOWEST PLACE like here in the Garden.. I heard also.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH went to the VILLAGE and has visited the People there too.. and you.. MAH MAH looked around the Place.. just like here.. the VILLAGE is like the POOREST.. the second too.. so the Poor people are always fighting against each Other because we just can't live like this.. and WHEN I saw YOU on that HORSE.. and HOW you commanded that GUARD not to strike Me.. I went into the TENT.. like the HUT HOME and I sat to think about this Situation and It really touched my Heart.. some one told me in the Garden that YOU are looking for the People who can join the Military Arts and looking at the YOUNG BOYS the Next in line.. to help to rebuild the Armed forces.. the MILITARY MEN.. giving them ranks in the future.. WHEN I heard this News from the Friend who called me.. because HWANG WOO MAH MAH spoke to HIM.. I was truly alarmed at the News because it became a GOOD NEWS.. and I knew at that moment.. YOU are giving the POOREST YOUNG MEN chances to do something for the future.. the NOBLE FAMILY MEMBERS are the Lucky Ones I would think and yes.. many of them get the better shot of making it.. but I heard.. many people who grew UP Here in the Garden.. when they go to the Palace asking for a place of work.. they get declined and many dies living in the Poverty unable to feed the families.. and I would sit crying.. and I would be thinking of YOU.. that It must be true.. that how MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is giving this chance for Us.. YOU look at the Hearts of young MEN TOO who are uneducated and who are the POOREST who has no chance at anything.. WHEN I HEARD from the Close friend of MINE.. I would cry in the Night.. because I know that there is a way.. there is a DREAMS even for the MOST UNWORTHY PEOPLE.. that there is a HOPE and a WILL.. Dreams can come true when YOU MEET the right person who wants to give and NOW I am sitting here in the Prison.. of course I did NOT think of this because long time has passed.. but when I am sitting here alone.. and LOOKING at this ART SKETCH PAPER.. the DRAWING PICTURE OF YOU.. and Just thinking of the beginning.. and it takes me here to think back and to appreciate and to thank YOU for that chance.. and when that came UP.. and when I was told about how YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is also opening the DOOR for the People who lives in the Garden and even in the VILLAGE.. a great celebration has taken Place.. feast was happening and hearing songs and dancing going On.. the fathers in the garden looks at their young sons.. the CHANCE to change to live a better life.. and people celebrated all through the Night.. I did Not join in the celebration but I saw the MOON.. the MOON APPEARED very big that NIGHT and that is when I saw the SIZE of your HEART.. LOOKING UP at the MOON.. I would stand still and say.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. your HEART is so BIG.. I believe your FATHER.. the KING.. PEH HA knows that YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. it is the ONE with the BIG HEART for the People.. RICH or POOR.. NOBLE or the GARDEN.. it does not matter what families you come from but.. as long as it is People who YOU LOVE.. the SIZE OF that BIG HEART.. and I would fall on the two knees and Head LOOKS UP at the MOON.. is that HOW BIG your HEART is.. can I touch that BIG HEART.. will my arms NOT be able to go around that BIG HEART that the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH HAS.. but even the Broken People.. who has no chance.. means there is NO CHANGE.. but when YOU OPEN the door and even allow the Poorest people to come.. and to accept.. I believe it starts with YOUR BIG HEART.. I love that BIG HEART.. the MOON SIZE HEART that YOU HAVE HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Now I am thinking about why so many men has come.. More people are coming all over the world just to join the Military Arts.. and there is NO ROOM for these New Recruits.. but when the NUMBERS keeps on growing I believe that UNITY is what is going to HELP YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH to win this WAR.. even the CHILDREN are ready to fight.. and I was crying watching little boys walking ahead.. holding UP the sticks to fight.. I could NOT stop the tears because I was truly Moved.. touched in my Heart because I would ask.. YOU are just too young and I hear.. for the LOVE of this NATION and for the TRUE SUCCESSOR.. we must fight to live if I SHALL DIE and I would cry Harder because even myself feels this way.. I WILL FIGHT for YOU MAH MAH.. and I will die if I have too for YOU and for this NATION.. but I don't want to just die yet.. I want to first see PEACE JOY LOVE AND UNITY in the LAND before I die.. and I believe.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. TO MY QUEEN.. HOORAY.. and I am in the Prison alone.. two knees down.. both eyes closed.. Head looking down.. arms raising UP for YOU MAH MAH.. for MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would shout in the Prison ALONE.. IF I DIE.. Please remember these words of MINE.. MANSAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. arms raises UP.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN.. HOORAY.. ARMS raises UP and in tears I am crying thinking of YOU.. HOOR RAY AND MAN SAE to My QUEEN.. to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am sitting Down in the Prison.. Shouting Out Loud.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I love you.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. I love YOU.. Please reconsider and Help me Get out of this Prison.. YOU know that deep inside.. It is because I love YOU.. ALL this time I been telling YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please reconsider and Get me Out of this Prison WALL.. after the War.. you can put me back into the Prison and I call be executed as the TREASON if you still want to put me to Death but I am asking YOU.. Please reconsider.. I can at least take some Men down in the War.. YOU know that I have been here all along.. just to fight On the Behalf of this Nation.. for this Country and I know that I can be a help.. a useful some How.. and my Hands holding onto the Prison Bar.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. why are you doing this to Me.. why are you.. YOU know that I have made an Oath.. a Promise to the KING.. Your Father.. I have made the Promise to your FATHER PEH HA.. when I was young.. YOU do not remember.. but you.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOU told me that YOU do remember when I came on that Horse.. I made and swear an Oath.. Not just to YOU MY QUEEN.. but to your Father and to My Father.. after the Peace of this Country and the Nation.. YOU can put me to death or let me fight in the BATTLE FIELD and if I die there.. at least I have serve my Nation.. the Country to help to Build for YOU.. I just can't die here in the Prison WALLS.. at least give me the chance to fight if I shall pass as Treason.. I rather die with the Men out who fights with me and for YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. and I would sit.. letting going the Bars of the Prison.. and I would turn to LOOK DOWN.. looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU and I start to cry.. MY FIST hitting my Chest.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. at least I want to die as a soldier.. I came this Far for this reason.. for this Purpose.. I came out of the Poorest Place.. and I had to come this very far so that I can serve my Country.. My Nation to love YOU.. after I started to find Out that I loved YOU.. I wanted to do much more than This that I too have my own worth and value.. to be a Soldier so that I can at least be a help to fight.. to fight on your Behalf.. HELP ME to finish the reason WHY I am here.. Please reconsider so that I can fulfill my purpose who Loves YOU to fight on your Behalf for this NATION.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please consider and reconsider for Me.. and I am Looking down.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU and I am touching.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. why are you making me to suffer like this.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. and I am hearing some kind of noises and Loud sounds out side.. like a CANON BALLS hitting against the Walls.. and I would lift UP

MAH MAH.. Am looking around.. WHAT IS that Noise.. what is happening.. and I hear the PRISON DOOR OPENS and and I turn around.. a Prison Guard with the Keys and I lift UP to look at.. the Closest friend of Mine comes with the Prison Guard and He looks at me.. that the QUEEN is allowing me to step Out.. and fight in the WAR.. I Just can't believe it.. and I start to cry MORE AND MORE.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. thank YOU so Much to do what I am called here to DO.. MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. and I would fold the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing of YOU.. MAH MAH.. and I would get up and walk Out of the Prison DOOR.. and with the Closest Friend behind me.. I step Out side.. and I see you standing there.. In the White Dress with the BIG CROWN ON top of your Head.. and YOU are standing with the TOP MILITARY OFFICIALS and Officers.. and I look MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would drop on two Knees.. and My Head looks Down.. my arm stretches Out forward.. and I see that YOU PULL out the King's swords and points to Me.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I can't stop my tears and I am looking at the Ground.. giving me the Permission to speak as I am shedding my Tears.. I thank YOU.. you know that I love YOU.. and that is why the main reason I was able to get out from the Garden is because I knew that I started to Love YOU.. there was NO Other way to express to get it Out.. when I find Out that My Heart started to Love YOU.. I knew that I was going to face the Prison.. and Yes.. the Prison was the Only door that was looking for Me.. I knew that One day I was going to go to prison.. even the great warning sign came to me from my Father.. my Father told me that if I keep on loving YOU.. how he showed me the grave of my Mother and I saw my father come in a wagon but it was his dead body that came to the garden.. I lost both parents at the young age and I remember my father's words telling me.. if I continue to love YOU MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the Prison Door awaits for me and Death will come knocking on the door.. Many people that I knew warned me when they saw the ART SKETCH PAPER.. the drawing picture of YOU.. I was told by many elders growing UP.. if I keep up loving YOU.. the Prison is waiting for me and I shall die in Prison.. even though I heard many words and faced so much oppositions.. I just could not stop give UP loving YOU MAH MAH.. I went to Prison Once and going back twice.. and I knew this time I will not get Out.. and I was ready to Die.. but never imagined that YOU would become HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and yes.. My Heart.. I knew if I die today and to die in the Prison.. I would be the Happiest to made it to this Place but what Got to me before I would die.. the WAR.. I wanted to finish one last time before I take my last breathe which kept up late into the Night.. that I could Not sleep.. If I would choose to die.. I wanted to Die in the Battlefield in the War.. with the MEN who came out with me.. to die as Brothers in band and I would say.. at last Breathe I served my Country.. I die for a great cause and THAT is to serve my country and to Let YOU SEE.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I wanted to show you at least I fought hard to get to the Place I am at and to show YOU HOW MUCH I Love YOU.. it started with finding out that I loved YOU or else I could Not come this very far.. thinking of you many Nights.. far and distance YOU were at.. and thinking of ways HOW TO get to you and to be close to YOU MAH MAH.. I never gave UP the dreams of getting close and to let YOU KNOW MAH MAH.. what is in my Heart.. to let YOU know.. even though I can die by your SWORD as the ROYAL BLOOD LINE.. at least I can share and show YOU.. even though I can die in your hands.. let me tell you before I die was the only thing that was in my Heart.. I was never afraid to tell YOU because I always loved.. I was never afraid to go to Prison walls because If I had.. I would of never started in the first place.. which it leads me where I am at now.. to show YOU that I never stopped loving YOU.. I already been in this Prison WALLS twice but I am asking for a permission.. to allow me to finish the WORK that has been placed in my hands.. I rather die serving my country as the Military soldier who fights for YOU.. MY QUEEN.. on your Behalf.. I am NOT afraid of anything NOW because.. I do remember leaving the Garden and I was set alone.. I lost everything when I left that Garden.. I had to face the WINTER storm all alone with me there was NO ONE.. Most people left the Garden and I had to leave too.. facing the storm all alone.. only place I was thinking was the Palace.. I will try to go and ask the help there.. and I would walk alone.. it was cold and scary at first but I had YOU IN my MIND.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO.. I had YOU in my Heart.. walking into the woods.. LOOKING UP AT THE sky.. looking at the stars leading the direction.. did not think that the WINTER would come so soon and so fast.. snowing did not help me.. and I could not eat for many days.. it got to the Point my Body just could not go ON.. so I knew.. I can't go on and I would fall in the SNOW.. with me I would say.. AM I going to die without ever seeing YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I could Not move.. and I would close my eyes thinking that I am going to die here.. I knew that it was my last.. and I was thinking in my mind.. I should not of left the Garden if this was going to happen.. if the WINTER was coming soon.. I should of waited.. I heard the People in the village next to the Garden came to attack and raided.. most people in the garden died of the raided Band of People in the Garden.. either way.. But I woke UP and was in a Home.. and I am looking at the ground.. the tears would not stop because.. I knew.. and I would lift UP my Head to show you my tears.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I faced many difficulties.. many obstacles against the ODDS.. I had hard time coming to this Place.. I lost many people along the way but I never lost the HOPE and the WILL.. because of this.. and behind me I take out the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would unfold and place in on the ground.. I would remember two things.. My Heart for always LOVING YOU.. and the Promises I made to the Fathers.. My Father and Your FATHER the KING.. PEH HA that I am going to be next to you.. that I will be a soldier who will protect and to defend and also to serve the NATION to HELP you to build.. I had those to things set in my MIND and My Heart and I would look at this Picture.. the Drawing picture of the days I wanted to lose hope or wanted to give UP.. Looking at this ART SKETCH PAPER.. the drawing picture of YOU.. the BOY WHO lost his life for drawing this for me to show me because he believed that I will love YOU always More.. I never gave up.. I just can't because the Promises.. the first is to ALWAYS LOVE YOU.. NO Matter how hard or challenging life can be or bring.. to never stop Loving YOU and to promise to protect and to defend YOUR NATION to help to build.. YOU are the ONLY ONE who can help me to keep on going at it.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I just wanted to say.. thank YOU for allowing this day to happen.. THANK YOU for reconsidering and helping me to get out and helping me to finish the task that is up ahead of me.. I love YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I LOVE YOU and I thank YOU.. I am surprised right Now MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I truly thought YOU did Not know who that Little Boy was.. I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. watching YOU turn away and Leaving.. the Prison Wood Door closes.. I did Not show you the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU was hidden below the Paper I drew of the two Horses.. the One YOU were sitting Down and your Father PEH HA.. the King walking with the Bare Feet.. My Heart.. I can't believe that YOU knew who I was at that Time.. I only thought that I am the Only One who knew.. then if I were to ask YOU.. did you know that I was the One who has been living in the Garden.. even though I was very Poor.. the Boy with the Flower in his Hand.. it was me who wanted to give you that Flower and It was I who gave it to YOU for you to smile as YOU went back to the Palace.. Ever Since that Day.. the Day I saw you sitting on that Horse.. with your Father.. PEH HA.. the King beside YOU.. My Heart.. I did Not know what I was feeling that day.. I felt so Stuffy inside and it was hardly that I could Breathe.. I don't why it was Hard to breathe.. I went with my Father back to the Garden that Night.. I just could Not sleep.. I kept on thinking of YOU.. asking when can I see you Again.. I would RUN up the Hill Top.. going to the Tree and the Bed of Flowers that was planted.. another Bed of Flowers was there beside it and I wanted to give you this ONE that kept on looking at me and I felt this is the way YOU made me feel HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. It was the One SUN FLOWER I kept on looking.. Every Morning when I would wake UP.. I would get Out of the Hut my Father build.. a shelter only for two People.. and I would LOOK UP to the HILL TOP.. running Up there in the garden.. and Next to the Tree the Bed of Flower.. That One SUN FLOWER.. I would smile.. and I would say.. IF I EVER Meet the QUEEN.. MAH MAH.. if YOU ever come to this Garden for some reason even though I knew YOU would Not.. I am going to show YOU my Heart.. this is HOW MY HEART Feels when I see YOU.. even when it is cold Out side.. even when It snows Out side.. LOOKING UP to the HILL TOP.. running UP even though I would sometimes slip and fall.. I would get Up.. I want to see that SUN FLOWER.. determined that I was then.. I would grab HOLD UNTO the ROCKS and PUSH up my Body thinking of YOU.. and I would CLIMB UP to

