I know. We are still so far behind. its sad!

sorry you have that experience in university, a place to learn and grow and be respected for opinions and thoughts!

yes, at the end of the day masculinity and femininity in a lot of ways are social constructions. These ideas vary so dramatically across the globe that it is impossible to actually nail down one universal way of being. I am certainly not attempting to tell anyone what is or what isn't. Language is one of our greatest restrictors but if we all allow each other to exist in the language/presentation they feel the most comfortable in, than the words become irrelevant.

And a lot of people will too. And that's ok. I haven't watched this video in a while so I will rewatch it and let you know what I was getting at and if I feel different these days. Do you remember what minute?

I couldn't agree more. I think that the progress we make some times leaves us in a position to be taken aback sometimes. I get caught off guard from time to time but I think that is a good thing, as much as it can be trying. Reminders of work left to be completed will keep us all on track!

Thanks a lot. Life got pretty overwhelming but I am back and ready to engage again. If you have any ideas as to what to talk about I'd love to hear it. I lost my voice a little the last year so any help is appreciated. Plus I love to see what people are curious about

Thanks so much!!!!!!

Turns out, you're wrong again!

Thank you so much for your wonderful comments!! I am very sorry it took me so long to respond! It's been quite the year. But I am back and I hope you continue to watch and comment. I am sorry the world pushes again your path but your very existence carves the way a little more every day!!!!

Yeah, I do think the idea of labels and boxes, even if we are expanding them with more labels and boxes, can have the opposite effect we are trying to accomplish. However defining me as "Christy" wouldn't work as thats not my name. lol But yeah, I spend a lot of time trying to work to be allowed to just be me.

You are most welcome!!! Sorry it took so long to respond. its been a whirlwind of a year! But I am glad my videos have helped. I know different people often have different approaches to the terminology and may not always agree with me, but I try to use as many ideas as I have learned over the years. Simplify things and just allow people to learn. I really do love the engaging conversations that can be produced when someone asks questions!

Haruka speaks gender rules are social performances/expectations Sorry I meant gender = social performances/expectations

So? Gender rules also aren't the same as gender itself. Gender is state of being psycho-socialy a man or a woman.

Haruka speaks. Gender rules = Masculine/Feminine = Social expectations/performances. Expression is just expression. In reality there is no masculinity or femininity, there are just humans doing (different) things. Female/Woman = Biological sex

Men and Women aren't their expectations and performances. We aren't just our behaviour but also our internal processes. Gender is the state of being male or female in a psychological, meaning also neurological sense. Psychology today is about how the brain makes us us. Behaviorism had its right to exist, when there were no fMRI scans.

Haruka speaks Men/Male or Woman/Female = Biological sex. Gender is a social construct. In reality we are humans. There female humans and male humans who psychologicaly can do/achieve/like/express same things or different things. But society teach people since their birth how to act/do things or what to like/believe based on their biological sex.

Alas, he never responded. I can't say I am surprised as he was facing legal action against him for being accused of violating peoples human rights with his comments. I do not know the outcome of that but hopefully he was found guilty. I just posted a short update video after a year of taking care of life. I will definitely be more present moving forward. I miss connecting with our community

Sorry again that I didn't see this. I am not sure one can put a number on genders. To be honest, I really don't even like the word. Boxes us in too much. I think expressing gender is infinite and is fluid, at least for a lot of people. How we seek intimacy is entirely different and nothing related to gender. Sexuality, whether it be gay, lesbian, bi, pan, etc, or what we enjoy, kink, pain, soft, vanilla, are an entirely different set of human existences. Both equally important, just different things. I think how people express love and romance and intimacy and sexuality is so variant. It changes from mood to mood, year to year, partner to partner. Flows along a spectrum back and forth and as we learn about ourselves, we add to that spectrum. Gender presentation can absolutely do the same thing but has no bearing on sexual pleasure really. It can be a component to pursuing it or how one pursues you, but not in reaching orgasm or pleasure. Hope that helps

Unfortunately no. I am not surprised. I wanted to read it at a local meeting but never got the chance as I missed the timing. He did just lose his defamation suit again someone who spoke out against him so that is good! I also know there is legal action against him accusing him of violating human rights in BC for his chosen words. That is still pending.

