This unofficial release song

Right. She is just a naturally cute person. Her being herself is already so cute for me. That's why I love her so much

I have finished writing a Letter to YOU.. and I am asking if YOU could come and read this Letter.. I would sit and wait.. looking at your Picture just wishing that I can give you this Letter.. sitting on this desk does Not help me at all if I cannot give you this hand written letter with a Pen to tell YOU that I miss YOU.. that I love YOU.. what do I do of the days when I missed you the Most.. feels like when the Winter hits and the storm comes.. like when the SNOW flakes are falling down but millions of snow flakes falls down together.. it feels that Harsh.. the winter can be deadly and can Hit the hardest making you feel so Low.. there are days when I feel it the Most Hardest because I cannot be with YOU.. asking YOU will not do.. begging you will NOT bring me any closer either.. how about this Letter.. I have spend few hours of writing Letters.. and finally got a Master piece which took me almost all day to get In.. I feel like it is very Night which I feel it the Most.. that I want to say to YOU that I miss YOU.. and I want to take this Letter and give it to YOUR HAND.. but I know that in the room.. sitting in the desk and YOU are miles and miles apart from Me.. it feels like it is going to take a Long time until I am able to give you this Letter.. I would get UP.. and holding the Letter in my Hand I would look at your Picture holding with the Other hand.. and I would LOOK at you looking at this Picture in my other hand and I would say.. I miss you so Much right Now.. I needs to give you this Letter in my hand but How.. Please tell me How.. would you please answer Me.. and I would walk Out of the room.. and into the Living room to the Front door.. as I would leave.. I know that this very Night.. I hope the MOON is waiting for Me on the Other side.. and I am thinking as I leave this House.. and I would walk out and I would stand still.. I am LOOKING UP.. it is the MOON.. How come the MOON is out this very Night.. can the MOON hear me on this very Night.. If I am able to speak to this MOON.. I want the MOON to tell me something.. I know that there is an ANGEL.. I do believe in the Angel who is able to take a MESSAGE for Me.. there is the Empty Bottle that was set by the front door and I took the Empty Bottle with Me.. I know that I am NOT by the waters.. so I can't toss it into the Ocean waters.. but I know and I believe.. if I can ask and pray.. WILL the Angel please Answer Me.. will the Angel come if I ask for One Favor.. that I have written a Letter to YOU.. and I am going to put your Picture inside this EMPTY BOTTLE and with it be the Letter.. if the Angel is able to trace by LOOKING at your Picture I know that the ANGEL will not get Lost finding the Person which is YOU for this Letter.. that is WHY I am asking for the Angel to deliver for Me.. I know that I have NO WINGS and I will not ask the Angel if I can borrow his WINGS.. but if the ANGEL can be truly Kind to me for Once.. I am asking just for this ONCE.. will the Angel come and help me with my request.. as I am standing in the still of the Night and I am LOOKING UP at the Dark Sky.. I can see the MOON above and I am raising UP the EMPTY BOTTLE and I would Hold up the Letter in my Hand.. will the Angel see this Heart of MINE.. I have been writing this Letter for a LONG TIME.. it has been in the BOX that I would place.. as years of sitting on the desk.. I be thinking of YOU.. I be looking at your Picture.. but there is NOTHING that I can do but just to write ONE LETTER when I miss you the Most.. when I miss YOU.. there are times I can feel a SOBBING inside of My Heart.. I just wants to gush OUT my tears because It hurts when I love you because it starts with MISSING YOU.. so I would Open the top of the Box and start to Place ONE LETTER in at a time.. I just can't be free until I can give you this Letter.. what am I suppose to do when I want to give you this Letter.. I would watch this BOX.. it would be filled with Letters and My Tears.. I would shed tears because I would be thinking.. when can I give you this to YOU.. HOW.. a friend told me if I am aching this MUCH.. why not call upon the Angel.. if I truly believe in the Angel who has wings and can HELP send and deliver.. why NOT try and believe.. wait and see.. Pray and wait.. so it is my first day that I would try after I would share some words to my Friend.. He tells me call upon the ANGEL.. there MUST be ONE angel who can hear my Out cry for Help.. help to deliver this Letter to YOU.. after I would finish talking to the friend about the Angel.. I remember going to the closet and I would see the BOX.. opening the TOP of the Box.. so many Letters that has been sitting and I would wonder.. which Letter to start and the One that is at the TOP of all the Letters below.. I would pick the One I wrote recently and I want to try.. want to see and wait if the Angel would COME.. will the Angel show UP.. will the Angel tells me HE can deliver the Message in the Bottle.. will the Angel knows that IT IS YOU that needs to be delivered too.. putting on the shoes.. holding your Picture one hand the Letter on the Other hand.. walking out from the FRONT DOOR.. I see the Empty Bottle next.. and I grab it to take it.. I am thinking do I really believe in this Angel.. will it WORK.. WILL the ANGEL show UP for Me.. will the ANGEL knows who is calling for HIM and I would wait Out in the Night.. LOOKING UP at the MOON.. I am thinking.. AM I suppose to SHOUT INTO the Air asking if there is ANY ANGEL out there who can Hear Me.. or am I suppose to LOOK at the MOON and I would speak.. as I would TURN TO LOOK at the MOON I would Open my Heart.. OPEN my Mouth and say.. I been wondering if there is an ANGEL who can Hear Me.. I know that I am LOOKING at the MOON because I do NOT see the Angel Yet.. but to the MOON can you help me to say to the ANGEL.. I am calling for HELP.. I am asking for a FAVOR.. and with me is the EMPTY BOTTLE.. and I have placed YOUR PICTURE into the EMPTY BOTTLE and a written Letter I have wrote to YOU.. I have also