The cover picture on this vid.....

I love ur hair I love ur eyes I love ur shirt I love ur pants I love ur shoes I love ur socks I love ur smile I love ur nails I love ur bed I love ur bedroom I love ur living room I love ur bathroom I love ur humour I love ur voice I love you♥︎

I cant lie im actually begging for the exact audio at 29:57 on its own its so good and i cant find it

ES IS SUCH A G99D S9NG MWAH MWAH /silly

Feeling like a hurt dog. Baring their teeth after convinced being the problem, hurting and pushing away everyone after everything. Even the ones I don’t want to push away, accidentally, all because I bared my teeth. All because of me.

its crazy to understand how neglected i was due to my sister hearing these audios

Maybe you are / were the good thing? Hold on tight to what you know is good.

that warming feeling in your heart when you think you found the one but really you were just so stupid to not see that he was a wolf in a sheeps clothing...

Hey, if you need anyone to talk to, I could possibly help out(also i love your playlist❤)

didnt know i could relate to smth this much.

Ive never found a playlist that so perfectly describes me <3 39:11 jumpscare

did anyone else hear the random noti sound during 2 birds :sob:

THIS PLAYLIST IS PERFECTION OMG ITS SO GOOD 😭❤❤ u are rlly underrated and this need needs more views same with ur channel

love the phone charging noise at the start lol

"Nobody believed me" "I would give you every chunk of flesh on my worthless body if it meant you get to live a few days longer." too deep man.

I thought this was a silly furry playlist, but I ended up crying to it.

"Nobody apologized for how they treated me, they just blamed me for how I reacted" is so fitting over a cat. They're often compared to dogs and found lacking, but that's not fair to them at all. They are different animals. They have different needs. Cats are capable of being just as social and needy as a dog, but they don't show it the same ways... It leads to them being blamed for their behaviors seeming unloving, when the problem was never with them. Cats being used as one of the non-canine exceptions in this video, and with that quote? It's a little genius.

YOU PICK THE BEST OBSCURE MUSIC AND IMAGES!!! I LOVE YOUR PLAYLISTS

I know it will be Okay, because hope lives longer than hate...i hope at least ❤ Thank you for makeing this playlist! <3

When you feel numb or empty they say theyll be there for you so you feel safe just for them to stab you in the back and make everything worse

I relate to the first to the sad part is that I’m only 11 .

"nobody apologized for how they treated me, they just blamed me for how i reacted" the most true statement I've ever heard

for real. classmates just took my feelings away. i used to have feelings and be way more confident now i just have social anxiety and im emotionless

Why do most of these songs kinda scare me??😰

I love this playlist so much! I was always made to be the bad person.. growing up, I realize that I never fought back. I didn't do a damn thing. They created an angry beast who is now just trying to get better and be better in order to break the cycle of abuse.

I have BPD and PTSD. Recently my friends and i had a little fight and i really tried to scape because i was starting to feel bad, but all my friends started to make fun of me, insult me and even started to say i'm a "bad friend" and even a "bad person" because i didn't knew how to handle the anxiety crisis of a friend and i decided it was better not to say anything until she was better and she want to listen to me. But my other friends were very rude with me (My best friend and favorite person it's the only exception). After a few hours in the school i tried to talk with them, to explain myself, to make things better, i even apologized because i felt like if i deserved their insults but they gave me silence treatment and when i cried because of them, one of them raised his hand to threat me with hit me if i didn't let them alone. That same night i was walking around and i heard how they were still talking about me and one of them even said she wanted someone r4pes me and let me in the hospital to have a "good reason to cry" (one of my traumas it's SA). After heard that i made a splitting to them and i left every WhatsApp and Instagram group because i really felt abandoned and even betrayed... By my own friends. The next day they started to annoy my best friend and ask why i left them, my best friend jus said they were very rude towards me and i needed some time because they really made me feel bad. After a few hours i found them and they started to wave and talk with me but i didn't found the strenght to talk to them or even smile. They didn't even tried to apologize or something like that and that made my best friend very mad. Now i'm here, i'm really trying to forgive them and act like if nothing happened because they were my friends... The first "real friends" since the doctors found my BPD and PTSD i had but i can't and i feel very bad because of it. I really miss when they were kind to me and i feel like if i messed the things, maybe i shouldn't even appeared in that moment, maybe i should just lower my head and don't say anything. Right now i just have my best friend by my side, he was the one who didn't turned around and even tried to defend me but it didn't worked, lol. I'm sorry for the bad English, my first language it's Spanish but i'm really trying to learn how to write long things without use the translator

I'm honestly just tired of everything

I can never change. I finally get it now.

