also, this is how I discover that it's "baby you're all mine mine" and not "baby you're on my mind" 😭😭😭😭

Park.. that It was located on the Third BIG TREE.. I would be walking with tears in my eyes.. because I knew that I should of Came before.. that I should of come on the appointed time that YOU TOLD ME to come.. I could of saw YOU.. if I saw YOU.. I would of grabbed unto Your Arms.. and pull YOU closer into my arms because I would say.. I love YOU.. I would say to YOU.. if I came that day.. the appointed time that YOU gave me the Note to come.. I would asked YOU.. it is very dangerous to climb up.. when the rain comes Hard.. things can happen where YOU would Not believe but.. that Courage and being so brave.. I just wanted to say.. I am so sorry that I did Not come that day.. But.. I now see why YOU have a Big Heart.. such a Big Heart that I want My Heart to be as big as YOURS.. so that I can tell YOU in many words.. how much I love YOU.. and to tell YOU how much I been missing YOU lately.. that I know deep inside.. I need YOU.. I need YOU to need me too.. I need to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I need to say to that Heart.. Your Big Heart.. that I love you.. and I am so sorry that I love YOU and I thank YOU.. thank you for being YOU and also having that Big Heart.. NOW I know how much My Heart needs to grow.. so when My Heart starts to grow as BIG as YOURS.. I can finally say.. holding YOUR BIG HEART.. I love YOU and kiss Your Big Heart and tell Your Heart over and over.. this is why.. I love YOU.. that is why I need YOU so that I can continue to say to YOU that I love YOU.. Feels like the Spring time.. as I am holding the Empty Glass Jar.. around my arms.. I am thinking of Your Heart.. I know that I am missing your Heart.. I want to see your Heart.. WILL you let me see that Heart of Yours.. and I am walking and I stop by this Tall Tree.. and I am wondering if it is this Tree.. I been waiting for this very day.. the weather Out side has been very cold.. looking at the Snow falling.. even it has been raining a lot around this time.. I could Not come to this Tree.. I do missing this Tree.. which I received a Note.. YOU be telling me to come to this Tree.. and I just could not come around for a while.. But.. I am here today.. wondering.. DID YOU leave your Heart here.. I had a dream.. dreaming of the day.. my arms can wrap around.. looking at YOU.. but.. asking if I can see your Heart.. if I am allowed to speak to your Heart.. will you let Me.. will you allow me to talk to Your Heart because that is all I want.. that is ALL I need.. I want to first tell Your Heart.. how much I love you.. but I needs to say It.. I needs to tell It to your Heart.. without Your Heart.. My Love will Not last.. it cannot go very far.. that is why I am asking first for Your Heart.. so Please.. tell me that YOU have left your Heart behind.. as I would sit on the ground.. I would pull out the Paper which was inside this Glass Jar.. I started to Miss you Last Night.. for some reason.. I started to Miss you all over again.. I would be sitting at the desk.. and ON the corner of the Desk.. I would put your Picture.. and as I turn to LOOK at the corner of the Desk.. I would grab Your Picture and I would take a closer LOOK at YOU.. looking through the Picture.. I would say to YOU.. even though YOU may Not hear me.. YOU may never hear my voice.. I would look at Your Picture.. looking at YOU.. I would smile and say to YOU LOOKING at the Picture.. I miss YOU.. and I do Love YOU.. but first.. why do I keep on missing YOU even though I have your Picture with me.. why do I keep telling myself but Looking at YOU through this Picture.. I know that YOU can't hear me now.. But I know.. I believe that One Day YOU will hear me Loud and clear.. Holding YOU close in my arms.. I will say to YOU.. LOOKING at and asking.. is this YOUR HEART.. can I tell YOUR HEART that I love YOU.. will you please let me say it.. that I love YOU.. as I would be looking at the Picture of YOU.. I be very sad.. because when I start to think about missing YOU.. I really really do Miss YOU.. and I would pull out a clean piece of paper.. there is nothing written but just a Blank sheet.. I would grab me the Pencil.. and of course I have Never seen Your Heart.. but start to draw a Picture of Your Heart.. thinking maybe this is How YOUR Heart Looks Like.. the shape and the size of It.. I wish that I can have a picture of Your Heart.. How Big is it.. the shape of It.. can I take A picture of It.. only If I can see YOU.. and YOU holding a Heart in the hands.. I want to click to take a Picture with the camera.. but.. only thing I can do at this Point.. just draw a Picture.. Picture of Your Heart.. and I would put.. Can I write My Name in Your Heart.. would you say something about It if I do.. Please tell me if YOU don't want me too.. because I want to write my Name in your Heart and speak to this Piece of paper of drawing of Your Heart.. I love YOU.. I want to say It.. and tell YOU what My Heart truly feels.. I received few months back.. a Note from You because I have been asking for Your Heart.. that I want to see your Heart.. I been calling YOU On the Phone.. only hearing your Voice.. that is all I can receive from YOU.. but.. I want More than just hearing your Voice.. that is why I started to ask.. If I can see Your Heart.. will you allow me to see Your Heart.. can I get close to Your Heart and Know what is really in your Heart.. I want to hear Your Heart.. even though it can be very far.. even it can be from a long distance.. but I am just asking for this One thing.. Can YOU Please tell me where is Your Heart.. and I be putting YOU on the Loud speaker.. wanting to hear your Voice.. and YOU telling me you be sending me a Note.. when the Note arrives.. YOU are going to tell me where to GO.. and There.. YOUR HEART is going to be there too.. after I heard this from your voice.. I waited for the Note.. day would go by but it be very long as I would wait for the Note.. the Note comes and it arrives.. as I received the Note from YOU.. I open the front door and some one put the Note on the ground.. I do remember when I opened the front door.. I only found the Note on the ground.. I would go to the Note to pick It UP.. as I hold on and looked at your writing on the Note.. I would read it.. It is at the Park.. there is a Tree.. on a top of the Branch.. the Heart is there waiting.. I should of gone when I received it.. I should of walked right when I received It.. but it was raining Hard and I would hear the wind blowing Hard.. and I wanted to go but why on this day.. and I would just close the Door behind.. I do regret not going at that time.. I should of Gone because It is YOU.. I even told YOU that I be waiting for YOU.. for the Note which it came to me.. I do remember grabbing the Note.. walking into the House.. the Next day.. the Snow comes.. and It be very cold.. for weeks it would be cold with the Snow falling from the sky.. I should of Gone is what I should of done.. the weeks turned into Months now.. I would be waiting for the Snow weather to die down.. But why did I not come at the time YOU send the Note to Me.. as I am sitting on the Ground.. I am just looking UP at this Tree.. hoping maybe your Heart is still here.. am I just too Late.. did I come at the wrong time.. It is because I did Not come right.. I am looking at this Note.. with the Date YOU have written it to tell me when.. But.. LOOK at the time now.. I have decided to wait a little more longer.. and I should of come at the time.. at the Moment YOU wanted me to come and to show the Heart.. as I am sitting.. I would pull the Paper.. the Drawing of Your Heart.. I am still wondering.. will YOUR Heart be here.. I know that deep inside YOUR Heart is not going to be here.. because it is ME to be blamed for Not making it ON time.. I am the One to be blamed.. I was asking YOU.. I was begging for a Chance to see Your Heart.. I wanted too.. I also even brought the Camera with Me.. it has the straps around my Neck so that I can take a picture of Your Heart.. Just in case Your Heart falls from the Branches.. I can catch YOUR Heart with the Glass Jar.. as I would sit on the ground.. I feel so Sad.. I feel so Hurt all of a suddenly.. because I missed Out.. was I afraid to come because of the rain.. if it did Not rained at all.. I know that I would of showed UP 100 percent.. and I would push back saying.. maybe tomorrow.. but even when the tomorrow became today.. the weather did Not help me at all.. I should of still gone.. I should of come even though it could of delayed just for one day.. I choose not to come because of the weather.. but if I should of known that I would Not see your Heart here today.. then I could of made up my mind to show UP.. because do you not see that Now I am here.. I have come to see your Heart.. prepared and brought everything I told you that what I am going to do.. I told you that I wanted to take a picture of Your Heart.. to get the closer look.. I even told YOU that I drew a Picture of Your Heart.. Not sure the shape or the size but I wanted to know if it is going to be the same imagine of the drawing and Your Real Heart.. I want to see It.. I want to see Your Heart.. I want to hear Your Heart.. even it can be at the Way top of the branch.. as long as it is You.. it is Your Heart.. as I am looking at the Piece of paper.. looking at the drawing of Your Heart.. I wish that I came sooner.. I wish that I came early.. I wish that I would of walked and ran in the rain.. Just to see Your Heart.. just to see the Shape and the Size of Your Heart.. no Matter How wet I be.. or can be sick from the rain.. I could of catch the flu from the cold rain.. but at least I could see Your Heart.. taking the Picture of it.. your Heart.. and when I get the Photo picture of your Heart.. I would of pulled Out the Blank sheet of paper.. and LOOKING at the Photo picture of Your Real Heart.. I would try to draw the One that is in the Photo picture of Your Heart.. and let you see that this is the Heart I see on the Top of the branch and

Please.. Please give me YOUR Heart because I love YOU.. why can't YOU give me Your Heart so that I can tell YOUR Heart and say to your Heart How much I truly.. really really love YOU.. but the feeling would be at the Best as I would be able to turn the other way.. after I get to see Your Heart.. after I get to LOOK at the Drawing Picture of what I think your Heart looks Like and looking UP at the TOP Branch of this tree and looking actually at Your Heart.. and taking that picture.. taking the picture of Your Real Heart.. and I am able to print out the Photo Picture.. and I do not have to think if it is right but when I am holding the Actual Photo Picture of what I have taken of the Real Heart.. I know that I do not have to imagine it.. but can trace it and copy drawing on a Clean Blanket of Piece of paper.. and I can tell YOU.. I have seen Your Heart.. and here is the proof.. here is what I saw.. and when I saw Your Heart.. I just had to take a closer LOOK.. looking from the ground UP with my eyes was very Hard to know.. but when I put the Camera up.. and I looked through the Lens of the Camera.. able to focus and ZOOM it to get a closer look of your Heart.. I was Moved.. my Heart was moved.. I was touched deep inside.. because It is Your Heart I am looking at.. it is Not another person's heart.. but it is Your Heart who I be loving.. and wanting to see even from afar.. I would say.. even though it be hard for Your Heart to hear me from the ground.. I will tell Your Heart.. I love YOU.. for the first time.. I am saying it loud to YOU.. will you please accept these words of Mine to YOU.. that I love YOU.. and I am just waiting for the day.. I can Hold Your Heart in my arms.. I want to hold Your Heart and tell YOUR Heart.. I am so sorry that I missed YOU.. but I am Not sorry for loving YOU.. missing YOU hurts me More than anything else in the world.. but as long as I can get close to Your Heart.. I only want to see this Heart.