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@devinjo2318 Күн бұрын
Oink Oink.. I walk into the rest room.. and I look at myself in the Mirror.. thinking of YOU and I would say.. Some day soon.. One day Soon I will see YOU.. I believe that I will meet YOU soon.. of course I am Not sure when it be that time.. but.. I know that It starts with preparing myself to meet YOU.. so I would look at myself.. looking at the Mirror.. how do I want to see YOU.. when YOU take a Look at me.. what would your reaction be when I meet YOU eye to eye.. and that is when I would say to YOU.. I would start by sitting by the desk.. I would look at your Picture.. of course YOU are so Beautiful.. of course YOU are so Lovely to Me.. but I would flip it by when YOU take a Look at me.. How would you feel about Me.. I don't want to meet YOU and YOU say.. is it really YOU looking like this.. but YOU would say.. this is It.. as I sit by the desk.. and grabbing YOUR picture.. I would look at YOU in this Picture.. I want to make YOU smile.. I want YOU to fall in love with Me.. I want YOU to say to me.. can I give YOU my Heart.. and I tell YOU.. Please.. let me have this Heart.. as long as this Heart is Yours and belongs to YOU.. Let me please have It.. because I will Love YOU.. I will love your Heart for ever.. as I look at the Floor.. two Arms.. and I would start to do some Push Ups.. counting down the Numbers.. that I want to show you that I have me some Hard Rocks.. I want to show YOU that I am a real Man.. Not a MACHO man.. but a MAN who understands I must be Fit.. I must show YOU that I am strong and can handle what a MAN can do.. and How I am able to protect YOU and to show YOU that I can love you too.. and the Next.. after finishing the Push Ups.. I would turn.. and do some Sit Ups.. as I would do some of the counting.. feeling the Pain and the ache that comes.. I am thinking of the day when I see YOU.. the Day I meet YOU.. to show YOU for a Long time.. I been preparing for YOU to be with Me.. so that I can take YOU IN my arms.. and I can hold YOU close.. and YOU can feel.. NOT the Rocks but my Heart which I wanted to show YOU.. after I do the Sit Ups.. I would sit back by the desk.. grabbing Your Picture and looking at YOU.. thinking of the day.. the day I would meet YOU.. and In the room I sit alone.. I would turn too look at the corner of the Room.. close to the closet.. I look at the Bag.. the Bag which I been carrying on the shoulder.. as I would think back.. and I turn to Look at your Picture which is on top of the desk.. I am thinking back.. and I am thinking of YOU.. just preparing everything Now so when the day Comes for Me to be with YOU.. YOU will know that it is Me.. when YOU see me.. and YOU look at me.. since YOU are already going to know.. even from the far I walk.. even from the far distance YOU see me.. YOU can say that it is Me.. the One who loves YOU.. the One who has been waiting for YOU.. who has been longing for YOU.. Missing YOU and who has been calling Out your name.. and I would look back.. I am carrying the Bag on the shoulder.. looking at the Rising of the Sun.. and walking into the range.. and I would see men on the driver's range.. hitting the Ball.. and I would stand.. I am thinking that One day I am going to show YOU.. the Years of putting into the Work.. the years of practices and the Years when YOU come to me.. some thing is going to happen.. I would un zip the Bag.. and I see the Picture.. I would put your Picture inside this Golf Bag.. every where I go I take it with Me just in case I miss YOU and I need to see YOU.. and whenever I un zip the Bag.. there is the Picture inside which was in the ROOM.. laying on top of the desk.. thinking of YOU.. missing YOU and wanting to tell YOU that I am here.. that I love YOU.. I would take Your Picture out from the Golf Bag that was inside.. and I would look at the Picture of YOU.. telling YOU.. even though I may not see your Presence.. know that I have Your Picture with Me.. that whenever I see this Picture.. the Picture of YOU brings a smile.. helps me to think of the reason of why I am doing.. that I know I am preparing.. everything in the works so that the Day I see YOU I can show you How reals I am.. as A MAN speaks.. the Word and the decision he makes.. it is NOT the empty Words or empty Heart but I am telling you as It is so that when I see YOU.. YOU would say.. what Makes me so Different is because I do not take the Words lightly but I am reals when It comes of Loving you.. when it comes with My Emotions.. when It comes of my thoughts of YOU and wanting to show YOU so much more.. show you that a MAN must live and dream very Big.. and to share that dreams with YOU.. so that when YOU see me.. YOUR HEART.. that I know by that time.. YOU would say to me.. YOU give me Your Heart.. that I am able to have this Heart.. YOUR Heart so that I can start loving YOU then.. and telling you How much I love YOU.. I would look.. Men walks on Left side.. even to the right side of Me.. I can hear hitting.. balls are flying into the air.. as I stand alone.. looking at YOU.. through this Picture I keep on looking at YOU.. I would put your Picture on the side pocket of the Golf bag.. and I would Look down.. looking at the Clubs.. looking at the drivers.. and I would pull out the 7 iron club.. and I turn to face the Sun.. looking at the numbers out on the field.. as I would stretch and do a little warm Up.. I am thinking of YOU.. what If you came Now.. It be at the bad timing.. because I am Not hitting the balls well at this Point.. that is why it is good that YOU are giving me some time to Practice.. I need so much practice.. I see Men hitting so well.. Balls flies so High and Over.. and I would look at the Ones who are so Good.. who hits so well.. that I would say.. I wish that I can hit the balls like that Man over there.. so that it be YOU Coming sooner.. so that I can show YOU when YOU come out here to the range.. when I hit the Ball.. YOU would smile looking at HOW well I hit the balls too.. of course.. I would put the tee down.. Putting the Ball on top of the tee.. I stand on the right side.. I would practice first before Hitting the Ball on the tee.. But.. something stops Me.. that My Heart misses YOU already.. I just finished warming UP.. and doing the stretches.. why do I stop.. I know that I must Hit this Ball.. I turn to look at the Bag behind Me.. and I know.. it must be that I be missing YOU.. missing YOU so Much.. I can hear.. I can feel my Heart crying inside that I must go to the side of the pocket of this Golf Bag to look at the Picture.. why Now.. I just saw the Picture.. it has not been even ten minutes yet and already I am missing YOU.. what happens when YOU be here and you stand next or can be behind Me.. will I do the same.. telling myself that I am missing YOU.. that I needs to look back to look at YOU.. as My hand reaches for the Pocket on the side which is the lower part of the Golf Bag.. I grab the Picture.. My Heart is jumping inside.. I feel like I needs to jump with the Heart who is jumping inside of Me.. as I look at the Picture.. I would say.. YOU are killing me right Now.. I came here to practice.. to Hit some balls.. I just pulled out the 7 iron club and already finished the stretches and warm up.. it is time for me to hit the Ball.. but.. it is YOU who stopped Me.. I must continue to practice but why are you stopping me of keep on going.. I saw this Picture already.. before I left the House.. I saw the picture.. in the car before I drove.. I saw your Picture.. I continued to take a LOOK at your Picture.. but why can't I let it go.. I needs to let it go.. I put the Picture on the side pocket.. and I turn to face the front.. grabbing the 7 iron club in my hands.. I would look at the Ball on the tee.. and my arms swings back and I would swing forward hitting the ground.. practicing before I hit the Ball on the Tee.. I can't breathe.. My Heart.. it is hurting Me.. because I can't breathe.. It is your Picture.. it must be YOU getting to My Head.. going into my Heart.. I can't breathe but Hard to breathe right now.. hands holding the 7 iron club.. getting close to the ball on top of the tee.. swing Back and swing forward and It hits the Ball.. I see the ball not going too far.. but It was hit by the 7 iron club.. I can hear the Balls making the Sound as Other Men hitting their balls.. sending it very Far Off.. why can't I hit the ball hard.. why can't I hit where the ball can make a sound and see It goes very far.. I turn to look at the Bag.. I want to show YOU.. I want to impress YOU.. I want to tell YOU that I can be good too that when I meet YOU.. I be ready by then where I don't feel like a Loser to YOU but YOU would smile and say.. I am the Winner for YOU.. as I Look UP at the SUN.. I know that This is the Only beginning stage of the step I am taking.. to unify something to make it greater but to also show YOU.. for YOU to be proud to Have Me as the Man.. the One who can Love YOU more.. and to Love you More stronger.. and stronger.. Love you More and More only if YOU can see.. as I am sitting on the Desk.. I would smile thinking of the range.. I would smile thinking of taking the Bag with me.. that I can show YOU much More later On.. that I can tell YOU the days I had to practice.. days of failure but the days which those lead into
@devinjo2318 Күн бұрын
I am missing you so much right Now.. I went to the table.. I saw the Empty Chair.. still wondering if YOU are coming Home.. but as YOU can see I don't know why YOU are Not still here.. Looking at the Plate.. the Food I made for YOU.. which you did Not come home yet.. and staring at the Chair.. the Chair you would sit.. I would watch YOU across the table when we eat.. many times I would watch YOU smile and then YOU would laugh.. I do really miss those days.. even when YOU came home.. Long day of work.. sometimes when It rain Out side.. and I would hear the DOOR open.. I would walk Out of the kitchen.. preparing and making the Food.. putting the Plate on the table.. just waiting for YOU to come Home.. the smile.. and I would watch YOU sit.. sit on that chair.. as I would just watch YOU eat while I am sitting on my side of the chair.. How come this had to happen.. why are you NOT coming home yet.. I received a message.. also YOU send me a Picture.. a recent picture of YOU.. I would see you sitting On a chair.. Holding a Giant Teddy Bear.. and with a Bow on the top of your Head.. I am Not sure where the location or the Place you were at.. but YOU send me a Message with a Picture telling me How you are doing.. and of course.. I would smile looking at this recent picture of YOU and I would ask YOU.. where are YOU.. Please tell me.. if YOU are close by in the area.. can I go to YOU.. and I would be waiting for the Message but a Long pause.. YOU would text message me saying.. YOU are Not in the area and that YOU are far off.. at Least YOU are starting to share and telling me how YOU are doing.. but.. I am still waiting for YOU.. all I can think of is YOU coming Home.. when I would pass by the diner room.. I would look at the table.. and I would LOOK at your chair.. the empty chair that has been sitting there waiting for YOU for a long time Now.. and It is asking Me.. when Are you coming HOME.. when are YOU going to sit on this EMPTY CHAIR.. I would tell the chair.. I am Not sure when because YOU never tell me when YOU are coming Home.. all I can think of is YOU.. just missing YOU every Night.. every Night feels like I am going to die here alone.. without YOU.. I feel like this Chair.. Like this Empty chair.. just sitting here and just waiting for YOU.. and ALL I do is look at the New recent picture YOU gave me.. I would look on the Phone.. and in the front of the phone your Picture.. the recent picture.. the ONE you are sitting on the Chair.. with the Big bow on top of your Head.. arms wrap around the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I want to cry.. because NOW.. I wish that I could be that Giant Teddy Bear.. WHY does that GIANT TEDDY BEAR seems so Happy.. of course it is because YOUR Arms.. How about my arms.. how about ME.. I want to be held by YOU.. feel the JOY and LOVE that Only can comes from YOU.. Only YOU can bring that Big smile ON my face.. NO One else can make me more happier than YOU can.. as I am standing.. I am in the kitchen.. just thinking about.. as I am looking at the Plate.. I made this Food last night for YOU.. I would take a Picture of the Plate with the FOOD that was made and I would send it to YOU.. telling YOU.. it is waiting for YOU.. and I would look at your Chair.. who is also waiting for YOU TO sit on.. and I would sent the Picture of Your Chair and the Plate.. NOW.. I am in the kitchen.. I know that YOU did not come home because I see the FOOD still on the Plate.. as I am putting the FOOD on the trash.. and I would start to wash the dishes with water.. knife and fork.. cups.. and Now my tears.. I can't stop the tears falling from my eyes because it can get this hard on me some times.. I am asking YOU.. but YOU never response.. YOU never tell me that why YOU are not coming Home.. after washing the Plates and the cups.. the knives and forks.. I would use the towel to wipe it dry and Put on the Counter where I would put all these things there.. of course.. I feel so sad.. and many times broken hearted when I would walk Out of the room.. and I stand to see.. going to the diner room.. hoping that YOU came.. hoping that I would see you sit on your Chair.. hoping to see YOU eating and finishing the Food on the plate.. to see YOU turn Your Head to look at me and smile and telling me HOW finally YOU came HOME to me.. when I would walk out of the room and I stand still.. as I look toward the Diner room and I see it be empty.. looking at your Chair.. the empty chair.. and LOOKING at the Plate.. I would see the FOOD still here.. I turn to look towards the door.. I find NO shoes of yours.. my Heart.. it feels like YOU have thrown a hard ball.. a rock and Hit me on the stomach.. I can feel something sharp because my expectation of YOU.. if YOU came HOME.. it hurts to watch.. it hurts to stand here looking at the table.. LOOKING at your Chair.. and I would just want to fall down.. but I just look.. knowing that YOU did not come.. and I would wonder.. I send you the picture.. I took the picture of the plate.. and the FOOD in the plate for YOU to see what I have cooked and made you for this very night.. I can't believe that YOU still do Not want to show UP at all.. How much do I must miss YOU.. what am I suppose to do for YOU to know how much I love YOU and how I am still sorry of what I have done.. I know that I have made just too many bad mistakes.. and yes.. it is all my fault.. but just give me this One more chance.. I think that My Heart is burning.. and it is going to be burned because My Heart just can't stop loving YOU.. every Night.. after I would prepare.. looking through what I should cook or make for YOU.. it takes time for me to Know.. looking through many chef videos.. trying to do something different so that YOU would come Home.. I think I watched over 100 videos of cooking chef.. trying to cook something for YOU.. but.. I feel like how much more can I do.. I look at your chair.. I look at this empty Chair.. should I put your chair in my room instead.. because it drives me crazy when It sits here all alone.. this Empty chair is missing YOU because I know that IN my Heart.. I am the One who misses YOU.. I know that I can think like this empty chair because when I would watch YOU sit.. I was the Most happiest person in the world.. because I was able to express and show YOU something that I loved the Most.. to share and to tell YOU.. to make and create and to cater something that comes beneath my Heart.. I wanted to show YOU that I love YOU.. so I do remember going into the Kitchen classes.. I wanted to be the Best Chef.. just for YOU.. that is what counts.. that is what should counts.. NO ONE should care because as long as I be able to give you something that CAN Only comes from the depth of my Heart.. I wanted to impress you by showing YOU.. I am the Most happiest when I can give you this FOOD.. would you please take a taste.. would you please come and sit at this table and let the Plate I give YOU.. to fill your stomach because each time YOU eat.. it makes me full.. it makes me smile inside because I put all my energy and efforts into so that when it gets to YOU.. MY words would not be enough but the action of giving you this Plate.. this food on the Plate.. I put everything on the table so that when YOU COME to eat.. I can turn the other way and cry with a joy.. NOT sadness anymore.. I started to take classes.. getting new ideas to put food on the Plate and I would start to make it at Home.. I would look at your Empty Chair.. my Heart keeps breaking when I would pass by.. Looking at your chair.. which is an empty chair.. I would stand there.. WHY can't you be here.. why must YOU had to go.. why leave me here with this Chair.. why couldn't you take this chair with YOU.. or at least you could of helped me by removing two eyes.. if I be blinded.. I know with my eyes be missing.. I won't see this Chair.. this empty chair.. I would walk by.. I can feel something sharp in my chest.. just longing for YOU.. but being very busy taking lessons with the top chef.. what I learned and what I cooked in the class.. I would tell the TOP CHEF about YOU.. how much I missed YOU and wanted to create and make.. cook something for YOU every night and He started to show ME these Menus of and I started to learn how to cook as the TOP CHEF helped me to cook.. giving me the Notes and directions with the ingredients to make for that Night.. I would thank because.. I know that One day.. I believe One Night.. Some day YOU are going to be hungry to eat.. and I wanted to prepare for YOU just in case you wanted to stop by.. just for One bite is all it takes and I got so busy at home.. in the kitchen spending hours cooking and making the Dish for YOU.. as I would put One Plate for that One Night with the FOOD I learned from the TOP CHEF.. I put on Your Side of the Table with Your EMPTY chair.. I would go to my side sitting on the chair.. I would eat first.. I would look at across.. LOOKING at your Side.. I am wiping my tears of sorrow.. I wanted to share this with YOU tonight but YOU did Not show Up yet.. I wish that YOU come Home this very night.. It is going to be waiting for YOU
@devinjo2318 Күн бұрын
Making all these dishes I made on the Plate for YOU.. ONLY is YOU.. for YOU to come Home.. and for YOU to sit on this Empty Chair.. this Chair misses you so Much.. I feel like this Chair.. when I pass by Your Chair.. and I stop too look at Your Chair.. I can feel and relate the Pain of missing YOU.. this Pain of ache and longing that It just don't go away because of missing YOU.. and WHEN My hand touches your Chair.. I feel something.. a sharp pain because I feel like this chair.. LIKE an Empty chair.. without YOU.. I feel like I can't go on.. I need you here.. I need to see YOU.. I want to see YOU.. just to tell YOU.. Please sit on this Chair so that IT does not feel so empty like HOW MY HEART feels without YOU.. I need you because I love YOU.. will you please come Home.. Please come back to Me.. I am missing YOU like crazy.. I am just missing you.. and as I turn to LOOK toward the window.. I am starting to see the rain falling.. it just keeps on getting worse as days go by.. without YOU it feels like I can't go ON.. that is why I need YOU.. that is why I needs to tell you that I love YOU.. Please Come HOME and help me to Love YOU again.. I need YOU.. I need to love YOU again and only way is if YOU come home.. where this Chair.. empty chair is waiting.. just like ME.. waiting for YOU To come home.. I am looking at the Chair.. the Empty Chair.. and I just can't take my eyes off.. just wondering when are YOU coming Home.. I been calling you on the Phone.. Do you not here the Phone ringing.. I know that the number is correct because I can hear YOUR voice.. I can here you saying to leave the voice on the message.. I been wondering.. why aren't you picking up the Phone.. you know that this is killing me when YOU do this.. I been thinking a lot lately.. and I even left you a voice message.. telling YOU that I am so sorry.. how many times Must I tell YOU that what I did was wrong.. and I told you that I am so sorry.. will you please give me another chance.. I know that I can do better this time.. of course YOU heard me telling YOU this before.. so what do you want me to do.. So do you want me to stop calling YOU.. I know that I am the one who did fault.. and I even plead and even begged YOU.. I left you a Message on the Phone.. I am still calling you.. because we needs to talk.. YOU needs to tell me something so that I know what Not to do.. so please Pick up the Phone.. as I am dialing Your number.. I am putting my Phone on the ear.. I hear the ringing going through.. as I am standing on the living room.. I walk to the diner room.. standing there.. I see Your Empty chair.. I just can't believe YOU are doing this to Me.. why are YOU hurting me.. I know that it is me who shouted at YOU.. and I was angry.. but.. does it means YOU have to hate me like this.. DO you really Hate Me.. YOU told me that you will Never hate me.. then why are YOU not answering the Phone.. it is getting late.. few days.. Now weeks went by.. I am still here waiting for YOU.. just wondering How you are doing.. Please.. Baby.. Please answer the Phone.. tell me something so that I know.. I can let go.. I can let go of this frustration that is in me.. I know.. I told you already.. I am so sorry.. as I am looking at the empty Chair.. I have set another Plate.. it is by Your Chair.. I would place a cup of water.. with utensils.. with napkin on the side.. I made YOU a steak.. green beans and mash potatoes.. next to the cup of water is another cup of wine.. I have set it.. maybe YOU will come tonight.. Maybe you will stop by later tonight.. but.. just in case you are hungry.. I have placed Your Plate.. Your food on the table by the Chair.. Your Empty Chair.. as I would walk to the front door and I open.. looking outside.. I would walk out with a jacket.. it is pretty cold and I can see the Moon.. as I am walking.. and I stop.. I see the light rain falling from the sky.. I am wondering are you close by.. Can you see the rain.. I know that I am getting hit by the rain.. it does not matter now because I am sick.. My Heart is sick because I am missing YOU.. its been weeks.. and each night.. I would be waiting by the empty Chair.. I would be in the kitchen cooking a meal.. each time I would eat dinner.. I am always looking for YOU.. I would be thinking of YOU.. as I would be sitting down on my side.. I would get back UP.. going back into the kitchen.. I know that I have to bring out another Plate.. I know that you may not come tonight.. maybe Not.. but still.. I am thinking what if YOU would show UP.. what if YOU come.. I would always make a meal for two.. Just in case YOU may show UP later deep in the night.. when I am asleep.. who knows when and I would put Your Plate.. Your dinner on the top of the table.. if I sleep and I don't see you for that day.. at least YOU can come into the night.. late if you want too.. the Meal is ready for YOU.. come and eat if You are hungry.. it has been all prepared and done.. what you love the most.. your favorites I would ask.. and I would watch YOU taking the picture of each plates YOU love and would remind me this is what you like and dislike.. and I would put the picture of the plates YOU love.. in my room.. and from time to time I would take a look at it.. and I would make those meals just for you.. as I am outside in the cold.. with my jacket on.. I am getting wet.. light rain hitting me.. and I would stop.. My Heart hurts Now.. I would go into my room.. and day to day.. I would pull out the picture of the Plate.. each Night I would be in the kitchen.. cooking each of the Meals YOU love.. every night comes.. One Plate.. the Next Night Another Plate YOU love.. your favorite dishes.. and I would sit on my Chair.. waiting for YOU to come Home.. as I would wait.. it becomes late.. and yes.. I would feel so sleepy.. getting UP out of the Chair.. I am looking at the Plate.. and Looking at the Empty Chair.. I can feel my Heart crying inside.. as I would wait for YOU and YOU do not show UP.. I would turn the Other way and walk into the room.. closing the Door behind.. and I lay on the bed.. and I start to cry.. crying a lot because I would miss YOU.. calling YOU on the Phone.. I would sit still just to hear Your Voice.. I would hear the Phone be ringing.. asking myself.. why is it this Hard to love YOU.. why are you making it so Hard for me to get closer.. am I that evil person.. why Hurt me.. I feel only tears in my eyes.. I told YOU that I am so sorry.. I told YOU that I missed YOU and that I love YOU.. but why don't you pick up the Phone.. why don't you even show UP to the House.. YOU don't miss me at all.. YOU know that I miss YOU.. I call you every day.. I only want to listen to Your Voice.. I want to hear YOU.. but only at the end to leave the Message YOU tell me too.. it breaks my Heart when YOU do this to Me.. it breaks my heart when YOU stop caring about me.. it breaks my Heart when YOU don't answer.. I even would leave in the Night.. I have prepared YOU a Meal.. a Dinner I made to eat.. I have already eaten.. If you don't want to see me.. I am Not going to force YOU to come to see me.. But Please.. if YOU get hungry and YOU are near by.. Please stop by.. I am ready to sleep for the night.. so Please come tonight.. by the time you get this message.. when YOU come.. I am sure I am already at bed by then.. if YOU ever feel you want to eat Your Favorite FOOD.. and I would take a picture of the Plate I made for YOU and I would send the picture to YOU so that YOU can see what I have made and prepared for that night.. and I be sitting on my side of the chair.. and I would get UP and I would leave.. going into the room so that If you want to show UP.. YOU can without seeing Me being there.. as I am standing Out side.. feeling the Light rain falling down on me.. I begin to feel My Heart be hurting.. I can feel my Heart be breaking.. I just can't take it any more.. why can't I see YOU any more.. YOU telling me YOU love me.. was all those words nothing but a Lie.. My Words.. when I tell YOU that I love YOU.. it is NO lies.. I am telling YOU because I am saying it from my Heart.. why do you tell me YOU love me.. and when I call YOU on the Phone.. YOU never pick UP to answer.. YOU tell me that YOU love me so much.. LOOK at what YOU are doing to me.. it is because I love YOU.. I been loving YOU for so Long.. I am standing Out here.. it is cold Out here.. I see the rain falling down on me.. and I am waiting for YOU.. but I know that In my heart.. even tonight YOU will Not show UP.. I know that YOU will not show UP but just in case YOU do.. I have faith in love.. I have faith in us because I know that I love YOU.