@@queerdor I have serval Amazon Echos and Google Homes, but if I'm passed out due to the medications and diabetes the life alert isn't going to help.

@hellocupcakeitsme there are one that track if you haven't moved for awhile they will sent help. That's the type I was suggesting because of your concerns.

@@NewJerseyTom about 4yrs old give or take

@hellocupcakeitsme It seems like it's stress-induced when going to the vet. And if somebody visits the house and they try to pick him up. Only lasted about 30 seconds.

@NewJerseyTom it could also be a condition called Crawling Skin Syndrome. I had a Maine Coon who developed it and it presented like seizures too and then one night she just went completely limp and wouldn't stop screaming. First thing in the morning I took her in and had her put to sleep. A few years later this cat started having them too. After blood tests and things it was found that she had cancer and fluid build up on her lungs. I thought I was just taking her in for a cough and ended up having to come home without her. I had her for 14yrs and it damn near killed me. I was so horribly depressed. My cat now is thankfully healthy but I need to get him in for a check up soon.

@queerdor I order them directly from the printer.

@@kellyhuffman5082 yet very few know his name today. This is why we need to teach LGBTQIA Histories

@hellocupcakeitsme i a gree worh you

@queerdor yeah I looked into the media rate for my mom and if I sent it that way she wouldn't have gotten hers until the 30th

@hellocupcakeitsme yeah it's definitely not for fast by a set holiday delivery but for books and stuff it's definitely a great rate for sellers

@queerdor I may consider that for later sales as I'm going to be doing it privately. I'll need shipping info for each region that way I can factor in the tax and price of everything need on shipping location.

@queerdor well literally just that. It's caused some arguments between people. I've mentioned before that where I expected getting support im not and where I never expected to have support I've gotten it. There's been arguments over deadlines. Over editing. Arguments with my editor. Arguments with the publisher. Augments with family. One of the people who walked out of my life back in August, we had an argument over my book in general, and they were pissed because they too were writing a book and couldn't belive how "easy" it was for me to shoot past them and how they were struggling and put a lot of their shortcomings on me. Even though I was showing them step by step what I was doing. The resources I had found etc. That wasn't the reason they walked out on our friendship. But there's just be a lot of hostility and anger and negativity that I've not talked about because I don't want that energy in my life, in my book, in my social media, nor anything else I do. So talking about it I feel gives it the ability to take root and stay longer. But most of my recent depression has come from those things I'm not talking about on my platforms. I'm pretty transparent in most of my stuff, but I keep A LOT to myself too.

@sierra9713 yeah my very first time was really hard. It was the whole mental mind F knowing it was going to be cold but not realizing how cold because it was like 40° outside so the water had to be in the 30's. But what was really surprising was the cold turning into a "burning" sensation. I honestly find myself looking forward to it. But so far the hardest was windy and wavy. Having ice cold water hitting you in the face plus the wind chill was a whole new level of "damn this is cold" lol

@@queerdor the fangs? I think I got them at Spirit Halloween.

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Because they want to make the most money possible. That's why I say to take a picture of the items on the shelf and show them the picture. And on some cases they can get in trouble.

Yeah I'm only doing paper and ebook if I can get the dang thing back from the editor

@hellocupcakeitsme your doing is as a spiral binding also correct? It will make it alot better for the writing sections.

@queerdor I don't plan on it because I think spiral bound where it would make it easier, would diminish the perceived quality of the book. I know I'm less likely to buy a book of it's spiral bound. Plus I believe it adds to the cost and isn't something I could get a recycled option for. If I could do it and it was recycled and a covered spine and wouldn't significantly increase printing price then id go for it. But I'm trying to keep my cost down to keep the cost down for those who would like to buy a copy.

@hellocupcakeitsme that is fair I did know it would be more in that format

@queerdor ill be self publishing through Amazon, and Barns and Noble. I'm also working on getting the book set up on Google books, Apple books, and Kobo.

Thank you!

@drellz9361 thank you. When you get your channel up and going please let me know :) However my confidence wanes from time to time, but such is life right?