YALL WHATS THE SONG CALLED AT 4:23 IVE BEEN TRYING TO FIND IT FOR SO LONG 😭😭

I followed you like a fucking dog. You had me on a leash and you didn’t even care, yet when I finally retreat. Finally cower away with my tail between my legs with anger, I’m the bad dog?

*sssiiip* Ahh, just the negativity i needed to start my day.

[context: when I was younger I had a slight anger issue where I would randomly for no reason go on an anger outburst that would ended up with me saying something horrible or even on one occasional hit someone. But that was all the way back when I was a kid. Well, when I was younger. I'm still a kid but onto the main reason why I'm here) almost a week from now I had woken up around 5 am and made the choice to open tumblr I ended up just going into a sudden episode and I said something really harsh and mean to some poor artist that didn't deserve it (something to note is that the artist didn't allow anonymous asks so that should've probably been my first warning sign) then at around 10 am the guilt was becoming too much for me and I ended up going back to the artist to apologize later on in the day they answered the hateful one first with nothing but several upon several question marks even got my own words thrown right back in my face with an anonymous ask, that's how I originally found out about the ask being answered later on in the day again the apology got answered where I got lectured, scolded, whatever you want to call it in Chinese so I had translate it all, I tried to say that I understood and that I truly was sorry and that I'd try to not let it happen again. Never got a response. throughout the entire day at this point my stomach had been in complete knots and I felt like I was going to throw up any minute not matter what. Ended up getting dragged to go on a walk with my family, ended up just putting on headphones and trying to dissociate from reality in that moment. on the drive home a friend of that artist ended up reaching out to me and talking to me about it, they mentioned how they could tell that I was only a kid and that I acted really immature. I reached back out and directly messaged them, telling them that I knew I was in the wrong, that it was my fault, that I was completely out of line. That I fucked up. They told me that they're glad I know I was wrong and they hope that later on down the line I'd be able to look back and laugh about it because they know what it's like. I took a week long break from tumblr. I only now come back to find that not only did that artist block me, which, fine fair enough. I wasn't exactly expecting forgiveness from them. But I noticed was that 2 of my mutuals that I actually really liked ended up blocking me as well. I was so nice to them. I always tried my best to be nice and all to everyone. I fuck up once. ONE FUCKING MISTAKE AND I FELT LIKE I LOST IT ALL. ALL BECAUSE I SAID SOMETHING WITHOUT THINKING. I had created an alt to hopefully be able to at the very least watch them from a distance, to once more be just another person in the crowd. a part of me doesn't even want to post anymore. I just want reverse to how things used to be, before I fucked up. I know nobody will probably read this, I just want to get this off my chest somewhere while trying to not cry. I tried to apologize. Now I felt like I had thrown myself in a ditch that I can't get out of... I'm sorry.

I only knew you for a short while but I loved you. I loved you and your talents, your strengths, your flaws. You helped me confirm who I was so afraid to be, to come to terms with myself and how beautifully fragile my heart can be. But your heart was tied to someone who couldn't love you, and from the start I knew you didn't love me. But so desperately I wished you did. I see now how foolish I was to chase after you, to want be your saviour. Truth was I was too cowardice to save myself, I grew enveloped in you, infatuated with being the hero of the story I could never be a part of. Now I stand alone, but with my life growing at the actions of my own hands, living a life I was so brave enough to accomplish. While you stay complacent in your fear, your wanna-be fantasies that will never come true, your desperate attempts at salvaging something that once felt safe to you. I can say now that I pity you, but I do not forgive you. As brave as I am, I am still picking up the pieces of the heart you shattered. I still long the future I wanted to build for you. But I do not miss you. I miss the life I thought we would have. Someday, somewhere, I will find someone who will meet me there, in our beautiful future. But for now... I am alone. And I fear I will be alone for a long, long time.

Off-topic but I’m pretty sure either my cousin or I have the plushie at 4:20 just though it was super cool :3

Time stamps :] [I’m addicted to this playlist- cough I mean who said that] 0:00 | Crying - Es 2:12 | God must hate me - Catie turner 4:41 | Tree Hugger - Kimya Dawson & Antsy pants [I love the fox drawing in this one sm] 7:57 | Rät - Penelope Scott 11:12 | Body Terror Song - AJJ 13:50 | Hansel - Sodikken 19:44 | Light Shower - Melanie Martinez 24:13 | Ancient Dreams In A Modern Land - MARINA 27:37 | Unsweetened Lemonade - Amélie Farren 30:00 | Be nice to me - The Front Bottoms 32:46 | I don’t know this one I’m sorry :[ 33:47 | My Mom - Kimya Dawson [another fox !!] 37:03 | Two birds - Regina Spektor Hope everyone reading this has a good day, sending the love <3

ᥕіsһ і ᥕᥲsᥒ'𝗍 ᥲ⍴ᥲr𝗍 ᥆𝖿 𝗍һіs ⍴і𝗍і𝖿ᥙᥣ ᥕ᥆rᥣძ.

