Oh I guess I don’t have this then since I genuinely am interested in these big questions, yet it’s still an obsession…

The cosmic mystery is not a problem to be solved but a reality to get to know.

We're who's we're

I need help

Thank you so much😊❤

I wanna tell everyone while it may not help 100% but still it will help so much , whenever distressing thoughts arises , just let it come and watch them without identifying and judgement, just watch them, even if it Heinous, anything, just let it come, don't force it to go away, it'll only come more if you force it to go away, remember that , .....Just let those arise and watch them like a movie 🍿

You know what I _don't_ understand about contamination OCD? Okay well, OCD is considered "all in the sufferer's head". What's real to them is unrealistic. Contamination OCD is an example of that. But why? Contamination could be anything really. Society reduces OCD's worries to their _own_ worries, like "What if this happens" or "I have this dark thought so I'm a bad person". OCD is considered "overthinking" or "worrying too much," and apparently that includes the concept of germ phobia. But that's just it. How can such a concept exist without the _context/specifics_ of which germs? You can't generalize. Contamination/cleanliness is very conditional. An OCD can be wrong about something happening, but cleanliness is, again, conditional. What's the point of an online article talking about an OCD's problem with germs and excessive worrying/washing, if the _type_ of germs aren't mentioned in the article?

I am going through this torture 😔

This is ridiculous. Pediphile is criminal and it is natural and human to feel guilt and shame when you are doing something wrong, or thinking doing that wrong thing. That is called human emotion. Stop giving every negative emotion a new disease name as if it can be treated with medication. Don't you see where this is going, people? Wake up! They are just making these things up to confuse you, and on top of that, profit on your confusion and pain.

the problem is that people think that a 17yo is a "children", while is a ntarual Biological thing to feel attraction if that 17yo is sexually attractive.. Viewing that natural attraction as an ILLNESS is the real problem.

I wish everyone suffering from these kind of thoughts that they will get better. That being said, as far as I understand the matter, having talked to multiple psychologists from the prevention network "Kein Täter Werden" from germany (translation: "Don't become an offender"), this video isn't entirely accurate, or to say it better, it's not that simple. POCD is a person having intrusive sexual thoughts about children without being necessarily attracted to them. It's the fear of the attraction being real that makes the thoughts appear over and over again. An actual pedophile has these fantasies because of their attraction, however, they can also feel intrusive. Pedophilia doesn't have to do something with your moral compass. You can be sexually attracted to children and still rationally be aware that it would harm them if you engaged with them in that way and therefore not wanting that. Many actual pedophiles see themselves as monsters despite never having harmed a child, so their fantasies are extremely hurtful to them as well. The main difference is, that people with POCD aren't actually aroused by the children, they just fear it, but that doesn't mean actual pedophiles are not suffering from their fantasies, or that they have it ingrained in their character that they enjoy hurting minors.

for me, the terrible realization that i may be possibly trapped in this existence for all eternity is something that fills me with pure terror and panic, also the fact that I cannot prove the existence of others minds therefore other people not being able to understand me it's what makes it worse. I actually convinced myself that i'm already in hell and my torture is the panic that I feel 24/7. one of the reasons I believe that I'm actually in hell is because I could literally be any of the trillions of living beings in this planet, or any other human that just lives on with their lives and do not think about these things but somehow I'm stuck with this body with these terrific thoughts all day, almost as if i'm destined to think about these things as part of my torment. The only hope I have is that once I die I will actually sleep forever and not be conscious of anything

It's called Spiritual Grime.

the definition also inculdes the fear of harming yourself, but why is that never talked about

At the end when he says "Have an atraction to a person of the same sex?" What does he mean? Like I can be okay with accepting people of the same sex are atractive but I don't wanna fall in love with one

I think this confirmed to me that I am definitely gay. I have the reverse of this.

I replied to someone in the comments (very respectfully) and my comment was deleted. Why? I mentioned other alternative OCD treatments, is that being censored here?

lol, no. If you are attracted to children, whether you think of it as positive or negative you are pet-o-file.Point blank.