You are all I think about and All who I miss the Most.. I am in the ROOM.. sitting by the desk with the Picture.. I am LOOKING at the new BOOK you gave me and has told me that I can Now be a part of the circle for the BOOK club at the Library.. I could not believe that I can Now and HOW you have given me the permission and allowing me to open my Heart to YOU.. I am looking at the Note Book in front of Me.. Looking at the pen and with the New Book.. I just can't stop smiling.. when YOU love deeply.. this kind of experience takes you so much deeper that I never Knew.. How can I even explain this Kind of feeling.. this Kind of experience that I never had.. but I would put your picture in front of the desk.. and I would look at you.. YOU are so Beautiful.. WHY are you so Beautiful to Me.. just remembering going to the Library I had No expectation.. I only wanted to try something New.. wanting to start reading some Books.. I been writing on the NOTE BOOK for a Long time and wanted to go further on my Learning on this Journey of becoming truly the strongest and smartest MAN there can Be.. and I would be looking at few books that would interest me and while I grabbed a book to read.. I saw YOU walking with your Friend.. and you were checking OUT.. and my eyes watching you out of NOWHERE.. I would not know why but I knew there was something Different.. I just could NOT KNOW WHY.. and I saw YOU with your Friend and sitting on a table.. what drew me to you is the LINES that the people came across your table.. I was Not sure.. may be you were an Author writing a BOOK.. and I wanted to see what was going On.. I would stand far giving the ROOM and the distance because I was NOT sure what was happening at the table you were sitting.. People sat Down.. like an Interview they wanted to be a part.. I went out of that Library wondering.. what is this ALL about.. YOU were NOT signing any BOOKS.. so it must be something More personal NOT business.. I remember I would show UP at the same Library.. few times I would go.. on the day I saw you the first time.. leaving he distant.. giving you the room and the space and just looking at the table from a far.. always there would be a LINES of people.. lining UP for something.. I remember after few times.. and ONE day at the Library I was Not thinking but walking and I ran across and Bump into YOU Out of accident.. and when I lifted UP to look.. it was YOU and YOU were picking UP the Books on the ground.. I saw you close UP.. and I knew.. it was YOU.. with your friend at the table in this Library.. and How people were making lines waiting for YOU.. I remember I was nervous to ask YOU as a stranger.. but I had to ask YOU something before I would Never get to say to you what I needed to say at the MOMENT.. I grabbed your wrist.. but gently let go to grab YOUR ATTENTION and YOU looked at me surprised but I would say.. I wanted to ask YOU something.. because I would watch a LINES of people waiting and I would see you and your Friend sitting on the Table and ONE BY ONE.. they will come and it seems like YOU were doing some kind of Interview.. YOUR friend which is a lady smiles.. and Tells me.. YOU are the Owner of several big Libraries around.. and I am thinking.. for people to work here and I see that YOU smiled looking at me.. the friend would say to me.. YOU created circle for only very small group people can come and sharing this BOOK CLUB you are creating for the group to get close too.. and Yes.. a lot of people are showing UP lately after knowing who YOU are.. the Owner of chains of BIG LIBRARIES.. and I am thinking.. and you would smile as YOU collected the BOOKS.. and I do remember following you at the table.. and asked YOU.. I want to be a part of this BOOK Club.. HOW do I get IN to this Club.. and I do remember.. you giving me this BIG BOOK.. telling me to read It and finish it about a week and Write a summary of and show it to YOU.. I do remember doing a research On you and that is when I find Out about your Child hood.. as a YOUNG GIRL.. you fell in love with reading BOOKS.. and became a Librarian and became the Owner of MAJOR BIG LIBRARIES and how it just kept on growing over time.. and I started to fall in Love with the Person who has so MUCH BIG DREAMS of becoming major for the Companies.. but when I look at YOU.. YOU are so ordinary.. that is when I saw the BIG HEART.. that YOU did not have to show Off to LOOK so Big.. People all knew already who you are and that is what makes PEOPLE falls so in love with YOU and even Myself.. I did NOT know and I did NOT even ask YOU but I wanted to know More about YOU so I would do some research.. which I was blown into pieces of How you worked so Hard to get to that Place.. and Now.. after YOU TOLD ME and after I gave you the full report and the summary of the BOOK I read and I would sit.. waited in the Line for few hours for me to get to YOU and when My turn came to YOU.. I just did NOT tell you about the story and the summary of the Book you gave me to read but I also showed YOU the NOTE BOOK.. just thinking about the Library and the table.. I would sit across looking at YOU.. and I would put the NOTE BOOK down on the Table.. while you were holding the Summary paper I wrote about the BOOK and YOU would look at me wondering about this NOTE BOOK.. and I would open to share with YOU.. I wrote YOU a LOVE LETTER.. can I read it for YOU.. WILL you please have the Heart to listen to what I wrote to YOU in this LOVE LETTER.. it is NOT going to be that LONG.. please.. just give me few minutes.. I will not take much time.. I see you smile and I grabbed the paper out of the NOTE BOOK which was attached at first.. and I would look at the Letter.. there is something that I must tell you.. that I am NOT much of a BOOK reader.. and ever since I did a research on you and found a lot about you through the Search.. I am NOT sure how much of it is truth but.. I am sure many things that was written on you must be true.. and I would think of it as being true to me so I wanted to tell YOU my Heart.. was it the Ambitious Heart.. the WILL or the Determination of.. is it the BIG DREAMS you have.. the education.. I am NOT sure what it is about YOU.. but I look at your Heart.. the Heart to Dream BIG means YOU have a BIG HEART.. which is so Beautiful to Me.. I begin to feel something inside my SOUL.. maybe the story of HOW YOU.. and at first I was NOT sure if I be the fit for this CLUB.. the More I think of YOU and the More I would LOOK at your Picture.. I wanted More.. I wanted to be close to YOU.. and I wanted More.. I started to look at my Heart and It started to Tell me.. the More I looked at the Picture of YOU.. I just wanted More.. I needed More.. the More I asked myself.. the More I think of YOU.. the Picture would come into my hands as I would LOOK at you.. I know that right Now it is the early stage of anything that could Happen.. I know that YOU would say HOW CAN I want More or Need more when I just met YOU and it wasn't too long ago.. I am NOT sure why I am able to tell YOU THIS.. but.. it started with me asking myself WHY I want More of YOU.. the More becomes a NEED to start loving YOU.. but when I make a decision for something.. when I know this is It and I want More.. I know myself just too well never to Let YOU go.. of course YOU WILL say I am crazy.. that something is NOT clicking right with YOU but.. Just How you are able to fulfill your DREAMS and DESIRES to come true.. I do also have DREAMS and DESIRES that I do have made something work.. and that is why I am asking YOU to Open your Heart for me and you will see HOW FAR MY LOVE for you can go.. I truly believe that WHEN YOU LOVE.. it starts very small.. loving YOU may seems so small at this Point but remember that I never give UP.. when I need or want More.. YOU WILL see HOW BIG it can grow because that is HOW BIG MY HEART will show YOU when I do prove to YOU that I really do Love YOU.. ALL I am asking you is a SMALL CHANCE.. do Not think of it much because when you give me the TIME.. I can show you How BIG and REAL MY HEART can be the way I love YOU.. just the WAY you have become the major share holders and Owner of Many Libraries in business.. it starts with One Piece of paper in this NOTE BOOK.. all it takes it take ONE PIECE of paper Out and let me share something.. tell you something that is real.. tell you how real MY HEART can be.. and HOW LOUD the Love can be when I tell you how much I love you.. and I would look at you.. will you accept this Paper I am giving you.. and I would look at you.. and I see your hand grabbing the One Piece of paper.. I just could NOT believe that YOU have taken it.. and it got to My Heart.. I thought YOU would reject me but when I saw the hand grabbing to see.. YOU are looking at me HOW FAR can I go to tell YOU that I love you.. it means everything to Me when YOU take it because I am putting everything on the Line for YOU.. telling you that I am giving my Heart to you and that when I do.. it means I want to tell you something that I believe NO OTHER MAN can tell you because that is HOW FAR I shall go where YOU will find NO OTHER MAN in this world who can tell you the words that I can tell you as long as YOU are taking the Letter from ME.. I will promise you that I don't give UP that easily and I will never start something that I just cannot finish.. I am here to WIN.. I am here to WIN to Love YOU.. to tell YOU that I want to win so that I can keep on telling YOU how much I love you.. even when I die and be in the grave I can tell you in the grave that I love you after I am gone.. I will appear to you in Dreams if I can't as a person to tell YOU that I love you.. as LONG AS you can open the door.. and I am able to look at the NOTE BOOK

Takes ONE SHEET of paper at a time is all I am asking for.. Please.. only One paper is needed to say as much as I can to tell you.. I LOVE YOU.. YOU are the ONLY ONE who can let this happen.. so Please.. help me so that I can love YOU.. HELP ME so that I can really really Love YOU or who can tell you that I love YOU.. and as I am in the room.. I am looking at the NOTE BOOK in the top of the desk.. and I start to cry.. looking at your Picture next with the New BOOK you just gave me.. of course I need to read another BIG BOOK but it is okay as long as I can give you a Letter.. to tell you that this Letter in this NOTE BOOK belongs to YOU because it can only come out of my Heart to tell you HOW MUCH I really love YOU.. as I can feel the tears running down my cheeks.. I can't believe that YOU have accepted me to join the BOOK CLUB.. but I know that I am Nothing.. that I am just NO BOBY.. I saw lawyers and Doctors lined UP.. I saw Producers and Actors and all these big timers.. BUSINESS OWNERS TOO showing you their Cards.. executives and presidents and CEOS of companies and they would sit.. as I would also wait in the Line.. making me feel so small.. feels like I should NOT ever be there.. why am I at this LINE when I know I just got nothing.. BUT even though I may feel so SMALL and feels like I can't amount to anything.. I do have one thing that I can share with YOU.. HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. the size of my Heart of loving you can only GROW wider and bigger because I know that ONE PIECE of PAPER is small but think about enduring through time.. that can OUT LAST anything when it comes from the SOUL of the Heart.. because I know that MY HEART of loving YOU WILL grow to be the SIZE as BIG as the MOON and the SUN you see.. WHY.. because I just love you as YOU are.. I love you as the person and as the woman of my Dreams and the DREAMS of loving YOU is BIG as the MOON and the SUN.. ALL I can say to YOU.. Please give me the room and the time.. I can show YOU that YOU WILL see later down the road that I love you that MUCH and that BIG.. that YOU are the LOVE of My Life.. my everything.. my ALL.. my forever and ever LOVE.. I love you and I miss you.. Thinking about meeting you at the Library and seeing you sitting on the chair with your friend.. as you open the Note book and holding the Pen.. and the way you love to study and love to learn drives me crazy.. the smile that makes your face to shine.. My Heart.. I just could not help but to say to YOU.. WHY are you so Beautiful.. why are you so Beautiful is the only words that came OUT of my Mouth.. I remember before I walked into the Library.. after finishing reading the Book you gave me and walking In.. the table where I met you.. wanted to be a part of the circles and How I saw nothing but Lines of people standing there.. felt like YOU were an author.. who just wrote and published a BOOK and giving signatures of your NAME.. felt like YOU are a star when I was standing in the Line waiting to come to YOU.. I would wonder what makes you so Special.. why does people keeps on going and standing in the Line and I would watch More people walking into the Door and looking at the Book I just read.. and How you wanted me to share what I read with YOU.. but looking at the Line.. people were holding their books and they are all different books.. and I remember when I sat for my turn and I would ask YOU.. there are so many people waiting in the Line.. the BOOKS are all different.. and I would hear you share.. that YOU LOVED to read BOOKS.. that when you were young.. your ROOM was filled with many books and it would just grow by the Day and YOU would fall in Love with reading BOOKS ever since.. and it became your Best friend.. and I would look at you.. and I am thinking How hard it must be to choose people to get into your circles because by Now.. I know that YOU have read millions of Books and how it is filled and I would look at you.. and I would say.. I know that I may Not be able to read BOOKS as much as YOU DO.. but there is something that I must tell YOU before YOU Let me go.. you would LOOK at me telling me to go on and to share.. and also I would bring OUT a NOTE BOOK.. I see that YOU have a NOTE BOOK and a Pen.. I too have a NOTE BOOK and a Pen with me.. when YOU were young.. YOU Loved to read BOOKS right.. but I wanted to tell YOU a secret.. when I was YOUNG.. I would open this NOTE BOOK and with the Pen I would write.. I would use the time I have to write a Letters.. I know it may not be Much to YOU what I can bring to the Table.. will you please give me Your ear to hear me OUT what I wrote on the NOTE BOOK before I go.. it is a Love Letter I wrote to YOU.. I am NOT much of a reader and I am sure there are MANY PEOPLE who has shown UP.. who can read A lot more books than me.. but I been writing many letters and sharing a lot of stories when I was young.. that something that It has been with me since I was young.. I remember my Mother told me once.. when She was young.. she had two things she loved to enjoy.. ONE was drawing Pictures and the Other is writing stories.. and in years of her schooling.. My Mother told me that when she went into the Contest.. the Teachers would say my Mother was the best writer and won in the classes and I know that I have this thing in me.. that when I share and I write.. like HOW you love to read MANY BOOKS.. I can write letters like I am writing a BOOK.. can I share with You before I go and I see you smile.. and I would Open the NOTE BOOK.. and I am looking at the Page of the paper filled with the ink letters.. my hands would touch the sheet in front and I would tell you this.. I been practicing writing a Love story to YOU.. I would try to spend Hours of thinking of what I should tell YOU.. My Heart hurts and my Mind hurts too.. because trying to figure Out what to say to YOU.. it is NOT easy.. it is NOT that simple at all because it needs to be something that can capture your Attention.. what Should I say to YOU.. what truly inspires me to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would sit and think.. looking at the sheet of Piece of paper before Me.. what should I say to YOU.. and I would close my two eyes.. thinking of YOU.. and missing YOU.. and I would open my eyes and I would look for your Picture.. when I am able to pull the picture out of the BOOK and I am looking at YOU.. my Heart says.. DON'T be afraid to love YOU.. and just be real.. have Heart to Heart and just share and tell YOU HOW it is to be Me.. on the Other side.. just to be ME.. and I would smile after I see your Picture.. as I would hold the Pen in the hand and LOOKING at the Piece of Paper.. my eyes filled with tears.. my Heart aches and it is like.. I want to be with YOU.. but why can't I be with YOU.. why can't I be the One who is next to you to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I want to say it to YOU.. but is it this difficult to let you know this Heart of Mine.. I know that I am trying to finish reading this BOOK.. I did finish it reading but it has taken me A lot more longer because I kept on thinking of YOU.. opening to read.. from the page to page.. my hands would be looking for your picture.. hands are touching the top of the desk.. My Heart is crying inside of me asking me where is YOUR PICTURE.. but I know that when I spend more time looking at your Picture.. the time that I needs to read.. I know I would rather LOOK at you and the Picture of YOU.. more than LOOKING at the page to page to of reading.. I am more touched and inspired of the Beauty of you.. the way YOU are so Beautiful.. which blows my mind.. I can spend hours of looking at YOU and the Picture you gave me but I know that YOU have given me a BOOK to read.. and wanted to see if I would keep my Word.. to keep my Promises to YOU and that is why I had to lay it down but after reading the pages of the BOOK.. I just could Not stop my Mind of thinking of YOU and just wanting to say something to YOU.. that is when on the Break times I would get.. I would open the NOTE BOOK and I would grab the Pen and had to tell YOU before it is just too late.. if I can't get these words out to YOU NOW.. then I know that I can't tell you anything Later because what If.. I see lines and I see Many young Men.. they too join in the Line.. just to be a part of the growing circle.. but I have one thing that I have been practicing for a LONG TIME.. I was given to write.. I was made to be a writer ever since I was young.. and ON my lonely days when I be in the room alone.. I would write my Heart Out.. I would practice writing on pieces of papers.. filled in my eyes because I felt alone and lonely in some nights.. when YOU were shy.. and could NOT speak as much as some people could.. and that is when I started to practice my craft to become the Best writer I can be.. I know I may not have the BIG Vocabulary or you can sense that I am smart.. I know that I am NOT but I do have Heart.. I have the Heart to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I have the Heart to tell YOU that I miss YOU.. that NO MATTER where you are.. that I want to tell YOU that I miss YOU and that I am so sorry that I love YOU.. I have the Heart to keep on going on until YOUR HEART can open to receive and to know that MY HEART to love YOU is as BIG as the MOON you see up in the sky at NIGHT.. that when YOU know how much I love you and YOU know that on the Other side I am waiting for YOU TO love me back.. that ONE DAY or some day soon.. when YOU GO out at night and see the BIG MOON.. you will then realize HOW much I Love YOU.. that I am waiting until your Heart opens UP to me and to know that I will never stop but keep on telling you that I love YOU.. and I would be waiting until you see me through it ALL.. and I know it will happen one day.. I believe it will because.. when I was young and I saw that I was able to write on this NOTE BOOK.. I am able to know if it will

