Today I was talking to my guy friends then later he said goodnight I said ok good night he replay with ok talk to you in the morning love you I didn't say anything back because.. He said love you that made me cry so much because no guy has ever said love you.. Only my ex and as soon as he said back all I could think about is my ex gf.. The word love you kills me so much idk why I just don't think that I can love anyone I miss her and him saying love you.. Just made me go back to crying and thinking of her it's like I'm stuck in words that she said when people say then to me I can't stop crying like the world'butterfly' kills me because that was my nickname when I was with her I would cry and cry if I saw a butterfly .. Because I would think of her I hate myself because of it

yk it's bad when you watch every videos of this type of video. (can't thug it out with this anymore)

I see only 2 options to my life, continue living in conditions i will hold private or take the pills i hold in my room every day. I really don't know what i want to pick.

The fact that I try so hard so love but in the your friends CAN GET SOMEONE IN 1 DAY AND HAVE 4 but I got to sit here and listen to them talk about there zoom calls with there gf or bf and I got no body for 7 year's I been looking for someone to love me at this point I just sit in my room all day dream about someone that would love me someone that would not hurt me I don't have any brother sisters or anything like that so it's not many people I can talk to I starting vaping and wanting to get high when I was 12 because I feel like if I did that people would be nice and it would make me stop crying

i tried to kill myself the day before my birthday

name of the first audio

i just want this to end

8:07 audio?

the sexual tension between the roof of mouth and a 12 gauge shotgun

Hey ewa, It's been a year, are you still alive?

29:40 to those who need to hear it

I'm so tried I been used so much I don't even try anymore my heart is so cold because I never been loved so I stop saying yes to guys and said nah I'm good because I don't want to get hurt I been by myself for 5 years I actually scared of love because I know they will leave me I never told anyone I was hurting and wanted someone... Because I don't want then to worry and they probably don't care. So I will sit up all night and game and try to block out every thing I have meet guys but I never feel happy with them anymore it's like making me love someone hurts so much. I don't know anyone who am I? Why do I hate love is it because I am so hurt by it? Or is it because no one really likes me and just wants me for my body it's all ways like that I remember in 5th I was about to leave and a guy said 'hey that guy over there said you some fine chest' I didn't even know what to say because I was mad and sad so I just walked away I cried in my room for 4 or 6 hours a day that is why I just stop liking guys and I got with one girl I didn't really feel happy because she was in a different country at the time and 4 years older than me but it didn't last long because she never really liked me as much she said that she I didn't like the way I never really talked or smile.. I didn't say anything I knew it was true. That was a 1 year ago. I don't miss it as much as I miss my first guy but that was 5 year's ago. I feel sad and lonely I think I just hate love I'm scared I didn't even know how to say I'm ok I cut myself so I feel something I want to die just to see God because I know he is happiness

i need to go to bed…

GUESS WHOS BUYING A SHOTGUN AND ONE SHELL😂😂🥰🥰🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

i dont even need a gay son or a thot daughter question to consider suicide

the romantic feeling i get when the gun touches my head

I can't believe I'm back here. I'm on the verge of sober. Here I am

Im rlly gonna do it 🤪 😂

4:53

i gave up

I'm going back to a worse school year 😹⁉️🦅

8:43 that makes me happy.

Im so depressed 2 months later im still as heartbroken as i was nothing feels the same. Everything is so empty. I dont want another person. I just want us back.

my summer isn't summering anymore

real

listen to this all night knowing im gonna die alone🙏💯🔥💯💯🔥

born to be grateful, force to be alone🔥🔥🤣🤣💯💯

Waking up is the worst thing ever😂😂😂💯💯💯🔥🔥🔥🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

when you realized that comment "real" won't solve the problem.

it feels like everyday is the same. Same stuff, different day. Despite the troubles i go through, I will remain strong in my faith in God and trust in his plan, because he is the God of all things.

Yep no I heard "Jesus was trans" EXCUSE ME??

it is what it is

real

real real real real real

i dont even feel happy anymore and I try to be but it's Impossible

im fucking ass

SHE HASN’T TEXTED ME SINCE FRIDAY LMAOOOOO 😐😐😐😐😐 (NIGGA ITS SUNDAY ND I TEXTED FIRST )

i dont even what to say..(im really tired of this bullshit)

Im gonna jump

My whole life i was told i am too skinny now everybody tells me im fat they never said your normal i just want to be accepted i cant do this anymore

I just wanted to end it then my dad knocked on my door i ignored him and then he kicked my door in because he knew somehow what i was doing gotta try it next time 🤷‍♂️😂

thanks twin we ball 🤞

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Love 💕💕💕 the polish audios Thank you so much bro Love you all brahs ❤❤❤

bruh

really?

lol

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