Nervous System Regulation
9:24
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Trauma and what it does
9:37
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What is Hotness Coaching?!
6:22
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Welcome to Radically Ferocious
3:42
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On Avoidance.....
9:29
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The Pattern of Assholes....
17:53
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Why we are all in some ways addicted
11:44
Why I was Codependent
4:42
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My Abortion and Suicide Attempt
19:24
November Update
1:08
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My first year as legal caretaker
20:51
How my dad betrayed me
11:23
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Пікірлер
@marietonimiyata2388
@marietonimiyata2388 5 күн бұрын
You're right girl. Police here in the Philippines mostly are useless. When it comes to that issue, I don't think police here are willing to assist you for that. And your story is so familiar.
@breeg5456
@breeg5456 28 күн бұрын
Being the addict. I am so sorry. To my partner I’m ending it today. Because I love him and I don’t wanna hurt him and I didn’t realize how fuckjng selfish I am and I really can’t forgive myself. So I need to do what’s best and let him go. I am so sorry for all the pain I caused you d. I’m sorry for lying to u. Giving u false promises over and over and over again. And relapsing over and over again. You didn’t deserve any of this. U didn’t deserve the pain I’m putting you through… there’s nothing I can say that will amount to how much I wish I could go back in time and just kept walking. So I coulda saved you. I see how much I’ve changed you. And it’s heartbreaking. 💔
@seriously5585
@seriously5585 2 ай бұрын
Being with an addict -- the worst decision of my life. They don't change.. 👇🏾👇🏾👇🏾 THEY CHANGE YOU 😢
@aarttv20
@aarttv20 2 ай бұрын
I had to let her go to better my mental she was heavy on cocaine and never told me in the beginning that she was a addict. She is dying slowly and there is no help for her. She relapsed in a recovery home and got kicked out. She has a lot of health issues on top of doing cocaine. She destroyed my mental and I lost my identity behind her behaviors i couldn’t do it anymore. I’m currently healing and fixing my mental state. She will eventually die and the sad part is she doesn’t care 😔
@kaiserchief9319
@kaiserchief9319 2 ай бұрын
I have just broken away from one, thankfully for me, we were only four months in before he revealed his drug use - by trying to get me to try - so we could do them together I guess. His drug of choice is opium, he's convinced that is is not addictive but had spent the whole summer on it and his best friend has been on it for four years and has used it everyday but is also convinced that he is not addicted. I think what keeps us with such people is the idea of who they were, if someone meets you on the first day and outwardly tells you: I am an addict, I am addicted to this, you would be able to make an informed decision. The issue is they present themselves so differently so you fall for this version of them and then they present a new version of themselves But YOU have already fallen for the other version - kinda like narcissists and how they trap you. It is very difficult to kill an idea and you stay holding on to this idea - and depending on the time lapse before they present this addict version - you can either walk away or you are too locked in. I became aware of his drug use before seeing him take them but I wasn't entirely sure, I just thought - he's a hippy - they tend to be eccentric but I had known an addict in the past and his behaviour kind of matched hers. Then when he started telling me about some underage girl he had hooked up with and proceeded to describe those intimate details to me in the hopes of - his words: to turn me on, I knew he was a junkie. That right there is a junkie's logic. Two months had lapsed before our first and final meeting and in that time, his physical appearance had changed, gone was this cute fresh-looking young guy with a hippy vibe and now he looked at least late 30s early forties - mind you he's only 26, he smelt like people who don't wash properly and certainly don't was their clothes smelled. He was rude, avoidant, dismissive and oh so arrogant and he topped that off by getting angry with me for acting like he grossed me out - he did - I was grossed out - and blaming me for him hooking up with a kid. That right there is a junkie's logic. Shift blame. He blamed me for everything. If he woke up sick - it was because of me, if he was tired on his to see me, it was because of me. Even as he was being an obvious schmuck, I still liked him and continued to hang with him for two weeks because I was remembering the older version of him - sticking by an addict is the best case of cognitive dissonance. I get it why people stick it out. You are in love with an idea - that is it. I am somehow smart enough to have known that once they say their drug of choice is not addictive - they're already in deep doodoo and even smarter to have understood that nothing I could have offered him would have ever beat opium - not my intellect - not my beauty - not my lady parts - no my spirit - not my love - not my understanding -Opioids are the ultimate mistress and with that in mind, I tipped my hat to the opioid and told her - girl you win. My heart goes out to all of you who found out late and are in the thick of it. Damn damn damn. But remember, we often meet people for very valuable life lessons, to clear some samkaras and the deeper the love- the bigger the samkara to clean. We are not meant to be with people. Learn your lesson. Life happens for us not to us.
