How are you now?

Have your symptoms lessened in severity at least over time??

I kinda know that eye... I think after few days I ghost myself on social 😮 media... I ve known since saw you ... And there was no pizza delivery coming at all that evening 😅

After 150ug lsd bad trip my life is not the same, i loose the sennse of my self and the world seems different... I totally emotional numb and i see all the peole like aliens, i have not empathy... I have also no sex drive

Would also love to hear what you think HPPD comes from

I've had HPPD for 10 years, I'd say I've learned to live with it. I've found exercise and just really staying on top of your healthy habits is key

Thankyou I am 16 I am scared. Savu tudor I will take your advice.

thankYou🥺

Are you doing any better? I like the way you speak and your demeanor. You seem like a nice dude. I hope you're okay.

hey! I can understand how you feel and have had my bouts with HPPD. For me dropping all drugs (by all drugs, I mean everything from alcohol, weed to shrooms, also being more careful with my diet) and also adopting a healthy daily routine really helped. Also having friends or family who you can talk openly to really helps. And another thing that I think helped me a lot with anxiety and sleep was CBD oil, but all the above mentioned stuff is really important. Also give yourself time, you will need a lot of it =) (a few months for sure), don't be hard on yourself, give yourself time to cry/grieve/worry but try to be consistent with your routine. I recommend you integrate sport, meditating, breathing exercises like wim hof, cold showers, saunas/hot baths in your routine. And as a final note, I think there is no need to rush for ego deaths and god experiences all that crazy hippie shit, we will get that for sure when we die =). But if you still intend on taking psychs like shrooms/lsd, etc. ever again, I recommend you use very low doses and maybe wait until your brain is fully mature at around the age of 25 ;)

“The psychotic is drowning in the same waters in which the mystic swims with delight” Joseph Campbell Maybe what would help would be to look at your symptoms from a different perspective

Yo

Your very smart bro don’t give up u potential in you. I believe in you man

27, have had hppd for about 8 years now. Hope everyone with this learns to cope and heal the best they can

The psych meds made me infinitely worse. These meds do not allow you to see just how bad they make it because they make you so apathetic. I was on almost every antidepressant antipsychotic and stimulant and Gabapentin. They fucked me up so much more then they psychedelics. I wish I never walked into a psychiatrists office.

I rly love ur channel lol. I have hppd tarkative dyskinesia from psych meds and PWS from benzos. I also love ur keyboard vid. This shit is definatley weird I’ve had this for like 4 years and I think I just am going to have to learn to deal with it. I did HRT (estrogen) and even though it was only for like 18 days it did somthing with my brain and since then I’ve been a lot more visually disturbed especially at night that’s when it bothers me the most.

Yo sir! Took a lot of psychedelicsI had HPPD back in the days, few years ago at your age. (24 now) *It went away* I don't know how, I *was desperate* , went to md who had no idea what to do. Then life happened the symptoms left the picture whitout my noticing. I even forgot about HPPDs. Just like that. What it took bellow>> Life has been rough and sweet and everything in between in the meantime. I am now diagnosed shizo-affectif disorder. Which is another thing to deal with. Also Lion's mane and all of those , need time to help. Even if you don't see benefits it might act, whitout you perceiving it. I felt that SSri seroto related med made my hppd much worse at the time! 🗡 *What may aid in your quest* : 🗡 Lion's mane with patience, Multivitamines, (don't neglect those) Taking some Sun at the park, i know.. Rest and rest and rest Sleep, ;)3 ( when you can) // might help : antipsychotic medications dopamine antagonist Solian at low dose 50mg stay away from SSRIs or seroto related meds Dark Chocolate ⚫ Brocolis🟩(anti inflamatory ) Sport if you can have an indoor bike or something : just hop(e) on and watch whatever content you like while pedaling for 30 minutes 3 times a week or whenever you feel like it, go intense at times it help rewiring your cells to function differently + takes your mind off you HPPD And Patience Something you don't have when you have flashing trees in front of your eyes or fucking visual noise I empathise very much so and your symptoms might disappear. What you want is to do *everything* that take your mind off the HPPD itself. Which doesn't mean it's not there, but at some point it become like something your not bothering about even if its there. Then at some point you might realize it is not present anymore. And also Learn to relax your body by remembering to do so! Take slow deep breaths occasionally OR just One every so often. Go for a run if you can. Take rests just laying down eyes closed whenever you can for few minutes. Listen to music and dance with *eyes closed*. It might seem stupid but added up if you really do follow through it help greatly. I hope you are not feeling like being patronized. because it's simple stuff but it's worth remembering. All of those things helped my brain get off the hppd fixation for sure. What are your thoughts about that? Also how are you?🦙

how were you able to fit the o-rings? my screws were very short and i wasnt able to screw it in :c

I have HPPD so bad that there’s a point where I want to go blind, but I don’t. I just get stuck in a pixelated world with shitty contrast and waves of colors, it’s so fucking frustrating sometimes, and sadly not even one person gives a single flying fuck about this condition, not to sound pessimistic but just realistic. We are never going to recover, and we are never going to found out a cure.

I’m so sorry to hear this. I believe I have Type 1 HPPD after several 1P-LSD trips. For me it’s not too distressing at all but I’ll immediately discontinue the use of that in hopes that it gets better. I feel like a long break will help me. I hope we both heal.