placed inside together.. only if YOU can Hear Me.. only if you know what My Heart truly desire and that is why I am standing OUT here in the Night standing before the MOON asking for the HELP of an ANGEL.. the Picture that is placed inside is the ONE I want to take this Letter TOO and I been loving YOU for a LONG TIME.. it feels like that the MORE longer I wait for YOU.. the More longer I can feel this PAIN killing me inside.. Am I suppose to die soon without ever giving you this Letter.. what IF I die before I ever meet YOU.. it is going to be very sad for Me.. it is going to be unfair and painful way because I would die without ever knowing YOU being here in my arms.. and YOU will never get to hear me tell YOU that I love YOU.. My lips wants to say as I would LOOK at your Heart.. I love YOU.. I love you to death and it seems like YOU don't know how much I love YOU.. I have scars in my body because of the PAIN that is breaking me down slowly because I love you just SO MUCH right NOW.. if I do die before I ever meet YOU.. I know then YOU will know because YOU can find the BOX.. when YOU OPEN the BOX.. YOU will see all these letters I had to write to endure through my pains of MISSING YOU.. a Part of really Loving YOU means that IT hits hardest when YOU are Not here.. when YOU are so FAR away that I just cannot reach YOU.. my Arms cannot hold YOU and only thing that I can do is just look at your Picture.. when I see your Picture I come alive but a part of me dies within because I want you so close just to hold YOU ONCE and just to tell YOU with my Lips.. CAN You hear the sound of the beating of my Heart when YOU are so close.. when YOU were so FAR.. the sound of the beatings of this SAME HEART has never changed.. it was beating the same WAY as the same breathe air I would take because I love YOU.. LOOKING at your Picture is the ONLY ONE thing that gave me HOPE to write.. only way it gave me this kind of endurance is that there MUST be a HOPE down the LINE.. I still believe.. believe that I can still Love you after I am GONE.. but I do not want to go that FAR.. I want to love YOU NOW and tell you NOW that I love YOU still.. why can't I give you this Letter that is written in my hand.. I am holding the EMPTY BOTTLE but NOW it has your Picture and the written Letter inside.. as I would LOOK UP at the MOON and I would stand still in the silent to see if the ANGEL would COME.. will the Angel hear me.. does the ANGEL knows that I am waiting for HIM and that what my friend told me can be true.. can I believe his Words about how ANGEL can hear me and can do me this BIG FAVOR for me as I want to give this Letter to YOU.. I would wait in the Night.. as One Hour goes BY.. I am still waiting for the Angel as I can feel the wind change.. it is getting Colder as another HOUR goes BY and I know in my heart.. maybe this Very Night this angel must be busy.. IF He hears prayers and answers favors.. I wonder how many people like myself is asking this SAME ANGEL and as I would wait for the third Hour to pass BY.. I know for sure.. maybe it needs to be another Night.. this very night I can be sure and believe that HE is very busy answering Prayers.. wishes.. HOPES and favors of all KINDS of people asking.. as I put my Head down I am walking back to the House.. felt Like a BUMMER waiting for Nothing.. but I know there is still a HOPE.. JUST loving YOU brings me a HOPE for another DAY.. for another DAY that is to COME.. I know that Loving YOU Means everything to Me.. ALL I got to do is wait and be more patient for the Next DAY to COME.. as I would go back into the House.. and I would walk back into the ROOM.. I would place the BOTTLE with YOUR LETTER and YOUR PICTURE inside.. I know that the ANGEL must GO.. I believe that the Angel will come One day.. as

I keep on showing UP.. as LONG AS I don't give UP and think about the HOPE of that LOVE.. the HOPE of Loving YOU and giving you this LETTER.. there is still HOPE for me because I love YOU STILL.. and as Long as there is still a chance for YOU TO receive and for you to receive it into your hands.. that is the Dreams that I have that the LETTER must go to YOU FIRST so that It is ME who can be the ONLY ONE who can tell you that I love YOU and that I can tell YOU I MISS YOU too.. as I would turn to LOOK back from sitting.. the closet door has been opened and I can see the BOX sitting there.. I know that I must call to the ANGEL.. SO MUCH LETTERS to give YOU.. so MUCH to ask the ANGEL to help me to deliver all this to YOU.. ONLY the HOPE is will the ANGEL come.. will the Angel show UP and I can ask the ANGEL to take all these LETTERS to YOU.. NOW ALL I can do is call upon this ANGEL and I can share my Heart when I look at the MOON outside in the Night to tell this ANGEL I need this ANGEL to help me.. the Letters that I have written must be taken to YOU.. I know that YOU must get It that YOU MUST see it because I have been sitting here in this room.. all these Letters I wrote.. Heart broken times.. shattered dreams moment.. when I was happy the Most.. sad the MOST but because AII I can say is that I would think of YOU and those thinking brought me these letters to write YOU that I love YOU.. I cannot stop loving YOU.. but ONLY can keep on loving YOU STILL.. I am wondering.. will this angel COME.. will He show UP and KNOWS that there is someone like myself waiting for HIM because these letters is to YOU to say HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. OH ANGEL please come.. OH ANGEL please show UP for once so that I CAN tell you the truth of who YOU ARE.. that I love you.. I want to ask you this Question.. I want to be your Angel.. how can I be your Angel.. I know that the Angels don't have a Heart.. maybe has NO emotions or any feelings to express right?? of Course I would Not know How to answer this kind of a Question because I am Not an Angel.. but I do wonder sometimes if they do Not have any Heart.. NO emotions and NO feelings to express.. then How about Love.. and YOU are wondering then WHY do I want to be Your Angel.. these things ARE not required to Have.. and it would NOT hurt me this Bad.. Yes.. I am going through a lot right Now