your artwork is so cute!

I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I go through the similar feelings every now and then, these are the signs of depression. I would highly advice you to take a small break, go somewhere nice, talk to a close friend as it heals our soul. Life is precious and we have limited time on earth, try to enjoy it. I wish I could help you, sending lots of love :)

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I will pray for you also. Depression is horrible! I also have battled this in my own life. There is better medication for it these days.

I know how you're feeling and I'm sorry to hear that you're going through this. As crazy as it sounds, when things appear to be falling apart like this, it's so that they can eventually fall into place. Everything feels wrong right now, I know, but soon it won't be that way and everything is going to work out for your highest good. I feel that 2025 is going to be an interesting year for you and though everything may feel hopeless right now, do not give up hope. Just keep going and you will see how it all works out for you. And no, you won't be alone forever. If anything, try to enjoy your single-hood now because once you're partnered, that comes with its own happy but unique and at times stressful challenges. You're a beautiful person inside and out, just please continue to keep the faith and know that better days are coming 😊💜💜

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I feel the exact same way, probably because ive tried my hardest for so long, and zero things work out in the end. There was nothing left to strive for, to hope for. My cup was empty. You cannot pour from an empty cup. Is there anywhere new you could go for the day? Some kind of new experiences to try? I wish i could fix it for you because i care how you feel. I hope your joy is just around the corner. Much love ❤️ bug hugs❤

Sunlight is very important to how you feel, your outlook. You'll be very surprised. Also eating green fresh vegetables, like lettuce or spinach. I hope you feel better very' soon .

Hie so sorry u have to go through this but trust me U ARE GROWING THROUGH THIS and we all are do prouddd of uuu and also if possible please go out and grt some sun like go for a walk or a long drive or a solo date to the garden etc and trust me there is this youtuber TAM KAUR whose videos will probably help you especially her sadness and reassurance related videos and maybe seek professional help if nothing of this works I hope u come out of this soon we all ❤ u and are super proud of u and don't worry u are gonna be super fineee😊

We all feel that way sometimes. You arent alone.Try to think not of purpose but what makes you happy, focus on the the things you enjoy in the moment. We cannot know the future and we don't know the purpose of what we do now and how it's integral to ourselves , others in the future.what helps too is sunshine and fresh air. Take a break from drawing if you are in a funk. It will come back or you will find something new. Try walking hiking in nature or parks. Being out in sunshine really will make you feel more optomistic and you will be out seeing many different things, people and you will get fresh ideas. Try to avoid too much thinking" what's the point". Focus on nature . Hope these suggestions help.

Ankita, please go to a psychologist! You would go to a heart doctor if it was your heart and to a gynecologist if it was your reproductive system. Now the appropriate specialist is a psychologist! Please visit one and feel better soon! ❤

The point is people who really, truly understand and love you. People who share your dreams and want to work to help achieve the kind of changes you want to see in the world. At least, that’s the answer I found. 5 years searching for any purpose or people at all and found nothing, before I finally found that. 🫂 wishing you the best, praying for you and your happiness

Love your video and your accent 😊 very relaxing!

Big hugs Ankita! I look forward to your uploads and even if there isn't a specific topic, just being yourself talking about how you are feeling is a connection that does make a difference for many. Just being yourself brings others joy. Hopefully reading these responses bring you some peace. Reaching out to a counsellor may help as well. You are not alone. Much love 💕🙏🏼

I’m sorry for how you’ve been feeling. I wish I had words of wisdom, but I don’t. Sometimes we can all feel “stuck”. I have found for myself though, that sometimes when I lack direction or motivation that simply getting outdoors and into social settings or activities can help. Even though at those times I just feel like being alone. I think depression tends to reinforce behaviors that make the depression worse. You absolutely have purpose and value.

Hugs, Ankita. I agree with the others, this may be clinical depression. Take good care. And thank you so much for your videos. Edited to add: have you had your thyroid checked? I’m not a doctor - but this might be something to consider. Hang in there.

If someone came to you with all of these feelings, ask yourself, what would you say to them? Why don’t we say it to ourselves? We tend to show love and compassion to others more easily than ourselves. Because you like to read new things, there’s a book by Victor Frankl called Man’s Search for Meaning that really helped me. He went through the holocaust and survived. He is the greatest modern philosopher of our time.

