I spent my life living in the shadows and living my life for everyone else around me. The only things I could control were how much I ate, how mutch i felt inside and how much life i was willing to live. I was born and i know I'll die someday but the in-between is mine. It took me a lot of pain to live this truth. Lots of love from me to you 🫂
@Luxsurtel19 күн бұрын
Lots of love back 🤍
@JimmiAlli21 күн бұрын
So sorry for your loss 😢
@annasophia200525 күн бұрын
Lux ik ken je eigenlijk niet maar ik kwam je account laatst een keer tegen op tiktok, en nu kwam ik er achter dat je ook een yt kanaal hebt! Ik wilde je even zeggen dat ik je zo'n onwijs lief, mooi, stralend en krachtig persoon vind, en ik wens je alles alles alles goeds en moois in de wereld <3
@Maxamos55526 күн бұрын
Marijuana can improve appetite
@zyiellenesterling9890Ай бұрын
Lux, what a beautiful, wonderful and superwoman Mom you have...I'm crying with you and please accept my deepest condolences to you and your family. I may be miles away from you but my prayers and heaven's comfort will reach you: Matthew 5:4 New King James Version 4 Blessed are those who mourn, For they shall be comforted. My Grandma also have gone home to the Lord in 2013. It cuts like a knife and she was the one who is my second Mom because she raised me. I know that your precious Mom is in your heart just like I have my Grandma in my heart. I will be lifting you up in prayers and I will commit to it. I know you will be protected by Jesus and He is there with you right now. Romans 10:13 New King James Version 13 For “whoever calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved.” The Lord has put you into my heart. Crying with you, Lux. I know just like I was comforted by Jesus, He will comfort you. I love you.
@sterretje40Ай бұрын
Ze is bij je, hopelijk voel je haar naast je in de strijd die je nog gaat leveren. Sterkte lieve Lux ❤
@WafelwaffelАй бұрын
<3
@raminrezai7379Ай бұрын
Zoveel respect voor je lieve schat. Je bent zo sterk, god bless your mom and you.
@noejesАй бұрын
❤️❤️🙏🏻😘
@jobteunis1418Ай бұрын
Jij bent de meest pure, bijzonderste en mooiste persoon die ik ken. Ik ben trotser dan trots op jou en als er één iemand is die het allermeest trots op je was (en is), is dat jouw lieve mammie, tante Daan. Je gaat dit niet alleen doen, maar SAMEN met je beste vriendin, jouw ride or die. Ze leeft voort in jou en zal jou altijd bijstaan, waar je ook gaat. Je bent mijn beste vriendin en ik zal je beloven je altijd, echt waar altijd, bij te staan, naast je te staan en samen jouw pad te gaan bewandelen. Gods zege heb je. Ik ben ontzettend trots op je, meest bijzondere persoon die ik heb mogen ontmoeten in mijn leven. We are family. Forever and always.❤️🫶🏼🥺🥹💘
@LuxsurtelАй бұрын
This brought me to tears!! Ik ben zo zo zo zo zo dankbaar met jou in mn leven. Vind het prachtig dat mama jou heeft mogen leren kennen van een afstand en zag hoe wij met elkaar zijn. Haar zegen heb je en ze had het niets anders gewild dat wij door zouden gaan! Forever and always. You’re a part of us and my family! 🤍🥺
@debby5806Ай бұрын
Lieverd ze is een deel van jullie en is super trots op jullie
@LuxsurtelАй бұрын
🤍😔
@TCW1977Ай бұрын
So very sorry 😢x
@LuxsurtelАй бұрын
🤍🤍
@H.A.-zr2wcАй бұрын
Tante Daan is een queen net als haar prachtige lieve dochter Allahoema Bareek🤍 Blijf je kleden als de ameerah die je bent, voor haar. Ik hoop echt dat je de sabr kunt vinden om toch door te gaan in je herstel Ameerah💖 Geef niet op, ik denk aan je
@LuxsurtelАй бұрын
Allahumma barik! Ameen ya ochti 🥺🤲🏻
@BrigitteBaakАй бұрын
Lieve Lux, ik voel je pijn, een moeder verliezen is hartverscheurend ik weet het, voel het elke dag. Jou moeder is zo trots op jou, en gaat met je mee de opname in, ze houd je vast, en geeft je kracht. Jij bent net als je moeder een strijder, een bijzonder en prachtig mens, inside and outside. Ik stuur je licht en kracht toe, voor de moeilijke tijd die komen gaat. Liefs Gitje❤
@LuxsurtelАй бұрын
🤍🥺
@missylielouАй бұрын
Sorry, but did the second operation work out for you ?
@user-kc3fn1gu6g2 ай бұрын
You will hopefully be OK after healing x
@Ao456kl2 ай бұрын
God loves you Lux
@jamellehearn13892 ай бұрын
You are so beautiful cutie pie
@jamellehearn13892 ай бұрын
Glad you are back my cutie pie
@zyiellenesterling98903 ай бұрын
Lux, I've been watching your come back. And it brought so much happiness that you are back. I was occasionally checking back to your channel. Somehow I'm hoping that you would come back since you left it on. But it was just a speculation. And lo' and behold, you came back and I was so happy to see you. I hear about what you shared of why you were gone for a time. I'm so thankful to God that you have overcome with the help of your family and friends supporting you. And thank you that while you are on your journey of recovering that you welcome your KZbin viewers to share this with you in a way and you even encourage your audience of their individual journeys in life. You have a beautiful heart, that is the most I admire about you. You will be in my prayers. You've touched my heart. Love you, take care and I look forward to watching your videos. Stay beautiful with a golden heart. I made this video and I would like to dedicate this to you: kzbin.info/www/bejne/g6KkeGqln9enjdEsi=ou5RmNM-ktMfmS6O
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
This made melt my heart and one of the reasons I came back as you and a lot of people followed my personal journey. Made a safe space for you all. You all have the purest hearts, may you be rewarded with love, happiness, joy, success. 🤍🤍🤍
@johnconstable85123 ай бұрын
great video. ty
@rayanaasmar36593 ай бұрын
I love you bitch habibti stay strong
@Flourfiending3 ай бұрын
are you a transgender male
@H.A.-zr2wc3 ай бұрын
Main Character❤
@H.A.-zr2wc3 ай бұрын
Supertrots op je habibti. Inshallah vind je alle kracht❤
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
Insha’Allah ya ochti! Moge je beloond worden met gezondheid, geluk! Ameen 🤍
@BrigitteBaak3 ай бұрын
Beautiful soul❤
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
🤍🤍
@Mr.moestuin3 ай бұрын
Proud! You’ll get there! ❤ UPS and Downs Will be always there.
