I hate everything.

I wish i wasnt scared of killing myself, i would love to

this is the song that stayed with me throughout all the hard times. this song makes me feel less lonely. i wish to become a safe place for everyone, no one in the world deserves pain, every criminal had a backstory, every suicide event had a backstory, every depression case had a backstory. please be a nice person. you can help everyone by just being there for others. i know it hurts sometimes, but people will one day realize that kindness and communication is the cure to depression and other horrible things. please be nice.

Lyriks please thanks

my dad died :(

I wish I were dead

i spent my whole life trying to get closer to god, everyday i wake up i do my prayers and I really loved my religion but in the last few months I’ve decided to give up on him and leave this religion not because im mad or anything i just don’t believe in something called god, and well i felt disappointed an overwhelming disappointment especially when he didn’t answer me, i was there for him every single day and he wasn’t there for me when i needed him the most, he was my only friend, the one who knows all my secrets and the one whom i cry to before going to sleep, not gonna lie i felt like a lost my family. may he forgive me if he’s even there.

THANK YOU

It's his birthday today...... I've been in love with him for about 13 years now (give or take)....... for some reason he wasn't like the other guys I found cute. He was my first long-term crush in elementary, then shockingly first kiss in highschool, first "relationship" if you can even call it that. I really wish things were different but he just doesn't like me anymore and I'm not sure if he ever truly did. I remember the first time I heard this song in highschool after we agreed to stop talking the first time (the beginning of our on/off relationship) and it was actually this video I had playing that night, funny how it all comes back huh? Thinking about him. Always about him. How I wasn't enough and could never be what he wanted. I still miss him, I still see him from time to time and give him the same awkward smile. I don't know if I'll ever truly stop loving him and I hate that.

There used to be a time in my life back around when this song came out where listening to this loop was the only way I could sleep. Now I find myself here again, relearning the same hard lessons. Isn’t it odd how sometimes the best ways to clear your mind is to fill it with only one thought on repeat?

It’s hard for me to talk about my trauma because I believe I am alone in it. There is always two sides to a story but when things are posted online, it seems that no one cares, they just want a laugh well it’s all fun and games until someone gets hurt. I can’t blame them they don’t know I have a registered learning disability, that makes it hard for me to process information correctly. I write or say the wrong thing. The teachers knowing this decided to make fun of me and post my work online for attention a power trip to feel better about themselves. I was only a kid when this all started about 7-8. I cannot remember a lot of my childhood I think because of this. I found all these posts years later in highschool I was distraught and my mental health really plummeted since then. I began feeling like the dumbest person on earth and that im utterly useless because of all the KZbin vids using my work for views. I can’t go into it anymore it’s hard to talk about. I believe I’m doing better now as I have found courage to speak on it. I hope some day I can help become a voice for the underdogs those that are misunderstood just as I am.

Winn if you ever see this, you hurt me so bad. You broke the little bit of soul I had left, I felt whole again with you. So why him? Why wasn’t I enough but he was. You said you loved me? You said you wanted to marry me, I had a ring to propose to you. You were my best friend for close to a decade and then my lover. I feel so empty and life is so meaningless now that you’re gone.

I like to think i dont have depression. But i know i do and theres nothing i can do about it. I dont know why i do i shouldnt feel this way. Im 13 ive been feeling this way since i was 8. It never left and i dont think it ever will. But i want to stop it. I want it to stop. Its gotten to the point where i hurt myself in any way and with anything i can. Hammers, knives, blades, etc etc. (sorry about my punctuation i dont know how to use it) i punch things or myself just to feel something. I dont know why i feel this way but at the same time i dont really have the best family its arguments on arguments every single day non stop. Ive attempted a few times. But obviously they didnt work i dont like to talk about my feelings to anyone that i actually know so i dont know i just need to let it out