@Sama_jo
@Sama_jo 2 ай бұрын
My boyfriend of seven years just left me to go do cocaine He has been on it for over a month We also have 2 children together.3 and 5 years old, I'm left all alone.They both have autism.And need extra help and care.I'm in such a hard way and so depressed.I don't know what to do I just feel like dying
@barthes17
@barthes17 2 ай бұрын
My mom tried starving me to get me compliant. I left. Sadly my kids got kidnapped, but i know they good.
@mrenae6798
@mrenae6798 2 ай бұрын
Put my boyfriend out for stealing money from me a few days ago. He denies it and we’ve been talking on the phone, but he will never convince me to take him back before he gets sober. (Experienced all the crazy behavior you mentioned as well.) I’ll pray and hope the best for him but he refused to get help and I refuse to let him drag me down with him.
@yanirisrodriguez1170
@yanirisrodriguez1170 3 ай бұрын
You look like still in pain 😢. I being dating a drug addicted to Christal for almost 2 years, is been so painful seeing him destroying his life and all the life’s around him, I do eve thing I can to help him understand he need to recover and get his life back,I’ve showed him how beatiful the life can be, I create memories with him hoping that he remembers it and don’t go out to use drugs but is not helping, many times I’ve tried to walk away but then I feel he deserve to be love and maybe that will help, is not ease for me but es not ease for him too to get out of it cause he is being doing it for years, but I’m preparing my self to finally walk away 😢without feeling guilty cause I’ve done ever I could for him
@Channy11-z2b
@Channy11-z2b 4 ай бұрын
I’m crying as I watch this, knowing my beautiful daughter is dating a drug addict. I don’t know how to talk to her because she just gets angry if I try. I’m so lost and I’m so worried about her safety as this man rages! I don’t know what to do 😢😢 I’m so happy you got out. Blessings ❤
@1ove.g208
@1ove.g208 4 ай бұрын
Look out for a lack of appetite, people usually like eating food.
@melindaraphael2277
@melindaraphael2277 4 ай бұрын
Bro you're so wrong it's not funny. Anyone who watches this trying to learn how to spot an addict is gonna get the wrong info. You wouldn't have foil in the room if u had a pipe. The types of meth can be used in all forms it's not secluded to crystals to smoking etc I'm not having a go, I'm just saying I've done my research also and there's many things you're wrong about. Peace
@chrissineely3863
@chrissineely3863 4 ай бұрын
You did a really good job on this love.
@robertogarcia3488
@robertogarcia3488 4 ай бұрын
This is one of the hardest cases to deal with a person that cannot see that a bad person can never do good. They keep going back for more. It’s like the gambler he wants to be the house. He’s never gonna happen and even if they win, don’t go back and give it all back, lose everything they ever had same thing with this chick. She’s really ill. She’s addicted to the adrenaline or the endorphins. She probably failed a lot of emptiness when she was in school and she hooked up with this guy and filled it up with bunch of endorphins and now she’s hooked with this chick , she’s really ill person. This is not everybody that goes into this come back out many of them and I’ve been drug addict just like that or whatever drug addiction person has end up doing themselves Sick sick sick 666
@robertogarcia3488
@robertogarcia3488 4 ай бұрын
You’re very sick person. I hope you get help. There’s no cure for it so you always have to maintain some type of a program. Otherwise you’ll find somebody else to take advantage of you in business in career in health in life in all kinds of relationships are manipulative or actually they’re very dumb. What happens is that the person they are in a relationship with them. They have to paint them as this master manipulators. They’re not master manipulators that’s just a drug addict and you try to find a cat with five legs. And you will find one if you look long enough when people are sick, Ron run for your life and don’t look back. There is no rational conversation a person with addiction. It’s sick and is falling if you engage with them, you will forward them and your kids and everybody that comes around them. They’re like a black hole, they’ll suck everything in and take it with them until all the light has Been taking away
@joefantasia4111
@joefantasia4111 4 ай бұрын
Young Lady are you telling me how to spot a meth user or teaching me how to be one
@Kyliebd-e6p
@Kyliebd-e6p 4 ай бұрын
@scoobygirl576
@scoobygirl576 5 ай бұрын
I lost my husband three years ago, he’s alive, and sober… Now. I left him for the second time… I made access to our child supervised. I was trying to force him into sobriety… So our boy could have a daddy. It worked, but I know no longer have a husband. He will never forgive me for what in his eyes was betrayal. He’s now been with his girlfriend 2 1/2 years and I cry every day…. I haven’t even been on a date yet. I miss him so much. I love you Brent I always will.
