becoming unbecoming
13:50
Ай бұрын
being scared is holding me back
5:30
a few simple days
6:27
2 ай бұрын
i don't have a dream
6:30
2 ай бұрын
trying to get my life together
8:19
a boring day
6:40
3 ай бұрын
watching the sunrise
12:16
4 ай бұрын
learning to not care
10:22
4 ай бұрын
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@andrewarthurmatthews6685
@andrewarthurmatthews6685 14 күн бұрын
What on earth is this about?
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail 12 күн бұрын
@@andrewarthurmatthews6685 moving
@damonjones1291
@damonjones1291 26 күн бұрын
Your friends are the lucky ones(having You as a friend) Abigail.. Congrats on the new place!!!😊👏🏾 It looks Awesome!😍 Vinyl record💿 there on the Wall too!!👏🏾 Good seeing you Abigail!🙃 💌
@kararohrig1915
@kararohrig1915 Ай бұрын
nanny would be proud of you.
@damonjones1291
@damonjones1291 Ай бұрын
I LOVE the look/color!!🥰😍🥰 Great choice!🏆 Always do what makes YOU Happy Abigail!! 10/20 years from now....all these people who's opinion you worry about...you wont even know them in 10years... Your Happiness should always be the focus Amazing Girl!!🧚‍♂️💞
@edwardoswald4010
@edwardoswald4010 Ай бұрын
Always do what makes you happy because your happiness is always important. I really hope everything is going great for you
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail Ай бұрын
Thank you so much! Same to you do everything you can to make yourself happy! Thank you for watching<3
@sashafilimoniuk8936
@sashafilimoniuk8936 Ай бұрын
thank you for your sincerity🤍
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail Ай бұрын
Of course! the best thing you can do is be honest especially with yourself! thank you for watching <3
@honeybearjenn
@honeybearjenn Ай бұрын
hi! thanks for the mention :) your video was really nice to watch
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail Ай бұрын
Omg I can't believe you saw my video 😲 and thank you so much!
@yogseventy-nine3460
@yogseventy-nine3460 Ай бұрын
which one are youin the breakfast club ?
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail Ай бұрын
I just took a test to see and it say Allison the "emo" one take that as you will🙏
@1MarbleStatue
@1MarbleStatue 2 ай бұрын
Not sure how I got here, I feel what you're talking about though like 100%. Subbed, take it easy
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail Ай бұрын
You got here because it's exactly what you needed! We are never alone in how we feel!! Thank you for subscribing hope to see you in the comments again!<3
@newmanasheville
@newmanasheville 2 ай бұрын
Hang in there. Be good to yourself.
@edward123456789
@edward123456789 2 ай бұрын
Certain parts in this made me feel like I was watching a high-end film. Your aptitude for cinematography and capturing angles is remarkable. Don’t give up!
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail 2 ай бұрын
Thank you! I'm glad you liked the video it took me a while to edit it. I didn't know how I wanted to look but I settled with this!
@damonjones1291
@damonjones1291 2 ай бұрын
Obviously, I cant know what you've been through in Life Abigail, but, What I can say is.. Whatever those things are that you Wish, never had happened.. Those things have partly 'shaped' the Girl I see today... & the Girl I see today is Brilliant, Unique, Beautiful, & Precious! 🙏🏽 & so, those things..as messed-up as they may have been... Its waaaaay Early in Life, and already, you're totally Amazing!!(to Me)...in these eyes.. 😊 So just keep Pushing forward the best you can.. Life has a way of Working things out... Really! & in the meantime... You'll still be fre@kin' AMAZING!! & the best part of that is... You're just being ✨️YOU✨️ Peace, & Love to you Abigail!! You're a Rare Gem!💎 Even if you cant 'See' it... Others do.. I DO! 💝
@yogseventy-nine3460
@yogseventy-nine3460 2 ай бұрын
Chill, life takes time.
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail 2 ай бұрын
It does yes but when things go south you don't have that time. I don't have that time I wish I did.
@SerotoninCowboy1
@SerotoninCowboy1 2 ай бұрын
waking up everyday is a blessing
@damonjones1291
@damonjones1291 2 ай бұрын
a quick little, Fun video🙃 Goodluck on the Apartment!🙏🏽 Working 2jobs.. Gotta love the Mindest! 👏🏾 Keep ✨️Shining✨️ Abigail!! ⚘️
2 ай бұрын
You are living life on easy mode. You are a middle class young female that is not obese or unattractive. You are not heading for a life of struggle. You will do just fine. Stop complaining.
