It might be weird but this song make me miss my dad Here’s why. When I was younger like 1 or 2 and my sister was like 8 my father ues to abuse my mother and when she left him I was allowed to see him until idk when then I wasn’t. When I turned 5 he showed up and at our door and I was like who is it and my mom said my dad and I was like can I see him I was able to see him for like 2 year and then I I wasn’t I can’t really remember way but I was so young I was okay even though I had just started seeing my sister who was still a baby at that time she was the best and so was my dad to me and my sister on my moms said who wasn’t even his kid he would take us ALL to movies and stuff. Fast forward I’m able to see him again I think I was 7or sum I’m able to see him again I was over there all the I loved it there but I was a coward and I didn’t know how to stand up for myself so when my dad said did you want to live with me forever I didn’t want him to not love me anymore and I said idk yes one of the dumbest shit I ever did because I didn’t I knew I wanted to stay with my mom I she had more kids at that time siblings I loved and never wanted to leave just like my only sister on his side. After he would always talk about me living with him I got scared and told my mom that he was going to try and get custody of me and he boom he’s out of my life again because of me. He come back when I was like 8 or9 I was having the time of my life until I got depressed for some reason idk I hated myself I mean I always have it just got got so dad when I turned 10I was put on anti depression I became a different person I started not wanting to go to my dad’s house and according to my mom I was telling her bad things but I don’t remember a lot when I was on the medication then I was SAd I had already been avoiding my dad for weeks before anyone found out and when he showed up to see me my dumbass told her I didn’t want to see him and I told her about how my older cousin on my dad’s side would do se*ua| thing with me and my other cousin/ that was not the person who SAd me. But she wouldn’t really do anymore after we got older but I told her anyway like a fucking slow bus I’m 15 now and I haven’t seen my dad since but I started to really miss him I found him on instagram I watched his every post for weeks I’d cry all the time seeing how big my sister had gotten and she didn’t even have her sister with her so I started posting on that account that I made and I knew he was going to know it was me I’m a spitting image of him so he started posting about me and I’d cry even more I missed him so much even tho he had hurt the most best woman on this earth she forgave witch is why he had all those chances with me even after he tried to get dcf to take me and my siblings.but one night recently I told her I wanted to see him thinking she was going to say ok or sum she said no I cried so much she made me get rid of my acc and I was not able to watch his social’s anymore I listened for like a week but I couldn’t help but check on him and my sister when it was his birthday I texted happy birthday dad but deleted it really quick bc I couldn’t hurt or disobey the women who was already going to so much we had lost2 baby’s but he seen the message I regretted sending the message I thought he was going to show court people and my mom would find out me hate me when my birthday came along be posted a happy birthday thing for me I was so happy even though my mom had spent all that money on me I felt selfish for wanting to see him I still. do he text and he wanted me to tell him what I wanted for my birthday didn’t answer I couldn’t I I new after she said I couldn’t see him I should have stopped watching his post he could see I was watching it he knew it was me I new it was hurting him seeing me watch him but never replying to any messages he sent but I couldn’t let go a few days ago he texted me a really sad message it said “I just want to know why you don’t love me? What did I do? It breaks my heart I cry all the time. If it’s money I can give you your mom or whoever wants whatever. All I ever wanted to have was a father daughter relationship with you. The same relationship I have with Makenzie because you both are all I have that comes from me. If you don’t love me back I will just have to accept that but I will never understand. I’m sorry for whatever everybody said I did even thought I’m pretty sure 75% isn’t true” I want to reply so much but I won’t hurt my mom she’s been through so much I can’t even talk about.but I miss my fuckin dad and my sister I just want to hug them every time I’m out I ask god for us to run into him so I can see him. I want to ask her again but she pregnant and already a high risk and she has to pay bills and take care of 5 kids including me . But I feel so much pain I don’t know I what to do. I try and talk to my sister about it but she hates my dad to even though he treated her nice. I pray god leads me in whatever direction life goes I just hope we get to see each other agine. Sorry for all this it was a lot and sorry for any typos. but yea I try not to love him cuz of what he did and because I don’t want to hurt my mom but I can’t not love him
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