Do you know about the MBTI test? You can discover your personality type and know more about yourself (theory made by Carl Jung) You can also make a video doing the test if you want to...

mental health system is a waiting list simulator its not worth it

Why is your channel titled "Gnostic thought train"?

Could you have homocysteinuria rather than marfans?

We don't care about burning in Hell, our lives r already Hell becoz of God....🙂

It's hard to find genuine people on KZbin nowadays so I thank you

well according to buddhism and christianity also life is mostly suffering

Sorry that this has happened to you I actually get what you mean about not being able to talk to these supposed professionals... I get a lot of them are busy, but it sucks that when you *do* want help, you often can't get it. It took almost 3 years to get an evaluation done and it wasn't a full one because I live in the states and they're expensive. of course what matters most is trying to find a way to deal with it but I get it. I was so scared for a long while and nobody gave me a diagnosis and I felt so alone. I still do but now I know I'm schizotypal. Hope you get help and if not then at least have some better days ahead

thanks for sharing this

I might actually NOT update you guys on the court hearing since it is a very censored law topic, so I don't know when my next video will be...

Theres nothing wrong with you. We are in a simulation or "trap"

I haven't watched the entire video yet, but I have to tell you, IQ as measured in professional tests, and IQ as lived in one's own mind, are quite different beasts. What matters is being a decent person, aiming towards goodness. Hello, new friend.

I feel like both an alien visitor and a human visitor to an alien planet at the same time. I hope that makes sense?

This is the end of this channel. I'm going to the next level! LEVEL 222 HERE I COME! GO TO THE NEXT LEVEL! HAIL SICKNESS FROM THE BOOK I FEEL SICK AND HAIL AHRIMAN FROM ZOROASTRIANISM!

Sounds like "masking" is my true self.

ngl i feel like nowhere is home sometimes I feel like im just a roaming entity that was pretty much forced to be here thats just the vibes i get with the insanity on this planet

Why dont you just Hex them with magik?

I agree with you, most people are just mindless zombies.

We are beings of energy/soul but everything around us is as well, we are part of the source of life, some refer to that as God, misotheism is based upon misunderstanding ones own path in life through envy, jealousy and desire, I'm not misotheist but I also can't swallow the bull from religion, where do we go after we die? I think we reincarnate constantly until we have experienced everything we have needed to in the 3rd dimension, then we just become the source of life, God, old souls eventually become God, new souls are formed, that's my view anyway. Also thanks for the upload 👍

My buddy wrote an album called overgrowth. His band is called the temporalists. He and I no longer talk because he has the same issue as you. His album is the best piano album I've ever heard. He now isolates because he has a voice telling him to. It is better that he does cuz he just punches everything. Oh Well, have a good one!

Hey dude. How you feel is totally valid. I just wanted to say, I think you have really lovely eyes. Also, I like your voice :) it's unique and it's a part of what makes up your sweet character. I'd love to hear some of your music too ! Glad you have a positive outlook asides from your health concerns.

I'm fully with you, man. Humans suck lol, happier alone 🤘

Idk what to say I hate humans and then there’s some good and kind people to me that makes me consider that ALL humans aren’t that bad … but a freaking majority tho 😔😭.. I’m autistic and have adhd so I really can’t get along and understand most people only these like me I can relate and connect on a deep level… we should have been friends we have so much in common with our views ❤:)

i wish you the best brother. I hope things get better for you

From the video "Antisocial vs Sadism vs Evilism" ALL the way up to this video, it was scheduled, and before the stalker blew up on me in my "COMING BACK TO KZbin" video, EVERY accusation she made against me was going to be explained in these scheduled videos, again, coincidentally recorded before she blew up on me. So basically she forced me to post ALL of these videos in one day so she can hear my mindset with ASPD and possibly make future videos calling her out or current stuff in general, but I might not do that, I'm done. I'm sick of this simulation. She doesn't even know WHY I blocked her which is the crazy thing, she left me a message acting all confused as to why I blocked her, REALLY? You accused me of being a liar JUST BECAUSE of a diagnosis that has that as a symptom, you don't have to have ALL symptoms of a disorder. This diagnosis of ASPD could be a misdiagnosis, I'm probably BPD. Look, I'm done with these diagnosis labels and labels in general as it just puts people into boxes and creates stereotypes, stigma, and myths! On September 27th, bad luck I had: Dogs face was swollen. Bank took forever. Dad's prescription had some kind of issue. Almost forgot about item at the grocery store. Microwave blown out. On the 28th, I had bad luck of: Fridge stopped working, the outlet was melted and ALMOST started a fire, and on TOP OF THAT, stalker starting drama, tells me to STOP talking about her, how about no? I am DONE with you and don't wanna hear your sob story, this is my swan song. I'm NOT antisocial, obviously this is a misdiagnosis. I only relate to Multiple Complex Developmental Disorder, but really, I DON'T FIT IN THE PSYCHIATRIC BOOK AND NEVER WILL! THIS IS MY LESSON THAT GOD OR SATAN SENT ME HERE TO TEACH! You DON'T always need a label!

When I was 18 I simply woke up one day and realised that human nature sucks. After years of bullying by my parents, peers and others, I just knew that people are spiteful, shallow and stupid. Humanity thinks that it's so special, but most humans are just animals that walk upright.

Vs Vileism.. If you mix around the word evil you get, Live Evil (of course) & Vile Something that I thought about years ago. What's going on over there with you and what you mentioned in previous videos ?

You are very wise, people are all selfish scum who only use eachother. Love is a myth

I can't say that I blame you for hating people. Some people give you good reasons to hate humanity. If I had my way in life. I'd surround myself with like-minded people so I wouldn't have so much negative energy inside me every day.