@@hellocupcakeitsme I luv your authenticity you keep it real too much fakeness on KZbin and in the world luv those who are honest I will definitely let you know

@@drellz9361 ❤️

I'm so sorry to hear that. Losing someone is never easy. I keep a picture of her in my living room as a reminder that no matter how shitty I'm feeling too always answer the phone. I don't know if you've watched any of my more recent videos, but I'm in the process of getting a book published that is a daily affirmation book. These were little affirmations that I used to help myself get through some though times. I had to rewatch this video because I honestly couldn't remember what it was about and I can't believe it's been 6yrs since both my friends passed. It seems so short yet a whole life ago. I hope you enjoyed the video and encourage you to watch the others. Sometimes they are really upbeat other times not so much, but that's the joys of mental health.

I'm trying!

@@drellz9361 no thankfully I'm not in need of one right now. I did try to get qualified a few years ago to have someone come in and help me once or twice a week but couldn't get approved.

@drellz9361 yeah it has really messed with me and I'm hoping that it's just miscommunication and life being in the way. But my heart is telling me otherwise, and I know it to be true. But I cannot expect to change and grow if I do not allow growth to happen organically.

@@hellocupcakeitsme yea I understand remember you are human and you have needs so you have the right to feel the way you do and so do other people, the hardest thing to accept is knowing that nobody cares about us but it is also the most freeing I think you are amazing once you truly understand that you will go even further in life.. learn not to take too serious because we will all die one day and no of this will matter so remember you only get one life don’t waste it on people who don’t value your time and energy channel that into something else like art or music ! When you focus on what you love the people who belong in your life will come naturally

@drellz9361 all true. But it still hurts because you think these people are your friends and spend weekends, holidays, birthdays, etc at each other's houses. Call each other with updates about each other's day and have inside jokes and everything. Then to make things harder dealing with one parents addiction and passive suicide, missing another who has passed away and their birthday just hits differently this year for some reason. Plus regular depression. And just super stressed out about trying to get my book taken care of. I just got to go through the phases of grief. Right now I'm in anger.

@drellz9361 well thank you. Sorry I'm just seeing this comment. I'm still trying to figure out how KZbin propagates the RSS feed from Spotify. I'm techie but only to a limit 🦖

im trying to. But you know how depression works it just sneaks up on you.

@@hellocupcakeitsme I had kidney dialysis needles in my y right arm at least 4 years. Now those blood flowing veins are clogged. I had one scope of mu right arm. The doctor tried to clean my veins (blood?). Next day at kidney dialysis place they couldn't get any blood from my body!? That's weird & something I never previously experienced before. Then I went trice ti a surgery location in willow springs IL. They 2wice installed a plastic tube left of my right shoulder. I'm feeling very good. The best thing is to never worry about anything. I was in riversedge rehab place in high school. Those were the days my friend. Enjoy. Bon appetite

Hey,? I poured Pine Saul cleaning liquid. 🍾 🛵 🎸 🥜 🗝 keyboard 🎹 smelling floor cleaner......on TV won't get fooled again The Who

@wallsmartsme oh man I'm sorry to hear that. I know people have it so much worse than I do. I'm appreciative of the stories you and others share. But I keep pushing on. I know my rough day would be someone's best day. I just got to try and keep that in perspective. I lose sight of that quite a bit.

@@hellocupcakeitsme keep pushing keep pushing on

No the picnic is to raise awareness for emergency situations and to connect people with resources within the community. So if I attend the picnic I'll be passing out information about local resources and mental health services in our area. The community fair is a typical carnival and live music family experience. Again I'll be passing out resources and having games people can play and promoting my book at both during that time.

@Roscoesadie Brad who?

@@hellocupcakeitsme phone losers of America in KZbin

@Roscoesadie no I hadn't heard of that show until you mentioned it, and I just looked it up. I used to watch this Muppet show called Crank Yankers back in the day.

Oh man I'm sorry about the leg swelling. I'd have to look up the meanings of dreaming about this items.

