I don’t understand why I’m here I’m only 11 but yet I’m sad so sad I’m here when I look at my class mates which are the only people I know who are my age they look so happy but Im not I feel like I skipped childhood and I’m just an adult that goes to school I want to not feel sad I want to look back on my childhood when I’m older and say “what good times” adults always say cherish your youth or whatever but if this is how my young days are I just want to skip them

A few months ago I met a boy and even though we don't talk anymore I love you so much

Don’t know who this will help, but My mother always said, “don’t ever listen to the Music that makes you Feel deeper in your worry and sorrow, Cause that’ll start an addiction, and we have a lot of music straight from the devils more nowadays. But the music that makes you feel relief, process's what’s happening up there, Listen too it, a listen well” -mama Frequency plays a huge role in our daily lives, so does energy. Choose the frequency that’s best for your body. Positive…

I lose my best friend she was think im dumb i lost my good body i become fat i lose trust i lose everything no one going to be my friend im alone all alone and you are alone too

Balistreri Light

I'm sitting in a tree listening to this and it is like my new therapy. CALL ME CRAZY BUT you guys should go find a tree, sit in it, hug it, sit under it, WHATEVER, but go be by a tree for a while. It makes you feel better.

Damn the camera looked so old and glitchy I remember when Tablets didn’t exist…..

I haven’t journaled in two days, the days are sorta blurring together and it’s getting hard to eat. Idk why, but every time i look at food it just looks disgusting, i don’t even wanna touch it. Everything’s a hassle, everything pushes me to the edge a little more and idk what to do.

I turned 18 few days ago and i rlly dont know what is happening. When did it all go. Those few days after 18th are full of chaos and consternation. Sitting here and thinking bout future, problems, things that make me happy, life... its something different.

Had me rethinking about my entire life lol

Guys like if i should not kill myself idk it doesn't feel like it did plz some one help. . .

14:09 I am a being of light too, you know.

I don't know why out of all genres and kind of music, this type is the only one bringing me comfort

Rory Radial

It's 3am and I thinking about my life and my death

6:03 what's this song called?

Hi if ur very young the days will go quicker than expected I’m in high school rn I’m a freshman life is hard but you have to push ur self even if it’s hard to do that never give up on life cause I have thousands of times honestly one thing I wanna say is live life to the fullest cause u only live once and just know it’s ok to be down at times it happens to everyone ur not alone. U also wanna be heard Ik it’s hard trying to show people how you really feel just remeber u shouldn’t hide ur feelings always talk to someone when ur low if ur scared ur weak ur not u have just been strong for to long anyway just know if anyone wants to talk I’ll be there for them even if I don’t know them I’ll listen to what they have to say 🥹❤️ Sincerely, Lily ❤ Update: I might be gone before this blows up but I hope you all stay strong 💪🏻 Ik I can’t stay strong long enough so may u all be happy in life

Just slide through these comments section and realising its not just me who feels that way….

I'm back here again to vent, it's been a month and 13 days since i got talked out of committing, but recently the thoughts have came back and I'm planning to write my suicide notes to all my online friends soon enough, it crushes me knowing they had to tolerate having such a shitty friend like myself, what crushes me even more is the fact i couldn't be a better father figure for them, I've tried so hard to stay strong so my siblings don't have a dead brother. So my friends don't have a dead friend. So those who see me as their father figure don't have a father, so my boyfriend doesn't have a dead future husband but i can't bear this pain anymore, everything hurts, my country is getting attacked and my mental health is just getting worse by the day I'm in debt, I'm practically useless, everyone at my school hates me, my family wants me dead what even is this purpose to this thing we call living?. I'm tired i don't want to continue living, thank you all for reading this. all replies to this will be appreciated just.. thank you if you even read this but don't waste your time replying it would already be too late.