@mariamckeever6827
@mariamckeever6827 5 ай бұрын
I am glad i got out of the relationship, he stole from me and felt like his behaviour was really bad. Relationship it takes two of the relationship to work, if drugs are involved theres nothing but negativity. No cure for addiction
@misterywom3
@misterywom3 5 ай бұрын
Most of you think you know but you have no clue
@robertogarcia3488
@robertogarcia3488 5 ай бұрын
Call it what it is, meth-Addict
@4thMonthB
@4thMonthB 6 ай бұрын
I’m mourning an addict. I’m mourning the loss of a relationship and its potential, his potential, and the future we could have had together. Even though he’s still alive, the emotional connection died with him. My heart can’t reconcile between his physical presence and the emotionally distant man. I thought the breakup was all my fault, but the addiction played a bigger role. He couldn’t see how the substance abuse creeped into our relationship and destroyed US from the inside out. I feel robbed. It destroyed his mind, body, and soul, but most of all the man I love.
@cleshsesh6155
@cleshsesh6155 5 ай бұрын
@@4thMonthB I’m dealing with the same with my gf, it’s slowly killing us, her family and the friends she has left. It’s horrible watching the person you love destroy themself. I don’t know what to do
@4thMonthB
@4thMonthB 5 ай бұрын
@@cleshsesh6155 I’m sorry you’re going through this. It’s hard to watch. All I can offer you is hope or prayers that she gets better. 🙏🏼
@scoobygirl576
@scoobygirl576 4 ай бұрын
@@4thMonthB my goodness I feel like I could’ve written this myself. This was worded perfectly, and describes my situation. Are you two still physically together? Still trying? No worry and no judgment, if not, often feels like you’re beating a dead horse.
@4thMonthB
@4thMonthB 4 ай бұрын
@@scoobygirl576 Right now, no, but he does want to come back. He said he wants to change and I’ve seen some action to try and kick his habit, but I have to see consistency and him sticking to his word.
@YouGotScopedBtch
@YouGotScopedBtch 4 ай бұрын
My ex-girlfriend was addicted to weed. She promised me when we met if we got together she'd quit smoking for me because she was surrounded by the wrong people in her life and her family was back home so she had no one here. I gave her that chance and she kept that promise for 2-3 weeks later we started having arguments due to smoking and the type of friends she was around. I told her I'd like you to slowly distance yourself from them but she got all defensive about it and she slapped me across the face proper hard and said no there my friend's because I told her I don't want you no where near them unless I'm there. I bought her into my place and my family treated her like her own daughter, she lived free rent and my mum gave her extra money for food and her last place she was paying 800 rent but no matter how much we did for her... just because we didn't want or allow her to smoke she got rebellious towards me and kept causing arguments with me over weed and her friends didn't like me and were trying break us up. No matter how much I tried she'd find any type of way to make me feel insecure so that we'd argue about it so she can find an excuse to go smoke once I told her to leave and give me space. We went through three breakups because she disrespected me twice as she walked out the house due to her addiction. She fuckdd up my holiday with my family because her friends were sending snaps of her ex to her with another girl and I'm like why causing crazy arguements between us.. If that's a friend wtf would they send that?... so once I came back I knew something was up she was hiding her phone from me a lot. Because she knew I wouldn't allow her to go anywhere near weed. So we broke up for 4 days and I told her to leave my house because I knew she was being suspicious with her phone and after that she left she asked a guy that is madly in love with her to come pick her up at my house that she used to smoke with before we got official and I told her to block him and she unblocked him and went to smoke weed with him and she kept it a secret from me and I gave her that chance to come back.. without me not knowing about it and she my saw her go with him and she told me afterwards as I kicked her out again because she wouldn't keep her phone anywhere near me. That's the some of it the shit but all this happened in a 4month relationship. No matter how much you do for someone if their addicted to drugs they can never let it go. Their in another relationship with that. That's a priority for them.
@stewartharris7147
@stewartharris7147 6 ай бұрын
Thankyou, I needed to hear this.