because I love YOU.. I feel like My Heart is like this BIG BALLOON ready to Pop any moment because it is FILLED with just thinking of HOW to love YOU MORE.. and to love you more means More Heart.. More emotions and feelings of expression to tell YOU HOW much More.. and sitting by this Lake.. I am looking at an EMPTY BOTTLE which is finished by Now.. sitting here in the Dock of the Lake.. and thinking of YOU.. LOOKING at my phone and Looking at the screen is the Picture of YOU.. of course I need my Phone and I really Need your Picture there too.. if I don't see your Picture and I can't see YOU.. I know I go crazy.. feels like something is Missing.. My Heart feels like I am MISSING YOU More.. because of the Picture on the Phone Screen and I get the time to check.. whenever I think of YOU.. whenever I start to miss YOU over and Over.. when I try to sleep at night and I just can't.. I would LOOK at the Phone and the screen turns ON and I would switch the Screen and I see your Picture.. I want to hold YOU and tell YOU that I love YOU.. when I look at your Picture on the Phone Screen.. I want to Hold you and tell YOU that I miss YOU.. and that it is MY HEART telling me Arms.. My Arms which feels cold and empty.. my arms wants to HOLD YOU and I would tell you again.. I love you and I miss YOU.. why does these words comes OUT like it is twin words to Me.. that I want to say to YOU.. it has been since so Long.. and I been missing YOU like crazy.. why couldn't you come to Me sooner.. why couldn't I tell you this SOONER and say to YOU that I love YOU again.. as I am sitting on the Dock of this Big Lake.. watching the waves and waters.. and I lift UP to LOOK at the MOON.. and I am thinking of YOU.. on the Other side.. what If I be Your Angel instead.. will you Let me be Your Angel.. can I walk next to YOU even though YOU may Not see me.. as long as I can see YOU and be close to YOU.. I would Open my arms wide.. But will I get to Hold you close.. wrap my arms around YOU and whisper and tell YOU that I love YOU.. and YOU are wondering why do I want to trade this OFF.. why be an Angel who has NO HEART.. NO EMOTIONS and Feelings to express to YOU.. It hurts Me More when I tell YOU how much I love YOU.. YOU may not know it unless YOU are in my Shoes.. but YOU have to always remember that I am sharing to YOU HOW MUCH YOU means to Me.. How much I love YOU and letting YOU know that a Part of loving YOU means that I needs to HIT HARD.. that It hurts Most nights without YOU.. it is dreadful and in pain that I feel when I can't be close to YOU.. It crushes me that I want you here with Me but I know that the timing is difficult at this Point and that is why It kills Me more than YOU.. when YOU Put your Heart and GO ALL in to Love YOU.. when it takes days.. and goes into weeks and into Months and to years of telling YOU.. it feels like I am sitting in the winter time most.. everything is COLD outside and YOU feel lonely most days because of MISSING YOU.. the sharp pains I feel inside.. I can feel it hurting me More and More as time goes By and YOU are wondering.. if it hurts me this Much with being cold and lonely and feels these sharp pains inside.. why keep on telling YOU.. that is why I know that I needs to DIE for Love.. LOVE just do NOT happen or appear any where.. when YOU love it needs to grow and expand to KNOW that it is the real DEAL.. I want to Love YOU as a REAL MAN.. not be someone who tries but who DOES IT.. I want you to Know that I am Not a PHONEY person but truly the REAL DEAL that YOU CANNOT FIND OUT OF any MEN out there.. that YOU will say ONE DAY.. I am the real Deal that NO WOMAN can just be with because when I love YOU.. I know that I will never stop until I am the One who will be the ONE to die for in the end.. I have this Kind of Spirit.. because the LOVE is a real kind of Love that ONLY a person can experience ONCE in a Life time and that is it.. I want to Love YOU where YOU can NOT go find it from any Man out there and I want to be the ONE to see YOU later down the road.. that ONE day YOUR HEART opens and YOUR eyes opens to see that I really did Love YOU.. Love you where YOU will say.. YOU LOVE ME TOO.. that YOU NEEDS to be with Me.. I believe that day will find.. I be asking the Angel.. if I can change to be an Angel.. and the Angel changes me to be YOUR ANGEL.. when YOU finally see it to believe that I really truly Loved YOU.. and NOW I am YOUR ANGEL.. what will happen then is then YOUR EYES will open and once YOU see the truth of My Heart of just loving YOU and just love that I have for YOU.. when Your eyes finally sees because the Heart opens to receive it.. YOU will see me standing there Next to YOU.. but when YOU see me.. the Only thing that I can do is to write YOU more Letters which I been all this TIME.. when YOU see me.. I am Not the Man before because I asked the Angel to be Your Angel.. which I will lose my Heart.. Lose my emotions and feelings of expression because I love you just too much of this Pain.. this suffering that I can't take it any more of missing YOU.. YOU do not know how many nights of PILLOWS I must hold with tears in my eyes.. crying because I am missing YOU.. when I miss you it hurts.. it hurts me to death that I needed to say to the Angel.. can YOU make me into YOUR ANGEL.. the day will come when YOU WILL see me but I am NOW your Angel.. only to Protect and to defend YOU.. but YOU will not be able to hear me.. and I will say.. It is Me but Now.. I have two wings.. I can't tell YOU WORDS because I been muted.. I loved you so Much that I needed to change to be Close to YOU.. I needed to be near you or I feel like I am going to Die.. that is why I made this One wish and the Angel came and heard my prayer.. of course I may not be able to say much to YOU.. but as Your Angel.. you can see me staying close by your side.. to be close to YOU.. even though I may not be able to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I know that YOU Heard me before.. you Heard through the Letters that I wrote to YOU.. how much YOU means to me that I am everything to YOU.. that YOU are my everything that I love you forever.. I had to make this Choice.. because