thank you for sharing your story! I’ve been doing fbt for 2 months now, and it’s been a rollercoaster. I was very aggressive both verbally and physically to my parents, and it has wrecked the relationship with my parents. I hope you’re doing better now <3
@snacktivistАй бұрын
You opened that yogurt like someone who's been squirted with yogurt juice
@butterflyeffect67913 ай бұрын
bloating and the extreme night sweats hurt the most.
@sowhat.9 ай бұрын
Hi! This is a great video! I fell into a mixture of anorexia nervosa and orthorexia. Today I have 20 and I fell into anorexia last year for 6 months with excessive sport. I came home from class at 8pm and continued with 1h30 of cardio/muscle. I did not eat much next door, I weighed EVERYTHING. I have always had a lot of trouble with my appearance since my teenage years and it is also with remarks from relatives (my mother in particular) that encouraged this behavior. I was overweight during my high school and college years and I suffered a lot from it. In the first year of my bachelor’s degree I did a food rebalancing, I started to do sports regularly. Everything was fine until I said to myself: and if I ate less I would lose faster and I will be more beautiful for sure! No more bulges, no more breasts, no more buttocks... I went from being a greedy girl to being afraid to eat, afraid of food. I only ate low-calorie foods and in very small quantities. I also did four times more sports. I was starting to lose weight very quickly. I looked like a small skeleton, my mother compared me to a person in the concentration camps because you could see my bones. Then my hair started to fall slowly but surely, I was constantly tired, I felt my pelvic bones when I was lying down, I was very cold, getting up from my bed became very hard, taking a shower took a lot of effort. I had a pain in my neck, I began to not feeling my feet, to take time to concentrate for a simple everyday thing, my teeth and gums hurt, I went to the saddle 1 or 2 times a week from where a stomach ache and gastric complications with hemorrhoids ( yes all that is not very pretty but it was real). Clearly I was dying more and more. I was unhappy as possible. I was an empty shell that cried almost every day. But I was happy, proud because I was "thin"and I had took my revenge on my look. Then, with food restriction I lost my social life, my menstruation, my joy, my jokes, my good mood, my desire to live clearly. My parents were getting scared... But I didn’t care I wanted to go even further despite everything that was happening. I had gone to see my doctor in the meantime so that he could see me and help me, make me realize that it was not right but he did nothing: he only prescribed a blood test. Strangely, my weight was still high for my 1 m 63; I was at 46 or 47 kilos I do not remember precisely. I was not as thin as the other girls who reached 27 kilos. But I was at the end mentally and physically. I began to have compulsions followed by excruciating stomach pains. To punish myself for giving in, I did not eat or very little the following days and I increased the sport to "wash" myself internally. In May 2023, I had a click where I thought "I don’t see myself living like this forever, I can’t anymore, I don’t live anymore, is that really what you want? Really? Are you ready to give up all this forever for a slim waist and a smaller chest? ". Compulsions have come, increasingly strong, increasingly urgent. It was impossible to restrict myself and to do so much sport to wash me because it lasted for weeks and I was tired of this behavior. So I dropped everything, I was very hungry so it helped. When I started eating again, I don’t tell you the pleasure I felt just "eating", I felt like I had discovered something new and insane that nobody had discovered! I have since had countless food compulsions based on fruits, eggs and bread. I had a slab of hell, to eat and eat for days, I hid everything I ate from my parents. And I bought packages and packages of almonds, dates, bananas to feed myself. I had like you periods when I wanted to eat only a "type" of food until I was fed up! Also, I ate very few cakes and refined sugars, I have always rarely consumed them: like sugary drinks besides. My compulsions were on eggs, oatmeal, fruits and almonds in demonic quantities. So, the month of May and June was the time of abundant food all day... Then the month of July I panicked to see my weight rise so I fell back a little in the restriction with a big crisis per week and the rest to eat nothing and run the equivalent of a marathon per week to "wash" calories. I calculated everything to have a zero scale. And then in August I realized that I was entering a cycle of compulsion/ restriction and that by doing so I would not be rid of this mental weight of food in a while. So I dropped everything again until today. Today is October I gained a lot of weight ( +15 kg), I know I’m already in the overshoot but I still have big periods of hunger that do not end. My belly is "empty" even after eating lasagna, yogurt, fruits, bananas, dates, loaves of bread. I’m at about 5000 cal/day. Is it still normal? I still don’t have my period either. I also bought large t-shirts to be more comfortable when my belly resembles that of a pregnant woman. It’s hard to see his weight increase when I gave everything to see him go down. I made an appointment with a dietician to try to understand if it was still extreme hunger or if it was me who is not well at all. But I know internally that it is not bulimia because it is my choice to meet my hunger, I do not do it in a frenetic way, I control what I eat, what it is a minimum balanced with always complete meals. In short, I try to do my best to deal with the "problem". Also, did you have any physical effects from your anorexia? In my case, my teeth still hurt and my right foot is more sensitive than the left as if I had a little bit like ants in my feet. Sorry if I did mistakes, I am Frenchie girl :)
@walkwithwilz9 ай бұрын
Like 11 and missing the KZbin content, but you have done amazing since this video, so proud of you Jess ♥️
@actgirl1234567 Жыл бұрын
❤❤❤
@bearclaire Жыл бұрын
At what bmi so they admit you to hospital in Australia?