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. I wrote YOU songs.. I would sing YOU songs even though I may not have the voice to sing.. but.. In my heart I can still sing telling YOU that I love YOU.. and How much I love YOU.. showing YOU and sharing to YOU how much I do.. as I am walking back.. I been walking for a while.. just thinking about YOU late in the Night.. as I am can feel the rain hitting me.. and I know that I am going to get sick.. I guess I did it on Purpose so if I do get sick.. and I am laying in the Hospital Bed.. will you come and visit me.. or am I going to be sick alone.. I been walking
@devinjo2318 Күн бұрын
Leaving YOU a message.. taking a picture of the plate with your Favorite meal and I would send it too YOU.. standing and looking at Your side.. I would still see.. YOU did not come.. You did Not show UP even after I would tell YOU I be sleeping.. it breaks my Heart that YOU just don't care.. I would realize.. If I did not shouted at YOU.. then all this would not come.. if I was more patient with YOU and more understanding,, caring and kind to YOU.. I would been seeing YOU sitting ON that Empty Chair.. I would watch YOU holding the Giant Teddy bear.. and YOU be smiling at me.. and YOU be asking me.. what am I cooking tonight.. what Meal.. and I would pull out a picture of the Plate YOU love and show you how about this Meal.. this Plate.. would you like this One for tonight.. and YOU be smiling Big.. and I be smiling back with tears in my eyes.. the joy of being able to give back.. giving you how much I love YOU.. the little things I would miss about YOU.. even just Your smile.. I would tell YOU.. YOU have the most beautiful smile in the world.. the Most prettiest.. Most beautiful smile.. and I would Hold a camera.. looking through the lens.. LOOKING at you and the smile and press the Click the picture of YOU.. why are you so beautiful.. why are YOU so Beautiful to me.. Please tell me why and I would cry looking at YOU because YOU are.. I would be standing by the front door.. thinking about YOU.. your smile.. and as the door opens I walk into the House.. I Just can't believe it.. I am looking at the Empty Chair.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU sitting on the Chair.. I want YOU home.. I want you here next to Me.. sitting on this chair which right Now I don't see you here.. as I am looking at the table.. I want to sit but I can't.. because I know that I am going to miss YOU if I don't see you across the table.. with YOUR beautiful smile.. I just keeps on missing YOU.. Please come Home.. Please come Home to me because I am missing YOU so bad.. will you please come back.. and I walk over.. I am standing by the Chair.. Your Chair.. the empty chair.. I am asking myself.. when will I see you again.. My hand.. holding your picture.. I lift up my hand.. holding Your picture in my hand.. YOU are holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. YOU are sitting on this chair.. the empty chair which right Now I am standing by.. on your lap is the Giant Teddy Bear sitting.. I can't believe YOU are not here.. I still can't believe YOU are Not here.. I been waiting for YOU more than a Month.. where are YOU now.. I been asking for YOU.. even begging YOU to come home.. I am taking pictures on the Phone.. sending you Plates.. your most favorite dishes I would make for dinner.. and Yes.. YOU are receiving the pictures.. because it goes direct to Your Number and yes.. I see that YOU are able to see the Pictures I would take.. looking at the Plates.. the dishes every Night so that I want YOU to come Home.. there are Nights I be waiting.. sitting on my side of the chair.. I am eating alone.. looking across is the empty Chair.. I feel so hurt.. I feel so Bad.. I feel like I have messed UP so bad this time.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do next.. But I need YOU here because I have called you several times.. I would tell YOU with the Voice Message How much I have messed UP and that I am so sorry.. so tell me this.. are you with some one new.. are you with another guy because I truly want to know.. if YOU are leaving me Now for another guy.. please tell me so that I can let YOU go.. I would even write text messages asking you about this many times.. But YOU would Not answer me.. it breaks my Heart because I would call.. Phone number dials.. my ear listening to the ringing on the Phone.. and I am asking Please.. pick UP the phone.. Pretty Please answer so that I can at least hear YOU say that YOU are alright.. But I would call. I would not hear any answers.. and I am speaking to YOU through the Phone asking YOU Please come back to me because it does not matter if YOU are with another guy.. as long as I am still in your Heart.. just please come home.. as I am standing by next to Your Chair.. which is an Empty Chair.. I just want YOU HOME.. I want YOU close to me and I am missing YOU.. why can't you tell me that YOU miss me too.. tell me what is in your Heart so that I know how you are doing.. I am looking at the Chair.. the Empty Chair.. I just want to cry.. I want to just pour out my eyes out.. just pour out my tears because I want to see YOU.. it is so hard not seeing YOU for Month.. I need to see YOU.. at least say that YOU do know my Heart.. as I am looking at the Phone.. I have made another Dinner dish.. a steam fish with veggies and I would look at the camera and I would be looking as I would click and I am looking at the picture of Dish I made for YOU this very night and I would look for YOUR Number and I would send it to YOU.. I would be look at my chair.. I would walk and sit on the chair.. and I would start to eat late into the night.. I would be looking across.. looking at Your chair.. the Empty Chair.. I can feel the Heavy in my Heart.. I would look across looking at the Empty Chair.. the Chair YOU sat when we would eat dinner together.. I would open my mouth and say.. I really miss YOU.. why do you have to be the one to Break my Heart.. shattering my Brains and my thought into pieces.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. you know that by NOW.. I am truly sorry and yes I can feel the suffering and pain in my Heart.. I am in so much ache because I need YOU here.. I am missing YOU so much.. why do you have to do this to me when YOU know that I love YOU.. Please come home.. I am looking at your Picture.. YOU are sitting on the Chair.. smiling with the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on your Lap with the Plate.. as I have the Bottle on the top of the Table.. I also placed the Shot Glass.. I just hate feeling this Pain.. Out side I can hear the wind blowing.. and it is lightly raining out side.. I just came from the Out side waiting for YOU.. wondering if I would stand out there.. I would see YOU coming Home.. still having that ray of Hope that YOU would come Home.. knowing at least YOU are receiving all of the Pictures of the dishes I made each night I send.. asking YOU I made this and that.. if YOU come home.. I would be in my room sleeping.. but YOUR Plate.. dinner is set by the Chair.. on top of the table waiting for YOU.. I would wake up each morning.. Hoping that YOU came late last night and had that dinner.. each Night and every morning I walk out of the room.. I would look at the top of the table.. LOOK at the plate and looking at Your Chair.. the empty Chair.. I be heart broken because Nothing has been touched.. the food still be on that Plate.. never been touched.. and I would grab the Plate.. the Food goes into the trash and my Heart be broken because I am hoping that YOU came because I made it just for YOU.. but each night.. I would make it.. and after I am done eating.. I go into the room to sleep.. expecting you to finish the Plate when I wake UP the new next day.. its been a month now.. and I am still wondering.. are you going to come.. because I am waiting for YOU.. but I know that I have to still make the Favorite dinner dish.. the Plate just in case YOU come home and I don't want to see YOU hungry.. I want to see YOU.. I been missing YOU and My Heart is crying inside me.. I just came from Out side.. that is How my Heart feels inside this Home.. like it wants to rain down.. I am looking across.. sitting on my chair.. but my eyes keeps on looking across.. asking for YOU.. I want YOU close.. I want you in my arms so that I can love YOU.. but all my eyes can see right now is Your Chair.. the Chair is empty.. and I feel empty inside like that chair which is empty because YOU are not here.. But I need you here so that I can say it to you how much I am so sorry.. I want to say it to you so that YOU know my real Heart.. that I am missing YOU.. I want you here.. but Now.. I see that I can't see YOU.. as I open the top of the Bottle.. and I would pour into the shot glass.. and I put the bottle Down.. I raise UP the shot glass.. with liquor inside.. I open my mouth and take a Shot.. I hear something ringing.. and I am not sure if it is the Liquor getting to me.. and I would turn too look at my phone.. I see that someone is calling me.. I raise up the Phone to look. I just can't believe it.. and I am wondering.. it must be the Shot glass playing tricks on me.. it must be my eyes seeing things.. and I would pick UP the Phone.. and I hear YOUR voice.. it has been about a Month.. and I have not heard anything from YOU.. and I hear you saying something and only thing I can say is that I am so sorry and that I miss YOU.. YOU know how much I miss YOU and how much I love YOU because Now I know what YOU really means to me.. YOU means everything to me.. You always been everything but I just couldn't express it how.. but now I am able to tell YOU.. How much I missed YOU because I am looking across.. I have seen that the Chair has been empty.. its been missing.. missing YOU
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@devinjo-h7h 2 күн бұрын
Oink Oink.. I look at the Glass Jar.. I have set in on the floor.. I been asking YOU that I need your Heart.. as I would wait.. there is no answer on the other side.. so I know that I must keep waiting.. as I am holding the Glass jar.. which it changes to a new place.. I was in the room.. but I decided to walk Out.. and I been looking back.. thinking back when I was at my Room.. sitting on the floor.. looking through the Glass jar.. which was empty.. Now I must walk off.. I am now sitting Out side.. sitting by the shore.. I just love the waters.. I would drive alone.. and come to this One spot.. where I am able to get Out of the Car.. and I am able to sit.. this One Lake.. and I would watch the waters.. so Peaceful and Nice out.. I would always bring a Bottle.. and with me is the Shot Glass next to the Bottle.. and I would sit still.. I would be looking at your Picture.. makes me think more of you when I am by the Lake.. of course I know that I am not going to find you near.. but.. knowing you are so Far.. I still feel like YOU are near.. as Long as I have your picture in my hand.. and I am able to tell YOU some how.. How I feel this very night.. I would be asking for Your Heart.. I even brought the Empty Glass jar.. I know that your Heart can't fit in this Empty Glass Jar.. I know YOU have a Big Heart.. But I still want Your Heart.. I would be sitting down.. looking at your Picture.. my Chest burns when my eyes looks at YOU.. holding your Picture in my Heart.. Can I please imagine that YOU are here.. Can YOU please tell me that I can close both of my eyes and say that YOU are here.. that YOU are near.. but when both of my eyes are opened.. I know that YOU are gone.. leaving this space between us.. this distance which makes me even miss YOU more.. when Can I see YOU.. when will you ever be close to me.. Do you know the times when we can see each Other.. but every time I close my eyes and I imagine.. I know that I feel you so close.. so Near to me.. that I want my arms to hold YOU.. Hold you close and tight.. and I want to tell your ears.. How much I missed YOU.. ever since the day One.. I have been missing you ever since.. Please.. tell me that YOU are near.. I would grab your Picture.. and I would keep on looking at YOU.. this Picture.. it burns my Chest.. Burns like I put my hand on the stove.. and I can feel the fire burning.. it hurts when My chest burns.. like I get too many chest pains.. I get a lot of chest pains when I look at your picture.. I wonder why.. I want to stop these pains I get.. my chest hurts.. and I can feel my Heart screaming from inside.. I can Hear my Heart hurting.. with Chest pains of asking me.. WHY does my Heart keep on hurting.. only if my eyes can stop looking at your picture.. I know it can stop all these attacks in my Heart causing my Chest to Burn.. I just want to drop my Heart.. maybe Toss my Heart into the lake where the Waters are near to cool my Heart down.. But.. I don't want to lose my Heart.. I need my Heart so that I can love YOU and tell YOU How much I love YOU when I have my Heart close to Me.. as I would be looking at the Bottle.. I open the top of the lid.. I know that I should stop drinking.. the more I drink by taking shots.. the More I miss YOU and wish that you are here.. I would be wondering.. when I can I see you.. when will it be the day where I don't have to miss YOU.. and stop these pains.. these aching of longing for your presence.. to Hold YOU.. Hold you in my arms and to look at Your Heart.. I am going to be looking for your Heart to tell YOUR Heart.. look what you have done to my Heart.. Keep on missing YOU.. I would place the shot Glass close.. and pour the bottle into the Shot Glass.. placing the Bottle on the ground.. as my hand grabs the Shot Glass.. I would open my mouth.. and take a Shot.. I wonder if this is going to cool my Chest down.. but It burns as it goes in.. I can feel the burning and this ache just won't go away.. my hand grabs your Picture and I would look at your Picture.. why do YOU have to be so far from me.. I know that I be missing YOU like crazy.. when I look at your Picture.. sitting by the lake.. looking at the waters.. Looking at the stars.. asking the Moon.. I want wings.. I need wings.. Please give me two wings.. so that I don't have to be suffering like this.. and taking shots.. and keep on missing YOU.. How do I get me two wings.. I know that be the fastest way for me to get to YOU.. so that I don't have to miss you.. whenever I miss YOU.. I know that the two wings can help me.. lift me Out of this Misery.. so even from the distance.. looking at you from distance and able to see YOU.. I think the missing YOU will go away.. but when YOU are sitting here out by yourself.. and knowing there is a space and distance and my eyes can't see YOU.. On this very Night.. I would start to think of YOU more and more.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to hold YOU.. I want to hear Your voice.. your laughter.. I want to see your expression when I am near YOU.. what would you do If I was near YOU.. and knowing how much I love YOU.. what would you do if I am able to get me two wings.. I am able to fly over and just to see YOU.. because of missing YOU.. would you let me stay by your side.. would you push me away.. or would you greet me with a smile.. because I don't want to show UP if you think that I am a creep.. if I would scare you when my intentions.. my motives is all about loving YOU and telling YOU how much I love YOU.. I only want to show up to tell YOU that.. Not asking for anything More.. would you open your Heart to receive.. accept how much I love YOU.. or are you going to tell me to get Lost and push me out of the way.. I want to be near so that I can tell YOU I can be gentle.. and be more tender.. and too tell Your Heart.. showing YOU the Picture.. the picture of YOU.. and holding the empty Glass Jar.. that I been waiting for Your Heart.. that I want Your Heart.. and this is the proof.. that there is nothing more in this world I want.. but I need your Heart.. all I need is your Heart and to show YOU the Empty Glass jar.. and the reason why I have brought it empty.. to show YOU,, I want what is inside of YOU.. that is Your Heart.. Nothing more.. and I would wait.. wait for Your answer.. and I will show YOU the two Wings.. this is the wings I have received when I was sitting by the shore.. I was at the Lake.. looking at the waters.. and I would show YOU the picture.. I know that this picture belongs to YOU.. but I had to keep it for myself.. ever since I have seen your Picture.. I just got lost by Your Beauty.. by your presences.. and I knew.. YOU are the only One for Me.. so Please.. take my word as being so true.. so real.. because it is My Heart.. coming from my Heart.. Now.. ever since I got this Picture.. I just could not keep away.. I wanted you close.. I wanted you near to myself.. I am so sorry if I have your Picture.. I am so sorry for looking at your picture and falling in love with Your Beauty.. YOU know that YOU are so Beautiful.. there is NO Other words I can say to YOU but to say.. YOU are the Most Beautiful.. when I look at YOU.. and I see you smile.. whenever I see your Smile.. I feel like a foot kicks my Heart.. very hard it kicks that I feel my Chest Burns.. and keeps on burning.. But I just can't keep it to myself.. I just can't help it but to share.. to tell YOU.. I need Your Heart.. so that I know for sure I can really Love YOU.. as I would pull out a Note.. with me is a Pen.. and I would start to write on this note.. LOOKING at Your Picture.. grabbing the BOTTLE and pouring into the Shot Glass.. placing the Bottle on the ground.. I pick UP the Shot Glass and I would take a SHOT at it.. placing the Shot Glass on the ground next to the Bottle.. I can feel it.. I can feel my Heart.. It tells me that My Heart is burning.. it is burning me from the inside.. I needs to take a breathe.. because YOU are taking my Breathe away.. as I am looking at the Note.. writing with the Pen.. telling YOU that I miss YOU.. when can I see YOU.. It burns me.. giving me Chest pains because I am missing YOU.. over and over again.. I keep on missing YOU.. will this Note goes to YOU.. if I put this Note in this Bottle.. I wonder how far the current of this water can push the Bottle through.. will it goes to YOU.. will you receive this Message that I wrote on the Note in this Bottle.. if the Current of the waters are strong enough to let this Bottle goes across.. I want this Message in the bottle to go to YOU.. I don't want another hand grabbing this Bottle because it is all written to tell YOU How Much I love YOU.. and How much I miss YOU.. I don't think it can go far.. I don't want the wrong person.. wrong hand opening the Bottle and reading the Message when It is not for that Person.. I am sending it to YOU.. Only YOU I can tell YOU.. but It hurts.. How am I suppose to get this Message Out if the Bottle goes not far.. DO I have faith.. Am I suppose to believe that YOU will receive this Message.. that the Bottle will go to YOU.. and I would lift UP my Head.. looking at the Moon.. will you please help Me.. help me and rescue my Wish.. I want to believe and I want to trust that this Bottle.. this Message I am placing into the Bottle.. it will goes to YOU.. and as I sat there.. I put my hands together.. LOOKING at the MOON.. and closing my eyes.. Please help me.. help
@devinjo-h7h 2 күн бұрын
