No matter how many times i've tried to attempt they haven't worked. I was in a deep spot. And I'm glad that I've gotten good because I wouldn't be at the stage I am now. I am doing much better, yes things are still bad but that doesn't stop me from being happy and better. I wish everyone who is going through hell, for it to get better. You just have to try. I love you all even if we may not know each other. You are loved. You are enough. You are WORTH it. Stay safe! <3

Whats your biggest fear? : bestie Life: me

영상 못올리시는거 바쁘셔서 그런가요?😢

this made me find out i had issues thank you

I kinda remember when I was in middle school i went through so much. Puberty,periods that was when I met my beautiful best friend Nova Adeline Alvarez. I remember when my family had a fight and my mum slapped me,I ran to the toilet crying and banging my head it wasn’t the first time my mum would always do it. I was sis I of it so bad I wanted to end it. So I saw my mums razor and cut my face (the unfortunate thing was Nova was on call with me, she saw what my mum did.) nova lives 3 mins away from me . She ran to my house and found me in the toilet on the floor passed out after that I ended up in the hospital. Nova was always by my side. After I was released I didn’t wanna stay with my mum so I moved in with Nova. I still remain with her to this day and visit my mum sometimes.

If u want to read this please dont rude 🙏 so my friends are not rlly my friends cuz when i was 3 u was so so so so so so happy to have friends but when they said leave me alone I thought they meant to just give him some space so I give them some space and they said leave me alone I'm not your friend just leave me alone i was like what why they said go away i was like sad but they mama I won't leave them alone so the other friend he broke my arm next I call the police on him and he got arrested for breaking someone's hand with for and my 2 different friends left for a new school text I was so so so so so so so sad I always text me always always did and I missed him so much one is named suits and when he went he went to another school next year after another country so he went to that country next it was pretty small I felt so bad for him I was feeling so bad and my other friend named Jacob Barra he she left for just a second not a second like to go to another school and moved so so so so so so so sad i miss them my other friend died in a car accident 🙏😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🥺😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🙏🙏😭😭😭🙏🙏if u want to be my friend like if u likeed tysmmmmmmmmm ❤still i miss them so so so so so so so so so so so so so so o so much 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭plz come back to my arm

Im tired.

I listen to this whenever i think my friends don't like me anymore because i have past traumas of everyone i cared for leave me. Im just a overthinker alot

... I think i'm depressed . But I don't have anyone to diagnose me besides my depressed friend. (he's had diagnosed depression since 6) so we did a little symptoms thingy. I think I understand why I don't really like life rn.

My friend just died recently, and I have the balls to call him my friend cause I never bothered to speak to him never bothered to ask how his day was, Tell me why this kid had a tumor the size of a fuckin golfball hidden in his brain for weeks on end and I never even knew, but of course I’m gonna come up with the excuse of I’ve got my own problems like the CPS invading my life I fucking suck at this man

my best friend killed herself on september 22nd, 2024. i considered her as my sister. she is, and will always be, my sister. she died thinking that she was alone, and that i hated her because she broke our promise. because 4 days before, she promised to come to me if she needed help. she promised to try and eat. she promised to listen to her body. she promised to come to me before the hurt herself. it was a distraction and i fell for it because i was so desperate for my big sister to be okay. she was 14. if she stayed alive for 53 more days, she would've made it to 15. we never met irl, however she meant everything to me and we went on calls all the time. we were going to meet as soon as i turned 18 if we could afford it. she was adopted when she was 4. her adopted mother died when she was 7 and her father blamed her for it. he physically, mentally, verbally, and sexually abused her. she had tried to take her life multiple times before we met. she tried multiple times during our time together and so did i. we were everything to each other. we were literally inseparable. i helped her get away from her dad. she was re-adopted and began to heal, but her best friend committed and she relapsed. she didn't want to feel the pain it caused, and the pain it brought up from the past. i tried my best to be there for her but i was on sleeping meds and we had a 5 hour gap in our time zones. 8 pm was always when it got hard for her. that was 1 AM for me. it was my fault. i should've done so much better. i failed her. i can't live without her. avery, if you see this, your baby sister is waiting for you. LLAN, 2024. fly high big sis 🤍.