Succeed or NOT.. if I was wasting my TIME or NOT.. when I saw the NOTE BOOK and I grabbed the Pen.. I just knew that One Day I am able to share to a lot More than just to Me.. when I first wrote on the Piece of Paper.. it was just to myself.. looking at the paper that was in front of me.. I was Unable to share to anyone because I knew that I was not that smart.. who ever thought that I would come this very far.. who in this world ever thought I would still able to write and so much time has passed by since I wrote to myself.. but Now.. I am able to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I am able to tell you that I had to practice.. Night after Night alone in the room.. crying looking at myself and saying that I am just a NOBODY.. but NOW to share.. I love YOU.. that is how much I had to work with myself.. How much I had to practice alone in the room with a Pen and a Paper.. Now I am able to say to YOU.. I miss YOU.. DO YOU Hear me.. do you feel me on the Other side.. can YOU PLEASE see my Heart that I love you as YOU can look UP at the MOON.. when YOU are standing on the ground and YOU LOOK UP at the MOON.. even that far of the distance.. HOW far it was to reach YOU and STILL HOW FAR it is to reach YOU today.. but I kept on trying until YOU can see that I never give UP on loving YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU.. that back then there was NO reach for Me.. but Now.. I am able to share to YOU and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. it took me years of work and trying Hard.. practicing through the Night.. writing on Pieces of papers.. my fingers would hurt.. and now.. I had to endure that Pain of going and doing alone.. but I know that I can't let my Heart go of loving YOU.. it is because I love you too much Now.. and as I would be sitting down.. opening the Pages of the BOOK to read.. I would think about.. IF I wanted to love YOU.. how can I show you that I love you this MUCH.. is it by reading many books.. but I know that I can't tell you by showing you all these BOOKS I have read because YOU wanted me too.. YOU WILL never see my side.. YOU WILL never see my Heart and that is when I opened the NOTE BOOK and LOOKING at the Blank sheet of papers and its pages to write.. I started to write on the NOTE BOOK to tell YOU.. HOW it feels to be me here on the Other side.. sharing something that is MORE than the BOOKS you can read.. it is my Heart.. Heart to Heart of telling YOU that I love YOU.. I wanted to show to share to tell YOU that It is just more than impression.. but my expression to share that I really do LOVE YOU.. as I would be sitting on the table.. looking at you on the other side sitting next to your friend.. I would be reading you the Letter I wrote to tell YOU.. but I know it is just the beginning to tell YOU face to face that when I put into the WORK.. it goes far more than YOU expected.. if you tell me to go one mile.. I will show you two miles instead because it is MY HEART that I love YOU.. I love you enough to show you I can go more than what YOU expect of me because that is what a LOVE is.. to Love you more than the next person standing next to YOU.. that I believe in Love.. I came from the Lowest Place.. I started to share and write when I was YOUNG and it started me sitting in the room alone.. that I had no one to share with in the Beginning when I was in the room.. but NOW.. all the years of practice the art and the craft.. I am NOW able to share and tell YOU this.. I never gave UP and NOW I am here to tell YOU this.. I miss you and I love YOU.. a MAN of my own words to KEEP on sharing and telling YOU that I love you for ever and ever MORE.. I love you.. I am waiting for you to call me on the Phone.. You told me that YOU are going to ask me something.. am I the One who suppose to call YOU.. but I heard.. last night you messaged me on the Phone.. and YOU send me a picture.. and below the Picture YOU send.. you wrote and said to me.. YOU wanted to tell me something.. and I have been waiting.. I just could not go to Sleep.. just keep on thinking about what YOU needs to say.. are you trying to break UP with Me.. is this the Word true what I am feeling.. we have been together for few years Now.. and when YOU told me YOU have something to say.. it felt so Serious that I got sick in my stomach.. YOU know that I love YOU.. ever since the first day I laid my eyes on you.. It was at the Library.. I saw you walk into the Library and YOU were with Your friend.. and as I was checking OUT a book to read at Home.. I stopped.. My Book in my hands dropped on the Floor.. and you stopped.. with your friend.. both helping me to gather some few Books.. of course I was thinking about just One book to take home.. but.. I just wanted to start over.. wanted to get into the Books and to know More.. when I saw YOU helping me Out.. My Heart felt troubled.. because I never felt this way before.. and I saw YOU looking at the front covers of the Books.. and YOU would look at me as you would gather some of the Books and putting into my hands.. I begin to wonder.. what is this that My Heart be feeling.. I told YOU thank YOU for the Help.. as I got UP.. I wanted to drop the books again on the Floor.. because what if this is the last time I see you again.. But.. at least I know that I have met you in this Library.. and I would walk out of the Library front door.. But.. I did Not even give YOU my Name.. How about asking for Your Name.. I don't even know your Name.. but.. I think it is just too late to ask for Now.. I would be in the room.. sitting by the desk.. holding a Book.. and I would open to read from Page to page.. I wanted to read further.. but my eyes would stop.. my Mind would go to a different place.. I just could Not focus on these pages of the BOOK.. I am wondering.. what is wrong with Me.. why can't I just focus and zoom into these pages.. I went to the Library to borrow Books so that I can read.. but I would be looking back.. thinking of YOU.. I don't even have any pictures of YOU.. so I can see vague picture of YOU in my mind.. I would lift the Book closer.. and I would look at the page and looking into the words.. the sentences of the written word on the page of this Book.. but I would smile.. blinking my eyes fast.. I feel so hot.. and Now.. I just can't read this Book.. and I would close the BOOK.. and I would stand UP.. stretch.. but it is YOU.. what are you doing to Me.. I don't even know your Name.. I did not even give YOU my Name.. will I be able to see YOU at that Library.. will you be there at the same location.. YOU took me by a great surprise.. Now I feel so dumb.. I should of asked for YOUR name.. or gave YOU my Name.. what did I just walk off without any introduction.. is it just too late Now to ask for Your Name.. and I am standing alone in the room.. trying to get YOU off my Mind.. but I just can't.. I would sit back down.. looking at the Book on top of the desk.. and I would Open the book.. looking into the page.. I would start to read Out loud.. trying to get YOU off my Mind.. My Heart is crying inside because YOU have done something to My Heart.. as I would sit.. looking at the Page.. reading.. trying to even finish the first page.. But I just keep on thinking of YOU.. and I would smile.. WHY am I smiling if I don't even know your Name.. and I just sat down.. and I am thinking about going back to that Library tomorrow.. I try to sleep.. after brushing my teeth.. and laying inside the covers.. this warm blanket.. trying to sleep laying in the bed.. I would sit UP on the Bed.. tell me WHY.. I needs to sleep.. but WHY can't I just sleep.. I would lay back down on the bed.. thinking of YOU.. I would have these flash backs.. I would be at the counter.. as I am getting the Books check Out.. and I would take the few Books in my arms.. and when I turn around and I start to walk.. I see two Ladies walking side by side.. One is YOU.. and your dress.. Your dazzling smile.. holding a cup of coffee and YOU are smiling as YOU are looking at your Friend as walking together.. I just could Not help it.. my body wanted to fall to Hit the ground but it was the Books instead that came Out of my arms and Hits the floor.. I am laying on the Bed.. this part keeps on flashing back and forth.. looking at YOU.. just my mind was blown.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and I would say it is so WOW.. YOU are truly beautiful.. that it made my arms to tremble and shake.. made the Books to jump Out of my arms and wanted to hit their heads on the Floor.. I guess the Books knows what my eyes sees and it blown them into pieces like pages are falling apart and ripping.. because YOU are so Beautiful.. I just could not help it but to fall with the Books.. when I saw YOU helping me on the Floor.. I was truly amazed of Your Heart.. even Your Heart is so Beautiful.. those hands which came to help even though it was all at my fault.. I am the One who dropped the Books.. and It was Not for you to act upon it but.. when I saw How you helped.. those hands of giving free service.. It really took my breathe away as I watch YOUR hands be moving and helping.. gathering and I felt something in my Heart.. I felt my Heart wanted to exhale and kick the breathe Out of me.. as I am laying trying to sleep.. I just couldn't.. Moved by the thought of Your hands and Your Heart of help.. I would be looking UP at the ceiling.. I just could not sleep through the Night.. Maybe because the Next day.. I am going to that Library.. what if YOU show UP.. what If YOU come.. at least I needs to know Your Name.. or if I can give YOU my Name.. I can't rest until I know that Name of yours.. the Next Day comes.. I am laying in the covers.. did Not sleep through the Night.. just thinking about what if I see you there again.. what am I suppose to say to YOU.. HOW DO I tell you that I have a Name and if I can know your name.. I am standing and looking at the Phone.. Looking at your Picture.. and reading over and over the Message YOU sent me.. I been waiting for Your Call.

This Phone.. maybe YOU are busy.. Maybe you have forgotten to call me.. and It is just getting to My Head because I truly want to know what YOU want to say.. I know that lately it has been rough.. YOU been pushing me back and telling me that YOU don't want to hang out much.. and I felt the distance of YOU pushing me away.. YOU use to call me a lot on the Phone.. but lately.. I haven't received much calls from YOU.. and Now.. I feel like an End is coming to this relationship.. I remember you be asking me.. what happened to the TIME I was at the Library.. that urgency I had.. just to know Your Name.. what happened to that thrill and the excitement I brought to the relationship because so much change has come.. and YOU been wondering and asking.. do I even matter to YOU.. DO I even love YOU much and It really got to my Heart.. that this feeling.. what has happened to Us is what YOU would say and asking me.. what happened to Me.. and YOU would sent me a New Picture.. and YOU are looking so Beautiful in this picture.. and YOU look so much happier.. But I am wondering.. where are YOU at.. who are you with that is making YOU this Happy.. YOU are smiling a lot lately but you and I have not been around.. I have been missing in action for awhile and I know that something that YOU are going to say.. I know it is going to Hurt Me more than it hurts YOU.. are you leaving Me.. is there another Man who been loving YOU.. is something going on that YOU are Not telling me.. something that I needs to Know and YOU are going to break out a very Hurtful news.. as the Phone rings and I know that it is YOU.. I see your number.. should I pick UP the phone.. if this news YOU are going to break Out is going to Hurt Me and crushes me.. I don't want to hear it from YOU.. I don't want to lose YOU.. I just can't lose YOU now.. we been together for awhile and Now.. and as I pick UP the Phone.. I hear Your Voice.. of course I don't say a word and I hear You telling me.. and YOU ask me.. DO I love YOU.. and I would be still.. I hear YOU asking me again.. DO I LOVE YOU.. but why are you asking me this if YOU know the truth.. YOU know that I love YOU.. I told you many times how much I love YOU but when YOU ask me like this.. it seems like YOU don't get it.. or you just don't know.. if I tell YOU that I do really love YOU.. what are you going to say next.. so I would answer YOU.. I do really really Love YOU.. I have told YOU many times that I do.. and I hear you say.. why Don't I tell YOU lately.. that YOU don't feel it any more.. and I would be still and silent.. and I would say.. I guess the relationship grows.. and it can mature because I am thinking that YOU already Know this.. I have been telling YOU for a long long time Now that I always loved YOU.. maybe YOU are changing.. or am I the One who is changing.. we are suppose to grow and change even in this relationship.. and I would hear you say.. YOU don't feel it any more and I don't say it much to you.. and I would say.. YOU know that I can't never let YOU go and I would say.. are you trying to break things off with me.. do YOU want to leave me.. and I would hear the word Yes.. that YOU wanted to spend some time alone and that YOU had to go.. I would hear the Phone hang UP on the Other side.. it crushed me hard.. I knew that it was going to come.. but did Not think that it would last this Long.. What am I suppose to do Now.. I feel so Hurt.. I feel so Hurt because I been loving YOU for a long time.. why don't you see it.. why don't you feel like.. what more do I must do to let YOU know How much I love YOU.. am I not good for YOU.. is it because I am Poor.. It is because I am poor right.. and what YOU saw was nothing.. that YOU knew there is Nothing more I can give YOU and that you wanted much More stuff.. but why did it last for years.. it could of ended sooner right.. but It took this Long.. for a very long time and Now YOU wanted to end this relationship.. how about my Pain.. what about my suffering and how about my tears.. my Heart gets broken easily.. it tears and torn because I loved YOU.. is it because I love YOU more.. YOU Know that I can love you more and more.. but WHY.. you told me that YOU never felt this way before.. so those words meant empty.. because I do truly tell YOU what I means.. I share to YOU that I do Love YOU.. why can't you see my Heart.. the way I tell YOU.. why can't you see me.. Please see Me.. see me as I am who do love YOU.. I am wondering why did YOU want to break up with Me.. Did you not told me that YOU loved me.. One night.. when we were sitting Out by the park.. you were inside the front passenger of the car.. I was sitting on the driver side.. I saw you unlocking.. opening the door.. and YOU went Out.. telling me to come out side.. I have never heard the excitement of your Voice.. I do remember unlocking the driver side of the door and I went out side.. YOU are the One who told me that YOU loved the night.. of course I am truly Opposite because I love the new Day.. love watching the Sun in the middle of the day.. YOU are looking UP toward the sky.. finger Points and I turn to LOOK toward your finger pointing.. telling me that YOU love the Moon.. and looking around the sky are many stars shining across the sky and telling me.. if I have the camera.. please take the Picture of the Moon for YOU.. and I am wondering.. why do YOU love the Moon so much.. why are you telling me these things when I love the Sun.. in the day.. but.. I did not say a Word to you because I saw that big smile on your face.. YOU looked so lovely.. so Beautiful.. so wonderful this very night.. I just did Not want to say.. I brought the Camera which was in the back seat.. so Opening the Door behind the driver's door.. I would take the Camera Out.. when I look at the camera.. I think of you the Most.. because I am most happiest when I get to take a picture of YOU.. when YOU are smiling and when YOU are at the most happiest. just watching you smile.. makes me smile inside.. because I don't like to see you sad at all.. as I showed you the camera in my hand.. I see you turning.. Looking UP towards and finger Points at the MOON.. telling me to take the picture of that Moon.. but.. I want to take a picture of YOU instead.. because YOU are so much prettier.. much beautiful than that Moon I see up on the sky.. of course I did what YOU say.. I would look UP.. putting my eyes close and looking through the Lens.. and I press the button and it click to take a Picture.. and I would look at you after I taken the picture.. Can I take a Picture of YOU too.. I know that this camera is crying for me to see through the lens o this Camera because I love taking pictures of YOU.. when YOU smile.. the Picture comes out just too perfect.. and I see you telling me yes.. I would move back.. walking few steps back and I stop.. you are standing by the Door.. the passenger door.. my eye get closer and looks through the lens.. and I am Zooming in closer.. looking at YOU.. and I see you smile.. that is when My Finger presses and it clicks.. taking the Picture of YOU.. and that very Night.. I just found something More about YOU.. that YOU love staring at the Moon and loves the Night.. and I remember you be saying.. the reason why YOU love the Moon.. it brings true Peace in your Heart.. everything is silent.. everything is still and that is just the way YOU like to live.. of Course.. when YOU told me this.. I did not want to bring any problems to YOU.. but No one is perfect.. I am Not perfect.. and I am standing in the Room.. all by myself.. after I heard from YOU.. on the Phone telling me that YOU wanted to break UP with me.. I would stay still.. walking into my room.. looking at the desk.. there is two pictures on the top of the desk.. and the first picture is the MOON.. and the second picture is YOU standing by the passenger door of the car.. with that Big Smile.. I just could not hold my emotions In.. so I started to cry.. tears kept on running down my eyes.. what did I do.. what did I say to YOU.. when was the last time we fought or argued.. as I am wiping the tears from my eyes.. next to the two pictures is this One Book.. and I know that I must return this Book back to the Library.. even though I want to read the Book.. I am feeling so much pain right Now.. I am feeling so much Hurt.. why does it hurt so Much to Love YOU.. why does it has to hurt so much.. did YOU ever loved Me.. that Night.. I remember after I took the two picture.. I went closer to YOU.. and I asked you.. can I hold you and wrap my arms around YOU.. would you please let me feel you close.. because YOU know that I love YOU.. as I would walk closer.. I see you walk closer to me and My arms fold and wrap around YOU.. and I just could Not breathe because My Heart kept on beating so fast.. I know that It must means that I really really love YOU.. I remember you be telling me in my arms.. YOU can feel and hear my Heart Beat.. and I would turn to your ear and I would whisper.. because I love you so much.. and from the words of YOUR lips I heard.. I love you.. and it just melted my Heart.. I wanted to fall down.. making my legs grow so weak.. because hearing this from YOU.. like my Heart always wanted to hear.. and Now.. I am in the room.. thinking about the Park.. and How you told me these things.. and even realized How much YOU loved the MOON.. many nights I would walk out side at Night now.. after knowing these things about YOU.. I would walk out side alone.. looking UP toward the Sky.. I would come across the Moon.. some days I will Not see it.. but from time to time when I do see It.. I would point my finger at the Moon.. just thinking about YOU when YOU did It.. My Heart.. OH My Heart.. and just going back when My arms.. Holding YOU close.. my Heart kept on racing and Beating.. and I just wanted to be still and stay still for a Long time.. it was not even too long ago when this happened to Me.. But