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. allow me to love Your Heart please.. will you please let me love YOU more.. love your Heart too.. as I am sitting on the ground.. I would start to cry.. I know that I came just too late.. I am only looking at the Piece of Paper.. the One that I drew thinking this is the shape and the size of Your Heart.. but I needs to see Your Heart.. not what I think it should be.. I should of come.. I have waited just too long or delayed too long.. Now I am missing Your Heart.. tell me where is Your Heart so that I can go.. go where your Heart is so that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. I am so sorry that I came just too later.. Please forgive me and help me again so that I can see Your Heart.. I want to say to Your Heart.. I love YOU.. please tell me.. where do I go now.. where is Your Heart so that I know where to go.. please tell me.. please.. I am looking at the Moon.. I am waiting for YOU.. just thinking about YOU.. Looking at the Moon.. I feel like I am starting to Miss YOU.. when can I see YOU.. can I hear Your Heart.. Can I see your Heart.. Please let me touch Your Heart.. because I need YOU.. I truly need YOU to love me Back.. only wish.. Only hope.. only dreaming if YOU can show me your Heart.. as I am looking UP toward the Moon.. I can picture in that Moon.. the Shape of Your Heart.. I want to see Your Heart.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens Wide.. my Other arm reaches.. stretches Out.. My Other Hand opens Wide.. if YOU can hear Me.. If YOU are able to hear.. Please listen with Your Ears.. Hear my words because I am talking to that MOON.. can YOU Hear through that Moon.. I want to know.. If YOU are Unable to hear my words.. If YOU are Unable to Hear my Voice.. On the Other side.. Is it Night.. because at this Point.. the Sun has went down and Now.. it is the Moon's Turn to get UP.. and I am looking at this Moon.. Hoping that It is Night on that Other side.. if it is.. Can YOU please come Out.. If YOU are able to see that MOON.. Please come Out from the Place YOU are.. I want to tell YOU something.. I want to speak and tell YOU something.. my hands are both open wide.. asking.. Can YOU Please give me Your Heart.. I will be standing still.. Until you give me Your Heart.. I been asking YOU for a long time.. Did you not forget.. ever since I first laid my eyes On you.. all I ever wanted is Your Heart.. All I ever talked about and asking YOU is for that Heart.. Please give me Your Heart.. Please Open your Heart.. I do not want anything else but Just for YOU to show me Your Heart and Please.. let me have Your Heart.. My Heart has been breaking.. It has been shattered into Pieces.. I am trying to put the Pieces of my Heart together.. without YOU.. I know that the Pieces of my Heart cannot come together.. that is why I am asking for Your Heart.. Only if YOU can show Me.. so that I can see the Shape of Your Heart.. and I can open my chest.. and Put your Heart inside the Chamber.. which been waiting for your Heart.. I need Your Heart.. I want to have YOUR HEART and Put close to my chest.. to see How can I live without YOU.. I know that I can't unless I have Your Heart.. I told YOU already.. How is my Heart be broken and How was it torn into Pieces and Cannot put it back together.. I broke my Own Heart.. So that I can put Your Heart instead of Mine.. that is How close I want to feel Your Heart.. to Feel the Beating of Your Heart.. to hear the Beating.. to hear the sound of Your Heart.. I want YOU very close.. SO close that I can hear Your Heart inside of Me.. so that I can see YOU close.. I am truly missing YOU.. I don't know why.. because it is so Hard to explain at this Point.. if YOU are asking me.. WHY do I miss YOU so Much.. I just saw your Picture.. which I would have it close to Me.. I would take a Look at your Picture.. and only Wish.. Only Hope when can I see YOU close.. will you ever come close to Me.. because the More away YOU are.. the More I want to see YOU close.. the More I miss YOU.. the More My Heart breaks.. breaking and hearing the sound of my Heart.. just breaking into pieces.. and I want to know.. Does Love hurts.. does it hurt you.. because for Me.. it hurts to Love YOU.. it hurts me so much that I can feel the breaking of my Heart.. I want to cry.. I want to cry a lot because it Hurts me more when I don't see YOU.. when I miss YOU.. when I step out side.. and I stand still in silent.. and I look UP.. toward the Moon.. I want to shout at the Moon and Cry when looking at the Moon.. I would say.. Can YOU please come Out tonight.. I wonder if it is Day.. Or is it Night.. If I am able to see the Moon tonight.. can YOU Please step Out side.. On the Other side.. do YOU see the Moon appear before Your eyes.. Look UP at the dark skies.. do you see the stars.. do you see the Moon.. if YOU can see the Moon appear before YOU.. Can YOU Hear me.. Can YOU Hear my voice.. Listen to my words because there is something very Important that I would like to say.. to tell YOU.. and I know for sure you know this and maybe heard it more than thousand times by Now.. But I never get tired of telling you this.. I just hope that YOU never get tired too.. If you do please tell Me so that I can stop.. if YOU hear me.. Please LOOK at the Moon.. can YOU see that MOON.. the same Moon that we can see together.. as I am standing still alone.. I am here by myself.. Looking at that Moon.. I been coming here.. from time to time.. when I think of YOU a lot and my Mind.. it gets very busy because I am thinking of YOU.. before I came Out side.. I saw Your Picture.. I saw the Picture of YOU smiling.. when I saw Your Picture.. My Heart was touched.. I put my hand on the Chest.. and I can feel the Beating of My Heart.. and I would tell Your Picture looking at YOU.. I love YOU.. YOU do not know How much I love YOU.. I am still here.. I am still able to tell YOU.. I am able to write to YOU still.. that shows that I have never lost the touch.. that I think of YOU always.. when I saw Your Picture.. it felt Like I got drunk.. I wanted to fall.. and sit on the floor.. I felt dizzy and my knees got weak when I saw YOUR picture.. I told myself.. I should Not keep on looking at your Picture.. because once I start to look.. I would miss YOU.. Missing YOU leads me to walk Out side.. Missing YOU leads me to Look at the Moon.. and my eyes would wander looking UP at the sky.. Looking for the stars.. and Looking for the Moon.. I would close my eyes.. Both eyes shut closed as I would put YOU in my Head.. a Picture pops in my Mind as I would think of YOU.. and envision YOU.. wanting to see YOU.. I would open my eyes.. as I am staring at the Moon.. I would look at the Moon.. and I would open my mouth and say.. Do you know why I am here tonight.. Do you know why I am lead here.. I saw YOUR Picture.. I saw your Beautiful Picture.. saw Your Beautiful Face.. Now Look what YOU have made me do.. I am asking YOU if YOU can hear me.. Please say something back.. Please tell me something because My Heart is listening.. say something because My Heart is opened to listen.. Say something because my ears wants to hear Your Voice and Your Words.. Please say something because tonight is the Night I really want to hear YOU.. that this very Night.. for some reason I am missing YOU much more.. even though every night I miss YOU.. and I want to see YOU every day.. But on this very Night.. I really really want to hear from YOU.. I want you to Know that I love YOU.. I really really Love YOU.. Why can't I hear from YOU on the Other side.. is it because YOU can't hear me at all.. YOU know that every time I come Out.. every time I look UP at the sky and Look towards the Moon.. I am always expecting to hear from YOU.. but every night.. I would be the One who is speaking.. saying something as I am looking toward the Moon.. after I am done speaking as I am looking UP at the Moon.. I would be so sad.. My Heart be broken.. My Heart be breaking

Heard on the Other side.. What If YOU are Not there.. What if It is Night there.. and yes.. the Moon has come UP.. but YOU are Not Standing Out side where YOU can see that Moon.. I want my Voice to be heard for YOU.. I want my Words to be Heard to YOU.. because None of it is empty words.. it is Words that comes from My Heart and My Mind.. from Inside of Me.. that is why I been asking for YOUR HEART.. If I can have your Heart just for One Night.. if I am able to put Your Heart inside the Chamber in my Chest.. and I close the Chamber of the gates of my Chest.. I know that if YOUR Heart is inside of Me.. I can walk out alone.. stand by myself in the Night.. Looking UP at the MOON.. so that My Words can be Heard.. so that My Voice may be heard.. and if YOUR HEART is inside my Chest in the chamber.. I would look UP at the Moon.. and YOU are able to hear all of My words.. my Voice.. and even what comes within Me to tell YOU.. YOUR Heart being so Close to Me.. I know that My Words would not go empty.. and I can just express and tell YOU.. and YOU can Hear me.. that YOU can hear me finally and that I know that YOUR HEART is able to hear my words and My Mind.. and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would know for sure.. I can come Out side every night.. without questions rather YOU are listening or Not.. But I know for sure YOU can Hear Me.. that YOU know How much I love YOU.. YOU know How much I miss YOU and able to know my Heart.. that I am able to tell YOU.. and I can finally cry Out Loud knowing we are looking at the SAME MOON.. that YOU can hear me speak.. YOU can hear me talk and share.. that I know YOU are listening to My Heart.. that I can finally hear Your Heart.. listen to the Sound and the Beating of Your Heart.. when it comes so Close.. I can tell your Heart.. DO YOU HEAR ME.. Can YOU Hear me.. because NOW I know.. Now I feel.. Now I hear that my Dreams.. hopes and wishes can come true because I have Your Heart.. I really Need Your Heart.. because I love YOU.. I am sitting down by the shores.. Looking at the Waters coming In.. On a big rock.. I am sitting and just thinking about You.. I am looking at two Empty Bottles.. for some reason.. I started to drink.. the More I think of YOU.. the More I miss YOU.. on this Night.. why do I feel the aching in my Heart.. I wish that I did Not look at your Picture.. I received a Letter from YOU.. and YOU are telling me YOU are going some where so far.. and telling me that It is going to take YOU a while and after hearing these words after I read the Letter you wrote me.. I just could Not take it any more.. I could Not stay inside the House.. so Leaving the House.. and so I wrote YOU a Letter back.. But.. I am wondering at this Point.. what am I suppose to do with the Letter that is In my Hand.. if I am unable to reach YOU.. YOU have Not tell me where YOU are going.. and how long will it take for YOU to come back.. I would look at your Picture.. and looking at the Letter.. I am feeling so much hurt right Now.. it is because I am missing YOU so Much.. All I ever asked for is Your Heart.. I would ask if I can Have your Heart.. is it just too much of asking YOU for It.. because I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. without Your Heart.. there is Nothing that I can do.. then please tell Me.. How do I win YOU over.. How am I suppose to make YOU mine.. what is the secret so that I can take action.. and also tell YOU because I am Not sure what to do at this Point.. So I have decided to come to the Place.. this Rock has been here ever since I first came.. I would sit on the Top of this Rock.. when I want to see you the Most.. I brought with me a Shot Glass.. of course I did not bring YOU picture with me this time.. because I know if I do.. I would be taking a Look.. which it can make my eyes pop out whenever I see Your Picture.. I wish that YOU knew this Heart of Mine.. why can't you see through.. why can't you understand me.. or relate with me what I am going through right Now.. I have bought three bottles of Rice wine.. so far.. I have finished two Bottles.. I am taking a Look at the third.. the last One.. I don't feel drunk at All.. but I need to wash away what is in my Mind.. what is inside my Head.. I am trying to wash YOU away.. trying to forget.. or to erase YOU off but the More I try.. the More I just can't.. so Please Help me for once.. Help me How to win YOU over.. I am still trying over and over.. but I