@bird4218 Жыл бұрын
this is from a long time ago but did you ever post the notion template?
@trudytathem5459 Жыл бұрын
Gorj as usual! Love you hunny, so proud!!❤️
@elizabethcardelli2 жыл бұрын
I absolutely love ovaltine light break, ovaltine is just not the same 🙁. Unfortunately they stopped selling them at Coles and Woolworth. Where do you get yours?
@jesstathem94572 жыл бұрын
I got mine from Woolworths!! X
@AriaLovesU2 жыл бұрын
Hey Jess, loved the clothing, make-up and the color of your hair ❤️ I hope you're feeling better. I don't know much about fashion so these types of videos help me make outfits so thank you 😊 Hope you have an amazing day!
@jesstathem94572 жыл бұрын
Awww thank you so much! So glad to hear you enjoyed the video xxx
@zalimeredith36632 жыл бұрын
my favourite part is where u left ur camera in my handbag and never filmed an outro xx
@Kleigh84842 жыл бұрын
You have come so far!! So nice seeing you enjoying your recovery life!
@aubreyplazasuncle2 жыл бұрын
omg i feel that 100% on the high school trauma and toxicity. i’m only healing from that shit now
@sulli_z39402 жыл бұрын
you are so sweet!Your vlog is also sweet like you ~l am a vlogger too and I will keep watching your video ~
@jesstathem94572 жыл бұрын
Aww thank you so much xx
@actgirl12345672 жыл бұрын
I love how free and relaxed you seem (I know this is just a snippet and I dont want to assume anything as we all have struggles) but it makes me happy ❤
@jesstathem94572 жыл бұрын
Thank you so much! I definitely feel so much happier ❤️❤️
@naimfahim72352 жыл бұрын
lxvjhr vur.fyi
@chelseataylor74042 жыл бұрын
Did you clean your car? Like the inside of it? 🥺🥰
@jesstathem94572 жыл бұрын
I did! Hehe
@plooto___2 жыл бұрын
ur absolutely gorgeous. like generally ur so pretty !
@jesstathem94572 жыл бұрын
Awww that is very sweet xx
@user-qp7xm3kn8b2 жыл бұрын
vbwqsp VUN.RENT
@obviouslyandrea96512 жыл бұрын
For the green dress should you size down or get normal size? I’m usually a 12 but not sure if it’s roomy?
@jesstathem94572 жыл бұрын
It it quite roomy, but the back ties make it pretty flexible 😊
@obviouslyandrea96512 жыл бұрын
Thank you!
@trudytathem72392 жыл бұрын
Love you my darling!💕
@actgirl12345672 жыл бұрын
Was hoping you would make a video soon! Glad you're feeling better though and you just seem to be happy (I think) and in good spirits ❤
@creativedisplays92272 жыл бұрын
Take care of yourself and rest🙂
@creativedisplays92272 жыл бұрын
Yayyy a vlog after a long time we missed u :) Hope your doing ok💕
@jesstathem94572 жыл бұрын
Thank you ❤️ so happy to be back
@usamarafieck17152 жыл бұрын
Do you ever get your room changed.
