so happy to see you shining brightly my friend

Not to be racist, but some people have more privileges than others. Imo, nice vid tho

I wish you were in San Diego. We have so much in common and way of being... I am learning that this duality is kind of a secret language that the neurodivergent / eclectic types have. If you ever go out on a date and feel like the communication flows effortlessly, that is good sign. Hope you are well dearest! :)

I relate so much to this. I was on adderall for 18 years. Been off of it for almost a year and I am so much happier without it.

Thank you for sharing. You're amazing. Xoxo

A doctor put me on adderall because he said I “looked like add walking thru the door” I said I have bipolar my other doctors said I couldn’t take a stimulant or I’d go crazy” well, this doc assured me I was “immune to schizophrenia” and wouldn’t go crazy. Well, six weeks in on 60 mg a day never abusing it I hit psychosis when I was on a flight to Zurich. I believed I was microchipped. There’s a lot more to the story but the point is the addy did this. I went against my gut accepting that doctors adderall.

I loved this video. You real for that. You did it!!! I have sat in 2nd tooo. Similar experience.

8 months in when am I going to feel some kind of energy?🤟 yes, everything you are saying! Please help!

are you single babe

I have both and I'm sure my Psychiatrist has it right because I get paranoid dilusions without the ADHD meds too. The other meds treat the bipolar well. Everyone is different. Thank you for sharing your story!

Adderall drove me crazy and caused social issues. I had super severe ADHD and the change the adderall did was made it where I went from losing 40 things a day to losing nothing at all, but the other effects were beyond what I wanted to bare. Vyvanse made me live the life that I had wanted to live and never could because of the crippling effect of the ADHD in my life, but with neglect-able side effects . Every one is different and not everyone has ADHD as severe .

Glad to see you posting again. I hope you keep going with this channel!

Encouraging video.

My theory is because you and I abused adderall so much, I also did cocaine towards the end of my addiction which was the ultimate rockbottom. I think we overused our dopamine receptors that it’s damaged and therefore it’s super sensitive to caffeine which gives us energy and focus. I’m 100% sure had I not abused adderall and cocaine, caffeine wouldn’t have affect me the way it does now. Unfortunately or maybe fortunately I have to rely clean eating and exercise for my source of energy and focus which is healthier overall but it’s not a quick fix like coffee or energy drinks etc.. I do think in the long run we’re better off not taking caffeine. Just my opinion 👌

I’m the same way .. so funny I thought I was the only one. I’m 7 years sober from adderall addiction and alcohol. I do think adderall changed my brain where I’m super sensitive to caffeine and even tea to a lesser extent .. your story resonates with my mine 100%. This evil drug stole 8 years of my life. 6 of it while addicted and other two because of the withdrawals.. I would love to message you privately if possible! God bless

Thanks for being honest, some people are like "i just quit and it was easy, no symptoms and loved life immediately with extra energy" ... Liars Honestly in my mind its scary cuz Adderall helps me ALOT with not being messy, being on time, not loop in endlessly idiotic stuff i do when im off meds, but i need to quit at least for a while (i do stupid stuff without meds, crash car Windows, bath in fountains, play videogames for 24 hours) Its hard coming to terms with stopping and being a idiot again

Back in my day, "emotional support animals" were boyfriends. You should get one. You know what you shouldn't have? A college degree.

I have never tryed Adderall mostly because my country does not have it. I have adhd and have been using Concerta and Vyvanse for little more than year. I mostly take them in the weekdays and have weekends off from those. My grades are much better and my work is going much better than before those meds. Because i take only 40mg of Vyvanse (and when i was with concerta i took 36mg) i don't have any problems when i don't have them. Then again my adhd symphtoms are much worse those days. I am gland that i never tryed street stimulants such are cocaine or speed. I am 100% sure that i would be hooked on those drugs. They are also much more different than adhd meds even thought the active substace is same. Also if someone does not have adhd i would recommend to stay away from adhd meds. The biggest problem with Adderall compared to Vyvanse is the shorter half life and i don't see any benefits from L-amphetamine compared to D isomer

Is it possible that the dose you were taking was too high. Also, were you taking it on an empty stomach? I'm not saying adderall could've ever worked for you, but I'm curious if you were taking it in the safest way possible.

Been off Adderall for 4 years and i never returned to my old self. The withdrawal never ended. Went back on it and was happy and back to myself within 20mins of taking the pill. Never getting off it again. I’d rather be called a speed freak my whole life than to live the only life I have depressed getting nothing done. So fuck it. Do what’s best for you.

You should try Jesus, he heals all of you have to do is call on him with all your heart.