am asking YOU now.. if you know the answers.. if you know the secrets of How to Make YOU Mine.. I feel like I am dying inside right Now.. I feel like I am ready to die instead because I want to have Your Heart.. if only YOU can show me Your Heart and I be able to hold Your Heart in my arms.. and to able to speak to Your Heart.. will you let me tell YOU something.. will you let me speak to Your Heart.. because that is the Only One thing I want.. what I truly need.. to have your Heart and to tell Your Heart.. I have a Heart too.. and My Heart just loves YOU.. How can I transfer this Message to reach Out to YOU.. How can I tell you that I love YOU.. YOU are so far away.. there is this distance between Us.. and I would like to get close to YOU.. How can I get close to YOU.. to your Heart.. Please tell me and let me Know.. as I am looking at the last Bottle.. my hand grabs.. twist the TOP and open it.. holding the Glass shot in the Other hand.. the One with the Bottle.. my hand pours into the Shot Glass.. what if I get sick.. so sick that I rather die instead.. I feel so sick in my stomach because I need to see YOU.. I need to hold YOU Near in my hands.. in my arms and I would say to YOU.. will you please show me Your Heart.. How can I see your Heart.. Please.. let me see your Heart and Please hear these words of Mine.. that I been here.. always waiting for YOU.. just to Love YOU.. and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. will you let me tell YOU these words of Mine to YOU.. that is why I need your Heart.. I need to know so that I can tell YOU.. but when YOU tell me that YOU are going to take a Long time and YOU are leaving going somewhere very far.. How can I tell YOU.. that is why I been asking YOU.. at least Leave Your Heart with Me.. let your Heart be close to me so that I will not feel like I can't do nothing.. as I am looking at the Shot Glass in my Hand.. I would open my Mouth wide and slam the Shot Glass with rice wine into my mouth.. since I did Not bring your Picture with me.. Now I am dying to see YOU.. I am starting to miss YOU because all I see is the waters coming IN and going Out.. I just can't stop.. but why can't I stop.. I would tell myself to stop.. but How can I stop.. it is because I love YOU.. How can YOU stop someone who loves YOU so much.. that is why I need to hear words from YOU.. If you can tell me to stop Loving YOU.. I know that I can finally rest in Peace.. but.. I still be missing YOU.. still be looking at your Picture and just wondering.. what If something can happen.. How would it be Like if YOU were here with Me.. and I be able to hold YOU in my arms.. and tell YOU.. looking at Your Heart.. even though the Time flies and many weeks and months has passed By.. I still Love YOU.. and If you are asking me.. why do I love YOU so Much.. how is it possible to love YOU this Much.. and if you are asking me and wondering on the Other side.. I would look at the One I am holding the Bottle of rice wine.. Looking at the Other hand holding the Shot Glass.. I would be pouring the Bottle of the rice wine Into the Shot Glass.. placing the Bottle on the ground.. I would be looking at the waters.. I open my mouth wide and pour.. slam the rice wine into my Mouth with the Shot Glass.. and I would close both eyes.. Just thinking about YOU.. I be thinking of YOU.. as I am going back.. I am standing inside the House.. and I hear the Knock On the door.. and I know that YOU are coming over.. after receiving the Message.. the text Message from YOU.. I open the front door.. and I see YOU standing there.. I receive the Letter YOU gave me.. and I wanted to ask if YOU wanted to come inside.. but.. YOU tell me that YOU needs to go.. and I watch YOU turn the other way and YOU start to walk.. where I stop seeing YOU.. as I close the Door.. I would unfold the Letter.. and a Picture falls Out from the folded Paper.. as I go down.. and I pick Up the Picture.. I look at You.. and YOU are wearing a White Dress.. and I just can't believe it.. YOU are so Beautiful.. especially in that White Dress.. But this is Not just an ordinary Dress.. It seems like something is going to happen soon.. It looks like a Wedding Dress to me.. and On the Letter YOU are telling me that YOU are going to get married.. and YOU have invited me to come to see YOU at your Wedding.. I am wondering.. with who are you getting Married too.. because I don't want to receive this from YOU.. why are you telling me to come if I am Not the One who is going to stand next to YOU to make YOU my wife.. If I am invited for the wrong reason.. I do not want to come.. I don't want to watch YOU leave my Life and go with another.. It should be Me who should stand next to YOU.. the One who can put the ring on your Finger.. But why did YOU write me this kind of letter.. It really hurts Me if YOU are telling me to sit and watch the One you love to be taken away from Me.. and I just can't believe you are telling me this.. so I would rip the Letter into pieces.. I just can't take this from YOU.. I don't want to receive this from YOU because YOU are Only hurting me More.. what have I done to deserve this Kind of News.. why hurt me when YOU know my true intentions.. My true Motives.. I know that if I stand next to YOU through Thin and through Thick.. through the good times and the Bad times.. I know that after a certain time.. YOU can Love Me.. why can't YOU give me a chance to proof that I can love YOU more

The prove that I can share and show YOU that It is real.. My Heart is real.. just too real sometimes but is it not better to be more real than to be fake.. that is why I can tell YOU.. for weeks.. for months.. I can still tell YOU that I loved YOU then and I love YOU now.. as I am sitting on this rock.. I open both eyes.. and I look UP to the Moon.. wishing why does has to happen.. to hear this from YOU.. I wanted to hear.. can I marry YOU and will you be mine forever please.. Let me be the One.. Please.. let me be the One to stand next to you and exchange the Vows.. the One who can say I do to YOU.. and the One who can put the ring on your finger and tell YOU.. thank YOU for being the One for me.. the one who I can love forever and say that YOU are Mine.. YOU know that I love you too much.. because I just can't stop but just Love YOU.. because I do.. truly love YOU.. really really.. just love YOU.. the Angel.. Your Angel who loves YOU.. it is because I really really Love YOU.. and this is the Only thing I can do and I can show.. and tell YOU.. which It means truly.. I love YOU.. I received and I would be wondering.. why would someone write me a Note.. but there is No Name telling me from who.. I have this note and tells me to go to the Park.. and there is a Big Tree.. I have this Jar.. it is an Empty Glass Jar.. I am sure I am going to be meeting.. and I see a Picture.. of course it is YOU.. I am sure that the Note has to come from YOU.. because why would anyone write me a Note.. So.. I have a Flower.. a SUN FLOWER.. putting into the Empty Glass Jar.. and with the Note and the Picture.. I would walk outside.. and I love the Sun.. it makes me really really happy when I see the SUN outside.. when the MOON comes UP.. I do get very sad.. because I start to miss YOU.. and I just don't want to keep on missing YOU when I see the Night with MOON up on the sky.. but on this Day.. yes.. I am so Happy that I did receive a Note.. I never receive notes from anyone.. but when it comes from YOU.. it does Not matter How many Notes you send.. just receiving from YOU means everything to me.. So I walk outside and I am thinking of YOU.. Not missing YOU.. but just thinking of YOU.. of Us.. the Hope that Dreams can come True.. So I am holding the Jar.. the Empty glass jar but the SUN FLOWER has entered inside.. So as I am walking.. I see the Park.. I am getting closer to the Big Tree.. and I keep on walking.. I am wondering.. Am I suppose to be meeting YOU here.. I am wondering.. what am I doing here.. I only received a Note card.. telling me to come to this park by this Big tree.. am I suppose to be receiving or am I suppose to be giving.. I am Not sure because I only read it to come here.. so I am standing around.. Placing the Jar.. the Glass Jar down.. I am looking around.. there is another Note.. the NOTE is taped on this tree.. I have the note card.. I have Your Picture.. so I know who I am suppose to look for.. but.. this Note.. I would pull the Note Out from the Tree.. it is taped.. and I would turn around.. it is a Drawing of a Heart.. I am thinking.. is this a JOKE.. a Heart.. and someone drew it with a pencil.. Now.. it is a Heart.. Yes.. I know I want a Heart.. I don't want a Heart with someone draw on it.. I am asking for a Real Heart.. Not a Heart that someone sketched and says it is a Heart.. Honestly.. I want Your Heart.. the One that is inside your Chest.. Not my chest but Yours.. I been asking for a long time now.. it has been so long.. and Now.. are YOU telling me that I am able to have a Heart.. or are you asking me.. if I can give YOU my Heart.. but.. I don't want to give YOU my Heart.. what if My Heart cries because of YOU.. what if YOU Hurt my heart.. what if my Heart does not work or feel the same once YOU take my Heart.. I am Not going to give YOU my heart unless you give me Your Heart first.. I need your Heart.. do YOU see that I am able to speak and share through this.. I am telling YOU.. right Now.. I have not forgotten.. I want... I really really want.. and I will say it over again.. I want it.. I truly want Your Heart because I been asking.. even praying and begging for Your Heart.. why I need it.. TO be honest.. what are YOU going to do with Your Heart.. if I am the One who loves YOU first.. and I am able to tell YOU how I truly feel inside and as been expressing and telling YOU.. how much I need YOU so Please give me Your Heart.. But let me ask you this.. what are you going to do with your heart.. are you just going to let Your Heart just sit there.. YOU know that at least.. I can have your Heart.. if YOU are able to give me Your Heart.. I can speak.. I can pour my Heart and soul and say something to Your Heart.. YOU know that I will never hurt Your Heart.. I can love YOU heart and tell Your Heart How much I love YOU.. so help me to understand.. what are you going to do with Your Heart.. I know that I can take your Heart close.. I can whisper and say that I love YOU.. I can speak and whisper How much I missed YOU.. the sorrows and the tears I had to deal with.. how I would cry in the nights.. when I look at the Moon.. I would say.. I wish.. Only if I can hold your Heart close.. if my hands be able to hold and carry your Heart.. by the MOON.. I would turn to LOOK at the Moon and tell the MOON.. do you see this.. it is the Heart who I love the Most.. able to show this MOON.. How I would be out in the Night.. looking and speaking to the MOON how much I wanted you close.. or wanted you near.. and I can show the MOON.. on this very Night.. just Look.. I am holding in my hands.. palm of my hands is this Fragile Heart.. do you see what I am seeing and I would lift it UP to show the MOON.. YOU have seen me out here.. and Here comes this Person again.. asking for the Same.. Night after Night.. here I go out.. turning and LOOKING at the MOON.. I would be raising UP my voice.. saying How much I missed YOU and needed you close.. Only If I am able to have Your Heart.. closer to me.. and able to speak and share My Heart to your Heart.. how much I want YOU near.. and How I am dealing with the times of distance.. when YOU are so far away.. I am torn down into pieces because I want you close.. and I would say.. if I have Your Heart.. if my palm of hands able to get Hold of YOUR Heart.. I know that in due time.. YOU will come.. YOU are not going to leave your Heart with me.. soon or later I believe you will come to get Your Heart.. that is why I want this Heart.. I want Your Heart.. that is the only way I know that I will see you soon.. as I am standing by this Big Tree.. I know this can't be a joke.. why would you do this to me.. DO you think that I am dumb.. because I don't want this kind of Heart.. I want the real Heart.. the One I can touch.. I can hold and feel.. and able to speak and say