dont wanna be like my father a raging alcoholic who brawls with the thoughts of suicide that frolic in his feeble mind but I fear I'm entering the ring forcefully feet planted on the defensive rehashing lies I keep telling myself to avoid conflict can't take a swing at my demons unless I take a swig them beer muscles come in handy yet I ain't got the strength to admit that i do need help that if I dont get some soon the last thing that'll cross my mind is a bullet when it rips through my frontal lobe i keep hearing that I should be more appreciative and that it could be worse it's not that I'm ungrateful I'm just to busy wishing I could extinguish the flame between me and pain hoping that when I open the floodgates these tears that travel like a river down my cheek are enough to put it out cause our relationship is unhealthy to say the least my flesh has provided my scarred inside another means of shelter so those burn marks from where I tried to smother that same fire to stop my plans from going up in smoke are in full display she takes up all my time my focus is on her so much that I can't take my eyes off of her long enough to show any sorta gratitude so forgive me for coming off as if I care less but let's be real you and I both know we don't wanna undress those burdens cause noone likes the naked truth at least nobody I know they say you don't know what you got til it's gone but what if you never had that thing to begin with Like the peace that was never bestowed upon me till me and the rim of this bottle locked lips which is soon to be as empty as this thing in my chest is who's beat I've always listened to until the tempo became about as loud as a church mouse is I guess that's why when you put your ear to my heart you can't hear shit that's probably why when it comes to people I seem a bit more comfortable with them winter chills than I do the warm feeling i get when its summer and my skin is sun kissed Besides being out in the heat to long ell leave ya sunburned in the past I made the mistake of inviting to many in at once so these days my hearts protected by a plethora of defenses harder to infiltrate than the pentagon is still looking for a goddess to balance out all my sinful ways cause like those deep breaths I take to slow my heart rate when I get anxious I been in hell (inhaling) and as a consequence have become a bit to hot headed for my own nature ironic cause i still prefer not dip my toes in the water cause what if I like how it feels on my skin a bit to much and get attached and base my happiness on something that either won't last cause I make bad decisions but more than the average not just every now and then like being a fucking idiot ell win me a darwin award and an applaud from an audience full of losers who darling every word i speak as if I'm jesus himself hoping they to can one day squander every opportunity to be happy the same as i or fate intervenes and and in the midst of me cleaning under my doorstep with extreme subtly unravels the thread's I'm worked so hard to reconnect by taking whatever or whoever I love the most away from me so I go back to praying that my eyes stay shut forever when they close at night and maybe that's my fear talking but fear is just that survival instinct inside you reminding you to be cautious but can control you if you can't tell when it's needless or not the tricky part is learning to distinguish between the two...and I think I managed to accomplish that at least until I go to battle cause as soon as the sounds of war temporarily disilate I end having to reteach myself to spot the difference the worst parts of me have found a safe place in my routine cause like an obsessive ex they stalk my every move and will do anything to make me listen to em and I wish I could deny the fact that I'm in denial maybe then I'd get some sleep at night but the truth is like a razor sharp knife that sits right in front of me and I've got this urge to self harm that I've made immortal cause I've opened a portal and let a more destructive version of myself walk through it and in turn brothe more life into an even more morbid perspective one of which ive probably spent to much time examining to where i can almost justify my reasoning for leaving those pieces of myself i cut away on the floor don't have the energy to pick em up don't wanna self harm but don't think im strong enough to overcome the urge maybe I enjoy cutting myself a little deeper each and every day or maybe I'm tryna get used to the hurt so when I'm holding that knife while staring at myself in the mirror I can at least pretend I'm not bleeding when the blade Dances across my skin until I eventually believe such I think the loss of sleep is partly to blame for them conversations i been having that I can't tell are real or are just hallucinations I brought to life also cause it gets lonely at night inside this prison called a mind i wouldn't invite those I keep closest in cause trauma infects and lays waste to any hope it finds that is still alive and I can't afford to have more blood on my hands I got enough already.