Everyday it gets worse, my bad thoughts sound like good ideas right now, i have no one, i feel sick, and tired.

as I grow up I’ll make sure to keep my baby sister and/ or baby brother/sister safe and alive I’ll always be there for them no matter how hard life’s gets even when our parents die. I want to make sure they are safe and sound because if I find out they attempted I’ll cry so hard you will see me bawl my eyes out for few days I love them very much and hope I won’t suicide because of life I love you lil sis and lil bro/sis don’t give up on life my siblings. I would’ve been the youngest if my mom hadn’t had miscarriages ily older siblings. <3

I’m probably going to be that friend in a few months. I don’t know how to feel about that

Crying in my bed alone when I cry god hugs me but one day my sister gets whatever she wants I am literally the youngest one and my sister is the oldest one and she acts like a baby but my grandma yells at me but I try to be a good daughter when I start drama with my grandma and my mom and my sister my mom said "gosh I wish I could slap you" and that made me cry I had to hold my tears back i needed talk to Jesus but I was trying but I cry so so hard I told my mom why would you say that and she said "it was a joke I just wanna u to shut up" that hurting me being the youngest is kinda suck I am the favorite sometimes but everything makes me cry but my comfortable place is crying in the floor and crying in the bed I wish I wasn't born.... cheer me up pls..

“K (we call her K), thanks for being there. I’m sorry if you’re reading this. You’re probably the best friend I ever had. I’m sorry for this being so abrupt but I just can’t do this anymore. I’m sorry honestly. I hope everything goes well for you. It’s not your fault.” That was the message he sent our old friend 9 weeks ago. I wasn’t online when he sent it, but I remember her texting me repeatedly telling me to go check on Oliver. At first I was questioning it but then I decided to go check on him since I had a missed call from him ten minutes before. I remember entering his house, his mom in the kitchen completely unaware of what happened upstairs. And I remember opening his bedroom door to see him propped up against the wall, and I knew it was overdose by the bottle in his hand. He didn’t leave anything behind, no letter, not even his old sketchbook. Apparently he had burned it the day before, but he only left a Christmas gift for my friend K who lives overseas. I shipped it to her in December but that was all he left behind. I feel like it happened all too fast, and that I could’ve done something about it. I feel like if I picked up the call he would still be here. I miss him, but all I really have left of him is his message to K on quotev.

I remember texting my uncle when I could because I knew he struggled with depression. I just didn’t know Christmas Day would be the last day I’d ever see him or speak to him again. I woke up today to my mom yelling and saying she was shaking. I went out to ask what happened and she was on the phone and she said that she needed to talk to my dad and went into the garage. I said okay and just went back to my room. I started texting one of my friends that I was worried but I just thought someone might have gotten hurt or something. My mom was in the garage for about 30 minutes and when she came out she acted like nothing happened and just said that my uncles cat died because she didn’t know how much I heard. She also told me that she was going over to his house to figure things out with my dad. I said okay be safe and once she left the house I went into my brother’s room cause I knew it wasn’t the cat. I had suspicion that something happened to my uncle because he also didn’t respond to my text but I just told myself it couldn’t be that. When my parents got home, they brought my nana (my dad and my uncles mom) I’ve also and she was on the verge of tears. That’s when I basically knew. My heart was racing when I saw them and they got my brother and I to sit down. They started talking and then told us that my uncle had killed himself last night. I just hope he’s happier now and I know he’s in a better place.

My best friends on the edge of suicide I want to help and be there so I pick up every call no matter the time. (Not like I sleep much anyway) and reading these comments have me scared of what could happen. I love her laugh and our friendship I hope she doesn’t go through with it and gets better. I’m trying to help but I’m falling apart myself… I’m lost does anyone know what to do to help me?

