Your situation kinda sounds like my dads. He worked as an IT in a gallery but barely got paid, and overworked. He always put his anger on my mom and was mad all the time. He quit that job and tried searching for jobs for months I can’t count. He just wanted us to have a good childhood, but one day he got an actually good job 4 hours away in a new city. Even though I didn’t wanna move from my childhood neighbour hood, his new job has changed him. He was happier, started working out, and was proud of himself. I truly think that you, Aphazune, will one day find something to be proud in. Something worth breathing in this planet. I know I’m just a fellow subscriber, commenting and watching all your PHIGHTING videos, but please. Take this into account. Any, and I mean ANY, little thing makes an impact. Even if that means finding someone’s dog, cleaning up your house, or putting water in an almost dead plant. Everything makes an impact on your headspace and mind. See you, Apha. I do wanna mention one thing, human interaction is a life saver. I know, it sounds cheesy. But i used to be an annoying, loud rude idiot that didn’t care about people. I didn’t like ME. Only then I realized I was an annoying fuck when my sister told me and how to care about people. It’s hard to find genuinely nice people in the world, but it’s possible, and you can try. Just don’t force it.

its scary on how much i can relate to this. i have the passion but i think the opportunities are just straight up not for me or will 100% be replaced by ai in the future. hope you're okay, its nice to see someome be honest with themselves every once in a while.

hey- dude, don't go with that mindset, it's unhealthy. please, have a growth mindset, everything you do is good and a step in the right direction what you do is good, amazing! if not for you, for us. what you've been told is wrong. entirely. don't listen. as per jobs, look for your passion, please! freelance is always a good option, try to expand a buisness thanks for coming out for this, you can always come to us when you need help. don't feel afriad to share anything unless you don't want to.

im not a specialist so take this for granted, but you might have depression socializing with people is usually a good path to feeling better in many situations, i wish you good luck man

This is what I fear,I'm still pretty young but in a couple years I might find myself in this situation. I hope for the absolute best for you Apha. We truly care about your health

I'm in a similar situation too. Rejection after rejection from both jobs and colleges have been so draining, and I don't even know what I'm gonna do with my life. I have depression so that's a factor in my low motivation and feeling little satisfaction. I'm not an expert or anything so take my word with a whole plate of salt, but it could be depression for you too, or at least a factor in how you feel. My advice is to see a psychologist about it to see if that helps. Hope you get better though

It is SCARY how similar our thought processes are. I am also the type of person who subconsciously learnt to have believable, if not low expectations in fear of failure, i also usually always fear of being considered a one trick by others that I always try to be average at a various variety of things (Art, writing, videos and games and what not) AND I'm the also lost on what I should do when I don't have something that I have passion in to do. So I feel like I should be able to say that, try not to get yourself too low. It is so painful to experience and I've been there multiple times. Just try your best to stay intact and not lose too much of your footing, I have made this mistake multiple times and Some people could even say I still make that mistake, just know you have my full support. And i wish you can make it out of this unscathed.

listen dude, we get it if u dont want to upload much or just feel unmotivated to do so. i mean yeah sure some people may be pissed off but they should seriously consider what they are saying, cuz like, its obvious they dont know the pain of being a youtuber cuz they have never just done it before, and that makes them not have a right to criticise anything. ignore them. i know its hard to but youll probably get over it eventually. I promise you that you are not alone on this dude. There are tons of other people like you out there and we are all here to support you <33

Hey i saw you in a lobby and now im hooked on your channel because your stuff seems cool and you seem like a cool guy so i wanna watch more content but ill try supporting you by like sharing your channel and watching your videos because its the least i can do but it seems like your really need help

Hey dude, I hope you're doing alright. I want to really help you right now but I'm not at that point of life yet. Perhaps when you were young do you have anything interested in doing? You have a passion for writing, grow on that. If that makes you satisfied then keep doing it. Maybe write things outside of Phighting, like other games. I hope that someday you can find a job you can really be satisfied with in the future. If you ever feel stuck, consider reading the Bible, trust me, if you find the right verse it can be life changing. Oh, and consider praying and asking for a job that makes you passionate and satisfied daily, I promise that doing these things, will give you a job that you're seeking for. Just make sure to follow what God says, after all he is your Father and he knows your interests. Just be patient and the time will come. I feel like I'm rude to you when I'm writing this comment. And I'm so sorry if I do. I just want to make you feel better. Stay safe and keep looking, God bless you.