@shamrin_alora6767
@shamrin_alora6767 6 ай бұрын
my mother also tried to kill me... she always told me that I will kill you I will kill you repeatedly and today my mother came to my room and open up my dress cupboard or the dressing shelves and it wasn't clean i was going to do a declutter so I just put everything down and my shelves aren't clean she just came and slam the door to shut and also hit me in the face scolded me a 15 minutes and she squeeze my neck by hitting me to the wall I can't breath for some seconds and she loosen up her hands u didn't die alhamdulillaah but still I got some breathing issues through out the day yes I'm with her now too I don't wanna be with her but I'm a student and u can't do anything about it no one in my family know about this thing and I don't think they all will belive me because my mom is too good infront of my relatives .. that's it I really wanna kill myself but I also wanna live 😭🤌🏻
@felcareagiu
@felcareagiu 6 ай бұрын
just broke up with my gf because of this, she is addict to cocaine since college, I knew already that she used to do but didnt know how much, I did sometimes before her but not even close of her quantities, I told her many times that we need to find a balance between our relationship and the drugs, I felt like ever free time we have she wanna use to that instead of spending some alone time with me, I felt that I would never be her choice for a fun time, on our last day I told her that we need to do something just the two of us, she told me she understood but she took me to the same place with her friends and started to prepare the drug on the car, I didnt say nothing at the time but I was clearly piss, and because of that after lefting everyone home she told me I was misstreating her and that I have a bad face on her side, and then told me that sometimes she doesnt even want to invite me to go out because she knows I wont like it, thats was it for me, I was begging for some alone time and got this instead, well it is hurting like a mf but I think I am doing the right thing, sorry for my bad english and for comment this 5 years later, you were very helpfull
@theoneandonlyhailie
@theoneandonlyhailie 7 ай бұрын
😔..allmolst the same with me
@Lucian_Balthazar
@Lucian_Balthazar 7 ай бұрын
*All in all, i liked the vid and that it was super informative but then i also noticed that you paused a lot, thinking what to say next, especially towards the end there.. So one advice that I'll give you here whenever doing such videos, especially when recording yourself, talking infront of a camera, giving such long detailed interviews on stuffs, is to always prepare in advance, a list of things that you'd be saying during the talk.. Like you may just write it down on paper, just note down all the main points there, and whenever you'd blacking out, just have a quick peek at those main points that you highlighted there and you'd then instantly know what to say next or know the things that you missed, which like this the moments of you taking these small embarrassing breaks to think and all, would be pretty much non existant hehe.. And i know that you had well prepared yourself up ahead, of all the things that you had to say for this particular vid here, you had all the things memorized and maybe you practiced couple times before but then when it came to doing the actual vid, when time came for you to record yourself and getting into it, you just happen to black out from time to time smh, which is very understandable as not all of us are blessed with some super brain skills and very good memory, so there's just no shame into writing down all of your main points, if not literally everything in details on paper and then checking them out from time to time, just so that you'd then be able to do a very good video of you talking infront of the camera on such topics..* 🙂🤗
@Lucian_Balthazar
@Lucian_Balthazar 7 ай бұрын
*And one thing you'd notice right away is when that person being really functioning on bed lmao.. Especially for men, whenever they'd hit their drugs of choice, mostly heroine, they'd right away tend to get super active on bed with their partner..* 😂🤗
@GrimShuriken
@GrimShuriken 7 ай бұрын
My god i don’t mean to spread negativity or any personal attack but it’s clear after this woman is a bit unqualified to talk abt meth or drugs in general 💀
@AAMM18245
@AAMM18245 7 ай бұрын
My mother is not that crazy but I’m sorry for what happened to u but I just want to get over in the heads of whoever is watching me on my phone people are demonic and I’m happy I have my mom 😂😂😂😂
@bergy4958
@bergy4958 8 ай бұрын
It never ceases to amaze the amount of sacrifices, concessions, patience and willingness to do anything to please a degenerate that women will put in. The drama is her drug. Help neither they deserve each other.
@zacharyalthouse3490
@zacharyalthouse3490 8 ай бұрын
I smoked meth and took my VCR apart
@NathanStephens-ee9be
@NathanStephens-ee9be 9 ай бұрын
My ex of 14 years cheated on me and left me for a known meth addict and now has her on that poison. I've never heard a word from her. 😢
@Rebecca-GLaines
@Rebecca-GLaines 9 ай бұрын
14:24 "I think it's a dangerous path to see an addiction as a disease" Cold hard facts. I agree 100%. Disease is not a choice, its something that happens to you. Addiction is something that happened you do to yourself. People talk about "narcissists" all the time, but to call addiction a disease is an act of narcissism. You are such a beautiful sould btw, Im not done w your story yet, but Im here because I find myself in a similar situation, I had no idea he was using that crap... until I seen the bad effects of it... a person cant stay up that many hours and be sane. A person on substance up for that many hours is a disaster waiting to happen.
