Wow, mine started at 15, but I didn't compare myself to 10 year olds !

Where you ever at Hershey?

With enough coffee anything is possible! 🥰😍🥰

hi om my dear thank you so much and thanks to God i ve foiun your video today i needed it a lot♥...i suffer it for mroe then 20 years togehther with depression, possilbe BPD, suicidla ideations and aslo slefhahrm alsmot died few times but im still here...same as you in hospitla it truaamtised me even mroe i also love sauffering and punsishg me so itt made me jsut mroe deprssed i can relate so much and i hope you feel lot better now God bleess youz beautzf soul♥

I’m from Minnesota too !

I'm so glad you survived your ordeal.

I was in your place at one time and i was on a locked unit so i couldn't leave and i was constantly watched except when in the shower. An aid was there but they couldn't see me behind the shower curtain so my way of fighting back was to purge using my tube. It was silent so they couldn't hear. Fortunately i finally gave in to treatment and recovered

No more vids?

Thank you for sharing this. You get very beautiful ringing notes when you play!

So happy to see you TJ using your hurt to help 🙏❣️ I would love to see more of this, I think it could be healing for both the person sharing, and the one watching ❣️

Thank you for sharing. Plants, butterflies, little birds and ukulele help

hi Tj

Found your channel via the program for Elf the Musical (nice subtle plug by the way) and wanted to say you’re an amazing actor :]

Loved watching this! Beautiful setting and ambiance! Cracked up watching you put so much batter on the little maker the first time! This is delightful!

I just love you! 😊🧡🫂 I'm grateful for you!

Thank you for your honesty!💕💕💕

I love this and I’m so proud of you. It’s great to hear the origins of the gratitude posts. <3

Saw this and had to share! 💕 Me: Hey God. God: Hello, my love. Me: I'm falling apart. Can you put me back together? God: I would rather not. Me: Why? God: Because you aren't a puzzle. Me: What about all of the pieces of my life that are falling down onto the ground? God: Let them stay there for a while. They fell off for a reason. Take some time and decide if you need any of those pieces back. Me: You don't understand! I'm breaking down! God: No - you don't understand. You are not breaking down, you are breaking through. What you are feeling are just growing pains. You are shedding the things and the people in your life that are holding you back. You aren't falling apart. You are falling into place. Relax. Take some deep breaths and allow those things you don't need anymore to fall off of you. Quit holding onto the pieces that don't fit you anymore. Let them fall off. Let them go. Me: Once I start doing that, what will be left of me? God: Only the very best pieces of you. Me: I'm scared of changing. God: I keep telling you - YOU AREN'T CHANGING!! YOU ARE BECOMING! Me: Becoming who? God: Becoming who I created you to be! A person of light and love and charity and hope and courage and joy and mercy and grace and compassion. I made you for more than the shallow pieces you have decided to adorn yourself with what you cling to with such greed and fear. Let those things fall off of you. I love you! Don't change! Become! Become! Become! Become who I made you to be. I'm going to keep telling you this until you remember it. Me: There goes another piece. God: Yep. Let it be. Me: So...I'm not broken? God: No - but you are breaking like the dawn. It's a new day. Become!! Become!! Author ~ John Roed

I was wondering if you were ok and hoping you didn't get sick or Covid. WOW very insperational and watching you struggle even getting some parts of your story out in this video shows just how vulnerable and scary it can be to put ourselves out there. I mean, I take my medications for my physical and mental health, covid just sucked everything out, Auto-immune diseases suck, then throw in mental health where now your only able to stay inside your house and have little to no contact with anyone outside has got me HATING life, and that it took a year away from my grams and us. Way to much negative happening to see anything positive. I had weight loss surgery because I couldn't loose weight on my own, I got to an awesome weight that I was extremely happy and content with, now with all the medications, steroids, etc has made me gain and when I look in the mirror it is disgust. So I am trying to move around my house doing different things just so my body is moving, pushing through any pain and resistance my body is shouting out at me over. A hot cup of coffee helps loosen my fingers so I am able to open my fingers in the morning, then I turn on the IPad and portable speaker bring up my cleaning tunes and start to jam out, dancing around my house so my body is actually moving around. Were you in a place that starts with an R in Minneapolis? If so, I love that place, they have done an amazing job with my son and when we end up there for our many ambulance rides down there. Thank you for your raw and real video! <3 Huge hugs to you. <3 I do have a message for you to read, that kind of fits with these things also.

OMG TJ that was the most inspiring thing I've seen in a long time. I was crying. So much wisdom -- "if you repeat it enough times you start to believe it" "when you're thinking of gratitude you can't be depressed" were two of my takeaways. I acknowledge that it takes great courage to share such personal, vulnerable stories. But you are making a difference. 🙌🤗

Your story is definitely not over. Even if you feel like you are at the bottom of a cold well, and all you see is a tiny peek of light at the top, hold onto that light. You stayed focused on that light and what you were grateful for, and for that reason, you were able to climb up and out of that dark place and experience the light again. No one will ever know just how much strength that took to climb up each painful brick of that well, but you do, and you should be so proud of yourself.

What a beautiful message! 😍😍

TJ, I’ve watched you struggle, and seeing this has brought me joy. I am SO glad you have chosen life.

TJ, I’ve watched you struggle and lose hope. I am so very glad you have chosen life. You’re radiant!