I am starting to like the Moon.. and it became loving the MOON and I realize.. it does bring Peace because of the stillness of the Night.. quiet and silent.. and I would be staring at the MOON.. and whenever I see that Moon.. I think of YOU.. I think of YOUR smile.. I think of the camera.. and taking the picture of YOU with your Smile.. and Now.. it is heart breaking.. It hurts me so bad because I still love YOU.. why did you tell me that night that YOU loved me.. I heard from the words of your lips that YOU too love me.. when I held you and wrapped my arms around YOU.. I meant those words that I have spoken to YOUR ear because it came from my Heart.. I felt it that Night because it was the Night when you shared something that YOU told me you never told before.. and knowing that I loved to take pictures of YOU.. even what you loved the Most.. you have expressed your Heart to me.. I felt your words when YOU told me holding you still.. underneath the Stars and the Moon.. but.. why are you telling me now that YOU want to break up.. why don't you tell me the reason for the breaking UP.. is it because of Me or is it because of someone else.. or you never loved me in the first place but just wanted to say it to make me feel good at that moment.. my hand grabs the Picture of YOU.. smiling.. standing by the passenger car door.. and I am looking at YOU through the picture.. I am aching so Much right Now.. I feel like YOU have torn my Heart into pieces.. why is it hurting me so bad.. why are you hurting me like this.. and I would starts to close both of my eyes.. My Heart.. WHY does it feel like my Heart is tearing from the Inside.. Like I want to grab this BOOK.. and tear the pages into pieces.. why does it hurt me so Hard.. and I open both eyes and tears runs down from both eyes.. It hurts.. It hurts me so Bad.. these tears.. is it turning to red.. it burns my Heart as my tears just running down.. and I would pull out the chair and sit.. putting the picture on the top of the Desk.. why does it has to hurt me so Much.. I know that Night.. I told YOU because I really do love YOU.. my Heart hurts.. and I feel these tears from out of my eyes.. this pain that is killing me and eating me from the inside because I love YOU.. and I wanted to call YOU on the Phone to explain.. but I am Not going to make myself look so dumb.. maybe I do deserve this Pain.. maybe there is something I have been holding back.. I am still wondering why do you have to tell me those two words.. Break Up.. and Now it hurts me deeply.. so trying to get YOU off my Mind.. I would grab the Book.. and I would open the front.. the first page and I would look at the first chapter of the Book.. and I start to read the sentences of the first Page.. but I just keep on thinking of YOU.. My Heart just can't read.. my eyes just don't want to read right Now.. only thing is that tomorrow I must go to the Library.. I know that YOU will be there.. a project with friends.. so I know that if I go there tomorrow.. I may find you working on a project.. but I am thinking.. I am not invited.. so I would get UP on the Chair.. and I would go to the Bed.. and just sit on the top of the Bed.. I know that I won't be sleeping through the Night.. I am thinking of YOU just too much.. so I would get Out of the Bed.. and I would walk out of the front Door.. and I would be walking Out side in the Night.. and as I would turn to Look UP.. I see the Moon.. I don't want to see the Moon this very Night.. because I know that I be thinking of YOU.. I am already thinking of How much I am hurting inside.. now.. Knowing How much YOU love looking UP at the MOON.. at this Very Night.. I just can't deal with this Pain More.. it is hurting More and More as I am looking UP at it.. I have the Picture.. the first Picture.. the One I took of the Moon in my hand.. and I would start to cry looking at It.. When we went back into the Car.. and we both are sitting.. I am on the driver side and YOU on the Passenger side.. YOU would ask me.. when the Picture comes Out.. Please show it to YOU.. and if YOU can have this Picture.. as I am standing here all alone.. I would say.. DID you not tell me that YOU wanted this Picture.. YOU asked me if I have this Picture.. please give it to YOU and that you wanted to keep it forever in your Heart.. I have the picture with Me.. YOU told me to bring the Camera Out.. when we were at the Park.. YOU told me if I have the camera.. if I can take a Picture of the Moon.. I saw your Finger pointing UP toward this MOON.. I have taken the Picture.. it is Not my picture but Your Picture of this Moon.. can YOU please come and get it.. YOU told me when I get this picture to give it to YOU.. you wanted to keep it forever.. what am I going to do with this picture when it is Not mine but Yours.. and I turn to LOOK UP at the Moon.. Please come and get your Picture because I love YOU.. I asked you to love me.. I even told YOU that I love YOU.. you told me that you loved Me.. then why are you not getting this Picture.. YOU told me how much YOU loved the Moon.. Here is the Moon that YOU love.. I just want to give it back to YOU because YOU can hate me.. but I will always love YOU.. I will still love YOU until you know that I love YOU and that YOU know in your Heart that YOU love me too.. I am sitting by the desk.. Looking at the Book.. I opened the Book.. trying to focus to read this Page.. for some reason.. YOU keep on showing UP in my Mind.. I can feel My Heart Beating faster when I think of YOU.. trying to tell My Heart to stop beating so Fast.. I needs to erase YOU off my Mind.. I have your Picture laying on the TOP of this desk.. I know that I should put it away.. because I know that when I turn my Head and I look towards your Picture.. I know that I would think of YOU first.. but I have this ONE BOOK.. and I went to the Library to borrow it.. I am still stuck with the first Page.. the first chapter and whenever My eyes tries to read the first line sentence of this first page.. I would turn my Head towards your Picture and I get stuck right there looking at YOU.. I can feel my Heart beating fast from the Inside.. and My hand.. into the fist wants to Beat down on the chest.. so that I can stop hearing.. or feeling the Beating so Fast of this Heart.. I would turn to look at your Picture and tries to put the face Down.. turning the Picture over so that I don't look at your Beautiful face of this Picture.. my hand just can't.. I am shivering and shaking.. my hand whenever I touch the picture.. My Heart wants to cry every time I turn the Picture over so that I don't look at YOU.. why am I so addicted to YOU.. it is like a Cup of Coffee.. I just can't stop.. I tell myself I needs to stop because but I just don't.. Please tell me How to stop.. because My Heart keeps on beating so Fast.. when My Head turns to look at YOUR picture.. my eyes looks at YOU.. I can feel my Heart.. the beating grows faster and Louder I hear My Heart keep on crying and calling Out Your Name.. I am spinning around and around because It feels so crazy all of the sudden Attack that has been happening to me recently.. but I have borrowed this One Book.. and I do remember YOU are telling me that YOU loved this Book.. and Have read many times.. and the Next time we meet at the Library.. YOU are asking me if I can share and tell you the story about what I felt about this Book that came from YOU.. so I am trying Hard at this Point.. to get it right.. to go on this Pace.. I saw YOU smiling and YOU asked me.. can we be Library Partners.. and I am thinking what is that.. I do remember asking YOU.. what is the meaning of being the Library Partners.. YOU smile so Big and told me that we can share the Books we read together.. I can share my Heart and my thoughts to YOU about the BOOK and that YOU also able to give your Point of view.. I remember our hands touched and we shake our hands being the Library Friends.. of course that is How I left the Library.. but for some reason.. I asked you another before I left the Library.. I asked.. can I have your Picture.. and I am speaking to my own Head.. why would I ask you this if we are Just Friends.. YOU SMILED and gladly given me a Picture of YOU.. I was shocked that YOU did because I wanted to see if YOU would really give me Your Picture.. of course at the Library.. YOU were holding a Book and told me.. YOU have just finished reading this One BOOK that was in your hands.. and it can be a start and gave me the Book.. of course I would look at the title and I would look at the Cover of this Book.. it seems so Boring.. it is a History BOOK.. I did so horrible when I have taken the History class because It was so Boring and it felt Like I was going back to school.. I guess.. of course YOU are so Beautiful.. I did not decline it because I wanted to show YOU that I can be Your Library Partner.. my Heart came alive after we shaken our hands.. it was my first day going to the Library and Never expected to Meet YOU.. SO Beautiful.. I felt something in my Heart.. I do not know what it was but I felt My Heart.. it Bumped into something.. LIKE the Beating was very fast I felt.. I am trying to read this History Book.. about someone's Life.. I do not like the Cover of this Book.. it seems so Boring to Me but I know that I Must.. I would read the Back.. it seems interesting but.. at the same time It seems like a BORING story to Me.. I am trying to read the first line of the sentence.. I am yawning Out loud.. My Head turns too keep on looking at your picture.. YOUR Picture is more exciting to Me.. because I just can't pass the first Line of the sentence of this BOOK.. What have YOU done to Me.. I am also asking myself a question.. am I making the right decision.. Usually when I make a decision.. I try to keep it all the way.. but this.. It be hard.. I am flipping through the pages.. and It also got pictures.. black and white pictures of the Old Times.. and I know.. it is Not going to be easy for me

MAH MAH.. My Heart chest be burning.. Missing YOU starts.. I am looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. in the Prison.. I am missing YOU already.. even though YOU just left HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. if you never came to visit Me here in the Prison.. I think I would not feel this Hurt in my Heart.. even though I love you where It has end me here.. I know that I must face what is ahead of Me.. but I wish that YOU came remember Me if I die in here.. if I do not get Out of here in the Prison and I know that I am ready to Die if I have too.. it is all UP to YOU MAH MAH.. it is ALL UP to YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am going to go where I needs to go if there is NO NEXT.. and if this is where I am suppose to end right here.. I know that I did my Best to get where I am at.. but if there is Next.. Please HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. please reconsider.. Please think of Me HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. know that I get do and go a little More for this Nation.. for this Country if YOU are willing to help Me.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. you know that I did ALL this because I love YOU.. even to able to write and to tell YOU a LOVE STORY that I needed to share.. I needed to tell YOU THIS in a way that ONLY YOU can receive.. How can I tell YOU and write YOU this Kind of a story.. it is because I loved YOU when I first saw YOU.. of course I did NOT KNOW what it was at first.. but I knew that there was going to be some kind of a story I wanted to tell YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU this because It comes from the Bottom.. the very soul and the root of my Heart.. I just could not get YOU OFF my Mind when I saw YOU smile.. I just could not believe you even came to the Garden.. in the Garden is the Poorest Place.. at the rock Bottom of People.. that NO ONE looks for and NO ONE cares for.. it is a place where I came from.. I knew that I was at the Most Poorest place that NO ONE thought about.. But when YOU came to visit the Garden the first time.. I am here sitting in the Prison.. having this Much time gives me the space to think about the very first day.. I am looking at this Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and given me this much time here.. I am able to think about the first day.. before It was so busy of trying to bring people together.. MEN to train and practice for the War.. but I had no time to really think about anything then.. but here in the Prison.. sitting here and LOOKING at the ART SKETCH PAPER.. the drawing picture of YOU.. it gives me more time of HOW Important it is for me to have this space.. to really think of YOU MAH MAH.. to Know that I been loving you for such a Long time.. that I been always loving YOU but never given a time like this to think of HOW much I love you.. I asked the Prison Guard for a sheet of Paper.. and with the brush and Ink.. and I am putting the time to write you this Letter.. if it is time for me to go soon.. if My time is coming to the Close.. coming to the end and I am suppose to die here anytime soon.. before I breathe my Last breathe and MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you can't get me Out.. then I want to tell YOU through this Letter before I go.. before I am gone.. and to tell YOU this Heart of HOW MUCH I Love you.. YOU know this MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you know this as much as I know.. the First time YOU came to the Garden.. I was on the UP HILL.. standing by the tree.. Looking at the Bed of Flowers.. that was the day that changed the COURSE of my Life.. I never thought or even dreamed of YOU.. MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN ever visiting the GARDEN.. when I heard from the friend calling me to get down.. and that IT was YOU MAH MAH.. I thought it was a prank.. a JOKE.. why would HWANG WOO MAH MAH come visit the MOST LOWEST PLACE.. why come to this GARDEN when YOU belonged in the Palace.. where ALL of the People who are looking for work.. they would ditch and relocate to the Palace.. asking the KING.. your FATHER.. PEH HA for a place of work.. NO ONE LIVES in the Garden and everyone who does lives here wants to escape the Life of this POOR.. the most poorest poverty and they go.. and I am thinking.. WHY MAH MAH.. the NEXT SUCCESSION.. after watching YOUR FATHER PEH HA.. the KING.. walking alone with YOU.. I knew at that TIME.. something very important MESSAGE is being passed down to YOU THAT DAY.. why would the NEXT RULER on the LINE come to a place.. there are so many people from the TOP NOBLE FAMILIES that goes to the Palace.. wanting a Place of seat to be close to the RULER.. the SUCCESSION.. and I came down thinking.. if this is a prank.. I am going to choke and WHEN I SAW YOU on the SAME HORSE that day.. sitting and waiting.. I fell down.. my face flat touching the ground.. I just could NOT BELIEVE it is HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. is it really HWANG WOO.. IS IT REALLY MAH MAH who is sitting on that HORSE and I am thinking to my self.. WHY WOULD YOU COME to the GARDEN.. and of course I never knew because I Heard you walked in that Garden before I was called by the friend which I was at the HILL TOP by the tree.. HE called me when YOU were leaving the GARDEN.. of course I did Not know any of this but after YOU departed.. after I gave you the FLOWER and before YOU left for good.. the Guard who put the sword on my neck which HE could of executed on that spot.. when YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH told that GUARD not too.. my eyes both closed SHUT.. and when I opened the eyes to LOOK.. I saw you on the HORSE.. sitting on the TOP of the Horse and I saw the Guard behind walking.. following the Horse.. and I knew.. there must be a reason WHY you came.. WHY WOULD HWANG WOO MAH MAH come to the Most LOWEST PLACE like here in the Garden.. I heard also.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH went to the VILLAGE and has visited the People there too.. and you.. MAH MAH looked around the Place.. just like here.. the VILLAGE is like the POOREST.. the second too.. so the Poor people are always fighting against each Other because we just can't live like this.. and WHEN I saw YOU on that HORSE.. and HOW you commanded that GUARD not to strike Me.. I went into the TENT.. like the HUT HOME and I sat to think about this Situation and It really touched my Heart.. some one told me in the Garden that YOU are looking for the People who can join the Military Arts and looking at the YOUNG BOYS the Next in line.. to help to rebuild the Armed forces.. the MILITARY MEN.. giving them ranks in the future.. WHEN I heard this News from the Friend who called me.. because HWANG WOO MAH MAH spoke to HIM.. I was truly alarmed at the News because it became a GOOD NEWS.. and I knew at that moment.. YOU are giving the POOREST YOUNG MEN chances to do something for the future.. the NOBLE FAMILY MEMBERS are the Lucky Ones I would think and yes.. many of them get the better shot of making it.. but I heard.. many people who grew UP Here in the Garden.. when they go to the Palace asking for a place of work.. they get declined and many dies living in the Poverty unable to feed the families.. and I would sit crying.. and I would be thinking of YOU.. that It must be true.. that how MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is giving this chance for Us.. YOU look at the Hearts of young MEN TOO who are uneducated and who are the POOREST who has no chance at anything.. WHEN I HEARD from the Close friend of MINE.. I would cry in the Night.. because I know that there is a way.. there is a DREAMS even for the MOST UNWORTHY PEOPLE.. that there is a HOPE and a WILL.. Dreams can come true when YOU MEET the right person who wants to give and NOW I am sitting here in the Prison.. of course I did NOT think of this because long time has passed.. but when I am sitting here alone.. and LOOKING at this ART SKETCH PAPER.. the DRAWING PICTURE OF YOU.. and Just thinking of the beginning.. and it takes me here to think back and to appreciate and to thank YOU for that chance.. and when that came UP.. and when I was told about how YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is also opening the DOOR for the People who lives in the Garden and even in the VILLAGE.. a great celebration has taken Place.. feast was happening and hearing songs and dancing going On.. the fathers in the garden looks at their young sons.. the CHANCE to change to live a better life.. and people celebrated all through the Night.. I did Not join in the celebration but I saw the MOON.. the MOON APPEARED very big that NIGHT and that is when I saw the SIZE of your HEART.. LOOKING UP at the MOON.. I would stand still and say.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. your HEART is so BIG.. I believe your FATHER.. the KING.. PEH HA knows that YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. it is the ONE with the BIG HEART for the People.. RICH or POOR.. NOBLE or the GARDEN.. it does not matter what families you come from but.. as long as it is People who YOU LOVE.. the SIZE OF that BIG HEART.. and I would fall on the two knees and Head LOOKS UP at the MOON.. is that HOW BIG your HEART is.. can I touch that BIG HEART.. will my arms NOT be able to go around that BIG HEART that the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH HAS.. but even the Broken People.. who has no chance.. means there is NO CHANGE.. but when YOU OPEN the door and even allow the Poorest people to come.. and to accept.. I believe it starts with YOUR BIG HEART.. I love that BIG HEART.. the MOON SIZE HEART that YOU HAVE HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Now I am thinking about why so many men has come.. More people are coming all over the world just to join the Military Arts.. and there is NO ROOM for these New Recruits.. but when the NUMBERS keeps on growing I

MAH MAH.. That UNITY is what is going to HELP YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH to win this WAR.. even the CHILDREN are ready to fight.. and I was crying watching little boys walking ahead.. holding UP the sticks to fight.. I could NOT stop the tears because I was truly Moved.. touched in my Heart because I would ask.. YOU are just too young and I hear.. for the LOVE of this NATION and for the TRUE SUCCESSOR.. we must fight to live if I SHALL DIE and I would cry Harder because even myself feels this way.. I WILL FIGHT for YOU MAH MAH.. and I will die if I have too for YOU and for this NATION.. but I don't want to just die yet.. I want to first see PEACE JOY LOVE AND UNITY in the LAND before I die.. and I believe.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. TO MY QUEEN.. HOORAY.. and I am in the Prison alone.. two knees down.. both eyes closed.. Head looking down.. arms raising UP for YOU MAH MAH.. for MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would shout in the Prison ALONE.. IF I DIE.. Please remember these words of MINE.. MANSAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. arms raises UP.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN.. HOORAY.. ARMS raises UP and in tears I am crying thinking of YOU.. HOOR RAY AND MAN SAE to My QUEEN.. to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am sitting Down in the Prison.. Shouting Out Loud.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I love you.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. I love YOU.. Please reconsider and Help me Get out of this Prison.. YOU know that deep inside.. It is because I love YOU.. ALL this time I been telling YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please reconsider and Get me Out of this Prison WALL.. after the War.. you can put me back into the Prison and I call be executed as the TREASON if you still want to put me to Death but I am asking YOU.. Please reconsider.. I can at least take some Men down in the War.. YOU know that I have been here all along.. just to fight On the Behalf of this Nation.. for this Country and I know that I can be a help.. a useful some How.. and my Hands holding onto the Prison Bar.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. why are you doing this to Me.. why are you.. YOU know that I have made an Oath.. a Promise to the KING.. Your Father.. I have made the Promise to your FATHER PEH HA.. when I was young.. YOU do not remember.. but you.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOU told me that YOU do remember when I came on that Horse.. I made and swear an Oath.. Not just to YOU MY QUEEN.. but to your Father and to My Father.. after the Peace of this Country and the Nation.. YOU can put me to death or let me fight in the BATTLE FIELD and if I die there.. at least I have serve my Nation.. the Country to help to Build for YOU.. I just can't die here in the Prison WALLS.. at least give me the chance to fight if I shall pass as Treason.. I rather die with the Men out who fights with me and for YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. and I would sit.. letting going the Bars of the Prison.. and I would turn to LOOK DOWN.. looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU and I start to cry.. MY FIST hitting my Chest.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. at least I want to die as a soldier.. I came this Far for this reason.. for this Purpose.. I came out of the Poorest Place.. and I had to come this very far so that I can serve my Country.. My Nation to love YOU.. after I started to find Out that I loved YOU.. I wanted to do much more than This that I too have my own worth and value.. to be a Soldier so that I can at least be a help to fight.. to fight on your Behalf.. HELP ME to finish the reason WHY I am here.. Please reconsider so that I can fulfill my purpose who Loves YOU to fight on your Behalf for this NATION.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please consider and reconsider for Me.. and I am Looking down.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU and I am touching.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. why are you making me to suffer like this.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. and I am hearing some kind of noises and Loud sounds out side.. like a CANON BALLS hitting against the Walls.. and I would lift UP.. and I am looking around.. WHAT IS that Noise.. what is happening.. and I hear the PRISON DOOR OPENS and and I turn around.. a Prison Guard with the Keys and I lift UP to look at.. the Closest friend of Mine comes with the Prison Guard and He looks at me.. that the QUEEN is allowing me to step Out.. and fight in the WAR.. I Just can't believe it.. and I start to cry MORE AND MORE.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. thank YOU so Much to do what I am called here to DO.. MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. and I would fold the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing of YOU.. MAH MAH.. and I would get up and walk Out of the Prison DOOR.. and with the Closest Friend behind me.. I step Out side.. and I see you standing there.. In the White Dress with the BIG CROWN ON top of your Head.. and YOU are standing with the TOP MILITARY OFFICIALS and Officers.. and I look MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would drop on two Knees.. and My Head looks Down.. my arm stretches Out forward.. and I see that YOU PULL out the King's swords and points to Me.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I can't stop my tears and I am looking at the Ground.. giving me the Permission to speak as I am shedding my Tears.. I thank YOU.. you know that I love YOU.. and that is why the main reason I was able to get out from the Garden is because I knew that I started to Love YOU.. there was NO Other way to express to get it Out.. when I find Out that My Heart started to Love YOU.. I knew that I was going to face the Prison.. and Yes.. the Prison was the Only door that was looking for Me.. I knew that One day I was going to go to prison.. even the great warning sign came to me from my Father.. my Father told me that if I keep on loving YOU.. how he showed me the grave of my Mother and I saw my father come in a wagon but it was his dead body that came to the garden.. I lost both parents at the young age and I remember my father's words telling me.. if I continue to love YOU MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the Prison Door awaits for me and Death will come knocking on the door.. Many people that I knew warned me when they saw the ART SKETCH PAPER.. the drawing picture of YOU.. I was told by many elders growing UP.. if I keep up loving YOU.. the Prison is waiting for me and I shall die in Prison.. even though I heard many words and faced so much oppositions.. I just could not stop give UP loving YOU MAH MAH.. I went to Prison Once and going back twice.. and I knew this time I will not get Out.. and I was ready to Die.. but never imagined that YOU would become HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and yes.. My Heart.. I knew if I die today and to die in the Prison.. I would be the Happiest to made it to this Place but what Got to me before I would die.. the WAR.. I wanted to finish one last time before I take my last breathe which kept up late into the Night.. that I could Not sleep.. If I would choose to die.. I wanted to Die in the Battlefield in the War.. with the MEN who came out with me.. to die as Brothers in band and I would say.. at last Breathe I served my Country.. I die for a great cause and THAT is to serve my country and to Let YOU SEE.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I wanted to show you at least I fought hard to get to the Place I am at and to show YOU HOW MUCH I Love YOU.. it started with finding out that I loved YOU or else I could Not come this very far.. thinking of you many Nights.. far and distance YOU were at.. and thinking of ways HOW TO get to you and to be close to YOU MAH MAH.. I never gave UP the dreams of getting close and to let YOU KNOW MAH MAH.. what is in my Heart.. to let YOU know.. even though I can die by your SWORD as the ROYAL BLOOD LINE.. at least I can share and show YOU.. even though I can die in your hands.. let me tell you before I die was the only thing that was in my Heart.. I was never afraid to tell YOU because I always loved.. I was never afraid to go to Prison walls because If I had.. I would of never started in the first place.. which it leads me where I am at now.. to show YOU that I never stopped loving YOU.. I already been in this Prison WALLS twice but I am asking for a permission.. to allow me to finish the WORK that has been placed in my hands.. I rather die serving my country as the Military soldier who fights for YOU.. MY QUEEN.. on your Behalf.. I am NOT afraid of anything NOW because.. I do remember leaving the Garden and I was set alone.. I lost everything when I left that Garden.. I had to face the WINTER storm all alone with me there was NO ONE.. Most people left the Garden and I had to leave too.. facing the storm all alone.. only place I was thinking was the Palace.. I will try to go and ask the help there.. and I would walk alone.. it was cold and scary at first but I had YOU IN my MIND.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO.. I had YOU in my Heart.. walking into the woods.. LOOKING UP AT THE sky.. looking at the stars leading the direction.. did not think that the WINTER would come so soon and so fast.. snowing did not help me.. and I could not eat for many days.. it got to the Point my Body just could not go ON.. so I knew.. I can't go on and I would fall in the SNOW.. with me I would say.. AM I going to die without ever seeing YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I could Not move.. and I would close my eyes thinking that I am going to die here.. I knew that it was my last.. and I was thinking in my mind.. I should not of left the Garden if this was going to happen.. if the WINTER was coming soon.. I should of waited.. I heard the People in the village next to the Garden came to attack and raided.. most people in the garden died of the raided Band of People

