Diary #7 : The WORST Person EVER!
14:35
Diary #3 : Name and Church
18:00
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Diary #2 : Anxiety & Self Care
20:35
Diary #1 : My Side
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Monday Real Talk
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Monday's Daily Routine
25:10
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Kansas RoadTrip To See My Family!
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Introducing Tony
8:34
11 ай бұрын
Why Things Keep Changing?
9:34
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@evelyngarretson1029
@evelyngarretson1029 Ай бұрын
Why does it look like you do it
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 Ай бұрын
@evelyngarretson1029 considering i was bullied my whole childhood until I was old enough to get out and away from it, that's something I'd never do to someone nor would I wish it on my worst enemy but based off of your comment I can tell you are one. Otherwise judging someone based off their looks and saying they look like one who does it - doesn't seem like the best way to approach something when trying to accuse someone of something .
@MCSKIPPY
@MCSKIPPY Ай бұрын
amazing video!
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew Ай бұрын
Can't wait to see the moonshine vlogs 😂
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 Ай бұрын
@@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew 😂 I'm stoked lol
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew 2 ай бұрын
That's a really shitty thing for someone to do and I'm sorry 😢
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 2 ай бұрын
That it is for sure. She has always been a horrible human ... I lost hope in her sister years ago
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew 2 ай бұрын
I know the pain you're going through. I lost my mama 3 yrs ago and she lived with me. I'm still waiting for it to get easier 😢🙏💔
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 2 ай бұрын
Sometimes it seems like it's getting harder 🥺
@Tactical_Penguins_13
@Tactical_Penguins_13 2 ай бұрын
Jesus love you bro
@king.2597
@king.2597 3 ай бұрын
❤❤❤❤
@eXpomarkaofficial
@eXpomarkaofficial 3 ай бұрын
Jesus loves you
@dottiebaylen7568
@dottiebaylen7568 3 ай бұрын
I don't know you (you just popped up in my Recommended feed), but it's clear you are 'trans'...which is not a an actual thing - you are a female woman, as God created you, and no hormones or surgery can ever change that. You have a mental illness that the mainstream media has convinced you is something other than that. Please trust in Jesus to deliver you from this, and not Satan who is already celebrating the fact he has a firm grip on your soul. Just like you were so appalled at seeing an upside-down cross within a so-called 'Christian' church, so is an authentic Christian church appalled at seeing a woman trying to pass herself off as a man - there is no difference, both are under the influence of the Devil. I know you don't want to hear that, but it's true...so pls choose your side and pick your path. Time is running out, so choose wisely. EDIT: I didn't want to mention it, but seeing as though you are very focussed on your aesthetics, then I will mention the dark circles under your eyes. Is this a side effect of the 'T', or an iron deficiency? Also, the constant swaying back and forth is making me feel sea sick. Please stop with the 'trans' thing, it is making you sicker than you think - you are lying to yourself if you think you can ever be a man. God created you as a woman, whether you like like it or not.
@dottiebaylen7568
@dottiebaylen7568 3 ай бұрын
You haven't been saved. God created you as a woman, but you went into the water pretending to be a man. God didn't create you as that, and therefore you are not saved.
@survivor4041
@survivor4041 3 ай бұрын
wow, you are rocking this, you should be very proud of ur resilience and determination
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
@survivor4041 thank you so very much
@parkerscottmusic
@parkerscottmusic 3 ай бұрын
Praying for you Lucas, I know you don’t know me but from a fellow human with a heart you will get through this ❤
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
@@parkerscottmusic thank you so very much ! I'm grateful for your kindness
@robinflanery1015
@robinflanery1015 3 ай бұрын
I'm very sorry for your loss. I totally understand the pain your all going thru . Keep the faith , stay strong as a family & kno that you are not alone. God bless you!❤❤❤❤
@_oxy__
@_oxy__ 3 ай бұрын
you got this man. i love that tattoo you got for him
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
@_oxy__ thank you so much! It's my favorite tattoo! That day I also got 444 tattooed because for months even to this day I kept seeing that number ended up researching the angel number - and it's meaning was - a divine sign that your guardian angels are watching over you and guiding you towards a path of clarity and decisiveness- felt like a sign from him
@christianmathison5892
@christianmathison5892 3 ай бұрын
. Sorry for your loss. I know you guys can get through this. God Bless you and your family
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
I hope that everyone who commented can see this message - in a world full of craziness right now i cannot express how all of your words and love and prayers meant to me during this time ! We celebrated his life doing things we all loved to do together and i know i could feel him with us the whole time. Sending all my love , prayers, and virtual hugs to every single one of you !!!