to the Heart How much I love YOU.. what am I suppose to do with this Heart.. I know that someone drew this Heart.. thinking this is funny.. But to Me.. it is Not that funny.. because I am serious about Your Heart.. I want the One who lives inside YOU.. so Please.. tell me that it is a sample.. that this is not a real Heart.. and I take a Look at the Note again.. this time.. a written on.. the Heart is On top of the Tree.. of course I missed this Line right here.. which Now I do feel so Dumb for missing the Purpose of this Note.. as I smile.. I know that YOU are Not joking.. it means it is a real Heart.. of course.. While I was walking.. I saw the Big Tree from the distance and It is very Big Tree.. I get closer to the Tree.. and I am able to look UP.. it looks so much bigger.. as I would lift up my Head to look UP.. can I ask YOU a Big Favor.. if I am able to see the Heart and I am able to get Your Heart.. can I please write My Name on that Heart.. will you let me.. will you allow me.. will you give me the Permission to write my Name on your Heart so that YOU will know that I did find your Heart and that I love YOU.. How do you know who loves YOU.. YOU will not know unless someone writes HIS NAME and tells YOU to Your Heart.. I love YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. that is why I want to tell YOU and remind YOU many times.. the Name will cross your Mind.. when YOU LOOK at your Heart and YOU find a Name.. YOU are able to remember that this Name.. this person Loves YOU.. He loves YOU to death that He also writes.. the way I received the Note and it was written.. I want to write.. Not ON the Note.. and No.. I am not going to draw No Heart and paste ON you.. but I want to write on your Heart.. that I love YOU.. when YOU feel like it seems like NO ONE cares at least YOU will know that I do.. that I care and I do love YOU.. so please.. Give me Your Heart.. I need Your Heart.. why do you have to make it so Hard for me to get to Your Heart.. why.. YOU know that this tree is Big.. is is very Big with many branches going UP.. which I am sure it is going to be so hard for someone like me to climb.. if the branches breaks.. you know I will fall on the ground.. But.. how am I suppose to get to Your Heart.. as I am looking UP at this Big tree.. and I am much smaller.. I look way UP.. at the way top of the tree.. a Branch is there.. I do see the Heart.. I see Your Heart sitting on the top of the Branch.. it takes my breathe away that I finally see your Heart

The Heart.. That Heart is the Only way.. YOUR HEART.. as I look at your Picture.. I would speak to your Picture.. right Now I have NO idea.. but I got a Note from YOU and I have come here because of the Note YOU gave me.. I also have the Other Note which was taped on the Tree.. and I saw the Note.. it has a drawing of Your Heart.. and I even read the NOTE down below.. telling me to LOOK UP on this BIG TREE.. I looked UP and way UP on the first Branch.. the top branch.. I see a Big Heart.. and It must be Your Heart which is sitting on top of the first branch at the TOP of this Tree.. I am holding the Shot glass into my hand.. as My other Hand holds the Bottle.. Bottle of SOJU and I am pouring into the Shot Glass.. Only words I would say to YOU.. I miss YOU.. I don't know why but this very Night.. I am missing YOU.. wishing that YOU are here with me.. I just want to hold YOU in my arms.. Hold YOU close.. Hold you tight.. But No matter how many times I call for YOU.. calling YOUR name.. it seems like YOU Never answer.. Can you Hear Me.. Can you hear my voice calling out to YOU.. calling out your Name.. I put the SOJU bottle down on the Floor.. my other hand holding the Shot Glass.. both eyes closes.. I open my mouth.. I would slam the Shot Glass.. the SOJU hits me.. as I would sit.. I put the Shot Glass on the ground.. Next to the Bottle of SOJU.. as I would open both eyes.. I look down at the Bottle of SOJU.. it is Now Empty.. I just finished taking many shots.. I just needed to get.. My Heart Hurts.. because I am missing YOU.. WHY do I keep on missing YOU.. as Your Picture is laying on the ground.. my hand grabs the Picture.. I pick up your Picture.. looking at YOU.. LOOKING at this Picture of YOU.. WHY do you have to be so Far.. that because of the distance.. the distance that keeps us apart.. I wish that I wouldn't miss you like this.. but there are some nights that I would feel.. My Heart gets heavy.. and for no Other reason.. I just miss YOU out of Nowhere.. as I want to cry.. I just want to pour down my tears.. and I would get UP slowly.. standing Out side.. On this very peaceful Night.. I would Look UP.. Looking at the stars.. and I turn to LOOK at the MOON.. my arms stretches further.. towards the MOON.. the Other Hand with No picture.. I am looking at the MOON.. I wish that the MOON can come close.. so that the MOON can hear Me.. I know that since you are far off.. YOU can't hear me.. NO matter How loud my voice gets.. NO Matter How louder I want to speak UP.. these words.. Words I want to tell YOU.. these words to Tell your ear.. I need your ears tonight.. so that I want to speak.. speak to YOU.. to Your Heart.. to tell YOU.. I miss YOU.. I miss you so much.. sometimes I just don't know what to do.. what can I do.. what could I do.. missing YOU.. wanting to dry my tears.. Missing YOU.. my words wants to speak to YOU.. but.. YOU can't even hear me.. so what am I suppose to do if I want to speak and tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I love YOU that I am missing YOU.. missing you which is driving me crazy.. I feel so Crazy right Now.. look at me.. Look at what I am doing right Now.. as I am looking UP.. I am looking at the MOON.. as my hand.. my arm is reaching for the MOON.. I want this MOON to come close.. Please.. can YOU come closer.. I want to say something.. I need to speak.. it is my Heart.. I want to speak from My Heart.. so Please.. if you can lend me the ear so that when I finish speaking.. I know that YOU know where.. I want to show you the Picture.. the One who I love the Most.. my beloved.. the One who I miss the Most.. the One who I wants to tell YOU about.. If you can come closer.. and show me your ear so that I can tell YOU.. my Heart.. needs to say.. and I know that when YOU see the One who I love the most.. Please tell Her.. I miss Her.. and I love her.. can YOU do me a favor.. I am asking YOU from My Heart.. as I am looking UP at the MOON.. I don't see any reaction.. the MOON does not come near.. Does Not come close to Me.. as I lift up the Other arm.. the One my Hand is holding your Picture.. I would look at your picture.. looking at YOU closer.. I open my mouth LOOKING at your Picture.. it is so sad that I am talking to a thin air.. I feel like NO ONE knows and NO ONE cares.. Not even the MOON seems like He cares.. I asked the MOON to come closer.. if that MOON has an ear.. that My Heart.. I am burning inside to speak.. to say.. to share what is deep in my soul.. I asked the MOON if he has an ear.. I wanted to show that MOON the picture of YOU.. when the MOON looks at YOU.. this Picture I am holding in my hand and show the MOON.. so that He is able to know who YOU are.. That Moon is able to know because the MOON is lifted UP.. able to find YOU.. able to know who you are so that if that MOON has the ears to listen.. I wanted to sent a message to YOU through this MOON.. If the MOON is able to find YOU on the Other side.. and if YOU ever go Out side on this very peaceful Night.. if the MOON spots YOU.. He can call out to YOU.. AND say Your Name.. calling out to YOU by asking YOU.. calling out your Name so that YOU can turn and KNOW.. a message must be delivered.. but.. No matter How many times I tried to call.. I know that YOU are unable to receive.. even this MOON does not respond to my calling.. I am asking this MOON.. but the Moon seems like He don't know.. So I am here.. standing alone on this very night.. wanting to tell YOU that I miss YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU.. But.. How can I tell YOU if you are so Far away.. miles and miles.. distance apart.. what am I suppose to do if I can't tell YOU what is in my heart.. this afternoon.. I saw your picture.. when I saw your picture.. I would smile.. saying YOU are so Beautiful.. YOU are so Lovely and so wonderful.. I would smile looking at your Picture.. but at the same time.. my Heart.. grew sad on Me.. I went to a shop.. and got me a Bottle of SOJU.. I did not want to drink it at first.. I don't like getting drunk.. I hate waking up with hang over.. but for some reason.. I went to a shop.. and GOT me a Bottle of SOJU.. grabbing the Shot Glass out of the kitchen cabinet.. I placed it next to the Shot Glass.. as I would look at your Picture.. I started to miss YOU.. I would ask myself.. WHY all of a sudden this feeling over came me.. that I felt so Sad.. it is because I want to be with YOU right Now.. I want to tell YOU.. Hold you close.. hold you tight and pull you close.. wrap my arms around you and tell Your ears.. How much I love YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. and I will never stop.. I will keep on loving YOU.. looking at your picture.. sometimes I am overwhelm by your beauty.. I never get tired of looking at YOU.. my hand touch my chest.. and I can feel how much I love to look at YOU.. and only If this Picture had ears.. if your picture had ears.. I know that I do not have to be going outside.. looking at the MOON.. if your picture only had ears to listen.. How lovely would that BE.. I can just speak.. speak from my Heart to tell YOU.. whenever I feel I miss YOU.. or My Heart feels to say I love YOU.. I can just tell YOU.. how much I do.. but.. I look at your Picture.. I don't see any ears.. so I know that Your picture is unable to hear Me.. so what am I suppose to do if I can say these words to YOU.. it hurts me More than hurts YOU.. there are times when I miss you more.. days when I want to see YOU.. when I want you near and close.. so that I can feel your warmth.. see your smile.. and to even hear your voice from time to time.. I got the Shot Glass.. with the BOTTLE of SOJU.. and I would pour the BOTTLE OF SOJU into the Shot Glass.. and I would look at Your Picture.. I would say.. Do you know that I miss YOU right Now.. please say something.. Please tell me that YOU also miss me too.. I need to hear something from YOU.. but.. I know that If I tell you these words.. YOUR Picture has No ears to listen.. and I would say to myself.. why am I always hoping.. I am hoping that YOU can see me.. I am hoping that YOU can hear me.. but NO matter how many words I would speak looking at your Picture.. I don't hear any words back from YOU.. I grab the Shot Glass.. Open my Mouth wide and slam the SOJU into my mouth.. I am asking YOU.. I am asking you because I miss YOU so bad.. I miss you like there will be NO tomorrow.. I miss you because I love YOU.. and I know that even though the tomorrow may come.. will YOU able to hear me.. hear me say to YOU that I miss YOU and that I love YOU.. as I would turn.. I would look UP to the Moon.. I would open my Mouth looking at the MOON.. thinking of YOU.. thinking because I love YOU.. thinking because I miss YOU.. I would look UP.. at the MOON and say.. Only if this MOON can hear Me.. How nice would that be.. because there are so much to say.. if YOU can only come down.. and if you have ears.. I be asking YOU.. can you lend me your ears on this very Night.. can YOU do me favor and send a Message.. Do you see this Picture.. DO you see the One who I love the Most.. Please remember this Picture and the Face