Bottle to go into Your Hands.. let it be YOU who can read the Message.. the Note inside this Bottle.. only YOU can make my dreams come true and my wishes be reals.. and I would put the Note into the Bottle.. and TOSS the Bottle into the Lake waters.. My arms around the Empty Glass Jar.. I look down and start to cry.. my tears runs down.. I need your Heart.. I really want Your Heart.. There is writing and typing.. I can write and type you many letters.. and tell you through all these letters.. but I am thinking about telling you with Words.. if I was to see YOU.. and meet you face to face.. how am I going to tell YOU with those words.. I want to tell YOU with my lips how much I love YOU.. and tell you so that it is Not only by the letters of writing.. but I am imagining when I see you.. will I tell you the right words.. will I scare YOU.. will I push you away because you say.. and for a long time.. I never stopped loving YOU.. I been here.. telling YOU.. telling you how much I love you.. letting YOU know the shape of my Heart.. how much My Heart truly loves YOU.. because I will never stop loving YOU.. as I would sit on the floor.. I would get up slowly.. leaving the Glass Jar on the floor and I see the Sun above me and It is so Hot out here.. sometimes I wonder why do I come to this Tree when it is in the Middle of the day.. when it is the Most hottest of the day.. But.. I have Your Picture with me.. I just love looking at YOU.. the Most Beautiful.. and before I came to this Tree.. I saw a field.. full of flowers and I would stop by to see this One Flower.. the Sun Flower.. and I remember I had to go and grab it.. before someone else can grab this Flower.. walking down.. I would start to sing.. I don't know where the song comes from but as I was walking.. holding the Sun Flower.. holding the Empty Glass Jar.. and I was told that there is a Big Heart.. it is sitting on the Top of a branch.. and told me to go and see it.. I wonder whose Big Heart it is.. but.. I received a Picture of YOU.. and it was a Drawing on a Piece of paper of a Big Heart sitting on top of the Branch.. I received it on the mail box and when someone told me about the Big Heart sitting on the Top of a tree on the Branch.. I smiled and knew whose Heart it is.. SO I would come to this Tree.. Before I was stopped by the Tree.. the field and the Sun Flower.. in the Room I had to go and grab the Empty Glass Jar.. just in case if The Big Heart falls off.. I want to use this Empty Glass Jar to catch Your Heart.. I have placed soft cottons.. many many around.. so fluffy and so soft so that the Heart will not get hurt.. I have come to this Tree.. I know if someone has spotted the Big Heart.. I am sure more people are able to see this Big Heart.. I don't want any one to take Your Heart.. But.. I can't believe it.. I see few people surrounding the Tree.. Cameras are flashing.. finger points at the Big Heart and I would hear some boys talking about getting to that Big Heart.. I am wondering.. there is a large numbers of people here and more people are coming to this Tree.. I turn and next to me is another man.. He has a empty Glass jar and turns and looks at me.. I am holding the same glass jar.. I smile big because I have placed a SUN FLOWER inside the Glass Jar.. so I know that when your Big Heart is able to look.. YOU can look at the Head of the Sun Flower.. so that YOU will know that it is me.. I want to give YOU this Flower.. in the middle of the day.. more people comes to this tree.. but many just stand around and complains it is so hot.. and starts to leave.. I am waiting for the people to leave.. I just want to be here alone and I will wait until all People goes.. people are talking.. and hungry.. I am waiting still.. as I am waiting for the time for all these people.. fifty people.. and I see the numbers goes down.. and It becomes Night.. I see the Moon comes UP.. and I see the stars shine.. I can't believe it.. the Man with the empty glass jar is still here with me.. I think He does not want to leave.. what am I suppose to do.. He keeps on looking up.. waving the Empty Glass jar around.. I smile because the Big Heart.. YOUR Big Heart is still sitting on the TOP of that Branch.. He be waving all through the day.. and I see that He is tired.. and he looks at me.. puts his head down and starts to walk off.. I am so glad.. so happy that everyone is gone.. I am able to take out the Picture of YOU.. Paste it and stick it on the Tree.. I am able to look at your picture.. do I get inspired by your Beauty.. I do love that YOU are so Beautiful.. I am Not going to lie to you that YOU are so amazingly Beautiful.. so Beautiful that I would walk close.. and press my lip on the Picture of YOU.. I will say.. MY MY.. YOU are so Beautiful.. WHY do you have to be this Beautiful.. what if my eyes decides to leave me.. my eyes can cry looking at your picture and will ask my Hand to open wide and both eyes can fall off crying because when I look at YOU through the Picture.. my Heart catches on fire.. it burns me from the inside.. I feel so Hot suddenly because my eyes look at your picture and I would say MY MY.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and I would be looking at Your Picture.. I would place the Glass Jar down.. PULLING out the Sun Flower and I would be looking at you through the Picture.. I want to give you this flower.. How can I give you this Flower.. Please tell me How.. I been waiting out here.. I been waiting where it be YOU and I alone.. in the middle of the Day.. it was pretty crowded.. and many people were waiting too like myself.. wanted to see Your Big Heart.. wanted to get close to Your Big Heart.. I know that Your Heart is sitting way up on the Top of the branch of this Tree.. I would look around.. I saw many people come.. even people would be leaving.. another group of people comes.. every time I wanted to pull out Your Picture and paste it on this tree.. I would hear group of people.. voices talking.. I would grab Your Picture pulling back to the pocket.. and I had to just stand here all day.. the SUN had to go down because people still came around.. and at last.. all of the people are gone.. but.. all the eyes were looking at.. It is Your Big Heart.. I even brought the empty Glass jar.. do YOU see it on the ground.. when I received a Picture of YOU.. and also a sketch drawing of Your Big Heart sitting on the top branch of the Tree.. I was so excited because I knew that YOU were telling something.. I would be standing by the window of my room in the House.. asking for Your Heart.. I be asking and asking.. begging for Your Heart.. I been praying if I can have Your Big Heart.. of course I would always ask.. never stopped asking.. keep asking until the answer would be answered.. so I would keep on trying.. asking.. give me a sign.. send me a miracle and I guess YOU must heard me.. I am here by this Tree.. and you gave me the answer.. telling me where Your Heart is.. but Why did you choose on this tree.. this tree is so Big.. I am so small compared to the size of this Big Tree.. I am thankful you gave me a sign.. But look at how tall this Tree is and how short I am compared.. I don't want to just stand here and look UP.. just wondering how I can get to that Big Heart.. as I am looking at your Picture pasted on this Tree.. I am holding the Sun Flower.. I want to give YOU this Flower.. But How.. if YOU are not here.. but Your Big Heart is way UP sitting on the branch of this Tree.. I want to give you this flower.. Tell me How can I give You this flower.. this SUN FLOWER first.. My next is.. I want to touch Your Big Heart.. is there a way I can touch and Hold your Heart.. my hands wants to touch and feel.. the warmth of Your Big Heart.. and My Arms wants to wrap around Your Big Heart.. I want to put my ear next to your Heart.. can I please listen to the beating of Your Big Heart.. I want to hear How Your Heart.. Your Big Heart sound.. I am here so I can ask YOU.. I want to get close to YOU.. I want YOU to know that I really want to get closer to YOU.. but Your Big Heart is sitting on the top of the Branch.. it is on the Highest Branch way UP there.. and YOU know that I am way down here on the ground.. so How do I get to that Big Heart.. It looks so beautiful.. I needs to Hear YOU.. I needs to tell YOU.. I want to talk to Your Heart.. but if Your Big Heart cannot hear me because I am way down here to the ground.. and Your Big Heart way UP on the top.. the highest branch of the Tree.. when I am looking UP.. do you know that my neck hurts.. that is How High it is for me to LOOK at Your Big Heart and yes.. I do see Your Big Heart.. it is so Big.. I am spreading my arms wide.. I want to hold Your big Heart.. and Hug Your Heart and say to Your Heart.. I been waiting for this day for a very long time.. to tell Your Heart How much I love YOU.. I want to bring Your Big Heart closer so that I can tell Your Heart.. speak to Your Heart and tell Your Heart.. I love YOU.. I wonder will you accept my words.. I am I allowed to tell YOU this to Your Heart.. that I do love YOU.. what would happen if I get Your Big Heart closer to my lip and I can whisper to Your Big Heart.. I love YOU.. I know for me.. on my part to able to tell you these words.. I am going to be hopping around like a big kid.. because to able to tell YOU these words.. It is a miracle for me.. How can a person like myself be able to tell
@devinjo-h7h 2 күн бұрын
That I love YOU.. the I love YOUR BIG HEART.. will you allowed me to speak these words to Your Heart.. that is why I am here.. I am here at the bottom.. at the ground.. I am looking UP.. but I am able to look at your picture because it is pasted on the tree.. Showing Your Picture I am holding something in my hand.. a Flower which I want to say it came from the Middle of the day at the hottest.. the SUN.. can I please give YOU this Flower.. I want to give you to tell you where my Heart is.. why I am giving this flower to YOU.. I know that when I do give you this Sun flower.. I know I be at the most happiest place.. and for YOU to receive it.. the JOY that YOU give me just to give it away.. as I am looking at you through this Picture.. why can't you answer me.. I am looking at the paper.. the drawing of a Heart.. and I am standing by this Tall tree.. is this the Right Tree.. can YOU please tell me if I am standing at the right Place.. I see about twelve more Trees behind and All around this Park.. WHY are you telling me to come to this Park without telling me Which Tree to go too.. Is it because I have delayed my Coming.. DO I needs to tell YOU that I am so Sorry.. I am so sorry for Not coming to the appointed Time.. I did Not expect the changing of the weather.. Of course I did have that chance.. the day when It started to rain.. it was the Light rain at first.. then I heard the thunder and saw the flashing of lightening across the Sky.. I know that I should of come.. But when I saw the rain.. and it started to rain down Hard.. I was Not sure if Your Heart.. would YOU of still Put your Heart Up on the Tree Branch.. I want to Know.. I want to know because what if I came.. but.. I did Not see the Heart UP on the Tree Branch.. YOU know How much I wanted to see Your Heart.. but I was Not sure if YOU would of came.. Not saying that I don't trust Your Words but the condition that has taken place.. the situation that was causing to change the direction.. I still would of come.. but.. I had to truly wait.. truly had to delay the Time.. I wanted to say I am so Sorry that I could Not make it on time.. NOW I am paying the price of not coming.. as I am Looking.. I am standing.. which Tree.. is it the Second Tree.. Is it the Third Tree.. am I suppose to walk down to every Tree.. and to LOOK UP at every thirteen Trees that is standing around.. as I am holding the Paper.. I drew a Heart Shape.. Not sure How Big of the Heart it suppose to be but I drew the Heart.. Your Heart very Big on this Sheet of Paper.. I did Not find Your Heart on a Tree Branch on the First Tree.. as I would stop.. standing next to this Big Tree.. I would stand.. holding the Piece of paper.. it is a Drawing of Your Heart.. I want to show YOU.. I want to see if the Drawing on this Piece of Paper matches the Shape and the Size of Your Heart.. I want to show Your Heart.. and compare does it comes very close to your Heart.. I needs to know.. I needs to Know truly.. can YOU Please.. as I am looking at the First tree.. I would show this Tree.. the Piece of paper.. Am I suppose to talk to this Tree.. Maybe this Tree Knows.. maybe this Tree will answer and tell me if YOU put your Heart.. I have One picture.. the Picture of YOU.. and on the Other Hand is the Piece of paper.. the drawing of the Shape and the Big Size of Your Heart.. and I will say.. Please tell Me.. Please Help Me.. and as I am looking at this Big Tree.. the first Tree at this Park.. I know that YOU probably will not speak back to Me.. or tell me anything.. But I wanted to show YOU and ask YOU.. as I would turn the Picture and to show this Tree Your Beautiful Picture of Your Face.. I am Lost.. and I have not come at the Appointed time and had to delay the Time of the coming.. I even asked to forgive Me.. I wanted to say Sorry for Not coming on time.. But.. I did still come even though it was suppose to be few weeks back.. the weather was Not on my side.. it was Not helping me with the time of appointed me to come.. so I had to delay the time to today.. SO I am wondering.. DO YOU know the One who I love.. I know that YOU told me YOU Have left the Heart here.. the Heart.. and I would show this First tree.. the Piece of Paper of the drawing of the Heart.. showing the Shape and the Size of the Heart.. and also showing Your Picture to this Tree.. the first tree.. as I would wait in silent.. I wanted to hear an answer.. But it seems Like this Tree is Not going to answer me.. I feel like maybe this First tree Never saw YOU here at the Park.. or Not see your Heart.. I would Look UP.. looking at the branches.. to the One at the Top of the Branches and I do Not see the Heart.. Your Heart.. I would see people walking and they would pass by.. I see a Man walking By.. and I would stop the Man.. and He turns to face Me.. I would show the Man the Picture of YOU.. and I would ask.. DID YOU ever saw YOU before.. the Man looks at me and smiles.. and I say.. SO you do know who YOU are.. and I asked HIM.. and show him the Piece of paper and it is the drawing of Your Heart.. the Shape and the Size of Your Heart.. the Man looks at a Tree.. and He knows where YOUR Heart is at.. and On the Third Tree.. ON the top of the Branch is a Heart.. and I thanked this Man because He knows where YOUR HEART is at.. the Man goes ON his Way.. and I just can't believe It.. so it was Me who delayed.. if I knew at that TIME.. I should of come but YOU have come at the appointed time.. as I would walk leaving the First Big Tree.. I would pass by the Second Big Tree and I would walk.. Looking at the Third Big Tree.. I am Not sure why would YOU put and I would stop next to the Third Tree.. why.. and as I would compare the height.. I see WHY.. the third Tree is the Biggest Tree and the tallest tree from the twelve Other trees around.. and as I stand next to the Third Big Tree.. I Look UP.. looking at every tree branches to the TOP of.. and I see Your Heart.. I have never seen such a Big Heart.. it is so Big.. the size and the shape.. there is NO match to compete of the Size of Your Heart.. because it is SO BIG as it is.. HOW did that Heart get way UP there.. and what am I suppose to do.. as I am looking at the Piece of Paper.. the drawing of.. looking at the shape and the Size.. I know that I can't even draw at all.. I want to know.. How did YOUR BIG HEART reach UP way UP there.. and It is Not going to fall on the ground.. It seems like the branches are unable to HOLD because the SIZE is SO BIG.. YOUR HEART is so Big.. as I turn.. I am looking at the Third tree.. I would say.. I know that I am so Small.. and Yes.. many times I can feel so weak.. but I know that what I want and what I need is that Big Heart.. I know that YOU are Not here.. that is why I have chose to LOOK at this third Tree.. and If YOU can Hear me.. I can only speak to this Third Tree.. even though I want to tell YOU my Heart.. When you compare the size of Your Heart.. I want my Heart to be as Big as YOUR HEART.. so that I can tell YOU that I love YOU.. Only if the Shape and the Size of My Heart can grow.. and can expand as Big as Your Heart.. can I tell YOU then that I love YOU.. I need to say It to YOU.. I want to say it to YOU.. telling YOU that Course of time.. My Heart.. it was able to reach its height as Big as Your Heart.. if two Hearts are the right Size and Shape.. I know that I can Love you as Much as I can.. but it needs to grow and expand its reach Like Your Heart.. If my Heart is so Small.. How can I love your Big Size Heart.. Please.. tell me How can My Heart be as Big as Your Heart.. If My Heart can be big as Your Heart.. I know that I am able to float into the air.. and as I can be lifted UP.. I can Open my Arms wide.. and grab.. and PULL your Heart closer to my Heart.. TO my Chest and Let Your Heart hear my Heart crying inside because finally Our Hearts can meet each Other.. for the first time in a long time I can really let my tears fly Out of my eyes because I can say Finally I can tell Your Heart.. How much I love YOU.. How much I missed YOU.. able to share and tell Your Heart.. I have missed YOU so Much but also been loving YOU so much.. waiting over and over.. letting the time pass by.. but even when the TIME kept on going.. I have Never stopped loving YOU.. I have never stopped missing YOU.. always thinking of YOU.. thinking of when can I see YOU so that I can tell Your Heart.. I love YOU.. holding Your Big Heart into my Arms.. I would kiss your Heart.. your BIG HEART and say.. I can't breathe.. ready to exhale.. when I kiss Your Big Heart.. I can inhale.. when I exhale I will say.. can YOU Hear my Heart Beat.. wants to follow the Beating of Your Heart.. let our Hearts beat together and can make sound and music inside.. but I need YOUR Heart.. I first am asking for Your Heart.. so that I can tell YOU what My Heart truly feels inside when I am close to YOU and close to YOUR HEART.. able to let it ALL OUT and I would again.. Kiss your Heart and whisper to Your Heart.. I love YOU.. I wanted to say and tell YOU.. by telling YOUR Heart.. I have been longing for this day to Come.. I wanted this day to come sooner but it seems like the TIME is Not on my side right Now.. NO matter How many times I would say.. I would write and to tell YOU.. I wanted to say it a lot sooner.. waiting part can be very Hard.. can be difficult when YOU are unsure about the situation or about the TIME.. will it ever come.. WILL I ever able to tell YOUR HEART that I love YOU.. but.. as I am looking at this Big Tree.. the Third Tree in this Park.. when the rain came the first Night.. the SNOW started to fall on the second Night.. through the winter storm I saw.. nothing but SNOW was Out.. staying inside the House.. felt like I was locked.. because I knew that I had to go to see Your Heart.. it was killing me while waiting.. it was killing me because even I started to think about.. what if YOU did COME.. and YOU have placed Your Heart on the TOP of the Branch
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Heart away so that I cannot see Your Big Heart any more.. there was One Part.. maybe YOU did Not come.. but another side of me told Me.. I know that YOU will keep your Part.. You will keep your Promises which when I asked the MAN who was passing By.. He told me He saw YOU coming.. You were Holding Your Heart.. Your Arms around Your Big Heart.. and as He stood there watching YOU.. it started to rain.. YOU would start to climb UP on the Third Tree.. with Your Big Heart On your Back.. and saw Your BIG HEART crying as YOUR arms and hands let go climbing back down ON the Big Tree.. the MAN looks UP.. Your Big Heart keeps on crying Out to YOU.. as YOU turn away.. getting Hit by the rain.. and had to run Off because YOU were getting HIT.. a lot by the waters of the rain.. HE said He was touched and deeply Moved of YOUR WORD keeping the promise.. when I heard this as the MAN leaves.. who saw all these things.. He came to stop by.. Just to see if Your Big Heart was still there and that is when I ran to HIM.. that is why the Only words I can say.. I am so Sorry for delaying on my Part.. I should of Know that YOU are so determined to keep Your Word.. I know that YOU are so Strong.. your WILL.. YOU are very determined.. and YOU are so Strong.. that is One part of YOU that I saw is what Made My Heart to say I love YOU.. where my Heart.. it tells Me to love YOU more.. because I know that YOU are so special.. YOU are so unique and so Different.. and even though I was delayed of coming.. I still had to come just in case.. when I heard that YOUR BIG HEART was still here at this Park.. that It was located on the Third BIG TREE.. I would be walking with tears in my eyes.. because I knew that I should of Came before.. that I should of come on the appointed time that YOU TOLD ME to come.. I could of saw YOU.. if I saw YOU.. I would of grabbed unto Your Arms.. and pull YOU closer into my arms because I would say.. I love YOU.. I would say to YOU.. if I came that day.. the appointed time that YOU gave me the Note to come.. I would asked YOU.. it is very dangerous to climb up.. when the rain comes Hard.. things can happen where YOU would Not believe but.. that Courage and being so brave.. I just wanted to say.. I am so sorry that I did Not come that day.. But.. I now see why YOU have a Big Heart.. such a Big Heart that I want My Heart to be as big as YOURS.. so that I can tell YOU in many words.. how much I love YOU.. and to tell YOU how much I been missing YOU lately.. that I know deep inside.. I need YOU.. I need YOU to need me too.. I need to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I need to say to that Heart.. Your Big Heart.. that I love you.. and I am so sorry that I love YOU and I thank YOU.. thank you for being YOU and also having that Big Heart.. NOW I know how much My Heart needs to grow.. so when My Heart starts to grow as BIG as YOURS.. I can finally say.. holding YOUR BIG HEART.. I love YOU and kiss Your Big Heart and tell Your Heart over and over.. this is why.. I love YOU.. that is why I need YOU so that I can continue to say to YOU that I love YOU.. Feels like the Spring time.. as I am holding the Empty Glass Jar.. around my arms.. I am thinking of Your Heart.. I know that I am missing your Heart.. I want to see your Heart.. WILL you let me see that Heart of Yours.. and I am walking and I stop by this Tall Tree.. and I am wondering if it is this Tree.. I been waiting for this very day.. the weather Out side has been very cold.. looking at the Snow falling.. even it has been raining a lot around this time.. I could Not come to this Tree.. I do missing this Tree.. which I received a Note.. YOU be telling me to come to this Tree.. and I just could not come around for a while.. But.. I am here today.. wondering.. DID YOU leave your Heart here.. I had a dream.. dreaming of the day.. my arms can wrap around.. looking at YOU.. but.. asking if I can see your Heart.. if I am allowed to speak to your Heart.. will you let Me.. will you allow me to talk to Your Heart because that is all I want.. that is ALL I need.. I want to first tell Your Heart.. how much I love you.. but I needs to say It.. I needs to tell It to your Heart.. without Your Heart.. My Love will Not last.. it cannot go very far.. that is why I am asking first for Your Heart.. so Please.. tell me that YOU have left your Heart behind.. as I would sit on the ground.. I would pull out the Paper which was inside this Glass Jar.. I started to Miss you Last Night.. for some reason.. I started to Miss you all over again.. I would be sitting at the desk.. and ON the corner of the Desk.. I would put your Picture.. and as I turn to LOOK at the corner of the Desk.. I would grab Your Picture and I would take a closer LOOK at YOU.. looking through the Picture.. I would say to YOU.. even though YOU may Not hear me.. YOU may never hear my voice.. I would look at Your Picture.. looking at YOU.. I would smile and say to YOU LOOKING at the Picture.. I miss YOU.. and I do Love YOU.. but first.. why do I keep on missing YOU even though I have your Picture with me.. why do I keep telling myself but Looking at YOU through this Picture.. I know that YOU can't hear me now.. But I know.. I believe that One Day YOU will hear me Loud and clear.. Holding YOU close in my arms.. I will say to YOU.. LOOKING at and asking.. is this YOUR HEART.. can I tell YOUR HEART that I love YOU.. will you please let me say it.. that I love YOU.. as I would be looking at the Picture of YOU.. I be very sad.. because when I start to think about missing YOU.. I really really do Miss YOU.. and I would pull out a clean piece of paper.. there is nothing written but just a Blank sheet.. I would grab me the Pencil.. and of course I have Never seen Your Heart.. but start to draw a Picture of Your Heart.. thinking maybe this is How YOUR Heart Looks Like.. the shape and the size of It.. I wish that I can have a picture of Your Heart.. How Big is it.. the shape of It.. can I take A picture of It.. only If I can see YOU.. and YOU holding a Heart in the hands.. I want to click to take a Picture with the camera.. but.. only thing I can do at