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Those are some great-looking cinnamon rolls! I got a weird Randy Marsh phase during the beginning of the pandemic lockdown where I got all into cooking, binging MasterChef episodes and reading Escoffier and Julia Child and trying to make the fanciest and most highfalutin French dishes... to the great annoyance of my wife although I at least cleaned up and washed the dishes! But I think she realized this is just some weird phase I was going through long before I did as I talked her ear off about Marco Pierre White's biography and how the optimal salt/sauce ratio is between 0.5% to 1%. I realized though in that phase that I can't seem to bake at all since I'm very bad at following directions precisely. 😅 On the difficulties with your family, I cannot claim to know a single thing about what the experience is like from your shoes. Yet I recommend trying as best you can to reframe the mindset that your relationship with your family is "traumatic" to at least something like "challenging". I recommend that even if you move out and never interact with them again because the more you can see adversity as "challenging" rather than "traumatic", the more it will empower you to challenge the way you think in the face of the greatest adversities and not let others have the ultimate power to govern the way you feel. Even if you never deal with your mother again once you move out, for example, you might start to find at least trace semblances to your mother in other people like future colleagues that you have to work with every day. Especially coming from a traumatic family experience, that can cause you serious stress and become so counter-productive to your goals if anyone that even slightly resembles the family members that caused you so much psychological distress brings back this downward spiral of negative emotions. So I think you have to find a way to make peace with it as much as you can, and I think a start is to reframe your thoughts towards the notion of such relationships being "challenging" rather than "traumatizing". "Challenging" inspires strength. "Traumatizing" inspires defeat. The words we use both inwardly in our minds and outwardly in our voices can have very radical effects on how we feel, so even reframing a word like "traumatizing" to "challenging" can completely change the way you interpret events. I could be totally wrong and please forgive me if my two cents are so off the mark. I have no intent but to see you become less upset in the future!

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I believe a lot of this is coming from men losing faith and interest in marriage. So much of the classical nobility and virtues of a man came from the desire to build, protect, and provide for his family. It's where I derive all my noblest inspirations as a married man. When a man loses that, I think all too often he can replace his desire to protect women with a desire to exploit them for his selfish gain. His desire to pursue material and status as a desire to better take care of his family becomes replaced largely with the sole desire to better serve himself and his own vanity. The classic gentleman becomes replaced by the modern player. That seems to be the problem of the "alpha male" types these days. They have many qualities admirable of a carefree bachelor type and men overall: they're often handsome, healthy, rich, competent in their jobs, charming, and sociable. Yet they're often devoid of the deeper virtues that turn a carefree bachelor into a responsible, family-oriented man as a benevolent leader, loyal husband, and devoted father.

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Hello! I had some time to start from the beginning of this series. I'm really sorry for everything that you've gone through. This was very hard to watch and hear. I understand just how difficult it must have been to process. I can definitely relate to the family thing. Sometimes they don't 'mean' it, but it doesn't hurt any less. You are a strong person. I'm going to follow your journey with you.

Hello! Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us! - Also from Vancouver/Coq

Have you read anything by Brene Brown..?? Check out her Ted Talks here on KZbin and look up the books she has authored. It's about the dichotomy of needing to be vulnerable to create honest meaningful relationships, but at the same time, people don't like to show vulnerability. There's the whole philosophy of stoicism being the way to deal with life and it does have its place, but you need to be vulnerable to create relationships. And yes, staying optimistic is also important, as opposed to being pessimistic all the time. One of the many things I have learned on my journey. And not the toxically optimistic either, where some people literally ignore everything negative. You can't solve problems like that either.

In regards to finances/jobs, try to find something that has meaning and a sense of purpose to you. Something you have interest in and can at least somewhat enjoy. If you are needing to move out and having to work a job that you may dread, it's not going to work.

Where do you find a counsellor that doesn't cost $$$..!?!? How are you affording that..? From when you were in school..??