Best playlist ever ngl

Murray Canyon

There's been a lot of school shootings and I was just thinking what if one day j go to school but I go and return seeing my friends in a hospital and at my friends graves... I've been really sad and mad all over in summer… sometimes there would be days I didn’t and couldn’t get up from being in my room... I've never experienced this and I'm so young... Since school started I've been depressed I haven't talked to anyone but my friends... Also ever since school started I was getting a lot of people to be my friend but turned out their fake friends.... Sometimes I wonder why am I on this earth and I realized I'm only like this new person because of tiktok and being on social media to much... I also realized I haven't spent any time with my family alot like I used to... I want to become a better person please help

I forgot what year it is

My birthdays comin up. And it’s near Christmas. I’m filled with a sense of dread. My childhood is over. My mistakes are now going to affect me if I like it or not. I don’t like Christmas anymore. I miss the old me. She’d be brimming with joy at the thought of Christmas and happily waking up her parents to see if Santa visited. She was so happy for every birthday she had. My ninth birthday was the last happiest birthday I had without the dread, awkwardness, and melancholy. I miss you. You were so happy. Where did you run off to this time?

I had… birthday for months ago… no.. one make me smile or something.. i feel just sad…

i am in a really bad situation with my family and school right now a year ago my mother has used crack and has been addicted since my dad has been beating her up to stop her from using it and pulled a knife on me and my mother and threatend us that he will kill us all one day i am getting abused by my dad my mother is an addict im failing my classes i dont know what to do

Jedidiah Crest

Hello please help me escape from this loop I am in, im suffering, please get me out of here I can’t anymore, I’m sure that I will attempt soon, I made notes for all my family members and I think it’s time for me to leave soon ❤

i don’t feel like myself at all anymore, well, alone i do but around people.. i feel like that one dumb girl who can’t take anything seriously because thats what i’ve acted like all these years. i just wanted to be likeable, to make people laugh but.. i didn’t know what it would cost me. few people know me for who i am truly and not this completely different version of me that i’ve made. i can’t change now, i’ve made everyone think im that different persona i’ve made of myself. if i change back they think i’m trying to for attention or trying to act “cool”. i’m tired of this, i really am.. i want people to see me as the true me again.

real

Left in the dark to suffer and no light to shine through but the only light I get is a spotlight of blame

I had a panic attack today. I’m not sure if it was a real panic attack, but my thoughts were just so loud and my head was throbbing and the only thing I wanted to do was gouge my eye out. I’m feeling better now. I’m scared for the future- i’m scared for the test I’ve got tomorrow that I’m going to bomb. I’m scared because I have a meeting tomorrow where I’ll hopefully be dropping the Gifted program this week. I’m taking so many advanced classes that I don’t do anything except eat, sleep, and do schoolwork. And I don’t eat much anymore. I’m scared because I don’t know if I’m going to make it to the end of the school year. I don’t know if I’m going to make it to the end of the regular year. I’m scared because even if I do make it, the world is probably not going to heal. I’m scared because I live near the coast, and my town will be one of the first to go when the seas rise. I’m scared of growing up and getting a job that I’ll hate. I’m scared of living. I’m scared of dying. I’m grateful to get a moment of peace at 10 pm with my earbuds in. This playlist is nice.

Idk if I will make it alive..

I don't think I will make it to my birthday....

Listening to these audios contemplating about life,things i did wrong..things i couldve handled better...things i regret,things that have changed... but at the end of the day..Im still human,and humans make mistakes so its okay to feel like this sometimes when u feel like youve been strong for far too long or you feel its too suffocating to continue :) remember, life can always take a turn for the better. You just have to be yourself and keep going....even at your lowest...all you need is a pat on the shoulder and the encouragement and dedication of ur willpower to go on. :) Even tho changes can be hard and painful you will soon get used to it and maybe like the way things are now,after all some things happen for a reason, for example someone or something leaving your life might be gods choice on what might be better..but he also wants to give you wonderful new opportunities, like moving out of ur country to go to a better highschool or colloge...everything happens for a reason. (ive been there,thankfully my amazing family and best friend was there to support me at my lowest)

Always having to be strong, but what if I don’t want to be strong anymore? What if I just want someone to hold me, and take care of me while I’m breaking apart? What if I want someone to shield me from all the hurt? Or maybe it’s just me at this point, because I have someone there for me. But I made them feel as if they were not enough. I finally get the person I’ve wanted all my life, now I’m the red flag. I’m hurting him while I’m still trying to survive my battle. I feel so sorry for him. I know he loves me, but it’s hurting him that he can’t do it anymore. I am stepping back from him and giving him space while we are still together. I know he doesn’t like that idea, because he keeps checking in on me. But I’d rather hurt myself than hurt him. I love him, unconditionally and I regret feeling the way I do. I’ve been struggling day to day for years and years. I’m still young, 22, but somehow I always feel like I’m not where Im supposed to be at being 22

😶💭

"when you have kids" bold of you to assume i would pass my 18's.