I couldn't take it any more.. sitting along and just telling YOU.. I wanted it More.. I wanted to see YOU close by.. so that if anything ever happens.. I can use this Sword.. only the Angels can receive to Protect the ONE WHO I love.. and It is YOU who I want to protect and to Love in silent.. I be crying as I watch you close by because.. I know that when YOU stand near me.. I want to say the Words.. to tell YOU that I Love YOU.. to tell you that WHY can't I say these words to YOU.. I feel it inside.. I feel it in my Heart.. will you please listen to the Words because it is really Important me to tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. I would stand there as YOUR ANGEL.. wanting to describe and express.. the deal with the Angel would be taking away My Heart.. MY EMOTIONS and My Feelings to tell you that I love YOU.. the Words I must say to YOU.. the WORDS that I want you to Hear from Me and I know that being Your Angel can also kill me if I just stand there as the Mute Angel.. as I am sitting on the Dock of this Big Lake.. I am thinking of all these things LOOKING UP at the MOON.. wondering if it be a Good trade or Not.. wondering If I made this Trade will YOU be Happy

I be Happy as your Angel.. But I know that for a Moment I will feel happy just being close and Near YOU.. But if I can't tell YOU MY Heart.. my emotions and express my Own feelings to YOU that I love YOU.. I think I would rather NOT make that Kind of trade because I rather be who I am who was made to be.. a MAN WHO just Loves YOU.. who is just waiting for that Right time to see YOU ONE DAY.. as I am LOOKING UP at the MOON.. and I look at the second Bottle of SOJU.. I am thinking.. should I open this Bottle.. Should I start to drink this Second Bottle.. when I sit out here alone.. and I am Looking at the Phone and LOOKING at the screen.. I swipe to see YOUR PICTURE.. I would LOOK and I would smile.. and I would start to say to the PHONE SCREEN.. to your Picture that I miss YOU.. and I would turn to LOOK UP at the MOON and ask.. WHY can't YOU see my Heart.. WHY can't you understand my Heart.. Can you truly relate with what I am going through.. knowing How Painful and How it can Hurt when It comes Loving YOU.. It hurts because I want to be with YOU NOW.. that is the truth.. that I want to see YOU here with me.. taking you to this Dock by the Big Lake.. and Watch the waters together.. and I would ask YOU.. can YOU Please LOOK UP at that Sky and when YOU LOOK at the MOON UP in the sky.. I would say to YOU.. I have come to this Big Lake by the Dock many times and from time to time the MOON will come UP to visit.. I would bring some Bottles of SOJU with me.. and with the Phone.. I would LOOK at the Phone Screen and Swipe to see Your Picture.. I would OPEN one Bottle of SOJU and start to drink.. the More I would sip and drink the Bottle of SOJU till it goes empty.. I believe that MOON UP there is waiting for me to speak to It because It stands UP there waiting for me to speak About YOU.. I can feel my Heart chest be burning.. Missing YOU starts and the Pain wells UP inside and I know I turn to LOOK UP at the Moon.. I will always start with MISSING YOU and the distance of HOW FAR.. and I would tell the MOON.. I believe One Day I am going to bring YOU to this Big Lake by the Dock to show the MOON who I was talking about.. and I would just vision YOU Hear and I would tell that MOON Heart to Heart of how much I love YOU and still I love YOU.. and Now.. I am missing YOU still.. Few days ago.. I went over to the Big Window.. and I was given a Note with your Picture.. when I saw the Picture of YOU.. I fell in Love with YOU.. and I don't know How I can just by looking at your Picture.. I wanted an explanation How can something Like this happen to Me and started to Question my self.. what is it about YOU I saw that YOU are so Special.. and I would flip the Back side of your Picture.. A Note was attached in the back of the Picture and you have written an Address.. I am thinking about.. why would you put your Address on the back of your Picture with the Note Card.. I know that I have been going over to my Window in my room.. and when the Day goes by and I see that the Night has Come.. I would open the Window of the Room.. trying to get some air into the Room.. and I would sit.. and I would Look Up.. I started to ask Questions.. is there an Angel who can Hear me.. can the Angel come near and take a Message to YOU.. would the Angel allowed me to speak so that the Angel knows my Heart.. knows how much I want YOU to know that I love YOU.. to Know how much I think of YOU.. will the Angel come on my side and help me to get to YOU.. So I would always sit by my Window in the room.. it was the Day I went over to the park.. just to walk around and to enjoy the people loving the Out doors.. and I would stop to catch my breath.. I stood there by the Tree.. and I saw you at the Park.. wearing the White Dress.. and I saw you smiling.. there were children around YOU.. and the way YOU gave the attention and the way you gave the affection to these Little Ones caught my eyes.. that I see you love to be around children.. holding hands.. the little hands of the children.. little Boys and girls would give you the Big Smile when they look at you.. if YOU love these children and they are not your children but neighbors.. it can be strangers or friends.. Not sure who these Children belongs too.. can be from the Relative of Yours but I would see them always wanting to be close to YOU.. to be near you.. wanting your attention.. and crying over you for the affections they need.. and they just don't want to share but want to be with YOU close.. I remember I had the camera in my hand.. I don't know why I have taken this Camera but for some reason.. I told myself maybe I might need one just In case and Yes.. there you were.. smiling with the Children.. lowering yourself on their level and making each faces to smile.. giving hi fives and I would hear the children laughing and making you laugh.. I had to take a Picture of YOU.. I am so sorry if it can bother you because YOU may not know me.. but I have this feeling.. YOU may Not know me