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MAH MAH.. Bed of flowers because this is where My Father is buried.. it has been a long time since I visited him.. but I wanted to tell YOU this.. my Father wanted me Not to Love YOU.. told me that YOU were so dangerous to Me.. that my life has to be on the line if I cross this Line and yes.. I have crossed the line for a long time.. but the Word never got out until now.. I have been loving YOU the day I saw Your Picture.. I have never met YOU in my life but knew that one day something has to happened.. I wanted to tell my Father.. I am at his grave with YOU next to Me.. of course he is right because I am on the verge of facing my own death.. but I want to tell my Father.. I will go down with HIM.. and I turn to you.. MAH MAH.. I loved YOU then.. I loved you when I never met YOU.. I started to love you when I met YOU the first time.. I love you much more because I still have life in me.. if I am given me a new day.. I am so thankful that this day is made so that I can love YOU MORE.. Now.. I am able to show you my Father's grave.. I was warned and been warned for a long time.. not to cross the line.. Not to love YOU.. but My Heart.. I just could not let YOU go MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I guess I wanted to tell YOU.. whatever happens to me in the future.. at least YOU get to see my Father's grave.. in the bed of flowers where he is buried.. I am Not sure if this was the main reason why you wanted to come to this Garden.. is it too meet my Father's grave.. because this is where My Father was buried.. after he died.. His Body.. his Bones are here now.. as long as I still have life in me for a day.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. PRINCESS.. I will always love YOU.. even then.. even now and forever I will love YOU..I am Looking Up at the Moon.. the Seven Men are behind Me on Watch Guard.. the New Recruits are in the tents and they are all sleeping.. I would unroll the Paper.. the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. my hand runs over.. Looking at How Beautiful YOU are.. I have Never seen such a Great Beauty.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I know that I am getting the New Recruits.. the New Young Men.. So many people are waiting.. the Fences are blocking More New Recruits.. and I am Not sure where all these YOUNG MEN came from.. but.. Many wants to Join this Military Arts.. wants to join the Circle.. But it is YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. these are YOUR YOUNG MEN.. the New Recruits who are.. and as I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I only saw you this Morning.. watching More YOUNG MEN.. the New RECRUITS.. By the Fences.. trying to get in.. but the Fences would Not let them Pass through.. as I turn to LOOK UP at the MOON.. the training will start when the early Morning.. when the Sun comes UP.. I am going to prepare these YOUNG NEW RECRUITS.. they are going to come to this training Ground.. the Ones who passed the examinations and now.. ready to pick UP the WOODEN SWORD STICKS.. and I would be turning Back.. Looking at the Seven Men.. the friends of Mine.. and they all look at me with a SMILE.. and I turn to LOOK UP.. looking at the MOON.. Just thinking of YOU.. HOW far I came.. and How it is because I love YOU.. I never stopped Loving YOU and that is the Driving force behind of Never giving UP Hope.. it is because I love YOU.. I wish that WANGSEJABI MAH MAH knows this Heart of Mine.. that I would see.. A Messenger comes.. I hear the Horse running.. and the Horse stops.. the Messenger gets Down from the Horse and LOOKS at me and the Seven Men.. He shows me a Scroll.. and the Enemies are going to Come Back again.. and they want to fight again for this War.. it is Not Finished Yet.. and the Messenger tells me.. get the YOUNG MEN RECRUITS also ready for the war.. I watch the Messenger gets ON the Horse and He leaves out of sight.. as I am thinking about Another War.. I am Not sure if I will make this One alive.. But.. For YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. we Must Win for YOU.. so that YOU WILL BE our QUEEN.. and to make this Nation stronger and the People.. the New Recruits stronger to protect YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. DO YOU remember.. When I first came.. and I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture.. as I am speaking looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture.. drawing picture of YOU.. and I would say to your Drawing Picture.. DO YOU NOT remember when I first came to the Training Ground.. I wanted to come.. I wanted to be the part of the Military Arts.. but My Heart.. I always believed that I will meet YOU one day SOON.. that I get to show YOU my Face.. I get to draw Near.. to get closer to YOU.. I remember it was in a Night like this.. and as I turn to LOOK UP at the MOON.. I would go back to the Good Ole Days.. I am sitting in the ROOM.. with the Closet Friend.. I am looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. and I would smile.. I will see YOU soon.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please be Patient and wait.. I know that I be meeting you so SOON.. I lost my Father.. but there was a Older MAN who became Like a Father.. taught me the Arts of Swordsmanship.. and has told me.. it is TIME for me to enter the training Camp.. the Training Ground.. and Gave me a Letter.. with the Stamp.. I would be looking at the Letter.. and His Mark of stamp.. on the Other Hand is the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I can't believe this Teacher gave me this Stamp Letter.. which Allows me to go direct into the Training Ground.. and I know.. the Next day.. Many are going to enter the training Ground.. or the Camp which YOU MUST pass in the Camp to go into the Ground.. but This Letter.. with the Stamp.. for Many Years.. I have been waiting for this day to Come.. for Many Years.. I would be coming Out side.. and I would LOOK UP to the MOON.. and I would ask.. I will be there very SOON.. I know that the distance between YOU and I seems a LONG WAY.. but I believe.. I know.. why.. because I know my Heart.. My Heart which Loves YOU.. I have Never stopped thinking of YOU.. I have never stopped Loving YOU.. YOU may Not know It.. when YOU LOOK at the distance between YOU and the MOON.. it is very Far to touch that MOON.. but I know.. Because I love YOU.. it does Not seems so Far any more.. as Long as I believe and I know.. I will be seeing YOU SOON.. I will be meeting YOU so SOON.. and I would look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. the Closest friend would look at me.. but I never get tired of LOOKING at YOU.. even though the Drawing was when YOU were much more Younger Years.. I do remember that with out YOU.. I know that I can't dream of coming this Close.. dreaming of getting close to YOU but I never stopped dreaming of Us.. of We.. that One Day.. I will see you and meet YOU.. I be close to YOU that I am able to speak and tell YOU.. I love YOU.. as the Next Day Comes.. me and the Closest Friend are standing in the Line.. the Line is so Long.. too many Young Men.. waiting in the Line to either go into the Camp or to the Ground.. and My Heart is beating.. It is beating so fast because I know that I am getting Close to YOU.. I see about one Hundred Young men standing.. waiting for their Time to enter.. I am so excited.. but also.. My Heart keeps on beating just too Fast.. I would be holding the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and I would be looking at YOU.. YOU do Not understand How Long I waited.. I had to count for many Days.. Many Weeks and Many Years.. and was Not sure at First.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. I am here on the Line.. I am right Close.. and I just can't believe that I had to wait this Long just to stand Even in this Line.. but also.. this Letter is the way I can see YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. few days Ago.. even just the few days ago.. I felt like I was very far.. that I wanted to say.. Maybe I am thinking just too Hard.. or Just the dream is Non Sense.. WHO is going to believe me that I can get close to YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I would be staying with the Older Man.. who was my teacher.. I was living with Him for awhile.. in the WOODS.. where there was nothing to DO.. NO dreams to think about.. Just be chopping down woods.. and getting the water in a bucket.. doing a lot of chores for this Older MAN.. who was a teacher.. Like a Father Figure to Me.. I would be walking Out side.. In the Night.. I would stand Out side.. LOOKING UP.. looking at the MOON and I would ask.. after looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. am I NOT allowed to dream.. Can a fellow Like me dreams TOO.. because maybe I am Not suppose to dream anything.. living as a Slave Boy.. But I do Have a Dreams.. and I would look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU and I would say to YOU in the Picture.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. why can't some one like me dream.. will YOU laugh and Mock at me if I tell YOU these dreams I have.. and It is ALL About getting closer and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. why can't I even share this Dream to YOU.. WILL you allow me to share it what I have IN my Heart.. will YOU open your ears to listen to My Dreams.. will YOU hear it and give me permission to Speak and to share this Dream of Mine to YOU.. is it truly wrong to Love YOU.. Please tell me that I am right.. I told YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. ever since I was A Boy.. walking with my Father.. another BOY who drew a Picture of YOU.. He fell before me while He was running.. He tripped and the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU came.. and When I bent over to pick up the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. My Heart.. I could Not tell my Heart to stop Beating.. I don't know why my Heart kept on

MAH MAH.. have this Picture.. the drawing of YOU.. and ever since I had it in my hands.. I would never let this drawing picture go.. because I just Love YOU.. I would be waiting in the Line.. with the Closest friend.. but the Line would Not Move.. Just too many Young Men has all shown UP for this Once a Year event.. and I know If I don't make it this Year.. I know I have to wait Next year.. but this Letter is only for this Year usage.. so I would wait and wait.. even though the Line would Not Move.. few days ago living with the Old Teacher.. I would be cleaning.. and the Old Teacher asked me to come Closer.. and I just could Not believe what He wanted to show Me.. and Showed Me.. the Letter.. when the Old Teacher gave me His Letter to me.. I would sit in the ROOM and I would cry.. alone I kept ON crying because.. I always dreamed of Getting close to YOU.. it felt like I would never see YOU again.. ever since in the Garden.. so many Years has passed since the last time.. the Old memories of YOU.. but I would revisit the Old Memories because I missed YOU.. when the Old Teacher called me to come into His room.. and gave me the Letter.. I would be looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU and I would tell Your Picture.. what if the Old teacher never gave me the Letter.. I wonder what would happen.. I would be still living with HIM and be His Slave instead.. I would take a LOOK at the Art sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU and say.. I never stopped dreaming.. the Old teacher also knows that I have the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. I am always taking it with me.. wherever I go.. the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU comes with me.. when there are Hard days.. when I be struggling.. Or just missing YOU.. I would pull and unroll the Paper.. and I would look at the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and I would say.. I want to see YOU SOON.. I want to be close to YOU SOON.. but I would say this and believe it.. but it seems like It is never going to happen to me.. but I want to get close.. My Heart wants to tell YOU that I love YOU.. when can I tell YOU these words of Mine to YOU.. but it seems like it is so Far.. Just like when I come Out side.. and LOOKING up to the MOON.. it is so far for my hands to touch that MOON.. the long distance.. which it is IMPOSSIBLE for me.. when will that day be when I can see YOU and be close to YOU.. when my arms can hold YOU near and I am able to say.. how much I love YOU.. but.. when the Letter came.. and the Old Teacher tells me.. when He stamps on the End.. That I am going direct to the Ground.. Not the camp site.. and I saw the Stamp He put.. I would cry in the ROOM.. just could Not believe It.. that HE is letting me get close to YOU.. without this Stamp and this Letter.. I would be still waiting.. and Only LOOKING at the MOON wishing every night.. but feeling that distance that IT is Never going to happen.. but when the Stamp was set.