How do I stop myself and go back to God

Are u ok now

Alhamdulilla I changed and grown so much since then. God does find a way out even in places you least expect it. And he definetly knows how to bring people back☺️❤️👍

@@hirasabir6095 alhumdillah brother, good to hear

Brother just because Allah’s system isnt the way you want doesn’t mean you get to insult our esteemed scholars who spent their lives studying so you and I dont have to, second iam sorry but if you do not do tawba and insist on the wrong path in-spite of Allah (SWT) well guess what, you’ll be punished, that goes for all of us, unless Allah (SWT) forgives our transgressions and sins, third i suggest you also listen to Sayed Mohammad Baqir Al-Qazwini, he gives you the best picture of Islam, Him and Shiekh Javad are the best ones I have found so far that work with me, my only issue with Shiekh Javad is this thing about oh if you dont fix yourself now you can do it after you die… well No because when you dir your test is over, whatever we have done by then is what we have, and if you fail, its not Allah failing wal eyathu bellah, its us stubborn and arrogant people who defy Allah (SWT) while knowing fully that we are wrong.

@@yoursolosquad6283 I believe we need to be free thinkers. I have always been a critical thinker and could not accept so many things that were said from the pulpit. Do u think it is kind for speakers to sit on the pulpit and mock or spew false hadiths with no authentic chain of narration (even if it is called sahih) to the gullible audience. The majalises are being used for the shias intended purpose, are also being used as a form of entertainment. Speakers are adding in details to the majalis that are either from weak narrations or entirely made up. They get so used to hearing these details over and over again, that they think of them as fact without critically examining them in light of their sources. We learn in Psychology that the more we hear something, the more we think it is true - this is called an illusion of truth effect. I am learning more about Islam from speakers like Dr. Javad Shomali, Sheikh Arif and others who talk about the Spiritiality of Islam.

he has commentary of the dua on this channel

So I can focus on growing and the world around me and be with God

my dear friend, Allah’s forgiveness is far greater than your mistakes. He is not someone you need to fear, nor is He someone you need to strive to please in hopes that you will be exempt from punishment. Allah is your loving creator who displays and manifests His compassion before you in every moment of your life. He created you so you could feel the joy of living every moment with Him-He compassionately designed every aspect of the world just for you! (you in particular, beautiful soul!) Allah is exalted and incomprehendible, yet intimate and sweet. if you’ve accidentally made a mistake (even shirk!), acknowledge that it’s a transgression against yourself, a form of self-destruction, as your potential to live every moment with Allah was lost. with this in mind, take your vulnerability, your anxiety, and your tears as you run to Allah and embrace Him as a child runs to their mother after making a mistake. you don’t need courage to go to Allah, in fact, you need vulnerability. confide in Him, express your sorrow and have certainty in the fact that your loving creator will help you to feel His love. Allahs forgiveness, in reality, is like mother patching up the wounds of her son after He fell. all you need is love for the one who loves you, run towards Him and never let go of His hand. If you end up letting go, don’t take matter in your own hands-express your vulnerability and fright and longing to feel the safety and love of your beloved-He will return to you. The first step is to understand who your creator truly is. I recommend reading Sheikh Javads newest book, “a commentary on dua Abu hamza” but the best thing to do is to close your eyes, put your phone down and truly ask Allah to help you to feel His love and presence. Never forget Him, for the feeling of separation and distance from Allah is Hell in itself. may Allah bless you and help you to feel His love. Of course He will! He’s so kind and loving!!! I love you, my beautiful friend, know that you have someone to help you find your creator ❤