Awe shucks! I am glad you are enjoying it. Sorry i have been absent for a bit. I am back now and ready to engage!!!

Thank you so much for sharing your story!! I really wish more guys like you would feel safe to share their stories. Same with butch women who like butch women. We, as a culture, are so stuck in this binary that it is so easily ignored, and even shamed, that a masculine woman might be bi. I know they exist, Keep looking and I will wish you all the wonderful bi butch woman you can find!!!!!

Thank you so much! sorry it took so long to respond!

India was amazing. I posted a few videos and have some more somewhere in all my stuff I will post on day. I hope you check them out!

I hope that's not the case. I know some teachers in our community here and it sounds like its not being applied that way.

You are most welcome!!

ナビイ I never knew y'all struggled with the ponytail. This is a great video for us heteros to learn from.

cblck7 It's very subjective I guess, many girls don't have any problems with that but I particularly feel uncomfortable when people force femininity on me. Of course I know how the world works and I try not to bother, because I cannot control people's perceptions on me. I just wish I wouldn't feel really bad when I do something and people see it as being "girly" even if I don't agree with their definitions of "girly"

And that why the boxes and language are culture lives by makes it so difficult for people to be able to express themselves. I can totally understand why that would scare you. It's probably a very real possibility. I think its great when we challenge norms, even if those norms are the understanding that you didn't and haven't conformed to those norms. Its why I love seeing butch women walk hand in hand with each other! I say go for it. I hope you found a decision that brought you peace. Id love to hear more about what you decided and if you grew your hair out, how you were received! sorry it took so long to respond. Its been a long year

My ex GF teased me because I had short hair when we were together and now it's long. she was implying I'm trying to conform to femininity.. I was like 'no, this is actually lower maintenance than getting a haircut all the time'. Like I literally stopped putting effort into my hair and now it's immediately labelled as "feminine" when for me it's just "natural".

As an adult, my mom told me a child psychologist also "diagnosed" me as trans. Not sure if my mom softened the explanation for me or not but I am sure it didn't come from a place of understanding. After all, it was the late 80's. I'm sorry you had to experience trauma related to your gender presentation. Such a tough road so many of us have travelled, but be proud of yourself for still being here.

Thanks for sending some love. I will take all that you want to ship this way!! lol I plan on basking in all of it!!! sorry it took so long to respond!

Awe thank you!!! You're kindness means a lot!!

My anger usually results when I am met with disdain and disgust. I generally appreciate questions, even if they are inappropriate, as long as they are asked from a place of true desire to learn and humility. the bathroom is generally the place my anger surfaces because that's where I am treated with the most disgust. For some reason, thats where my apparent true deviance is on display. But for the most part, even when angry, I try to handle each situation with care. We are all products of the same prejudices, we all just play different roles in it. I truly believe that when we engage thoughtfully, particularly with those that approach us with anger, we can slowly break down the walls and build bridges. With that said, its not my f*k'g job to educate people, its theirs. Sometimes I am tired and will respond with a sharp tongue and I feel entitled to that because the world treats me really poorly sometimes. but I also know that on those days, I lost an opportunity to take a piece from that wall. But thats ok too. Sometimes we need those walls to protect us!

Butch. As.Woman thank you! And I guess you're right. I should practice being more proud of what I've accomplished so far

It's can be tough to not concentrate on what you're not accomplishing but absolutely don't forget about what you have. Don't ifnore where you want to be but there should be no shame in having to take your time to get there no matter what the reason for the delay! Being here and being you is something to be proud of!!

Well I'm glad I'm not boring you. Ha. I never really know what to talk about on this so feel free to shoot me questions. :)

You are very welcome. Sorry it took so long for me to respond. It took me a while to figure things out but looking back I knew it all along. Your heart knows what's right for you, it's just a matter of workingnuo the courage to listen. At least it was for me. Once I listened my heart led the way.

We butch types have a massive suitcase that's for sure! I'm sorry about your experiences though. The world is a shitty place sometimes but people like yourself reaching out remind me we have a community within all of it. :)

I'm glad my words speak to you!!! It took a long time for me to find them myself. :)

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I have an Instagram account of the same name, Butch.as.woman

Thank you so much! I don't know if I'd say informed, but I do try to keep tabs on all ideas that have been presented to me over the years and then try to express them through this page.