@@jonathanp89 well I'm "sorry" you're getting pissed off. But I've lost many friends and family members to this horrible disease. Also if you read in the description and in the comments it does say that I have dyslexia and dyscalculia which means that I transpose numbers and letters and if you've been a consumer of my content for any length of time you would also know that I have diabetes which when your blood sugar is high and your nervous and everything else affects a multitude of things so if you would like to shoot me your email address I have about 10 more videos that I would like to do if you would be willing to voice them over as a service of love as my channel isn't monetized so I wouldn't be able to offer any thing in compensation.

@hellocupcakeitsme I'm ever so sorry for the friends you have lost, and please accept my sincere apologies for rushing to judgement.I just thought you were doing it as some college research project a d couldn't be bothered. I'd be happy to narrate, but I don't want to post my email here? ❤️

Having a letter/ voucher stating that I need a 2 bedroom will get me into a place faster as there's a higher turnover rate (this was told to me by the manager who overseers 3 different properties in the area) . Also, having a second bedroom will give me a space for working on my book, taking online classes, doing my podcast & KZbin channel and can also serve as a meditation/spiritual space. And when I have family visiting me they'll have a place to sleep.

Dude he’s blind he’s blind and he drew the whole book, how selfish do you need to be not to be able to celebrate someone who has accomplished something incredible. it might not mean a lot to you but that shouldn’t diminish the work he put in and challenges he had to overcome. In short think before you speak and maybe don’t always assume the worst in people trying to make a life just like you but with their own challenges 🎤💧

The book is a beautifully illustrated picture book with a positive message about family and adoption!

Watch his latest video about his book actually getting banned. And how the lady who he was originally dealing with got fired. And why would he offer wholesale resell? Do you know how expensive it is to publish a book? What that book store was blatantly homophobic. But because of it, there's several other stores that have ordered copies and more still. I hope the lady who got fired files a lawsuit for wrongful termination or that the ACLU gets involved. But another company will probably snag her up in a heartbeat.

Thank you. Do you have a video suggestion maybe I can cover it.

Trust me people dragging me in the comments for my ability or inability to speak on this subject or any subject matter it's the least that I deal with I have people telling me that I should unalive myself and everything else all the time. Thank you for your support and for watching my video(s) and if you've subscribed.

@@hellocupcakeitsme They’re weird@os! Tell ‘em to take their own advice!!

Okay, so did I! It was us that helped a lot of guys transition. Why would you leave such a rude comment. If you don’t like the content or it triggers you why listen?

Thank you!

I'm so very sorry. American's health care system sucks. I hope that you can find a doctor who will do holistic health treating all of you, not just stuff compounded by the medications they're giving you.

I lost a lot of friends to it and watched as it tore the community apart. Sorry for the bad reading, I've got dyslexia and get flustered. Any part of LGBTQ history you'd like to see covered?

Your reading isn’t bad. I’m dyslexic as well. But mine is mainly with numbers. Could you do recap of Todd Nice. (Todd’s Greatest Regret)

It's scary all the shit the government(s) are trying to pass off as medicine.

Yes it really is .And if you watch this video it shows you how they engineered the AIDS pandemic kzbin.info/www/bejne/gpO8nGB6d7CDn8Usi=SxX3VXwm_g6-lTDF

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I try to buy they're those times when I get bogged down

I was so happy to see him. I see them all the time swimming around, but never really hunting or eating like that.

Yeah I was so happy to see him. I've never seen one eating something they just caught.

Well thank you for watching what you could. I'm dyslexic and diabetic which my blood sugar was high that day which affected my eyes. I did the best I could. I'll be doing more of these videos in June. Maybe I can find someone who would be willing to record them for free 🤷‍♂️ accepting volunteers 😊

I’m sorry but that woman’s comment was rude and insensitive. You answered her with class and finesse.😃👍✨💖✨

@danityvanityinsanity thank you. However, I make no qualms about my sort comings. I've had worse said to me in the almost 12yrs of having this channel. I do it and share my personal story and struggles for those who can relate, and for those who may not have the courage to voice their own short comings, whatever those may be. For those who come forth from the either to connect with me or share their public acknowledgements, it gives me purpose and drive to continue on. Right, wrong, or indifferent, I know I'm not everyone's cup of tea, thankfully there's other beverages to imbibe 😊

She wasn't being rude, it was a very fair comment. It was not a personal attack.