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail Ай бұрын
We all have problems and that's okay you don't know my struggles and that's also okay!! Thank you for watching and I'm sorry that you have struggled but it will all pay off in the end! that's what i tell myself otherwise i would be even more lost. we are probably more alike than you think!
@kashifnawaz9305
@kashifnawaz9305 2 ай бұрын
You are cute
@kashifnawaz9305
@kashifnawaz9305 2 ай бұрын
Don't worry, all be good, people want to see happiness on your face, make vlogs❤
@benjaminstobiecki
@benjaminstobiecki 2 ай бұрын
You want to be loved and someone who comforts you? Ask the comforter who's name is Jesus Christ He will set you free from any kind of pain because JC took it all on the rugged cross
@aceyy7130
@aceyy7130 2 ай бұрын
If you're ever in Park City Utah, I'd hang out with ya 👋
@SerotoninCowboy1
@SerotoninCowboy1 2 ай бұрын
Love yourself 1st. Relationships are 2nd. Stay strong!!!!
@user-vc5rp7nf8f
@user-vc5rp7nf8f 2 ай бұрын
i feel the same, though maybe for different reasons. deep down i know i don't belong here. the thought of dying gives me peace, something to look forward to. it's a strange sense of calm. not really tall, rich, handsome, or interesting so i don't get involved with dating. i like the jobs i do but it's never gonna be enough to make a comfortable living, so that's something i have to accept. so much of life revolves around money, consumerism, status, wealth, all these superficial things. after awhile you just get numb to everything and you just feel apathy and anhedonia
@user-vc5rp7nf8f
@user-vc5rp7nf8f 2 ай бұрын
you're pretty
@masksurf
@masksurf 2 ай бұрын
i can fix her
@johnmannersshow2020
@johnmannersshow2020 2 ай бұрын
Yoga helps achieve mastery of the mind, reconnecting with ourselves and reality and shifts our whole perspective, free of this constant need of validation, feeling lonely and incomplete, unsatisfied. There is an everlasting happiness and joy within you, save yourself from yourself ! Dont get lost in the mental movie of your life, shift to a higher state of consciousness and awaken to what you truly are and to your full potential ! My suggestion ❤
@Jack-yt1fu
@Jack-yt1fu 2 ай бұрын
And if you missed a day, there was always the next, and if you missed a year, it didn’t matter, the hills weren’t going anywhere, the thyme and rosemary kept coming back, the sun kept rising, the bushes kept bearing fruit
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail Ай бұрын
Louise Glück good choice one of my favorite poems!
@hylomane
@hylomane 2 ай бұрын
Did they put a thing in your nose to keep you from digging under the fence with your face? No? Then why wear it?
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail Ай бұрын
why not this is my first and only life why not do everything i want in it!
@las9367
@las9367 2 ай бұрын
what is your favourite meal? do you like to cook?
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail Ай бұрын
My favorite meal is chicken alfredo! Yes i love to cook but i don't have time to do it unfortunately and where I live there's is not much ingredients but rather snacks. (sorry for such a late response i had no clue you commented thank you watching tho!)
@las9367
@las9367 2 ай бұрын
i imagined usa people more like us like not so european like
@lewisvogel466
@lewisvogel466 2 ай бұрын
You must be joking. Apparently you have a crew filming you. And the music makes you sound like you're in a movie. I think you're full of it.
@Swy2023
@Swy2023 2 ай бұрын
Stop crying life is too short to feel sorry for yourself you just have to get out there and live your life before it’s too late! This is from somebody who wasted their teenage years and their 20s! You don’t want to be me
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail Ай бұрын
You are right however it is good to cry, sometimes you just need to find a new dream! Soooo take your advice Don't waste the time you do have it's never too late remember that!
@zorgonmaster
@zorgonmaster 2 ай бұрын
join the club :/
@mumarope
@mumarope 2 ай бұрын
you're my "literally me" character
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail 2 ай бұрын
@@mumarope I don't know if that's a good thing for you but glad to hear how similar we are!🎉
@cayman_islands
@cayman_islands 2 ай бұрын
You're so beautiful.
@SundrayKorsmo
@SundrayKorsmo 2 ай бұрын
Wow, look at that house, that bedroom etc. the peace of your neighborhood. I have no idea how you feel that way. I’d kill to be in your shoes
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail Ай бұрын
Not everything is as it seems i am lucky in some ways 100% agree! However, i wish things were not as they are now. One of my favorite quotes is "Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are." by Marilyn Monroe So Please don't wish to be someone else when you can be great on your own!