this Point.. just draw a Picture.. Picture of Your Heart.. and I would put.. Can I write My Name in Your Heart.. would you say something about It if I do.. Please tell me if YOU don't want me too.. because I want to write my Name in your Heart and speak to this Piece of paper of drawing of Your Heart.. I love YOU.. I want to say It.. and tell YOU what My Heart truly feels.. I received few months back.. a Note from You because I have been asking for Your Heart.. that I want to see your Heart.. I been calling YOU On the Phone.. only hearing your Voice.. that is all I can receive from YOU.. but.. I want More than just hearing your Voice.. that is why I started to ask.. If I can see Your Heart.. will you allow me to see Your Heart.. can I get close to Your Heart and Know what is really in your Heart.. I want to hear Your Heart.. even though it can be very far.. even it can be from a long distance.. but I am just asking for this One thing.. Can YOU Please tell me where is Your Heart.. and I be putting YOU on the Loud speaker.. wanting to hear your Voice.. and YOU telling me you be sending me a Note.. when the Note arrives.. YOU are going to tell me where to GO.. and There.. YOUR HEART is going to be there too.. after I heard this from your voice.. I waited for the Note.. day would go by but it be very long as I would wait for the Note.. the Note comes and it arrives.. as I received the Note from YOU.. I open the front door and some one put the Note on the ground.. I do remember when I opened the front door.. I only found the Note on the ground.. I would go to the Note to pick It UP.. as I hold on and looked at your writing on the Note.. I would read it.. It is at the Park.. there is a Tree.. on a top of the Branch.. the Heart is there waiting.. I should of gone when I received it.. I should of walked right when I received It.. but it was raining Hard and I would hear the wind blowing Hard.. and I wanted to go but why on this day.. and I would just close the Door behind.. I do regret not going at that time.. I should of Gone because It is YOU.. I even told YOU that I be waiting for YOU.. for the Note which it came to me.. I do remember grabbing the Note.. walking into the House.. the Next day.. the Snow comes.. and It be very cold.. for weeks it would be cold with the Snow falling from the sky.. I should of Gone is what I should of done.. the weeks turned into Months now.. I would be waiting for the Snow weather to die down.. But why did I not come at the time YOU send the Note to Me.. as I am sitting on the Ground.. I am just looking UP at this Tree.. hoping maybe your Heart is still here.. am I just too Late.. did I come at the wrong time.. It is because I did Not come right.. I am looking at this Note.. with the Date YOU have written it to tell me when.. But.. LOOK at the time now.. I have decided to wait a little more longer.. and I should of come at the time.. at the Moment YOU wanted me to come and to show the Heart.. as I am sitting.. I would pull the Paper.. the Drawing of Your Heart.. I am still wondering.. will YOUR Heart be here.. I know that deep inside YOUR Heart is not going to be here.. because it is ME to be blamed for Not making it ON time.. I am the One to be blamed.. I was asking YOU.. I was begging for a Chance to see Your Heart.. I wanted too.. I also even brought the Camera with Me.. it has the straps around my Neck so that I can take a picture of Your Heart.. Just in case Your Heart falls from the Branches.. I can catch YOUR Heart with the Glass Jar.. as I would sit on the ground.. I feel so Sad.. I feel so Hurt all of a suddenly.. because I missed Out.. was I afraid to come because of the rain.. if it did Not rained at all.. I know that I would of showed UP 100 percent.. and I would push back saying.. maybe tomorrow.. but even when the tomorrow became today.. the weather did
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Just for one day.. I choose not to come because of the weather.. but if I should of known that I would Not see your Heart here today.. then I could of made up my mind to show UP.. because do you not see that Now I am here.. I have come to see your Heart.. prepared and brought everything I told you that what I am going to do.. I told you that I wanted to take a picture of Your Heart.. to get the closer look.. I even told YOU that I drew a Picture of Your Heart.. Not sure the shape or the size but I wanted to know if it is going to be the same imagine of the drawing and Your Real Heart.. I want to see It.. I want to see Your Heart.. I want to hear Your Heart.. even it can be at the Way top of the branch.. as long as it is You.. it is Your Heart.. as I am looking at the Piece of paper.. looking at the drawing of Your Heart.. I wish that I came sooner.. I wish that I came early.. I wish that I would of walked and ran in the rain.. Just to see Your Heart.. just to see the Shape and the Size of Your Heart.. no Matter How wet I be.. or can be sick from the rain.. I could of catch the flu from the cold rain.. but at least I could see Your Heart.. taking the Picture of it.. your Heart.. and when I get the Photo picture of your Heart.. I would of pulled Out the Blank sheet of paper.. and LOOKING at the Photo picture of Your Real Heart.. I would try to draw the One that is in the Photo picture of Your Heart.. and let you see that this is the Heart I see on the Top of the branch and I would of called YOU and ask YOU.. sending the Picture of it.. and I know that at least YOU will know that I came and saw It.. I would be standing in the cold rain.. as I would lift UP the Camera.. as the rain waters would hit me.. I would be standing still.. cold and wet.. but.. as Long as I am Looking at Your Heart.. even for few seconds.. just for blink of an eye.. and I am able to lift UP too take the Picture .. ZOOMING in closer and I would hit the click of the Button of the camera.. I be standing still.. crying in the rain.. and I be saying to myself.. I have been waiting for this very day.. just to look at your Heart.. even from the far.. the distance that leaves me cold and wet.. but I have showed UP.. I have come because I wanted to look at Your Heart.. to see your Heart and to say loud from the afar.. I love YOU.. I came to tell Your Heart.. it is standing on top of the Branch.. so Beautiful.. I want It.. I want that Heart and I would scream from my Heart.. I want It.. I want Your Heart.. Please.. Please give me YOUR Heart because I love YOU.. why can't YOU give me Your Heart so that I can tell YOUR Heart and say to your Heart How much I truly.. really really love YOU.. but the feeling would be at the Best as I would be able to turn the other way.. after I get to see Your Heart.. after I get to LOOK at the Drawing Picture of what I think your Heart looks Like and looking UP at the TOP Branch of this tree and looking actually at Your Heart.. and taking that picture.. taking the picture of Your Real Heart.. and I am able to print out the Photo Picture.. and I do not have to think if it is right but when I am holding the Actual Photo Picture of what I have taken of the Real Heart.. I know that I do not have to imagine it.. but can trace it and copy drawing on a Clean Blanket of Piece of paper.. and I can tell YOU.. I have seen Your Heart.. and here is the proof.. here is what I saw.. and when I saw Your Heart.. I just had to take a closer LOOK.. looking from the ground UP with my eyes was very Hard to know.. but when I put the Camera up.. and I looked through the Lens of the Camera.. able to focus and ZOOM it to get a closer look of your Heart.. I was Moved.. my Heart was moved.. I was touched deep inside.. because It is Your Heart I am looking at.. it is Not another person's heart.. but it is Your Heart who I be loving.. and wanting to see even from afar.. I would say.. even though it be hard for Your Heart to hear me from the ground.. I will tell Your Heart.. I love YOU.. for the first time.. I am saying it loud to YOU.. will you please accept these words of Mine to YOU.. that I love YOU.. and I am just waiting for the day.. I can Hold Your Heart in my arms.. I want to hold Your Heart and tell YOUR Heart.. I am so sorry that I missed YOU.. but I am Not sorry for loving YOU.. missing YOU hurts me More than anything else in the world.. but as long as I can get close to Your Heart.. I only want to see this Heart.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. allow me to love Your Heart please.. will you please let me love YOU more.. love your Heart too.. as I am sitting on the ground.. I would start to cry.. I know that I came just too late.. I am only looking at the Piece of Paper.. the One that I drew thinking this is the shape and the size of Your Heart.. but I needs to see Your Heart.. not what I think it should be.. I should of come.. I have waited just too long or delayed too long.. Now I am missing Your Heart.. tell me where is Your Heart so that I can go.. go where your Heart is so that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. I am so sorry that I came just too later.. Please forgive me and help me again so that I can see Your Heart.. I want to say to Your Heart.. I love YOU.. please tell me.. where do I go now.. where is Your Heart so that I know where to go.. please tell me.. please.. I am looking at the Tree.. standing and it is so Hot.. I see the Sun above me and It is so Hot out here.. sometimes I wonder why do I come to this Tree when it is in the Middle of the day.. when it is the Most hottest of the day.. But.. I have Your Picture with me.. I just love looking at YOU.. the Most Beautiful.. and before I came to this Tree.. I saw a field.. full of flowers and I would stop by to see this One Flower.. the Sun Flower.. and I remember I had to go and grab it.. before someone else can grab this Flower.. walking down.. I would start to sing.. I don't know where the song comes from but as I was walking.. holding the Sun Flower.. holding the Empty Glass Jar.. and I was told that there is a Big Heart.. it is sitting on the Top of a branch.. and told me to go and see it.. I wonder whose Big Heart it is.. but.. I received a Picture of YOU.. and it was a Drawing on a Piece of paper of a Big Heart sitting on top of the Branch.. I received it on the mail box and when someone told me about the Big Heart sitting on the Top of a tree on the Branch.. I smiled and knew whose Heart it is.. SO I would come to this Tree.. Before I was stopped by the Tree.. the field and the Sun Flower.. in the Room I had to go and grab the Empty Glass Jar.. just in case if The Big Heart falls off.. I want to use this Empty Glass Jar to catch Your Heart.. I have placed soft cottons.. many many around.. so fluffy and so soft so that the Heart will not get hurt.. I have come to this Tree.. I know if someone has spotted the Big Heart.. I am sure more people are able to see this Big Heart.. I don't want any one to take Your Heart.. But.. I can't believe it.. I see few people surrounding the Tree.. Cameras are flashing.. finger points at the Big Heart and I would hear some boys talking about getting to that Big Heart.. I am wondering.. there is a large numbers of people here and more people are coming to this Tree.. I turn and next to me is another man.. He has a empty Glass jar and turns and looks at me.. I am holding the same glass jar.. I smile big because I have placed a SUN FLOWER inside the Glass Jar.. so I know that when your Big Heart is able to look.. YOU can look at the Head of the Sun Flower.. so that YOU will know that it is me.. I want to give YOU this Flower.. in the middle of the day.. more people comes to this tree.. but many just stand around and complains it is so hot.. and starts to leave.. I am waiting for the people to leave.. I just want to be here alone and I will wait until all People goes.. people are talking.. and hungry.. I am waiting still.. as I am waiting for the time for all these people.. fifty people.. and I see the numbers goes down.. and It becomes Night.. I see the Moon comes UP.. and I see the stars shine.. I can't believe it.. the Man with the empty glass jar is still here with me.. I think He does not want to leave.. what am I suppose to do.. He keeps on looking up.. waving the Empty Glass jar around.. I smile because the Big Heart.. YOUR Big Heart is still sitting on the TOP of that Branch.. He be waving all through the day.. and I see that He is tired.. and he looks at me.. puts his head down and starts to walk off.. I am so glad.. so happy that everyone is gone.. I am able to take out the Picture of YOU.. Paste it and stick it on the Tree.. I am able to look at your picture.. do I get inspired by your Beauty.. I do love that YOU are so Beautiful.. I am Not going to lie to you that YOU are so amazingly Beautiful.. so Beautiful that I would walk close.. and press my lip on the Picture of YOU.. I will say.. MY MY.. YOU are so Beautiful.. WHY do you have to be this Beautiful.. what if my eyes decides to leave me.. my eyes can cry looking at your picture and will ask my Hand to open wide and both eyes can fall off crying because when I look at YOU through the Picture.. my Heart catches on fire.. it burns me from the inside.. I feel so Hot suddenly because my eyes look at your picture and I would say MY MY.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and I would be looking at Your Picture.. I would place the Glass Jar down.. PULLING out the Sun Flower and I would be looking at you through the Picture.. I want to give you this flower.. How can I give you this Flower.. Please tell me How.. I been waiting out here.. I been waiting where it be YOU and I alone.. in the middle of the Day.. it was pretty crowded.. and many people were waiting too like myself.. wanted to see Your Big Heart.. wanted to get close to Your Big Heart.. I know that Your
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Is sitting way up on the Top of the branch of this Tree.. I would look around.. I saw many people come.. even people would be leaving.. another group of people comes.. every time I wanted to pull out Your Picture and paste it on this tree.. I would hear group of people.. voices talking.. I would grab Your Picture pulling back to the pocket.. and I had to just stand here all day.. the SUN had to go down because people still came around.. and at last.. all of the people are gone.. but.. all the eyes were looking at.. It is Your Big Heart.. I even brought the empty Glass jar.. do YOU see it on the ground.. when I received a Picture of YOU.. and also a sketch drawing of Your Big Heart sitting on the top branch of the Tree.. I was so excited because I knew that YOU were telling something.. I would be standing by the window of my room in the House.. asking for Your Heart.. I be asking and asking.. begging for Your Heart.. I been praying if I can have Your Big Heart.. of course I would always ask.. never stopped asking.. keep asking until the answer would be answered.. so I would keep on trying.. asking.. give me a sign.. send me a miracle and I guess YOU must heard me.. I am here by this Tree.. and you gave me the answer.. telling me where Your Heart is.. but Why did you choose on this tree.. this tree is so Big.. I am so small compared to the size of this Big Tree.. I am thankful you gave me a sign.. But look at how tall this Tree is and how short I am compared.. I don't want to just stand here and look UP.. just wondering how I can get to that Big Heart.. as I am looking at your Picture pasted on this Tree.. I am holding the Sun Flower.. I want to give YOU this Flower.. But How.. if YOU are not here.. but Your Big Heart is way UP sitting on the branch of this Tree.. I want to give you this flower.. Tell me How can I give You this flower.. this SUN FLOWER first.. My next is.. I want to touch Your Big Heart.. is there a way I can touch and Hold your Heart.. my hands wants to touch and feel.. the warmth of Your Big Heart.. and My Arms wants to wrap around Your Big Heart.. I want to put my ear next to your Heart.. can I please listen to the beating of Your Big Heart.. I want to hear How Your Heart.. Your Big Heart sound.. I am here so I can ask YOU.. I want to get close to YOU.. I want YOU to know that I really want to get closer to YOU.. but Your Big Heart is sitting on the top of the Branch.. it is on the Highest Branch way UP there.. and YOU know that I am way down here on the ground.. so How do I get to that Big Heart.. It looks so beautiful.. I needs to Hear YOU.. I needs to tell YOU.. I want to talk to Your Heart.. but if Your Big Heart cannot hear me because I am way down here to the ground.. and Your Big Heart way UP on the top.. the highest branch of the Tree.. when I am looking UP.. do you know that my neck hurts.. that is How High it is for me to LOOK at Your Big Heart and yes.. I do see Your Big Heart.. it is so Big.. I am spreading my arms wide.. I want to hold Your big Heart.. and Hug Your Heart and say to Your Heart.. I been waiting for this day for a very long time.. to tell Your Heart How much I love YOU.. I want to bring Your Big Heart closer so that I can tell Your Heart.. speak to Your Heart and tell Your Heart.. I love YOU.. I wonder will you accept my words.. am I allowed to tell YOU this to Your Heart.. that I do love YOU.. what would happen if I get Your Big Heart closer to my lip and I can whisper to Your Big Heart.. I love YOU.. I know for me.. on my part to able to tell you these words.. I am going to be hopping around like a big kid.. because to able to tell YOU these words.. It is a miracle for me.. How can a person like myself be able to tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. the I love YOUR BIG HEART.. will you allowed me to speak these words to Your Heart.. that is why I am here.. I am here at the bottom.. at the ground.. I am looking UP.. but I am able to look at your picture because it is pasted on the tree.. showing Your Picture I am holding something in my hand.. a Flower which I want to say it came from the Middle of the day at the hottest.. the SUN.. can I please give YOU this Flower.. I want to give you to tell you where my Heart is.. why I am giving this flower to YOU.. I know that when I do give you this Sun flower.. I know I be at the most happiest place.. and for YOU to receive it.. the JOY that YOU give me just to give it away.. as I am looking at you through this Picture.. why can't you answer me.. I needs to hear you say something.. but I am not hearing anything right now.. I needs to know.. I want to know.. so Please tell me.. I wants to hear YOU.. and as I am looking at the picture of YOU pasted on this tree.. I would look UP.. at the top branch of the tree.. YOUR BIG Heart still sitting there.. I want that Heart.. I want Your Heart.. NO matter how many times I tell YOU and ask your Picture.. YOU don't answer me.. I look UP at Your Big Heart.. is it because Your Big Heart just can't hear me what I am saying by looking at your picture pasted on this tree.. But I know that I am Not too far.. of course there is a distance.. but I am able to stand here and look UP.. I can see Your Big Heart.. I know that Your Big Heart can here me right.. I been asking and asking.. looking at your picture.. I am looking at this big Window.. and I am wondering is this the right House.. I am holding the Big empty Glass Jar.. around my both arms.. will you please show me if this is the right House.. because I am standing out side looking at this window.. I received Your Picture and YOU wrote me the address to the house telling me that I can stop By.. I wrote you the Letter and the Answer.. finally the responding to the Letters.. YOU have gave me this Picture.. and as I am holding this Big Empty Glass jar.. I asked you for the Big Heart.. I am Not asking for anything else but just this One request.. if YOU can Please give me Your Heart.. WHY do you think that I am standing Out here.. there are many people who are passing By and they would be looking at me if I am so crazy.. Yes.. it looks like I am a Homeless man.. who has No place to Go.. holding this Big Empty glass jar looks like I am begging and asking for money when I don't care about it.. I came here today because I wanted you to know that I am serious about this Big Heart.. Please show me your face once.. Please come to this Big Window and let me know that I am at the right Place of the location of your House.. I been waiting for a while Now.. I came here last Night.. and the Night is almost to end as I am seeing the Day setting In.. Please show me your Beautiful Face.. Please show me that this is the right Address.. I needs to Know.. only YOU can let me know if this Place belongs to YOU.. as I am holding the Big Empty Glass jar.. I am looking at the Sky.. and it suddenly grows pretty Dark.. showing me signs that It might be raining soon.. I cannot go until YOU show me your face.. I did not come all here just to stand here looking like a HOMELESS Beggar man.. I came because I have been asking you for One thing.. that One thing to me is so Special.. it has taken me more than three hours trip.. on a Bus I came.. I had to sleep in the Bus for about two hours.. did Not think that It be this Long of a trip but I had to come.. I would remember.. I would remember.. and I would hear the Loud roar of the thunder.. and as I look UP at the sky.. I see the rain drops falling from the sky.. what if you do Not show UP.. what if I am at the wrong Location.. what if I am at some one else house.. is this the right window because I am looking at the Number of the Address and It is correct from the Back of the Picture YOU gave me.. YOU are the One who wrong this Number and the Address down.. am I suppose to knock on the door.. if I knocked on this Big Window.. will you be hearing the Knocking.. and if you hear the Sound of the knocking of the Window.. will YOU please show me your Beautiful Face.. I think my arms are getting a little tired because Now.. few hours has pass down.. I been standing here as I am waiting for the Rain to pour down on me.. even though YOU may Not give me Your Big Heart.. at least if YOU can just show yourself and come to this window.. at least I know that it was YOU who really send me this Picture with this Address.. and as I would wait.. I see the rain falling down slowly.. I can feel myself getting little wet.. and I am still standing.. my arms around this Big Empty Glass jar.. I did Not bring this Empty Glass Jar to fill it with rain Water.. I should of known that It was going to rain today before I came.. But this is How my Heart feels when I don't see YOU.. when My Heart wants to be filled with water instead.. I came with a great big smile.. with tears in my eyes for Joy.. but I feel like I be leaving with this Empty Glass jar.. filled with waters of rain instead because IN my Heart.. as I am watching the Empty Glass Jar.. this Big Empty Glass Jar with rain waters instead.. My Heart feels like Tears of cry.. I feel like crying instead because I came here to see YOU.. YOU are not even at the Big Window.. I have been waiting out here and Now.. the Rain keeps on falling down from the sky.. I can feel my clothes are getting more wet as the Rain falls down harder from the sky.. as I am looking Up at the Big Window.. Please show me Your Beautiful face.. YOU know that the Bus is coming very soon.. and I do not want to leave without seeing YOU.. My Hope was to have Your Big Heart inside this Big Glass Jar.. I feel so sick.. I feel so Hurt because I came with a Hope.. I came with a one wish.. even though it may NOT be your Big Heart inside the Big
@AeJeongs 3 күн бұрын
보아 그냥 최고...❤
@AeJeongs 3 күн бұрын
살면서 보아 브이로그를 보게되는 날이 오다니.......... 진짜 넘 반가워요 ❤
@tenten5866 4 күн бұрын
now i am ugly
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콘서트 또해줘요 ㅠㅠ
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귀엽
@thkhei3986 5 күн бұрын
언니 보고싶다.. 1센터 분들 제발 자컨이나 콘서트 비하인드 올려줘요... 얼마만에 투어인데 제발 뭐라도 더 올려줘요 제발
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@lebo4714 6 күн бұрын
Some Of them must miss Lee Soo man.