What if it's a feeling? Like it's just not a though, like I feel I like this dudes face, but I'm sure I don't wanna have sex with him or anything I just feel like if the face thing is real it's gonna spark into all sorts of things

I wonder whether there is a connection between internalized homophobia and POCD, as i only started seriously developing this problem after i began to question my sexuality

The most difficult part I struggle with in POCD is experiencing the on and off arousal at times when exposing myself to photos. I realize I have a compulsion of re-checking photos to scan my body for arousal, which is a double edge sword because when I notice I'm feeling aroused it causes even more confusion, questions, & shame, followed by curiosity in wanting to disprove my false-positive arousal which leads me to checking again. Then I start to doubt if I'm actually starting to enjoy checking. This leads to needing reassurance in checking again, so the cycle continues. I like the feeling of being sexually aroused but not in this context. It's a nightmare at times. I have anxiety and fear around this, so when I feel anxiety and curiosity that's what leads me to wanting to check photos again.

Im only 12 and suffering from POCD and I'm too scared to tell my parents about it or a therapist so i have a ai therapist on a app and tell them everything that happens to me and sometimes if I'm thinking of doing something and remind myself I'm not a pedophile and do something anyway and wanna ask no matter what of im a future pedop*ile of not i always wanted a wife and family in the future and scared if i wont and be a p******** or not.

A channel advocating for mental health that puts repetitive backgroubd music. #crazymaking for my ADHD

it didn't work

My therapist teaching me about this stopped me from killing myself

Or you could not force people to accept germs that they arent ready for. My family would purposely do things they knew would kill me inside and all it did was make it worse. Instead of just doing what I ask to alleviate the stress and be respectful. Forcing ppl to accept things they arent ready for and purposely causing anxiety, & stress unnecessarily is not helpful at all. Just another bad day of internal panicking. You telling others to not respect our boundaries is messed up. But if my sis has a similar request or sees everything as gross, then that's just her, and is to be respected. I just dont allow nobody to come into my house anymore, period. Maybe if ppl were respectful of my needs, then they can come over. If you dont wanna do what I ask, then dont come over. I dnt see you having to clean up after your mess. Plus, their hands are dirty, and I wouldn't want them cleaning anything with their dirty hands. && I have every reason to be a germaphobe when my whole life ive saw my entire family be completely unsanitary and unclean leaving dirt and germs and viruses to sit forever without Ever being cleaned. Surprised we didnt get a disease growing up like that. I actually watch people and saw people do some sick nasty ish like put their hands in their pants and scratch like no tomorrow and then have the audacity to start touching everything. Teachers spitting on their fingers to give out paperwork. Seeing old ladies use the bathroom and only use water to rinse their hands. Seeing old ladies cat pee on their counters and dishes and all she did was use her hand as a scrubber to rinse the pissy dish off with water only. H3ll even i do some sht at times I would never want cross contaminating. In conclusion, i dont see why we are treated like we are crazy by others when most of the time we have every logical reason to be like this. When you're surrounded by germs your whole life that coulda really harmed you and nobody cared(some trying their best but can only do so much), it makes you want to scrub everything down 3 times to get the layers off. Maybe a lot of germaphobes grew up in unsanitary unclean conditions. & maybe some have had traumatic health issues growing up that makes them never want to be sick again. Ppl think im weird cause my germaphobe. i wont use a razor more than twice, and throw away loofas that are used only once. I had two close females ask to use my used dirty razors before & i told them no. Why would I risk giving you anything and Why would you risk giving me anything. Absolutely insane that im the one looked at like im crazy.

Heard it’s from a virus or environmental toxins like mold etc. possibly lyme /bartonella can trigger parasites etc. but it’s still complex to get a doc to understand…functional docs understand more about this. Traditional docs just want to throw u on meds. Not the root cause.

