You think you reach the rock bottom You haven't even started yet it's a long way down and a even longer one up 💯 I've been in this neverending mess for 48 years Friends are dead my love is dead 💔 Still I keep on going don't know why but it is what it is All the way to the end 🕉️🇫🇮 🌄🏖️🌺🕊️

I love this song, RIP Chris Cornell.

Call my name...

fucking love her so much

in the sky that no one knowss

Im so fucking tired of the way my life goes. Everyday i watch my life and carreer spiral downwards. The tension between me and ending it all is big.

this goes so hard

🔥🔥great bro!

Reminds of the Iraq war for some reason

Really been thinking about ending it man just got out of prison little over a month back and it's been nothing but struggle and people folding on me even my family turning their backs on me cause I had a meth addiction ... to make matters worse the woman I'm in love with said she'd wait til I got out and not even 2 weeks of being out she ghosts me and I haven't heard anything since. She was the only reason I felt life was worth living. I bottle this shit up all day and pretend I'm fine but honestly being dead wouldn't hurt as much as the pain I feel all the time

0:06 sad, lonely, hopelessness and there comes peace

T-R-U-T-H L-O-V-E L-I-G-H-T P-E-A-C-E U-N-I-T-Y 💙🌎🛸

Awesome

As a man, it hurts knowing that nobody’s got you except for yourself. And that, my friends, is the beauty of it.

this is really good!

I've beaten the addiction of heroin on October 15, 2017.... the REASON i say it like that is because that is when i went and turned myself into jail, and got UNADDICTED to it. And went to a half way house for 8 months, after a month in jail. THEN after 2 weeks off probation and out of the Halfway house, i tried it ONE MORE TIME, IN 2018, and had a heart attack at 28. Got narcanned 3 times and didn't come back, BUT BY THE GRACE OF GOD my mother was the one that found me and the emts i guess felt bad, and tried ONE LAST THING, an adrenaline shot to my heart, YES, just like pulp fiction, and i came back FINALLY. what I'm saying is i shouldn't be here. Had a heart attack and was in the hospital for 6 days at 28 because of that new shit that is still out now. I NEVER EVER TOUCHED IT AGAIN. so ya unaddicted since October 15, 2017, haven't touched the stuff tho since like June 06, 2018 or something, I'm not sure exactly, but around then. Life gets SO MUCH BETTER. just have to stick with it. It seems to me now in 2024 that I've picked up drinking as my new habit which I'm super not proud of. We have to SOLVE the underlying issues or we'll just find something else to numb our pain. Wish me luck KZbin community, cause i need it. I don't like being tied down to ANY ONE THING like that. It sucks. I just want to be happy like everyone else. 😢

aih paten

I fell back into old habits, habits I swore I won’t do again. Now I look like a ruined art with burgundy lines that surround it. I’ve always felt miserable, I’ve always felt so alone but this time is just different. I just feel hopeless. I don’t know what I’m doing, I don’t know what I should do. I’ve been stuck in this loop and not even god wants to hear me. I’m so lost and I just don’t want to do this anymore. Please god if I let you down, just show me the way for a release, I beg you.

Damn this hits deep.

we´re reaching depression levels that should not be even possible

I hope everyone here is doing okay these days. Please be safe and know that people care about you, even if it may not feel like it at times. If you are feeling troubled, maybe professional help is the answer, or talking to a trusted friend about what you are going through. Wish you all the best.

acikiwir

uhuy

man im 14 and i dont really have problems but life, idk, its been tough recentely. I just feel terrible. This song kinda helps me, cause i can sing through my tears and for a moment forget everything and focus on that music. I miss u lane.

Went from sludge to fermented pig guts

Sounding black as night.