Love you TJ!!! <3

This is probably my favorite video it's nice to hear you say these realizations out loud especially the eating alone issue I'm sorry you are still struggling with this but I'm glad you know it's something you really need to keep working on keep at it sistergirl love you!

Glad you brought up tiktok not being helpful♡

I'm super sensitive to change too..interesting

Your editing is really good, too!

So much to relive a wonderful time!!

I feel so loved!! 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

Hahahaha, your neighbor creeping on ya!!!!! LOL

WOW!!! You really have came so far in your journey. It must feel good to know that your video's can help so many people out in the world. Have you ever thought about working with treatment centers or hospitals, because you have been at the lowest time in your life. And like you said, yes your body was severely malnourished and on the brink of death. But your brain was just as malnourished as the rest of your body. And I strongly believe that mental health and physical health go hand in hand. If my mental health is in the trash, my physical health goes to shit too. They are tied together, and you can work on 1 for a bit alone but if you don't add in help for both together at some time you open yourself back up to undoing everything you just worked hard to do or accomplish. 7 years ago I was diagnosed with endometriosis, had surgery to fix it. Surgery worked for about 6 months, This brought me to July 2015. Told my ob to take it all out, I was done dealing with this pain. We just got back from TN. Seeing my hubby's family. This vacation will always sit in my mind in the front and never will leave. I don't like to sleep with my cell phone in my room, so I always leave them in the living room charging. This was our first morning at the house. We always get in around supper time, we drive so it is super cheap. I got my cup of coffee, grabbed my cell phone and cigarettes to go outside to text my mom that we made it and all was good. My mom was blowing my phone up non stop I bet she called over 100 times, I called in a panic and I asked who died. It was going to be either my brother who was 17 or my grams. My brother od'd on canned air at his bio moms house. Here I am 1000 miles away from my mom and no way to help her, we had paid for Hotels at the Smokey mountains that year. We always try to do a huge outing with all 17 of us My mom didn't want me to say anything to my kids. My son and brother are 4 months apart, my daughter and sister are almost a year and a half apart. Long story short my mom had custody of my cousins kids. Stayed down did 1 more big thing which is going to this awesome beach to BBQ, rent canoe's etc. On our way there our car engine exploded while driving. So with all the stressors that week ended up putting my body in a huge flare up, never new anything was wrong except from Endo. Took 3 months to get my hysterectomy scheduled and done. After this surgery I wasn't healing, I was down to 132 lbs., malnourished, gray skin, dehydrated and on deaths bed. That was when I learned I have Crohn's disease, Fibromyalgia, Raynauds disease, IBS, etc. Started meds for Crohn's and that put me in the hospital dying because it gave me a pancreitis. I was sick, really really sick and my mom thought they were going to lose me. Sorry for my long rant, I had already been diagnosed with depression. I had ppd with my daughter, then diagnosed with ptsd, and they moved my depression to severely depressed, add in some ptsd stuff and I was a train wreck. Crohn's makes it hard to leave my house, back then I was still on medical leave from my job. a job and clients I loved for 6 years. They did end up terminating me on medical leave but I knew I couldn't return because you can't work and live in the bathroom ya know. So I sunk really fast into depression, and anxiety through the roof especially if I had to leave the house. I need to know where every bathroom is. I have to bring a backpack with that has extra clothes, creams, medications, wipes, etc. It is horrible going into the public bathroom and using it and you can hear what everyone is saying about your issue. There has been many times being made fun off due to the smell. I hope what I was trying to say got out.. Yikes So sorry I went on a spill your guts LOL.

My daughter lives in her black leggings, hahaha super funny. My mom's favorite colors are purple and green of all shades and they actually go really good together! I love the outfits! Poor Reid must have been in his kennel.

Ohhh girly your sister looks just like you, but she looks very familiar too!

You guys are cute!

Watching you walk Reid reminds me of my sons dog and flying down the steps, almost like your going to fall.

This is amazing 😍😍

Wow! Fun! Gorgeous! Now I'm exhausted!😅

I think you should get the Happy poem published. My mom had one published! <3

Very beautiful! I bet we know some of the same people from the ED community. I think Chicago is beautiful but man I hate driving through it to get home to visit hubbs family in TN, I also agree MN winters kill my body with the horrible cold! BEUTIFUL sun set! Reminds me of my picture with my bonus daughter on her baptism a few weeks ago.

How far are you from Teen Challenges Grace Manor??? That is such a BEAUTIFUL old mansion! <3

Music has always been with me between the good the bad and the ugly. I remember going to the dentist when I was little in Stillwater Mn, which is where the pediatric dentist was. My mom and I would throw meatloafs 8 track into her car and we would jam out. I passed that on to my kids as well... Sense covid and lots of flare ups I have gained so much weight and I have been trying to do more moving to music then before. Suffering from so many auto immune diseases they all seem to play on each other.

This was such a beautiful video. Thank you so much for letting me be a part of the process ❤️

Love love love 💘 💗 💕

So beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing this with us!❤💜

💗💗💗beautiful 💗💗💗

Beautiful. Thank you for sharing something so personal and special.

You’re so amazing & such a beautiful person ❤️❤️ Josh is looking down so proud of you ❤️

Wow your place is so beautiful!! loved the vlog!! thanks for sharing:) -Kelsey