I remember being on a group chat and my friend said " hey don't blame your self i loved you"we were neighbors and i had asked her what she meant and she didn't answer me and i run outside hearing sirens and i go outside to see my girlfriend passed away in a scratcher

She left this world on her own terms last August. She was my closest friend, life is so different without her. I struggle to wake up. I struggle to find reasons to keep going. She kept me happy, she kept me alive. We were so close, I thought I was enough of a reason to stay. She left me a note, I read it over and over, I will never tell anyone what it said, ever. I wish my Celery was still here. (Yes, her nickname was celery) she was the joy in my life. The spark in her eyes, I can’t forget it. She was my sunshine. She was the salt in my ocean. The angels in my heaven. The clouds in my sunset. The colors in my wind. The half of my heart. I feel empty without her, I will never be mad at her, or even upset she left, I know she needed it. She had to get out. There’s so much more I could say about her, and how much I love her, but, there’s no point, now words can say how much I love her. No words can say how much I need her. Now words can say how much I want her alive. No words can bring her back. I miss you, my little Celery, I know you can see this message, you know what I have to say about you. I miss you so much, honey. I do. Celery, March 5th, 2013 - August 21, 2024

I'm struggling with supporting 2 of my best friends. The feelings they feel are so horrible and the only way out they see is death and they've felt like that for basically their entire lives. In the grand scheme of things, I haven't known them that long at all but I love both of them so much. I can't take away their pain and I don't know how to help them especially when the health care system won't. They keep making attempts and eventually it will end up with them dead and I'm so terrified of that. I just don't know what to do

If it wasnt for my best friend amy. I would've been dead at 8 years old. Seriously. I wouldve died. Im 14 now and i still look back asking myself why did i do it..?

My friend just told me she's going to kill herself. I am trying to process it... (I'm scared. My mind is telling me that she's joking but.. c'mon.. I don't think my heart feels the same.) @KitTheCat4, I'm sorry.. I'm sorry if I wasn't a good friend. I love you so much. If you do this. I will miss you. I'm so sorry.. I really am. I'm sorry if it seemed like I was never there. I'm so so sorry. I can't stop apologizing.. it hurts. It really does. I hope you rest in peace if you do it. I'm so sorry. I love you so much.. I'm so sorry.. I'm sorry. If I said any harmful things, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean them. I was in a bad mood and I know I need to work on it. I'm sorry. I really am. I know begging and apologizing won't work.. but PLEASE.. just stay a little longer..? I love you, I love you so much. You're amazing, pretty, beautiful, honest, funny, lovely, caring, and most of all.. have the most goodest heart ever. I LOVE YOU. I love your persona, I love your personality, I love your hair, I love your face, I love your art, I love your drawings, I love your content. I love everything. I'm so sorry.. I really AM.. You didn't deserve any of the pain, trauma or sorrow that was given to you. You didn't deserve any of that.. You deserved LOVE, HOPE, KINDNESS, and everything positive. You were always a good friend even if you didn't feel like it. If you think I'm not gonna miss you, you're DEAD WRONG. I will miss you. Forever and ever. I promised to be your bestfriend or even just a friend in general. And I WILL keep my promise...<3 (I Love you, I will forever miss you if you kill yourself. I'm so sorry. may you rest in peace if you carry it out.) - December 29th, 2024.