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동완찡.. CG합성인줄...
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아니또 동.. 구멍..이
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보아 넘 예뻐♥
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명곡부자 진짜 ㅠㅠㅠ
@elifstewart1075 8 күн бұрын
Fantastic song and performance
@devinjo2318 8 күн бұрын
Oink Oink.. My Heart has been telling me that I want to See YOU.. and I would wonder.. How would it feel to be close to You.. to be near YOU.. How would my Heart feel or react when I be close to YOU.. and since I am unable to see YOU.. this is the reason why it hurts me the most.. if YOU wonder about my Pains and why I deal with great sufferings.. I will tell YOU why.. it is because I miss YOU.. did YOU ever felt when YOU be missing someone.. for so long YOU are just missing.. and it never heals because I keep on missing YOU and it has been a while now.. I am wondering.. when can I see YOU.. Not just by looking at the Picture.. but face to face in person.. I want to see You so that I can tell YOU how much I have been missing YOU for a while.. for a long time Now.. so that I can tell YOU I love YOU.. so much.. that I love YOU.. No matter how far YOU are.. that I love YOU.. even missing YOU.. I will tell YOU that I love YOU.. YOU are the only One who makes me feel this way that as far as YOU are and I am missing YOU because YOU are so Far.. being so far I can say that I love YOU.. I don't like the feeling that YOU are so far but.. I want YOU near.. I want YOU close.. loving YOU either far and missing YOU and also just loving YOU here.. I want to see YOU close.. I want to see YOU Near.. I want to just love YOU where you are.. why because I just do.. as I am standing.. my Other foot crosses over the First line.. and I am looking at the second Line.. I know that I needs to take few steps closer too it.. I needs to cross over so that I can go to the line on the third.. I want that Heart.. I want Your Heart.. I need Your Giant Heart.. what would you do if I am able to get hold to that Heart.. would you come over.. would you show me Your Face.. if I am able to get through that Glass Wall and enter.. Putting Your Giant Heart into the Empty Glass Jar.. are YOU going to show me your Face.. will you show me YOU.. that I am able to hold you close.. Hold you near and to tell YOU how much I missed YOU and say to You how much I love YOU.. would YOU open the Glass Wall for me.. if I am able to cross over the second Line.. and My hands able to grab hold unto the empty Glass Jar.. I need It.. I want It.. I want that Heart.. finger points.. at the Giant Heart.. I need that Heart.. I want it.. Please.. Give me Your Heart.. Please.. I want Your Giant Heart.. Help me to get to Your Heart.. just please help me a way so I can be with Your Heart so that I can love YOU.. so that I can love your Heart.. Please help me.. so that I can love YOU.. do you not want me to Love YOU.. how can I love YOU if you don't want to help me.. YOU know that I have been here.. waiting for YOU.. I have been standing by this door.. for such a Long time.. for a while.. asking YOU to open the door.. I remember I was walking.. and I got a Note from YOU.. of course I would be by this door.. and I would be knocking at the door.. asking the door to be opened.. I would stay by the door.. I saw Hot sunny days.. and I would watch the night.. stars shines and Moon comes UP.. I would keep on coming to this Door.. a Note coming to my door.. and I saw a picture that was sent to me.. I fell in love with the picture.. but I did not know why it was left at my door.. as the note told me and gave me a direction.. but the door that I came too was shut.. it was closed and locked.. only thing I had in my hand was your Picture.. I wanted to meet YOU.. I am sitting and next to Me is the Basket.. Full of Flowers.. I am holding the Glass jar.. Looking down.. It is Empty Glass Jar.. I feel so Sad.. where are YOU.. Where are you My Love.. I miss YOU.. if You are Not with me Right now.. How about Imagining that YOU are Near.. I look down.. my two eyes Closes.. I am sitting.. the Glass jar has a Heart.. It is Your Heart inside.. and I want YOU to come and see.. See me and Your heart.. the Door Opens and I hear the Foot steps and stops.. I am looking down the Glass Jar.. and I say.. I am holding.. Can YOU see that I am holding.. there is a Heart inside.. Am I holding Your Heart.. will you tell me that I am doing the right Thing.. I want to have this Heart.. I want to hold it like this Forever.. Will you let me have Your Heart.. Because I love YOU.. I love YOU and I love Your Heart.. Only my wish is that YOU can give me the answer.. Please tell me that YOU are letting me to Love Your heart.. WILL you accept my Love.. can YOU receive that I want to fall in Love with YOU.. that I can start to love You until Now and Forever.. Please tell me that YOU are truly letting me to love Your Heart.. I am not asking for anything else.. But Only One.. It is Just Your Heart.. Now YOU sit next to me.. Is it really You.. I want Your Heart.. but is it really YOU.. let me have Your Heart.. I want Your Heart so that I can love YOU.. if I can't Love Your Heart.. there is No point of loving YOU.. because I want Your heart first.. Look at this Glass jar.. DO you see what I see.. I see A Heart.. SO beautiful because it is YOU.. Your Heart is so Lovely.. so beautiful.. Let me please Hold Your Heart.. I can't hold Your Heart because it is inside this Glass jar.. That is why I am asking YOU.. can YOU unlock.. give me your Heart.. take Your Heart and give it to Me.. let me please have and hold.. and to Love.. I am only asking YOU for a Permission so that I can love your heart.. why won't YOU let me Hold Your Heart.. WHY is there a wall between us.. why can't you Unlock so that YOU can give me your heart yourself.. Why do I have to just sit here and only thing I can do is looking through this Glass.. I do not want to look through this glass.. I don't want to just hold this Glass jar.. Do you know that I am much more driven then this.. that I want more.. I want more of it then just this.. I want the whole.. Your Heart.. if YOU know my intentions.. if you know how much I love You.. is it because YOU don't love me.. is it because YOU don't trust me.. is it because I am a stranger who only gives you that distance vibe.. BUT I am not like that.. you should know that I can be tender and very loving.. I can love you better than anyone else.. I can love you where YOU will say I do.. only if you can give me a chance.. give me a chance so that I can prove to you I am much more than this.. I see YOU stand Up.. I just can't believe.. are you leaving Me.. did I say something wrong that made you feel like you want to walk away from me.. why are you leaving when YOU came this close.. please don't go.. I have been waiting for you all this time.. and Now you want to leave.. you want to open that door and walk off from me.. then tell me what did I say that wants to make you leave.. I only want your heart.. why do you have to make it this hard on me.. don't go.. please don't go because I love you.. I grab Your hand.. Please.. don't go.. why are you hiding your face from me.. why can't you look into my eyes and tell me that you don't love me.. why can't you show me your real face to me.. don't go.. wait.. what have I done that makes you want to leave.. don't go.. don't leave me.. the hand pushes my hand away.. I see you open the door and walks away.. My Hand beats my Chest.. and Hits and hits.. WHY do you leave me.. I was so close right.. but I know that being close is nothing because this is what I get.. I want YOU.. I want Your heart.. Give me a chance.. YOU don't even give me a chance to love you.. then WHY do you have to push me away.. make me ache.. WHY.. I am hurt.. WHY.. I am hurting right Now.. WHY do you hurt me for.. I am only asking for One thing.. Just Your Heart
@devinjo2318 8 күн бұрын
WHY did you have to leave.. bring such and the Door Opens.. The doctor looks at the Empty Glass jar.. and sees My tear drops.. scared or Alone.. the Heart looks so scared.. but if YOU PUT YOUR HEART in my trust.. I can at least Speak to Your Heart.. and Tell Your Heart.. How much I missed Your Heart and I just love the sound of the beating.. Beating of Your Heart.. I can hear Your Heart sing.. I can hear your heart beat.. I can close both of my eyes and without my eyes being opened.. I can still listen to YOUR HEART.. can make me fall fast asleep.. holding Your Heart around my arms like I hold my Pillow in the night telling YOUR HEART.. I love YOU.. can I kiss YOU HEART.. I can tell YOU a secret.. that I never stopped loving YOU.. that I am able to love YOU.. thank YOU for giving me HOPE to love once again.. NOW I feel alive and so Happy because I can love YOU like that.. I can love YOU without YOU saying a word to me.. it is better that way because I just want to love YOU.. why can't I just love YOU.. and I look through the Glass wall.. I need YOU to come closer.. why do you have to stand afar from me.. why do you leave a distance between us.. I want to see YOU.. I want to hold YOU.. why do you have to be Shy around me.. are YOU telling me that I am a creepy person.. am I a monster.. NO.. I am a gentle Heart.. I can love you in a way that YOU can be like.. HE is Not a monster.. He has no sharp teeth.. BUT like a Lamb.. I can love YOU Like a sheep.. but Come a little closer.. tell me that YOU are not afraid of me to Love YOU.. and as I stand looking through the Glass wall.. holding the Empty Glass Jar.. I see YOU walk Out.. I cannot believe.. I guess YOU can hear me HUH.. If you are able to come Out.. when YOU try to walk away.. it must mean something.. I see your head knoding that YOU Hear me and I see your Smile.. WHY are you so Beautiful.. WHY are you so Amazingly Beautiful.. If you are able to show me YOUR SMILE and able to answer.. YOU can hear me HUH.. and I LOOK at you smiling.. I want It.. I want it so bad.. Can I have Your Heart.. Pretty Pretty Please.. I turn my head to look down toward the GLASS JAR.. Your Heart is peeking.. DO YOU SEE her.. and I Turn to LOOK at YOU.. YOU be smiling.. and I see YOU Point at the Glass jar.. your Heart.. and I am like.. I want that Heart.. finally I get to see YOU.. Finally.. DO you know I been waiting.. and waiting.. I have been missing YOU and Now DO you see me.. My finger points down too the Glass Jar with YOUR HEART.. I see YOU standing still.. and I just want to hold YOU.. I wonder how will it feels to Hold YOU.. my arms around YOU.. and just thinking about my arms around YOU.. gives me chills like goose bumps because for a while.. my arms be around my Pillow.. Holding my Pillow thinking it is YOU.. I want to Hold YOU and tell YOU I love you.. I love holding YOU.. Holding YOU makes me heart racing.. Heart be beating.. tears falling because I want to hold YOU and tell YOU.. I love you.. why can't I just love YOU.. and love you like I can.. I want to give so much Love to YOU but it seems like YOU PUSH ME away.. I want to love YOU.. tell me HOW to love YOU.. I am standing here.. looking through the Glass wall.. as I watch YOU walk closer and closer and you stop.. GOSH.. MY heart.. my heart wants to beat faster because of YOU.. I place the Empty Glass jar down.. my hand over the Chest.. DO YOU see this Hand.. my Hand is on the Chest.. my Heart is right here.. my Heart can feel something if just looking at YOU.. my Heart hits me.. beats me when I see YOU.. why can't My Heart stop beating.. why can't it stop racing.. I feel like breathe of Loss.. I feel like I can't breathe but heavy.. I really need to love YOU.. will you let me love YOU.. tell me to stop loving YOU because YOU keep on taking My breathe away.. I can't breathe right and I want to cry for Love.. give me Your Love.. I want to give YOU my Love.. I want your Love.. I want it so bad.. I watch you walk over and YOU stop next to the Glass jar.. grabs Your Heart.. and I see Your Heart.. cries.. as You are holding Her.. I am looking.. Wait.. where are YOU going.. I want that Heart.. That Heart.. She is crying.. Like a baby that Heart is crying.. and I see YOU holding that Heart.. I look.. both Arms stretches towards me.. YOUR HEART cries and cries.. I look at that Heart.. I turn and I can feel my Eyes.. I start to cry too.. I want Your Heart.. I want to Love Your Heart.. why are you making that Heart Cry.. YOU are making me Cry because I want to HOLD Her.. Give me Your Heart.. I will Love your Heart.. give me that Heart.. you are making her Cry.. WHY.. don't make YOUR HEART to cry in front of me.. why show me tears.. STOP IT.. Please tell Your Heart to stop crying.. making me to cry with That Heart.. I would see my tears fall down Hard and wiping with my hands.. and I lift up to look.. I see YOU holding Your Heart.. that Heart is in peace now.. Got me scared for a minute or two.. YOU looking down at Your Heart.. holding your arms around.. HOW about Me.. can YOU hold me like the way YOU hold YOUR HEART.. I can hold YOU back.. I want to Hold YOU.. but let me see Your Heart.. Can I hold Your Heart.. and I will tell YOUR HEART.. YOU are the most beautiful Flower.. The most amazingly Beautiful.. that I love YOU.. I love holding YOU.. I love hearing the sound of the beating of that Heart and I love Missing YOU.. and I look.. can YOU Please give m Your Heart.. I think you had long enough time with That Heart.. How about Me.. I think it is Mine turn to HOLD your Heart.. give me a time.. make me a room for Your Heart.. Let me hold Your Heart and tell YOUR HEART.. I will never stop Loving YOU.. but I will keep on loving YOU.. if you want me to love you forever.. I am sure I can love you.. But give me that Heart first.. I need Your Heart.. tell YOUR HEART.. I will be gentle.. and I will Not hurt Your Heart.. I am not a scary person.. I am not a monster.. But a MAN who only wants to LOVE YOU.. so Pass me that Heart.. make me a room and give me a time.. I need some time so that I can start to show and tell YOUR HEART How much I love you.. IF YOU don't give me Your Heart.. HOW CAN I Start to love YOU.. I need It.. I need your Heart.. Give me your heart to Me.. I only want Your Heart.. GIVE it to Me Your Heart.. I need your heart.. I need HER.. I look through the Glass Jar.. I turn on the side looking down.. both hands grab the Empty Glass Jar.. there is a SUN FLOWER inside.. so It is Not empty.. YOUR HEART will not be lonely NO more.. I am sure when YOUR HEART looks at this Sun Flower.. YOUR HEART will smile.. because knowing my Heart.. my intentions is to make YOUR HEART SMILE.. I lifted the Glass jar and YOU look through the Glass wall holding Your Heart.. DO you see this.. DO you see the Glass jar.. LOOK at the SUN FLOWER.. it is for Your Heart.. It is for YOU reminding How much I love you but to show YOU I want your Happiness too.. I had to get Out of the Room.. it is so Hard to breathe.. I get very stuff inside and I would come out.. my arms wrap around the Empty Glass Jar.. hoping that I can ask YOU for something and I stop and I would LOOK up to the Sky.. looking around.. I only see the stars.. I only see the Moon.. High above.. I feel a little dizzy at this Point.. just could Not stop.. as I look UP.. I turn too look at the Moon.. I open my Mouth.. DO YOU know that I am missing YOU.. I am wondering where are you at.. WOULD you please tell me that I am getting closer to YOU.. But.. as I am walking
@devinjo2318 8 күн бұрын
So DO not think that I have lost my mind.. and that I am going crazy.. But I do remember.. few says ago.. I put a Heart.. I have the picture here with me still.. I do remember waking up this Morning.. I turn to look across from laying on the bed.. I see the Glass Jar.. But.. I felt like something is Missing.. something is gone.. maybe my eyes are just messing with me these days.. as YOU grow older.. things will change but.. I know for sure.. it was YOUR HEART inside.. I remember holding this Glass jar.. I was weeping and jumping UP and down with Joy.. Holding this Glass jar with Your Heart.. because the Heart belongs to YOU.. NO ONE ELSE comes close with the Joy YOU give.. the chills I feel in my hands.. when I look at Your Picture and knowing that YOUR HEART was with me this Close.. I would be holding this Same Glass Jar.. JUMPING up and down.. it is Your Heart.. Only IF.. you can see the reaction I felt.. just holding this Glass jar.. with YOUR HEART.. my both eyes would be closed.. two lines of tears running down with JOY and HOPE.. just to have YOU close means it is YOUR HEART I want to love.. waking UP this morning.. My Heart felt heavy.. HOW did I lose.. Is it because of Me.. I must be the one to Blame because I have lost Your Heart.. How can I ask YOU for Your Heart if it is ME who has lost the Heart.. BUT I WANT.. I WANT IT.. I need.. I can't breathe without YOU and it is only when I have your Heart so Close.. When I was holding the Glass Jar.. with YOUR HEART inside.. I can feel my Heart beating against.. Knocking from the Inside because MY MIND would go crazy.. I would go Nuts having this Heart of you close to My Chest that It wakes UP MY HEART to keep on knocking.. I was laying down.. waking UP.. seeing that There was NO Heart inside this Glass Jar.. I started to stumble on the ground.. started to walk around.. room to room.. kitchen to rest room.. Looking everywhere for the Heart.. I know that YOUR HEART just did not run.. did it run from Me.. is your Heart afraid of Me.. I would kiss the Glass Jar looking at your Picture.. Looking at Your Heart.. maybe Your Heart got scared of me kissing Your Heart too much.. of course I could not touch YOUR HEART.. But I wanted to touch and hold YOUR HEART.. I really wanted to kiss into your Heart and would say.. this is HOW MY HEART feels when YOUR HEART is close to me.. close to My Heart.. it makes me want to bring YOU CLOSER to me.. and I want to hold YOU.. but I could Not find the Heart.. I went all around the House looking for your Heart.. and I am looking at Your Picture.. What am I suppose to say.. I have lost Your Heart.. I just can't tell you that.. How can I say that.. so I was thinking putting my Heart inside to act like it is YOUR HEART.. a Letter came to me asking me for Your Heart.. YOU have wrote me.. asking if I can give YOUR HEART back to you.. I am here confused.. I just have lost Your Heart.. YOUR HEART is NOT inside this Glass Jar.. it is Now Empty.. what do I do.. How am I suppose to come to YOU.. and show YOU that the Glass Jar.. I have lost Your Heart.. I don't know where YOU Heart went.. but I do know that I have the same glass jar YOU gave me.. I know this belongs to YOU.. but when I give YOU this Glass Jar.. I don't want to give it to YOU empty like this.. Because I have gotten Your Message.. YOU want Your Heart back.. I begin to wonder.. WHY are you asking for YOUR HEART back.. YOU told me that I can keep Your Heart forever.. YOU told me that I can Love Your Heart.. why all of a sudden change of Heart.. why are you changing what YOU gave.. I want to have Your Heart.. I want to keep Your Heart close to Me.. I want to enjoy having YOUR HEART.. even though I may Not touch It.. I can still Love your Heart.. just the presence of being Close.. it means everything to Me.. Now.. YOU are asking me.. at a time like this when I can't even find Your Heart.. I means.. I am holding this Glass Jar.. it is empty.. in the middle of the Night.. I am standing out here.. frustrated at this Point because I love YOU.. and I love Your Heart.. I want the Heart.. YOUR HEART to stay with me.. why did YOU send a message at the time I can't find Your Heart.. DID your Heart ran from me and somehow went to YOU.. I am sure your Heart was in this Glass Jar like yesterday.. I do remember.. like I said.. I was so Happy.. So full of tears and joy.. my arms wrap around the Glass Jar.. it had YOUR HEART.. and I would be jumping UP and down.. knowing this Heart.. YOUR HEART belongs to YOU.. and I be able to love and care.. and Tell Your Heart.. HOW much I wanted YOU SO CLOSE.. how is it possible to be so close with me and Now.. YOU are taking that Love and Joy away from me.. LOOK.. after the Message.. and I read it in front of YOUR HEART which was inside the Glass Jar.. that is when YOUR HEART ran from me.. it is after I received.. I open the letter and I was so Hurt.. so I read it very loud.. to make it clear.. YOU were going to take my Pride and Joy and Love from me.. so I would speak and I think YOUR HEART heard my words.. so Is it me.. I read from the Inside at first.. but it made me fill in rage because YOU wanted Your Heart back.. I can Love Your Heart more than YOU can hold that Heart.. I can tell Your Heart.. so that My Heart can breathe again.. can Beat again and I can also sing to Your Heart.. I may not have a GOOD voice to sing.. but I still can sing HOW MUCH I love YOU and the Joy YOU Bring when I am able to see Your Heart so Close and to able to Love YOU more and More.. why can't I just Love YOU.. if YOU leave Your Heart with me.. if Your Heart can stay.. I know I will love Your Heart completely.. I can make YOU Happy.. I can love you where YOU can be the most Beautiful Flower in the world.. WHEN I looked from the bed this morning.. and I searched the whole House and I did not find Your Heart.. I felt broken inside.. Like I begin to feel I am missing YOU.. that Joy broke down.. I have chased Your Heart away.. it is because YOU were asking me to give Your Heart back.. I would sit.. I pulled Out the Wine.. hard wine and I sat down.. LOOKING at the Picture.. and I would say.. How can YOU be like this to Me.. How can YOU take Your Heart away from Me.. it brought me the greatest JOY I never felt.. I open the top Lid.. and having the Shot Glass Next to Me.. I pour the bottle of Wine into the Shot Glass.. I grabbed the Shot Glass.. Open my Mouth and slam into my Mouth.. I would pour me two to three more Shots.. up to four on the Shot Glass.. and slammed the Hard wine into my Mouth.. and I would sit there.. could Not believe that YOU are asking for Your Heart.. YOU told me that I can Love your Heart forever.. YOU told me to take good care of your Heart and even gave me this Glass Jar.. I told YOU that I would.. I would make a promise to Love YOU.. to Love your Heart.. that means to love YOU... why are you doing this to Me.. putting sorrow.. putting pains.. making me suffer like this.. Missing YOU drives me crazy.. it hurts me because I need YOU close.. I need Your Heart.. Where are YOU.. Where is Your Heart.. I would pull the Trying to close Both of My eyes.. and eyes would Open again.. Both eyes would close once again.. but eyes keeps on opening.. I am laying Down.. thinking of You.. Keep on thinking How Beautiful you are.. I would sit UP from my Bed.. I am Holding the Glass Jar.. My arms around and My Head looks Down.. I am looking at your Heart.. Is this really YOUR HEART.. tell me that this Heart does not Belong to YOU.. because I am so In Love with Your Heart.. as Long as this Heart is Yours and YOU can tell me that It is YOUR OWN HEART.. I can Love YOU because I was made for a Time like this to Tell YOU.. to Tell this Heart.. I love YOU.. I am not sure if YOU truly want to hear these Words of Mine.. but.. I know that I am putting My Heart on the Line.. I know that I am putting Myself.. my Time on the Line just to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I want to HOLD YOU.. like the way I am holding this Glass Jar