i know they uploaded this video years ago and this song is old but i’ve been struggling with bullying my whole life and it gets to a point where im just tired of it and tired of everything and tired of trying to fit it it’s exhausting and tiring and i just want a break from trying to be normal i was born different from everyone else i’ve always been the tall girl and it’s annoying because if a boy was my height aka 6’0 it’s omg he’s so cute i want him his height is perfect but when it’s women it’s disgusting and it’s slender man it’s daddy long legs and i don’t get the stereotype but it’s not just me being 6’0 it’s me being skinny with it to and being african american i don’t get bullied as bad as i used to in elementary but now they still do talk about me but they don’t say it to my face because they know i’ll lash out and cry and throw chairs and scream so they just stare at me like i’m crazy and i wish i was just normal and wasn’t tall and normal weight im sick of the stereotypes for tall people it’s a struggle trying to find pants that reach my ankle or at least go past it and if i do find pants that do its like 25+ dollars but for normal sizes it’s half of the price it’s unfair and unethical and i’m just sick of everything i know that guys will always be there in life but why do guys don’t look at me and say oh she’s pretty or anything like that it’s always she’s tall do you play basketball and i’ve always liked guys but they never liked me that i know of because they just don’t see me like that they see me as a depressed looking tall black girl and it makes me feel like a outsider even tho i lived here my whole life and it’s always been the same things will never change i hate it i hate it all so hopefully when i move things will get better. in conclusion i love this song and if you read it this far thank you and feedback is appreciated ❤️

It’s strangely comforting, knowing how many other people are going through something right now and this song just loops in their head and it’s just nice to know that you’re not the only one who struggling😭

two years ago i was deeply depressed and my night routine was lying in bed and listening to the saddest music ever till the morning and i remember at some point it became so unbearable that i decided i wanted to leave so the next night i was listening to music for the last time ever picking up my favourite songs and knowing what was going to happen next until i ran out of the songs i chose and i thought "if sleep through your alarms plays next, im not going to do that". i don't know why i even thought about this particular song i didn't even listen to it that much back then but you know what it did fucking play next. just like that. i hope that each of you here will always find peace and love inside of you because it's stored there, a lot of it, and you just need to find your way there. and i promise you will. just like i did. no matter what happens, you are never alone.

the art and the reflection hurts me. as an artist of 20+ years reflections don't do that. i still appreciate the art. but holy cow you can tell the artist doesn't know how reflections work too well. it works for an untrained eye. but for anyone whos actually working with still life drawings its so obvious. i only clicked the video to critique the art it showed

I’ll lie for as long as I’m here. For everyone else. Life doesn’t offer much to me. I just watch as people live play parts I don’t need just to help their journey while mine is just non existent. I exist for you all. That’s harder for me to do. But people don’t have to understand that and I get it so when I’m really me it’s morbid. Miserable. I ruin people

2024 anyone?

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i’m clearly just not what he wants. He ended it last time, maybe I should this time if he’s not gonna do it. His other girlfriend is probably a lot better suited and i wish them both the best.

Feeling really tired of life lately, don’t know why I’m even feeling this wave of sadness. I really wanna end it all my heart hurts so much. Joys of life really only happen while your young, becoming an adult been nothing but pain,grief,depression,everything I’m so tired of it I wanna leave.

I found this song for the first time today… played it all the way through too. Thanks!

this song was playing when i lost my boyfriend back in 2017. he commented on the original video, only just came back to it to see its been taken down and reuploaded. honestly first listen since 2019.

so my dad recently passed away. He took his own life and the last things he said to me was he needed help, he was crying and I felt like i couldn’t forgive him because he was verbally abusing us, all the mean things he would say, he would tell us repeatedly he was better off dead, I thought it was just the drugs he was on because he got addicted to meth. but that morning I seen him there, just there. My brother screaming trying to take him down, my world ended, this happened only 2 weeks ago. I haven’t been eating,sleeping. all i think about is that I was there, he was asking for help..ans I couldn’t help him, it was obvious and his last text was that he was scared to die. I wish i could’ve told him i love him, that i care about him, that i would do anything just to go on a drive with him one more time. just one more fucking time. I feel like i’m going crazy like i’m going insane, i keep on seeing my extension cord and just thinking about doing it, I can’t stop, I’ve been going to church, i’ve been praying, Ive been crying, why does it still feel like everything is falling down onto me? why does it feel like nobody is listening to me? If I just end my life right now will anyone notice? will anyone care? will anyone cry for me? I just want to see my dad one more time, I miss him so much, i miss his voice and his laughter, i miss him working on his cars and being loud and noisy, i miss his hugs, his scent, i just want him back, lord i fall to sleep. praise let it be long. till all the pain is gone.

I am so close to losing my shit.