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I would run Out side.. and I turn to LOOK at the Moon.. holding the Stamp Letter in my Hand and I would be waving the Letter.. telling that MOON.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Just Wait.. I am coming.. I am going to get close to YOU.. I am going to be there very SOON.. I know that One day soon.. I will tell YOU how much I love YOU because I know that I do.. I never stopped believing that I will love YOU and I can say it to YOU SOON.. as I am standing in the Line.. with the Closest friend.. I begin to see the Men moving forward.. and yes.. Finally I get to enter the Ground.. I will see you soon Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I will see you soon.. because I love YOU..I am looking Across.. Standing by the Gates.. with the three Friends.. as the Back of the Palace Guards.. I am looking at YOU.. and so many people has gathered.. ALL of the TOP Generals.. the Commanders.. the Head servant.. maids.. even the Highest Kitchen Lady.. and ALL of the Special Body Guards.. the servants and I can hear a Great Celebration.. on the Outer Court.. I am watching YOU.. looking through the gate Bars.. I am wondering.. what is going to Happen after this.. WILL I able to still love YOU.. Look at the place I am standing.. and my three friends who are standing next to me sees Me.. I am sad.. My Heart is broken because NOW.. it is so Hard to Love YOU.. of Course I should be the One who should be the Most happiest to support YOU.. I know that it was ME who told YOU to leave.. to GO.. to go back to the Palace because It is the King.. PEH HA is calling.. He wanted to show YOU and give YOU something.. I was so Happy to hear this News.. that something Great was going to Happen.. and I am now Sad.. NOT sad in a Bad way.. I am just so sad because of this Distance.. I want to come Close.. I want to be near YOU.. able to hold Your Hands.. able to be close and to tell YOU at least I miss YOU.. or say I love YOU.. YOU don't have to accept the Words but.. If I were able to get closer to YOU.. at least YOU are able to feel the energy.. able to see me Smile.. but.. NOW.. I feel like only looking at the MOON can be more closer than for me to LOOK at YOU.. I am looking through the Bar Gate.. as I am watching the People.. the Most important People.. even the Prime Minister has come.. also the Queen.. the People all lowers and falls to the Floor.. QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. people all shouts on the floor.. lowering as she walks.. YOUR Mother has come and Me with the three friends all hit the Floor.. even though she can't see us.. knowing that the QUEEN has COME.. there is a Throne Seat.. in the Middle.. but a stage which YOU are on.. and Now the Messenger Shouts Out.. PEH HA!! the King is Coming.. the KING has come.. PEH HA! and all the people shouts Loud.. PEH HA! and me with the three friends shouts together PEH HA! and the King says for the attendants.. all rise UP and every one stands UP on the two feet.. so me and the three Friends all get UP.. the King is on the Outer Court.. and there is stairs.. He looks at YOU.. HE is with tears in his Eyes looking at YOU.. and there is a Big Crown.. and as the King steps UP He tells YOU to sit on the Throne.. and I look.. It can't be.. and He places a Crown ON the TOP of Your Head.. and He looks at YOU.. kisses Your Hand and says.. Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. SOON to Lead.. SOON to take over the Place.. and everyone Falls ON to the Floor.. lowers all.. and Says CROWN PRINCESS.. I am On the Floor.. with the three Friends.. HWANGTAEJABI.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. and every one shouts.. YOU sit there very shock.. but We all knew that IN time YOU will become the TOP RULER for the Nation.. People cheers and shouts Out.. WANGSEJABI.. CROWN PRINCESS.. we honor YOU.. the Commanders comes and they take a Bow to YOU.. kneeling and lower the Heads.. to the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. and Each Man comes to kiss your hand.. few Commanders.. the TOP 1st Chief Generals line UP.. to the 2nd In command of Chief Generals.. to the 3rd in command of Chief Generals.. and the Lower top generals and I am watching.. this is the Most biggest celebration.. very close of becoming the Ruler.. and I am falling looking on the floor.. What am I suppose to DO.. One side of my Heart.. I am truly joyful.. and I am so Happy for YOU.. I knew in time YOU would become the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would feel so happy that Now you are going to be taking over.. even though there is NO crown Prince.. but YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA made that calling.. Knowing that YOU are ready.. I am looking at the King and the Queen.. both lower themselves before YOU.. I am in shock.. It is PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and they made this Happen.. Now.. On the Other side.. I am watching all of these Most important people who works for the King.. they are all going over kissing Your hand.. I see a long Line and I would be on this Position till the Sun Goes Down.. and I see YOU still sitting on that Throne with the Crown TOP of your Head.. as I am hearing foot steps.. and it stops by the gate door bar.. I know someone is coming.. Is it my turn to kiss Your Hand.. If I kiss your hand.. I know that I can't love YOU any more.. what about me.. What about my Heart.. WILL you still let me Love YOU even after I kiss YOUR HAND.. I want to know.. will you let me still come close.. because I told YOU that I did not want to Come.. I knew that THIS would happen.. I told you before.. when We were back at the garden.. up on the Hill side by the tree.. I told YOU to let me stay Alone.. that I did Not want to go with YOU.. that I told my friends to take YOU instead.. because I knew that this is going to happen to Me.. WHY are you making my Heart to Bleed.. WHY don't you just give me a sharp blade knife and cut UP my stomach instead.. it be better if I just die like this.. I told YOU that YOU SHOULD go alone.. and I know that YOU wanted me to see YOU and to join in the celebration.. Yes.. it is the Best day I see.. it is the greatest day I am feeling at One side.. that Now.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. but the next thing I want to know.. what am I suppose to do with my Heart.. I have been loving you for so Long.. I mean it has been such a very long time.. and I began to think.. if it is all about MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI.. the Crown Princess.. YOU becoming the Next Ruler.. I told you that I did not want to come because the Distance is going to push me far away from YOU.. that is why leaving me behind would been a great idea because my eyes seeing YOU Close is good but bad when I can't ever come close to YOU.. DO YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. DO you know that I love you so much that

I can't sing at all.. I won't sing to you at all but.. I would press the recorder and let YOU Hear my voice on the Recorder of what I said.. I would let it all Out to tell YOU that I loved YOU.. from the day I first saw YOU.. the moment I had to be far away.. as I would be facing the Walls at night.. going Out at Night looking at the Moon.. watching the showers of the rains fall down on me as I would be playing the Little Piano out side.. My Heart was burning because I kept on missing YOU.. even I would think that the showers of the rain.. it is going to cool me down.. this burning in my heart of Loving YOU and of missing YOU together.. I saw the rain falling from the sky.. I took with me the Little Piano.. and stood.. getting Hit by the rain.. and I would be playing.. fingers would press on the key bars.. and I would open up my Heart to YOU as I would stand looking at the MOON.. asking do YOU Hear me now.. DO you hear me from here where I stand.. I would be crying in the rain because I be missing YOU.. Nothing ever worked Out but.. I wanted you to stand next to me.. maybe this is it.. and giving YOU the Letter.. I press the recorder so that YOU can hear me.. what I needs to say.. and I would tell YOU this.. I been missing YOU lately.. is it because I am growing older.. Maybe.. is it because I am thinking you may forget me.. or is it because YOU may find another Love.. it is None of those things because I know who I love.. when YOU are sure about who YOU love.. it does Not worry YOU at all.. I know that I love YOU.. I have been for such a Long time.. as long as YOU are able to receive it.. it does Not matter How far YOU are.. who you are with or seeing.. I don't care about that.. because I know that I have loved you since the day I first saw YOU until Now.. I been patient and I been waiting for YOU.. YOU are standing here next to Me.. as YOU are hearing this Little Piano playing.. I been wondering for How long much time.. but when I think about the TIME.. it only hurts me more painfully so I started to think it is going to come soon.. I know that as long as YOU KNOW IT.. YOU will one day know how much I love YOU.. YOU may not know it yet.. it can take even several more years.. I should never count on time if I love YOU.. just to know as long as it will come soon and to believe.. that I love YOU.. and.. ONE Day it will come to YOU.. One day YOU will realize the One who loves YOU.. you truly to run away.. or tried to push as far as YOU can.. but if the Only ONE MAN never gives UP on YOU.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. can you still here the Little Piano Playing.. I am playing to tell YOU as you read the Letter.. I love YOU.. I have told you many times that I loved YOU.. do you not still believe me yet.. YOU are wondering.. when am I going to give up on you right.. as long as YOU know right now.. I still love YOU.. why would I give up on you.. when YOU are my Heart Beat away.. I know that I be seeing you very soon.. I would turn to look at you as I am playing on the Little Piano.. as YOU are standing next to me.. I would say to YOU.. I took this Little Piano Out side.. there were nights when you find Peace in the Night.. standing Out side.. alone with this Little Piano.. I would turn to look at the Moon.. I would only see your Face in the center of the Moon.. with Your Smile.. my arm stretches out.. my hand opens wide to touch.. I wanted to touch YOU but YOU were so far.. I saw you in the center of the Moon.. I could Not touch you with this Hand.. but.. I would play on this Piano.. on this Little Piano I would try to play a song.. I would look UP at the MOON and say.. DO you Hear Me.. I know that I will see YOU SOON.. I know that I will meet YOU soon.. of course I don't know when.. I have NO time Line but I know.. if YOU KNOW WHO is the One loving YOU.. I know that YOUR Heart will be opened.. I know that YOUR Ears be opened too.. and I believe YOU want that man to Love you over and over again.. because I want to Love YOU.. just as YOU are.. just the way YOU are suppose to be loved.. and my fingers stop pressing on the Little Piano.. and I turn to look at YOU.. I say.. I love you.. just the way this Little Piano Loves to play a tune to make a sound of its music for YOU.. I just wanted to say.. it is because I love YOU.. How much I waited for YOU.. can I tell YOU.. your ears.. do YOU know that I have been waiting for you for a long time now.. just missing YOU.. can I tell you.. your ears.. How much I love YOU.. will you accept these words of Mine.. that I love YOU.. I can't believe YOU are gone.. I am trying to get YOU off my Mind.. looking at your pictures really stole my Heart.. How can I burn My Mind.. keeps on thinking of YOU.. your smile.. I love those eyes.. there is something inside of Those Eyes.. I wonder what are your thoughts.. I want to see what is in your MIND.. I wish that I can able to read those mind.. what are YOU thinking.. If I ever cross Your Mind.. DO you think of Me.. or Do you even say my Name.. will YOU call upon my Name.. then I