@jesssandhu9432
@jesssandhu9432 2 ай бұрын
Please keep making videos it’s so refreshing. Especially the morning sitting outside ones!!
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail 2 ай бұрын
I'm glad you like them I'll definitely try to keep them going!
@jesssandhu9432
@jesssandhu9432 2 ай бұрын
I’m 19, turning 20 now but I went through the same thing around 16-18. It was horrible. Depression makes you feel like nothings worth it - the chemicals in your mind will make you think there’s nothing in the future. You WILL have that future. You will get married and have children, and a beautiful home. Just because you haven’t found it yet, doesn’t mean it’s not there. 🤍🎀🧸
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail Ай бұрын
Same for you!! Thank you for your kind words your positivity has such an effect on people definitely use it for good!
@edwardoswald4010
@edwardoswald4010 2 ай бұрын
You are a very beautiful young lady. I'm sure there are a lot of guys that notice you but it just happens when 2 people meet and want to get to really know each other and both want a relationship together. But never fall for someone that tries to control you in anyway like telling you what to do or not to do because they might wine and dine you now after you get to living together and married he will probably say he owns you which means he will try to take control of everything you do and get real abusive
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail Ай бұрын
Thank you for spreading awareness on issues like this! A lot of people tend to miss these kinds of things and think it is love. I hope someone who needs to hear this sees your comment and opens their eyes to what is truly happening in their lives! Thank you for watching!!
@allynflinchbaugh4570
@allynflinchbaugh4570 2 ай бұрын
I've learned to have dreams other than love. I had a bunch of detailed book ideas decades ago, so last year I started writing. Have over 3,000 pages written so far for 13 books. Most intense work on the first 3 I want to get published - 2 of them are 3rd drafts working towards 4th. There is a KZbin channel I watch and one of his tag lines is "The only one stopping you from doing what you want to do is you". June 1 of 2023, I took that to heart, got out my 7 book ideas (4-book sci-fi series, standalone sci-fi novel, contemporary fiction novel, and a non-fiction book) Now the 4-book series has evolved into an 8-book series, I compiled my 157 best poems (out of a thousand) into a collection and added a short story collection. (I would note I have a regular job as a software engineer and garden a lot in my spare time, so my writing is done using time that most people would be wasting on television shows and social media). Find a doable dream and do it. Most people waste huge amounts of time. You can always get more money, but you can't get more time.
@paulhart3812
@paulhart3812 2 ай бұрын
A beautiful girl. I know guys are checking her out all the time. She just doesn’t realize it.
@Everydayisbeautifull
@Everydayisbeautifull 2 ай бұрын
Sending my love queen we’re in this together. Such a beautiful video the editing is amazing
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail 2 ай бұрын
@@Everydayisbeautifull thank you! I was hoping the editing was good enough for KZbin😭🙏
@damonjones1291
@damonjones1291 2 ай бұрын
Abigail... I watched, & listened to this video & it broke my Heart(for You).. : / I just want to give you my Eyes, so you can see ALL that I do(in You).. I know its not easy to grasp at 18, but, 'not having all the answers' right now, is really a normal place to be at 18... None of Us do, at that Age... Regardless of what you see on youtube, or at School/Work; or just, around you.. & as far as, not having ever been in a Relationship.. Dont let that bring you down🙏🏽 I know people around your Age that are a Total wreck, because they ARE in a Relationship, & just havent lived enough, or just not at their Emotional 'Peak'(in Life) to be able to navigate all the Ups&Downs that can come, with Relationships... You are fre@kin' 🥰Beautiful, & your Mind is waaaay more advanced than the 18yr olds that I know... So Trust me... A Relationship wont be something that'll be hard to have, Come into your Life... Well, unless everyone in your Town is Blind, and cant see/recognize such a Special/Unique/Beautiful person... I mean, If I were in your Town...there wouldnt be anyone else that Id be wanting to be close to & Know, than You... Id be like, 😊🤸🏽‍♂️😊🤸🏽‍♂️😊🤸🏽‍♂️ I know it's hard to hear, but, Life happens on its Own Time timetable... Just keep being YOU, & a Relationship, & everything else thats coming to You in Life, WILL come... I dont want to write a Novel, so ill stop now, but im Subscribing... 🙃 You're a 'Powerful' humanbeing Abigail... You have a sort of 'Gravitational-pull"(even via KZbin), so you'll have many of the things you're Wishing for now... Just KEEP ✨️Shining ✨️, & continue to Navigate this crazy World with whats Inside You, & you'll be FINE😊 The day will come where The World(around You) will be doing all it can, just to be around You... & those that you 'Allow' to get close to You, will be some of the Luckiest people on Earth!! I know ill Envy them⚘️ Your new(& forever) Subscriber😊 Gotta keep you 'Raised Up', where you deserve to be.. Until next Time! 💌
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail 2 ай бұрын
@@damonjones1291 one of the kindest comments on earth thank you!