You are very welcome! When I was really doing some soul searching I found there was so few voices out there sharing experiences like mine. I felt really alone so I wanted to bring a voice and a different experience to the conversation around gender and gender presentation. Affirming people's being, people like us, is a huge part of what I'm doing! Thank you so much for your comments. I'm very happy to hear my videos have helped

You can find me on Instagram at Butch.as.woman. Pm me there :)

Did you end up pm'ing me? I'd love to hear from you!

You are very welcome! I'm very happy to hear my videos have helped!

Shucks ☺️☺️☺️ Thank you!

I wonder how many young women this person has dragged into hell with her.

That's a very unfortunate way to look at it but I'm guessing you're coming from a religious perspective here. I. Sure Jesus would agree your approach is going to find you with very warm toes when your time comes.

Perhaps I should be more explicit. Hates gonna find you in hell my friend!

Look at the homosexual talking about God and hell like they have any understanding. God gave you up years ago to follow your lusts and you retain nothing of him in your mind. I only hope the parents around you are careful not to let you near their young daughters.

I'm sorry it took so long to respond. I was having difficulties with my account. Thank you for the kind words. It means a lot to me. It's hard putting myself out there and it's part of the reason I haven't done a video in a while. But more is coming and it's beciase of awesome people like you reaching out!

What an awesome project! I'd love to read that! Thank you for reaching out. I'm very happy to hear it's helped you. More videos are coming soon too! (And sorry it took so long to respond. I was having troubles with my account)

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Thank you!

Thank you so much for your message. I will respond better soon but just wanted to apologize for taking so long to get back to you. I've been having trouble with my account. More videos are coming soon too. I'm excited.

Thank you so much for your comments. Your kind words definitely help keep me going! I am very happy to hear that you have enjoyed my videos (have you checked out my instagram account? butch.as.woman on instagram. I talk more about my adventures as a masculine woman). I did mention I don't like the word Tomboy but it is because it was used as ammunition against me. There was always a tone that told me there was something wrong with me for being a tomboy. I do know many masculine identified women and female bodied individuals that did not have negative experiences with the word growing up and feel a connection to using it. I have found that language can be used in so many ways and for each of us non-conforming people, those words can mean so many different things. I've always used the term baby-butch to describe myself when I think of my younger years and the period as I transitioned into my masculine self. I totally understand how you feel about your own adolescent growth into your masculinity. It took years before I really understood who I was and what masculinity and the word butch meant to me. I am still learning. lol I did (and do) the same thing watching transguy's videos. There is so much in the trans experience that I identify with and can relate to that I feel at home in a lot of ways sharing my experience through their words. But I always felt it fell short and my experience wasn't being talked about. It left me confused and like you, wondered what the surgical and medical components meant to me. They never felt right (and still don't) despite the dysphoria I experience with my more "feminine" features. I have a hard time navigating anything we grow up with as femininity and female, particularly when it comes to the features I was born with. But when I began to understand my views on gender and how they interplay with my life and my presentation, I began to find a calmness. I was very close once to pursuing testosterone to more masculinize myself but i am currently happy I didn't. I know now that that is now what I was missing. I too struggle with clothing as I often look like i am swimming in men's shirts. I don't wear a bra but that can be problematic in men's tank tops and t-shirts too. I think there is so much we attach to breasts and femininity that for those of us female bodied individuals who do not identify as feminine, it makes it very difficult to have a healthy relationship to our bodies. I think you are doing the right thing seeking out information and others to gain more insight. If you are some where that has clinics for gender non-conforming and trans individuals there may be counselling options and information. I was in counselling for a year to help me discover what gender meant. I felt I couldn't make any decisions on my own gender if I didn't understand how gender shaped my upbringing and my current view of myself. Sorry to hear you are struggling with acceptance (I hope thats the right word) too. I found the more confident and empowered I became in my masculinity the more pushback I received. I'd imagine it is the same for you. I think you are amazingly strong for being able to pursue your authentic self. Thank you again for you message. It keeps me doing what I am doing. Message me anytime here or Instagram if you ever have any questions. I wish I had someone to talk to when I was younger. Someone who understood what I was going through. Take care and continue holding your head up proud! You too are a trailblazer for those younger than you!!!

More videos are coming very soon :)))

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