I've never really commented anywhere here before but this seems like a safe space and i know probably no one would read this but im really going through a hard time and need to talk to someone about it. Im 16. 3 days ago i hung out w this guy thinking he was someone else and he went along w it as if hes that person. i realized a little bit too late that its not him and it was acc a person i met at a party 2 years ago and he asked me to makeout and i said no and i never spoke to him again. I panicked and didnt know what to do cus we were in his car and he kept taking the wrong way. He got me alcohol and forced me to drink. Before i drank i told him i dont know him so all i wanna do is talk. He got me drunk and took advantage of me. When i realized whats going on i told him to drop me off and he kept telling me those werent his intentions. I didnt want to go home and pretend like nothing happened like i do everytime i get sexually assaulted. so i went to my friends and told them what happened and they went to my house and told my brother what happened eventho i didnt want my family to know. he told my mom. everyone is screaming at me, telling me its my fault and is jus upset w me. In this family all ihave is my sister, we're really close she even has my name tatooed and i was planning on getting hers as well. But she was in our home country. and she texted me and shes really upset w me and forced me to get in call w her. she screamed at me and blamed it on me. i thought she was the only person i could count on in this whole world. but even she wasnt on my side eventho shes been through worse experiences. I had the door of my room locked when i was talking to my sister. i didnt say much i was just crying while she was screaming. my dad tried to open the door and foundit locked so he got mad cus im not allowed to lock the door of my room so he took my phone and laptop. Everyone is just screaming at me after i got sexually assaulted. So i wanted to die. and i told them ill kill myself and my dad was like ill kill you instead. I was trying to find anything sharp to end it all but they wouldnt let me die. I have marks all over of my body from what the boy did to me. Im going through a really hard time and no one cared to ask about how im feeling. They all just told me its my fault. Even my sister, the only person i thought i could always count on. So i sleep, but i sleep and i dream of it. I stay awake, i constantly feel his hands all over me. I cant even look at mirror. Ive never felt so alone. I was about to end it all yesterday. And its the only thing in my mind. Ive just been listening to this song on loop ever since. and crying. crying non stop. I dont know if i could go another day or if ill stay alive any longer. Im just rotting in bed. My mom kept telling me if a 5 year old was kept in my situation she wouldve known what to do. My sister, my parents, my brother, my friends everyone just keeps telling me im so dumb but non of them were in my situation. I was panicking and i didnt know what to do. my parents just care about our reputation, how they dont know how to go down the street again knowing that people know that their daughter spoke to a guy (im not allowed to talk to guys or drink cus im muslim) and got sexually assaulted. Told me not to go down the streets for a few days so people forget about it. i constantly think of ending it all or hurting myself eventho ive been clean for over a year. i wish i had my sister to support me but she didnt bother checking up on me once. Ive never felt so alone. I cant even hangout w my guy bestfriend or anything cus im scared. I cant sleep because im scared to dream of it again. But i also cant stay awake cus i constantly feel his hands and lips on me. I dont know what to do anymore

Everyones lied to me and now im finally alone at the end of it all. What The Fuck was the point.

"Don't call it before its over" brother it never even began.

so sick of being used and hurt i dont even wanna wake up anymore....

i listen to this every night to sleep and js sob

thanks for this

I wish i wasn't trans not because of dyohoria not because of anything to do with me i just wish society would like me and that they wouldn't want me dead

hey it hurts...

maybe i am better off dead...

pls. i need help. i am the middle child but i feel like need to take care of my brothers.

افضل اغنيه😢

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Man how i wish I could sit somewhere with that sight in front of me all day, chillin'...

يو كل ما سمعها تجيني الدمعه 💔

Here is his sleep thru ur alarms newest hall studio session. kzbin.info/www/bejne/m5KTYYV8ibegaJosi=xwrsS7yi1tg3X4fo 1 hour loop❗

This make me thinking about how deep life is it and how it's hard for everyone, of course for yourself, we're trying our hard to just exist and live what we can, until die come for me..

Came across this couple months after it came out- I was feeling low, and still in school. Now I'm an adult, working. It's been around 6-7 years, and this is still the song I choose to be depressed to. To others like myself in the comments- life gets hard sometimes, sometimes it all feels meaningless. You're tired and you don't see an end. How you choose to move ahead is upto you. My only hope is that you put up a fight, and burn bright. "Do not go gentle into that good night... Rage, rage against the dying of the light." Love and peace to all who find this.

A few days ago I found out that thinking of suicide every day wasn’t normal and I’ve also been close to going through with it but when I ask for help from my parents they don’t believe me and ask why I’m sad….and I don’t know why and that makes me more sad because I feel like a broken machine…….I don’t know what to do…

I found this song a few years ago, and at the same time I was entering into a wonderful relationship. That relationship went to shit, and now when I listen to this song I remember a better time in my life and where that road eventually ended. thank you though, its a nice song.

im back here again...

Song hits hard when you realize you made it thru life another hour

My body feels so numb.

literally crying now