I agree with other commenters that this sounds like depression. If you find that making videos like this, talking it through, helps you, then please continue and we’ll be here to support you. I love your channel because of your relaxing voice and authentic perspective. It doesn’t matter to me how fancy or original the video idea is, I come to this channel because of how genuine and warm of a person you are ❤️

Dear Ankita, what I see in your face is depression, and I feel you want to cry, and that is alright. My suggestion to you is to make an appointment with your family doctor, and explain how you are feeling. I have been suffering with depression for many years. Yes I have medication for the depression, but I still have ups and downs. But I have a friend that I talk to when I feel down and she helps me. I have lost my daughter just recently, October 29th, and it is hard. But I know that I have to keep going with life. I wish I could buy one or two of your beautiful paintings, but I do not have a Visa or credit card. You don't know how lucky you are to be able to use paints and make beautiful scenery paintings, I would love to learn. you are a wonderful person Ankita please know that. I enjoyed watching you cook and hoped you would have another cooking video. But please take care of yourself and take time off if you need. ❤

Please take it easy Ankita! It's okay to feel this way sometimes, you are not alone! Remember that you're appreciated and loved. Maybe you don't feel it now but it'll get better! Sending hugs 💗

I think you are a beautiful kind person. Take sometime to yourself, you deserve it. Much peace and love

I am so sorry you are going through this. These are all telltale signs of depression. Please take care of yourself and your mental health. I have found that volunteering really helps with this. Volunteering with animals, or humans, or with children. Maybe you can volunteer to help kids learn how to paint! That could be a wonderful way to help both you and kids! I hope you feel better soon- you are loved by so so many! ❤

This is depression. Take a break, change surroundings, and rest until your good mood returns.

Sounds like you are moving towards depression Ankita! Take care of yourself! Find a coach to talk to, find your mission...what gives you energy...ask yourself what you can change, add or remove in your life...I much enjoy your videos but you do what you need to make yourself happy! Feeling stuck can sometimes change by making rigorous decisions...❤

Hi Ankita, I hope you are doing as well as you can. I can relate to how you feel and go through these sort of phases several times a year. Please make sure to take rest, this doesn’t necessarily mean lounging around or sleeping more. Rest can come in several forms. Please do things that benefit your body and soul. It sounds like your hobbies are becoming chores to you and that’s ok. Sometimes we get bored of even the things we love and need a break from them, a rest like I said. Don’t force yourself into anything, write down your big ideas and then keep them when you are motivated to complete them. Take things day by day and gradually start to reintroduce these things that you love into your life when you are feeling better to do so. It’s ok to take breaks from things that we enjoy. I think us humans naturally get caught up in worrying about what the point of things are and what the purpose of things are. It’s okay not to know what the point of something is, even doing something because you enjoy it is enough of a point. It doesn’t always have to lead to a life changing impact which I think is important to remember. Comparison is the thief of joy. Improve at your hobbies and crafts because YOU want to improve at them rather than comparing yourself to others and their talents. Your art is unique to you and that’s amazing. If you want to improve, do it because you want to do it and that’s enough of a purpose. I think we also tend to get wrapped up in material items and believe they will solve all our problems. Like you said, even if you buy a home, you will still be stuck with the thoughts. I think it’s important to remove material possessions from the idea that they’ll fix everything because they can bring joy but that may not fix all of the problems. Work on your mindset and once you achieve a goal, make another one. Never stop wanting to grow. I hope you are getting support from people during this time and if it continues, please seek guidance from a professional who may be able to help you better. It’s never shameful to get help! Thank you for sharing this raw and honest video. You are not alone in this and your feelings are valid. I wish you the best in moving forward from here <3

Sounds like depression 😢

Hi Ankita. I'm really sorry you're going through this experience, it's very tough. I've felt this way several times in my life, and I wanted just to tell you that you're not alone. Being human in 2024 is hard. There's so much pressure on us all the time, from so many directions, it's not surprising that we sometimes lose our way or lose sight of the things that can make us happy. Like you, I've always loved to draw and paint and when I'm having a hard time in my life, that is one of the first things I stop doing. Not because I want to, but because I just don't have the energy. I think when we're stressed and unhappy, it can really drain our creative spark; and I think that also affects us in many other ways - after all, as humans it's our creativity that helps us find solutions to our problems, or make decisions about what we want in the future and so on. So when our creative energy is gone, it becomes so much harder to think about what we want or how we can move forward. I'm bad at advice (both giving it and following it!) but maybe I can pass on some suggestions that friends have given me when I've been feeling a similar way. First, rest. Even if you're not able to sleep or don't want to, take time to rest both your body and mind. It's so so important. The second thing is to think about the things you like to do that make you happy, or that make your day a little bit better. Maybe write a list of your favourite things to do. Then each day try to do one of them, even if it's only for a few minutes. Try to do things that won't make you feel under pressure or like you have to achieve something, just do them because you enjoy them and don't think about whether you're doing them "well" or "right" or anything like that. The third thing is probably the hardest thing: be kind to yourself, and don't judge yourself harshly if it takes you a long time to heal from feeling this way. Sorry this comment got so long. I hope you start to feel better soon, and that you have support around you to help you get there. "Tomorrow is another day" - rest, and take small steps to recover your energy and your spark <3