Appetite null for me, end of the day it’s insane though. I’ve gone from 280 at the beginning of last summer, just before I prescribed.(when I got into daily mdma use). Current is 185. Motivation is hit or miss, I think that’s dependent on me. I certainly notice myself being more motivated due to the Adderall, quite often. Adderall also has taken away my anxiety big time. I think mainly my MDMA misuse and then replacing it with the meds. Mental health has become frozen due to MDMA abuse last summer, literally -20 degrees, can’t feel the feels. Just my experience, I have only been prescribed for about a year. Time will tell if it worsens, 20mg ER, 5-30mg IR. I piss like a racehorse 20+ times daily. Also require 1-3 gallons of water a day though. I never knew the bladder thing. Wonderful video!! Got my sub for sure, hope all is well!

It’s incredible to see the way you’ve gone. Keep it going

I did online shopping as well. Now that i look back. Now im addicted to podcast or KZbin videos. Some days i dont go on KZbin

My son had to go to in home daycare because my withdrawal off prescription meth had me sick. I could barely take care of myself.

I spent like some weeks eating every 2 hours. Finally that has stopped.

Great tips. I do need alone time but feel guilty staying home and not being with myb4 year old. Poor thing is seeing Mommy go through withdrawal. Im doing it now to have more years with him ..

I also think this drug makes anyone feel great regardless of a diagnose...just some observations

I personally dont think abuse matters with this drug. Because ppl on here are saying they took as prescribed and have WS...I think its just the nature of this drug. Thoughts?

So i didn't abuse my adhd medication concerta. But still in withdrawal from going cold turkey. I was on it 4 years had a baby off that pregnancy and back on for 2 yewrs. Side-effects made me go cold turkey. I didnt know to taper either. First year if withdrawal i reinstated because of withdrawal symptoms. Made it 5 months off then on for a month then off 4 months then went on for 5 days off 2 weeks then on 5 days...now off 9 .months ...im starting to not cry as much and get some energy back. But i have derealization in public and no life to me. Im so blah feeling.

STOP!!! This is not psychosis, this is not schizophrenia. You are just another victim of the testing and development of mind control technology. Hell, doesn't anyone find it weird that people all over the planet have the same hallucinations? That they have a thousand types of hallucinations and paranoia? Can you seriously believe that this is a coincidence? Or how is it explained? How do you explain it to me? I study my mind all my life, I know my mind, I know myself. How is it possible that the lady on the video is describing the same story? That she was a star.. I too, and many other people, experienced the same manifestations! How is it possible?! I was taking lsd, you're taking hallucinogenic mushrooms, I know what a hallucination is. I studied the schizophrenic, from start to finish. He was describing exactly what I experienced many years after his death. It lasted 3 days. But with the difference that she has a mind, she managed the onslaught of information. From the beginning I knew it was crazy, I knew this was going to be hard very hard to prove. To top it all off, during those three days, I also saw where it came from. I will briefly describe. The whole episode happened unexpectedly, in short, it should have happened many times before, and it didn't, then I'm completely calm and fine, and it happens? From the beginning I perceived, the whole situation, from the beginning I perceived, quite clearly, that this was artificially induced from outside. One thing is speculation, another thing is evidence in the form of microwave signal detection at my place of residence. Yes, you read that right, nowhere else does this anomaly occur. Known for a powerful anti-radar, he didn't believe me either, I'm not surprised, but I'm not going to resort to a pleasant self-delusion just to help the military hide this Nazi technology that they've perfected and perfect monstrosity. From childhood I was unknowingly selected for this monstrous experiment. Until then, I did not understand and it was difficult to face repeated failures that I could never explain. I am a bright, young and healthy individual with a high IQ. But I also have ADHD. So I blamed my failure on adhd. Error. My failure was intentional, I couldn't succeed, I had to be in control. I know what it looks like, I know how it appears. This is just another confirmation of what is really happening. I know that every sentence only confirms you that I need help, and me in my delusion. ok ok You know, you're forgetting one "detail" of course, that I'm at an advantage, I'm the one trying to explain to you what's going on. But I'm in control. How do you want to explain to me that every time I start working on any way to publish this information. Then the same things start happening every time. If I didn't have witnesses around me, it would be just another symptom of a serious illness. The sounds, buzzing, clicking of the blinds, banging in the refrigerator, all of this can be heard by the people around me. Imagine if there was no one around me? It would only confirm my illness to everyone. Does it seem normal to you that I feel perfectly fine all day, sane, I don't feel anything out of the ordinary. Until I become interested in this topic. At that point, the intensity of the attack is directly proportional to how close I get to publicly explaining what's going on logically. It happened 10 times in a row. Always under the same conditions. I start creating a video or writing a text.. And it starts subtly, the window clicks, if I don't stop, the sound of a flying plane is added, if I still don't stop, I get hot, the neighbor next door starts cracking up, another one runs up the stairs, there's a loud noise outside yelling, someone calls me at that moment, and these distractions add up until I'm unable to continue working. Until then, nothing, not even a beep, everywhere is quiet. At one point even 7 distracting elements at once??? Really? I'm not asking for help for myself, I'm only trying to make the public... And the more I learn about this technology, the harder it is not to give up. You have no idea, none of you have any idea what is going on. And the one who has such a chance to glimpse the truth, scares him so much that he cleans himself up in a madhouse? So that was my severe illness above, I just consciously turned it off. And I'm completely fine, I'm not missing anything, I'm not in pain, I'm not complaining about anything, we can talk about cooking or work or the weather. So what exactly is the disease? In saying something that is considered a disease? Have you ever had your TV malfunction in such a way that it started broadcasting a completely unknown movie created by no one? Very thoughtful interesting and fun? NO !! Even the computer can't break down in such a way that it would create some bloated program for you in the breakdown. In the same way, it is not possible for the brain to break down in the logical creation of elaborate stories. They have been developing this technology since the 50's.. the whole twisted blind deaf apathetic society is proof of that. Why do people not mind what is happening around them? Is this my disease? Responsibility, and side with the threat? Protesting a senseless war? It's been happening all my life, everyone around this technology has completely succumbed, they toil to the point of exhaustion, they get nothing out of it, mindless fun, an empty life without will. And am I sick? Which one successfully avoided it? So why am I the one whose health you envy? What do I envy? FREEDOM! Thinking and spirit.