@Billiejean-jg9rj
@Billiejean-jg9rj 3 ай бұрын
Deepest condolences to you my friend. I don’t know what it’s like to lose a parent but I know what it’s like to lose a grandparent. Sometimes l listen to the songs he used to love to listen to, sometimes I go out to eat/cook his favorite food(shrimp), sometimes I just take some time for myself and cry my heart out. Sometimes I remember the very few but special moments we shared together and laugh at his jokes. It’s been 4 years and sometimes I still forget he’s gone, that I can’t talk to him about my day or my struggles anymore. This pain your feeling will always be there, it won’t go away. But soon you’ll learn to live with it along with the memories he left for you to cherish. May your father rest in peace🤍
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
Thank you so much for your message - I am so sorry for the loss of your grandparent , grief is something we truly just learn to live with as the years go by . Sending hugs and love your way
@Billiejean-jg9rj
@Billiejean-jg9rj 2 ай бұрын
@@LucasDiary23 thank you, this means a lot 🥹🫶
@mariahlamb2983
@mariahlamb2983 3 ай бұрын
Just let yourself feel the emotions that come with the day. Allow yourself to remember him, take however long you need to get it all out. Talk to him, light a candle for him, whatever you feel is best for you in the moment. And then treat yourself to some things you know will bring you joy. Buy yourself something nice, go somewhere you've never been but have always wanted to go, or get your favorite snacks and watch a movie in bed. It's important to take care of yourself and be easy on yourself on a day like this. I'm incredibly sorry for your loss.. I know it's gonna be a rough day. This is an excruciatingly difficult thing to get through. But you'll get through it, and he'll be right there with you. 🤍
@Vadeline_Real
@Vadeline_Real 3 ай бұрын
I haven’t lost anyone directly, but I almost have several times. It’s a scary thing. I also know many people who have lost someone. My advice is to always remember the memories you had with this special person and to remember they are always with you. It can hurt, but I’ve always tried to remember how happy those days and memories made me and remember to always make new ones. I’m sure that special person in your life would want that. :)
@sschw68
@sschw68 3 ай бұрын
My love and prayers to you When I cry and tell myself they are worth every tear So I cry
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
I never hold it in and if I am struggling to cry when I need to I will listen to music to help with that because I know it's needed
@sschw68
@sschw68 3 ай бұрын
​@LucasDiary23 Me too!!! Someone you loved is a good one I feel your pain brother and If I could hug you I would
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
@@sschw68 sending virtual hugs your way friend !
@sschw68
@sschw68 3 ай бұрын
@@LucasDiary23 back at ya !!!!😃
@emilymadsen628
@emilymadsen628 3 ай бұрын
Im so sorry you're struggling. Im actually in the same position you're in. I keep telling myself, You're going to be okay even when you feel like you're barely treading water. You're going to be okay brother. You're in my prayers and in my heart ❤ God bless you and I pray that you find comfort and joy in the happy memories and you can get lost in them and hold onto that love.
@survivor4041
@survivor4041 3 ай бұрын
oh sweetie, trust that your dad is watching over you always. Love transends all. You will feel his love in the wind that whispers, the breeze that strokes your face, and the warmth of the sun that kisses ur upturned face. Feel his love. Just because he is not physically here doesn't mean that he isn.t here in spirit. trust me I have many stories I could tell where those i love have crossed and send me their love spiritually. Look to the heavens sweetie and know that your dad knows how much you miss him but he is always with you.
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
@survivor4041 this made me cry and yet comforted me at the same time - I can't thank you enough for this message 💙
@survivor4041
@survivor4041 3 ай бұрын
@@LucasDiary23 big hug to you young man.
@ryansurvive3827
@ryansurvive3827 3 ай бұрын
. Understanding the trauma, and having self awareness is the best advice. I recently lost my brother, but, I'm doing everything to make him proud, doing things that he knew that was all inside of me this whole time. You've got this, and I feel for you. And you'll be good brother, we've got this!
