You❤are inspiring and I do understand. Wishing you the best, forever. Enjoy each moment.

You should post more. It really could help. There are lots of people concerned with what happened to you, You were just a kid growing up and life can be hard, especially if you let gender complicate your life. That is one issue you can resolve.

I just came across this and its so refreshing to see individuals feel empowered to come back to their true self.. Hopefully this will help others.

So sorry bro of what you have gone through it sucks when u feel discomfort I'm trans man to

There's only one requirement to being a man: adult human male, it doesn't matter how we dress, act, look, homsexual, trans identified male or not, we are male that's what groups us together, thats why we are called men. This applies to women as well, adult human females. You guys don't have to be all of the stariotypes either and can be your own person. You dont have to follow what other women do.

There's only one requirement to being a man: adult human male, it doesn't matter how we dress, act, look, homsexual, trans identified male or not, we are male that's what groups us together, thats why we are called men. This applies to women as well, adult human females. You guys don't have to be all of the stariotypes either and can be your own person. You dont have to follow what other women do.

3:05 omg this is such bs, there's no such thing as "stereotypical trans kid". Me and many other transgender men liked playing with dolls and stuffed animals as kids, makeup is my beloved to this day. And I'm not any less of a man than any man out there.

I am so sad to hear you aren’t doing well. I watched your detransition video and from one butch woman to another I wanted to say that that video helped me I’m not feeling so alone in this. It was very powerful to me, and I saw so many similarities between me and you and I feel more confident knowing there are other women like me out there. I am rooting for you and your mental health, I hope you will be able to find some peace with your body and mind in the future.

Thank you for sharing your story!

Are you on anti depressants? I suggest you find one that works for you. I can attest to the fact that life is so much easier when your brain isn't torturing you 24/7, when you can actually think rationally and positively. I never comment on videos, but I think you're a really cool person. You're smart and sensitive. The world needs more people like you. I hope that you can find a way to befriend your brain and your body cause you're really awesome.

Don't let society tell you that you can't feel wonderful and magical. You fucking dance if you want to dance. What the fuck have they ever done in their lives that gives them any right to keep you from being you and being happy and feeling your power and beauty? Nothing. You do you. We all feel spectacular at some point and it doesn't last. Embrace it while it's there. Remember it when it's not. You are real. They are the fake ones. Don't get me wrong, psychosis is a real thing especially after being awake for long periods, but they can't tell you how to feel or live your life. Be loud, be proud. Dance. Eat and become strong and vibrant. Be you.

I believe everyone ahould live life according to their wishes. The only thing im against is parents who allow their children to transition. To many hormones peer pressure etc going on when young. I dont think the use of hormones/surgery should be done prior to becoming an adult

I'm fortunate to have grown up at a time when nobody thought tomboys were boys in girls' bodies. When it was recognized that girls and women could want to do and even be good at many things that in prior times and now, sadly, are considered to be the sole domain of men.

Therapy and God ❤. Praying for you.

Two suggestions whether you are male or female 1. Read Matthew, Mark, Luke and John 2. Pick up a book on logic and work all the way fhrough it. You might be pleasantly surprised to learn one complements the other.

To be honest, you don't look or sound like a girl. You have a gruff voice and a boyish appearance. Do something about it.

Praying for you to feel better. God bless.🙏🙏

I think you are very brave talking about this, I think this will help others. I hope you have found your place in life in the 3 years since this video was made. I’m 53 and still mix up the butch and femme depending on how I feel. I’m married to a lesbian, but until 32 I went down the traditional feminine route, got married to a man, had kids etc etc.I don’t really know what name I would give myself, but do we actually need to be in a certain category ? Why can’t we just be? Life would be sooo much easier. I wish you well for your future, whatever that may be. 🏳️‍🌈🇬🇧