This is so unbelievably close to my story, and my timeline, it's downright scary!!! This exact same thing happened to me!!! After the death of my fiancé, the sudden unexpected death, I started abusing Adderall; i ended up not sleeping for days on end... For months.... i, too, ended up in the hospital, and did not see the Doctor, but was diagnosed bipolar without seeing the doctor. Never was manic in my life before, but was prescribed Vraylar, Which at the time was so new.I remember it was given to me in samples at first. Because I did not have insurance either... Definitely made me an Absolute zombie. And when I told my Doctor this, he increased the dose instead of changing it. And this was the Doctor from the hospital because I did not have a Doctor because like i stated, I did not have insurance and, This was around the same time. It was 2017. It was around $1200 a month. I could not afford it anyway. But I ended up losing my license because I pulled over into a parking lot. And into a spot and closed my eyes. Because I knew I couldn't drive at that moment because of the vraylar. Someone called the police and reported an overdose. It was without even checking on me or knocking on the window. Or anything to see if I was okay. I mean, I had turned my car off and I Was being safe...like I was already under, undergoing testing for narcolepsy. At that point. So this whole episode really, really ruined my life. I lost my license that day. For doing the safe thing and I actually am only just now. I am meeting with the psychiatrist in a couple weeks who diagnosed me bipolar, asking him to take that out of my file. Because I am not bipolar. Not that it is anything to be ashamed of if you are, but I'm not. And it is affecting my psychiatric treatment. And I cannot get the proper treatment that I need when they have me labeled with the wrong conditions. So when I came across your video randomly, when I was watching videos about narcolepsy; and your video just happened to be right underneath it. And your story is so similar. I can't even....I'm. I was in shock. I just want you to know. I understand you're pain; and everything you went through. I was addicted to Adderall badly. Ritalin and anything I coild get my hands-on and it's crazy because I DO have extremely severe Narcolepsy type one and u know if you know anything about it ....The treatment for narcolepsy is stimulants. I can't take them. Not even 5 mg of Adderall. Now it affects me in a totally different way. I get instant psychosis, instant panic attacks and just the anxiety is just insane. Even provigil which is not anything good or an amphetamine, it is a nootropic, but it is a CNS stimulant, and I can't even manage that. So I literally am completely disabled due to narcolepsy along with many other conditions, but including bipolar 😅 But I just thank you for this. You Made me feel not so lonely this morning because i've really been feeling it lately. God bless you and I just wish you the best. ❤❤❤❤❤ In life and at just everything you do. 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊

Be careful with benzos! The more you use it and the longer you use it, the worse your panic attacks will get.

Can relate

I also like to go fast

You are very beautiful btw

Thank you for your story! I’m a week off addys and I’m miserable, but I was miserable on it so I don’t think I need that crap anymore

I just dumped my bottle of vyvanse im done with it thanks for the video!! I used to journal but stopped might start back up if it really helps 🤷🏻‍♂️

Thanks for the video Rose!

the PHLEM. the SWALLOWING. I’ve never heard anyone else talk about this. Your channel has been really helping me. <3

No appetite on Adderall was a trip

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Just wondering if you can do a video on nooptropics? Did you ever find one that KINDA works?

Thanks for this! 🫶🏾🩶

Hey everyone! I don’t know how I managed to forget that my voice was also impacted as a result of stimulant misuse. I have some vocal cord damage due to dehydration from stimulant use. This has affected my singing voice and I no longer have the vocal range I once did.

You’re so beautiful!! So happy you’re ok!! I finally got off addys too over a year now thank God. So glad I’m off that devil drug. God bless! 🙏🏼❤️

It’s so helpful to listen to your video and read the comments.. like I’m not the only person who struggles with this.

Do you have the slow COMT met/Met genotype?Adderall is poison for people with slow COMT

Went throught the same thing. From Detroit as well.

I’ve been following you for almost 2 years now, crazy how fast the time has gone but I am so happy for you and proud that you are still making these videos 🥰🫶🏼 much love