@DjPlay87
@DjPlay87 9 ай бұрын
My problem is I can't prove or can tell If she is. I know she used to. And she fell a few months ago. But she got clean. Now, I don't know if she is besides her behavior of distance and lying. It could be something else but I don't know because I don't know anything about meth. She moved out recently. And said it's because we argued too much but I don't know.
@Thornsofanangel
@Thornsofanangel 9 ай бұрын
I quit for love.... Why can’t they...
@oceanzennfamxo833
@oceanzennfamxo833 9 ай бұрын
I fel pregnant to one hes inconstant , and he's a lier, he's been homeless ,no job sleeping around coutch to coutch. It's a choice of what he's done he's made that decision. And I recent him I don't want or need him . I have never been so alone and will always remember, what he's done He's trying to make it back to me .but I deserve better and now I'm cold.
@lokomotive28
@lokomotive28 9 ай бұрын
i just want to be with her but the money to buy it has gotten between us
@ognjen8970
@ognjen8970 9 ай бұрын
Dont. I mean, what do anyone care what a person is consuming if they are what you need. From them atleast. Using/enjoying something isnt issue, until (and if) it becomes an issue. Many people here in comments state that they had use it for long period of times, without their surroundings noticed. Or some noticed something, but alltogether person was not problematic in any way to dig deeper on it. And thats the way it is, drug is never a problem - people make problems. Same as guns dont kill people. People kill people, they dont neccesserily need guns to do it. Violence can be mental, and as such, much more damaging to the victim then beating for example, and practicaly impossible to proove. So be what you are, and you will find someone who suits you. There are so many aggressive, twisted and wrong people, which have never used meth, for example.
@jennsinclair-girouard100
@jennsinclair-girouard100 10 ай бұрын
I’m in recovery and also congratulations on your recovery but question I see so many recovering meth addicts and their teeth are still great like are they dentures veneers?? My teeth are so bad I’m 43 but also I’m on methodone I know that’s played a role
@victormiller951
@victormiller951 10 ай бұрын
Wow y u. Talking bout doing it and telling how to do it that Not cool
@amac111
@amac111 10 ай бұрын
One of many tools of the devil. So sad
@tbopinheadlow
@tbopinheadlow 10 ай бұрын
Drugs are fun. Women suck.
@motowngirl5891
@motowngirl5891 10 ай бұрын
Get rid of toxic people, they have nothing to offer you, you will waste your life Anyone who wastes their time has no self respect for themselves
@scarletguillot1992
@scarletguillot1992 10 ай бұрын
She really needs to learn about the subject that her big mouth is talking about. Her half-baked "experience " just leads to misinformation
@rishabhwadhwa7203
@rishabhwadhwa7203 10 ай бұрын
I have also faced betrayal from my father.
@burlsink31
@burlsink31 10 ай бұрын
I am a victim myself! 40 thousand dollars mistake!! Trust me don't ever dare date an addit... he is a crack addit
@Helfirehydratrans
@Helfirehydratrans 10 ай бұрын
You do not need a 15 minute video, explaining how to date a drug addict when you should not be dating them in the first place he’s gonna get you hooked on drugs he’s gonna get you arrested. He’s gonna get you in trouble. Stay far far away from drug attic’s if a guy offers you drugs on the first date get the fuck out of there because you’re quick to call the guy creepy because he talked to you but he whips out a crack pipe you’re all for it. Stop dating drug addicted people most of the girls I knew in high school or now drug addicts because they hung out with drug addicts all the time, so I’m not surprised they’re all doing drugs So here’s a tip don’t date a drug addict Because illegal substance abuse is a lot worse than alcohol abuse but you girls are so quick note to date an alcoholic, but you will not turn down a meth addict or a Coke head or a crackhead but if a guy has a well paying job and he’s an alcoholic, you see that as a red flag, but if a guy is literally living out of his car doing crack, you will sleep with him
@ExiledSpiritunderground
@ExiledSpiritunderground 11 ай бұрын
DAMN you're gorgeous,. If only this were a different life,
@JM_Smith1
@JM_Smith1 11 ай бұрын
The crystal form can be snorted..its called a Hottrail..by heating a glass tube on one end with a torch
@GrimShuriken
@GrimShuriken 7 ай бұрын
Or you do it the Tuco way💯 TIGHT TIGHT TIGHT