want to know Your Mind.. How about Your Heart.. I wish that YOU can give Your Heart to me.. let my finger traces and touch Your Heart.. I will write something.. I means a Name.. My finger will touch Your Heart as it will spell Out a Name into Your Heart.. if YOU are able to give me Your Heart.. I will write my name across Your Heart and with my Lips.. I will kiss Your Heart. letting YOU know that the name and the kiss belongs to a person which is from Me.. I will never let YOU go and will never Let YOU forget.. Only if I can have your Heart.. I will Hold YOUR Heart.. finger touch and traces writing into that Heart.. YOUR HEART.. When I give Your Heart back.. I want to ask YOU.. DO I ever cross Your Mind.. DO you think of me as much as I do.. I think about you all the time.. it drives me crazy.. I feel like I just can't get rid of YOU OFF my Mind.. Inside my Heart.. YOUR NAME has been written Down.. NO matter How many times I want to erase Your Name off my Heart.. My Mind tells me.. Not too.. because I love YOU.. if this is happening to me.. and I can explain this so well about HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. can this happen to YOU as well.. that is why I want your heart.. Please.. give me Your Heart.. Let my finger touch.. Let my finger trace.. Let my Finger spell Out one's name.. Let me finger touch to say I love Your Heart.. I want to know if YOU will give me a chance.. a Chance for me to Love YOU.. only way is when YOU think of me.. YOUR mind needs to tell YOU Yes.. Your Mind has to work with Your Heart and together has to tell YOU.. If I am able to have Your Heart.. Your Heart is able to speak to Your Mind and tell YOU what is in your heart so that the MIND will let you think.. think about me.. I want to be the one who is in your Thought.. your Mind.. But.. without Your Heart being touched by my hands.. My hands wants to hold Your Heart and I want to speak to Your Heart.. will you let me write my Name.. I want to write My Name in your Heart.. so Please.. pretty please let me write into that Heart of yours.. so that when the MIND looks at Your Heart.. it will look at one's Name.. who is this Person.. whose Name is this and start to think of the Person.. I want to be the One who be loved by YOU.. I want to be the one who you be thinking of and feeling of.. I want to be the One who wants to enter YOUR HEART and YOUR MIND.. I am not going to force YOU.. But I need Your permission.. Like I am knocking at the Door.. am I allow to draw near to YOU.. can I come closer to this Door.. If you want me to leave.. I am not going to force myself to draw or get closer to YOU.. But I do want to come.. can I be the one to Knock.. help me to get Your permission.. I need Your Permission so that I can love YOU.. Openly and freely love YOU.. But YOU have brought this Line.. I needs to go across so that I am allowed to draw closer and near to YOU because I love YOU.. will you allow me to get closer.. Please help me to understand.. without Your words.. I need your permission first.. Before I can knock at this Door.. I need you to answer me Yes.. or No.. I want Yes to be Yes.. I do not like the word No.. as I am laying on the bed.. my two eyes opens.. I am looking at the ceiling.. the fan is turning round and round.. I close both eyes trying to sleep.. but I can feel something near Me on the Bed.. I turn aside to see the Giant Teddy Bear.. I wish that it be you.. I want to say I love YOU.. I want to hold YOU.. of course it is pretty cold outside.. I want to hold YOU.. close and tell YOU I LOVE YOU.. and I would put my arms around YOU and tell YOU.. I don't ever want to let go of YOU.. but I know you have choices in life.. but I want to be the one to love YOU.. that is why I need Your Heart.. I want Your Heart.. I need Your Heart so that The Heart of yours can say to me.. If I can get your permission to love YOU for the rest of your Life.. may I be the one to love YOU.. will you allow me to love YOU.. I can't without YOUR permission.. so please.. Give me Your Heart.. allow me to write my Name.. with my Finger and traces over.. spell my name into your Heart so that YOU will never Go.. I can't live without YOU because YOU are all in my Heart.. and in my Mind.. If I am able to write my Name into your heart with my Finger.. I know that maybe Not now.. but Later.. the Heart.. YOUR HEART can remind you of a Person.. who loves YOU.. Your Mind would look at your Heart.. it is that Name.. That Name just sticks Out of nowhere.. WHO IS this Person.. why is that name written in Your Heart and the Mind can help me to think of me where I can come across Your Mind.. WILL you let Me.. allow me to write.. It is not going to hurt at all.. I am not here to hurt YOU.. but to just love YOU.. why push me away.. why are you not here with me.. all I ever want to give you is my Love.. that is all freely I can give.. Love that comes within me.. a Love that has NO price

MAH MAH.. way.. the Messenger stops and turns to look at me.. the Crown Princess is waiting.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH is waiting for YOU.. but I would not make any move.. I can't go.. I don't want to walk over and kiss Your hand.. and If my Heart cannot love you any more.. Just please END my life here.. I rather DIE.. and the Special Body Guards walks over.. One pulls out the Sword to my Neck.. and He wants to strike me on the Neck with the Blade of the sword.. and I hear the voice.. the sword be place down.. I turn to look over.. as I look over.. the Important people all lowers and goes to the Floor as YOU stand UP from the Throne and YOU are looking at me.. I see the Big Crown placed.. and I am waiting for YOU to End my Life.. I know that I can't kiss Your Hand.. WHAT happens to me.. HOW about my Heart.. if YOU are going to HURT ME and kill My Heart.. KILL me first.. I am always ready to Die for YOU.. and I see YOU walking down the stairs from the Stage and three friends all stops and turns too look at me.. If I cannot even Love YOU.. what is the Point of me living.. I did not come all the way here to Just kiss Your Hand.. I came here to celebrate with YOU.. it is the Most Beautiful Day but How about Me.. How about my Love.. How about me Loving YOU.. If I can't love YOU now.. I can't love you later.. because it will turn Out to be Never.. that is why I choose to be still here.. How about Me.. tell Me.. give me the answer first.. I rather turn the Other way.. I will go back to the Garden where I belong in the first place.. where I should stayed in the first place.. If this was going to happen.. I do not know why I came all the way down here to cause trouble.. I don't mean to cause any kind of trouble.. because MY true intention is also celebrate.. but IF it ends this Way.. and YOU are forcing me to Kiss Your Hand so that I can't love you any more.. I am telling YOU now I will not.. I will Not kiss YOUR HAND.. so Please.. Let me GO back to the place where I belong.. Maybe I don't belong here any more because NOW.. I have reached a Point.. I can die.. If I can't love YOU.. Please let me go to see my Family.. I can meet them on the Other side.. since I know now I can't love YOU.. and My tears begins to roll down.. YOU know that I am badly hurt right Now.. YOU know that It hurts if I can't love YOU.. it hurts even missing YOU but to stand here for the rest of My life.. just to look at YOU but can't never love YOU.. I can't.. WHY did you even bring me to this Place if YOU knew it was going to end UP like this.. If you would of told me if YOU Knew this was to happen.. I would of chosen to Be at the Garden.. be close to the Buried family members.. I am not trying to start anything.. Not a war.. Not trying to bring any kind of Trouble.. but just telling YOU.. letting YOU know that I should of never come.. YES.. I do love that YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. I am truly happy for YOU.. that YOU are going to be ruling soon.. I already told YOU it was going to happen., of course never thought this SOON though.. BUT it has happened.. If I walk over.. and YOU give me YOUR HAND.. and I kiss that Hand.. that means I can't ever love YOU.. I will not kiss YOUR hand if I just can't.. I rather turn My Head and look up to the Sky and LOOK at the MOON and just talk to that Moon thinking about YOU.. I have been asking the MOON like he be a friend and sharing.. How much I love YOU and how much I been praying to meet YOU and always wishing that I can meet YOU SOON.. that part it has come true.. but I started to fall for YOU.. maybe because It Hurts so Much I started to love YOU.. maybe it was because missing YOU TOO MUCH I started to Love YOU.. but just thinking about YOU.. it made My Heart to Fall in Love with YOU.. because YOU are the CROWN PRINCESS.. knowing that this was going to happen.. because of THIS.. because YOU are HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. knowing YOU are the Best.. the greatest is why I loved YOU.. ever since I was a young Boy.. I knew that YOU were going to be someone very special.. and NOW I see.. my eyes are seeing.. that because YOU are.. that is why I rather just love YOU and Not kiss YOUR HAND..I am with the Seven Friends of Mine.. in the training Camp.. as I am looking at these New Recruits.. More young men are flocking.. filling up the training Camp.. as I watch more then One Hundred new young Men and More Men are waiting by the fences.. wanting to Join in the Military Arts.. I just can't Believe what is going On.. these are Your New men HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. these are new Recruits who wants to Fight For YOU.. and On your Behalf ready to Die for this Nation.. and They are Not afraid of the War.. I am holding the Wooden Sword Stick.. with the Seven Men behind Me.. and they are ready to Train these Young Men.. and I am looking at more than One Hundred Young Men of recruits.. and I can feel the tears in my eyes.. I remember I was One of those Men.. I am Looking over and around.. and My Hand touches the Chest.. I remember I was standing in the way Back.. I saw YOU at the training Camp.. with the Chief Generals and the Commanders.. with the Trainers of the Art of Swordsmanship.. I saw YOU sitting on the Chair.. and YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. who was looking saw me at the end.. and YOU stood UP and noticed Me.. I was way in the Back with the Number On the Back of the armor.. I just could not believe that YOU would let me come to the front.. and to see my Face.. I would walk up from being way behind.. More than One Hundred men because I was the 100th men.. the Number was written.. as I walked to the Front.. I saw YOU after a Long Time.. I wanted to say something to YOU WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. but CROWN PRINCESS.. what words would I say to YOU at that time.. I had to prove myself which I can be a Part of the Member to Fight.. as I saw YOU stand there.. YOU also holding a Wooden Sword stick.. and told me.. and I had to come before YOU.. and With the WOODEN SWORD.. YOU wanted to challenge Me.. But I just could Not fight YOU.. instead.. I let YOU Hurt Me.. I placed the WOODEN SWORD DOWN.. and Yes.. I just could Not hit.. as YOU would strike me with the WOODEN STICK SWORD.. and I fell to the ground after getting Hit several times.. I saw YOU stand there with NO WORDS.. and I saw YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. walk away.. and told.. One of the men.. the Chief General YOU knew to Challenge Me.. I would stand UP.. and YOU stood with the Other Chief Generals and the Commanders.. with the TOP GENRALS on the Side.. I held and grab the WOODEN STICK.. and the Chief General.. He grabbed and we were facing each Other.. I knew that If I could Not beat HIM.. I would Not be able to get It as the Palace Guard.. as I stood here with the Seven Men.. who is behind Me.. I am standing here in tears.. I just could Not believe that I am here today.. For your Kingdom.. and For your Nation.. and YOU gave me the Command to Teach and to train the New Young Men.. the New Recruits.. How is it that I can do this.. I just could Not.. as I watch the Faces of these New Young Men.. and they are all in the single line.. standing side to side.. and as I turn to look.. I see YOU sitting ON the Horse.. with the White Dress and the Big Crown on top of the Head.. as the Seven men with men.. we would all turn to Give YOU the attention.. and I would be on the two knees.. arm forward and head looking at the Ground.. the Seven men also gets down on two knees.. arms forward and heads looking on the ground.. and the New Recruits all turns too look.. the CROWN PRINCESS.. It is the WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and all the new Recruits all gets down on two knees.. arms out forward Heads all look on the Ground.. and I shouted to YOU.. CHOONG CHOONG CHOONG and the Voices of more than one hundred men all shouts to YOU the Crown Princess.. CHOONG CHOONG CHOONG.. as the WOODEN STICK HITS the ground.. and I would close Both eyes.. and going to the Meeting of the council.. the Meeting Board.. YOU.. the crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. sitting on the King's Chair.. on the Right Side.. from the eldest to the youngest.. Six Princes were standing.. the Prime Minister.. and the 12 council of noble Men.. from the eldest down.. and on the Left side is the Chief Commander.. to Commanders.. Chief Generals to TOP General.. 