In Christianity, for example in Orthodoxy, hell is separation from God, which means that when a person dies, if he did not join God in his physical life, after death his soul no longer has the ability to change, that is, it means that hell is the impossibility of being with God and this separation is accompanied by suffering, because the soul knows that there is God, but it cannot be with Him (heaven is God itself). since and because man is an eternal being, he will either be eternally separated from God or eternally with him. Well, despite from knowing this, Sometimes I have a tendency towards misotheism because I don't fully understand God. My problem is not that I consider him a criminal judge, because I know that God does not send a person to hell, but that a person cannot reach heaven because of his own condition. The reason that causes misotheism in me has to do with Genesis, because I hate existence most of the time. So, in the end, I am a person who believes that there is a God, and for some unknown reason I also believe that God is a trinity, but I am not a believer, a believer means more than a theist. Well, I am already in hell, I know that there is god, but i don't understand him that causes rage and hate. Perhaps another irony is that even though I curse God, sometimes I start talking to him as if to another person, which seems to give me peace in the chaos. I used to be a Christian, or rather I thought I was, but lately I realize I never was because my faith was based on fear, the wrong fear. I always had inner questions and uncertainties that I did not dare to think about, but certain factors and circumstances in my personal life turned me into a cold-blooded and aggressive person, both towards other people and towards God. Well, I also started and dared to think about those questions and issues, because all my fears disappeared, I'm still looking for answers and sometimes this uncertainty leads to worse aggression, but I also analyze that the false belief I had was not real, because it had a wrong foundation (foundation was only fear of hell). Now I think that maybe God is allowing certain trials on me so that the basis of faith becomes love and the fear of losing it, but this is so difficult for my human nature and I cannot adapt to it that I become a misotheist. I no longer know who I am at all, as if I am lost in the whole existence. Am I a misotheist? or believer? or still christian? I understand all misotheists, I think God understands us too, but I can't understand him and I still don't see a way to understand him. I have a cross tattooed on my right arm, I got this tattoo before, I see it every day, and it's like God, even when I insult him, I can't get away fully, because I don't want to. I understand you very well brothers, I wish you to find your true path in existence.

ASPD seems rare. autism possible

When did u start disability and how long did it take u to get it?

I just found out I have a low IQ of 74, this explains my struggles understanding things and not fitting in with neurotypicals.

I'm a proud theistic satanist, although it does piss me off people's stupidity. Hails brother, its hard to find others here in 🇬🇧 I'm right there united with you there my satanic brother

IQ doesnt get you anywhere in life. its all about EQ

welcome to the Low IQ club, as one of the veterans, we welcome you

Facts man. The Reincarnation Soul Trap is as close to the truth as we're going to get right now. Everything else is bogging down the knowledge of how we are manipulated into staying in this realm due to all of the mental programming that exists here. When the time comes, we are truly free to forge our own paths of what we want reality to be without all of the labels of this place that we exist within at this moment. You are your own spirit, beyond what is the limited "self" that most people perceive themselves as here in these limited lives. Art and imagination is a reflection of our true capabilities outside of this limited realm.

I think you're reacting partly to my comment on the last vid. I agree with what you're saying, that a label will define you in a way that will help you navigate society, but I still hold by what I said. I had bad OCD in my twenties, and the sad reality is that I kind of had to diagnose myself. Maybe you know what your problem is and you should approach it from that angle instead of relying on a therapist to tell you. Unfortunately some of those people are clueless.

If I were neurotypical, I wouldn't be obsessed with getting a diagnosis label but because society labels me "mentally ill" but they don't tell me what my diagnosis is and everyone else with mental illness has a diagnosis, that's not fair.

I don't see the point of zoos either.

Hey guy, I've been seeing your notification posts for a while now. It seems you're really adamant about trying to find something to label yourself with. No disrespect. But I'm just genuinely wondering why you seem so keen on attaching yourself to the labels of this realm. This is a false reality with many tricky institutions trying to deceive our spirits into buying into the human psychology and pharmacology bs. Did you know that the original root word "pharma" literally translates to sorcery/witchcraft? (Pharmakeia). This is a false reality wanting us to never understand the true nature of our spirits and where we come from. I wouldn't put too much stock into buying into the propaganda of this world and needing to be validated by the system we exist within. The reason there are so many "mental disorders" is because we are different types of spiritual beings forced into conforming to this world of lies and deceptions. This world wants to make us all slaves to it. To conform to it. To break us down spiritually into thinking that we are all just human meat machines and that "there must be something wrong with me if I don't fit into the broken system". We are sovereign beings. Do not let yourself be fooled by the lies of this world. The way the education system breaks down our imagination we had as children. We are far more than what this world tells us. Do not be deceived by the "demiurge" and its agents. We are truly free outside of this existence when it comes time to leave and we choose our own paths, not letting entities manipulate our afterlife and convincing us to reincarnate. No disrespect at all. But it looks like you're driving yourself mad by trying to fit your infinite spirit into a tiny boxed label of this false reality. Let it go and just try to live happily while you're here. You deserve to be happy in life and not let this world tell you what you are. We are infinite and powerful beings. Live freely and just try your best to be happy

She NEVER called me back...

You're fixated on getting a diagnosis for yourself. One thing I think you need to learn, and many people need to learn, or realize is a better word...you probably know a lot of what would make yourself better or make your life better than anyone else would. I don't think a diagnosis would necessarily change that. I understand your frustration, I'm just saying I think you're seeking answers where they're actually inside you

74 is still not intellectual disability. it needs to be below 70.