yet.. but I believe that YOU WILL find Out soon.. you will know my Heart.. as I put the Camera lens close to my eye and I would zoom in closer view and I would stand still by this Tree and as YOU would get UP standing tall and YOUR Head turns in a direction where I can see the whole view of YOU.. I click on the Camera and It has taken a Picture of YOU.. such a Great view it has taken.. of course YOU did Not notice.. did YOU and I would lean over on the Tree on my Back side to turn away.. because I did Not want you to think I am a stocker.. which I am Not.. just some one who admires and adores YOU is the better word for it.. NOT TO confuse you being weird or strange.. I started to trust ON this One Angel.. and I had to get a Prove.. a Picture of YOU.. I started to go over to the Window and I would lift UP to open the Window in the room.. and I would wait.. as I would sit by the Window.. and I waited.. Angel.. OH Please Angel.. come this very Night.. I wanted to show the Angel the Picture of YOU.. and I wanted to ask if the Angel answers Wishes or can it be a Prayer in my book.. so I would wait for the certain Hour which I would meet this One Angel.. As I waited and the Hour becomes pretty late into the Night and I can hear something which woke me up.. I be leaning to sleep by the Open window of the Room and this One Angel shows UP.. and I would LOOK at the Angel.. and I would ask.. Do you answer about Love.. and I would show the Picture of YOU to this Angel.. I know that it might sound very strange to YOU and to this Woman.. but I want to ask you a Big Favor.. I want the Heart of this Woman.. I want the Big Heart you have.. can YOU please help me to get to YOU.. of course the Angel tells me to Introduce myself to YOU.. and to be your friend at first.. and to show YOU how much I wanted to treasure and cherish this friendship and to make the TIME to let it work the Magic of Love and I am thinking.. I am Not good with Words when it comes direct connection face to face.. maybe I can be shy which is NOT good.. which I can be showing the lacking Sign of NO confidence because I know myself just too well of my Low Points.. but I always wanted to share and show the strength of what I have.. I too have my weaknesses but I also have the strength that can do something Much more than my weaknesses.. that is why I am asking this Angel to help me another Way.. because I don't want to risk something very valuable to lose it all for Nothing.. but I want it all.. and I want to win it all for Love.. Can this Angel please help me.. the Angel smiles knowing that I do want Your Love.. I want your attention and want your affection.. want YOU to know that I wanted it all that means everything.. the Angel looks at me.. and I would show this Angel the Picture of YOU and told this Angel.. it was at the Park I saw YOU.. and that I saw with both eyes how much YOU enjoyed being around children.. and Never felt this touch IN MY HEART which moved me so deeply.. that I saw your smile growing with time as YOU were close to these children.. and Yes.. I would go to the Park from time to time.. just to get OUT and to enjoy the Nature.. and of course.. just hoping that YOU be there at the park.. and each time I would come or go to the Park.. YOU are with these children.. and they would follow YOU around.. and I would watch YOU sitting down.. the Boys and Girls circles around you like a picnic and I would watch YOU open a book and YOU are reading to the children.. hands are going UP HIGH as you would ask Questions and I hear answers from the Little children.. I am standing by the Tree.. Only thing that I can hear is my Heart just be beating.. wondering WHY do I feel like this way.. I don't even know YOU and YOU don't even know me yet.. does this means something.. and I would just stand there and watch YOU smile and even laugh with the children together having FUN.. I would go home.. wondering about this Heart.. it feels like an Heart attack on me.. is it me who is weird or strange.. but I know that I am Not really into children.. but when I look at you with the Children.. even though I may not be close.. I just feels close and Near YOU and I just smile watching YOU having FUN and enjoying that TIME.. when the Children are all smiling Big and they are all glowing because of YOU.. and I would stand there.. maybe it means that as a MAN I am changing.. recognizing the Need of a Love.. of a LOVE from a WOMAN Like YOU.. wanting to be close to YOU and just to enjoy the time with YOU and to say I love YOU.. I would wait by the Window.. the Angel does Not come this very Night.. and I am thinking maybe I should Not of asked this Angel anything.. maybe this angel just can't help Me.. that is when I have received something at the Door

Next day comes.. and I hear a knock at the door.. and when I open the Front door.. there was a Picture of YOU and in the Back was the Address.. of course NO ONE was there when I opened the Door.. the Picture was on the Floor and I had to go pick it up.. and it is the Picture.. the WOMAN that I have taken picture from the camera.. it is YOU and I am thinking.. is it the Angel WHO really talked to Me.. was the Angel there are the Park with Me and He saw YOU which I could Not see this Angel.. and Your Address was written.. and I am thinking.. what does It means.. does it means that I can go visit YOU.. but there is One thing that I can do that I can give.. I can write YOU Letters like NO OTHER MAN can.. I can tell YOU things that I know for sure Only YOU can hear but what MANY OTHER WOMEN can't.. and I would look at your Picture.. flipping the back is the Note with Your Address.. I remember the First time I went over.. I was in the room.. all I could think of is YOUR BIG HEART.. so I would sit by the desk.. with the Pencil.. and I drew a BIG HEART.. on a sketch paper.. I took it with me.. looking at the Address.. and I had to wait for the Bus.. I never thought that it be a LONG RIDE.. the park is so close to my House and if I am taking the Bus to go to the Address YOU gave me.. it was like three HOURS long of the drive.. coming to this Park.. but I am sure there must be a Park near where YOU LIVE