Also I'd love to hear about things y'all have learned from the specialist, since I'm personally terrified to go to therapy about DID, so any help outside of therapy is always welcome!

Yall are too nice 😊 Thanks for the kind words 💙🙏

Hey thanks for your question! Definitely noticed a lot of side effects over the years. Emotions was a big one that was impacted p early on. I’d say we became a lot less prone to becoming emotionally overwhelmed and our mood became much more stable. Despite this (or maybe bc of it?) frustration and anger have definitely replaced what before was mostly bouts of sadness. After starting our meds tho all of it has really stabilized & we’re able to have a lot more self control when we are triggered. Which means we’re able to self-regulate easier. The crying thing has impacted us some but its not like we can’t cry. It just usually takes some actual emotional conflict to get us to (before we’d tear up at the drop of a hat LOL). I hadn’t thought abt it before but we’ve definitely had more Sterling & other previously dysphoria-prone parts fronting more. Unfortunately Esme in particular has struggled w/ the changes & prefers to spend as little amount of time in the body as possible nowadays. We were worried abt the impact it’d have on our libido due to our hypersexuality. While it has increased our drive it’s also corresponded w/ us having less self-harmful sexual activities? I’m not sure why but the type of activity we gravitate to has def become more healthy since starting hormones. One negative impact we def weren’t expecting is we’ve started to look a lot more like one of our male family members who abused us. At times looking in the mirror has caused somatic flashbacks. It isn’t a constant idea in our head but it does often hit out of the blue. Confidence and a feeling of safety are the most important factors which have positively impacted everybody even if they didn’t have dysphoria surrounding the body. For exp bc I feel more physically capable as a protector other more vulnerable parts feel a bit more comfortable existing in the world as well. This all I can think of rn but if there's any more particulars you wanna know abt feel free to ask!

(p.s.: if you seen me send tht message early twice... no you didn't.)

@@TheKairosCollabrative thank you for your thoughtful answers, much appreciated and helpful. More mood stability sounds amazing! Glad to hear self regulation has been easier. Do you think that is from the combination of meds or one in particular? I get the tearing up at drop of hat. We used to experience that too. It’s been better lately, but still more than makes any logical sense to me. Having that not be the case sounds wonderful. That is something I am concerned about, that female alters might become unable, less willing, or just plain really unhappy to front. Thank you for sharing Esme’s experience with that. Sorry to hear about the resemblance to an abuser, that’s rough. Being a protector myself, that sounds awesome. I have actually been worried that being open about being trans in general might be putting us in a more unsafe situation living in southern US. Seriously considering moving. Thanks again Leo! -Sam

@@zenhydrasystem It prolly is a combo of all the meds realistically speaking but as far as what's noticeable for us Prazosin has been the most stabilizing. Could be tho bc it acts immediately so you're more likely to notice the impact it has. But its def been a life saver when it comes to a lot of our PTSD symptoms. It's def harder when it comes to deciding to physically transition as someone w/ DID. Ultimately for us it was a give n take. Someone was gunna end up unhappy but since we're a male-dominate system n the ppl out the most are guys it just made sense for us. We have tried to do little things to make her feel more comfortable like wigs n makeup n clothes but there's unfortunately only so much we can do. It was still definitely the rite decision for us personally tho.

Gondulin! It's great to see you around :) We definitely intended to get back to KZbin throughout our break but time got away from us. But we're still getting back into the swing of things and as of right now a lot of our Patreon perks are on pause. Still using it for polls and updates and the like but I'd honestly recommend holding off on subscribing to it until we're more in the swing of things! We really appreciate your support nonetheless! :) Thank you for being here.

Thank you! Both for your incredibly kind words, and for sharing your experiences. God I can’t imagine how awful it must have been trying to seek help back then. I’m glad to see the research beginning to pay off, at least through professional perception. We’re super siked to get back into making content! We have a lot of ideas we want to manifest as soon as possible :)

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Glad it was helpful! Truly was our pleasure ☺️

Awe! Thanks you guys ☺️ We’ve been keeping up with your channel even in our break and we’re so happy to see everything you’ve been doing for the RAMCOA & TBMC communities! It’s a gap that desperately needed to be filled and your honesty and integrity is so appreciated 💙

Thank you Hatch! 💙🙏 We’re very happy to be back into the swing of things ☺️

WELL SAID! & Tysm! Hopefully you'll see even more of us soon :)

@@malcolmellis7734 Thank you!!! We’re really excited to get back into making content :) We have a whole list of videos brainstormed-up!

Alright bet I got you buddy, I can give you a short summary, a whole essay, answer questions, or just recommend some more channels! Just say what you need :) 👍

@@Otherstar A whøle essay, please! I døn't have anything specifically tø ask ATM. Thank yøu før øffering 🫶🏻

@@LBStoriesCreator Of course, sorry I didn't reply sooner I hadn't seen the notification lol, I'll get to work soon!

@@Otherstar I døn't even get nøtificatiøns until høurs later, sø nø wørries! (Alsø I wøuld like channel recømmendatiøns as well pls and thx)

I'll add more soon if u need, just wanted to start with this

I choked up reading this 😣 Thank you for your extremely touching comment ❤

I’ll let him know ppl are interested in seeing the rest of it! Thank you for the 💙 :) Healing and peace to you and yours

Thank you for your lovely and encouraging message. It’s often more a rollercoaster than an uphill battle but we support each other the best we can.

Good mf question I wonder tht myself

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I'm so glad this helped you! I'm sorry for the late response. Thank you for watching our (admittedly cringy) vlog! 😂