i heavily resonate with ur message abt trauma and mormons it often feels like no else knows what it feels to be outcasted for not going forward with having the same condescending mentality and having to be isolated and ostracized from family just for them to stop caring, that trauma is something that friends and partners alike make it harder to understand or relate to u as ofc not everyone has experienced that lack of trust and lifelong deception, later life trauma is hard to understand especially the scars that never heal after youve been in the environment after being on ur own, feelings u can never explain to others properly

Damn.... Nick Kroll WOULD have made an excellent replacement for TJ Miller as Weasel...

i always wondered why i identified so fucking hard with him and you've absolutely put it concisely into words. i've watched the newest movie 5 times and it has hit me harder and harder every single time. this is incredible.

How come you never made another video

9:20 caught me off guard but same. *same*

Bro just disappeared🥲

23:10 A quote from Deadpool comic "The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly", about Wade seeing his daughter for the first (and only) time: "Carmelita...I think she found me a few years back and hit me up for child support. I can kind of remember laughing her off. I told Carmelita that she was running a scam. And that it was impossible her baby could be mine. She was too beautiful."

Trauma is never a gift. Yup true to think id be happy if I didn't have it

yeah... after watching deadpool and wolverine, i went to watch the first deadpool movie. and GOD it hit me hard. underneath the many things that make deadpool a VERY fun character to write for and see stories about is a very harrowing story that's since stolen my heart. ryan reynolds has done us all a big service by getting these movies made despite everything- they heavily resonated with me and anyone else who's ever suffered from any form of trauma.

this is such a well scripted video. the way you illustrated each point gave me chills and wow I just can't elaborate how amazing of a video essay this is

9:06 This. This is what frustrates me so much about hearing people say "But all the difficulties taught you something, right?" Trauma doesn't teach; you have to teach yourself and learn in order to live WITH the trauma, and what you learn by examining it and building yourself up is where the wisdom is acquired. It's terrifying, and difficult, and you never feel like you're done, and exhausting to do so much work just to get to what you feel is everyone else's starting point. Trauma is not the lesson, it's something that you can learn from, or be destroyed by.

Heyyy! Fellow traumatized former ex Mormon here saying: you're not alone, and I get it. (I never had to go on a mission bc I'm a girl, but I'm gay, and was s**ually abused by my bishop, among other people).

I don't really like superhero movies but I love Deadpool. Traditional Superheroes usually have struggles but they remain unaffected by the way that trauma drastically broadens your perspective. The other reason I love Deadpoool, that wasn't talked about here, is his inner monologue as a jumble of different persona's all chattering at the same time, while not all trauma victims experience this, it's a fairly accurate representation of how I experience my own inner monologue. I am glad this movie got made and that Ryan Reynolds has made so many people feel seen.

11:40 I’m so sorry to hear that man, I struggle with an eating disorder as well and have lost over 17lb of fat and muscle, I’m 24 now and a former shell of who I was once was. Even worse knowing that you live in a first world country and you still struggle to provide yourself with 2 meals a day

Ok

So glad I found this, it was great, thanks for uploading this, hope you're doing good!

Was not expected to get yeeted back into my past (ex-mormon)

Watched it crying. Amazing. Thank you.

They made one video and its been seen 37k times in three years, damn!