Ankita.... I wanna know more about ur problem... Please make a part two of this video if you sort out something. I will wait for you Dear.

Ankita....what does your friends and family say about this problem? I think you hv a couple of good friends in ur personal life. What do they say about it?

Well.... Ankita, My friend... Did you consult with any Specialist Doctor? I think there are some vacancy on ur heart or something important is missing in ur life which can be sort out by the help of a Doctor. You are loosing interests on some important things of your life. Sorry, my English Spoken is not that much strong that I can make you understand more clearly. I think....may be....not shure... You need to take testosterone booster. Hormonal problems may be....or may be you are tired for walking a lonely path at ur life since a long time. Ankita.... what do you think? Do you need a very gentle, polite and understanding type Life partner?

Hi, Ankita! I'm sorry you feel this way and I hope to send you my support. If shared experiences help, I would like to let you know being stuck like this sounds very familiar to me. A kind of, as you say, 'what's the point in anything?' feeling. Existing without sense. I get this very well. In my case, I later discovered that a lot of these struggles were tied to things I didn’t fully understand about myself, like past trauma or being a high-masking autistic person (I got diagnosed only in my 30s). I’m also currently in the process of assessing for ADHD, and who knows how much of it also played its part in all this. Realizing these things didn’t magically fix everything, but it did give me clarity and tools to start navigating life differently. What you described reminded me of how it felt before I had that understanding. The heaviness, the lack of motivation, even for things I used to love, and the endless question of “why bother?” I’ve found that often when I feel stuck like this, it’s because deep down, I want something badly (often not even realizing what is it exactly that I want) but can’t see the way forward. Sometimes because of fear, sometimes because of internal blocks I didn’t even know were there, stopping me from pursuing whatever is it that my heart desires. It wasn’t until I started working with a therapist that I began to uncover what those blocks were. Progress hasn’t been linear, I've been in and out of therapy for the past ten or so years - understanding a bit, finding ground to go deeper inside myself, getting stuck again, getting back into therapy... but it helps me reconnect with small sparks of meaning and allows to rediscover joy in tiny steps. I know that this feeling of 'what's the point?' can lead to some pretty dark and shitty places in one's mind. I've been there. Last time - as recently as a couple of months ago. But it was just a bad turn, not a dead end, even though back then I wouldn't believe myself. But maybe you'd believe me and feel just a tiny bit better, I don't know. You have so much depth and thoughtfulness - this video alone shows that. Maybe talking to someone about what you’re feeling could help uncover what’s weighing you down and help you find a meaning again. Even if that path looks completely different than what you imagined before. Same as other commenter here, I hope I haven't come across as patronising or something like that. For me, knowing I'm not alone in certain experiences helps make them more bearable. I hope it may work for you too. Sending support!

you are a light and inspiration. thank you for your raw honesty and sharing. i admire your videos and your art and i hope you don't place these expectations on yourself thinking we constant want something for you as a viewer. find your flow and passion that is always there with you. take the time you need. the mind is a very complicated place and i totally understand where you are coming from as an artist. i discovered what helped me was reading into nondualism. if you want check out texts by sailor bob. might interest you but he talks about thoughts and the mind. and awareness. all i can say is you're awesome and i am glad i can share what i've found and relate to you through this way ::)

I hope you feel better soon, life can be hard more often than not and it can be hard to see the positives even when they do exist. It's also very hard once you get into a cycle of negative thoughts to break it. Never be ashamed to seek help either, seeking help is not a sign of weakness but strength.