You're great! So good you felt you could speak out about your experience. I wish you all the best in your life... You will help other young people to be who they are.. I wasn't a girly girl at all.. and amn't a girly woman either! But I was fortunate to grow up at a time when and where gender dysphoria was not a thing... I did have tough times as a teen, being a non feminine teen, but not because I was rejected, I wasn't, it was just being different. But I think back then we just accepted more that some of our class mates were not the stereotype.. it wasn't that I felt butch and I wasn't lesbian.. I just wasn't into makeup and fancy clothes and I still amn't or shoes no one should have to try to walk in. I still hate fancy social occasions... well not the occasions themselves.. but how to dress for them because 'good clothes' ate an alien species to me 😂 so it's always what can I wear that's comfortable and still manage to look respectable! I envy male friends as they wriggle under the confines of a shirt and tie.. that's all they have to put up with, have a shower and chuck on any respectable looking suit and tie.. when most women are expected to ..and I guess want to get their hair done, do their nails and makeup, think can they possibly survive the night in high heels, figure out did they wear this or that outfit the last time or not, have they a matching bag etc etc.. I never wanted to be a man though.. and I did always have friends who just saw me as me, as I saw them as them, and we didn't even need to discuss that... Though often I did have to call on my friends to 'dress' me for some respectable occasion.. which we'd do so jokingly together.. Had the transition option been available and a norm when I was a teen.. would I or my friends have thought I should transition as a teen? I dread to think I would done so.. and gone as far as surgery or just made my body infertile with hormones.. even though monthly menstruation was a nuisance until used to produce a baby... And I might not have become a mother or breastfed my child... Teens need to be persuaded, supported, cared about, loved, their moods and learning years put up with... to save themselves from themselves until adulthood when we only then start to really understand who we are as the person we are and figure out the best way forward from there for ourselves..

one of the biggest reasons i hated being female was because of the way i was treated. getting unsolicited nudes from men as a teenager and feeling irritated when i could tell that a male was more interested in the fact that i was a female rather than who i was as a person. wouldn’t even get to know who i was before asking for dirty conversations or to see me with my clothes off. males trying to gaslight me when i called them out made me angrier. i too found it easier for me to have male friends and it was irritating when i was looking for friends while they were looking for someone to help them get off. it all really just made me feel worthless and question my value (on top of my mother treating me like i was worthless because i didn’t do well in school, which i have learned these past years was because of many mental disorders from my trauma). i also hated how clothes would emphasize my chest or physique. it made me feel so exposed. i deeply hated the attention i got for simply being female, which i recently realized was internalized misogyny. i started a healing journey over a few years ago and i haven’t even worked through the thick of my hatred for my own body because i first had to focus on changing my perspective about big things like life and death. i had to learn a lot about what i could control and what i couldn’t before i even remembered that i had once questioned my gender. so many things that i needed to learn about as a child, like how to set boundaries or face challenges, was completely missed because of a delusional mother and domestic violence. i’m a 22 year old virgin and the only relationship i’ve ever been in was long distance. since i steered clear of relationships, my family joked about me being lesbian. that just made me more frustrated. just thought i’d share these things for anyone it could help.

Your suffering touched my heart. You are a really inteligent and selfconscious person. Please keep talking to us. I believe things will change.❤

I’m a hypnotherapist who needs some practice and has watched your videos and felt the pain in them. Let me know if you want to try out the hypnosis route, free of charge. (have experience with eating disorders, self harm and dysphoria.) I need the practice so it would be helping me as well. It would be over webcam or even just an audio call or recording. However you’re comfortable. DONT GIVE UP YET. OR EVER, for that matter. Let’s talk. Life can turn around in the blink of an eye, I swear it to you. ❤

It’s totally fine to detransition - it also has zero bearing on the vast majority of trans people who are content after transitioning and made their decisions wisely and intelligently. :)

DO U ALL NOW SEE WHY ITS ABSOLUTELY DEMONIC AND EVIL TO ALLOW A CHILD YES SHE WAS A CHILD at, a baby , she still soooooo young , but u see why this demonic to allow a child to do esp before 21 bc THEY ARE NOT EVEN DEVELOPED YET AND HAVE NO IDEAD WHO THEY ARE , most are confused bc the wicked agenda and porn being pushed on them , shame on the doctors who allowed this , take ur pain make it pur purpose for u r. To help others not be influenced by the powers that be , WE MUST FIGHT TO GET THIS EVIL AGENDA OUT OF OUR SCHOOLS N GOD BACK IN , what. Happened to be happy with the way god made u , there is only one you remember that guys , this is nothing but straight demonic , we all fight sin everyday some it’s drugs some it’s sex some it’s jealousy , u don’t need to belong to organized religious groups BUT I PROMISE JESUS HEALS AND FREE AND TURNS UR PAIN FOR PURPOSE, knock and he will answer , u don’t have to go to church to believe in the lord !

