I shouldnt feel this way as im only in middle school, but i still do. I dont have anyone to talk to because my parents will just make me feel worse by saying "youre too young ti feel like that" and my friends will just mock me over and over because im not in a good mood. I want to make my parents proud of me but i feel like nothing i do launches me in that direction. I want to be wwe champion someday to make my parents proud, but as someone who gets good grades and does nothing but play games, i dont feel as though im doing anything important or of value. I feel incredibly alone with how mu friends treat me, and the fact that no matter how hard i may try, i just cant get a girlfriend and am rejected time after time. I just wanna make my parents proud but fear i never will.

Everyone think I can do everything they think im just lazy I really try man.

Few months ago i was on the top of the world, 'great future is ahead' they said, i didn't get to a single college i applied for so i went for the last resort and went to the one that didn't require acception. But it's totally out of my field and i'm failing miserably. Everyone expects me to just get up and walk it off like it's nothing. I feel so wothless and trapped, because without degree i will be nothing just trash. I was on the highest top i've ever been those few months ago and now i'm deep deep down in the darkest pit i've ever been. A failure without meaning or use. I don't know why i wrote this i obviously didn't write this comment to say it gets better and everything will sort out eventually. I guess i wanted to just vent about my meaningless problems. Who knows mabye i'll fall even harder and be even bigger loser than i am today. I'm sorry mom.

I missed every single day I lived when I was just a kid...

Maybe I have some talent, I think my voice is good, my drawing skills are good, but in other hand, It feels like I was never doing enough.

Sitting reading the novel The Gambler

Kid i wish i would have enjoyed being a kid... now i just try my hardest but still always fail, maybe i was a failure from birth.

My english is bad, but I need talk about. I'm tired by peoples that don't twink about others, I tired thereof! I want that the peoples thought more in as I feel about situations....

I never found anything that i’m good at. I just do stuff and then I realize they’re not my thing, but what is my thing then? I guess I always forget, or just try to ignore it, but I’m not good at anything. I never was.

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Could you please tell me what the very first song is? It’s so lovely. Great playlist, btw; thanks very much for sharing.

I want to have a good future but I didn’t know that I have to lose my present to build a bright future. Right now everything is falling apart, I am trying not to lose my sanity and to keep my heart intact. I keep on telling myself it’s ok it is for my future. I have to do my best right now, I have to suffer right now so that I could enjoy my future leisurely. But God I don’t have a life now, I am doing everything just to survive college and somehow make my parents proud. But I keep on failing and I am barely hanging on.

I am Reading Eichendorff to this playlist and it fits perfectly!

Thought this would reinforce my belief about myself, guess what?

How do I find that version of arabesque?

good music but too many ads

Freud hated music

This matches exactly to how it feels reading this book what the fuck

me encanta

مناسبة وبديعة لأنّا كارنينا.

No one really fails in life, failure implies life expected something from you Life is not an entity that could possibly form an opinion, it is a function of the world that neither thinks nor speaks. We consider life an entity… some benevolent force… so we can rationalize the crushing weight of responsibilities we face. I have often thought to myself “life must have something against me” when I have a rough day. Something I consider to be so unjust, unfair, unacceptable… there must be something to blame yes? But the truth is, life is not a living, thinking entity, it is a function. It has no expectations nor anger against us. Therefore, how can we say we failed in life? We are the one who decides whether we have failed or not Wherever you may be, whatever you may be doing, at whatever age, defined by whatever nationality, religion, or walk of life Pick yourself up, then ask yourself. Did you laugh once? Did you have fun once? Did you feel pride at a time in your life? Good things and bad things will happen in life. But in my opinion, if you have laughed, you had fun, then you have succeeded

This is just something I wanna vent don't mind lmao. The feeling when everything in your life is going great but you feel so down, my parents are great and don't expect much they only want me to pass, my aunt (bless her heart) pays for my college tuition. I hate to admit but I don't feel ready or mature enough to be in college, I still feel like a child, its been almost two months that I'm attending college and I missed so much assigned work and it's all my fault because I just stayed in my bed all day not wanting to do them, I felt so demotivated, it feels like I have failed both my parents and my aunt for not doing the bare minimum. I can't confine with no one because all my friends are in different universities and I don't want to bother them about my problems. I feel trapped, stuck in the past, I'm not improving, I don't want to socialize with anyone anymore.

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**vent lol** I got a U (ungradeable) on my college final major project despite all the work and hours i put into it. They praised me for my animation and the work and research i put into it, yet still gave me a U all because I hadn't finished my evaluation (which is basically just an essay) - I wasn't able to finish it because i've been so busy with work, only having managed to complete it a few days ago. I had put blood, sweat and tears into this project, i spent countless days and sleepless nights hunched over my desk with a pen in hand. I was so proud of my work when i finished it, but even after all that. I got a U. A 'U'. My marksheet has three crosses in the 'D' section (distinction, the highest grade), and one cross in the 'U' collum. 3 Distinctions, 1 ungradeable. And yet that one 'u' was the deciding factor for my entire grade. I don't know what to do now. I feel useless, worthless. All those days and nights completely wasted. I just can't handle it anymore, i'm so tired of this. It's a constant cycle of me trying my best, working and working, just to not even get recognition or failing over and over again. It's been like this for years and i feel like i may never get out of it

Last track was a perfect OST for reading Anna’s dramatic finale

allah razı olsun

i am, am i not?

Are those legs?

Reading the book with this will be a marvelous experience. Thank you!❤

Şuan okuyorum çok güzel ama çok çok üzücü 😭

Reading Hamlet aloud to this - great!