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
@ryansurvive3827 thank you my friend! I live everyday to make him proud and do things he always pushed me to do thank you so much
@maliceinwonderland99
@maliceinwonderland99 3 ай бұрын
Psalm 55:22, I'm so sorry for your loss, and I relate to you so much. I'm sending you virtual hugs and well wishes.
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
thank you for your kindness! Sending hugs back your way!
@Rhin082
@Rhin082 3 ай бұрын
I just try and keep myself busy. I plan way tooo much shit that way I’m not sitting around thinking.
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
@Rhin082 basically what I did for part of the day! I actually feel okay today ! Everyone's kindness is overwhelming in a good way though.
@Squeeky_Shadow
@Squeeky_Shadow 3 ай бұрын
Id spend the day or a few hours doing things he loved to do. Watch his favorite movie, have his favorite meal for dinner. Keep him with you
@theslavikshork
@theslavikshork 3 ай бұрын
Think of the good he did in life, think of the impact he had on you and others, of what a good man he was. Maybe do something he loved to feel connected to him, wear his clothes. Stay strong, <3 he loves you from over the rainbow bridge
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
@theslavikshork this here! I love this ! My grandma and I ate at one of his favorite places and went to a show he'd always wanted to see here in Branson ! Thank you for your kindness
@DebbieMoore-h3v
@DebbieMoore-h3v 3 ай бұрын
Put your trust in God. Have faith, pray and God will give you peace. I have lost both parents and 2 sisters during my life. I know they are all together in heaven. I miss them like crazy and have bad days but one day I hope to be with them again. Sounds like your dad was a great dad and know you were blessed to have him. God chose him for your dad but his work on earth was done. God bless you.
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
@DebbieMoore-h3v I'm so sorry for your loss - I always tell people my grandpa was also like a 2nd dad to me he passed almost 18 years ago losing a parent is a whole different heartbreak. He was a really good day a lot of my friends and family who knew him say I'm the mini version of him . Thank you for your kind words
@sazure2
@sazure2 3 ай бұрын
MHO - Church - Realize others may even have it worse. - GIVE GIVE GIVE to others. Work at charities, homeles, or IF you live animals ditto. Those lost in wars, violent crime, disease other. - Two years MHO (psch degree MA health care) means asking STRANGERS online is NOT working. - Get off the WWW and OUT - again GIVE to others. - Some babies don't make it past ONE day. - Lived in NYC lucky to be alive as a female. Sorry OLD school and eldery. (Grew up during the horrible Civil Rights Era and saw horrible things) - As well Vietnam and many friends, fathers did NOT make it back.
@LovelyRitas
@LovelyRitas 3 ай бұрын
I always went to the graveside with a beverage like coffee and I'd sit and share what I was dealing with, talked about the good times and my heart pain. I cleaned up the area, cried, laughed (,after a while ) and in all cases I carry them with me and live extra hard for us all.. PRAYERS are good MEMORIES a Amazing and Faith & LOVE with get you through. Just NEVER give up🙏🏽🙏🏽🕯
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
@LovelyRitas this means more then you'll know . Normally I journal daily and write as if I am talking to my dad that helps almost everyday today just hurts a little more I guess. I appreciate your kindness
@LovelyRitas
@LovelyRitas 3 ай бұрын
@@LucasDiary23 I have to believe that your dad would want you to live an amazing life that fills your heart and everybody that loves you with the same energy and love that he left behind! The world is out there for you to explore and every journey, believe that he is with you, guiding you and/or believing in you, loving you from a different place and waiting for you to share these journeys. LIVE HARD! LOVE DEEP and NEVER Let sadness rob you of what path lies ahead of you!! I can promise you this; he didn't want to be seen sick and he didn't want to leave you but cancer sucks and it steals the life of way too many. 14 years is 1 hellofa fight to try and stay with you! Take him on you journey and MAKE HIM PROUDER🙏🏽🙏🏽🕯
@CHRISTIANGETS_FIT
@CHRISTIANGETS_FIT 3 ай бұрын
Great video!
@Fedeleness
@Fedeleness 3 ай бұрын
Offer up your sorrow to God, for the sorrow He felt to see His Son on the Cross.