The emotions you are expressing is truly telling about your troubles your stress the things you thought would happen so normally to someone. You dont feel the proper or your version of feeling great is not there and it when you get an achievement you feel less since its just so short to feel and it will go away, every time you did something amazing, great, incredible its like your whole mental health/mind doesnt know how to react to it or say something about it its like a difficult question that your never sure about the answer you written even if its about a opinion of yourself you dont know where to start and the paper is already almost torn or either not existing by how much you are not proud for the answer you are proud for. and then theres something that was part of your daily schedule, gone because something happened so now the shelf/you are making your objects fall and you are unable to keep yourself up or anything thats normally in life and it starts being so hard to manage for you its hard on what to do from there and now think that thing was gone was important to you for a specific reason on why you thought it was important. Your head collects different ways to manage but yet again needs to find a way to do something for yourself that doesnt makes you get forced into it for forced satisfaction but its not good enough, all of your hobbies you do some have passion but something doesnt click so perfectly for you to hear and listen to get relaxed and finally rest after the thing you wished for finally happened but right now it never really happeded. I enjoyed listening to you talk about your problems i hope your okay now dude even if i just saw your video and never knew you, your awsome I hope you will be okay.

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i want to say i can understand what you're going through (i don't really know what i want to do with my life and often lack motivation for things), but i doubt i can fully empathise with everything, since i've barely even experienced some of the things mentioned, if at all. that aside, low moments like this do come by sometimes, but there will always be something or someone to help you out, whether it be your friends, family, passion, or even fans. i wish you the best in overcoming these struggles, and stay safe! (sorry if this somehow made you feel worse, i don't have much experience with helping others in this way, and again, i doubt i can imagine the full extent of what you're going through)

i probably have more issues, but hope you’re fine! <3

12:05 Damn, even Katana is giving you life advice. Jokes aside, I feel like i relate a lot with your situation. I would talk about it, but that's gonna take wayyyyyyyy too long for me to collect my thoughts. Hope you get well!...? Think that's how that works

havent ever watched your content before but holy shit this was a godly algorithm pull the feeling of not knowing what the hell youre meant to do or be and just feeling absolutely nothing is so relatable personally its just too many things to wrap my head around and i just end up never making any choices and never push through with anything anyways, subscription earned. would love to see more content like this (edit: if youre fine with making more content, of course. it feels rude to make a comment like this and then forget a crucial point lmao. at the end of the day its your choice to post more, and if you dont end up wanting to, thats alright too!!)

this goes into the relatable playlist

I think you may be speaking for an entire generation with this video, years ago this freedom we have right now was uncommon, that's why I'm presuming most people go "traditional" to this day.. but this freedom can be suffocating too, not knowing where to go and how to is valid. I myself haven't found my full purpose yet, I've tryed many things, but to a sort of similar fate I found myself not enjoying it. One of my purposes is to take care of people, but I won't get into that. I just wish you luck and I'm glad you made this video, every deserves to be heard. I hope time treats you right.

I honestly just saw this today and uh- i feel honestly really bad - you honestly dont need to make videos when you cant or dont feel like it- or even when you cant. . Not everybody does great at first but trust the process of life apha. There will be a point in life where - you'll find the right path again!! You are doing great. God bless you and stay safe ( im currently still in the video, pls dont mind it )

I can relate to some of the things you are saying but I know that I’m not on the same boat as you. But, I do hope things get better. ANYWAYSSS have some money because I just feel like giving money 👍 (Ngl I had trouble learning how to give money on KZbin I barely ever do this lmao)

me when capitalism.

I can feel the general consensus of what you’re going through at the moment. One huge moshpile of lack of motivation, unsatisfaction with interests, having no direction on the future of your life, personal issues, etc etc. It’s a huge mess to go through, but I’ll always be hopeful that you’ll come out on top one day. Hopefully I didn’t misinterpret or misunderstand anything you said, just here to let you know that I’ll always cheer you on. Don’t forget to take care of yourself too, drink some water.

some of these things r a bit too relatable. anyways, i hope you get better Aphazune <33333

