@donaro I am glad you're still with us. As Ren has said about his illness, if you asked him in the midst of it if there was any hope, any purpose to his pain, he would never have imagined that possibility. And now, here he is, still struggling, but he sees why. And his pain has become fuel, and his way to connect with others who are also in that dark place. Stay with us. Keep going. You never know what life will bring you.

Scorpio's alien cousin, Aquarius. 👽✌️♒️

I get the temptation. I've gotten by on caffeine, sarcasm, and a morbid sense of humour. And dogs. Dogs help.

It's bizarre, isn't it? I mean, you know - or you're pretty certain - that this idea isn't reality, but it's the fact that you can't prove it one way or another that leaves you realizing that, however remote the possibility, it's POSSIBLE. The mind is a strange land. I watched Shutter Island and the most terrifying part was seeing how one's mind can lie to you.

I'm afraid he's gotten a bit too big to be able to get to all the reactions people have done to his videos, but it would be cool if he happened to see it. 😅 I am constantly amazed at the range and depth of this guy's talents.

Emotions become exhausting, too, sometimes. I get tired of feeling everything and sometimes wish I could stop existing so I could just shut it off. The ugliness in this world is too much to absorb and and I'm left with is an anger so deep I don't know what to do with it. I'm glad you're still here. I guess many of us are all hanging in there, waiting for the punchline. Whatever it is, it better be funny AF or imma be pissed.

But seriously. Let’s figure out how to have a chat. Not going to say the usual stuff like things will get better. (Probably but you know the pendulum). Not going to say you get help. Have to help yourself. Not going to say you are not alone, because you are not in thinking that. Minds explode. Hah. You must be smarter than me for figuring that out sooner, at 5 did you say? I was more like 8-11. Not quite sure.obviously. Many years later my brain is hurting the same way as before. So I can sorta relate . That’s why I do t spout the usual drivel. Never consoled me and really only served to being insulting. That said, I’ve begun learning to talk. Seems to help. God bless, my sis.

You and your heart are beautiful . Just saying after the pause of my interjection. No time like the present to no hear the full story I figured that the last sequence would knock you for a loop…. But who am I if not myself

Funny thing about me… when people apologize about their feelings. It makes me wonder if should do the same with mine. And all hell no! So then I have to calm down from that… hah. Laugh at myself for I’m the joke. But rreally , don’t. Don’t seem to please. I’m not going to speak for others but I’m because of you. And your willingness to honor us with your vulnerabilities. Not apologies. Be unapologetic . Just know you have one more like and subscribed, hah, that we think in terms like that

Thanks, Sarah! I know, I hate it when "reactors" stop the video to discuss something when it's clear they're only doing it to regain their composure. I completely agree. Thank you for your kind words!❤