"You feel like nobody listens.?" "Yeah.......its difficult to talk to them about it even when they act like they.....mom..? Are you listening.?" "Sorry hun, Im so sorry, what did you say..?" "Nothing...*Nevermind*"

My best friend not saying her name but she tried to kill her self in front of me more than once the first time she had a scarf and she tried to suffocate her self and I stop her the second time she reached for the knifes I pushed her out of the reach of the knifes.I really miss her she was the only person that keep me alive and my friend Mira is the one keeping me alive be idk how much longer I can do this.miss you tho

i used to have a friend in the beginning of this year ibut i was very stupid childish and not fully aware and used to only care abt myself but one day we was talking and she randomly broung up that she been abused since birth and i didnt pay no mind to it i just said that i used to get beat along when i was 5 and now when i look back at myself it hurts alot and i wish i never did that i dont know if shes alive rn at all cause i lost her contacs but every time i think abt her i feel horrible abt my past self and i wish i could apologize and be her vent friend and help her but i cant and i really messed up and miss her i wish i was with her to help her out if shes still alive

I feel so bad for these people because they loved these people and they died i had one of my favourite uncle that took to much medicine and died rip uncle reace and rip everyone's favourite person

Please don’t do it that’s all I got I know I’m probably going to later in life but don’t we got this!

One of my roblox friends i never played with him or chat to him i said "hey how are u?" He said "kinda bad hbu?" I responded "good" then he said " how does it feel being happy?" I didnt know he was depressed and i said "great"...i hope that person is okay..then...their acount got terminated...

I feel like im beginning to lose grip on reality. my own father downplaying my actions and using me as a punching bag. telling me to not do stuff he does all the time. its getting on my nerves. i feel like im dying. like nothing matters. the only things bringing light into my days are schooling and playing games. i feel like i am missing something ever since my friend evan began to quit our favorite game. i have no way to contact him other then it... if your reading this evan, its your buddy darien. i will always be here.

My friend died in June 1th. This is wasn't suicide, this is was accident. Peace and calm, my dear.... And thank you for all💙

"One day after my suicide" The day after my suicide, I loved my mother even more, when I saw her crying on the floor of my room, hugging my clothes with my photos scattered around her, I saw so much love past the tears in her eyes. The day after my suicide, I felt how much my father loved me, no matter how hard it was, in the midst of so much sadness, he spoke to me with tears in his eyes about how proud he was of me and how much he loved me. The day after my suicide, I saw my dog was more incredible than I could imagine. Everytime someone came home, he would run to the door excited to see me, and seeing that it was not me, would lay down in front of the door and continue waiting for me. The day after my suicide, I felt the love of my sister when I saw her sitting in her room with eyes full of tears. She remembered the times we played, talked and argued together in our beautiful childhood. Treasured moments. The day after my suicide, I felt how important I was to my best friends. They were looking at all our pictures together...remembering the laughs we shared. The day after my suicide, I felt the sorrow in my teachers. They blamed themselves for not noticing. At night I went to the morgue to look for myself and said: "So many dreams we had", "So many loved ones", "So many people to meet", "You had so many people that loved you, yet you threw it all away?", "You have to have a lot of courage to take your life. Why didn't you use that courage to win?" Thank goodness that was just a vision. This isn't mine, but I just wanted to spread this. To whoever needs it, I love you. You aren't alone in this, I believe in you, and you can get through this. It's okay to cry, no matter what happens, everything will be okay. I know you've heard that many times, or don't believe it but I promise you that. Your soul will heal, it will take time but you got this. I hope your bad thoughts go away soon, feel better okay? Thank you for staying alive, stranger. I'm glad you are reading this right now, thank you, so much. Keep going. Here's a hug, if you haven't had one in a long time.🫂

I don't rlly know how to word this.. But I might do it...

i dont have a best friend... no one will miss me when I go

I remember getting ready for festival and my bd, then i rrecieved a new that my first and closest friend dissapeared, I searched for her for a few hours till midnight but couldnt find her, after a few days they found her body near the waterfall, they say she did it herself but I knew her my whole life and I knew she wouldnt do that, my theory was that she was in depression and just wanted to be alone, that evening she left and decided to sit near the ccliff, but slipped.... I hope one day I will see and hear her again, even though I know its my fault I blame myself, I could go for a walk and come across her or just wonder hos she is doing and nothing would happen, sadly its too late, it hit me like a truck after losing another close person without eve n a half year passing

my bsf killed herself 5 days ago now. i tried so hard to stop her but she was gone. i feel like such a bad friend by losing her.