Sounds like you're in a slump and i really don't know how to help or what to say, other than "oh my heart hurts for you that you're hurting." Because i am also hurting. I've mentioned before i am having the worst decade of my life. I do know however when i had "everything" i was unsatisfied and always unhappy, always uncomfortable and looking beyond what i had (which wasn't much but still everything at the time) for more more more. Now that i have nothing i can see clearly how wonderful my simple life had been, how much i truly had. I can't go back in time however. I don't know what or how to help you and i wish i could. For reference i am a 44 yr old woman, mother to 2 beautiful children. Sometimes we have to go through it before getting out of it. I'm stuck in a place i don't want to be right now and it's taking years and years and still i am struggling. I think about you Ankita and i always think "we would be friends for sure" ❤ I guess i don't have any useful advice however 😢 I'm sorry.

I'm up, because I can't sleep. Dont overthink things, breathe, you are a beautiful person. Be in the moment. Center and ground yourself. Take care of you. Find one thing to let your energy flow. You are appreciated, you are loved.

you channel is one of my favorites. it would be cool if u made a discord server to chat and discuss the topics of your videos, send memes and stuff like that

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John 14:18 “I will not leave you comfortless, I will come to you.” When I feel like this it helps me to talk to God. He has a plan for you and he loves you! I will be praying that God will give you comfort and hope.

This is pretty crazy that you’re posting this video now, because I’ve been experiencing something similar with my artwork as well for the last two weeks or so. What I would say is to shift your focus not towards being better than another person, but beating yourself. If you can run a mile in 10 minutes, and you used to take 20, who cares if someone else can run it in 5? That’s their business and while it’s great to look up to others, in times like these the best thing to do is to focus on improving upon yourself. I’m sorry if this wasn’t very helpful. I’m going through a lot of the same stuff, like I said, so I don’t have all the answers either. Anyway, much love to you. I know I’m a stranger but you are my favorite ASMR artist and the impact you’ve had on my life is immense. 🩷

Im so sorry you're deeling down Ankita 🫤 I think we all experience this feeling from time to time.. I wanted to let you know that your videos really help me and I appreciate all that you do for this community 💜 Try and make sure to give your body enough rest and nutrition to function properly (even when you dont want to). Our minds tend to get a bit wonky when our body is out of balence. Sending lots of love. Take care 💛

Hey Ankita. You pondered the question of "...Now what?" a lot in this video. I think it's a very common and natural state to be in where you're lacking direction or motivation. I've been there too. I can't tell you how to get out of it quickly but just wanted to offer some perspective on what has helped me and how my perspective has changed over the last few days. I myself am also a creative, I used to study art and animation but struggled a lot with the same questions you are dealing with now. I was constantly exposed to such great artists online and in the media, and before long it felt less inspiring and more unattainable. I felt like a failure when I was engaging with art, and then I felt like a failure when I wasn't. We see so much wonderful work around us all of the time that we become so hyper focused on trying to reach their position. I think that on social media, we see a lot of people "succeeding" i.e. earning lots of money, being famous, being really good at a skill etc but it's important to remember that we only see what those people want us to see. In most cases, artists don't post the 9 drawings they did that didn't turn out well before they got to the one good one they feel happy enough to show off. If we constantly see other people posting nothing but their best work (or even just good enough work), we internalise it and see everything we make that isn't perfect as our failure to be like those we see in social media. Inevitably, if we're striving to be like the "perfect artists" we see in media and online, we are setting ourselves up for disappointment and defeat. I believe in the common saying that it's about the journey and not the destination. Rather than focusing on art so that you can become a famous artist or make a lot of money, your enjoyment of it should come first. We feel motivated to learn and develop when the skill we are learning is interesting to us, so if you have to alter the way you approach art to make yourself enjoy it then that should be pursued. This can mean that we have to pursue other means of supporting ourselves in the meantime, but we are still young despite what the world may have us think. Allow yourself time to explore things without any expectations of what will come of it. I was doing some small, casual graphic design work (Not my previous discipline at all) for my local baseball organisation simply through being acquainted with them as a player, and it was there that our captain's partner saw my work and recommended my current college course to me. I'm now on that course and I'm thriving, and I never would have believed that I would find this path for myself through playing baseball of all things. I hope I haven't come across as patronising, I genuinely empathise with what you're feeling right now and just want to tell you that this too will pass.

so sorry your not feeling well in your mind it happens to us all at times, feel better soon 🙂

I just rediscovered your channel and am so glad I have! Such a soothing voice!

Super Asmr Kochvideo. 🤩🤩🤩😋😋😋Jetzt habe ich Hunger bekommen. 😊

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Also camera quality is good

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very relaxing. enjoyed the eating and chatting after cooking