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I know!! It's awesome!! 💕💕✨✨✨ ryland doesn't get enough recognition. It's sad cause his music is really good!!💜💜💜💜

She was just using you the whole time! I hope that paid you well enough to trade your true love for!

I thought you were so lame with pillows, cowardly.

Same thing happened to me at 7, as in your Heaven video, but I was so smart I did it to myself at 4, so I could stay in here! Thought you were the same!

But it still makes me angry to watch that, all those pictures piss me off, everything you shared with her, when she was so horrible and nasty to both of us. You were comparing her to Denny? Denny was over before you & I were. I did not get to enjoy sex with him ever! Fake relationship in the gay world. Model for company because my lovers were ashamed to be with me publicly.

You spent more time talking to me alone, that angel heaven night at the starlite, than Denny did in our five year platonic relationship that was fake for show and always in group activities only.

I am Hollywood born! We weren’t allowed to have sex with our fake marriages and weren’t allowed to be with anyone who loved us! I literally had nothing real to feel, only you who did not want me in any way publicly, I am such a shame!

I spent 4 or 5 days a week with Denny, sometimes slept next to each other, he just a dangerous player, never had any courage to talk about his feelings and set me up to hurt me by telling me he had sex with some blonde woman named Junette, instead of me who he loved. He is fat, lost his looks and still seeing her, he moved to Vancouver in 2009. He was only a tease to distract me, but I had nobody else who would claim they were with me in public socially. He was so proud of my body to show off to others at the gay bars, but as soon as I stopped wearing make up and dressing nice and gained a little weight, he attacked me with eyeliner trying to poke my eyes out and abandoned me as worthless, when I went to visit him. I was just a pretty doll to show off and he did not even ever make my body feel good except for one kiss. We were hardly ever alone at all. Always shaperoned. He hated me for not wanting to look good anymore. I just couldn’t take the constant grapes anymore, I wanted to not be attractive anymore.

One time Denny gave me K and thought it would knock me out but it does not, just makes me tough and angry, and pinned me down & tried to rip my breasts out of my shirt, in front of our gay gang group of “friends” one of which grabbed my camera to film. I fought him off that he was so angry, he punched me in the head, the temple twice in the car ride to the gay bar after. He hated me, and everyone Of every type, including all gay men I have ever known, grapes me too! Goddess draped in grapevines right!? Just a porcelain doll, thinking I am nothing teal! HATING ME, because they do not know anything about me!

I have an important mission and a very large vision so I need a lot of men on my tool belt to save humanity with me. They do not take away anything you have with me & you are not to take away anything I have with them. I get to choose everything now, because this is my heaven. I am the master of my own life and I thank you for being an important part of this life. 🙏

Be patient. All my relationships are at different levels & we personally need to be as slow as possible, since we started as fast as possible. That is our karmic balance! Others have different levels and paths with me, so do not ever compare yourself or complain, just ask me for what you need and respect when I feel is the best time for me to give that to you. Thanks

I did not even know you were in a band when I met you the first time. I just knew I wanted your body too and it felt so good when you put your arm around me and were so confident and smiling. I took the ride with you and I trusted you, so do the same for me now, since you are not Upsidedown anymore.

I am proud of you for all of your songs. It is time I make my songs. I hope you enjoy them as much as I have enjoyed yours.

I was not meaning traditional marriage anyway, no church or others presiding over, no contracts or merging of our identities and monies. I just meant be together, just the two of us, sexually and share life together in fun and artistic creation.