@devinjo2318 8 күн бұрын
I know who I want to be with.. I know that I can spend the rest of My Life.. Just looking into your eyes.. and Looking for your Heart.. to tell YOUR HEART.. I love YOU.. please tell me that I am able to love YOU.. as I look up.. I see the Door.. I know that YOU can hear Me.. because I heard the foot steps by this Door.. I am not speaking softly either.. I am Not whispering to Your Heart.. but I can be as loud as I can so that ON the Other side of this Door.. YOU know.. YOU can hear my Voice.. because I hear your foot steps.. If my two ears are able to hear the steps and how it just stopped.. I know because My voice is louder than Your walking steps.. Please Open this Door.. I want to ask YOU.. Please pull your Heart Out of this Glass Jar.. Let me see that this Heart who is inside this Glass Jar.. this Heart belongs to YOU and that this Heart was send to the right Person.. I don't want you to Tell me that YOU gave your Heart to another Person and He has a different Name then I.. It is I who loves YOU.. it is I who has asked for Your Heart for a Long time.. who is the one waited for it till Now.. that is WHY I need to know.. if YOU can open this Door.. I want to see that THIS HEART.. YOU are able to Hold and tell me.. I am the right Person you send too.. you know that I can get hurt.. YOU know that I can be soft too.. and when Hurt comes.. and when Pain Hits.. I can show you a lot of tears that comes along with Pain and suffering because I love YOU.. Please.. Open this Door.. tell me.. this is Your Heart.. it is the Right Heart.. the Right person.. that It is YOU.. the address has lead me here and YOU are wondering if the address has lead me here.. why do I make such a great deal about it.. because I want it to Be YOU.. I want YOU.. I need YOU.. that is why.. I needs to be sure that It is YOU because I am loving YOU still.. please.. Open this Door and tell me.. it is YOUR HEART.. and I would turn.. and I hear something.. I know that the door is ready to be Opened.. I hear something being unlocked from the Inside.. Please Open this Door.. show me that this is Your Heart.. I want to Love Your Heart if this is Your Heart.. Please.. Open this Door for me.. as I stood there.. I turn to LOOK UP.. the MOON is still UP high.. I just love the Peace of the Night.. because through this Peace comes Joy and Love because I know I love YOU.. as I am Looking UP at the Moon.. I hear the Door Opens.. and I turn to the direction.. I see YOU standing there.. is it really YOU.. it must be YOU because.. I been waiting.. I do not know how Long.. I waited like this.. I would walk Out.. staring at this MOON.. that same Moon time after Time.. when can I see YOU again.. when can I be close to YOU.. just because I want to love YOU more.. then WHY do you have to make it this Hard for Me.. WHY do you keep on making me to wait.. I know that Love is patient.. but How long is patient is what I am asking for.. all I want to do.. all I be asking for is.. I just want to Love YOU.. why can't I just love YOU like this.. WHY.. please tell me WHY does it has to take so long.. even right Now.. I can't take a step closer.. because.. what If you close this Door.. and I be waiting for.. Not sure How long.. but I want you now.. I see you looking down.. my both arms around this Glass Jar.. with Your Heart inside.. I see your hands Open the Top lid.. YOUR HANDS goes into the Glass Jar.. You TOUCH and grab and YOU PULL out the Heart.. my breathe.. I can feel my Heart.. it is starting to Beat.. but this Beating start to go faster as I see YOUR HANDS grab and Your Wrap Your Arms around YOUR HEART.. I can feel my Breathe.. IN breathes IN and Breathe Out.. as I am lost in the Moment.. When YOUR HEART draws near to Your Chest.. I look up to see the two eyes.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I can't breathe.. YOU are so Beautiful.. WHAT AM I suppose to do when YOU stand there too close.. I see Your Heart.. so this is Your Heart.. I can't breathe.. because WHY did I doubted that It was Not.. WHY did I think that This Heart did not Belong to YOU.. I know because YOU are like a Dream comes True.. YOU are a woman that NO MAN can handle.. when YOU are so Close.. YOUR SMILE.. YOUR BEAUTY.. it take My breathe away.. feels like a storm Hits My Head.. I am not sure why I feel so Light headed.. I feel like I want to crash Down.. a WIND.. strong Wind came and Just swept me Off the Feet.. I am not sure what hit me so Hard.. But I see YOU holding that Heart.. Can I hold YOU.. May I hold YOU and your Heart.. NOW I know that it is YOU.. the most beautiful.. It is YOU.. Please.. give me Your Heart back.. I think you are Holding YOUR HEART just too long.. Let me please be the One to Love Your Heart.. I need YOU to put your Heart back into this Glass Jar.. I need Your Heart.. Please give it to me.. give it back to Me.. I need that HEART.. I don't want YOU TO GO.. so Please.. I know that I can Love your Heart more than YOU can Love that Heart.. as I stand there.. lifting up the Glass Jar.. Now it is empty.. Only YOU can put that Heart so I can Love YOU.. far and be distance away from Me.. it aches.. I ache many times.. I ache looking at your Picture.. I ache when I eat.. I can't eat because I think of YOU.. I ache when I am breathing and alive.. I ache trying to go to sleep.. some nights it is so hard to sleep.. I would get few hours but once My eyes open.. I see YOU.. I think of YOU.. I miss YOU.. I would say Gosh.. WHY.. I just can't stop.. I need YOU right.. is this HOW MUCH I NEED YOU NOW.. that I just can't stop thinking and wanting to be with YOU and Love you.. and Miss YOU.. I would get out of the bed.. I Look out the Window.. light rain of showers falling from the sky.. I miss YOU.. why this rain.. I needs to run in the Rain.. get YOU off my Mind.. I can't stop thinking about YOU.. what YOU HAVE done to me.. why.. I feel like I am dying inside.. I feel like it hurts because I am dying for YOUR LOVE.. as I open the front door.. I look up.. I begin to walk down the side walk.. I can feel the light rain hitting Me.. It feels so cool outside.. and I turn.. I still see the Moon and I face the Moon.. I open my Mouth LOOKING at the Moon.. and I say.. DO YOU HEAR ME.. Please.. Give an Ear to Me.. DO you think I can send a Word.. I have a picture of the One WHO I LOVE.. and I look at the Picture looking UP at the Moon.. In front of me is YOUR PICTURE.. Behind is the BIG MOON.. and I open my mouth.. I love YOU.. and YOU know How Much I love YOU.. but right Now.. I am missing YOU SO BAD.. like I got hit by something.. and it hurts when YOU get Hit.. that kind of a Hit where YOU Know it hurts from the Inside.. and since I am missing YOU right Now and I want to be with YOU and YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU.. let me ask YOU THIS.. DO YOU LOVE ME.. Yes.. I am asking YOU this question.. because I am not sure.. DO YOU LOVE ME.. DO you ever think of Me.. DO YOU know how it feels when YOU are missing someone YOU LOVE.. It does not feel so GOOD when pain is being involved but I feel like in my Heart.. I want to be with YOU.. but WHY do I feel like YOU do not want to be with me.. I only feel the distance.. like far away.. WHY can't YOU love I am aching Inside.. I just can't take it anymore.. and I am hurting right Now.. I want to be with Her.. and you can see that I am sick.. dying inside.. Can you please give me some Pills.. maybe these Pills can help me to calm me down.. feels like a storm inside of me.. waves crashes into my Own Heart
@devinjo-zp7nu 9 күн бұрын
Oink Oink.. I am looking at the Little Piano sitting in the room.. I am asking myself.. How do I show you that I want to share More to YOU.. I want to tell you a story through the Little Piano and wants to express my Words out from the Mouth and speak direct to YOU.. NO Matter how much I tell you through the writings and the Letters I share to YOU.. it is NOT going to be enough for YOU to know and understand My Heart.. But I am willing.. I wish that I can tell you through the Music and Play the tune.. play the songs and write you Lyrics to show you the Bigger Picture of My Heart.. but I know that I can't.. and No Matter how much I tell you and share this to YOU.. it is NOT the same as doing to show it to YOU.. that is why I am sitting in this Room.. and I feel like My Heart can only Cry.. it gets to Me.. it gets to me because I want to share and tell you More.. want YOU to explore the Love.. HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. I want to share even through the Music.. through the SONGS.. through the speaking through the Lyrics to make you know that MY HEART.. the way I love you can go further just be each Letters YOU receive.. I wish that I can change a scene.. I know that taking this LITTLE PIANO OUT of the room.. going Out side in the Night.. NO matter How much I press onto the Key Bars of the LITTLE PIANO.. making sounds and Making noises.. I know that YOU can't hear me on the Other side.. NO MATTER HOW MUCH I press onto the Key Bars of each bars of this Little Piano.. I be looking UP to the MOON.. and Just pointing UP at the MOON.. what good is it I am pressing all these Key Bars on this LITTLE PIANO and YOU can't hear me at ALL.. it kills Me.. it kills my Heart that I can't do Much with it.. so only thing I can do to show you the Bigger Picture.. is for me to be More creative to show YOU HOW MUCH I Love you.. I can show you through the Mind.. through My MIND.. inside my Head how much I love YOU.. inside my Heart.. but I want to show YOU and share to you so MUCH MORE.. that MORE is the word I wanted to always enlarge for YOU TO SEE my Heart of that I love YOU.. I can take you to a Stage.. and I know that I am standing on the stage alone.. there are a lot of seats.. a lot of chairs but they are all empty chairs.. there is ONE chair through.. reserved for YOU this very Day.. if YOU can only come and sit on that Chair.. I have brought the Little Piano with me.. but with me leaving a distance.. I see you walking into and I see that YOU walk over down to the front row.. in the middle.. with MANY CHAIRS.. the One that has YOUR NAME is reserved for YOU.. Please.. have a seat on that Chair.. please come for a short time.. I will be truly Honest with YOU when YOU come to join this very night.. there are NOT going to be anyone here but YOU alone sitting on that Chair.. Now.. I am NOT going to be pressing on key bars of the Little Piano.. and when I see you sitting on that ONE CHAIR that is reserved only for YOU.. there will be some one who will sit on the Piano Bench and the person will be playing a SONG for me.. but I will tell you.. grabbing the Microphone in my hand.. I will speak into the Microphone and I will be sharing my Heart to YOU.. telling YOU about that Little Piano.. my Mother is the One who bought it for Me.. when I was young.. how much My Mother wanted me to learn How to Play on that Little Piano which NOW I truly regret for NOT being that GOOD son she always wanted to see.. and It hurts me NOW.. it kills me Now but I will tell YOU.. whenever I see that Little Piano.. I want to cry.. I want to cry my Heart Out.. because if I was truly serious about learning the Little Piano and took my Mother's Word for it.. I would been going after the Music Art and would of went into years of schooling trying to be the Best at playing the Little Piano.. if I did then I would of been the One sitting on the Piano Bench.. able to write Music and even compose.. writing lyrics to tell you that this is much more I wanted to share and to tell you that I love YOU.. I would of wrote as much music.. much lyrics and be practicing playing on that Little Piano and singing Songs to YOU.. People would of heard about me because it be Me who loves YOU.. I will tell you how much I love you because it is the ONLY JOY that can bring to my Heart when I think of Love and just loving YOU.. but I am unable to tell YOU anything through the Music because I did Not take the Word of my Mother when I had to then.. but I would still show you in a different way.. I am standing on the stage alone.. holding the Microphone in my hand.. behind me with distance is the Little Piano I was sharing to YOU about and the Person has been practicing playing the Piano for a long time.. would be playing a SONG.. I would be holding a Letter in front of Me.. just it be YOU and ME.. watching you sitting on the Chair.. the middle of the front ROW.. and YOU are going to wonder.. am I going to sing to YOU.. NO.. because I have Not learned anything about singing songs.. but as the Little Piano is playing and YOU can hear music.. songs are coming out from that LITTLE PIANO.. I would hold the Microphone in my Hand and I would tell you my Heart and My soul of this Letter how much I love YOU.. I would say to YOU as I open the Letter in front of Me.. I been waiting for this very Day.. do you know how long I had to wait.. sometimes I feel like waiting can be the Most difficult thing that ANY MAN can do.. it is so hard being patient and also waiting for the right time.. YOU JUST do not know when is it the right time and wonder about HOW LONG do you must wait and wonder.. even if I wait.. will anything can happen down the road.. will anything happen at ALL is what waiting does and sometimes YOU wonder.. what if Nothing ever happens while waiting.. when I think of the negative.. it does not help me at all.. because I believe that LOVE is Patient.. it means to love YOU NO matter what or HOW.. if I truly love YOU. it does NOT matter about the time frame because I just Love YOU.. even though NOTHING can happen.. even YOU may Never come.. even I can just Die alone waiting and it can be nothing to YOU.. BUT.. for me.. I told you already that I love YOU.. you can tell me NOT to love YOU or tell me STOP to love YOU because it can be bugging YOU or bothering YOU a lot knowing that.. But I am Like the DOG.. a DOG who sits by the Shore of waters.. when the Owner of the DOG leaves on the Boat and goes Off.. the DOG does NOT know when the Owner will come.. but it waits for the return.. and believes it will return back.. five years ten years it waits by the shore.. the Owner comes back to the shore and finds the Bones of the DOG who waited but what will always be a reminder is HOW MUCH it waited because of loving.. that is like ME right Now.. that I can DIE waiting for YOU.. when YOU come to see me.. YOU might end looking at my Bones instead.. or looking at the Grave stone.. but a real love is because I have waited for YOU.. being Patient is what makes me different.. I am able to wait.. I been writing for 22 years Now.. I know what it means to wait for something GOOD.. I been waiting and has learned HOW TO WAIT for YOU when YOU LOVE.. I love writing with Passion and with tears.. but with YOU is the same because I can NOW transfer that LOVE through what I do Love the Most.. I love YOU.. and I believe that when the LOVE YOU receive becomes just too real.. I believe the More I spend the time telling YOU that I love YOU.. it may not be NOW.. I am Not looing for Now but I am looking in the due time.. that DOWN the LINE.. YOU are going to wonder.. Like the Owner of the DOG wondered of the DOG who was by the shore waiting because of LOVE.. I love you like HOW the DOG can wait by the shore of the waters for that person.. for YOU TO return back to Me.. I believe that ONE DAY.. you will say.. I wonder HOW I am doing.. if I am still around.. wondering about DO I STILL Love you and I would be waiting till you know that I do.. that is why it takes years of giving.. it takes me years of telling YOU how much I love YOU.. but I know HOW TO WAIT because I have found the thing that I loved the MOST.. I have found my gift and the passion to write and give you letters.. now that passion and JOY.. the ART the Gift that is in me that I have found.. I can Now transfer into the Letters of telling YOU which it gives me MORE HEART to love you much more BIGGER.. I can love you more and more because I know HOW TO WAIT for something that is the Best.. if I have waited 22 years of writing to know that this is an ART that I posses and I can transfer into Love and into writing to YOU LOVE LETTERS.. it means everything to Me because I always loved writing when I was YOUNG.. but NOW I can share that and transfer into writing YOU LOVE LETTERS because I really LOVE YOU MORE.. that is NOW I have the experiences to know what it means to wait.. if I don't have the experiences.. I will not have the confidence to tell YOU how much I love YOU because lack of patient.. learning HOW to wait helps me now to knowing HOW to wait for YOU which it is MUCH more BIGGER in my life because I want to LOVE YOU MORE.. I want to give YOU everything I have but it starts with this VERY LITTLE that I learned over the period of time.. Waiting for YOU.. I am waiting for YOU TO LOVE me.. I am only waiting for YOU to open your eyes.. to open your Heart and your MIND and I believe as long as I KEEP ON waiting and keep on telling YOU how much I LOVE YOU.. I know that in time.. SOMETHING has to happen.. SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN.. and I know something great will happen because I know that NOT MANY MEN can wait.. there are just too many IMPATIENT PEOPLE.. especially when it comes to LOVE.. and MANY MEN are dying for love but cannot have.. impatient.. but I have learned because I had to wait for this very day.. I had
@devinjo-zp7nu 9 күн бұрын
MAH MAH.. I am Kneeling.. two knees are down and Holding the End of the Sword in the sheath.. I would Pull the Sword Out and the sheath hits the Ground.. and I am Looking at the Blade of this Sword.. it is very Sharp.. and YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH who is standing before Me.. with the Big Crown.. King's Queen's Crown putting Together.. and I am Looking at the Blade.. MAH MAH.. I want to tell you something.. for a Very Long Time I wanted to hold this Sword.. because there is ONLY ONE thing in my Mind.. One thing in my Heart.. I know a LOW BORN like myself who came from the Most Poorest Place really Has Nothing to give YOU.. what can I truly give YOU MAH MAH.. I know that having Nothing.. coming from the Least and from the Most Poorest Place where there is NO CHANCE to survive.. I had One Dream though.. if there is NOTHING that I can Do.. and Only thing I can do is wait to Die.. then I know that I at least needs to do something before I do Go.. and I would watch the Boys who grew UP in the Garden.. Always wanted to hold a real Sword.. and if there was a way MUST have the WILL to do so.. and I know that I had to do something to HOLD.. a real Sword like this.. growing UP as the Poor in the Garden and Only thing was holding the Sticks.. branches of a stick that has fallen off.. when I heard about the Opening for the Military Arts.. the training Camp on the training ground.. I knew that I wanted to Go.. I wanted to grab this real Sword.. but I knew that I was just too young when I first heard the Good News about the Opening wide for New Recruits.. I remember asking my Father if I can go and enter the Camp.. the training camp.. My Father told me that I could NOT go because they would NOT accept Me because of my age being just too YOUNG.. I wanted to Hold this real Sword because I wanted to FIGHT.. Fight on your Behalf.. my Heart is to always to Protect YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. to protect you whatever It takes.. even at the YOUNG AGE I was at.. I would Beg my Father.. I had to go.. if they reject me there.. at least Let me try to ask if I can GO.. but my father told Me that I just could NOT go at that time.. I was heart broken.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I wanted to see YOU again.. at least be in the Camp.. in the training ground even if I can't see you around.. because I knew at least I be much closer if I was at the Training Camp.. breathing Hard because I knew.. I just could Not wait.. but I knew that my Father was right.. He knew that I had to wait until I grew a little Older.. but I never stopped Dreaming.. I would keep on coming OUT at night.. LOOKING UP at the MOON.. should I go and try.. even if I be rejected.. and the Camp will Not allow Me to get In.. should I still try.. maybe some way or some HOW I can go.. and I would LOOK UP at the MOON and Cry.. MAH MAH.. I would shout from the TOP of my Lungs.. and say MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. DO YOU Hear Me.. Can you Hear me because I am dreaming of a way to get more CLOSER to YOU.. I know that YOU are very busy as the HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. if YOU cannot come to Me.. I know for sure I will make the time to go to YOU.. at least help ME to enter the CAMP.. that is the Only way My Dreams can come true closer because here in the Garden.. I know that It is so much Far.. WHAT DO I DO.. ever since I saw YOU by the Ocean Waters with your FATHER the KING.. PEH HA.. I know that I just can't stop thinking of YOU.. with me is the ART SKETCH PAPER.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. MAH MAH.. if I go to the CAMP.. will you ALLOW me to stay there.. will you allow me to be a part of the Military Armed service to become a Fighter and a Protector for YOU.. I NEED the SWORD.. I need the real Sword in my Hand.. so that I can say Finally I am a part and that NOW my Dreams are coming true because I am so much closer to YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please help me.. I had to wait for a long time.. when I met the Older MAN.. the Teacher and the One who was a great friend to my grand father.. there was a real Sword in his House and I remember He told me the story of Many Battles He fought with my Grand father next to HIM.. winning many Wars.. it was fierce when YOU fight on the ground in any Wars you must face against the enemies who is trying to KILL YOU.. and I remember that the Older MAN.. the Teacher told me that when HE gives me and writes the OFFICIAL SEAL for me to go into the Training Camp.. and I was able to take the Sword that my Grand father had with him.. When I passed the test the Older MAN.. the Teacher gave me with the Official SEAL.. the Letter.. he also gave me the Sword which my Grand father would Have.. WHEN I held the Sword.. the REAL SWORD.. I thought of YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. pulling the end of the Sword Out of the Sheath.. and LOOKING at the Blade of the Sword.. ONLY YOU.. I would LOOK at the sword of the Blade and I cried that very NIGHT.