I honestly don't understand this " HPPD" phenomenon. It seems to me much more a situation of lack of understanding about what this world really is. People want to go back to being " normal". Normal is a complete fallacy. You've been given a gift not a handicap. The gift of starting to be able to see behind the curtain of daily reality. This is not a negative condition to run away from.. This is the tiniest little beginning of the process of awakening to the true reality of the nature of being. Once you begin to educate yourself you can change your perspective. Youre very young and have very little understanding about who you are at the moment. You said you woke up and can't remember who you are..thats not a problem .. That's.. Fucking awesome. That is an integral step in shedding the false narratives society has placed you in and which you can now start to awaken out of. Youre not who you think you are. That's what enlightenment is all about. The truth about WHAT you really are is so fantastic and crazy that it takes years a lifetime to fully understand. Thats what your life is for! Theres so much to learn and if you seriously want to make your life better you have to follow that path and learn to embrace this gift you've been given.

4 me organic things don’t aura just concrete or man made structures

I really relate to the sentiment about enjoying solitude more now. I'm not totally aware of your symptoms, and i have non-pathological VSS (the symptoms are often strangely similar to HPPD; I have the colors and afterimages and strange artifacting ) but since the onset of my symptoms, my cognitive functioning is totally different than it used to be and the current way my brain automatically functions is NOT conducive to improvisational social interaction. Really grateful for people in my own life who truly understand and empathize with my struggle. Thanks for sharing, the more thats out there and on the table for others the more awareness and progress we can stir up

Hi thanks you so much for a video! How long did the keycaps take to arrive?

full lyrics WARNING: LONG Many Ghosts (Annihilation) I want to dance But you don’t wanna I’m Madonna Eat piranha I eat the fauna I dress in Prada Hit the sauna But I don’t wanna yeah Gonna need some change To keep it rolling Been shot my brain But I ain’t sold it yet Got the fangs But ain’t immortal yet So many questions So many days Never any answers Anyway So many questions So many days How many times You lied to my fucking face If I could relive the past I might not need a future Internecion (New Year’s Eve) If I up and leave Will you cry for me Cuz everybody leaves Eventually Everybody leaves So we’re making memories You can count of me yeah You can cry on me Make you look at clouds Then I cut you down I don’t like the sound Don’t want you around If I smile at you Will you smile at me if I shed my leaves Will you make me bleed she said she loved me do you think she lied look me in my eyes I’ve got lots of time (yesterday boy, yesterday boy) because I did Supernova (Modern Individualism) I see pictures on my wall Motorola I can’t call Lot of voicemails on my phone I like hearing dial tones I got want you want Don’t know what you need only see what I can see only breathe when I can breathe All my friends long gone being fly y’all wrong now I write a swan song fake nice get along It’s summertime in my mind Butterflies flying by She probably found another guy Stars exploding in my sky Lots of people asking me questions in my mind I don’t got time I got people to fight they’re all my friends They want to be dead Sometimes I do too but i don’t take it out on you But I don’t take it out on you Stop lying to me you should lie to yourself Fuck being human I’m Orion’s Belt the stars in your sky do they shine like mine That’s what I thought you’re not my kind Stop lying to me you should lie to yourself Fuck being human Fuck the cards I’m dealt the stars in your sky do they shine like mine That’s what I thought you’re not my kind You’re not my kind Extreme Violence (Xanadu) don’t care what you want don’t care what you’re going through Hopping on a plane What you gonna do yeah I’m onto you I live in xanadu Living on a noose Find it hard to lose drinking red wine Looking for a sign like I’m a different guy you know that’s a lie Wonder how you’re doing But I don’t really care It’s too cold out there Too cold out there it’s snowing real hard Real heard Where am I going it’s getting dark Getting dark Wanted you to be happy but you’re not But you’re not but you’re Wanted you to be happy but you’re not But you’re not but you’re I don’t want to talk to you ever again I want to be a happy story that you tell to your kids Deer (Wildflowers) do you really want to know got so many sides of me show nothing left here where you wanna go I would kill you but it’s not a movie see right through me driving cars to move me I got lotta lotta lotta fears imma disappear like Sears you know how that feels walking through the streets like deer You had a lot of thoughts today But I’m really far away The sky cries snow back on my face I’ve never seen better days do I look like a machine to you? are my parts painted blue hope you forget about me I only think of me when I see you I Want To Inflict Pain and Be Happy (Glitter At the Onset of Sound) I see pictures I hear sounds Don’t like words how clear they sound I woke up it’s still raining outside blood and time speaking with my eyes brown white and gold I talk to ghosts brown white and gold I talk to ghosts Are you ok with that Do I need to spell it out But there’s so much blood to bleed But there’s so much blood to bleed But there’s so much blood to bleed There’s so much all around me It’s almost quiet now Need noise so loud brain makes no sound Anthropophobia (Popular Music) I’m about to kill you but it ain’t meditated always enjoy talking to you you make me aggravated so many lies to see through so many ways to kill you so many ways to make blue so many things to show you you tell me that you’re bleeding but all I see is feeling that’s why I don’t like breathing i just can’t find a reason (why can’t I sleep at night so many thoughts stick to my mind I want you here by my side now get the fuck out my life I hate everything in sight I get why wrong can feel so right But I don’t get why right’s always wrong Doesn’t stop people from moving on) and I don’t care that you’re bleeding it’s too loud to hear you screaming and I don’t care that you’re bleeding it’s too loud to hear you screaming there’s blood on the dancefloor tonight (why can’t I sleep at night) we’re just doing what’s right (so many thoughts stick to my mind) loving and killing all night (I want you here by my side) I want to show you my life (now get the fuck out of my life) there’s blood on the dancefloor tonight (why can’t I sleep at night) we’re holding on so tight (so many thoughts stick to my mind) loving and killing all night (I want you here by my side) I want to show you my life (now get the fuck out of my life) (My life, my life)

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