because while walking for 30 minutes long after the three hours of bus drive to the bus station.. I saw a park.. a BIG PARK when you look across on the Other side.. but YOU come to the park which is close to My House which means YOU are taking the same Long hours of route.. but I am wondering WHY.. I remember I was by your BIG WINDOW.. and I would be asking for YOUR BIG HEART.. I wish that I did Not come out the strong to YOU.. I did not mean it like that if I scared YOU OFF.. I was excited of going to the right Place to the right person.. to YOU.. I wanted to show YOU that I came to show you that I was here but wanted to tell YOU what I truly desired from my Heart.. that I wanted Your Big Heart.. because that is what I saw when I first saw YOU.. where I can Open my arms wide.. and it is NOT enough for my arms to HOLD YOUR BIG HEART.. just wanted to be straight forward of my true intentions as A MAN who he truly want and need from YOU.. Your Big Heart.. so that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU when I see your Big Heart.. that it be not enough words to fill it UP that BIG HEART of Yours.. I just wanted to tell YOU MORE.. the Bigger your Heart is.. the MORE I can say.. the More I can share and tell YOU how much I love YOU.. I just don't want to say it once.. but three hundred times More PLUS PLUS.. so that even that Much of telling YOU is NOT enough to fit all into your BIG HEART of Yours.. even when I turn Old and Grey.. and I still tell YOU that I love YOU.. that if YOU have this Big Heart.. YOU will never grow old tired of me telling YOU or saying to YOU because when YOU have a BIG HEART.. only thing is that YOUR HEART keeps on growing bigger is what I would see.. I just can't stop but I must tell YOU NOW that I love YOU.. the More I tell YOU.. the More I must say it to YOU because I mean it from my Heart.. it never seems to grow OLD or I never get tired of telling YOU or saying.. I don't know why.. I just wants to keep on telling YOU MORE AND MORE.. when I see that YOU have this Big Heart.. maybe this is the reason why I started to love YOU in the first place.. and Now.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. LOOKING at the back of the Picture and LOOKING at the Address.. and I would think about the Big Window.. and I would think about YOU in the White Dress inside the Home.. and When I saw YOU standing there.. It is YOU who I saw at the park.. with the Little Children.. the One who I had to take a Picture of with my camera.. It is YOU who I saw when YOU were reading the Book to the Children.. and I am Not sure How I got this.. I wanted to ask YOU.. DID YOU meet the Angel.. But.. I did Not want to ask YOU because.. it feels so lame.. but knowing that I met you and we stood there meeting eye to eye.. I know that It is Now the time for me to do something More.. since I came to this right Address.. and it is YOU who I saw.. the Picture of YOU and I would show you this is what I took.. of course and YOU gave me your Picture with the Address and Now I am here knowing.. all I wanted to do is to introduce myself.. that I wanted to tell YOU a Story.. that I wanted to write you a Story.. to tell YOU about who I love and WHO I MISS and since I know that it is YOU for sure.. I am able to go back which I had to take a LONG ride HOME.. and I am in the room.. thinking about the day I saw YOU.. I showed you the Sketch Paper I drew of Your Heart.. and I would be asking YOU if I can have Your Big Heart.. that I wanted YOUR BIG HEART and this is what I drew.. if it looks right in your eyes and what I saw is Your Big Smile.. the way YOU smiled when YOU would look at the children who came with YOU TO the Park in the white Dress.. Now I know what Love is.. NOW I know that if I know what Love is.. I must start sharing and telling YOU what YOU means to me because YOU means everything to me.. I am waiting for the Moon to appear.. in my hands is a Letter I have written for YOU.. but I am waiting for an Angel.. Do you know that I believe in Angels and I would ask if the Angels could Come as I am asking for One to appear before my Eyes.. as I was sitting by the desk.. and I would write.. pulling the Piece of paper before me.. I would be looking at your Picture.. Only if YOU know my Heart.. trying to let YOU know How much I love YOU.. I been practicing writing on this Pieces of Papers.. I would even grab One Piece of paper.. walking to the Mirror in the rest Room.. I am Not a Person who can speak well in speech.. I may not be able to speak right with the Words when it comes face to face.. But I know that I needs to practice my Speech telling YOU and Letting YOU know How much I love YOU.. as I am in the rest Room.. I am Looking at myself the Mirror is in front of me.. I know that I can let YOU see the Letter.. but.. I am alone in this House.. so I would show UP.. looking at myself and trying to Picture YOU standing on the other side.. will I have the Boldness.. WILL I have the courage to Tell YOU what My Heart feels.. WILL you let me speak to YOU about How much I love YOU.. as I am looking at myself.. Looking at the Mirror.. Holding the Piece of paper.. and I would try to talk.. try to speak.. but my Words would Not come Out because I am Looking at Me instead.. but I know that I needs to practice.. practice more to speak to YOU.. to tell YOU.. to have the Guts and Courage.. but I am wondering will YOU even give me Your Ears to listen.. will YOU give me the attention that I need from YOU so that I am able to talk to YOU.. to get something Off my Chest.. letting YOU know what I am thinking.