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I now have a real SWORD in my Hand.. that means I am getting closer to YOU.. NOT JUST for Me.. I know that there is NOTHING FOR ME to give.. I am very Poor.. what can a POOR man do.. but coming this Far and had to wait this Long.. and leaving the Garden and leaving the POOR life behind me.. I am entering a NEW LIFE stage that is going to YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I always dreamed of holding a real Sword so that I can HELP rebuild.. I can support YOUR RULING to defend.. to HELP defend YOUR NATION and even to Protect YOU.. I have put ALL of it.. My Heart has go ALL IN to get this Real sword to be held by my hand.. because ALL I think of YOU.. I know that I may Not give Much or can't give YOU anything at all.. But I do want to say that I love YOU.. that I never stopped believing in Loving YOU that ONE DAY SOON I will see you again.. that I am going to get closer to YOU.. Looking at the Blade of the Sword.. I fell on my two knees.. and I am LOOKING toward the MOON.. and I would put my arm stretch Out forward and I would LOOK my Head to the Ground.. the proper way to TELL YOU that I am Going to YOU.. to TELL YOU MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I have passed.. the Teacher.. the Older MAN who took care of ME and has teach me the Military Arts.. He told me that I am now ready to enter the Camp to make a Soldier.. a Warrior for YOU.. I just could NOT believe that I was holding this real Sword.. and It belonged to my Grand father.. I am NOTHING LIKE my grand Father because HE was the CHIEF COMMANDER.. but I am Nothing.. but having this Sword held in my Hand meant that NOW I am able to use it with a Purpose.. that I can NOW fight.. and go into the CAMP to be a REAL Soldier to know More about the Military Arts and that is the way to get MORE CLOSER to YOU.. Knowing this is the Key Point.. that I can NOW enter the CAMP means a lot.. and Looking UP at the MOON.. and waiting for the New Day to Come so that I can go to the Palace.. to the training CAMP and trying to Pass the exams.. that was the Only Focus I had because I knew that was the Only way I can see YOU AGAIN.. that I can be closer.. that when something Happens I can be right There ready to FIGHT to defend and to protect YOU MAH MAH.. and it has been such an Amazing Journey ever since I passed even at the Training Camp.. and entering the Training Ground.. BUT MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am holding the Sword that my Grand father once held who was here at the Palace.. who was serving Your Father who was the Late King.. PEH HA.. and I heard He would enter many Wars that broken here.. NOW I am holding the Sword which it is the ONLY ONE THING I had in my Heart that can ONLY be the Key to get closer to YOU.. MAH MAH.. I never stopped Loving YOU.. that was the engine in my Heart.. that WILL and the Drive only can COME because I knew that I kept on loving YOU.. for one Purpose is to Protect.. I never stopped the Promise of making to YOUR FATHER.. to My FATHER and to YOU MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is the PROMISE I made to keep my Word because I kept on loving YOU still.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the reason why I am sharing this Story is because Letting YOU know still.. that I love YOU.. that it is because I kept on thinking of YOU and I would miss YOU most times.. and Only this SWORD helped me to keep me alive this very Day.. losing YOU and knowing that YOU.. MAH MAH was so far.. but I had One set in mind.. that I only needed to have and held this Real Sword.. Once My hand gets to it and my Hand can hold this Sword.. I believe loving YOU and Letting YOU know how much I do love YOU will come sooner.. that I be closer to let YOU MORE as the time keeps ON going.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. can YOU please Look at this Sword I am holding.. it is the Sword that I never thought that I can have.. but it is a real Sword Now that I am holding into my Hand.. and It meant to always Fight and to Protect YOU MAH MAH.. for this People and for this Nation when danger comes around.. when the enemies attack.. it is this Sword who is going to help YOU to rebuild this Nation to be in its right Place.. and I would see YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the QUEEN.. as YOU would walk closer and YOU STOP.. my hands both holding the Side of the Sword and arms lift up and I see your hands grabbing and holding into your Hands.. it is because of this I am allowed to get into the Camp.. into the training camp because without this Sword.. the real Sword.. I know that I would NOT be here today letting YOU Know how much YOU means to me and that YOU are the Love of my Life.. that I love YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am letting YOU know because.. My Heart
@devinjo-zp7nu 9 күн бұрын
MAH MAH.. YOU this Much.. loves YOU this Far.. that NOW you can see How much and How far I came because I never stopped Loving YOU and kept on dreaming of getting Closer to YOU.. I just wanted to say to YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. thank YOU for Opening the Gates and receiving the Letter.. the Official seal stamped by the Teacher.. the OLDER MAN to help me get inside to the CAMP.. I know my Words can't express enough.. my Words are Never enough but I started from the Poorest Place.. who had NO DREAMS at ALL.. I came from where People just can't have dreams at ALL.. but just be ready to Die.. and I would ask myself why even be born if there is NOTHING MORE to Life than to wait to Die doing Nothing.. and having Nothing.. and It really crushed my Heart when I only saw that at the Garden.. that is why I wanted to flee for a Long time.. to a Better place to have a Better chance to see a Better future.. that is when I met YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. when YOU were sitting on the Horse.. and Your Father.. PEH HA.. the KING.. who was walking on bare Feet.. pulling on the strings of the Horse.. when my Father FELL before the King.. PEH HA.. and I heard him say PEH HA.. I knew that YOU were his Daughter.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. who can give a chance to better Life.. better Place and a Better Future to Fight and to protect for YOUR NATION.. and seeing How Big your Heart really is.. I knew that Only way is to Go to YOU.. GO to the camp with the Real Sword is the Only way I can enter the Training camp for the Training Ground.. and I want to say NOW as my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. thank YOU for accepting Me and allowing me to enter this Camp.. Now do YOU see that Sword in your hands.. I had to fight to get that sword into my Hands and Now.. I am holding that Sword just to Protect YOU and to say that I really Love YOU.. that I do Love YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. YOU know that I love YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please let my Words hits Your Heart that I wants to make it clear.. that I love YOU.. I am kneeling before You.. two knees are down with my arm stretch forward.. my Head looking at the ground.. I just cannot believe that YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. which I was sitting in the prison.. waiting for the day for me to die.. waiting for the death sentence.. YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH giving me another chance.. and I see you.. MY QUEEN.. wearing the White dress with the Big KING QUEEN Crown on top of your Head.. behind you is the Master Black Smith.. who was making my Sword sharper and stronger for the War.. and He is walking and He falls before YOU.. two knees are down.. Head looking to the ground.. hands holding the Sheath of the Sword.. hands UP.. arms raised UP and I see YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH turning around to LOOK at the Master Black Smith.. I hear shouting behind me.. and is this real HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you are giving me back my Position.. are you really letting me enter the War.. and as I turn back my head to LOOK back.. the Seven Friends of Mine.. they are standing there with Tears in the eyes and I turn my Head to look at YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. and My Head looks on the ground.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. YOU know that I deserve the death penalty and I was ready to DIE.. even if I can't enter the war.. the battle ground and If I was sure to Die for this Nation this WAY.. I still of been the Most Happiest Man.. happiest person that I get to serve and be right CLOSE to you as I am.. YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. has allowed me to be at the service.. even it was YOU who allowed me to come into the training Camp.. into the Training ground to practice More.. I remember YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. when I was practicing at the Military Arts and I showed YOU the Official Seal.. and YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you could of rejected me at the Door of the entrance of the gates.. I remember One Night.. sleeping in the tent with the Recruits.. and they were as New as I was.. I saw YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. sitting on the Horse.. and with the TOP CHIEF OFFICIALS.. and I walked out of the tent.. just to see the New Morning of the day.. I saw one of the Men.. who were the Highest Chief standing and He comes to me.. and gave me a Key.. I had no idea what this was all about but the COMMANDING OFFICIAL in the highest position at that time looks at me.. if I go with this Key.. it is where the BOOKS are located and has many studies of the military Arts that I can look at.. it be enough once I read all of the Books there.. I be able to Protect and to defend HWANG WOO MAH MAH and I saw him leaving me and walking to YOU.. I just can't believe that YOU gave me this One key.. and I knew I had to check it Out.. and has to start looking into these BOOKS.. to study and to learn.. to train and practice the Military Arts.. My HOPE and DREAMS is to bring this NATION to you so that YOU CAN RULE over and be at the Head over.. and I knew.. if I did NOT do this NOW.. I believe some one else can do it before Me who has Power and has family line connection to your Father.. the KING.. PEH HA.. as I watched YOU sitting on the Horse I see the Horse turning around leaving the Training camp where I was in the Tent as the New Recruit.. I remember early in the Morning.. I would get UP.. the HIGHEST CHIEF officer gave me this paper Map.. so that I can enter the DOOR.. with this NAME BADGE only to go into the BOOK keeping Place.. I went into the Door into the room.. thousands of BOOKS all over the Place only for the Military Arts.. I remembering having the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. and I would unfold to LOOK at you in this Picture.. I started to cry.. I just could Not believe that YOU are giving me this Kind of chance that can change My Life for ever and I was NOT going to waste no time trying.. I would look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU and I would say.. How can a Low Born person like me ever learn like this.. How can I ever thank YOU for this KIND of chance.. I had No idea there would be knowledge for the Military Arts but I would Keep dreaming that I needs to always fight ON your Behalf.. I had to see something greater because I came from the Garden.. there was NO Learning at the Garden.. NO HIGHER education.. where I can grow.. I needed to grow More and as I be looking around this ROOM filled with BOOKS everywhere.. I just could NOT stop.. opening ONE BOOK and I would cry flipping page to page reading and looking at the pictures of hand movements of Arts.. the MILITARY ARTS.. even though I may be very small as a Person.. I know that I want to do bigger and greater things to help YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH to accomplish YOUR PLACE as the TOP HEAD over the Kingdom.. the NATION you will rule.. with this KIND OF help.. I would be looking at your Picture.. the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. and I would say.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I see how Big your Heart really Is.. I see that YOU Have a BIG HEART.. Not even a person like me can think of this.. who would ever help a LOW BORN like Me.. NO ONE cares about me but I see that YOU DO and I would start weeping Loud as I be looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. I remember grabbing One Book.. leaving the ROOM and locking the Door and walking to the training Camp.. to the training Ground.. in the morning practicing with the New Recruits and at Night.. I would be looking at the BOOK reading and studying the Military Arts.. I would LOOK at the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU and say.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. ONE day YOU will see that this Key that YOU gave me.. It was NOT a waste of Your time of giving the key to the person.. because I am going to do what is right to HELP to rebuild YOUR NATION.. as I am Looking at the Ground and thinking about when I first came to the training Camp.. and started to practice on the training Ground.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I would return back to that ROOM where the BOOKS were and I would start to read Another Book after I finished the Previous One I had in my Hand.. I knew that It was the starting point for this NATION to become.. without the Knowledge and understanding.. without the Learning I believe that I would of been just Another Recruit who never had anything More to give.. but when I saw YOUR HEART HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I knew that YOU.. MY QUEEN.. YOU are going to do greater things.. I believe that I am NOTHING.. I came from the Most POOREST PLACE.. who would ever thought that I can do anything.. but when I saw that YOU HAVE received the OFFICIAL SEAL.. and gave me the key to enter the ROOM to have BOOKS.. my Heart of loving YOU grew so Large.. because I knew I was at NO MATCH.. there are these royal PRINCES.. from different kingdoms who would Love to make you their WIVES.. WHEN YOU received the Flower.. the rare flower that was at the Garden which My Mother gave to my Father before her passing.. telling me to give this Flower to the ONE WHO I truly Love and when I saw YOU receiving it even though I knew it had NOT much of meaning at that time.. for Me it means the World to Me.. I cried watching you taking that Flower because it came from my MOTHER giving it to me.. I never saw my Mother and I know it mean something when she gave it to me through my Father.. when I saw that.. even though it may not be much to YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I knew I wanted to change to be the Strongest and smartest for YOU.. YOU ARE the QUEEN of the NATION.. I wanted to be the best I can Be for YOU.. just to protect and to defend is all I wanted to give YOU.. but that is the HEART I always have
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MAH MAH.. And I started the Process.. NOW I am here.. even with much BOOKS of reading and learning.. knowing and understanding.. I begin to see that I wanted to be More closer to YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. to be the right MAN for the MILITARY ARTS as the warrior who can protect YOU and this NATION for ever.. and I would hear the Seven friends of Mine.. they all came running and Kneeled.. two knees goes DOWN.. arms stretched forward and the Heads all looks on the Ground.. and the 1st Top General with His seven Men and the 2nd TOP General.. with his Seven Men.. all goes Down.. kneels before YOU.. two knees hit the floor.. arms stretched forward and Heads all Looks on the ground.. My QUEEN.. I see you holding the Sheath of the Sword from the Master Black Smith and I see you turn and I raise UP my arms and you laid if down on my hands.. I can't believe I am having this SWORD BACK.. YOU have helped me to get me where I am At.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would put my arms down and my Hand grabs the end of the SWORD and I pull it Out of the sheath and LOOKING at the BLADE.. it shines through.. I put the Sheath down and raise UP the Right ARM hand holding the Sword.. closing Both Eyes.. I would shout Hard.. MAN SAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I head all of the MEN behind me raising UP their VOICES.. pulling Out their Swords with the RIGHT ARMS HOLDING the SWORDS.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN.. and I would raise UP MY VOICE HIGHER.. MAN SAE TO HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I hear all of the MEN BEHIND ME SHOUTING OUT LOUDER MORE after hearing the story I shared to THEM.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN and I would be in tears crying.. MY HEART is truly Moved and touched by your kindness to me and I shout LOUDER MORE.. MAN SAE TO HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN.. and the MEN BEHIND ME SHOUTS OUT LOUDER MORE.. MAN SAE TO HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN and all of us are in tears crying.. and I put the sword down on the ground.. thinking about the key.. thinking about reading the pages of the BOOK when I had NO CHANCE to do so.. I am thinking about YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. sitting on the Horse as I would watch the Highest CHIEF COMMANDING OFFICER returning back to YOU after giving me the Key to enter that ROOM full of BOOKS.. and I just can't stop thinking that DAY.. waiting in the Line with all the new MEN wanting to join the military arts.. and when I came to the entrance.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is standing with the Guard sitting on the table and I gave you and show you the Official Seal and YOU looked at me.. the Guard tells me to leave but YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH lets me in with my friend.. and I just can't stop thinking about those days of the beginning because I just had to be with YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I never stopped dreaming of the day that we would meet again.. I have looked UP at the MOON.. days walking alone thinking about when can I see YOU again.. that I needed to be close to YOU that I needed to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would be looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I had many nights and weeks.. days and months and years to practice telling it that I love YOU.. I would say it to the Art sketch paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. MAH MAH.. I love YOU.. but.. I know that YOU do Not know it that I do.. even though I may be able to say it to the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. after a time.. I would feel so Sad because I want YOU to hear it and for YOU to know it.. what good is it if I say it thousand times or millions of times to the ART SKETCH PAPER.. the Drawing picture of YOU but never be able to say it to YOU In Person MAH MAH.. and I knew I had to say it before I die one day.. does NOT matter If I die by the sword that day I say it to YOU because at least YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH will know it before I am gone.. I would sit and LOOK at the Art sketch Paper.. Nights pulling to look at the Picture of YOU.. I would say it to the Picture of YOU.. MAH MAH I LOVE YOU.. WHY CAN'T you hear Me.. MAH MAH.. do YOU hear my words telling you that I love YOU.. can YOU Hear me.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I love you.. put the blade of the sword on my neck.. Let me say it to YOU ONCE.. before I die.. and I had to get to YOU even if I died in the road traveling to YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. but one thing about loving YOU is this.. that I am NOT afraid to Die because of loving YOU.. when YOU are always prepared to die.. and YOU KNOW that ONE DAY YOU WILL.. you don't be scared any more.. but when YOU start to love.. the way I do Love YOU MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. dying becomes something you are ready to give because that Is HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. the day I do die.. at least YOU WILL remember that there was a PERSON of the Least.. the smallest person you have known who never stopped Loving YOU because even then I never stopped LOVING YOU.. even this very day My Heart of loving YOU is still the same but Stronger.. I have become more stronger Loving YOU.. I had to face many storms just to get to YOU and still facing.. but.. I love YOU.. NO MATTER what comes in the way.. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I love YOU.. MY QUEEN.. I LOVE YOU.. and I would lift UP my Head.. LOOKING at YOU standing before YOU with tears in my eyes.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I LOVE YOU.. MAN SAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I LOVE YOU.. HOO RAY TO MY QUEEN.. I LOVE YOU.. and my arm stretches out forward and My Head looks at the ground.. I am looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. in the Prison.. I am missing YOU already.. even though YOU just left HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. if you never came to visit Me here in the Prison.. I think I would not feel this Hurt in my Heart.. even though I love you where It has end me here.. I know that I must face what is ahead of Me.. but I wish that YOU came remember Me if I die in here.. if I do not get Out of here in the Prison and I know that I am ready to Die if I have too.. it is all UP to YOU MAH MAH.. it is ALL UP to YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am going to go where I needs to go if there is NO NEXT.. and if this is where I am suppose to end right here.. I know that I did my Best to get where I am at.. but if there is Next.. Please HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. please reconsider.. Please think of Me HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. know that I get do and go a little More for this Nation.. for this Country if YOU are willing to help Me.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. you know that I did ALL this because I love YOU.. even to able to write and to tell YOU a LOVE STORY that I needed to share.. I needed to tell YOU THIS in a way that ONLY YOU can receive.. How can I tell YOU and write YOU this Kind of a story.. it is because I loved YOU when I first saw YOU.. of course I did NOT KNOW what it was at first.. but I knew that there was going to be some kind of a story I wanted to tell YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU this because It comes from the Bottom.. the very soul and the root of my Heart.. I just could not get YOU OFF my Mind when I saw YOU smile.. I just could not believe you even came to the Garden.. in the Garden is the Poorest Place.. at the rock Bottom of People.. that NO ONE looks for and NO ONE cares for.. it is a place where I came from.. I knew that I was at the Most Poorest place that NO ONE thought about.. But when YOU came to visit the Garden the first time.. I am here sitting in the Prison.. having this Much time gives me the space to think about the very first day.. I am looking at this Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and given me this much time here.. I am able to think about the first day.. before It was so busy of trying to bring people together.. MEN to train and practice for the War.. but I had no time to really think about anything then.. but here in the Prison.. sitting here and LOOKING at the ART SKETCH PAPER.. the drawing picture of YOU.. it gives me more time of HOW Important it is for me to have this space.. to really think of YOU MAH MAH.. to Know that I been loving you for such a Long time.. that I been always loving YOU but never given a time like this to think of HOW much I love you.. I asked the Prison Guard for a sheet of Paper.. and with the brush and Ink.. and I am putting the time to write you this Letter.. if it is time for me to go soon.. if My time is coming to the Close.. coming to the end and I am suppose to die here anytime soon.. before I breathe my Last breathe and MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you can't get me Out.. then I want to tell YOU through this Letter before I go.. before I am gone.. and to tell YOU this Heart of HOW MUCH I Love you.. YOU know this MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you know this as much as I know.. the First time YOU came to the Garden.. I was on the UP HILL.. standing by the tree.. Looking at the Bed of Flowers.. that was the day that changed the COURSE of my Life.. I never thought or even dreamed of YOU.. MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN ever visiting the GARDEN.. when I heard from the friend calling me to get down.. and that IT was YOU MAH MAH.. I thought it was a prank.. a JOKE.. why would HWANG WOO MAH MAH come visit the MOST LOWEST PLACE.. why come to this GARDEN when YOU belonged in the Palace.. where ALL of the People who are looking for work.. they would ditch and relocate to the Palace.. asking the KING.. your FATHER.. PEH HA for a place of work.. NO ONE LIVES in the Garden and everyone who does lives here wants to escape the Life of this POOR.. the most poorest poverty and they go.. and I am thinking