"Maybe in another universe you loved me". I think that sometimes when I see my cousin. He despises me.

I'm feeling the opposite of this title. I'm tired of trying to stay the same. I'm the 'beekeeper' in my family. I've had an interest in bees since kindergarten, and no one knows where it comes from because most people in my family have a fear of bees. When I was 10, i joined black water beekeepers association by my grandmother's choice. It's a great community, and they even gifted my own hive. My OWN hive. Did i ask? No, not really. I was told i was getting bees and i was excited. But now, after around two years, i'm going to a meeting of some sorts called a seminar in less then an hour, where their going to introduce me as the youngest member of the association and, according to my parents, going to ask me questions and stuff about m story. I don't want to, not one bit. My social anxiety has grown a lot, and i'm crying about just thinking about talking in front of a bunch of people. Both my parents say i have to go, and my mom says that people are expecting me. She asked me what happened to the girl who gave a presentation about bees to her school classes, and i had no answer. I still love bees, but just not as much. I don't want to stop beekeeping because of all the money my family and the association has used to help me get to this point. The bee boxes, frames, equipment, suits, tools, ect. They aren't cheap, and i don't want it all to go to waste, but i just.. I just don't wanna have my whole personality defined by bees anymore. When introducing me to friends, my grandmother calls me the little beekeeper. Every family event, i get asked about my bees. I don't hate it, but i just don't want to do it anymore. I'll most likely edit this after the seminar, but i really just DON'T want to, but my parents say i have to, when i can hardly talk to my teachers. It's whatever, and i'm likely just over reacting, I'm just tired of trying to stay the same. EDIT: I've returned and yes, i was over dramatic. My mom made it sound like it was all going to me around me, and i panicked. It was just a normal meeting and the person who 'ran it' introduced me during the introduction. I feel like a child now, and hate myself slightly more :D

Holy shit I love this, you did an amazing job!! Keep it up! <3

JUST KEEP HOPING GUYS, EVERYDAY KEEP HOPING THAT WE JUST DIE :))

It's crazy that strangers on the internet can understand you more than your own family and/or friends. Not to mention they tell you they love and are proud of you?? Be honest, how many times have you heard someone in your life say that? Me personally, not alot. And the fact they care? Almost makes me want to breakdown.

my playlist now.

I once tried to change myself for someone. They lied to me, cheated on me multiple times, gaslighted me, controlled me too, and despite knowing this, I stayed and took all of the blame to keep their self esteem intact. I became this soulless shell of a person that blindly agreed to every insult, every 'joke', and every false accusation against me. They finally left because I refused to hurt my close friend for them, and all I had was a completely fake persona of myself. I ripped it apart and went back to square one. I got back into my old habits, shrunk my friend circle to 2-3 people, and I spontaneously got close with someone new. I didn't change myself at all this time, but I'm already more open, happier, and I feel so much more confident than I used to. Maybe it's not you that needs to change, but your environment. The right people make you feel safe and comfortable, the right people remind you of your real worth, and the right people like you just the way you are, platonically and romantically. I'm just grateful they chose me and I chose them back. 🤍

i wish.

This genuinely deserves more

This is my playlist.

" "you deserve better" is an interesting way of saying I'm not worth you getting better for." OML.

𖤐𖤐!!!TW!!!𖤐𖤐 ☆Small vent★ . . . . It wasnt my parents in particular that hurt me, it was my mother's past boyfriends. They would yell at me and my little brother, neglect us, fight my mom, one of them broke her ankle by throwing a car part at her ankle after braking the window. One of her old male friends used to be to touchy with me and I got S.A'ed by him and a girl I was friends with from 5 till I was 8. when I was seven I tried to drown myself and I have been trying until i moved here. One time when I came home my mom almost overdosed on some drugs, she was a hardcore drug addict after I was born and before I was fertilized. I came home with my little brother from school, we were late because she passed out from drugs on the couch, we were stuck at the bus stop crying, I was 11 at the time. We asked a lady named Angel where our address was and she took us home, we found my mom on the couch, we tried everything to wake her up, banging pots, playing a trumpet in her ear, until we called our aunt to come check on her, Aunty told us to go to our rooms and not come out until she said to. She didn't want us near the drugs my mom had taken. (She is three years sober at the moment and has a fiancé and will be married on 25-2025)

"nobody apologized for how they treated me. they just blamed me for how i reacted" OUCH, i never knew an image of a cat could explain all my feelings in 1-2 sentences.

this is the fourth fucking time youtube try reccommending me this i am NOT mentally unstable anymore please please let me go