MAH MAH.. Garden.. either way.. But I woke UP and was in a Home.. and I am looking at the ground.. the tears would not stop because.. I knew.. and I would lift UP my Head to show you my tears.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I faced many difficulties.. many obstacles against the ODDS.. I had hard time coming to this Place.. I lost many people along the way but I never lost the HOPE and the WILL.. because of this.. and behind me I take out the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would unfold and place in on the ground.. I would remember two things.. My Heart for always LOVING YOU.. and the Promises I made to the Fathers.. My Father and Your FATHER the KING.. PEH HA that I am going to be next to you.. that I will be a soldier who will protect and to defend and also to serve the NATION to HELP you to build.. I had those to things set in my MIND and My Heart and I would look at this Picture.. the Drawing picture of the days I wanted to lose hope or wanted to give UP.. Looking at this ART SKETCH PAPER.. the drawing picture of YOU.. the BOY WHO lost his life for drawing this for me to show me because he believed that I will love YOU always More.. I never gave up.. I just can't because the Promises.. the first is to ALWAYS LOVE YOU.. NO Matter how hard or challenging life can be or bring.. to never stop Loving YOU and to promise to protect and to defend YOUR NATION to help to build.. YOU are the ONLY ONE who can help me to keep on going at it.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I just wanted to say.. thank YOU for allowing this day to happen.. THANK YOU for reconsidering and helping me to get out and helping me to finish the task that is up ahead of me.. I love YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I LOVE YOU and I thank YOU.. I am surprised right Now MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I truly thought YOU did Not know who that Little Boy was.. I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. watching YOU turn away and Leaving.. the Prison Wood Door closes.. I did Not show you the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU was hidden below the Paper I drew of the two Horses.. the One YOU were sitting Down and your Father PEH HA.. the King walking with the Bare Feet.. My Heart.. I can't believe that YOU knew who I was at that Time.. I only thought that I am the Only One who knew.. then if I were to ask YOU.. did you know that I was the One who has been living in the Garden.. even though I was very Poor.. the Boy with the Flower in his Hand.. it was me who wanted to give you that Flower and It was I who gave it to YOU for you to smile as YOU went back to the Palace.. Ever Since that Day.. the Day I saw you sitting on that Horse.. with your Father.. PEH HA.. the King beside YOU.. My Heart.. I did Not know what I was feeling that day.. I felt so Stuffy inside and it was hardly that I could Breathe.. I don't why it was Hard to breathe.. I went with my Father back to the Garden that Night.. I just could Not sleep.. I kept on thinking of YOU.. asking when can I see you Again.. I would RUN up the Hill Top.. going to the Tree and the Bed of Flowers that was planted.. another Bed of Flowers was there beside it and I wanted to give you this ONE that kept on looking at me and I felt this is the way YOU made me feel HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. It was the One SUN FLOWER I kept on looking.. Every Morning when I would wake UP.. I would get Out of the Hut my Father build.. a shelter only for two People.. and I would LOOK UP to the HILL TOP.. running Up there in the garden.. and Next to the Tree the Bed of Flower.. That One SUN FLOWER.. I would smile.. and I would say.. IF I EVER Meet the QUEEN.. MAH MAH.. if YOU ever come to this Garden for some reason even though I knew YOU would Not.. I am going to show YOU my Heart.. this is HOW MY HEART Feels when I see YOU.. even when it is cold Out side.. even when It snows Out side.. LOOKING UP to the HILL TOP.. running UP even though I would sometimes slip and fall.. I would get Up.. I want to see that SUN FLOWER.. determined that I was then.. I would grab HOLD UNTO the ROCKS and PUSH up my Body thinking of YOU.. and I would CLIMB UP to the TOP of the HILL.. and I would LOOK at the SUN FLOWER.. when I would stand by the Other Bed of flowers.. I can see the View of the Royal Palace and I would shout.. and say.. Even though YOU may Not see me Close.. I will go to that Royal Palace.. I can be a Guard.. by the Door of the Palace.. even you.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. You may never notice me.. but I will be around enough to see YOU there.. and I do remember.. I hear the friend I grew UP.. telling me that the People from the ROYAL Palace has Come.. of course I thought He was joking.. and when I went Out the Door gates of the Garden.. I just can't believe that what he said was true.. YOU were sitting On the Horse.. just like the first time I saw YOU by the Ocean waters with YOUR FATHER PEH HA beside YOU.. I trembled and FELL before YOU... face looking at the grounds.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. is it really YOU.. is it the ONE WHO I LOVE.. even though I never told YOU.. but I knew.. this was the Only time to tell YOU what My Heart felt.. ever since I saw YOU with Your FATHER PEH HA.. the KING besides the waters.. I wanted to show YOU the Joy that I felt in my Heart.. and I asked YOU for the Permission.. asking YOU.. MAH MAH.. can I show YOU something.. before YOU go I wanted to show you something.. I wanted to show you the SUN FLOWER.. when I see it.. the way that FLOWER made me feel inside is the same way I feel when I SEE YOU MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. PLEASE.. allow me to get you what I wanted to show and share.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. and I heard your Voice telling me to go.. and I get UP from the FLOOR.. facing looking at the ground.. and I turn to run the Other Way.. running UP the Hill and ran to the TOP.. and I would run to the tree.. next beside.. MY HEART was beating so Fast.. My Heart just could NOT BEAT FAST BUT I can hear My Heart running like my FEET going UP to the HILL to the TOP FAST.. I looked beside the Special Flowers.. there.. the SUN FLOWER was there.. I took by the END of the stem and pulled if Out slowly.. and ran down the HILL.. I could Not believe that YOU waited.. you were still sitting on the Horse.. and I stood next to the HORSE you were sitting down.. this IS what I wanted to give YOU.. can YOU please MAH MAH.. take a LOOK at this Flower.. OH PLEASE.. LOOK at it closely and tell me MAH MAH what do you see and what do you truly FEEL.. my Heart was racing fast when I saw YOU.. and even when I ran UP the HILL to the TOP.. My Heart was still racing very FAST.. still my Heart just can't stop running fast.. PLEASE take this Flower with YOU.. because It belongs to YOU.. it is YOU that I saw in YOU.. this SUN FLOWER gave me the Joy that I need.. Please.. OH HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN please take this flower away from Me because IT is YOURS.. I saw you LOOKING at me.. and Your eyes Looking at the SUN FLOWER.. YOUR HAND opens and grabs the stem of this SUN FLOWER.. and My eyes.. it ran Tears from my eyes.. and I see you turn away and watching the Horse starts to leave.. I would fall on the ground.. MY HEART.. It keeps on crying for YOU.. when I saw that SUN FLOWER.. it brought me that joy to get me through the Day.. because I was thinking of YOU that ONE DAY.. some day Just in case YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH come.. even though I never had any kind of Hope you would come.. but.. just wishing and Hoping that YOU would one day.. some day come to visit this Old Garden.. and I would watch YOU leave sitting on the Horse.. and with Many Guards beside you.. I wanted to say something.. I wanted to tell YOU that It needs water.. and I would get UP.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please.. Wait and I would start to run towards.. there was one guard who turns around to block me coming to YOU and I would scream.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. OH PLEASE.. wait.. and the Horse stops.. as YOU raise your right hand and turn to look back.. the Guard would Not let Me.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that Flower Means that I love YOU.. that YOU gave me the SUN like Life.. it means that I love YOU.. shouting Hard for YOU to hear my Voice.. I don't care If you kill me right Now.. but that FLOWER.. the SUN FLOWER.. when I saw it the first time.. My Heart started to race Hard.. I did Not know what that mean at first.. but the More I would RUN up to the HILL TOP to look at that SUN FLOWER.. WHY my Heart raced so Fast when I saw it beside the Other Flowers and wanted to give you this ONE SUN FLOWER.. right Now I am telling YOU when I ran UP.. and ran down the Hill with that SUN FLOWER.. my Heart kept on racing Hard and racing fast.. I did Not know it at that time but NOW I know it.. it is because I wanted to tell YOU MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that I love YOU.. I know that I should not tell you this in front of all these important People.. if YOU want to put me into prison for this.. PLEASE let me die here and I would get down on two Knees.. My Arms stretched Out forward and My Head looking on the ground.. the Guard turns to LOOK at you sitting on that horse and He pulls out the Sword and puts to my Neck.. and I would close my two eyes.. ready to Die even though I made a Promise.. that I am going to protect MY QUEEN and serve the QUEEN for the Nation.. but if I can't.. I rather die here and just break the Promise.. and I am just waiting for that BLADE to strike my Neck and I would say.. PLEASE KILL ME and Let me die right NOW HERE.. I would wait and I would wait.. but.. when I opened both eyes.. and I lift UP to look.. YOUR

MAH MAH.. RAISED and showed NOT TO KILL ME.. the Guard puts his sword back and He turns to walk away following.. I am crying watching YOU on that Horse.. and I see the Horse moving forward.. I knew that I was going to love YOU MORE.. I knew that It was a LIFE or DEATH situation.. because I knew I should of NOT said it in front of all of the top Officials but.. It was My Heart which it moved me to tell you what I was truly FEELING inside and I kept on crying with tears falling down my face.. watching you Vanish as the Horse kept on walking forward.. I am sitting in the prison.. LOOKING at the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I just can't believe that day.. that Guard wanted to strike me for disrespecting the QUEEN.. MAH MAH.. But to be honest with YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I was Not trying to ever disrespect YOU or to dishonor YOU IN any ways.. My Heart was moved and It kept on beating so fast.. when I saw the SUN FLOWER.. My Heart would be moved and Kept on moving so Fast because it made me to come Alive.. just the way YOU make me feel when I see you.. that I would come Alive.. that I can do anything even it can cost my own Life that I can die right Now and I am Not afraid to die because the Chance that YOU gave me.. that Day.. I knew I was going to die but I was ready.. if I can't keep the Promises.. what was the reason for me to live any ways.. if I were to be Homeless and Only can live in the Poverty in that Garden with the Poor People.. it was better for me Not to even have a chance at Life.. so I wanted to see YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. if I had NO chance to succeed.. why Life with Nothing.. can't even Dream or go anywhere but to always stay POOR AND DIRTY.. I saw so many people give UP their Lives in that garden because they had NO chance.. NO shot for anything.. even they would murder each Other in that Garden or starve to death.. that day I knew.. when I saw YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I was on two Knees.. ready to die like a soldier even though I had NO chance at that time.. I knew I would Never made it to be but.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. that Day I saw something different about YOU.. YOU told that Guard Not to KILL me even YOU had all of the rights.. the Guard would be shouting at ME saying I am dishonoring and disrespecting the QUEEN.. and even that Guard Knew that YOU were to be the QUEEN.. and I cried when YOU told him not to kill me.. when I got UP.. and as I am staring at your Picture.. the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. sitting in this Prison.. my hands holding unto the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would say.. YOU had all of the rights.. you had the Power with the words to tell that Guard.. to Kill me.. and I am wondering why did YOU not.. I am sitting here in the Prison.. and I am locked in chains at this Point.. and I am facing the death penalty for Treason for this Nation.. if YOU.. MAH MAH.. told that Guard that day.. I know that I would Not come this very far.. I only wanted to do what was right.. and I saw YOU that day leaving with the SUN FLOWER.. and I knew.. One day.. some day YOU are truly going to know my Heart.. going to understand my Heart.. maybe connect and relate with My Heart.. but YOU have let me live that Day.. that Is why I wanted to always keep that Promises that I made to YOU.. to Your FATHER PEH HA the King and My Father too.. I just wanted to keep my promises to the End.. when I gave you that SUN FLOWER.. that was the Mark of my Promises to YOU that I would always love YOU and would keep my word to the End.. Maybe you did Not know at that time.. but I am glad that NOW you know.. when I saw you come visit me and I told YOU who that BOY was.. and that same boy was the One in the Garden.. and the ONE who gave you that FLOWER.. the SUN FLOWER.. I made the promises looking at the SUN FLOWER.. I was standing by the Tree asking My Mother if she can help me in this One.. that I wanted to give this Flower as a PROMISE to always Love YOU and to always keep my Words that I made the DAY I first time saw YOU beside the waters and Now.. I am glad that NOW YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN knows all these truth.. I wanted you to Know before I be executed.. before I die very soon.. that I always loved YOU and always wanted to keep my part of the Word because now I am telling YOU.. I love you Now.. and still I will always love YOU MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that it was me all this TIME who never stopped loving YOU.. I am looking at the Wall of the Prison.. my back on the Bars and I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing of YOU.. and also I drew the Picture I was thinking about My Father and me.. also YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH and your Father the King with the Ink Pen in my hand.. I remember it was the Most Happiest time in my Life.. the first day I saw YOU.. and How.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH has taken my Breathe away.. I wanted to serve YOU and Protect YOU all through my Life.. even in this Prison Time I am sitting.. and I hear the Prison Door Opens and it closes behind Me.. DID not expect anyone to visit Me and I would hear the Foot steps behind me and stops.. and I would turn around slowly to Look.. I just could Not believe who is visiting Me.. it is YOU.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. and I would move Back.. and face looking at the Floor.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. it is pretty Late and I know that YOU are suppose to be sleeping.. why would you come to visit Me here in the Pitch dark of the Prison.. YOU know that I am life in Prison and ready to face death soon.. for Treason.. and I would hear the Sword touch the Bar.. and I would lift UP my Head.. and YOU.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the sword points at the Picture of the drawing.. It is YOU.. My QUEEN sitting on the Horse.. Your Father the King holding the strings of the Horse on bare feet.. me and my Father.. Face DOWN before YOU and Your Father who was the Late King before His Passing.. and I would.. both hands grab hold unto the Drawing picture that I drew when I first Met YOU.. and I would Lift UP with both hands UP to show YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am Not sure if you ever remembered this time.. and It was the First time I ever saw YOU.. My father was appointed by your Father.. the KING.. PEH HA at that time to be Head over the servants and He was celebrating with Me.. telling me that He just became the Head over the servants and who was at that Time serving YOU as the Head servant.. and He wanted to take me down this Road and wanted to show me who you were.. and that is when I saw YOU.. sitting on top of the Horse.. your Father PEH HA.. the King who was walking bare feet.. holding on the strings of the Horse.. He wanted to be left alone with YOU where there was the Ocean waters.. it was the day when I first saw YOU but also the day I fell in Love with YOU.. I never told my Father this at that time because I did Not even know it for myself.. I saw you and I wanted to serve.. I wanted to Protect YOU for some reason.. of course I was just too young to know the Life that would be leading me here.. but that day I saw YOU.. I do remember.. My Father and I.. I saw my Father falling before the King.. YOUR FATHER PEH HA.. as the Head Servant.. head looking to the ground.. and I knew.. this must be the King.. Must be the ruler of the Nation.. Must be the One to rule over and Must protect and to defend and I knew.. I got of that horse and ran where My Father was at and I fallen.. looking at the Ground.. My Heart wanted to be a Part of the Nation that was rebuilding for the future to come.. I remember that day.. for some reason I wanted to be a Military Soldier.. wanted to be a warrior.. a Guard.. some one to be very Close to YOU but to have a part to protect the NATION you.. my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH was going to build.. I am not sure what it was when I saw YOU.. but I saw your Father.. I saw the KING.. PEH HA.. I saw him walking alone wanting to spend TIME WITH YOU.. which it moved me.. Behind the HORSE you were sitting On.. I saw large companies of People who belonged to the ROYAL PALACE and I just knew.. there must be something very SPECIAL about YOU for the FATHER to care and Love so much that HE had other sons too is what I heard.. but.. walking the Horse alone and pulling it by himself with the Large COMPANIES to leave YOU and your Father.. I knew that YOU were going to be HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I was Not sure HOW you were going to get there but.. I just knew that YOU were going to do something BIG for this Nation where People are going to see and I just wanted to be a PART to help to Build a stronger Nation helping and Supporting you all the way.. I remember that DAY.. your FATHER the KING.. PEH HA TOLD both Me and my Father to stand UP.. my father stood UP before the King and I did Not.. two Knees down.. my Head looking at the ground.. arms stretch forward to salute that I am going to be a military soldier who will serve the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH was my Heart showing YOU.. My QUEEN and your Father the KING.. I remember both.. the Fathers looked at me.. my father smiled and the KING.. your Father has spoken out loud and said.. He can see me protecting YOU and being by your side rebuilding this NATION to make it more stronger for YOU TO RULE and to CONQUEROR.. your Father.. PEH HA said.. a YOUNG BOY like myself has Courage.. has BOLD HEART and smiled LOOKING at me as I am LOOKING at the Ground.. I remember that DAY.. I made a Promise to YOU from my Heart.. that ONE DAY we will see.. that ONE DAY I will see the QUEEN