2nd General to the 3rd General.. as I am on the two Knees.. my arms out forward.. my Head looking on the Ground.. with the Seven Men who are my Friends in the same Position.. as the Messenger of the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. He is reading from the Scroll of what YOU have written.. and Now.. YOU are telling me that I am Not the palace Guard any More.. that Now.. I am a Special Guard for the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. and also shared that I am now the trainer for the New Recruits with the Seven Men who are with me.. as I lifted UP my Head.. what is this MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. why are you promoting Me.. I rather be the Palace Guard but Now.. YOU are telling me that I can be the special Guard.. who is to protect YOU.. I always wanted to protect YOU but even as the palace guard I can.. YOU do not have to promote me for anything.. as Long as I can protect you with the Sword.. the Only One sword I can.. and Now.. YOU are also giving me a chance to teach.. to share.. even though I may not be that GOOD.. why are you being so good to Me.. I know I can't do much.. but also.. for this CHANCE of a Life time.. I just wanted to thank YOU from my Heart.. and I can hear.. the men behind me starts to cry.. they just could Not believe what they are

MAH MAH.. YOU.. when I first saw YOU.. when YOU came across and I saw YOU.. I only felt something in my Heart.. I only wanted you to KNOW.. can I show you something that I felt in my soul.. that I felt in my Heart.. How am I suppose to show YOU something that is Unseen.. YOU can't see love.. YOU can't even know what Love is unless YOU learn.. and start learning HOW TO LOVE.. I began with the Art Sketch Paper.. I started when I saw a Boy.. He was running.. and He fell on the Floor.. and out of his hand the Art sketch paper came off and I was walking with my Father.. he was telling me He had to go to the Meeting Board.. the COUNCIL OF BOARD MEETING.. I stopped and I looked on the Ground.. an art Sketch Paper was near at my feet.. I went on the ground and I saw a Face.. it was a drawing and my two hands grabbed unto and I looked at the Picture of YOU.. Crown Princess.. and My Father who was standing next to Me saw the same Picture.. he tells me it is the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I looked at it.. How did it come to my hands.. How did this Picture.. this ART SKETCH PAPER.. the Drawing of YOU.. and I looked at it.. the CROWN PRINCESS.. MAH MAH.. and the Boy gets UP and looks at me.. telling me He drew it.. and that I can have it just like that.. ever since I saw this Picture.. my eyes were glued to this Picture.. YOU took my Breathe away what I first saw this Picture.. I just could Not breathe.. I could Not inhale or exhale.. HOW COULD I.. and Now.. I am here.. I am here looking at YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I told myself.. I am going to Meet YOU.. I am going to Fight for YOU and WILL PROTECT YOU.. and I will be by your side and Just wanted to say that I love YOU.. as I am looking at YOU who is sitting on the Horse.. and YOU are looking at the center of the training camp.. and I see you looking at me and the Seven Men behind Me.. and I do remember at the Meeting Board.. YOU gave the Command to make these My Soldiers.. to Make them into fighting warriors who will fight and to protect the Nation.. and gave me the COMMAND that I am also the Special GUARD for the CROWN PRINCESS.. and as I am watching the SUN SETTING.. and I see YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. turning the Horse away from the Fence.. I would Raise UP my Voice and would SHOUT.. MANSAE to the CROWN PRINCESS.. I hear the voices of all of the Men in the training Camp.. MANSAE TO HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would be loud and clear.. raising UP the WOODEN STICK SWORD.. MANSAE to CROWN PRINCESS.. all of the MEN in one Voice Shouts.. MANSAE TO WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. as I am looking at the Horse walking off while YOU are sitting on the Horse.. I go back to the War.. watching YOU on the Horse.. I see you pull the Sword Out of the Sheath.. and Your Arm moves Down.. blade striking down one enemy at a Time.. the battle is so fierce.. and I see More of the enemies.. LOOKING and Pointing the Swords at YOU.. Crown Princess.. and I turn to LOOK back.. as I am swinging the Sword.. and I look at the Seven men who is with me.. telling Them.. the ENEMIES are charging.. they are going after the CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGJABI MAH MAH.. GO and protect.. and I see the Seven Men.. running towards YOU on the Horse.. as YOU are sitting on the Horse striking down One enemy.. but the ENEMIES starts to gather.. More and they rush at YOU.. and I turn to LOOK back.. and I start to RUN TOWARDS you.. and Me and the Seven Men makes a Circle around YOU.. and with are Backs we would lean on the Horse to PUSH it back.. More of YOUR MEN comes out of the fortress to JOIN and they gather around YOU MAKING MORE bigger circles and Pushes with the backs on the Horse so that It can go into the FORTRESS.. and I see and I jump forward.. with the Sword I strike and I swing.. going forward as More ENEMIES are approaching.. Blades are hitting Other.. and YOU go in safely.. as I am on two Knees and arms out forward and Head looking on the ground.. I see YOU and the Horse disappear.. HWAANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU have done so well.. I just wanted to say Thank YOU.. the DAY I first entered the Training camp.. the DAY YOU saw me in the way of the back of the Line.. I was waiting for the number and the Name to be called.. I watched for days sitting on the way Back on the Line.. I would wait.. as the detour happens.. I had to leave without my Number and my Name being called.. wondering will I even enter this Camp.. for the few days I was sitting back of the Line.. I did Not see YOU sitting with the CHIEF GENERALS and the COMMANDERS.. it was like the 5th day.. when YOU came to sit on the Chair to Judge the new Recruits.. I was just waiting.. until YOU saw me.. and YOU recognized me at the way in the Back.. It was YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. it was YOU who gave me this One Shot.. this One Chance.. I could of waited and just gone back HOME without ever entering.. but the day I saw YOU.. I saw Your eyes looking at ME and YOU recognized Me.. I just could Not believe that YOU would recognize me even though it has been so Long ago I met YOU.. when I was very YOUNG.. but Many years went down the Line.. and of course people changes.. But YOU recognized Me when YOU first took that glance looking at me sitting alone in the back.. but able to give me this One Shot.. I wanted to say thank YOU.. if YOU did Not recognized me.. I would of never made it to the camp.. and I would be shouting.. CROWN PRINCESS.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. HOORAY TO the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. and I would be crying as I am LOOKING at the MOON staring down at Me into the Night.. I am looking at YOU.. as YOU are coming closer.. I see you walking and YOU stop.. as I tell YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. Please do not come closer to Me.. I don't want to kiss YOUR hand.. I just can't.. because YOU know my Heart.. Please.. tell me rather to Leave the Palace.. stripe away my title.. and My Position.. I rather Live as a Slave Instead.. I don't deserve to Kiss Your Hand because I know My Heart.. I know How much I love YOU.. that is why I won't.. Please stop there and DO not come closer.. I rather walk away from the Outer Court.. and I would Hear.. the Queen is coming.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I see you turn the Other way.. the Queen in tears.. coming to Kiss Your Hand.. and I see her lips kiss.. putting YOU in charge of everything.. I would walk the ten Council of Noble Men walking and they all stop behind the Prime Minister of the Nation.. and I see the King.. who is on the Floor.. He is crying.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANG WOO.. QUEEN.. come to me.. and I see the Queen turn around and she walks to her Husband as She also falls on the Floor.. with tears.. and I am standing there.. each Council of Noble MAN.. walking forward.. each Man comes to Kiss Your Hand.. and I am standing there.. My Heart is truly Touched.. truly Moved.. and I am standing thinking.. WHY can't I kiss Your Hand.. is it because it is My Pride.. WHO am I to tell YOU this.. WHO am I as the Lowly servant.. I am only the Palace Guard.. How can I reject Your Hand.. but It is because I love YOU.. I know that I must kiss but I know if I do.. I become Your Subject.. as I would watch each person kissing Your Hand and they Bow and lower to the Knees.. and LOOKING at the Big Crown on top of Your Head.. now the three of my friends goes over.. and Each of them decides to Kiss Your hand.. I am now standing alone.. if I don't kiss YOUR hand.. I know that I must leave this Palace.. this Outer Courts.. so I would turn to face the Gates.. I know that I must leave.. I just can't stand here any longer.. I just can't kiss Your hand and just become NO ONE to YOU.. and as I behind to walk down by myself.. the Special Body Guard runs.. and He stops me.. putting the Sword in front.. and I turn around and I still see YOU.. YOU just standing there.. with the White Dress.. SO beautiful.. WHY are you stopping Me.. I told you already that YOU are going to be a Great Ruler for the Nation.. Everyone gets on their Knees before YOU.. the Prime Minister.. the Commanders.. Chief Generals.. Generals.. the foot soldiers.. the Ten Council of Noble men.. all the Maid and servant.. EUNCH.. the Highest Kitchen Lady.. the Doctors of the Palace.. all falls before YOU.. shouting Out.. Crown Princess.. MANSAE.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. HOORAY and Tears are all falling.. saying the Next RULER coming UP and I would look at YOU.. my tears are flowing DOWN.. I am so Sad because HOW can I love YOU now.. LOOK at me.. I can't even do anything.. How can I love YOU now.. YOU are Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. the CROWN PRINCESS of this Nation.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and I would fall on both knees and start too weep in Pain.. I am aching because LOOK at me.. WHO AM I to love a CROWN PRINCESS like YOU.. and I am looking at the Ground.. wailing and Weeping loud.. I know that I am wrong.. I know that I should of never started but NOW to turn back.. it is just too late to turn.. I have come long ways of loving YOU.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. WHY.. WHY did I even come.. if I could of stayed behind.. then It would not hurt me this Much because the Loving YOU always hurt but Now.. it hurts more.. I don't want to lose YOU.. because I know that I love YOU.. as I am would stand UP.. and I

Am sending Korea $15 trillion in war taxes.