In my dreams more I’m free more I see more I feel like when I wake up and you’re not here my heart sore Tryna get a birds view so I could spot yours and sending blessing with all my love from my heart to your heart . Lord I know you see this I’ve been praying from my heart Love I hope you hear this or I could show you if we talk It breaks my heart I hate to see you go - I love to see you walk You’re so powerful I’m still in awe of just how strong you are I lost the car I would love to walk those miles in these shoes before I take em off Can I call it home wow can I come over to your house For now to sound too crazy I’ll clock out and bow down before the one that’s putting these notes, we profound space bound any shh around it get found out I am not completed never will be just don’t count me out

Late but this tuff af

Except it doesn't sound like any of Earl sweatshirts as songs

Excellent

Took me a minute but I remember this from your other channel lol still vibing with it for sure🌊

평생을 쫓겨다니며 살았어 간절히 내가 내가 아니길 바랐어 하루종일 맞고 욕먹던 나라서 다른 사람들처럼 뒤틀린 채 자랐어 왜이래 하루이틀사람본거 아니잖어 그런말을 하고파도 끊어버린과거 나를 기억하는 이가 이젠 필요하군 지독히 싫어했던이들도 그리워가끔 이젠 평생동안 의미를 찾아다녔어 의미로 삼고나면 사라져 사랑도 공간도 영원하진 않다고 알면서도 영원하잔 말을

Sinister type vibes

비켜 아서라아서라 거기서 물러나서라 사회적 안전망없음 위험해 안에 들어가거라 경험이 필요하면 구입하진 말어 사서 고생하려다 죽음을 사지 차라리 가게 파리날려 넘치는 패기가 객기가 되면 객사 근데겁이 많아뵈면괜히띠꺼워색야 겪을 필요없는일을겪은이를 피해다 니게 되있어 피가 튀던말던 c8 길거리를 돌아다니는 추레하다기보다는 거지꼴 속을 모두 드러내다 상처입고 다시 숨기듯 꾸며입고 C8 겁이많아 속이좁아 패고파

RezzyYouDogYou

어떤 날은 살인을 또 어떤 날은 살리는 꿈을 꾸는 나는 찾아가지 나의 자리를 의미를 찾아낸 다음 날 사라져 죽고 싶은 마음 근데 어떻게든 살아져 뭔가 특별한걸 바란 어린 날의 나랑 달라 그냥 살아 사람 사는거 모두 똑같아 꿈을 이루면 꿈을 잃어버리게 되더라 우물쭈물하다가도 떠나가게 되더라 길을 걸을 필요조차도 없단 말이 아냐 미숙함은 필요악같은거잖아 실수는 누구나 하지만 보기 싫어 사람고쳐쓸 순 있지만 내가하긴싫어 내가 그리 손절했듯이 나를 손절했듯이 사실은 뜻이 중요하기보다 느낌을 따르지 본능이 이성을 앞서지 덜떨어진 플라톤 말고 David 흄 기수는 코끼리를 막을 수 없지 Pc는 싫지만 책이름이 바른 마음이지 어쨌든 불쾌감이 먼저야 인간은 그러니 이미 진실만 담길 원하는 이는 가깝지 패배 누가 뵈기엔 그냥 패배자 이 한국을 대표하지 패배감이 팽배 퇴폐미는 뭔 퇴폐미 그거 그냥 쓰레기지 너한테만 말해주는 비밀인데 김제동도 너를 배신 대화는 귀찮어 나도자주 눈가리고 아웅다웅했지 논리적이라고 설득이 다 되면 이득이 넌날몰라x? 사 배신당하고 배신을 하고 구원을 바라며 손을 내밀어 물귀신이 되버린 혀 내밀어내쳐 그냥 좀 띨띨할 뿐이야 띨띨 찌꺼기