MAH MAH.. That I will be close to the QUEEN.. and I would say to YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I made a promise to be here because I knew YOU are going to make this NATION stronger.. I just want to be a part to HELP YOU to build it.. I needs to see it so that I can finally let go of.. BUT I can't let it go unless I see it what I truly Believe to come this Very Far for YOU.. and I am looking at the Ground of the Prison and tears fills me eyes and I see the Tear drops running down and it hits the Prison Floor.. I have made this Promise to YOU and I have come so Close.. LOOK at it when YOU GO back.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am so CLOSE to see YOU rebuilding this NATION.. I have made this Promise to be BY your Side.. to defend and to Protect YOU.. to HELP YOU.. to SUPPORT you for your People.. that my Dreams has come true where I get to see YOU as the RULER.. YOU are the TRUE CONQUROER.. YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA saw it that YOU were going to take his Place.. and WHEN HE saw Me.. and HE LOOKED at me when I was very young.. before the KING.. PEH HA.. I raise UP me voice to YOUR FATHER that day.. to PEH HA the Late King that I have made the Promise to this NATION to serve YOU and to Protect YOU and to LOVE YOU forever.. but when I am chained UP in Prison.. and now I am being punished to death for Treason when I have done nothing Wrong but to fight ON your BEHALF MAH MAH.. Before I die.. before the sentencing to put me to Death HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I have made a Promise to YOU.. and this is the Picture which I drew.. when I saw you the First time.. and How my Father has lead me to YOU.. I made a Promise to YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I even made a Promise to Your Father PEH HA.. and even to this NATION.. YOUR FATHER PEH HA.. the KING has received my Words when I spoke.. after HE said LOOKING DOWN ON ME that day.. He sees that I will be there for YOU.. that I will help YOU as My QUEEN.. so Please reconsider and HELP ME to finish what I have started.. help me to KEEP MY promises that I made to YOU as the QUEEN.. as HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. even to your Father PEH HA.. my Father who is in the grave.. I know that My time is very short and that Is why I need Your Help.. that is why I need you to HELP me so that I can keep my promises that I made to YOU.. that I know I may not be able to be with YOU.. But I can always Love YOU from the Far.. and I can be close to watch the rebuilding of the NATION to grow stronger.. YOU have the WORDS to do.. YOU have the power in your Words to help me to keep my Word I have made to YOU since when I was very YOUNG.. when I came into this Prison WALL.. I would sit quietly and as I close both of my eyes.. it took me back when I was with my Father.. How my father wanted to tell me something very Important.. and it was when I saw you for the first time.. I remember sitting on the TOP of the Horse my Father who had the strings pulling it forward.. tells me.. that is the KING and His Daughter.. and He goes over to Lower himself.. I just knew at that Moment.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is going to rule.. that YOU are going to take over your Father's Place and be the One to rebuild the NATION in the greater Heights and to make it more stronger than what it was at that TIME.. I wanted to be a Part.. I wanted to see it Happen.. I wanted to be there to HELP YOU.. to FIGHT FOR YOU and to protect.. to defend if it means something to YOU because that day is when I saw myself just falling and my Heart be saying to ME that I love YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that I love YOU and has never let that GO and still.. as I am here in the Prison.. and YOU can see the chains on both of the wrists.. I can't do anything if I am here with the chains in my wrist and that I am locked UP.. I know that the War is coming SOON.. and Like I said to YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. please reconsider.. I have already made a Promise to YOU and for the NATION you are trying to Build.. Please let me be a part to see it happening with YOU.. Please HELP ME so that I can too help YOU to conqueror and for YOU to RULE all the way.. and I see your hands.. as the Paper that I drew of YOU and Your Father.. PEH HA.. and Me and my Father by the Ocean Waters.. I see you.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the QUEEN looking at the paper which I drew with the Prison Ink and I am LOOKING at the Prison Floor.. and I would say LOOKING at the FLOOR.. DO you remember that time.. I am Not sure if YOU remember back then because Now.. I remember the Promise.. but One thing that I do know is that I am here.. I have seen you become the QUEEN.. my eyes has seen that YOUR FATHER'S Words were true and He was right about what HE has decided at that TIME.. also.. My Heart was right when I saw you the first time.. and I fell in Love with YOU.. and when I did.. I knew I had to give it ALL IN and just go ALL IN for YOU.. YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA was right about me too.. that I was to help YOU.. to support and to defend and to protect YOU.. HE was right when he saw me that I was going to be Close to YOU.. that I be your Soldier and which I am NOW.. but Only YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH can change what is to COME.. you.. MY QUEEN has the Power with your Words to HELP ME to keep my Promises to Finish the Promises that I made to YOU LONG AGO.. I am still willing to go fight and to Protect.. to defend ONLY if you are WILLING MY QUEEN.. that is why I am begging here on two knees to HELP me to keep my WORD before I die.. I want to die with peace.. I don't want to die like this if I did NOT FINISH.. or ACCOMPLISH the Promises I made to YOU and for YOUR NATION.. so you are the ONLY ONE who can change the times which I am at the TIME OF DEATH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. PLEASE help me to keep my Word I made to both Fathers.. My Father and Your FATHER PEH HA.. as I watch YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I would lift UP my Head to LOOK at YOU.. and I see you.. the QUEEN.. YOU would sit on the Floor.. and point at the HORSE where I was sitting.. and point at ME as I am looking through the Prison Bars.. and I would tell YOU YES.. that I was the ONE who sat on that Horse.. I am sure if YOU saw ME sitting on the TOP of the Horse as my Father was the ONE who was pulling the strings of the Horse walking forward and I see YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I see you with Tears.. and I am not sure is it for JOY or sadness and I see your Head telling me yes.. that YOU do remember that DAY.. and It was ME who was the ONE to show you that I WILL PROTECT YOU always and be by your Side and also to LOVE YOU forever in my Heart.. and I would start to cry looking at your crying.. It was me that DAY.. My Promises I made to YOU has come true this Far.. and I am sure YOU heard what YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA said that day because I saw YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. sitting on the top of the Horse and YOU LOOKED at me and gave me that smile.. I still remember YOUR SMILE.. How can I NOT.. I WILL NEVER forget that day because it is YOU who I love.. it is YOU who I wanted to protect and to be close to YOU and to help you to rebuild this NATION.. because I never stopped Loving you and still I love you this Day.. and as I would look at you through the Bars.. I see you crying LOOKING at the Drawing Picture of and NOW you remember.. NOW THE QUEEN REMEMBERS.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH remembers Me.. that was ME and Now here I am in the Prison.. ready to DIE.. but before I die.. let me keep my Word.. my promises I made to YOU.. Just please HELP ME HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HELP ME.. YOU are the Only ONE who can Help me.. so that I can still have the time to Love YOU MORE.. I just want to love you until I die.. My QUEEN.. I am looking at the Bow.. I am pulling the strings of the Bow.. wondering if I can shoot this arrow correctly.. How can I protect YOU.. How can I defend YOU and fight the Battles.. the UP coming Battles if I cannot shoot these arrows correctly.. as I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I would put the Bow down after pulling the strings.. My hands grabs the Art sketch paper.. and I would LOOK at You.. LOOK at your Beautiful Face.. MAH MAH.. and I would Lower.. both on knees.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. and I would LOOK across.. the Board.. the Target that is ON the Middle of the Tree.. I have been trying.. trying to shoot these arrows.. I would pull on the strings of this Bow.. that is LAYING on the Ground.. I been in this forest.. inside the forest are these trees.. which I would come at Night.. and I would look at the Target.. I would pull on the strings of this One Bow.. and my Father made this Bow for Me.. He has made the arrows.. and would give it to me.. and I would grab these Arrows and walk for few Miles.. It becomes Dark when I arrive to this Forest.. Having your Picture.. the Art sketch paper with me always.. On my Side.. On my Chest.. I think of YOU.. and I would say.. One Day I will see YOU soon.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. I will see you One Day.. I will meet YOU some Day.. just wait and see.. and I would always Unfold this Art Sketch Paper.. and I would look at YOU.. the Drawing of YOU and I would say.. WHY does my Heart hurt so Bad.. is it because I am missing YOU right Now.. and I would put the arrows on the ground.. and My Father would tell me.. first I needs to warm It UP.. PULLING on the strings of this BOW.. and I would PULL the strings till my hands.. my arms would hurt.. I would keep on pulling and Pulling it many times before I would shoot the arrows.. I remember I pulled it too many times

MAH MAH.. Deep in the garden is a Cave.. and big Cave that I found with my three friends who lives in the Garden.. and I told my best friend that I saw You.. MAH MAH.. I saw CONG JU NIM when I was travelling with my father.. and Told my best friend that something has Happen to my Heart.. that I can feel that I am In Love with YOU MAH MAH.. that I started to Love CONG JU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I decided to get Out and have a walk alone.. could Not sleep in the tent size Hut Home.. room with my father.. and I went to the Big Cave.. sitting alone.. I have candles to Light to see the big Cave.. I did not expect anyone to come because I did Not tell any of my three friends.. I just can't sleep.. walking through the Woods with my Tall trees.. I would stop to LOOK UP at the Sky.. I see the MOON appear before me.. of course YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM do Not know my Heart.. because I did Not let you hear what I has to say.. but Alone I felt just loving YOU.. but the MOON looks so Beautiful Out Here when YOU stand alone.. but I am wondering.. Is that HOW BIG MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. your Heart looks.. I am looking at this MOON.. the MOON APPEARS to look so much Bigger Now.. before I did NOT Notice about HOW BIG OR SMALL the Size of that MOON was until I met YOU.. after meeting YOU and seeing you the first time.. My Father tells me that HE was promoted to be the Head servant.. which the Poor People at the Garden celebrated having a Great Feast.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. I never thought my Father would be this Happy.. my Father tells me that He is going to be serving YOU.. the One who is suppose to carry Out and with Other Lower Servants around HIM.. they are suppose to help YOU around the CHAMBERS where you stay.. I guess that is what the Servants do.. but remember MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. My Father may be the Head servant who carries out and do the work as what the slaves do in the House.. I have a Bigger dream than my Father.. but.. knowing that It is YOU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I don't feel any shame because I am going to show YOU MUCH More than what my father can show YOU.. as long as it is YOU MAH MAH.. I would stand by this Tree.. it is before going into the Big Cave.. and it is the last tree before I walk in the Big CAVE.. and has a distance where the Leaves are NOT on your way.. where I can stop.. and take a Look UP at the Sky.. and Looking at that MOON.. I am standing in AWE because I am thinking of the size of Your Heart.. I know and I believe to be the Next RULER.. to be the Next SUCCESSION on the Line.. YOU must have that KIND OF SIZE of a HEART to rule and Run this Nation.. or It just can't go NOWHERE.. and I am LOOKING.. That BIG MOON.. the BIG HEART that I see in CONG JU NIM.. that MOON SIZE BIG HEART that MAH MAH has.. I wonder.. I want to see your Real Heart.. is it really that BIG like the MOON I am seeing right Now.. I want to see your HEART CONG JU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and before I would walk into the Big Cave.. I am LOOKING at the sky One more time before I go into the Big Cave.. I am sitting inside the Big Cave.. I drew a MAP.. of remembering the Place.. my Father took me by the Horse and How he travelled so Far.. I had to remember the road He took me when he was holding Unto the Strings of Horse.. and with One CANDLE Stick.. I want to see you again.. But I know it is going to be a far walk.. I need this time so that I may know around.. I have lack of experience of travelling because I am dreaming of going into that PALACE.. One day I am going to take that Military Art and the training ground exam.. I want to be the palace guard.. and from there.. I want to get close to YOU MAH MAH.. but I needs to take this step right NOW.. or else I will never get there.. as I am Looking at this Paper of the road MAP I drew.. the first travel on this Horse.. MAH MAH.. will you be mad if I go to see YOU.. I know I be getting there without your Permission.. would you be angry at me if I showed UP out of nowhere.. I want to see YOU AGAIN MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. will you allow me to come visit you even though I am only asking for a very short time.. I just want to see YOU before I would forget your Face.. I have never seen such a Beautiful face.. you are so Beautiful MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and as I am looking through the traces of the Lines I drew of this paper Map.. I am voices.. and Foot steps inside the BIG Cave.. and it got my attention away from the paper Map.. as I turn to LOOK front.. I see three of the friends who lives in this Garden.. they are all poor boys who lives in tents made of Huts with two rooms.. and the Best friend of mine.. He shows me something that I will never forget.. it is the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. and Places in on the ground.. there is a Village close to the Garden and a BOY is an Artist.. and He has found a WAY to draw this Picture.. of MAH MAH.. the Picture of YOU.. CONG JU NIM.. and I just can't believe it.. is it really the Picture of YOU.. is this really CONG JU NIM.. and My hands grabs on the Sides.. being very careful with.. I do not want to put any wrinkles.. pulling it close to LOOK.. I can't.. I Just can't believe it.. it is YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. How can this Boy draw picture like this.. It looks as real as YOU.. even though it is just an Art Sketch Paper.. the Work of an ART.. an artist is Born.. but YOU.. MAH MAH has given me something to Dream ON and to work with in my Life.. and the three boys sat down next to Me.. and I turn to LOOK at the three Boys.. and I looked at them.. I know that ONE DAY I am going to the palace.. I believe there is MUCH WORK to be DONE.. for CONG JU NIM.. WE.. together as Brothers can go to the Palace and HELP rebuild for CONG JU NIM to become the SUCCESSION.. to help MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM to succeed.. the THRONE belongs to MAH MAH.. and the three Boys looks at me.. and I see tears in all of our eyes.. I can Dream.. and WE.. as a TEAM can DREAM building together for this NATION.. for this COUNTRY and.. the Four of us inside this BIG CAVE starts to cry together.. I love MY CONG JU NIM.. I look at the three Boys getting UP after wiping the Tears and they leave the Big Cave and I sit alone.. and I am Looking at this Piece of Work.. the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I put my right Hand on my chest.. CAN YOU FEEL my Heart.. Only if YOU are here CONG JU NIM.. I would let you listen to the Heart beat the SOUND that is making at this Moment right after I received this Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I just could Not stand UP because It caught me off guard.. TOOK my breathe away leaving me with NO WORDS to express.. I wanted to say to YOU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. the three of the friends here at the Garden.. we were born together.. in a Poor families but connected because the Poverty in this situation.. there is ONE who is the best friend who is the closest like a brother I don't have.. we made a Pack and Now two more friends has joined to take this Journey together to go to YOU.. that NOW.. MAH MAH.. I wanted to know where I was going.. where I am suppose to head.. NO direction.. and NO dreams were given.. but the DAY I saw YOU.. when I saw YOU sitting On the Horse.. and Your FATHER.. PEH HA next to YOU standing on bare feet.. when I was down ON two Knees.. Arm stretched forward and Head looking down.. Letting YOU know that I am going to protect and defend YOU as the soldier.. as a warrior for the Nation.. Your Father.. PEH HA turns to LOOK at YOU.. and He gave YOU a Stick to YOU.. surprised with my Father.. and MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. like holding the Sword YOU Pointed at Me.. and I lifted UP my Head looking UP toward YOU.. I was too surprised.. that is when YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA.. the KING SAID to my Father.. I will be a great of Help for the PRINCESS.. CONG JU NIM of building this NATION stronger together.. and NOW.. I am sitting in this BIG CAVE thinking about that DAY I saw the STICK YOU pointed at ME.. telling me that I am allowed to enter the PALACE when the TIME comes.. my friends ARE all filled with Awe because dreaming together was Never this thing or never been this CLOSE.. MAH MAH.. as I am wiping my tears with my arms.. I am Nothing but just a POOR Boy.. who has Nothing more but to die with Others here in the Garden.. they don't have any dreams too.. and I see bodies every day laying in this Garden.. that is why I can NOW say I love YOU.. that YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. if I never met YOU that day.. Not just about Me.. but the Poor People in the Garden too and the Next to Us is the village of more poor people who has useless lives.. MAH MAH.. WE NEED your HELP so that the NATION can be more stronger.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. when YOU gave me the Permission with the STICK.. it is going to be even the GARDEN and the VILLAGE.. the People WHO has no Dreams can NOW dream together to MAKE this COUNTRY.. this NATION GREAT and stronger Once again.. I believe that YOU are the ONE who has the Key to Open the DOORS for the People that needs to dream to come alive so people can live again.. as I am sitting inside this BIG CAVE.. wiping my tears Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I would grab Hold unto the Art Sketch Paper.. drawing picture of YOU.. blowing the candle out.. and I would walk Out of the Big Cave.. Now I believe after receiving this Picture.. drawing picture of YOU.. I can go back into the Tent size HUT home and sleep.. I get to LOOK at the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and I stop.. and I lift UP to LOOK UP at the Sky.. the MOON is so Big appearing before me.. looking at