You have to reframe how you think of yourself dealing with things in life. You cannot think of it as a "fight".. Because you're going to have to think of it as a fight for the rest of your life. You have to reframe that. You can't change how other people are, but you can change yourself and how you think, how you react to others and situations that you have no control over. There's a quote that says "Expectation is the root of all disappointment, frustration and heartache." (paraphrasing) Once again, I'm speaking from experience. When days are tough, take it day-by-day. Write everything down. Your short/medium/long term goals. Your mundane tasks and errands. Write down what you think you need to do to accomplish your goals. And once again, take it day-by-day. If you can't go to the gym, to bodyweight exercises at home. Go for walks. Find something that you actually enjoy. For me, it's cycling, but that bad thing is that I don't ride in the winter. Do you have a bike..? Of course, exercise releases endorphins which help with your mood. Another thing that is critical is your dietary habits. Do you consume caffeine..? If so, try cutting it ALL out because I learned through functional/holistic/naturopathic medicine that caffeine is a major contributor to anxiety. If it is a contributor in your experience, you will feel the difference after 24-48 hours after you quit. The difference is drastic, and it was amazing how if affected me. Another thing is the carbs you consume. Do you consume a lot of processed foods..? Simple carbs..? Try cutting down on that because the majority of the serotonin is produced in your gut which of course affects your mood. It also kills the good bacteria in your gut and creates "leaky gut". Listen to more of your favorite music, watch motivational videos, and look for positive affirmations on KZbin and IG. I save the ones that I resonate with. I have thousands of screenshots which I go back to from time to time as a reminder to myself. Like you, I don't have anyone to relate to, to turn to and talk, not even family. Watch documentaries which interest you. Learn about hobbies which interest you. Practice gratitude. For what you have and where you are because things can ALWAYS be worse. There are billions of people who are living in poverty with no clean water, adequate food, medicine or medical care, nice clothes or shoes, luxuries, and nice home, a sense of privacy, human rights, labor rights, the right to free speech, the right to self defense.. The list can go on and on. Don't dwell on the past and worry about the future too much. There's a quote that says "If you are depressed, you are living in the past, of you are anxious, you are worrying about the future, if you are content, you are living in the present." (paraphrasing) When you spend a lot of time dwelling, you are spending the time you have in the present to change your circumstances of change what you actually have control over. And believe me, it took me a LONG time to learn all of this. I feel like I'm too old and too late to have a "normal", functional future. But I'm not giving up either. I spent a lot of time pushing problems away because that's what you do when you are a child and don't know how to deal with things. Same during my teenage years along with self medicating. It isn't until you are an adult that you realize that it catches up to you and creates anxiety and depression. Take this as a learning experience. Every type of adversity you go through is a learning experience. You cannot have an accurate perception of what "happiness" is or what you value if you don't go through adversity. A lot of people just take things for granted. It's the same for the value of a dollar. A lot of people may know the price of something but not the value of it. Or the fact that dollars are a depreciating piece of paper because it's not backed by tangible value. But that's a whole other story. And there's a whole lot more..

Hey there, I'm sorry to hear about your ongoing experience(s) with anxiety, depression, ADHD and attempted suicide. I am glad that you are now choosing to talk about it openly because I can tell you from experience that it IS the beginning to releasing what is inside you, forgiving those whom you don't want any more contact with (for your own wellbeing), healing emotionally/psychologically/physically, and moving on to better days. In regards to your relationship with your mother, while I don't know her or the depth of the relationship dynamics between the both of you, I can understand that too. What can immediately make that dynamic better is trying to understand that she may also have endured abuse from her family members in the past. I say that because I don't have a great relationship with my mother as well. But when you try to be as empathetic as possible and realize that there is probably a lot to the story you don't know, that can help to understand that she may be dealing with mental health issues too. Start from there. About your Practical Nursing situation, I would say that you either should tell you mother sooner rather than later or not tell her at all. Not telling her when you plan to in the future adds to your stress, when the situation is already stressful. If you feel that your relationship with her isn't salvageable, and communication is non-existent, does she need to know..? Or does she already know..? Does she know about your depression/anxiety/attempted suicide..? It's strange how I just stumbled upon your videos. Cause I live in BC as well, have dealt with anxiety and depression, was trying to become a paramedic but didn't make it, and of course, don't have a good relationship with my mother. Would you like some techniques I have used to deal with my situation..??

I can’t wait for your future vlogs and the mental health awareness! 💞 I am a huge advocate!! I fully support!