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. I would open my Mouth.. and I would start to read from the Letter.. and I would say to YOU.. even though YOU are not here.. But I am envisioning that YOU are here and able to listen to the Words I am telling YOU.. speaking to YOU.. I would say.. I can't get my Mind Off of YOU.. the More I try not to think of YOU.. it seems like it is getting More Harder.. I would take a Look.. and looking into the Picture.. that is the Only One thing I can do.. is to LOOK at you when I have your Picture in my hands.. it has been so hard lately.. because I been alone.. I been writing YOU Letters.. but How can this Letter ever reach YOU.. do YOU even know How much I love YOU.. will you let me tell YOU that I still do Love YOU.. WILL you open your Heart.. open your ears to let me talk.. to let me speak.. will I be nervous to tell YOU if I stand before YOU.. having the Courage to tell YOU.. then I would ask.. will you give me the time and the attention that I needs so that I can tell YOU from My Heart.. Lately.. I been walking to this Mirror.. and I know that One Day soon.. if I do Not practice Now speaking and sharing.. and talking while Looking at the Mirror.. I know that I will never get the chance to tell YOU or say to YOU because I know that WHEN I see YOU.. I want to be well prepared.. I want to be ready to Tell YOU that I have a Love story that Only YOU can hear.. that I can share to YOU.. would you give me Your Time and energy.. your attention is all I am asking for.. all I need so that I can tell YOU.. I been looking.. trying to speak.. because I am not well in speech.. but I do know how to write Many Letters now.. and the Best way.. fastest way for me to reach YOU is by giving YOU this Letter.. I can look at myself and holding UP the Piece of Paper in my hands.. and reading the Letters.. How long can I be doing this.. and I would ask.. How far can it go if only thing I do is read the Letters looking at myself at the Mirror in front of Me.. I would keep on trying.. after sitting down by the desk.. I would pull up the chair.. with the Pencil and write YOU a Letter.. letting YOU know there is so much going On my Mind.. burning inside of My Heart.. that I still Love YOU.. I would pick up the Picture.. taking a Look at YOU.. and always.. it brings me great Love and Joy and Inspires me to write and to tell YOU a Story that I love YOU.. the Only thing that I can do.. the Only thing I can bring out from My Heart.. and I go to face the Mirror.. and I look at myself.. I wish that It be YOU on the other side.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to read the Letter to YOU.. but I am only looking at myself and it breaks my Heart that I am only reading to myself.. But I want this Letter to reach YOU.. so that YOU know my Heart.. my longing has been growing.. missing YOU brings Hate in my Heart cause of the pain that comes with it.. I wish that YOU know

Loving YOU sometimes Hurts me the Most because I miss YOU.. I can't stop thinking of YOU.. going back and forth.. to Sitting by the desk.. writing a Letter.. getting UP from and walking to the rest room.. Holding UP the Letter.. looking at myself looking at the Mirror and reading the Letter Out Loud.. I would look at my self.. and it hurts Me because I miss YOU.. I been missing YOU for such a Long time.. going back to sit.. Looking at your Picture.. my Heart starts to burn inside.. I want this Burn to come across Your Heart.. I wish that YOU can deal with the same Burning and this Pain that is aching inside my Soul.. I feel like it is NO fair sometimes because.. WHY is it that I am the One who has to deal with this Pain of ache.. this Pain of missing YOU and It feels Like YOU do not feel anything on the Other side.. do YOU know that I am waiting for YOU still.. that I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I don't want to spend the time looking at the Mirror and Looking at myself and just reading the letters.. it is NOT for me but for YOU.. so I have decided to change a New Way.. I would wait.. waiting until the SUN goes Down and asking for the MOON to come UP.. I would walk Out side.. and stand alone as I see the Night has approached.. I am holding the Letter In front of Me.. and I have heard that there are Angels WHO is able to listen to an OUT CRY of the Heart when YOU LOVE.. I would stand.. Open the Piece of Paper.. the Letter is in front of Me.. and I started to LOOK UP at the Moon.. but I am Not asking the MOON anything.. but an Angel.. if the Angel can hear me on this very night.. can the Angel be the One to do me a Favor.. I have One wish.. and It is very simple Wish.. to Hear the Heart of Mine crying for YOU.. I know if the Angel can hear the sobbing of my Heart.. my Tears of pains that comes from inside.. if the Angel can hear me and can feel sorry for Me because I am asking for the Angel to Give this Letter to YOU.. I can sit on the ground and weep.. sob in tears for many hours if I have too.. but if an Angel.. who is passing by through My direction and catches me in tears.. I know that the Angel can stop and Looks DOWN from the Sky wondering what is wrong with me.. and I can say to that Angel.. I am man who loves to write Love Story.. but it is a story of YOU.. story of how much I love YOU.. and that I am asking that Angel.. if He can do me a favor.. to give this Letter I have written to YOU.. to send the Message that I been here.. all along waiting for YOU.. if the angel asks.. I would tell that Angel.. I have even tried.. I even went to the rest room.. after I sat on the chair by the desk.. and I would show the angel the Picture of YOU.. and tell the Angel.. who YOU are and I would say to that Angel.. I would write with the pencil on the Piece of paper.. and I would get UP and go to the rest room.. and I would stand looking at the Mirror of myself and I would read the letter that I wrote to YOU.. I been doing that for a while.. but It seems like it has no Hope.. because I am only reading it to myself.. I want YOU to hear me.. hear my voice.. hear my words that I do speak.. I do talk and say.. share what is in my Heart.. but what good is ALL that when YOU can't even hear me.. if YOU just don't know or understand.. and I started to LOOK at myself on that Mirror.. in Pain.. what good is it if I am the Only One who knows it for myself.. so I have decided to walk Out.. and WHEN I saw the Moon.. if I love to stare at the MOON in the Night.. I am sure an Angel can also Love the Moon just like Me and can spend the Night looking at the MOON.. if I can be loud and Clear and if the Angel who is staring at the same MOON I am.. I know for sure.. the Angel can hear me Out.. hear my misery of NOT able to get the Letters to YOU.. Hear this Heart of Mine crying in the Night as I am staring at the MOON.. if the Angel sees Me.. with a Broken Heart and the Longing.. waiting for YOU.. waiting for your answer.. I am sure the Angel can look.. as I would walk Out side.. Not just Once.. but each Night.. two days.. four days.. ten days I am out.. holding the Letter.