ㄱㄱ 미간 찌푸리고 즐겨 all night long 위기 속에서 즐겨 분위기 탔어어 이미 니 컵엔 물이 반이나 차있어 이어지는 오늘뿐 내일은 없어 마셔 탄력을 잃어 할 말들을 잃어 세상은 내가 맘에도없는말을하도록 시켜 내직업이 보험팔이도 폰팔이도 차팔이도 아닌데 영혼팔인건가 c8 괜히 양심이 찔려 얘 초딩도 패드립하는데 뭐 어때 애 니 친군 사기치는데 뭐 어때 얘 영원히 내 편이라던 걘 돈뜯어내 A 솔직히 내 알반아닌데 쥭어쑤면해 어떤 얘기는 낡아 너무 오래되서 도무지 내얘기로 느껴지질 않아 잊어버려 외길을 어디가 내 길임을 잊을까 어딘가 억지로 박아둬 쐐기를 아님 말고 이기적이기는 치기 어린 시기는 지났지 패기는 누가 패니 사라짐

REZZY DOING NEW JAZZ NOW ⁉️

Verse 1: If life was an option, to the ditch the content, then the population will decrease Fans can be obnoxious, but let’s be honest, they’re the reason your pockets increase Verse 2: Humans ain’t nature, ‘cuz we aint peaceful The own shit we made, is what makes us feel dull My brain doesn’ want me, flew away like a seagull Yet I have my heart, but it’s barking like a beagle Chorus: And I know when satan comes, feels like I’m reliving the past I can hear him creepin’, tryna take over my draft Verse 3: Uh, there’s a satan shared with every motherland And it’s tryna cut the surface like a lumberjack One everything, can’t be another man One life, one death, let’s just hope it ain’t black Verse 4: ‘Cause that’s what already my life conveyed Fuck my mind, anotha’ sleepless night, where I don’t feel okay Nihilistic to free will, no given shits if he a sheep or gay We missed the prime ages, parents fucked super late That green grass today, can be disguised as satan’s hay But also God’s golden clay Verse 5: Uh, but let me sip, and let shit reel in Is what I’m feelin’, really what I’m feelin’? Chorus: And I know when satan comes, feels like I’m reliving the past I can hear him creepin’, tryna take over my draft Outro: But we can just assume, questions got us to where we are That’s why we know the difference between light and dark Yet not my eyes and heart

this is gas I just feel that second melody at like 0:45 should be a few bars earlier

Yeah dude we workin workin- I’ll talk to you soon 🚫🧢 @RezzyDaCreator

Just found you on here- GOOD SHIT. New sounds for you coming soon, ima be in touch check ya email before the Fall season hits my guy 👏🫡👋

Lemme paint pictures with my words my brush touches the canvas..traveling through alternate dimensions we have left Kansas..sit down and talk to your father he'll tell you what a man is..memories in time that I often took for granted..made a few mistakes but that's mistakes you never plan it..praying to the lord for a correction in my ways dont lead me astray peace inside my heart is outta reach and I need it today..so many words I never speak that you need me to say..pull up chair I might need me a tray..coz we do not voice suppressed by the liquor don't call me delme if you don't know me like that's a trigger..suppressing only lead to depression like how you figure I been in a funk..Patricia's son from 2019 been dead in a trunk..Is getting harder to pretend like I can't give a fuck..like it cant be enough..wait whose flowers are those please do not hand me a rose bitch I got plenty of those they bleed me dry when hold just like the laundry I fold can't let them keep that control I just want a rose with no thorn in my side.. Couldn't turn away my gaze I got lost I her eyes.. I just need a rose with no thorn in my side This is an abstract piece I present as to thee take a look and see, huh This is my bearing my soul In a little slow MO I can't let em see it all..huh This a vision I've been given since kk and djay were in the corner chillin I am the villain because I lived long enough

Only the real know about Kapwing 🔥

Mine

Damnnnn broooo 🔥🔥🔥🔥 I got you on this one 💯

Outstanding 💯

REZZY WE MISS YOU

More pain , I like sorting my thoughts out to these type beats , appreciate you. Music forever

🏄🏼🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

Your too good broooo

THEY TRYNA BE CRAY!

You actually don’t miss bro

The one 🔥

Missed u

Where you been :(

lil throwaway I had 👻

Hands dow the best beat i saw on youtube ever

you got hacked on discord, idk if you logged in and noticed yet

Freestyled on this beat, what’s your instagram handle 🔥🔥