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MAH MAH.. the NEXT SUCCESSION.. after watching YOUR FATHER PEH HA.. the KING.. walking alone with YOU.. I knew at that TIME.. something very important MESSAGE is being passed down to YOU THAT DAY.. why would the NEXT RULER on the LINE come to a place.. there are so many people from the TOP NOBLE FAMILIES that goes to the Palace.. wanting a Place of seat to be close to the RULER.. the SUCCESSION.. and I came down thinking.. if this is a prank.. I am going to choke and WHEN I SAW YOU on the SAME HORSE that day.. sitting and waiting.. I fell down.. my face flat touching the ground.. I just could NOT BELIEVE it is HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. is it really HWANG WOO.. IS IT REALLY MAH MAH who is sitting on that HORSE and I am thinking to my self.. WHY WOULD YOU COME to the GARDEN.. and of course I never knew because I Heard you walked in that Garden before I was called by the friend which I was at the HILL TOP by the tree.. HE called me when YOU were leaving the GARDEN.. of course I did Not know any of this but after YOU departed.. after I gave you the FLOWER and before YOU left for good.. the Guard who put the sword on my neck which HE could of executed on that spot.. when YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH told that GUARD not too.. my eyes both closed SHUT.. and when I opened the eyes to LOOK.. I saw you on the HORSE.. sitting on the TOP of the Horse and I saw the Guard behind walking.. following the Horse.. and I knew.. there must be a reason WHY you came.. WHY WOULD HWANG WOO MAH MAH come to the Most LOWEST PLACE like here in the Garden.. I heard also.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH went to the VILLAGE and has visited the People there too.. and you.. MAH MAH looked around the Place.. just like here.. the VILLAGE is like the POOREST.. the second too.. so the Poor people are always fighting against each Other because we just can't live like this.. and WHEN I saw YOU on that HORSE.. and HOW you commanded that GUARD not to strike Me.. I went into the TENT.. like the HUT HOME and I sat to think about this Situation and It really touched my Heart.. some one told me in the Garden that YOU are looking for the People who can join the Military Arts and looking at the YOUNG BOYS the Next in line.. to help to rebuild the Armed forces.. the MILITARY MEN.. giving them ranks in the future.. WHEN I heard this News from the Friend who called me.. because HWANG WOO MAH MAH spoke to HIM.. I was truly alarmed at the News because it became a GOOD NEWS.. and I knew at that moment.. YOU are giving the POOREST YOUNG MEN chances to do something for the future.. the NOBLE FAMILY MEMBERS are the Lucky Ones I would think and yes.. many of them get the better shot of making it.. but I heard.. many people who grew UP Here in the Garden.. when they go to the Palace asking for a place of work.. they get declined and many dies living in the Poverty unable to feed the families.. and I would sit crying.. and I would be thinking of YOU.. that It must be true.. that how MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is giving this chance for Us.. YOU look at the Hearts of young MEN TOO who are uneducated and who are the POOREST who has no chance at anything.. WHEN I HEARD from the Close friend of MINE.. I would cry in the Night.. because I know that there is a way.. there is a DREAMS even for the MOST UNWORTHY PEOPLE.. that there is a HOPE and a WILL.. Dreams can come true when YOU MEET the right person who wants to give and NOW I am sitting here in the Prison.. of course I did NOT think of this because long time has passed.. but when I am sitting here alone.. and LOOKING at this ART SKETCH PAPER.. the DRAWING PICTURE OF YOU.. and Just thinking of the beginning.. and it takes me here to think back and to appreciate and to thank YOU for that chance.. and when that came UP.. and when I was told about how YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is also opening the DOOR for the People who lives in the Garden and even in the VILLAGE.. a great celebration has taken Place.. feast was happening and hearing songs and dancing going On.. the fathers in the garden looks at their young sons.. the CHANCE to change to live a better life.. and people celebrated all through the Night.. I did Not join in the celebration but I saw the MOON.. the MOON APPEARED very big that NIGHT and that is when I saw the SIZE of your HEART.. LOOKING UP at the MOON.. I would stand still and say.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. your HEART is so BIG.. I believe your FATHER.. the KING.. PEH HA knows that YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. it is the ONE with the BIG HEART for the People.. RICH or POOR.. NOBLE or the GARDEN.. it does not matter what families you come from but.. as long as it is People who YOU LOVE.. the SIZE OF that BIG HEART.. and I would fall on the two knees and Head LOOKS UP at the MOON.. is that HOW BIG your HEART is.. can I touch that BIG HEART.. will my arms NOT be able to go around that BIG HEART that the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH HAS.. but even the Broken People.. who has no chance.. means there is NO CHANGE.. but when YOU OPEN the door and even allow the Poorest people to come.. and to accept.. I believe it starts with YOUR BIG HEART.. I love that BIG HEART.. the MOON SIZE HEART that YOU HAVE HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Now I am thinking about why so many men has come.. More people are coming all over the world just to join the Military Arts.. and there is NO ROOM for these New Recruits.. but when the NUMBERS keeps on growing I believe that UNITY is what is going to HELP YOU.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH to win this WAR.. even the CHILDREN are ready to fight.. and I was crying watching little boys walking ahead.. holding UP the sticks to fight.. I could NOT stop the tears because I was truly Moved.. touched in my Heart because I would ask.. YOU are just too young and I hear.. for the LOVE of this NATION and for the TRUE SUCCESSOR.. we must fight to live if I SHALL DIE and I would cry Harder because even myself feels this way.. I WILL FIGHT for YOU MAH MAH.. and I will die if I have too for YOU and for this NATION.. but I don't want to just die yet.. I want to first see PEACE JOY LOVE AND UNITY in the LAND before I die.. and I believe.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. TO MY QUEEN.. HOORAY.. and I am in the Prison alone.. two knees down.. both eyes closed.. Head looking down.. arms raising UP for YOU MAH MAH.. for MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would shout in the Prison ALONE.. IF I DIE.. Please remember these words of MINE.. MANSAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE.. arms raises UP.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN.. HOORAY.. ARMS raises UP and in tears I am crying thinking of YOU.. HOOR RAY AND MAN SAE to My QUEEN.. to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am sitting Down in the Prison.. Shouting Out Loud.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I love you.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. I love YOU.. Please reconsider and Help me Get out of this Prison.. YOU know that deep inside.. It is because I love YOU.. ALL this time I been telling YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please reconsider and Get me Out of this Prison WALL.. after the War.. you can put me back into the Prison and I call be executed as the TREASON if you still want to put me to Death but I am asking YOU.. Please reconsider.. I can at least take some Men down in the War.. YOU know that I have been here all along.. just to fight On the Behalf of this Nation.. for this Country and I know that I can be a help.. a useful some How.. and my Hands holding onto the Prison Bar.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. why are you doing this to Me.. why are you.. YOU know that I have made an Oath.. a Promise to the KING.. Your Father.. I have made the Promise to your FATHER PEH HA.. when I was young.. YOU do not remember.. but you.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOU told me that YOU do remember when I came on that Horse.. I made and swear an Oath.. Not just to YOU MY QUEEN.. but to your Father and to My Father.. after the Peace of this Country and the Nation.. YOU can put me to death or let me fight in the BATTLE FIELD and if I die there.. at least I have serve my Nation.. the Country to help to Build for YOU.. I just can't die here in the Prison WALLS.. at least give me the chance to fight if I shall pass as Treason.. I rather die with the Men out who fights with me and for YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. and I would sit.. letting going the Bars of the Prison.. and I would turn to LOOK DOWN.. looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU and I start to cry.. MY FIST hitting my Chest.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. at least I want to die as a soldier.. I came this Far for this reason.. for this Purpose.. I came out of the Poorest Place.. and I had to come this very far so that I can serve my Country.. My Nation to love YOU.. after I started to find Out that I loved YOU.. I wanted to do much more than This that I too have my own worth and value.. to be a Soldier so that I can at least be a help to fight.. to fight on your Behalf.. HELP ME to finish the reason WHY I am here.. Please reconsider so that I can fulfill my purpose who Loves YOU to fight on your Behalf for this NATION.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please consider and reconsider for Me.. and I am Looking down.. LOOKING at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU and I am touching.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. why are you making me to suffer like this.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. and I am hearing some kind of noises and Loud sounds out side.. like a CANON BALLS hitting against the Walls.. and I would lift UP
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MAH MAH.. Am looking around.. WHAT IS that Noise.. what is happening.. and I hear the PRISON DOOR OPENS and and I turn around.. a Prison Guard with the Keys and I lift UP to look at.. the Closest friend of Mine comes with the Prison Guard and He looks at me.. that the QUEEN is allowing me to step Out.. and fight in the WAR.. I Just can't believe it.. and I start to cry MORE AND MORE.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. thank YOU so Much to do what I am called here to DO.. MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. and I would fold the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing of YOU.. MAH MAH.. and I would get up and walk Out of the Prison DOOR.. and with the Closest Friend behind me.. I step Out side.. and I see you standing there.. In the White Dress with the BIG CROWN ON top of your Head.. and YOU are standing with the TOP MILITARY OFFICIALS and Officers.. and I look MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would drop on two Knees.. and My Head looks Down.. my arm stretches Out forward.. and I see that YOU PULL out the King's swords and points to Me.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I can't stop my tears and I am looking at the Ground.. giving me the Permission to speak as I am shedding my Tears.. I thank YOU.. you know that I love YOU.. and that is why the main reason I was able to get out from the Garden is because I knew that I started to Love YOU.. there was NO Other way to express to get it Out.. when I find Out that My Heart started to Love YOU.. I knew that I was going to face the Prison.. and Yes.. the Prison was the Only door that was looking for Me.. I knew that One day I was going to go to prison.. even the great warning sign came to me from my Father.. my Father told me that if I keep on loving YOU.. how he showed me the grave of my Mother and I saw my father come in a wagon but it was his dead body that came to the garden.. I lost both parents at the young age and I remember my father's words telling me.. if I continue to love YOU MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the Prison Door awaits for me and Death will come knocking on the door.. Many people that I knew warned me when they saw the ART SKETCH PAPER.. the drawing picture of YOU.. I was told by many elders growing UP.. if I keep up loving YOU.. the Prison is waiting for me and I shall die in Prison.. even though I heard many words and faced so much oppositions.. I just could not stop give UP loving YOU MAH MAH.. I went to Prison Once and going back twice.. and I knew this time I will not get Out.. and I was ready to Die.. but never imagined that YOU would become HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and yes.. My Heart.. I knew if I die today and to die in the Prison.. I would be the Happiest to made it to this Place but what Got to me before I would die.. the WAR.. I wanted to finish one last time before I take my last breathe which kept up late into the Night.. that I could Not sleep.. If I would choose to die.. I wanted to Die in the Battlefield in the War.. with the MEN who came out with me.. to die as Brothers in band and I would say.. at last Breathe I served my Country.. I die for a great cause and THAT is to serve my country and to Let YOU SEE.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I wanted to show you at least I fought hard to get to the Place I am at and to show YOU HOW MUCH I Love YOU.. it started with finding out that I loved YOU or else I could Not come this very far.. thinking of you many Nights.. far and distance YOU were at.. and thinking of ways HOW TO get to you and to be close to YOU MAH MAH.. I never gave UP the dreams of getting close and to let YOU KNOW MAH MAH.. what is in my Heart.. to let YOU know.. even though I can die by your SWORD as the ROYAL BLOOD LINE.. at least I can share and show YOU.. even though I can die in your hands.. let me tell you before I die was the only thing that was in my Heart.. I was never afraid to tell YOU because I always loved.. I was never afraid to go to Prison walls because If I had.. I would of never started in the first place.. which it leads me where I am at now.. to show YOU that I never stopped loving YOU.. I already been in this Prison WALLS twice but I am asking for a permission.. to allow me to finish the WORK that has been placed in my hands.. I rather die serving my country as the Military soldier who fights for YOU.. MY QUEEN.. on your Behalf.. I am NOT afraid of anything NOW because.. I do remember leaving the Garden and I was set alone.. I lost everything when I left that Garden.. I had to face the WINTER storm all alone with me there was NO ONE.. Most people left the Garden and I had to leave too.. facing the storm all alone.. only place I was thinking was the Palace.. I will try to go and ask the help there.. and I would walk alone.. it was cold and scary at first but I had YOU IN my MIND.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO.. I had YOU in my Heart.. walking into the woods.. LOOKING UP AT THE sky.. looking at the stars leading the direction.. did not think that the WINTER would come so soon and so fast.. snowing did not help me.. and I could not eat for many days.. it got to the Point my Body just could not go ON.. so I knew.. I can't go on and I would fall in the SNOW.. with me I would say.. AM I going to die without ever seeing YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I could Not move.. and I would close my eyes thinking that I am going to die here.. I knew that it was my last.. and I was thinking in my mind.. I should not of left the Garden if this was going to happen.. if the WINTER was coming soon.. I should of waited.. I heard the People in the village next to the Garden came to attack and raided.. most people in the garden died of the raided Band of People in the Garden.. either way.. But I woke UP and was in a Home.. and I am looking at the ground.. the tears would not stop because.. I knew.. and I would lift UP my Head to show you my tears.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I faced many difficulties.. many obstacles against the ODDS.. I had hard time coming to this Place.. I lost many people along the way but I never lost the HOPE and the WILL.. because of this.. and behind me I take out the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would unfold and place in on the ground.. I would remember two things.. My Heart for always LOVING YOU.. and the Promises I made to the Fathers.. My Father and Your FATHER the KING.. PEH HA that I am going to be next to you.. that I will be a soldier who will protect and to defend and also to serve the NATION to HELP you to build.. I had those to things set in my MIND and My Heart and I would look at this Picture.. the Drawing picture of the days I wanted to lose hope or wanted to give UP.. Looking at this ART SKETCH PAPER.. the drawing picture of YOU.. the BOY WHO lost his life for drawing this for me to show me because he believed that I will love YOU always More.. I never gave up.. I just can't because the Promises.. the first is to ALWAYS LOVE YOU.. NO Matter how hard or challenging life can be or bring.. to never stop Loving YOU and to promise to protect and to defend YOUR NATION to help to build.. YOU are the ONLY ONE who can help me to keep on going at it.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I just wanted to say.. thank YOU for allowing this day to happen.. THANK YOU for reconsidering and helping me to get out and helping me to finish the task that is up ahead of me.. I love YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I LOVE YOU and I thank YOU.. I am surprised right Now MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I truly thought YOU did Not know who that Little Boy was.. I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. watching YOU turn away and Leaving.. the Prison Wood Door closes.. I did Not show you the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU was hidden below the Paper I drew of the two Horses.. the One YOU were sitting Down and your Father PEH HA.. the King walking with the Bare Feet.. My Heart.. I can't believe that YOU knew who I was at that Time.. I only thought that I am the Only One who knew.. then if I were to ask YOU.. did you know that I was the One who has been living in the Garden.. even though I was very Poor.. the Boy with the Flower in his Hand.. it was me who wanted to give you that Flower and It was I who gave it to YOU for you to smile as YOU went back to the Palace.. Ever Since that Day.. the Day I saw you sitting on that Horse.. with your Father.. PEH HA.. the King beside YOU.. My Heart.. I did Not know what I was feeling that day.. I felt so Stuffy inside and it was hardly that I could Breathe.. I don't why it was Hard to breathe.. I went with my Father back to the Garden that Night.. I just could Not sleep.. I kept on thinking of YOU.. asking when can I see you Again.. I would RUN up the Hill Top.. going to the Tree and the Bed of Flowers that was planted.. another Bed of Flowers was there beside it and I wanted to give you this ONE that kept on looking at me and I felt this is the way YOU made me feel HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. It was the One SUN FLOWER I kept on looking.. Every Morning when I would wake UP.. I would get Out of the Hut my Father build.. a shelter only for two People.. and I would LOOK UP to the HILL TOP.. running Up there in the garden.. and Next to the Tree the Bed of Flower.. That One SUN FLOWER.. I would smile.. and I would say.. IF I EVER Meet the QUEEN.. MAH MAH.. if YOU ever come to this Garden for some reason even though I knew YOU would Not.. I am going to show YOU my Heart.. this is HOW MY HEART Feels when I see YOU.. even when it is cold Out side.. even when It snows Out side.. LOOKING UP to the HILL TOP.. running UP even though I would sometimes slip and fall.. I would get Up.. I want to see that SUN FLOWER.. determined that I was then.. I would grab HOLD UNTO the ROCKS and PUSH up my Body thinking of YOU.. and I would CLIMB UP to
@진진진-t7p 9 күн бұрын
목소리하며 외모며 애기때처럼 똑같네
@ki.juhyun 11 күн бұрын
누나 평생 함께 해주세요❤
@ki.juhyun 11 күн бұрын
누나 평생 함께 해주세요❤
@Molly8time8 11 күн бұрын
김동완 앙탈 웃겨 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
@white8263 12 күн бұрын
보아 넘 이뻐 넘 러블리해 보아야 영원히 보아만 사랑해 💚 💙 💕 😍 ❤️ 😘
@구르미-w8i 12 күн бұрын
보아언니 생일축하해요💛💛💛💛💛
@정지선-s7t 12 күн бұрын
생일축하해❤
@swifttekneekty237 12 күн бұрын
Omg happy birthday 🎂🎊
@baqqkjcm 12 күн бұрын
Can't wait to see you in Singapore on the 30th Nov. Is there any dress code for your concert 😊?
@inuyashakagome144 12 күн бұрын
BOA COME TO THE USA TOUR!!PLEASE!! WE HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU!!
@MrUCHIHAHIROKI 12 күн бұрын
Happy birthday!
@madisonstephens45 13 күн бұрын
Happy birthday Boa🎂🎊🎉
@teboihiteboihi2953 13 күн бұрын
Happy Birthday BoA 🎂🥳 🎉♥️
@noopen8282 13 күн бұрын
와 NCT면 보아선배한테 인사해야지 마 니 고조할배뻘이다 퍼뜩 인사 안하나!!
@taengoo8939 13 күн бұрын
왜 알림 이제 오냐!!미친 유튜브..언니 생일 축하했었어요🩷🩷
@nataliahernandez3417 13 күн бұрын
Happy birthday BoA. I wish you a happy and beautiful year. ❤
@nnntst 14 күн бұрын
항상 몸도 마음도 건강해라
@nnntst 14 күн бұрын
보아 인스타에 그렇게 예쁜 사진들 올려놓고 댓글도 못 쓰게 해놨더라. 너무한 거 아니오? 그래서 하트만 누르고 여기다 하소연 함.
@める-o4b 15 күн бұрын
BoAずっと大好き💓♥❤
@살라모하메드-j3h 15 күн бұрын
마지막 ♡ 잔망 미쳐땅
@Hi-view 15 күн бұрын
🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉
@keisuke5268 15 күн бұрын
Happy Birthday Queen BoA 🎉❤