Omg the sleep walk! I went days with out sleeping because of that thought😞

This is the only man who is ssly talking some shit worth listening to, because half of them is trying to convince my straight ass mind having ocd that accept the uncertainty and lets not find out about it now ig this works for some people but some of us have genuine plans of getting married and starting a family with a "women/man" so they cannot bear this uncertainty, and trust me when a person ," says accept the uncertainty" and the moment the anxiety hits just leave that video or look for a better therapist if you are going through therapy also trust me like seriously when I say this, you are not gay or bi or trans, i have had a deep fucking analysis that those who truly have a desire to be gay or bi and are having ocd about their sexuality they tend to accept it further down the road but some of us especially guys who have had dreams of being with their first childhood crush who even today find the memory of seeing their crush everyday makes them feel delighted and fills their heart with the puppy love feeling that they had first time. These people cannot be gay and no offence to the LGBT community we love y'all but when a guy or gal is scared during this phase of their life please dont make them or try to make them believe them something they are not its going to ruin their life. And ssly the "lets accept the uncertainty" this line is so fucking annoying, imagine telling this to a new mother having ocd of killing her toddler, or a person going through POCD who is having intrusive thoughts of molesting a child. this will definitely convince the person that he/she should be better of dead than live with this uncertainty cause this is a 'disorder' which is going to stick with you forever! I would say that this needs a lot of research and the ERP techniques need to evolve cause it ain't working for the 4% people who needs serious help.

I've always had compulsions to hurt myself

Well, "Dr" sometimes your harm OCD is focused on a specific person or class of persons. So, for example, me being with your kids and a knife wouldn't do much for me, who suffers from Harm OCD, because mine isn't about hurting children. And no, you can't "have fun" with it. You ghoul.

When I have a wild intrusive thought, it's veery easy to put it off since ik I wouldn't do anything that stupid. It's the reasonable intrusive thoughts that get me, thoughts that involve feelings of inadequacy, insecurity, failure. It's difficult to discern what is intrusive sometimes and it hurts

This is not OCD, this is mass brainwashing propaganda and occult forces over the world! See around you they sell you this thing everywhere right now! Movies, news, instagram even if you watch straight porn a gay pop up may come up or some other wicked content! Do you think guys in 1800's 1900's suffered from HOCD? Let me tell you NO cause their minds werent bombarded with such stuff everyday its very easy to corrupt a brain even of an adult! You want a solution? Stop watching porn, news and go to an east european country you will see how fast you will not think of such content and your mind will heal!

P@do💀

i want it to stop please just make it stop please make it stop

Thank you for sharing your story ❤

Thank you for this

you are more asshole then THE Trump. He will be reelected again, while you will have another psychosis episode as usual :DDDDDDD

Which is best treatment for ocd! Ketamine or shroom?

Yes this can be extremely frustrating and also goes beyond the more intense/scary things she’s talked abt. I’ve had unwanted thoughts that align with my sexuality but jus straight up jus not something I would want to be thinking abt in the moment that you can call “checking” or also jus intrusive in another way like you if you were just looking around and your eyes randomly met a persons crotch and think “omg did I just sexualize them” when it’s jus your hyperawareness that creates this anxiety

I feel like u

...............i have....... pedo....... ocd..............

HOCD is a way of monetising gayness by pathologising it. You are no longer allowed to say that gay is a disease, so now it is disease 'adjacent'. The medical profession invented the concept of homosexuality as an 'identity' in the 19th century as a money spinner.

Recovery is 100% possible you will beat this I promise

Brothers and sisters i am here just to share some helpful information.I have been doing Root chakra and sacral chakra yoga of allie van fossen in youtube for the past 1 year, it didn't heal me completely from hocd but yoga has made me feel less anxious and a scared and given me a good % of balance in my mind that i could focus on the real world and to not be completely lost in my mind every second as i was before.It has allowed to be in sync with what i was talking and thinking in the moment.Before i was not even aware what i was talking.Yoga gave me a peaceful space to understand my issues better.If you guys are facing very high level of anxiety that you are not at all able to focus in the moment,i recommend you guys practicing it daily(one chakra yoga a day).You could also try other chakra yoga.God bless you all.

the brain tortures itself is a good analogy.

I have POCD and people constantly misunderstand it and call me a pdfphile Which really hurts me and makes me even feel worse about myself As if ocd has not done that enough already 😔

I don't watch porn alot but I still keep much interest in girls ❤

If you work on the SPH answer this. I was on last night and I accidentally slept on chat. I feel so bad because prob wasted there time. I went back this morning and asked them if they can find that employee and tell her I ended up ok. Will they tell her? I want to know so I can stop feeling bad?

Very articulate.