I failed to get into any university and I feel lost. I didn't have the best grades, I know, but still I feel like I disappointed everyone in my family, even myself. My mom tried to stay positive but I see their faces. I don't know what I want to do in the future anymore, I'm completely lost and I feel like I'm a complete failure.

this is one of the best for me. Did you create this music or where are you finding these kind of musics? its glorious.

Failure is what I see instead of my reflection when I look in the mirror.

I have academic problems even I don't know how long I can go, it's starting to hurt me inside, even though I liked how teachers have their ways of Teaching, I still can't keep up. I hope I'll survive this, everyone sees me as a weird happy dude but I used that as an excuse to hide the fact that I tried but still failed all the time, I see no change.

i mostly use dark is the night or valse sentimentale to read C&P

i just want to fulfill my dreams man. a lot of you will judge me for it , but i will tell you all. becoming a pro player is my dream, this dream is the one dream that i wanna chase and it was working out , i was playing valorant at the time so i was bronze 3 but ranked to sliver 2 finally then, i started cs2 cus it got boring and i got peer pressured (saying stuff like that game is for gay people , making fun of me etc) and i played really good and got to level 2 on faceit. things really looked good. until i was so burnout and hating that losing and failing many times that i deranked and fell into the pit i was 2years ago. until now,i starting playing valorant again and tbh it doesnt look promising, constatly failing , mental is bad , i feel like my dream is just a joke. everybody seems to just hate me for anything i do, its so frustrating and im starting to break down a lot cus of my comparisons and my mental. i feel like i was born a talentless kid whos always gonna be a failure no matter what.(fyi mental i mean is my mental ingame and like a bit out, dont assume like depression or anything) maybe one day , one week ,one month ,one year , one decade , it will go well for me. thanks for reading <3

I am overwhelmed by an all-consuming sense of worthlessness that shadows every aspect of my life. No matter what I attempt, my failures only seem to magnify my deep-seated feelings of inadequacy, leaving me feeling fundamentally broken and incapable. The weight of my perceived shortcomings is so heavy that even the simplest tasks feel insurmountable. This unrelenting burden constantly makes me question my own worth, and I can't escape the nagging belief that no matter how hard I try, I am doomed to fall short of expectations-whether they are my own or those of others. My relationship with my parents has become increasingly strained by these feelings of inadequacy. I used to express my love for them with ease and sincerity, but now those words feel empty and insincere. Saying "I love you" feels like a mere formality when I am so overwhelmed by my sense of failure. The truth is, I’ve let them down repeatedly, and their decision to take away my video games-my small source of joy and an escape from my internal struggles-has only intensified my feelings of despair. Those games were more than just a pastime; they were a refuge that offered me a rare sense of comfort and happiness amidst the chaos of my emotions. The return of my brother from the military should have been a moment of immense joy and relief, but instead, it has felt strangely muted. His homecoming, a time I had eagerly anticipated, has not brought me the happiness I expected. Rather than feeling uplifted and grateful for his presence, I find myself unable to fully embrace and enjoy this significant moment. The joy I should have experienced is overshadowed by my pervasive sense of failure and brokenness. His return, which I hoped would help bridge the gap between myself and my struggles, has instead highlighted the depth of my internal turmoil. Every effort to connect with my family or find solace in this significant event only serves as a reminder of my inadequacies. The more I try to reach out and mend the rift between myself and my parents, or to find comfort in the return of my brother, the more I am confronted with the magnitude of my disappointments. I feel trapped in a relentless cycle of self-doubt and disillusionment, where each attempt to find happiness or rebuild my sense of self only deepens my feelings of disconnection and failure. The constant struggle to reconcile my inner turmoil with the reality of my relationships leaves me feeling adrift, unable to find genuine comfort or a sense of belonging.

I get criticized every single day from my mom. I really miss the old time when l was a kid. Nobody told me how hard teenage years are. Everyday l try to tell myself not to give up still but inside me l really want to die...

I am a failure...

I'm listen to this while reading The Plague...

Just one dead end after another. If there was a save and quit and I would’ve pressed it by now.

Us boy and mad it’s always been told we can’t show motions and when we hide stuff people ask are you OK and they don’t know what’s going on in the inside

Much ado about nothing~

I felt like I was walking alongside Socrates, asking him, "Why did you drink that cup of hemlock?" 😢 The music was awesome, Thanks❤

Fine

I think I am a failure, because of myself everything that was initially beautiful and warm in my family became broken and cold, because of me my parents fought I felt it would be better if I died I'm sorry for everything especially to father and mother, your child has tried his best but your child is indeed a failure, Sorry for being a burden for you, love you mom pa

I already make a plan that make me want live longer. Like want see my friend married, got decent job, try traveling to several city, try weird food, etc. After that I fallen down again like dont know what to do anymore coz I lack of spirit for life longer. I want end it peacefully. But month ago I got clash with my mother my mom said "Reason I still alive is you son, I dont know what happen to me if u gone". How I gonna end it?! if my mom said that. Its so unfair and hard! My weight several month ago is 80kg, right now only 50kg coz to much thinking and lack on emotion, spirit, etc. Deep in my heart I still have spirit about life. I dont know man I really dont know how to continue.

Thanks. I just searched for it. You've already been there. Thanks mate. 🙌

Why. Why am I lazy and dumb. Why can I not get my discipline I originally had, I take too many breaks in my spare time when doing my studies and I fall short for that very reason maybe I'm not built for this. Nah, I have to get my 2ss up and tell myself, that although I may feel like sh!t it don't matter. God let me wake up today in the morning go for a run in my neighborhood, come back home shower, eat breakfast and LOCK IN. Lock in for that Calculus 3 exam. And for the rest of the week. Life isn't easy but I have to go back to what made me feel strong in times of adversity and tribulations. I WILL PREVAIL.