It's all my fault

please save me a place up there 🕊️

I remember my friend did so much she she saved her bestie from a train suicide and helped her friend stop burning herself

The reason I almost died was the reason why I still live. My mom, I love her

i just lost one of my best friends to suicide a little over two months ago. i feel so beat down and destroyed. will this pain ever get bearable?

I wish I had never met my friends so no one would care about me

Last year in November, my childhood best friend/late ex boyfriend killed himself. It still doesn’t feel real, more than 200 people including me showed up to his funeral. I always told him that he could text me whenever he needed to, but never did. His little brother looks exactly like how he did when he was his age

Tis is helping me thru my breakup and my mental in general si thx , stranger

i lost my best friend this year. and even if i don't cry over her death that much anymore, i wish she was still there. i wish i could have helped her, i wish she called me that night and talked to me. we knew each other for almost 10 years and she was my reason to keep going as well. we both suffer from mental illness and sometimes we just wanted it to stop, so somehow i can understand her decision but still, we had a promise, that we would never attempt ever again and she broke it to have final peace. i love her so much, and now i have no one like her around anymore and will never have anyone like her because we're all unique and each one of our lives matters so but so so much... i wish to everyone who read this and are passing through bad days the best, and never forget that you are loved, just like my best friend is still loved today. it's not a reason to leave. please stay, please understand and see how beautiful life can be sometimes <3

I think my mom might kill herself on Christmas.

luckily she is alive but one of my best friends was going through an ed depression and maybe more and she attempted many times and i tried so hard to help her to the point i was mentally drained and it was extremely noticeable but ig that didn’t work and she overdosed and had a breakdown and i assumed she did something because she stopped replying to my. messages and posting on anything turns out she was in the hospital and then a metal ward for months and i’m so grateful she’s out now but i miss her so much as she doesn’t want reminders of the past so i haven’t seen her but i’m so happy she’s recovering ❤️‍🩹 ( her little brother gives me updates)

I remember when my best friend texted me "thank you for everything” i quickly went to go find him but it was to late, i love you Jordin i hope you rest in peace ❤.

𝖨 𝗁𝖺𝖽 𝖺 𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽 𝗌𝗁𝖾 𝗐𝗈𝗎𝗅𝖽 𝗁𝗎𝗋𝗍 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗌𝖾𝗅𝖿 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗂 𝗌𝖺𝗐 𝗈𝗇𝖼𝖾 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝗌𝖼𝖺𝗋𝖾𝗌 𝗈𝗇 𝗁𝖾𝗋 𝖺𝗋𝗆 𝗂 𝗀𝗋𝖺𝖽 𝗂𝗍 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗌𝗁𝖾 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝗌𝖼𝖺𝗋𝖾𝖽 𝗂 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝗁𝗈𝗋𝗋𝗂𝖿𝗂𝖾𝖽 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗂 𝗐𝖺𝗌 𝗇𝗈𝗍 𝗀𝗈𝗈𝖽 𝖾𝗇𝗈𝗎𝗀𝗁 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝖺𝖿𝗍𝖾𝗋 𝖺 𝖼𝗈𝗎𝗉𝗅𝖾 𝗈𝖿 𝗐𝖾𝖾𝗄𝗌 𝗅𝖺𝗍𝖾𝗋 𝗌𝗁𝖾 𝗁𝖺𝗍𝖾 𝗆𝖾 𝗇𝗈𝗐 𝗌𝗁𝖾 𝗁𝗎𝗋𝗍 𝗆𝖾 𝗌𝗈 𝗆𝗎𝖼𝗁...𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗂 𝗇𝖾𝖾𝖽 𝗁𝖾𝗅𝗉..𝗇𝗈𝗐

I tried t attempt twice and no one knows. Tho this playlist is for them. İs good<3