The only music that can make me fall asleep is these kind of music

It’s 3 am ….

this video is from 2 years ago, and this is one of the best playlist yet, sad to see this is the creators last posted video, and I hope everyone is doing okay

Ofc im not real no one is everyone is a dream of schizophrenic child maybe im the schizophrenic child or maybe the child is sleeping with gods in a cloud over san jóse

pov; ur not sure if ur deppressed or being dramatic

Today is my 18th birthday, and it's currently 2:24 AM here. I'm thinking if I should keep studying or go to bed. This evening, I drank a couple cups of coffe so I'm feeling alert but fatigued at the same time. I hate being like this-it swallows all my creativity. I miss dad; he passed away 3 years ago. And I feel sorry for my mom settling the debt dad left on her own and struggling with both mental and physical health. When I was in middle school, I had nothing to worry about except my grades. I was a kind of kid with excellent wings on her back, ready to fly in the sky as high as she could. Back then, I dreamt of becoming a doctor which now remains just as an unfulfilled dream. But because today is special, I want to be a bit selfish and make wishes mostly for myself; I wish I would be a doctor. I wish I would get the financial aid when I apply to universities. Lastly, I wish the luck and joy would be back to us.

uhm, not sure if anyone will see this but ill vent for a bit while listening to this playlist. I was always self aware and observant, so I get to understand things on a deeper level more than others. I was met with terrible fate, my parents seperated dad left, grew up poor. Then more trials began to unfurl, the most painful one yet is our house burned down, nothing left to save unfortunately, but despite that we were saved by the church, they helped us, I was forced to study in the province with no one supporting me at my teens, ended up doing SW to support my studies, and my grandparents. The sw took a toll on my mental, physical, and emotional health. I still get flashbacks of stuff I did for money, I stopped right before I became legal age, rn I get depressed and get hopeful and fall into depression again, amd the cycle continues. Our country hasn't been understanding with mental health awareness and its actually considered as not real. I wish for the best honestly, I hope the future holds a safer place for me and others suffering and are forced to "deal" with it and pray.

I feel bad for breaking contact with my old bsf. It was like yesterday when i did it. She made it all to herself. She was talking about k¡lling herself because of me. "If i d¡e, i hope you know its because of you!"...whyd you have to say it like that? Before i talked abt cutting ties with her she said she wanted to k¡ll her$elf because of a boy she liked (the boy was my first love and she knows but i basically gave up on him cuz she was way closer with him and he hates me) it wasnt even that deep, he even likes her. And she knows. But what also made me kinda upset is that she tried to romanticize it. Now that went to far. Was it a joke to her? Well i asked her.. "its funny." What? Did i hear that right? "Its funny for me to do su¡c¡d€" what was wrong with her? I texted her and said i didnt want to be friends with her anymore because i had enough. I didnt want feel like i was there for her to put me down. She saw it in the next morning before school. The response..? Why would she make everything sound like she was the victim. Okay, maybe she was the victim but why did she have to say things like i am mean and i dont have any feelings like a robot? "Im just having a hard time but always smiled for you and made you laugh" no.. you told me whenever something was wrong. "Youre so mean. Im not a pick me"i never siad you were. And then she send the message abt her k¡lling her$elf because of me bc she couldnt take it anymore. Please dont make me feel bad..i saw her crying in the classroom. Was it because of me? Fuck. This haunted me the whole day. I thought i would get better..but i have the urge to break the "clean" streak.

i like thiss 😭

Does anyone just want it too be over . Let life pass you bye get it over with . Watch the world grow and you go with it but your mindset never changes .and you go to collage and you get a well paying job but it’s not enough because nothing is ever enough , you’ll never make them happy they’ll never be happy with anything you do you’ll always mess up and be miserable so you just want life to pass you bye so you don’t have too deal with it. So you can just be numb…

“why are you like this?” “Because you ruined my life.” “All I did was hurt you a little and talk about assaulting you.” “..” “You just confirmed what I said.”

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