But the old you keeps coming back at least in my case...I feel the old me coming back more and more everyday no matter how hard you try to kill it still resurrects it's apart of your identity and being...hate drives me it fuels me I do not like this feeling but lately I've become cold and just numb, somedays I say I'm ready boss you can take me anyday..I'm too far gone and I know it and it's ok. Whatever plans god if their is one are gone, I've done so much bad to people forgiveness is out of my reach..I can't change my outlaw ways I wish i could but deep down I cant