Hey man. I hope you're still kicking and I hope you're doing well. I was looking for support and commisseration and was glad to find your video. I left my last job a few months ago, 2 years into transition and by then I was passing by public standards. I worked two seasonal jobs over the winter, and nobody knew I was trans except folks who did payroll. It was awesome. The comfort and ease and sense of safety. It took 5 months of looking for jobs every week, while working 3 jobs that didn't pay the bills, and I finally found the kind of job I wanted, and the income that I need. Two weeks in, one of my pet sitting clients says she visited my new job "to hype me up" but.... she misgendered me when she told ME about it, so I already figured. So I had to wait a couple days to find out if everybody knows now and yep. All the guys are othering me. The women are all a little too supportive and coddling. I miss being seen and treated like a guy. Also there's no private bathroom at this job, and I haven't shared public bathrooms with guys who know I'm trans so. Gotta learn how to navigate that. The thing is, the learning curve doesn't stop. Take care 🩵✌️

I hope you’re doing well mate

Hey! Great stuff. Do you still use this account, I know the videos a bit old? I emailed you before but that was last year. Thanks again for the advice! I’d love to chat again. -Rush

Very insightful! I also think about this a bit, but more just in social situations

Thanks dude for making videos again. You have no idea how perfect the timing is. I'm struggling to talk to this one girl who has my attention. I guess I'm afraid of rejection. Don't know how to show my face after something like that happens.

Your confidence and satisfaction is radiating from you man! I'm so happy for you. I'll definitely be emailing you a bunch of questions. Strange how I lived 20 years as a woman, in female spaces with female friends all growing up and I'm still so perplexed by them.

Thanks for the update! Great advice on the confidence. I'm glad that you're doing well. Cheers!

So good to see you man!! You look great and I'm so glad to see you're happily dating, I still haven't conquered that area of my life yet. Admittedly I feel emasculated by my transness and find I compare myself to cis guys far too much. Please make more vids on the steps you took to improve yourself and your attitude. Where did you find that communications workshop and what's it all about? I'm been thinking about joining Toastmasters to improve my speaking and leadership skills, I figure it will help with communicating and just being more charismatic to improve my confidence and overall people skills. Top surgery was a big deal for me a year ago, because of it I actually feel ready to physically date, but now I need to undo all of this insecurity; I'm not sure how to "accept" myself as male but I'm working on it. I think I'm so ugly and automatically see myself as undesirable because I'm not cis and my height but I've actually been hit on and flirted with with beautiful women I'm shocked are interested in me but I'm so insecure it just fucks it up. How do you meet them and most importantly how do you bring up how sex works with you? I also don't yet feel comfortable with cis guys, please make videos on this too. I know it's my insecurity making me compare myself to them and overthinking everything which makes me uncomfortable around them. Now that I'm seen as male I've realized what's expected of me and the dynamics with both men and women have changed and I feel clueless which makes me nervous. I know not accepting myself as male is getting in the way of me forming friendships with guys. Anyway really happy to see an update from you and looking forward to what you're bringing out.

Paul! So good to hear from you homie! Regular updates!!!

UPDATE US PAUL!! :)

How have you been man?

I don't know how far along you are now. But stay postive. you have my support . I'm starting my transition in a few days. And I'm terrified but happy sad all in one. Change your focus. We're all rooting for yuh!

thank you for tips !!!

Estrogen blockers? How come most people don't do that? Sounds like something I'd be interested in. I'm surprised my doctor hasn't brought it up, it sounds like common sense. I feel you on disclosing. I purposely try not to think about dating. I'm introverted and I enjoy being single and being able to prioritize myself but I have a feeling that will change in the future and I have NO clue how I'm going to go about that. My bottom dysphoria is pretty bad which makes sex more torturous than enjoyable for me AND on top of that I have to talk about it all with any potential partner? It all seems too draining.

Ah shit man. Cramps suck. I've started having some cramping too, mostly the few sYs before my shot . I'm on .75 ml once a week. Get it bumped up mang! Looking stronger every time I see ya

You look great, congrats on the results. As for your dose...I would say to the doctor that you want a plan for moving toward a higher dose, a timeline for getting there, and if not, ask if your doctor is willing to consult with another doctor in order to make these decisions. You shouldn't be experiencing some of these things 2 years in. Stay Strong.

great video! thanks for taking the time to make this. I have surgery in 33 days, so this is a really useful video. just wondering, did you rent a car there at all?

He does maybe 500 a year, the more you do the better you get. He is a surgeon. They aren't usually warm and fuzzy. :) He has a much lower rate of complications than average. Also he is in a surgery center rather than a hospital. Though I believe it is next door to the actual hospital. BTW, he trademarked FTM top surgery so he could use the term. I don't think he's actually sued someone else for using it.

lookin awesome paul!

Looking very good Paul.

Your results are awesome! Thanks for posting.

Your results look AWESOME! You also look noticeably happy. I can't wait for mine.

PAUL! your chest looks amazing!!!!!!!! wow! how are you finding sleeping?

concrats!

Paul, another Dr G clone brother, so stoked for you! (BTW, not so worry about different opinions on Dr G, he's a great surgeon, might not be the most soft and cuddly guy. But he's a surgeon.)

Paul! Dude I'm so stoked for you! You are in great spirits and your chest looks amazing!!