Wdym? I know who are you! I know where you live (By the way, i hope you get better)

don’t apologize for not uploading for your viewers and fans - at the end of the day i don’t believe viewers should overly DEPEND on a content creator for idk, anything at all. i feel like uploading when you feel the want or need to / following an upload schedule in order to have a paycheck is fine, but your own needs and health matters the most in all of this i believe. hell i watched your streams on university mornings and it was fun chatting, but i wouldn’t feel cool if i know you are in agony every moment because of the streaming (which is an exaggeration, unless streaming genuinely makes you feel terribly stressed and puts you in pain) i do get part about not having motivations and goals - back then i’d say i had no dreams and had nothing to work towards, no passion for anything in my life whatsoever, now even though i’ve chosen for a while that i want to become an animator for my future? the future is still foggy, i’m not sure what my ultimate goal is, and right now the steps i’ve been trying to take seem minuscule too. right now i’m in my first year of university and i do have a bit of a side job infrequently, but yeah, logically speaking it does feel like we should have more realistic jobs - what if i do get to animating and get laid off from idk, AI or something? i kind of lost track of what i wanted to say mid-comment, but all i’m wish is that you’ll find a path for yourself in the future, whether it be the near or a far future. funny cause i have no passion for anything in life too, and i chose art cause it’s really the only thing i feel interested in - and i don’t wanna do video game contents, feels too overwhelming for someone as isolated as me. but i believe in you and i think that you’ll find a way, and i wish you the absolute best for what’s to come (high likelihood that this comment is completely incoherent, my bad)

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i saw u in the lobby lol that was cool i recognized your name quick

Not through the full vid but this is a really, *real* watch. I relate to A LOT of the stuff you said. These struggles don’t last forever and I hope you get through them soon tho Apha ❤ from smone also sorta going through the same things

heyo , finished watching the vid and understanding your pov on how are you feeling rn , first of thanks for telling us and we wont force you to make vids . mostly do what feels right at the moment and enjoy it even if its good only during the making of the vid or writing or anything. Sorry to hear that you got laid off , job finding is hard in general because of capitalism. Anyways get better soon and just enjoy. I would like to see what you write tbh! So yeah , get some rest and just know that we enjoy what you make and goodluck on finding what make you happy. (it was hard for me find something i enjoyed nor like but we know you can find something , just take your time and have fun finding it mostly!)

Aphazune, Aphazune. I'm so sorry for what youre going through. I don't, and never will, truly understand. Like I said before, I truly hope youre okay. Though I have not watched you for long, I would like to thank you for sparking a true love for this game. I remember watching your Scrim video and thought, "Huh, maybe I should try this game again," and now I'm here. Thank you for everything you've done for this community, for me, and everyone else. I hope you recover from your situation.

Sorry to hear all that has been going on for you recently. While I don’t experience it to the same degree you do, it can be very hard to do ANYTHING when you just feel NOTHING from doing it. As much as I could talk about life being more than just satisfaction, it is the driving force for 99% of people to keep doing something. One piece of advice I will give is that it’s very important to be able to work on your job (this does NOT apply to hobbies) without waiting for motivation/the feeling of satisfaction to drive you to. You absolutely should pursue a path that you enjoy the most, whether that be KZbin or a more “traditional” route, but the first and foremost reason you are doing that job is to make you money so you can live. Motivation will come and go, and it is very important to keep pushing through when it is absent. As for hobbies, don’t force yourself to do something if you don’t like it, and always be open to trying new things, simple as that.

I wish I had some sort of solution for your problems but I don’t, I went through this too, and I don’t know how I got out of it, but it happened, so I wish you luck ❤ “I could be a sponge” - Apha

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Heyo! First of all, applause: 👏👏👏👏👏👏 And secondly, thanks! For being a good friend. :]

I hope youre okay Apha. Thank you for everything, stay safe! (still watching vid rn)

Yapping + Asmr. My favorite but I hope your doing okay Apha!

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Get better? Skill issue? Nah fr hope you get better! Phightpit has been an amazing experience!

Hooray!!!!

this was super helpful thank you

If Phighting was even payable on something like a mid phone i bet you my bottom dollar it would have 3k players always

This one was a match

we live in the bad alternate reality now

because op

honestly i kinda liked, or atleast was fine with, the lack of goals because frankly i just enjoy playing for fun than results. it would definitely be nice to have some goals, but probably nothing too extreme. having it be high quality skins and making them very hard to obtain, would be nice. just getting to talk to people and play with them, atleast for now, is more than enough reward. and ive yet to participate in an event, but having goals that are easier for new players to each (win/play __ rounds for: ___) would be nice. obviously the counting of rounds won or played would start at the time of the event. (assuming the events weren't like that already, and in that case mb)

1:27:35 katana q to death

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i usually go head first whit my skate intro a team and shred their hp whit the m2 spam and when they get under half i start beating them up. is this a good strategy or should i change?

What game is this?