@aderinolapariola56292 жыл бұрын
I know you posted this over a year ago but I enjoyed your vlog. Keep keeping on.
@orange21032 жыл бұрын
How long did it take you to grow your hair back? Also, was all your hair recovered? Or were there spots that were just permanently damaged?
@lydiaellengreaves73132 жыл бұрын
SO excited for you ❤️
@mirchen012 жыл бұрын
And thank you for saying that time doesn’t matter and that you should eat when you are hungry and don’t wait for a specific time 🙏🏻
@Elena-pq8yp2 жыл бұрын
I have a night snack just before I go to bed at 11pm! There’s nothing wrong with that :) your body doesn’t know what time it is
@mirchen012 жыл бұрын
@@Elena-pq8yp 🙏🏻🙏🏻
@mirchen012 жыл бұрын
Loved this video 😍😍 congratulations, you are amazing and I am proud of you ( and kinda jealous because I also want watermelon now haha)
@mirchen012 жыл бұрын
You make me so proud
@mirchen012 жыл бұрын
You give me hope
@luisaojeda56112 жыл бұрын
Been catching up on your videos. I started my recovery at the same time you did and you inspired me and helped me so much when I felt like I couldn't go on. Seeing your recovery makes me hope for mine even tho I feel im not so ready for recovering like you are, nonetheless, your content is amazing and inspiring. PD: you singing evermore while playing the piano having a glass of wine is what I want my life to be like. Lost of love
@leandra61252 жыл бұрын
omg i challenged gnocchi pesto this week and it tasted sooo goooood
@jesstathem94572 жыл бұрын
I’m so proud of you!! How good is it?!
@trudytathem72392 жыл бұрын
Love you hunny! You’ve come soooo far and continue to grow. Proudest Mum ever!!💕💕💕
@ella_cm142 жыл бұрын
you keep me so motivated to keep going in recovery, and it's so motivating to see what life can be like as you progress and distance yourself further from your ed! Keep going girl, you rock <3
@jesstathem94572 жыл бұрын
You have known idea how much this message means to me. Sending you lots of love xx
@megk3172 жыл бұрын
U should make tik toks!!
@melissaroberts5422 жыл бұрын
I love your videos, very inspiring 🥰 I was just wondering, has your gut improved with full recovery?
@jesstathem94572 жыл бұрын
Aww thank you so much! And YES IT HAS! So so much it’s insane. I have IBS so I still get some issues, but no where near what I was experiencing during recovery
@melissaroberts5422 жыл бұрын
@@jesstathem9457 thanks 🥰 definitely words of encouragement for full recovery
@actgirl12345672 жыл бұрын
Ahhh no, how was the banana bread 😂 you left me hanging
@jesstathem94572 жыл бұрын
Ahahah awww I forgot! It was really yummy but defs would tweak the recipe to make it less dense
@patriciamachado60502 жыл бұрын
Suggestion: look into fortified shampoo for fast hair growth.
@actgirl12345672 жыл бұрын
❤ I've struggled w extreme anxiety for a while, which has made "recovery" physically and mentally extremely difficult partly bc it contributes largely to my ibs/gi issues, which creates this vicious cycle; anxiety sucks 😖 I'm sorry you're struggling with it too xox
@Kleigh84842 жыл бұрын
The pieces look gorgeous! Do they have any rose gold jewellery?
@jesstathem94572 жыл бұрын
Yes they do! So stunning xx
@maryward33252 жыл бұрын
vae.fyi magic
@actgirl12345672 жыл бұрын
Its 13 here now lol but its morning...yet it's still summer in Canada so 😭
@dominica75862 жыл бұрын
i just watched your 'Being Admitted To Hospital In ED Recovery // RecoverED Vlog #6' video and you've literally changed so much since then! you seem way happier and bubbly!! compared to that vlog where u were super quiet! only seen two of your videos so far but i literally love your channel now lmao
@kadhimgati83452 жыл бұрын
What’s the link for the shoes if you don’t mind
@rebeccajohnston21612 жыл бұрын
Happy belated Birthday Jess , really enjoy your blog's i can relate to a lot of what you say . Going through therapy myself currently , which is hard work , but hopefully will benefit me in the long time . ❤️👌🥰🌈