I was a child of a narcissist parent, I came from a very difficult life with him, and was homeless with him for a very long time in the past and never had a good home life growing up. I managed to escape him, and had to go great lengths to get away from him. I was lucky to have known the people that had helped me and allowed me to stay with them. I went to go be with my extended family that had found me on the internet. They flew me in first class to go be with them, and I genuinely felt that I would belong with them because they’re my family. At first there was this honeymoon period, they thought of me as a gift from grandma that passed away. But what seemed like a gift from the universe, only turned into something that had psychologically wounded me. I was only with them for 3 months because of how difficult they seemed to have been to live with, and how strict and conditional their love and regard was towards me. I felt like I couldn’t really be loved or accepted for just the way I am, or that I had to constantly fit in to their idea of how I should live my life and be like to them. I felt like I was some kind of flawed and inadequate kid. I would hear them say things like “but he wasn’t raised that way!” “oh it’s just gonna take time”, “I just think he just wasn’t raised properly” …and it felt like I had to constantly jump through hoops in order to be loved, and if I don’t, then it’s basically ‘bye peace out can’t live with your family’. To this day I feel this deep, inner wound of rejection and unworthiness that I carry each and every day. My aunt would ask this weird question “what are the advantages that you think you have of being here?” but in my mind I’m like ‘I didn’t come here just so I can gain some kind of material advantages, I came to have a life here with my family just like any other kid would with their families, not a quid pro quo’. But I just told her “I don’t know” , and she replied “then why did you come live with us honey?” and she didn’t even have any idea why I went to go be with them, even though she invited me and said “why not come stay here?” I had unfortunately received some invalidating comments from others that I’ve tried to speak to about my trauma, they’ve said things like “why should they love you” and “who are you and why should you be loved and cared for” and another person said “you don’t seem to realize that you’re wanting a warped and distorted image of your family” “you are not your brother you’re not their kid” and I’ve basically been labeled as having some kind of “sense of entitlement”. So for a kid or young person to have an innate desire and need to have a family home or to simply live with his or hers own family they would have a “sense of entitlement”? What kind of cold world do we live in? Isn’t every kid or young person deserving of what I believe to be the most basic, simplest thing that any young person could have, which is a family home, or to simply live with one’s own blood relational family, in a home? With parents, caregivers, siblings, etc? Shouldn’t it be like the norm and standard for every kid or young person? But for some reason, I’m being considered by some people as like bad, evil or reprehensible for trying to have that with my own family? I tend to think if my friends can live with their families, why can’t I live with mine? I once had a former friend who I thought would always be validating of my trauma, but he one time went against me and invalidated me and said; “Well they raised your brother! They raised him and not you so he’s their kid!” and he laughed at me. So whose kid am I? Where does that leave me then? and so after some years later I came to figure out, that perhaps the reason why I was treated the way I was treated by my family, was all because they raised my sibling and they never raised me. I can’t believe that, I went through that whole process, of getting away from my father, and finally got to be with my extended family and my brother that I never got to grow up with since we were born, and after going through such a nightmarish life with a narcissist father, only for it to, pretty much, backfire on me? all because ‘they raised him and not me’. So in order for a kid or young person to live with his or hers own family they have to be born and raised into it? And it’s unfair to me how my brother got to have what they called a “privileged life” while my life and upbringing got robbed by a toxic father. I have had someone that recognized the validity of my feelings though, and that person said ‘how in the world can you not be allowed just the same if not more’. I remember I stayed with a friend of mine and his family because his mom couldn’t sleep at night knowing that I was sleeping in a car in a parking lot somewhere with my father. They treated me as equally as their two boys, I wanted that with my family and my brother. It’s incredibly sad and disheartening to me that, I go to my family expecting all the love and care in the world, only to seemingly be met with sort of the opposite, I just don’t understand that if they can love and care for one kid all of his life why can’t they do just the same for the other? I believe every kid and young person deserves a good home life with their families. But I guess I can’t have that with my own family all because they raised him and not me. I used to envy other kids that had normal family homes, I stayed with some of them, but couldn’t actually live with them or claim it as my home all because I just, ‘wasn’t their kid’. They bought a condo and now my brother is living in it for free… I was told that there was only one baby on the table… We never chose our parents. and I never chose this life…

I have original music on Spotify now 🗣️🗣️ open.spotify.com/artist/6Z6hcZvEGixDum0xXFwXzq?si=zry4Wi_BStib2vCPJYCurQ

2:30am at the gym bc apparently I have nothing better to do. Thank you Layne for all that you did

What my dreams sound like

So mind bending. This feels like watching your memories pass through you as you journey to the next life.

i remember getting this on cd puttin it in my 1988 camaro t tops out listening thinking ... wow still feel that same way today. was the 2nd or 3rd cd i purchased moving away from cassettes to cd. ...

LLT 💙 stay crippin brotha

This song makes me feel emotion again. For the past 6 years my dad has left my mom and came back multiple times. He gets my families hopes up that hes returning to us and with his money we have needed as we are struggling financially. He left the other day for the last time. Ive had to comfort my mom and talk her through the heart ache of losing her husband of 21 years. She has decided to move on. I no longer have a man to father me and help me transition into adult hood. I have to be my younger brothers father figure now. Its difficult because im only 20 and unemployed with a car that doesnt work. Having money to afford parts is hard. Both of my parents have said that if it werent for me and my siblings they would have committed suicide. My father from the guilt and shame. My mother from heartache. My father is a heavy alchoholic and does 5 different steroids with testosterone unregulated by a doctor. Im afraid hes going to kill himself and not get to meet my kids. He is extremely selfish and wants to make himself happy because of the way he grew up. Unfortunately that mentality is trying to weasel its way into my mind. I try to spend as much time meditating with God and reading my bible. If not for him i wouldnt be here. Ive left my family to go live with friends and travelled to different states for job opportunities and nothing worked out. So no im at home trying to afford parts for my car so i can get a job and slowly work my way up.

this song helped me through a terrible toxic relationship thank you layne...

i discovered jar of flies (and aic) when i was drowning... i loved it immediately and nutshell is today my favorite song of all time . today, i'm alright but if you struggle with your mental health, just remember, your an incredible person and i promise it will get better <3

this shit sounds so majestic

"War. War never changes."

For any Layne fans out there that only really know about his work with Alice in Chains, go listen to the Mad Season album now. Right now.

Great music breaks down socially erected fences and allows truth and honesty.

Miss you every day Layne. 🤘🏻

I’m a Metalcore/post hardcore guy, but I started out with grunge and post hardcore. Alice In Chains was one of my sophomore year homeroom teacher’s favorite bands, we always talked about the 90s and how it was for her. I miss her, and I hate the fact she didn’t see me walk during graduation. She quit before my junior year started, I was her favorite.

this is the nutshell of my life

Rotten apple.... but the apple didn't make it to far from the tree

We chase misprinted lies We face the path of time And yet I fight, and yet I fight This battle all alone No one to cry to No place to call home Ooh Ooh-ooh Ooh Ooh-ooh My gift of self is raped My privacy is raked And yet I find, and yet I find Repeating in my head If I can't be my own I'd feel better dead Ooh Ooh-ooh Ooh Ooh-ooh

me when mom brings home the SLUDGE but it is TOXIC

Battle with demons 💔

Try this on speed 1.25

As a 20+ year opiate addict with 4 of those being fentanyl I wake up in the morning wondering why I couldn’t just stay asleep and that I’m not supposed to and really don’t want to.

hell yeah man