DO U ALL NOW SEE WHY ITS ABSOLUTELY DEMONIC AND EVIL TO ALLOW A CHILD YES SHE WAS A CHILD at, a baby , she still soooooo young , but u see why this demonic to allow a child to do esp before 21 bc THEY ARE NOT EVEN DEVELOPED YET AND HAVE NO IDEAD WHO THEY ARE , most are confused bc the wicked agenda and porn being pushed on them , shame on the doctors who allowed this , take ur pain make it pur purpose for u r. To help others not be influenced by the powers that be , WE MUST FIGHT TO GET THIS EVIL AGENDA OUT OF OUR SCHOOLS N GOD BACK IN , what. Happened to be happy with the way god made u , there is only one you remember that guys , this is nothing but straight demonic , we all fight sin everyday some it’s drugs some it’s sex some it’s jealousy , u don’t need to belong to organized religious groups BUT I PROMISE JESUS HEALS AND FREE AND TURNS UR PAIN FOR PURPOSE, knock and he will answer , u don’t have to go to church to believe in the lord !

DO U ALL NOW SEE WHY ITS ABSOLUTELY DEMONIC AND EVIL TO ALLOW A CHILD YES SHE WAS A CHILD at, a baby , she still soooooo young , but u see why this demonic to allow a child to do esp before 21 bc THEY ARE NOT EVEN DEVELOPED YET AND HAVE NO IDEAD WHO THEY ARE , most are confused bc the wicked agenda and porn being pushed on them , shame on the doctors who allowed this , take ur pain make it pur purpose for u r. To help others not be influenced by the powers that be , WE MUST FIGHT TO GET THIS EVIL AGENDA OUT OF OUR SCHOOLS N GOD BACK IN , what. Happened to be happy with the way god made u , there is only one you remember that guys , this is nothing but straight demonic , we all fight sin everyday some it’s drugs some it’s sex some it’s jealousy , u don’t need to belong to organized religious groups BUT I PROMISE JESUS HEALS AND FREE AND TURNS UR PAIN FOR PURPOSE, knock and he will answer , u don’t have to go to church to believe in the lord !

Thanks for sharing your story. It's such a deeply personal experience and at the same time, trust into our into our minds politically to the extent we feel the need to be for or against Trans people. Stories like your bring much needed reality and perspective and you are brave for doing it.. i wish it wasnt complicated. I hope you have an amazing life in and with the body you have.

You feel validated. You are so brave - that probably makes you feel funny. But you are - & you're bravery will save lives. Thank you

Food is delicious. Just eat a normal amount 🤷‍♂Don't overthink it. Everything in moderation.

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I may not understand what you are going through but you are the voice of reason. Be strong

Three years ago and still relevant.

I know that I am just a random stranger on the internet, I dont know you and you dont know me. Our two little worlds - that can at times consume us - are not overlapping, but its like ive bumped into you, our worlds are nudged. I am having a tough time as well, issues with all sorts of stuff thats lead me to seeing phsycologists and what not. Ive heard all those empty, 'It gets better' and 'try to stay positive' things before, and how they do not work. Sometimes I remember the sensation of the sun against my skin, or when the light shines through the laundry window just right with the dust in the air to make a sunbeam. Lately, my food doesnt taste right. I try eating stuff i like, that i have always liked, but then it just sorta tastes like mush. I dont really have a point. I just thought I'd throw my words into the void. Hopefully we can both make it through it to see another sunbeam.

