1:54 my dad

why is no one talking about the music at the end?

At home we have a chart of chores so when you do a chore you write your initial. Im kinda the only one with initials on the chart, including my parents and siblings. I also recently came out and she keeps calling me by my deadname and she/daughter. Doesnt help that all three of her kids were accidents, and i feel like a mistake 😊

Was a bad man from the start and will be to the end, that manipulative fuck stole years from my mum , YEARS. One day me and her will be free, though our minds will never forget the trauma he passed to 4 people; me, my mum, my 2 brothers. Physically abused all of us, and now is trying to "change" because I'm all grown but anytime my mum asks a question he throws a tantrum. My mum used to make me wait for him until 12 am to just see him, he left at 5 am. My trauma also built off of the many times my mum forced my dad to play with me, spend time with me, go somewhere and even see my karate classes. I don't even vividly remember any moment I have with him besides the games that ended with my parents fighting at the end of the night, people used to ask me if I even had a dad in my old primary school where people were all poor and experiencing trauma. I will never forgive or forget him, because he will never apologise as he is a narcissistic fuck. Sometimes I blast music to keep out all the fighting and slit my arms. Constantly choosing between him and my mum when I was younger. I know he somehow loves me still, but I know he loves my cousins and his parents more than his own family.

1:24 okay………………….makes sense now.

5:12 I disagree. You don’t HAVE to experience ALL those things.

I car over that man but wen has he ever ben thar for me man don't wast ur tooth ur engey on him it not wothit

Im actually so not trusted to my dad I realized I had a nightmare of him and was scared of him just because of a dream and I’m so scared of him too when he’s drunk one time he came over to our house and was drunk he sat on me and thought it was funny it didn’t hurt but I was scared.

I thought I was more important to my dad than his new „kids“ but I just realized he gifts them exactly the same things as he gifts me I thought those gifts were a sign that I’m more important ig not

When I grow up and become a mother I want to and will treat my kids like the mother I wanted….

I’m bawling my eyes out🙂

Why can’t my life be like the happy life…why can’t anyone love me…? Is it hard….?

Yknow how some say "they didnt want to be lile their parents" i was one of them too i beg myself not to be here but now this year is hopeless im already her and there is nothing i can do to change the fact i am my mother's little girl..

I crave validation from older women, just because my mom was absent for almost all of my life.

A couple of weeks ago, I was in vacation in Greece with my family ( including my mom) and there was a girl that had there a scene with her mom. I didn't understand what they were talking about because I'm not greek but i could see myself into the girls eyes. After that my mom said it was the girls fault.

Thugging it out cause im male so nobody cares

“You say you love the rain but you still use an umbrella, you say you love the sun but you still look for shade. This is why I’m scared when you say you love me.”

When I started opening up to her and telling her about my obsessions and how worried I was, she started yelling at me and saying that I was just spoiled and that I didn't deserve anything and didn't deserve to live because I was mentally ill. She bullied me and broke my psyche more than anyone else could have done.

The scars she made it to me never treated .

1:28 real. those 4 people. i hate them sm. i'm sorry i'm late :)

pov: i wish my mom could took me in bed my mother issues

I hate my Mom.

i also used to have a step dad but he was worse he did something to me that i could never forget and he tried to kill my mom and only got 1 day in jail so sad...

The first video hit hard it hurts so bad to see someone else with loving and caring parents and sibling its sucks...

One thing is for sure, we will never know what we did to deserve our mom's wrath in our childhood 😊

I hate my mom so much I know she’s my mother but sometimes she doesn’t feel like my mother, EVERYTIME I MESS SOMETHING UP WHEN I TAKE CARE OF MY SISTER SHE YELLS AT ME LIKE IM HER MOTHER SHE YELLS OVER THE MOST OVERDRAMATIC STUFF AND ITS SOO ANNOYING SOMETIMES I WANNA LOCK MYSELF IN MY ROOM AND I CANT EVEN ENJOY A NICE TEACHER ALLL OF THEM ARE STRICT I ALSO HAVE WEEKEND SCHOOL BUT THEY MAKE IT WORSE AND ON TOP OF THAT I HAVE EXTREME DEPRESSION TRYING NOT TO CUT MYSELF OR KILL MYSELF I ALREADY HAVE RUDE SIBLINGS WHO WONT RESPECT ME THE ONLY PEOPLE I ENJOY IN THIS WORLD ARE MY FRIENDS AND MY YOUNGEST AUNT IM ALREADY TEARING UP READING THIS AND IM ONLY TEN Edit: sorry y’all for venting and for raging ig

The teacher mother figure is so true. I’m crying-

The fact I am literally raising my little sister instead of my mom😭

My mom would always fat shame me and ine day she wouldn’t stop so during the cold whether winter ti be exact I ran away with only a light jacket shoes 60$ my phone which didn’t have service and pants and when I decided to go home she was like “I’m so sorry” and my sister later told me that while I was gon she asked where i was and my mom answered “probably out stuffing her fat fucking face”

This comment it’s for the people with dads that worked away all the time why can people not understand the trauma it leaves us with yes i had a dad but he was so absent in my life I never got to see him and ppl will truly never understand unless they’ve been through it how much it rly affects u it felt like I didn’t even know him he didn’t even know me he was away all week then on a weekend it was rare I got to see him then it hurts sm cause ppl always sit n say Atleast u had a dad but I didn’t or atleast he didn’t feel like a dad to me it didn’t feel like he even cared for any of me or my siblings he was so distant he was like a stranger that u run into every once in awhile so yeah we may have grew up with a dad but he was never present emotionally or physically nor did he even try to be and I feel like I can’t validate my feelings cause Atleast I got to see him and I knew ppl had it worse I don’t even know how to describe it..