MAH MAH.. Shows me that I.. Believe YOUR HEART is as big as the MOON.. that BIG SIZE of that Heart for this Country.. for the Nation.. for the Poor people here at the Garden and next to US the VILLAGE people as well.. MAH MAH.. IF I did Not go with my Father that day.. I wasn't feeling right and I did Not wanted to go with HIM.. another friend that I knew just died who grew up with the three and I felt like everything is hitting Harder at rock BOTTOM.. but my Father told me that HE wanted to show and share.. I told that I had NO DREAMS.. I HAD NO VISIONS.. what is the use of when everyone is dying around me anyways.. I know that I will die with these POOR people.. but I went with my Father.. and when I saw YOU.. I just couldn't believe that YOU are the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. that is the MAH MAH.. but when I saw you with YOUR FATHER ALONE.. that is when I knew that NOT just the Princess.. NOT JUST the ROYAL BLOOD LINE but much more than just a PRINCESS.. CONG JU NIM.. that YOU are the NEXT TO WIN.. a TRUE SUCCUSSION and I had to get to YOU and asked YOU.. MAH MAH.. because YOU are the Only one who can help the DREAMS come true.. and I felt something that day.. MY HEART.. I felt my Heart screaming inside.. I felt my Heart crying inside because I knew that DAY I started to Love YOU.. Now holding this Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. I know that I will love YOU more.. because even though YOU are so FAR.. having this Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of you is the starting point where I am going to make my Moves too.. that I want to get to YOU.. that I want to be close to YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. only way MAH MAH can hear me Out boldly is when YOU are Near and NOT so far away from Me.. Please let me Heart keeps on loving YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please let my Heart tell YOU and to tell YOUR MOON SIZE HEART that I love YOU.. that I want to say it to MAH MAH.. because I am NOT AFRAID to Love you any more because I do Love YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please hear me Out and let me say it to tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. and after I would LOOK UP at the MOON.. I would look forward and started to walk back to the TENT size HUT home in the Garden.. I am riding on the Horse.. and my Father.. He is pulling the strings of this Horse as He is leading back to the Garden.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I am wondering.. what is Happening to my Heart.. MAH MAH.. I wish that YOU can hear my Heart beating.. I never felt this way Before and I would turn my Head back to LOOK.. and I am seeing YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM sitting on the top of the Horse.. the KING.. PEH HA.. YOUR father standing next to the Horse which YOU are sitting.. and YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA.. the King turns to LOOK at you his Daughter.. and I hear.. MY PRINCESS.. MY PRINCESS.. NEH CONG JU and I touch my Chest.. it is so Hard to breathe because.. I feel like I am starting to Love YOU.. I have never.. if YOU can Only have my Heart.. if I can open the chamber of my Heart and give this Heart and Put inside the Chamber of your Heart.. will you know that it is the starting of MY HEART loving you.. and I am looking back.. I see everything is getting smaller and smaller as YOU.. CONG JU NIM and PEH HA your Father vanishes into.. and the Horse stops.. and I turn my Head and My father Looks at me.. and all I see is his Smile looking at me.. My father grabs hold unto the strings of the Horse and starts to walk forward.. and Yes.. he is talking but My Mind.. why is my Mind and my Heart out of place.. I am thinking of YOU.. How is it that I can fall when It is the first time I saw YOU MAH MAH.. and YOU are not just an ordinary person.. and YOU.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. is not easy to Love at all.. and I asked my Father a Question.. what Happens when YOU love the PRINCESS.. and the Horse stops and my father turns to look at me.. and All he does is telling about the Punishment.. of the death penalty and that the Law goes against for falling in love with the Royal Bloodline.. that It is called Treason for the Nation.. and I am hearing nothing but the worse case that can happen to me for falling.. and My Father looks at me.. knowing this is serious Bad.. and I already told him that the Question is the Answer that I needed because I have already started.. of course.. He would walk ahead pulling the strings of the Horse and I am sitting on the Top of the Horse.. but I feel like I can sit on the clouds above.. that I know I am at the rock Bottom and looking UP at the clouds seems not too bad.. but what is wrong with my Heart.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. what is wrong with me.. HOW can this Be.. am I determined person.. am I truly ambitious.. is it because YOU are the Next SUCCESSOR.. because I do remember.. I had NO idea that YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM be the Next to succeed in your Father's Place.. PEH HA.. I saw YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA.. on his bare feet.. walking on the rocky Road.. just like my Father.. He has slippers on though but when I saw the Feet of the King of the Nation.. I was shocked and surprised that HE can.. your Father.. who is the SUCCESSION and the KING of the Nation.. HOW can he walk bare feet while pulling on the strings of the Horse.. it just don't make any sense.. when I saw that.. I was shocked.. I never felt this way in my life.. my Heart beating so fast.. I remember when my Father lowered himself as being the Head servant to your Father.. to the King.. PEH HA.. I was thinking at least be the General for the Nation.. but my Father told me that my Grandfather was the Chief general.. who also became the Head of Commanders but I wanted my Father to be that instead.. but it leaves me the room.. I want to be close to the Princess.. I want to serve the country with Pride and Justice.. MAH MAH.. I wanted something more than what my Father can bring.. I was sitting on that Horse.. looking at YOU sitting on that Horse.. I knew I had to do something so that I can get close.. if my Grandfather was able to be the Head of the commanders serving Your FATHER.. the KING.. PEH HA.. I want to be next in line to serve YOU as to Protect and defender of this Country.. for the NATION you will rule some day.. I had to get in the Line.. My Heart.. it was beating so Fast.. I would ask myself.. SHALL I go and ask.. Shall I and that is when I had to get Out of the Horse I was sitting on and Lowered.. looking at the ground.. and I would be two Knees.. Head looking to the Ground.. arm stretched OUT to show YOU the HONOR and RESPECT that YOU will be the Head.. running this COUNTRY.. this NATION as the NEXT IN LINE to succeed after your Father's Passing.. the King.. PEH HA.. I heard your Father.. PEH HA smiling and Laughing.. my Father also laugh along with HIM.. I though I be in trouble or punished for this.. But hearing your Father.. the KING.. PEH HA.. there was a hope in my life.. that I knew that some day.. I be by your side.. and that I be part of your RULING.. conquering over this NATION.. as my Father still be walking.. holding unto the Strings of the Horse.. I am thinking of YOU.. in silent I remain thinking of YOU.. wondering.. will I ever see you again.. WILL I ever have another chance to see you this CLOSE I just saw YOU.. MAH MAH.. I am feeling like I can do anything as Long as YOU are close by because I feel like I am loving YOU.. as I am looking UP looking at the clouds.. How can this Be if there is so much danger and risks and that My Life is on the Line.. that I can lose my own life of loving YOU.. that the Case is death sentence for Treason.. the Most severe punishable which means to be KILLED.. if I think of these things.. there is NO HOPE to love you.. but when I think about the Other side.. the Nation which YOU can rule.. that there is something Great and Big that can happen brings a true excitement because being close to YOU.. to be Near and even though YOU may Not open your Heart for me to Love YOU.. I know that I can still Love you in silent.. as Long as I love you.. but I want to tell you and ask how.. HOW CAN I Love you where YOU can know this Heart of Mine.. even though I am well aware of the DEATH sentence and for punished as being called the Treason.. Let me die as for the traitor even though I never meant it to happen.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. WILL you please forgive me for loving YOU the way I do.. if I started.. How is it my Fault.. How is it when I am losing my own mind because I never thought this can ever happened.. when I saw YOU.. and I saw your Father.. bare feet I just knew.. and MY FATHER was walking holding onto the strings of HORSE like Your FATHER was ON your Horse you were sitting down on.. I believe there must be something IMPORTANT that HE.. PEH HA.. the KING wanted to share with YOU.. a MESSAGE or a story of something for the Future because my Father.. He took me Out of the Garden.. too many people who lives in the Garden.. they bump into each other.. and it is really Hard to share something Important when there are just too many Noisy people around YOU.. I know He.. PEH HA.. the KING.. had a message ONLY he wanted to share to YOU about the Nation.. about the running and ruling the Nation.. for the country because I believe in YOU.. it is my first time I saw YOU.. but I felt in my Heart.. the first time I saw YOU and your Father together alone.. I knew YOU were.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH is going to rule and run this Nation as the Head.. the SUCCESSION for this Country.. and I want to join.. I want to be that part.. I want to see YOU at the Best seat.. with the BIG CROWN ON top of your Head.. I want to see YOU flying and soaring.. Just the way I am able to see.. sitting down on the top of the Horse.. I lift UP my Head.. LOOKING at the clouds.. I see how

MAH MAH.. And the distance.. it is beautiful when YOU love.. I am touching my chest with my right Hand.. my Heart keeps on beating fast.. I tell my Heart.. please don't beat on me too fast.. but when I think of YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I can feel this smile inside of me.. YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM makes me smile.. makes me the Happiest even though there is NO DREAMS where I come from.. but when I heard from the words of the KING.. PEH HA.. your Father.. I saw your own Father.. the RULER of the NATION and the KING.. the true SUCCESSOR Looks at the little Boy Me and He smiles.. the KING SMILES and he turns his head looks at YOU and do you know what your Father said.. the KING.. PEH HA to my Father the Head of the servant.. the Lowest in the Palace for the royal duties.. that Your SON.. he is going to Help my Daughter.. CONG JU NIM.. My Princess.. to make this NATION.. this country to be strong Again.. it starts from the smallest but the Heart and the Mind has to be right and has to be Strong.. and He looks at me and smiles.. as I turn to LOOK back.. the two lines of tears runs down.. and I am looking.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I will see you again.. I will see you soon.. even though YOU may not know it yet.. I want to help YOU to rebuild the NATION.. the COUNTRY to be strong again.. and I would say.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I LOVE YOU.. I Love YOU.. and I turn my head to look forward.. my Father turns his head to look back.. and He smiles.. I would be thinking that He be against it.. but My father told me this.. I have a spirit like my grandfather.. that Means to Dream Big means to do it big.. NOT TO be afraid to take risks or chances even if it costs my Own Life.. and my father looks at me.. and he turns to look forward and kept on walking.. I know that it is so Hard to Love YOU my PRINCESS.. It is NOT going to be easy for me to keep on telling YOU MAH MAH that I love YOU.. but I told you.. I may be small.. the smallest.. but My Heart.. my MIND and my spirit must be strong.. I don't care what anyone says because I have never stopped dreaming of loving YOU.. I started rock Bottom.. from NOTHING.. from scratch but I never gave UP HOPE in loving YOU.. I started just too small but kept on going and trying.. but that ONE DREAM kept me alive.. to LOVE MY PRINCESS.. to love my CONG JU NIM.. to Love MAH MAH.. who dare to goes against my PRINCESS.. I will pull out a stick.. and can even strive with a Single BLOW.. but loving YOU is the most greatest which it reshaped.. my Dreams are so Big.. because I LOOK at My Princess.. MAH MAH.. Just remember that I love YOU.. and How much do I love YOU.. I think you know that I love you just too much.. even I am going back to the back story to share More to my MAH MAH.. you know my Heart.. so many missing pieces I want to tell YOU MAH MAH.. How the stories of loving YOU means so much to me.. the greatest gift of all is Love.. and that is loving YOU to the fullest and that I just can't stop myself of loving YOU.. as I share how much I love YOU.. YOU will find more mysteries because I just can't forget how much I do really love YOU.. all I want is for YOU to believe in this Love that my Love for MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM is real.. for My PRINCESS.. is real and Not just.. but YOU will find out later down the road How much I love my PRINCESS.. MY CONG JU NIM.. I love you.. and I just can't stop loving YOU.. and I am looking as my Father is walking.. pulling on the strings of the Horse and He walks into the Garden.. and I came in with Magic of Love.. I walked Out with NO HOPE and NO Future.. with NO Dreams as my father would say.. He wanted to show me and share something to me.. I had nothing leaving this Garden.. just a POOR BOY with nothing in life.. but coming back into this Garden.. I see YOU.. I see MY PRINCESS.. NEH CONG JU NIM is all I see.. and I am smiling.. MAH MAH.. I love you.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. My PRINCESS.. I LOVE YOU.. MAH MAH.. I am taking you to the Garden.. I want to show YOU something.. and I am walking.. my hand on the Strings of the Horse.. and YOU are sitting on the Top of the Horse.. with Your White Dress.. as I am walking.. hand grabbing unto the strings and the Horse is walking next to me.. I see the Garden.. and Closer and closer we are getting.. I would turn my Head looking UP toward YOU.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. YOU know that YOU did not have to do this.. YOU are in the Royal Blood Line.. and I am a son of a servant.. but why do you want to go with me here.. you know that I am a low Born.. from the lowest clan.. but tell me Why.. all you need to say is one word and I can just die in the streets.. and No one would know my Name.. would ever recognize me.. but why do you want me to take YOU back to this Garden.. and I would turn my Head looking straight and I went into the Garden.. hand grabbing unto the strings of the Horse.. I don't hear any words from YOU.. as YOU are sitting.. with a Crown on top of Your Head.. with the most beautiful white Dress.. My eyes.. which I just can't keep it still.. My eyes just kept on looking at YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. MAH MAH.. My Princess.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. why are you asking me to take YOU back to this Garden.. I told you that my Heart left this Garden long ago.. the day I left was when I saw YOU with another MAN.. the royal Prince.. it hurts me when I come back to this Garden.. it hurts me of the bad memories I had when My Heart would torn into pieces.. knowing that I am so little.. I am so lost.. I was so confused.. even though I knew that I could never be with YOU.. but still.. my Heart was torn when I saw YOU standing with the Royal Prince.. How small and little I felt when I saw YOU holding his Hand.. I would stop.. the Horse stops.. and I am looking at the Bed of flowers.. and I am not sure why you wanted to come to this Flower.. as I would stand next to YOU.. two guards also came.. and they would help YOU to get Out of the Horse.. and I am looking at the Bed of Flowers.. and this is where my Father is buried.. of course YOU don't know it.. but I have taken you to his Grave.. as YOU were standing next to me.. and I wanted to tell YOU something.. which I had Not before.. and I turn my Head on the side to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. do YOU know what this Is.. and I would look at YOU.. turning your head to look at me.. and I would turn my Head to look at the bed of Flowers.. I know that YOU wanted to come to the Garden but before we can go further down.. I wanted to stop by my Father's grave.. this is where My Father is buried.. When he died.. I did not know where to put His Body.. but I wanted his Grave to be close where I am able to find and to go.. my Father may not be here.. but I know his spirit is with me.. I wanted to remember my Father.. and wanted to be close to HIM.. so I remember this would be the best place to bury his Body.. so with the grave diggers.. I would be standing here.. crying as my Father's body would be laid to rest.. I remember I would be crying for him.. days after days would go by.. I still could Not believe that My Father would be gone.. and I wanted to show YOU.. this is my Father's Grave.. when times are rough.. when times are tough.. and I feel like pouring out my tears.. I would come to my Father's grave.. I remember when I would be sad.. when I be hurt.. He would be next to me.. I would be crying as he would tell me all things be okay in the end.. Now MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that YOU may not remember my Father.. He was close to you Once.. and yes.. he was your servant.. the King.. PEH HA would put my father in charge to look after YOU.. I am not sure if YOU ever remember my Father.. of course something happened that my father went into the prison.. and he was sentence to death.. I saw HIM in the prison bars.. a carriage with bars.. and he told me.. never to Love YOU.. Never to love the Princess.. and I saw the carriage with bars leave off.. that was the last thing.. I think YOU were young back then.. because I was Young too when he died.. MAH MAH.. do you remember the Man who was your servant.. and I see YOU turn your head to look at me.. I see your head moving Up and down.. means YOU do remember my Father.. I think he told me YOU were so bright.. very bold and courageous.. Loves to shoot bows and arrows.. told me that YOU love riding Horses and loves to Hunt wild games.. has never seen any one like YOU before.. that My father believes if YOU were a Prince.. YOU be a Mighty warrior Prince is what he told me.. but YOU are a Princess instead.. I don't know why and I don't know how this happened to me.. why would I love a Mighty Warrior Princess.. my father told me before He was going to prison.. Never Love the Princess.. Because something Horrible can happen to me in the end.. and Now.. I have brought YOU to the Man.. the one who use to serve YOU as a servant.. this is my Father's Grave.. this is the bed of Flowers I was talking to YOU about for a long time.. and now you were wondering how come I am telling YOU this HUH.. MAH MAH.. I know its be long years since then.. and many years has passed by.. there was No chance where I was able to tell YOU.. everything happened so fast.. I know that I should of never met YOU.. then I am sure I would never fall in love.. but what good is all that talk about the past when I am here in the present with YOU.. I told YOU that I am Not afraid to Die.. if I die because of loving YOU is a sin.. then Please.. Kill me for my Sin.. but I did not mean to love YOU this Long.. I did not mean to love YOU.. it just happened out of nowhere.. I remember it was the day my Father came from work.. serving YOU.. and He brought a Picture.. he brought the Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. he told me when he came Home late into the night.. I was Not sleeping