Cultivating a positive outlook on life can lead to numerous benefits for individuals. People with a positive outlook tend to experience lower levels of stress, anxiety, and depression, and can more effectively cope with difficult situations, resulting in improved mental health. Additionally, individuals with a positive outlook may be more likely to engage in healthy behaviors, leading to better physical health outcomes. A positive attitude can also help individuals build and maintain positive relationships with others, as they tend to be more approachable, supportive, and empathetic. Overall, cultivating a positive outlook on life can have numerous benefits, including improved mental and physical health, better relationships, and a greater sense of happiness and fulfillment. hope you get through this

Powerful video, thank you for making this and being so open, I came here trying to make sense of my D who is going through pretty much everything that you did - probably the same school too! I'm a strong cis woman, but older, and I know a bunch of fantastic older butch women friends, I didn't know that they had become an invisible part of the glorious mix that makes up womankind in the recent generations, sad that. This reply is 2 yrs on and I hope that you are well and happy x

thank you, “i never saw a butch woman and if i did maybe it would’ve been different.” i relate a lot to you and your struggles. i think its more positively radical to break all those rules about society’s view on how a woman should present herself rather than transition into what society thinks you should be as a more ‘masculine’ woman, which is a man, which is submitting to a belief that non-behavioral things are masculine and performative things are feminine, which again is just bullshit spewed by the patriarchy. it’s only human to resent our female bodies when living in a misogynistic world: and you just end up falling into another box. and yes, it’s easier and yes, it could alleviate so much pain and discomfort but in the greater sense of things is that really progressive in breaking the box?

You are such an incredible person and you've been through a lot. I hope that in 2022 you are well and happy. I just saw your video by accident, but I found your story inspiring. There is a purpose for everything, and I believe yours will be to help people who are going through this kind of problem. Congratulations on the courage to record this video.

I think something ive noticed among f to m to f detransitioners is wanting to be perceived as a man but be a woman Its hard to distinguish gender dysphoria when almost every girl i know already hates her body & wants to be treated to the same level of respect as her male counterparts

You are phenomenal. Thank you for sharing your story - you really are an inspiration. Wishing you all the best.

Look up Kd Lang. She is a role model for butch women. She is an amazing Canadian singer song writer.

Love this video, think it'll be really helpful for gender non-conforming girls to see <3

Ah, I wonder what has happened with you since you made this video. I fully relate to this video and long live the self loving butch woman💛 I hope you are well!

I am glad u now feel better . The thing is even if you had decided to be a white male because it would be easier , the white males would not have seen u as a part of them . So no point being something else . U r beautiful the way u r

Grácias ,eres muy bonita.

thank you for sharing your story

We stan butch women ❤️✨

Thanks. I hope you're doing ok. And I hope you do more videos in the future.

I was so engrossed in this video until we got to "liberalism is harmful" and I was like.... huh? I have never, ever, ever heard that word used in a negative context (edit: Now I think, I have heard of "liberals" and "liberal values" being disparaged, but I guess I wrote it off as only coming from extreme conservatives/orthodox religions/literal communists.) When you said that I actually thought, jeez, does that word mean what I think it means? Do I even know what liberalism is? So I googled the definition and it is: Liberalism: noun, 1. willingness to respect or accept behaviour or opinions different from one's own; openness to new ideas. 2. a political and social philosophy that promotes individual rights, civil liberties, democracy, and free enterprise. I'm very confused. I thought liberals and the left were basically synonymous, honestly. And when you use the word radical, what comes to mind for me is the yin-yang symbol, the ideas behind Taoism and that song "The Circle of Life" at the start of the Lion King. Politics aside, thanks for sharing your story, I feel grateful to be able to hear it and admire your courage and honesty. All the best. edit edit: "I can be whoever the fuck I am, and still be a woman." I love that.

You might discover in life is that radical people exist both on the right and on the left. I'm a conservative person, and it took me some time to admit to myself that in fact crazy radical people exist on both sides, and that's why one should never go to a particular extreme, the golden mean is the way to go. and that's true to life generally and not just politics. Also, be free to accept idea from both sides, common sense is not reserved to one side. Personally on some issues i agree more with the left, but on core issues i agree with the right which is why I'm proud to call myself a conservative. edit: there's nothing wrong with being female. we should be proud of it, we're amazing. and there's nothing wrong with being a masculine female or a feminine female or anything in between- that's what makes you- you, and if you are not you, then who are you?!. And there nothing wrong with being a lesbian. We should support one another, the world isn't easy for girls and women.