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it's been several years of this now. you know it's bad when you don't even know how many. just several. it's chronic. i stay up late, sleep in, and waste time online. i'm homeschooled and i don't want to be homeschooled, but my mom says i'd be late every day if i went to public school, and she's probably right. it has been more than 5 years since i last had a friend. the last time i spoke to someone my age was nearly 2 years ago, and in a mental hospital at that. i don't like to spend time with my family, and sometimes even having my dogs in my room is too draining. the more i sleep, the more tired i am when i wake up. i feel like i pronounce my own name incorrectly. i feel taller than everyone even though i'm on the shorter side, and ceilings always feel weirdly low even when they're not. i hate looking at the sky because it inevitably leads to a train of thought about the nature of colors, light, sight, and existence. it feels like a balloon is being gradually inflated inside my head, and my brain is being slowly crushed by the pressure of compressed nothingness. everything feels too close to my eyes and it's exhausting to just see. i wish i could just shut off my eyes for a few minutes- not just seeing nothing, but not seeing at all. i want to be free- it sucks that i have to continue to maintain a human existence despite not feeling human.

Kolbsland (also your art is so cool❤)

That's amazing!!!

just spawned in the city with almost no recolection of how i got there after my stresslevel was on its peak and almost passed out on the spot

How the heel- THIS IS FREAKING BEAUTIFUL. THIS CAN- NO, NEEDS TO BLOW UP!!!

the thing is i don't act as if i was the best even when alone i can feel superior to others like i can shift from "i'm a disgusting and useless being" and "no one can compare to how amazing i am"

NOW DRAW THEM PREGNANT👹👹👹👹👹💀💀💀💀💀

Traditional is more detailed tbh but both are amazing!!

I hate both uh uh no

The lips

OMFG CAN WE JUST TALK ABOUT YOUR ART STYLE AND DESIGN FOR HIM OML. Your art style is magnificent and it hurts my soul to see that this only has 9 comments and 300 something likes! Im copylinking so goddamn fast because you my friend need some recognition!!! ❤❤❤

YOU ARE THE ONLY PERSON I KNOW THAT HAS SUCESSFULLY YASSAFIDE ANGEL... WOW

ateeee😍

I was like ok angel dust luv this and then BOOM JUICY lips😂 no hate btw

Listen I love digital but I feel like traditional takes a bit more effort and skill.. depending on the person ofc, but I am going to have to go with traditional

Two suggestions (no hate but) please make him less feminine. Also, please change the lops (again, no hate. This looks awesome, but unless you're going for this, I won't hate but just a suggestion. Also love the art❤

DIGITAL.

Me: okay. My friend: SMASH

AHHH I CAN’T CHOOSE THEYRE BOTH SO GOOD HELP

Perfect. ❤

sucks to sometimes feel superior to everyone around you in every way. feeling prettier and smarter than everybody else, and then suddenly you start to feel ugly and worthless again. it's so confusing to not know how you feel about yourself you start losing track of who you are, until you look at the mirror and can't recognize yourself.

I adore this, kite is everything<3

HOLY CRAP I NEEDED THIS SO MUCH WE STAN KITE <33333

I just really wanted to thank @Moo-Moo13 for making this playlist. It helps me a lot with my anxiety and panic attacks.

i dont know if its depersonalization, but sometimes nothing feels real...

ooo i really like ur drawing looks such cool :D

woah that’s so cool

how tf this not blow up?

I LOVE UR ART AAAAAAA

SO COOL!!!

Love!!

OMG SO COOL U NEEF WAY MORE LIKES AND VEIWES❤❤❤❤

HOW HASNT THIS BLOWN UP 😮😮😮😮😮

This is a new queen/king right here 😌

It's confusing cuz at the same time I'm a fucking god but I'm also a loser lmao

That’s good❤

😜 P R O M O S M

I have suffered from DPDR for 3 years now, every day i suffer from it. When i wake up, It attacks me again. I dont get a break, nothing. I feel helpless, And feel like i wont get help on time. It feels awful, Everything triggers my DPDR. I cant do anything, I try to do fun stuff, but i feel so so numb, My feelings feel so so numb. I feel like giving up, on everything. Im so so so close to just ending it all, I cant do this anymore. Everyday will be the same. I cant do anything about it, I dont think ill survive.

So basically... Megalomania.

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That’s really good!

cool

Feeling like your problems aren't real as everything else gives you more tools to deal with them

IM IN LOVE WITH UR ART STYLE

is it wwierd if i want to do wierd things to myself, like when i knew i had to wear glasses, i thought abt wanting to be blind, i stopped wearing my glasses, i thought of wanting to cut much deeper and put a knife in me and take a lot of deferent meds, jump in the stairs to breack something, in roller, falling on purpose to hurt something, idk why i have these thoughs

i want to be dead

i wanna die

i feel high, but i'm not, and i'm blind

im not diagnosed, i don't even think i have it, it may be just like adhd, i talked abt having it maybe to a lot a friends, it just feels like me, but idk, maybe i'm lying again to myself, yk, i was never really present in my body or mind for a lot of years, i always knew i was not like evryone, this is why i'm always trying to understand my feelings and mind, it was always like this in my life, i felt so sad when i realised i wasn't there for a lot of years, i don't remember the memories clearly, like they are not mine, but i wish i was not like this