MAH MAH.. Showed me the Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. My father was smiling when He gave me the Picture.. the sketch paper.. telling me an Artist drew this Picture of CONG JU NIM.. I would be asking How YOU.. MAH MAH was like.. I was very curious because my Father who served YOU would always be smiling.. and He was very happy to be there as Your Servant.. of course.. I took the Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU into my hands and I looked.. when my eyes first saw this Picture.. I would feel something was wrong with my Heart.. it would burn and kept on burning with me.. I would place my hand on the chest.. I don't know but something is wrong with me.. what is happening to My Heart.. it burns like fire within me.. and my Father would stand there and He looks.. He told me it should not be.. that this is Wrong.. and I would be looking at the Picture of YOU.. the Art sketch paper.. My Father looks.. and he grabs the Sketch Paper and snatches off my Hands.. and He turns and walks off.. I remember I started to cry.. crying loud and loud.. asking for the Sketch Art Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I want to see the Picture.. I want to see YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. I want to see YOU.. I would be looking for it.. my father would tell me Not to love YOU.. I just can't.. I should Not.. because If the King knows that I do.. even he can die because of Me.. if the words get out.. and someone finds Out.. I can be executed with my Father and he tells me never to Love YOU.. I remember my father was sleeping in his room.. and I came into my father's room.. I see the Art Sketch paper laying next to HIM.. I went over and I grabbed the Art sketch paper.. walking into my room.. I would unfold and find myself looking at the Picture of YOU.. my hand goes across the paper.. and I just wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to see MAH MAH.. can I ever see CONG JU MAH MAH.. would I get the chance to see YOU.. and I would sit by myself.. looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. my Hands.. my arms.. putting the Picture of YOU.. the Art sketch Paper to my chest.. I want to see YOU but I want to love YOU.. I saw my Father looking at me.. he stands in the room.. He sees my arms.. the Art sketch paper.. the picture of YOU close to my Chest.. close to my Heart and I turn too look up.. I want to see CONG JU NIM.. CAN I SEE MAH MAH.. Father.. can I please see how CONG JU NIM is like.. Please Father.. and He gets very angry at me and grabs.. snatches it off.. take the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture and tears it into the pieces and tosses it out side.. and He walks off the house.. and I would look out side.. I see the Art sketch paper torn into pieces.. and I would cry.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I would go out and sit.. picking UP the pieces toward.. trying to find each torn pieces of papers.. and the light rain would not help me at all.. as it became soak and wet over the rain fall.. I would try to put the pieces together but the rain and I would sit in the rain crying.. crying for YOU.. wanting to see the Picture of YOU and It torn my heart into pieces.. As I am now with YOU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. it was such a long ago when I first saw your Picture.. I wanted to glue it back.. some way and some how I wanted the Art sketch Paper.. I started to miss looking at you through the Picture.. asking My Father.. begging HIM to get an Artist to draw another picture.. from the Sketch paper.. I wanted to see MAH MAH.. I wanted to see the Princess.. I wanted to see CONG JU NIM.. my Father kept on telling me that If I keep on doing this.. I will die sooner.. if the Word breaks Out.. I can be executed and told me to forget you.. and as I am now looking at the bed of Flowers.. I am standing next to you and I would show YOU.. this is my Father's grave.. I wanted to bring YOU to this Bed of flowers because this is where My Father is buried.. it has been a long time since I visited him.. but I wanted to tell YOU this.. my Father wanted me Not to Love YOU.. told me that YOU were so dangerous to Me.. that my life has to be on the line if I cross this Line and yes.. I have crossed the line for a long time.. but the Word never got out until now.. I have been loving YOU the day I saw Your Picture.. I have never met YOU in my life but knew that one day something has to happened.. I wanted to tell my Father.. I am at his grave with YOU next to Me.. of course he is right because I am on the verge of facing my own death.. but I want to tell my Father.. I will go down with HIM.. and I turn to you.. MAH MAH.. I loved YOU then.. I loved you when I never met YOU.. I started to love you when I met YOU the first time.. I love you much more because I still have life in me.. if I am given me a new day.. I am so thankful that this day is made so that I can love YOU MORE.. Now.. I am able to show you my Father's grave.. I was warned and been warned for a long time.. not to cross the line.. Not to love YOU.. but My Heart.. I just could not let YOU go MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I guess I wanted to tell YOU.. whatever happens to me in the future.. at least YOU get to see my Father's grave.. in the bed of flowers where he is buried.. I am Not sure if this was the main reason why you wanted to come to this Garden.. is it too meet my Father's grave.. because this is where My Father was buried.. after he died.. His Body.. his Bones are here now.. as long as I still have life in me for a day.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. PRINCESS.. I will always love YOU.. even then.. even now and forever I will love YOU.. I am looking at the Moon.. I just wish that YOU know my Heart.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that I can't go with you right Now.. Because I want YOU to be at the Seat.. to be at Your Throne.. to Rule over and to take the seat that belongs to YOU.. and I am standing by the tree.. on the Hill side top.. looking UP to the sky.. Looking at the stars shining across the sky.. MAH MAH.. I remember when I first stood here.. running UP the Hill when I was a Young Boy.. My Father was standing next to the tree.. and I would yell out loud.. and my Father smiling looking at me Running UP to him.. and I am holding the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I would show my Father.. and He looks at YOU.. that is the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. after My Father passed away.. I remember walking UP the Hill side.. and I would stand next to this Tree.. and I am holding unto the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I would turn too look.. I can see the Palace.. It seems so Far away.. and I would be looking UP to the sky.. Looking at the stars shining above me.. and that Moon.. it has never seems to change.. it would appear the same way as being a Young Boy.. But I still had hopes and dreams.. that One day I am going to see YOU.. that One day I am going to hold your hands and to stand by this Tree.. the same tree I would run up and down.. many broken hearts.. broken tears I would cry.. I would be shouting Loud.. Looking across.. Looking at the Palace.. WHY did you have to come into my Heart MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. why do you have to live In my Heart.. it hurts because I love YOU.. I know that I should be more happier than ever to Love YOU.. but instead.. many nights I would shed these tears.. feeling so Lost.. feeling so lonely and just to be loved.. Will the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. will you ever see my through.. would you ever see my Heart.. can YOU feel the Heart.. the One Heart that I have kept inside which weeps most of the time.. missing YOU.. wanting to be close.. to get close.. to Love YOU.. to held YOU in my arms and to tell YOU.. whisper in your Ears How much I love YOU.. and I would watch the Night.. wondering can My voice ever be heard.. I don't care.. as long as YOU can hear me.. if I tell YOU that I love YOU.. will you want to hear my words.. my voice of telling YOU.. I can tell YOU thousand times.. but will you want to hear it over and over and over again if I tell YOU that for Me.. it is the greatest pleasure to tell YOU from My Heart because I know deep within me I love YOU.. I would even stand by this tree.. when I saw the dark clouds gathered.. I can hear the roaring of the Thunder knowing that it is going to send rain.. showers and heavy rain down on me.. I would watch and wait.. as I feel the wind changing towards me and I start to see the rain drops.. falling from the Sky.. I would be standing by this tree.. Looking across.. looking at the Palace wondering.. If I go to YOU.. will you open your arms out to me.. will you tell me MAH MAH.. I am able to come to YOU.. will you allow me to step into that Palace.. and I would be wondering.. How do I get to that place from where I am standing.. I want to Go.. I want to run to YOU.. I want to be where YOU at.. If I go.. will you accept Me.. will I be invited to stand close to YOU.. and I would start to watch the rain fall.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I remember it was after I saw YOU coming to the Garden.. the first time YOU came.. I heard a Man who is also working for the Garden.. He told me that the PRINCESS.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM has come.. I remember I dropped.. I was at the Hill side on top.. by this Same Tree.. I was looking at the bed of flowers where my Mother.. and I was talking to the Bed of flowers where my Mother was buried.. and just pouring out my Heart and I heard.. the Man tells Me to come and see.. the Princess.. CONG JU NIM is here.. pay respect and Honor.. I would turn back.. running down the Hill to the Garden.. and I saw YOU on the Horse.. riding on the Horse.. Many of the Servants and soldiers came to the Garden.. I stop trying to catch a Deep Breathe.. I was in Awe with YOU.. MAH MAH.. of course I remember meeting you few times with My Father.. but it was when I was much younger in those days.. but after my Father passed.. I was left alone.. leaving in a small House that He has built for me to live.. telling me that

MAH MAH.. Going to be gone for a Long time.. but this House.. the small house is now mine.. He has built all for me.. and that was the last time.. In a back of a carriage comes the Body of my Father.. when I saw it brought to me.. I broke down in many tears.. My Heart shattered and broken of a great Loss in my life.. but the Only way this had to go through.. I would open and look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. Only Love I can give Now.. I can't give love to my parents anymore.. but for YOU.. I have saved my whole Heart to just to love YOU.. just to say How much I love YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. YOU do not know how Much I love YOU now.. as I would hear and I ran Down.. stopping to catch me Breathe.. I wanted to fall back.. and I saw YOU on the Horse.. a White Beautiful Horse.. YOU were wearing a White Dress.. I can feel my Heart stop.. my Beating of the Heart did not want to beat any more.. I saw YOU.. the Horse just stopped and One of the Guards.. the Special Body Guard comes UP to me.. and I remember I had to kneel before YOU.. to respect and Honor the Princess.. MAH MAH.. the words just could not come Out.. I was blown into pieces.. because YOU grew UP.. I wanted to cry because YOU were so much more Beautiful.. in person.. looking at YOU after few years goes by.. the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU was no more use because it was when YOU were young.. I can feel my chest pains.. aching for YOU more.. Longing for YOU more.. MAH MAH.. I would be kneeling.. as three Special Body Guards would help YOU off the Horse and YOU walked closer to me.. and YOU stopped.. My Heart.. I did not want to tell YOU about what is happening to my Heart.. I am looking at the ground.. kneeling before YOU.. my Heart.. my hand wanted to touch my Chest to show YOU.. there is something happening to my Heart.. to let YOU know.. YOU have come way too close to me.. because I can now hear my Heart weeping inside.. for a long time.. I wanted to see YOU.. I would be wishing.. I would be dreaming.. I would be running UP the Hill Side Top.. I know that I could not go to the Palace and just show UP.. I could not just ask the Guards guarding the gates to open the door for me.. and I been waiting for a day like this to happen.. I been looking at the stars.. wishing upon the stars.. I would turn to look at the MOON.. wondering does that Moon knows me.. can that MOON hear my voice.. when I ask.. when I plead and beg to be heard.. will that MOON able to hear me.. and I would be asking many nights.. that I want to see YOU.. I wanted to know if I can get close to the Princess.. MAH MAH.. close to CONG JU MAH MAH.. when I came down.. I was speaking to my Mother.. who is lying in the Bed of flowers.. that I been sharing to Her.. that I wanted to see the Princess.. but Father would warn me never to go see MAH MAH.. help me is what I be asking my mother.. that is when I heard the Man who works in the Garden to come down to the Garden.. the Princess.. CONG JU NIM has come.. I am not sure how this be.. but many nights.. the man who works in the garden sees me run UP to the Hill side top.. I think he hears my voice.. but when I saw YOU coming to the Garden for the first time.. I just could not believe it.. I be asking myself.. was it the stars who made my Dreams come true.. I wished many nights on those stars.. was it the Moon who can hear my cries.. my voice when I speak to that MOON about YOU.. showing the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. My finger points to the face on the Art Sketch Paper.. saying.. this is MAH MAH.. it is the PRINCESS.. it is the CONG JU NIM.. I want to ask YOU.. if YOU can bring the Princess to Me.. can YOU please tell the Princess that I want to see YOU.. I want to say something.. I have something in my Heart to tell.. but if the Princess.. MAH MAH is so far away.. How can the Princess Knows.. and I be showing tears.. hands are on prayer mode.. and I am on both knees.. and I am looking at the MOON.. asking and asking.. I need to see the Princess.. I needs to see MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I am opening my Heart.. looking up speaking to that Moon so that I can tell you something.. When YOU came closer.. and YOU stood there.. and YOU stopped while I was kneeling.. looking at the Floor.. I heard your voice.. telling my to speak.. that a Message was send to YOU and that YOU have decided to come.. I couldn't believe it.. I would think in my mind.. YOU are a Royal Blood.. at the TOP.. YOU are to rule next in line.. from the Blood line of the King.. and I am just no one.. I don't even have a name and YOU would not even recognize my name.. asking whose name is that.. and YOU have come.. and I just could not believe that YOU came.. I would be shaken by this wondering.. what am I suppose to say to you.. there is all these Guards.. soldiers.. and even generals.. even special team of Body Guards that came with YOU.. and I am only working in this garden with an older Man.. I am not even important figure.. and I would say.. MAH MAH.. I have seen you few times when I was much younger.. My Father is the One who would take me as He was the one to care.. He was the Head of the servants of the Palace and was to be there for YOU.. so I would beg my father that I wanted to see the Princess.. I wanted to see CONG JU NIM.. just Once I begged HIM.. I remember He put me on a Horse back and He would travel many days with me sitting on the Horse.. I came to the Palace because of my Father who was to care for YOU as a Servant.. I saw YOU from the Distance.. I was on the Other side of the Back gates where Your Chamber room was located.. I was sitting on the back of the Horse.. my Father goes in and I saw MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM coming out.. I saw you from the Distance and a man who was a sketch Artist came out from the gates and I do remember I stopped him.. I asked HIM if He can draw a Picture of YOU.. and He looks at me with a Smile.. and I pointed to YOU.. Can YOU please do me a favor.. I want an Art Sketch.. can you please draw the Picture of Princess.. the man goes back.. and I would watch Him.. and I saw you standing alone as he drew on the art sketch.. I would watch the man walk out of the back of the gates and Gives me the Art sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I would fall in love.. the more I looked at the art sketch paper.. the picture of YOU and I would lift up my head to look at you from the distance.. I was on the other side of the Back Gates.. I wanted to go close to YOU.. I wanted to see YOU closer because I could of see you from far.. I wanted to tell YOU.. for a Long time.. I been loving YOU.. you may not know this but I been longing for YOU.. wanting to love YOU.. but to see YOU in person to tell YOU how much I been loving YOU because YOU don't know unless I am able to tell YOU my Heart.. for a long time.. I would be on the Hill side top.. standing by the Tree.. LOOKING across.. LOOKING at the palace.. and I know that my words can't never reach YOU.. my voice can't be heard because of the distance.. How can YOU hear me when I am standing OUT so far.. Before I can lose this Chance.. I just wanted to tell YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. I have always been loving YOU.. even though you may never know this.. I been here.. waiting for this very day to tell YOU.. to say to YOU that I love YOU.. I am not asking you to accept.. but just want you to know that at least my voice to be heard by YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU for the longest.. I love YOU and Kept on missing YOU for a long time.. wondering will you ever know this Heart of Mine because I know this is the Only time.. only chance I get to tell YOU.. even if YOU want to kill me today and I die.. I will die with a Smile because at least I get to say what my Heart longing to say to YOU for a long time.. that Now.. My Voice has been heard to YOU.. I wanted to say.. I love YOU PRINCESS.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I love YOU.. I can at least show YOU.. LOOK.. this Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I have been holding this for a Long Time.. Just wishing and dreaming and loving YOU.. I am not asking YOU to love me.. my intentions were never about YOU.. but I wanted at least to let YOU Know.. I have been here.. I have been loving YOU and missing YOU.. I am not asking you for Your Hand.. but.. at least to know that I love YOU and Never stopped loving YOU.. I am a low born from a Slave parents.. how can I even wish or Dream of.. when YOU belong to a Prince.. even though I know that it may never work Out but at least I can tell YOU.. I can say what is in my heart.. I love YOU right.. will you accept my Heart.. will you accept my Love.. will you give me the permission to speak.. to tell YOU.. to tell YOUR HEART.. How much I love YOU.. I know that I don't belong with YOU.. I know that from my Heart.. but NO matter how Low and How far I am at.. I know that I can Love.. I can always love YOU even you may Not receive It.. Like this Sun Flower.. you have left it on this Ground.. WHEN I saw this Sun Flower.. it broke me into Two.. I cried looking at this Sun Flower laying by himself.. it was with his Family of Sun Flower but I had to pull this Away to give it to YOU.. NOW.. this Sun Flower is laying on this Ground in this Garden Alone.. when I saw this Sun flower laying in this Garden.. it reminded of Me.. SO much Like me who also needs Love.. who also desire to be loved and to also who can Love.. But YOU have to be willing to accept my Heart.. my Love.. I am only asking for a Chance.. a Chance for me to Love YOU.. but Look.. I feel like this Sun Flower and Yes.. I do deserve because I am a Low Born person.. but I do have feelings and emotions too.. I do know How to say and write to YOU