@damonjones1291
@damonjones1291 2 ай бұрын
@abigailsuzannee kind, maybe... True, Definitely.. 😊 ⚘️
@burgerkingas7027
@burgerkingas7027 2 ай бұрын
Go get some good BBQ kid, it'll set you straight. Get you a big plate full of taters and peas and some baby back ribs. 😊
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail Ай бұрын
Its funny that you said that because the next day i got ribs I was going to tell you but forgot lol! thank you for watching
@burgerkingas7027
@burgerkingas7027 Ай бұрын
​@@totallynotyourheroabigailHappy to hear it!! 😌👍 Thanks for the update lol
@lordhavoc8437
@lordhavoc8437 2 ай бұрын
I'm 22, coming 23 in 2 days, I've had a lot of relationships, I've dealt with the situations they brought and went through them, thinking I not wanted someone, NEEDED someone, and in my opinion that there mindset was wrong, feeling I needed someone ended me up with the wrong people, hurtful people, which I probably wouldn't have went with if I had a better mindset, the best wat to have a relationship isn't search for it or need it, but just when an opportunity arises with another person, where both have the same feelings, then it can all work out. Don't ever think, you need someone, when you really just want them, and don't compromise yourself or your values to just be with another person.
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail 2 ай бұрын
This is one of the most important things for everyone to know you don't need someone else to make your life happy. Yes they can help but only you know what's best for you and what makes you happy!
@TheGreatCalsby
@TheGreatCalsby 2 ай бұрын
I'm from the algorithm. I totally get it. I'm in my mid 20s and I've battled these thoughts for ages. Dreams and purpose can be handed down to you or it can be made. I've been single for years and years, and I get my purpose from my relationships with my friends and reflection on all the odds I've defied to get to where I am now. I made a lot of mistakes in love, and I made a lot of wonderful choices by myself, and they only became my dreams after I lived through it. You live in a world that expects people to live a certain way. Find love, be attractive, be rich, be famous. But the reality is that these things don't always happen, and if they do, they don't happen the way Hollywood or books or music describes it. Its messy, rare, volatile, confusing. Everyone is just coping - coping with their past, coping with the unknown of the future. Dreams will come and go. Thats all anyone can do. As a human, you're hardwired to worry, to remember the bad things. It is a deliberate effort to remember when you were happy, and therefore, it is a deliberate effort to seek it. Even those given a purpose by others will seek their own eventually, so take each day as it comes and build yourself as the person you would love to fall in love with, so that one day, you'll look back and realise you did it. Really rooting for you.
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail 2 ай бұрын
Thank you! Your words mean a lot I hope you can use them to inspire more people!
@757History
@757History 2 ай бұрын
same
@Walmata05
@Walmata05 2 ай бұрын
You are lucky that youre 18 im 25 and its to late for me 🙂
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail 2 ай бұрын
It's never to late maybe you just need to find something new
@nonjaninja4904
@nonjaninja4904 2 ай бұрын
Best advice is skip college and start some business of your own, or pursue an interest. College was such a stressful waste of time.
@Hopeme132
@Hopeme132 2 ай бұрын
KZbin algorithm is strange. How did it know id connect with this
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail Ай бұрын
It's a sign we need to find something to look forward to! Whether it was a dream or a cool place to eat we need to look for the future and move on with life! Thank you for watching
@edward123456789
@edward123456789 2 ай бұрын
Your channel is both gripping and fascinating. While I may not fully understand your current situation, I truly believe that our thoughts shape our reality. Maintaining optimism and high spirits can be incredibly powerful. I’m crossing my fingers for you.
@totallynotyourheroabigail
@totallynotyourheroabigail 2 ай бұрын
Thank you! I'm definitely going through it right now but I'm going to try to make it work and show others that it will work out no matter what. It is hard but I'm not going to give up I will find my way wherever it takes me!