That feeling after i eat food, the feeling that my whole body is growing and growing and all that food us accumulating in it. I've grown up loving food but during lockdown i gained some weight and although i lost that, I'm extremely scarec of gaining more. I've barfed right after eating so many times I'm trying to get better but it's not going out of my head

Interesting fact: I didn't wear long sleeves, but nobody give a damn.

4:42 im sorry but the out of order Heroes of Olympus 😭

Her crying was awful

Its like I just watched my life

i would have loved a part 2 or a longer story

this was not award winning

Vomiting warning! I have the fear of vomiting so that made me uncomfortable.

the acting is horrible, the way the mum calls her daughter my child is weird, and she literally acts and talks like a robot. When the girl was crying it looked so fake.

This video is so well done❤️

Never seen a different short film portray these aspects so perfectly. Though I'm more of a long pants than a sleeve, I still noticed what it was about just by the title

I think is done this way on purpose. It’s the way she views her mother. A cliche mother. She feels lost and unable to express her feelings to her mother or her sister because they lack real emotion. Well, in her eyes. When you suffer from depression or have negative thoughts, even your family can feel distant. Her brother picked up on her behaviour and was there for her.

idk wish i had a mom that said 'the food's good right?' and not 'if youre so concerned about your weight, why are you eating that?'

i hate how all i had to do was glance at the video title to understand what the video is about.

one of the details i love is the mother talking about going to the gym. if the girl were to tell her mother about her ed, the mother would probably say "i know how you feel", but she really doesnt. the mother can make casual comments about weight gain, but people like the girl feel like vomiting up everything they've ever eaten at the idea of weight gain. small little vent but it's something i've experienced

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Great work I know a lot of hard work went into this and it was very relatable even tho the acting was a bit stiff I still really enjoyed it

Can anyone explain. I didn't understand anything

ARGH THAT MADE ME WANNA CRYYYY, when Kylie was eating the cupcake she looked confident and she was enjoying it then the mom just made the damn sugar comment.

My word child what a bad actress I am

I was kinda relived she only wore long sleeves because of self harm, first i thought she wanted to hide stings of opioid shots.

…ik this is little a hella mini detail BUT DID ANYONE ELSE SEE THE PERCY JACKSON BOOKS AND THE HUNGER GAMES ON HER BOOKSELF-

last year and the year before I would check the nutrition facts of everything I ate and refuse to have it if it wasn't pure protein. Spent a whole lot of time living off of cartoned egg whites from Costco. I didn't even want fruit because it had sugar in it. I've gradually started to get less restrictive, but I'm still basically afraid of pizza and ice cream and stuff lol

The chewing- MISOPHONIA HAS BEEN TRIGGERED

I’m someone who does sh and can wear short sleeves 😶 just not sleeveless shirts. I feel bad (in a way) that I have more options than a lot of you….

I loved this. The sugar comment got me. I wasn't expecting it and it was super realistic. Unrelated but when kylie was in her room I looked at the books (just being curious) and saw pjo books, whoever's room this was filmed in, you have good taste in books.

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I loved the way her brother saw her and and noticed her struggle, and went to be with her

I wish I had brother 😭

NOT THE LOUD ASS CRYING LIKE DO THE SILENT CRYING WITH LITTLE SNIFFLES OR SOMETHING

WHY IS THE CUT LOWKEY SO DEEP?

NOOOOO THE ED. I HAVE A FRIEND THAT DID PURGE

BRO STOP SMACKING YOUR FOOD THE BOY WONT STOP!

as someone who has a history of S/H this i stupid like im not trying to be mean its just my opinion the acting wasnt good it was hard just to get through this film because the acting was so bad especially the crying, its just not that interesting.. ive seen way better award winning films

i started crying when he said im here.

*camera turns around *turns back brother: 😯🔴

amazing job but you could work on the acting. im not meaning to be rude, just honest.

Once when i was i was six years old, i kept asking for a second peice of cake on my brother’s birthday, and my mom got mad so she threw the cake at me and said “ eat it! Just eat it all, since you obviously can’t resist yourself!” She has made comments like this throughout my whole childhood up until now ( im 13) like “ you can’t stop eating” or “just eat it all, like usual “. And it really really effected me, i have eating problems now, i work out so much and i can’t help it, so i get this film. Alot.

I feel this so much

When he said "I'm here"...? The waterworks started. No one has ever said that to me... For me... When I was a kid and needed to hear that more than anything else.

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hits hard this

The Lord Jesus Christ can truly save you all! Give Him all of your cares and worries! He loves you❤️

I burst into tears when her brother said “I’m here”..my older brother is an adult and lives in another state and we’re not very close because I didn’t get to see him growing up. All I want is for me to have a close bond with him. I also know how painful it is to look at the scars that still haven’t healed. It’s painful knowing your doing that to yourself behind your family’s back. I stared SH when I was 13 now it’s 2024. I don’t eat as much I used to and I don’t drink a lot of water which causes headaches, dizziness and nausea. I also feel hopeless everyday, even going shopping isn’t that enjoyable anymore because as soon as the moments over I go back to feeling like $h!t. The only person who knows about my SH is my family friend (who we call our older brother) and a few of my friends. Other than that no one knows, and to be honest I don’t think any of my friends really care. I haven’t told my best friend that I relapsed because she’s far away and I don’t want her worrying about me. I feel bad but I also don’t wanna do that to her. School is really tough, I’m desperately trying to get two of my grades up before the school year ends and it’s stressing me tf out. All of my friends are ignoring me so I feel beyond lonely. I don’t know who to trust because they’re all fake so yeah. Life’s going great. Sorry for the crazy vent but thank you so much to anyone who reads this♥️

I liked it okay but its just the acting was a little bit yk still, very good

The crying sounded like laughing-

Brother acting in point

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With my story I want to help people who are considering suicide, but most of the times the reason why one wants to kill himself is because of his toxic family. My family was moderately toxic when I was growing up but when i grew up they almost always supported me, at least at a basic level, even if they didn't understand me. I cannot comprehend how devastating painful must be to have a really toxic family or a really toxic parent. So I don't think my story can help you if you have this kind of situation, because you must be experiencing a pain way bigger than what I experienced. As therapists say, if you were not properly loved growing up you must give real unconditional love to the child that you have been, which means you have to love your inner child. I did tons of journaling and finally realized that there aren't any really evil people in the world, only people who suffer and are misunderstood, that's why they act like as***les. 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did she throw up and the toilet lid was down..?😹

Y am I doing it again.. Have I reached that stage again 😢