The 3 times I've been in therapy, it's been talking therapy. I wasn't able to fully open up but it did sort of help.
@PaulBerryisTall10 ай бұрын
Weirdly the Autistic traits I have make it really easy to open up about....just about anything really. No connection with my emotions means I have no feelings about anything I talk about so there's no barrier there.
@lucidcircles10 ай бұрын
Really cute and sweet kitty. Wishing you the best!
@omersamaawi10 ай бұрын
Hey man listen I hope you can go through all the things that's happening with your right now.
@PaulBerryisTall10 ай бұрын
Hi, thanks for this! I'm fine honestly, in therapy on medication and finally working out how my brain works at 44 years old! Happy new year!
@china_desade11 ай бұрын
Such an incredibly cute Cat! ❤❤
@lachlanokeefe802011 ай бұрын
Thank you for this. It's extremely helpful to hear someone talk through issues that I experience but haven't had the words to describe.
@downseyes11 ай бұрын
CBT is garbage.
@PaulBerryisTall11 ай бұрын
I think it works for some people, just didn't work for me
@jtvice186211 ай бұрын
He (or she) looks like a fun cat. Cheers mate.
@CharlotteJoyce11 ай бұрын
An open honest diary of what it feels like for you. I also have been on medication for anxiety for a number of years. I also tried cold turkey when I turned 40 thinking that I should come off them, I was also not a nice person around that time and I realised how much they help me. This year I've increased dosage to help myself, like you said its a chemical inbalance you're managing and there is no shame in getting the right support like you would with any other medical problem. I like the occasional Paul humour coming through in this too, I hope these help you as much as they help people going through similar.
@grahammonk801311 ай бұрын
Oh! We get to see this other room! Wow, it's BIG. Funny, where is the ceiling? And the air is....moving? What's with that? Cats, hours of fun! The spotty one looks a bit Bengal?
@HelenaMikas11 ай бұрын
They are wonderful and hope we see more of them Big like :) 2
@ValerieEwart11 ай бұрын
Gorgeous kitties❤
@skyhighoctopi11 ай бұрын
Your authenticity and honesty is a breath of fresh air. Thanks for sharing.
@PaulBerryisTall11 ай бұрын
Cheers man!
@ThomasRedstone Жыл бұрын
Thanks for this! Out of interest, what hardware have you used for your smart home? I've experimented with a few things, but none of it seems to quite work smoothly! Also, is that a Star Trek theme on your Home Assistant? 😂
@PaulBerryisTall Жыл бұрын
It is a star trek theme! The LCARS theme for home assistant actually: github.com/th3jesta/ha-lcars I use home assistant as the brains of my smart home, running Zigbee2MQTT for zigbee devices (these both run as kubernetes containers across a couple of mini pcs). For lightswitches I grabbed some no-neutral zigbee switches from aliexpress (the no-neutral is important if you have older UK wiring). Motion sensors are aqara zigbee sensors, you can generally get these for around £5 on aliexpress. It's working fine now... the motion sensors get triggered by the cats, which isn't ideal, but I can cope with it until I bother to install human prescence detectors. The switches work fine, especially because the actual light switch wiring in our house isn't where I want it...so that 3 gang near the front door is only wired to one physical wiring point, the other 2 just trigger a zigbee event which I then use to switch other switches...if that makes sense!
@ThomasRedstone Жыл бұрын
@@PaulBerryisTall thanks for the really detailed reply! The theme looks amazing, yet the developer says there not a "real web developer", they need some compliments, because that's a serious case of imposter syndrome! 😔 At the moment I've got a real mishmash of stuff: A hue bridge Many hue bulbs Some Wiz bulbs A zigbee light switch that seems to only want to work with it's own hub Kasa plug TP link multi sockets TP link led light strip A SmartThings hub 3 Ultion smart lock Smart fridge freezer that doesn't do the one thing that would be useful: tell you the water tank is empty!!! A smart washer dryer, that can be handy when it tells you a wash is finished A few temperature sensors which had *another* hub! Nest Hello doorbell A mix of Nest Minis, Google Home Hubs and Lenovo Smart displays Tradfri hub and lights in a box somewhere! I'd really like to figure out a way to get Hue bulbs and zigbee switches to work, as the Hue bulbs are handy for changing brightness and colour. Low voltage centrally controlled lighting is probably the Grail setup, but running that much wire and figuring out what system to use is a real challenge (as most of what I've found is more marketing talk than technical). Some rewiring is going to be necessary at some point as we have some "unique features", there is a switch that diverts power from the dining room lighter to the conservatory, so only one room can be lit at once! Also the outside lighting has a unique ability to kill bulbs over a few months 😅 so I've got my work cut out for me! I think I'll probably run home assistant on a Raspberry Pi, it seems I'll have to wait for my Pi 5 to come though, as my other Pis are a 2, which is too low RAM, and the 400, which is too cool not to use as a PC!
@robventre5095 Жыл бұрын
Alex has just added buy toilet roll today to my shopping list 😂
@amylou97 Жыл бұрын
Thank you for making your videos. I've been feeling very similar to you, it helps to hear from other people's perspectives. Hope making these videos helps you
@nig3ldoug1as63 Жыл бұрын
Stay strong, Paul! Your story has a powerful impact on other people's lives and i hope by doing these video diaries it is providing some help for you as well. As men, we need to talk more about our mental health, otherwise it just spirals out of control, and we can never quite understand when it started going wrong. Again, thank you so much for sharing this.
@flappybird315 Жыл бұрын
On the positive side you are quite handsome.
@aranciam7 жыл бұрын
awesome! did you publish it?
@samasaurus69 жыл бұрын
Absolutely phenomenal! Great work with this. I really hope you can show us more of this in the future and add some more functionality.