Vent bc I have to go to court August 22 ( AT 9 FUCKING AM) and testify against my "dad" and hope and pray my mom gets full custody and if she does we're moving to Spain bc that's where her boyfriend lives. I currently live in Erie pa and I've lived here all my life and I don't know what to do. If she wins we're moving, and if she loses (which ik she won't bc we have a ton of shit to use against him) I have to live with an abusive ahoholic and I will actually unlive myself. And also lord farquad (that's what we call him bc he looks and acts like him) gave me PTSD, depression, and anxiety. I was tested im not faking it. I have attempted suicide over a dozen times and I'm this close 👌🏼to attempting again. Also I have 4 siblings. And I'm the middle. The ages are 20F 16F 13F(me) 10M and 7F. I was one the caretakers of my younger sibs I did all of the cooking the 20 year old did all of the cleaning and the 16 year old helped them with their school work. We all have to testify in court except for the 7 year old bc shes in the younger side. I am on meds and they're helping a little but I need to be in a mental health hospital. My mom is a piece of shit too but not as much as lord farquad. She is controlling and manipulative. Idk what to do someone help🙃

امي دائما الأفضل❤ حتى في جرح مشاعري💔

I think.. my mom is emotionally abusive, and it took me a while to realize that. (On my yt page you can see my vent) (please watch it I dont care about views, this is a vent account, but it is the most vulnerable thing I’ve made and I just hope someone sees how I feel. Also it will give u context for what Im saying) I know all the things that my mom has said and done in front of me is wrong, but my dad tells me that it’s a common relationship with me and my mom and that he doesn’t want the internet to make me think that what’s happening to me is terrible, he says my mom is trying. He doesn’t understand.

The fact that a random stranger online that will forget about me in the span of 5 minutes can show more love than any of my parents is so sad. "You know that voice in your head that tells you that you arent good enough? Well that voice was the person who drove me to school everyday" is so real.

When she treats you too bad for a day and after she treats you good after afew hours 🤠 what should i feel about her lol

My mom walked in in me watching this and got mad at me for not wanting to tell her why I was crying

What song? 4:51

I have had 2 dads, my bio dad, I only knew him for 4-5 years of my life before something happened and now I have no contact, he now lives in England and I’m pretty sure he was kids. I only have few memories of him, until recently I realised I don’t remember his face (I was given a picture of him, his face was barely visible though.) and my step-dad, who is the dad to my younger sister. i thought of him as my dad after awhile (i knew he wasn’t ‘actually’ my dad and for awhile I just used his name. they fought a lot, usually over stupid things, a few over me and my sister. I don’t think that counts as trauma, because they only fought. either way, they broke up nearly 6 years ago (?) and some other stuff happened and I stopped going over to his on weekends. I remember my mam telling me to stop calling him ‘dad’, for some reason that annoyed me, I did it anyway. im older now and don’t have a relationship with him anymore, just small hi(s) when I see him collecting my sister on his weekends and sometimes i feel like no one knows that I felt like I lost a dad, again. if that makes sense, I’ve never really talked about it, only jokes and stuff, but me and my mam have never really had a conversation about it, only barely about my bio dad. I don’t know, I feel like I don’t ‘deserve’ to miss him, maybe it’s the fact that he was four kids and I’m the only one who’s not blood related him or that I *choose* to stop seeing him. idk. it’s confusing. anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk.

I remember when I was 10. My dad was obsessed with me being the best in math, but I wasn't. I loved math but because of him, he made me hate it. I was 10. When he made me do an excercice and yelling at me and stopping me from eating dinner with the rest of my family because I couldnt solve it.

-Be me, watching a movie with my living mother -father and daughter playing in movie -its weird how close they are -i say outloud to my mom "smells like p3d0ph8lia!" -be my mom looking hurt -"no, thats how close a father is supposed to be with their kid" -realize how bad its getting

My mom used to push my older sister down the stairs. I just now realize I’ve never really had a childhood. Maybe if my parents were together I would’ve had a decent life

im not even in my double digits and i have to make my own food and i have adhd to :( and i cant stop cutting…

0:38 explains everything

I hate my dad so freaking much. He put his “friend” and her kids before me he has known her for 2 weeks. I’m 11 and going through this. He has known me for 11 years and he puts this girl before me. I just miss when we went on daddy daughter days I miss those days but those days stopped 6 years ago. My mom’s boyfriend could be a better dad than my real dad. If my mom gets married to him I want his last name to. I would rather a funny, nice, cool guy for my mom than a guy that yells at her for being “ lazy “ when she does all the stuff around the house. When me or my brother asks to help with dishes or something else like yard work or laundry she would say no bc she wants to be a good mom and let me and my brother relax from all this divorce stuff. I hate my father for what he did but I miss him so much….

this sh!t hurts...

There was this one subject where I had a very difficult time and failed mostly every time I wrote the exam. One time I passed and my teacher was so happy, infact she hugged me held my hand and said how proud she was of me and I should just keep doing this and she’ll be more happy, This teacher always was more happier than me when I passed that even I started feeling confident in studying. Was it that hard for my mother to do the same?

honestly as a kid i was really naïve to think that the stuff my mom did to me was out of "love" and "care", and i didn't realize it until i got older that she was being toxic and unfair towards me unlike when she's with my siblings..

I’m petrified I’m going to be like my mother.

This happens to me all the time: After getting shouted at by dad for half an hour not showing any emotion, not any tears in my eyes at all, my mum standing there watching my dad swear at me , threaten me and get in my face, then everyone leaves the house for peace, and you have a breakdown / crying/ screaming your heart out then wiping your tears to return to an emotionless robot by the time they get back and pretending nothing happened only for it to happen again a few days later

My dad takes all of his anger out on me , just because im a teenager now and he knows im too embarrassed to cry infront of people.