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. open my mouth so that YOU can hear me Out Loud.. I am sure after many times of walking with the Letters.. the Angel can see that I am very serious.. I am Not asking Much but it is so simple.. to let YOU know my Heart.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. to Let YOU see the Heart of Mine.. that I am falling for YOU.. I need YOU and I need you to know that I love YOU.. that I be missing YOU.. DO you even know that.. can YOU SEE that.. and I know that One night.. with your Picture in my Hand.. and I be looking.. on the Other Hand is the Letter.. after I look at you through the Picture.. My Heart breaks into tears.. and I am missing YOU.. I will say why do I keep on missing YOU.. why must you be so far that it is so Hard for me to reach YOU.. why leave me like this stranded.. why let me die here just to Love YOU.. why do I must crumble and be hurt.. why be so miserable but at the same TIME the Joy to Love.. with this ache that leaves me this Pain.. it Hurts a lot sometimes because YOU are so Far away.. but I want YOU so Near.. so Close that my arms can wrap around YOU.. and to let YOU see the letters.. here is One that I written for YOU.. I know that I may not be good with speaking.. talking with good speech.. but I know that I can memorize the Letters that I have written for YOU.. to tell YOU a Story.. My Love story of How much I love YOU.. so that YOU can know forever that I love YOU.. as I am Looking UP.. Looking at the MOON.. I am holding the Letter.. and I open my Mouth and I read the Letter Loud.. I would say Out Loud.. do YOU hear Me.. can YOU Please hear me.. will YOU please listen to what I needs to say.. to tell YOU something that Keeps on coming from My Heart.. that I been coming Out here.. LOOKING at the Night.. I see the stars.. I see the Clouds and I see the Moon above me.. and I am waiting for an Angel.. I do truly believe that an Angel can hear me right Now.. and if an Angel who is passing by decides to stop and to listen.. I am sure that the Angel can come to my aide to Help me with this Letter.. so that this Letter can go to the right person which is YOU.. I want to say.. I been loving YOU.. I keep on telling YOU how much I love YOU.. but do you really believe in this Word that I am telling YOU.. I know that My Heart is Not mistaken.. but it is real because the Only thing I can do is tell YOU that I love YOU.. there is Nothing More I can say.. there is Nothing but the three Letter words I can tell YOU.. which is I LOVE YOU and I want YOU to know.. I want you to know this truth before I go.. because I know that One day SOON.. YOU will know for sure the truth.. that I do really Love YOU and meant it with my Words.. I been waiting for the Angel.. so that if the Angel appears before My eyes.. I can tell that Angel.. and show the Picture of YOU.. and the Angel is going to get it.. will understand it.. the problem is this.. what if this Angel comes and sees YOUR picture and also that Angel falls in love with YOU.. even with the distance and miles away.. I love YOU.. even with not spending time.. and knowing YOU in face to face.. I just love YOU as your are.. I don't need to be in your Presence or be with YOU as in face to face in person to Love YOU.. even with this Miles separated between US.. I just Love YOU just the way YOU are.. if YOU don't believe me.. I know that when the Angel shows UP with my Letters In the hands and gives to YOU.. and when the Angel holds the Picture of YOU and shows YOU.. I believe by that time YOU will know that I love YOU.. I don't needs to be there to Love YOU.. because it is all about Just Loving you First.. when I love YOU.. YOU will know what a Love means in a time when I can't love YOU anymore.. I am Not sure How long I will live.. but as long as I am alive.. I know that I still can love you.. breathing.. I know I can say to YOU that I really Love YOU.. I love YOU.. do you know that these three words Hit me.. when I did Not hear from you the past few days.. the Word I love you came into my Heart when I would remember what the Doctor Told me.. he told me something that YOU have not mentioned about and I just wanted to tell YOU this from my Heart.. that I love YOU.. and all I think of YOU.. YOU be in my Mind.. YOU kept on being on my Heart and ON my Mind.. Why can't I just erase you Off my Mind.. I can't.. Please tell me How.. as I am looking at this Cabin Log home.. I want to remember what happened to Us.. You have left a Message on the Phone.. and hearing your Voice.. I would listen to Your Voice.. stop and play over and over.. trying to remember YOU.. it hurts me More than it hurts YOU because I have found another Picture.. it is YOU holding a Giant Teddy Bear.. and YOU are showing me this Peace Sign.. and it is that Smile that Get to me when I take a Look into that Picture.. where was this taken At.. How can I forget.. and YOU are Not helping me in any of this.. why can't you tell me where was it At.. I dialed YOUR number and I called YOU on the Phone.. but YOU would not pick up this Time.. I started to Beat on my Chest.. and I sat on the Floor.. Looking at this picture of YOU holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. I have the first Picture on the first Room.. and there is an Empty vase in the second Room.. and I found this Picture on the second Room.. when I lifted UP the Empty Vase.. this picture was underneath it.. I remember buying this Home.. but I do not know who it was that was selling me this Home.. Just love the Wood areas and far from the city side of Life.. just wanted to live this quiet life until I heard your Voice.. and it was YOU who were thanking me purchasing this Home.. I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to meet YOU.. but YOU told me that it is Not the right TIME.. I remember walking into this