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
Always! But we rise no matter what
@Mr.moestuin3 ай бұрын
@@Luxsurtel FR! Every low will give us a even bigger high💕🔥
@witchdiaan3 ай бұрын
🫶😘
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
@Worlds-Collide3 ай бұрын
Look like princess
@witchdiaan3 ай бұрын
😍😍😍😍
@jenniferplatts1743 ай бұрын
Existing depression, body dyspmorphia and surgery that is basically amputating body parts, is a hell of a load. Common post surgery anyway.But maybe you had unreal expectations that a dark cloud would be lifted as soon as surgery completed. Now some revision needed. Reality sucks as times, but hopefully things will improve. Just remember that you can male anatomy which has been altered....our brains arent always happy with change. Ask any amputee what losing a limb did to their head. Fingers crossed things work out for you eventually.
@Sultanb3693 ай бұрын
🤍🤍
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
🫶🏻🥺
@sophiab.2823 ай бұрын
I think a good thing to remember is that postoperative depression is a real thing. I mean when one has a surgery, we are given anesthesia which is a combination of many very strong drugs and those mood swings and depression are a result of coming off them.
@LVThN_von_Ach3 ай бұрын
Je komt ook hier door heen, je bent sterker dan je denkt. PS Je make up ziet er echt heel mooi uit.
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
Heel veel liefde 🤍
@ts4them3 ай бұрын
Also i LOVE YOUR MAKEUP HERE!!! EXCELLENT!!
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
The sweetest 🫶🏻
@ts4them3 ай бұрын
Continue healing, baby girl! I'm still healing and struggling too.
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
We do this together 🫶🏻
@alexiacandy99993 ай бұрын
Thats a man😂😂😂
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
That’s not what your dad said!
@Worlds-Collide3 ай бұрын
Thats a girl.
@jobteunis14183 ай бұрын
I am so FUCKING proud of you. So strong to share this. I am there for you, ALWAYS and forever. WE will get through this. I’m here, i’m here, i’m here. And i love you beyond!!!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
Love you so much my best friend! We get through this! 🫶🏻
@elihej9623 ай бұрын
✨️✨️✨️
@clel451363 ай бұрын
ok this is absurd, i just saw one of your old videos from like 2 years ago for the first time ever like one hour before you posted this last one😭
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
Thankyou for being back! 🤍🥺
@clel451363 ай бұрын
@@Luxsurtel thank YOU for being back <3333
@witchdiaan3 ай бұрын
😘
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
To the moon and back ❤
@MariahFabFab-uh4yd3 ай бұрын
Hey Lux just dropping in to say Hi !💜 Miss Ya Girl !!! Hope you upload here for updates !!! I only have KZbin. Much L🤍VE, from San Antonio, TX USA
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
Just posted a new video 🤍
@danielbrigham32333 ай бұрын
phases patterns movement moments, lost now? Ok not that easy i have been black ops trainimg? lost memory?
@JoSpring4 ай бұрын
You look like a dude in a dress. Nice.
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
Fix your attitude my love, is as bad as your heart!
@GrahamBorland-cz8cx3 ай бұрын
@@LuxsurtelThat sounds suspiciously unladylike!
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
@@GrahamBorland-cz8cx oh because woman will let people walk over them and have people be rude to them. Sorry sweetheart not how i have been raised
@erikabeker90574 ай бұрын
Thank so much I had my surgery a week ago nd I had none to support me this makes me so depressed
@Luxsurtel3 ай бұрын
I am always here for you sister 🫶🏻🥺
@LadyDiana19564 ай бұрын
I feel bad that you had a time missing something after your surgery. I had surgery 50 years ago but I woke up feeling every nerve in my private parts so nothing to miss, it was all still there but looking pretty 😂.
@kelly-kx2io4 ай бұрын
Hi Lux. I like your attitude in regards to acceptance. Many of today's trans dont think that way & will struggle to find happiness ! I am a 59 year old Post-op Transsexual, soon to be 60. I began my transition in the late 1970's after aversion therapy failed to change or deter me in 1977 when I was 13 at county asylums stanley-royd wakefield . They could not force me to change who I was or deter me and that taught me that it would be just as wrong to try to force people to understand or accept me too. With that in mind, my intentions and actions back then were to change myself so I could be happy within my own skin, not to force the world around me to change or pay the price. I completed my SRS over 4 decades ago. It alleviated my gender dysphoria & I am happier within my own body. It was a personal mind & body mismatch issue for me that I needed to fix ASAP. I did it for me, not the approval of others or try to force them to accept and understand something they can not. It's a bonus if folk accept me but it's not a requirement. Having the right mindset plus realistic goals & expectations are also important if the aim of your journey is to find happiness. Fighting with the rest of the world for the rest of your life will only eat away at what happiness you have achieved and make you sad bitter person. It really doesn't have to be that way.