Revenge is no longer appropriate, huh? In that case, well, I'll have to file what I did under "Whoopsie!". Hahaha! Okay, so what had happened was my grandpa was a bad person to say the very least. My Dad vowed to never be like that and then failed miserably anyways. You know how the stats for kids without a Dad around are pretty bad? Seriously, it's nightmare fuel. Well, my understanding is that bad people who want to do bad things figure that the mom is so busy that she won't notice, he can strongman her into submission, Romeo their way in, or whatever? Well, he was around but was so weak and cowardly that he'd let his own impulses run wild as well as let things happen. I'm talking about literally inviting bad people into our lives, finding out about what they did and/or seeing the harm that they caused, making excuses for them, coming up with a false narrative about how it was a good thing (or not as bad as what happened him as a child at least), encouraging them to continue/condemning us if we made it stop, and then insisting that we drop everything to buy him expensive gifts and celebrate what a great father he was. Oh, and that playing pretend included lying to maintain the illusion to others and even straight up denying things to us when we clearly knew it happened because, ya know, we were witnesses and victims... I kid you not, he even insisted that we need to "sit down and hear out my side of the story instead of just getting brainwashed by your mom". Yeah... like she's a aupervillain with a brainwashing beam gun from comics. She didn't have to tell me *anything* because *I was there* ! There's a *lot* more to the story but that is the super summarized version. Umm, general highlights include things likea a cult, slamming against a wall, a belt, thanks for the brain washing, yelling over dinner, asking why someone didn't continue a relationship with Mr. No No Bad Touch, fireworks "accidentally" getting shot at a woman who was 8 months pregnant, etc... Well, remember how I said he insisted on denying everything? He had a really pretty image of himself in the eyes of other's that he built with all of that. He's also got a nice image on social media. It sure would be a shame if someone cut him off and, oh... I don't know... if they were to mess with that image some. 😈 Social media can be a useful tool. It prominently provides a list of people that a person knows. For example, my uncle. Yeah, he was not happy to learn that the cycle didn't end with my grandpa. My dear old Dad is in for quite the surprise the next that he talks to his beloved older brother. So how am I doing now? I'm loving life as I disprove all of his excuses and lies. I have an amazing beautiful wife and two great daughters. Unlike some people, I don't demand respect and obedience because of religious rules, violence if she doesn't, or whatever. No, she gladly goes along with my plans because she has learned from experience that I will make sure she's happy and prosperous. My daughters? They're excelling with the confidence to accomplish any challenge. Also, the one that's old enough that she's started dating? I don't worry too much because she doesn't accept anything less than the standard behavior she expects based on how she's seen me treat her mother and sister as well as how I have treated her directly. That's been my revenge and I'm proud that I did it.

I can’t say that I ever really comment on videos, but this was actually incredibly phenomenal. Wade really holds a special place in my heart and Deadpool has been a reoccurring hyperfixation for a few years now. I feel like you’ve really managed to give voice to the jumbled and tangled thoughts I have about him.

I did not expect this to be so serious about Deadpool of all things

hang in there man, you are not alone

Stopped watching when you said it's wrong to help people

Dude come back! This was beautiful and you have a gift and more importantly a new subscriber! Lets go!!!

I grew up very Mormon to the point of generations of my family were dedicated Mormons. I can’t even explain the guilt and joyless environment that is within the youth groups. My mom and I finally excommunicated ourselves and saw beyond the lies this church was constantly telling itself and it’s members. The Mormon brainwashing trauma effects my life to this day on my concept of family and overall unsatisfied reality of my family.

Knowing he may never return makes me wish to be more alert to if he ever does. +1 subscriber

It was in the first scene, Wade said the was a love story.

no need to make me cry like this, not cool. Great video though

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Thanks for making this. It really highlighted to me exactly why I connected to this character. Turns out, ugly can be really relatable. Thanks bro

If you like Deadpool you’ll love the audio drama Red Valley, its also an raunchy comedy and deep exploration of trauma and PTSD. Its a sci fi too

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I want to see him team up with frank castle…

Holy smokes this was so good... It touched me.. Thank you❤

Masterclass !

Hey, thanks for talking about mormanism. It's been a few years now, I'm glad I was able to leave before having to serve a mission, and also was abused under the leadership. Appreciate it mate, keep it up.

Props man. You're a sharp guy. Subbed.

Seeing this after just having seen Deadpool and Wolverine really rounds the experience out. Wade is able to live as himself now, having found a way to overcome his own hang ups and move forward even as he continues to act immature, in the end able to reach out to someone in a similar situation and help them come out of it. It all comes full circle. Excellent work!

only one video ?? This was just on my timeline, For this being 3yrs old its such good analysis of wade! I hope you come back with more bangers like this

Good video. Really hit the nail on the head!

You literally ate and left no crumbs. Amazing video. Loved every bit of it.

Yeah good start I like it, god job 👍

Hope he comes back. Would love one on Wolverine

The Ant-Man promos were great tbh but the video is hard to

one absolute banger then dips

LOVE REALLY DOES CONQUER ALL 😭😭😭😭

In the comics as well Wade represents trauma. His parents mistreated him leaving him to bring trauma to others in his life. He was SAed by Typhoid Mary after finally rehabilitating himself only to spiral back in and hurt his friends. Wade is literally Marvel’s Guts from Berserk.

come back please bro this is peak video essay content

This was amazing on all levels