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
@@Fedeleness everyday ! Thank you for your kind words
@KellyBlazekonYT
@KellyBlazekonYT 3 ай бұрын
Pray
@PatricePadden
@PatricePadden 3 ай бұрын
Nothing can tell you sweetie. Take one day at a time and I know how you feel honey I lost both my parents keep busy and pray to God
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
@@PatricePadden i pray to God every day and i talk to my dad everyday too
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
@@PatricePadden I'm so sorry for your loss thank you for your kind words
@tristanolson7905
@tristanolson7905 3 ай бұрын
Pray
@GoDWheatThins
@GoDWheatThins 3 ай бұрын
So sorry this is happening to you. I hope things turn out
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
It will - thank you hope you are well
@calebanaya130
@calebanaya130 3 ай бұрын
strong work keep it up brother💪🏽
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
Appreciate it big time thank you !
@CheriDrake
@CheriDrake 3 ай бұрын
Excellent. Beautiful angel from God to comfort mankind. ❤
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
She is wonderful and a wonderful human as well!
@Jenny_Hink
@Jenny_Hink 3 ай бұрын
An upside down cross wow. Thats horrible i definitely would have walked out. I agree with Jamie it would cause me way to much anxiety at that church if thats what you can call it. Who puts a cross upside down that very disrespectful imo. 😮
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
@@Jenny_Hink those were my exact thoughts soooo rude and disrespectful to have something like that in a place where you are " worshiping "
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew 3 ай бұрын
I think I would of had anxiety too at that new church...doesn't sound like a place I would of liked to had been...
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
It was very uncomfortable 😕
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew 3 ай бұрын
Awesome video Tony!! I never used to get anxious about anything but I do now sometimes over Raven
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
If you ever need to talk I'm here you.
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew 3 ай бұрын
I don't know the people so i can't say anything on them but i do know that you have been doing the paranormal stuff a long time and you had your own stuff and already had channels on here so I 100% believe you're the one that started the channel...so to threaten you with small claims court is just wow 😮
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
Yeah I thought that was pretty wild myself ! It also blows my mind that people will call someone who works a full time job and they know that at 3AM to complain about something they were attempting to do first. The messages are shared because I want to share the manipulation and narcissism is so real and people will use it !!!
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
trying to tell someone that their wrong and lying about their feelings is crazy to me - No one in this world gets to tell someone how they feel
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew 3 ай бұрын
@@LucasDiary23 you're right..they sure don't...everyone is entitled to feel anyway they want!
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew 3 ай бұрын
@@LucasDiary23 I'd be mad asf if someone called me at 3am and it wasn't an emergency!!
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
@@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew That is why when my phone rang and it was my brother at 3AM I about had a heart attack
@CHRISTIANGETS_FIT
@CHRISTIANGETS_FIT 3 ай бұрын
Great video! Gotta do what is best for you!
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
thank you <3
@sethmyers8284
@sethmyers8284 3 ай бұрын
Brother man you gotta do what u gotta do
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
thank you man
@MrChickenChoker1
@MrChickenChoker1 3 ай бұрын
All You can do is look after yourself mate bosh!!!
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
Definitely something I have to do and need to do!! much love mate!
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew 3 ай бұрын
Fixing to watch this banger ❣
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 3 ай бұрын
Can't wait to hear your feedback!!! Love you my friend
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew
@jamierigglehtd4life_CursedCrew 3 ай бұрын
​@@LucasDiary23love you too!!
@HaleySands-ml2xe
@HaleySands-ml2xe 4 ай бұрын
so good looking i love him!💋💓💓💓💜💓🔥❤
@bransonontheroad
@bransonontheroad 4 ай бұрын
Hi Lucas - thank you sharing the video of Hargus’ retirement show. My husband was Donnie Wright (who passed in 2017). He and Hargus worked together for years at the Pine Mountain Jamboree. Donnie helped Hargus make his video Lifestyles of the Poor & Homely. It touched my heart to watch your video. Thank you again for putting this on your channel.
@LucasDiary23
@LucasDiary23 4 ай бұрын
I am so glad that you enjoyed the video!! This was by far one of the most emotional shows I have seen in the 4 or 5 years I have been attending! Thank you so much for your kind words and for sharing a little bit as well
@naginato4841
@naginato4841 5 ай бұрын
His soul rest in peace ❤