10 minutes of Selen having imposter syndrome due to a rude person【Selen Tatsuki | NijisanjiEN】

[@Handleoriginal12]

And look at her know. Making a living off what was once a hobby and playing with players as good as rpr. She made the right call for sure

[@Axel8745693]

As long as she has fun I think she is always going to have that entertaining factor that makes her extremely enjoyable to watch. Plus seeing your work as a hobby is definitely one of the hardest things you can do in your life

[@rdraven7356]

@@Axel8745693 not sure how entertaining it is to hear an annoying laugh every 10 seconds.

[@a_person890]

@@rdraven7356 Some people find it entertaining and others might not. People have different views and opinions on stuff.

[@a_person890]

@@rdraven7356 And I don't understand why you're even here. If you find her annoying them why tf are you even watching her.

[@Mernom]

@@rdraven7356 if you don't like her laugh, there are literally hundreds or other Vtubers to watch. And hundreds more non-Vtuber streamers.

[@Random_Fanguy]

I usually don't like it when people say, "It's just a game." because it's not a bad thing to be passionate about something you enjoy. But if playing the game starts to affect the way you treat others and even ruins their fun with the game then you really need to take a step back and realize that it really is just a game. Maybe even touch some grass while you're at it. Competitive games can really bring out the absolute worst in people.

[@Pomelochoco]

Tbh whenever I say "It's just a game" it's more directed to myself, to comfort myself that if I effed up it's okay at least I had fun (doesn't mean I wouldn't do my best). I had this mentality during a Chess tournament and I always ends up doing better than the usual.

[@MelniaShadow]

The lack of Ninja copypasta sadden me "The phrase “it’s just a game” is such a weak mindset."

[@greenlandpatriot]

agreed. commented the freakin same thing. I don't mind getting heated, or even angry, but that shit these guys said is just toxic. Glad at least one of em didnt make it to pred. Neither deserved to.

[@nebby6775]

@@Pomelochoco when I say "it's just a game" it's for whenever I have really bad teammates/ games, helps me get into a mindset of "Hey I might not win this but I can atleast have some fun"

[@Pomelochoco]

@@nebby6775 Yeah that helps a lot too!

[@ka1kyunn1]

And now she's playing with pros and ex-pros, ah how the world works. And the fact that she's able to keep up with them in matches, proves her skill. Hope she'll eventually find the another team that fits her like puzzles and welcomes her very much. As for that shit teammate, I don't wish for him to get that bad, but I don't wish for him to get good ranks either. Thanks for the clip!

[@arkeyy9533]

Honestly, for the Apex vtuber community on JP, one of the shitty issue is how viewers often say to the streamer that reached masters (like Hinano, Noah, Matsuri, Izuru) "got carried" to masters even if they are good in their own right. This is specially true for Matsuri and some extent, Towa and its annoying seeing people say these otherwise. Watching Selen, IPN and Restya yesterday was really a blast as you can see they really have a good synergy. Selen is someone who can pop off when need to (the sentinel mozam clutch) and can keep up with the other two (Restya is a consistent Pred and IPN was a former pro). Selen talking about her friends also reminded me of rpr's discussion with an NA player on how the team synergizes. Like rpr, taisheen and made are like brothers that they themselves always do positive reinforcement while the NA team are mostly on the toxic/negative reinforcement. Aka when they made a mistake, rpr's team comms will be like looking on the positive side (saying that at least they got 9 points, they did well etc ) while the NA team is on the negative side(calling each other dumb, worst player, etc.).

[@mycatto7166]

I think for selen people won't be able to said that she got carried to master because at the time she reach master her rank is higher than the pros she has been playing with (Restya ipn RPR at that time are still on diamond). So that at least proves at she is grinding rank on her own most of the time. And like you said when she actually play with the pros she was able to keep up with them and gaining max kp on her own.

[@Skelyos]

Agreed dunno if you saw Aqua's solo road to masters but she managed to literally solo to D1 and get to around 200 or so points off from masters before the split ended (IIRC) & people were still saying she got carried? How does that even make sense, that fact she even got close makes her an amazing player in her own right even with all the stream sniping and whatnot...

[@rendender5495]

Hinano Noah and Izuru have the skills to back it up. They're Aim gorillas. Matsuri though? I'm going to be frank. You're wearing rose colored glasses if you think her Aim or game sense is actually masters or even high diamond level.

[@axeldareen721]

@@Skelyos probably u not playing apex because what aqua do is camping and in battleroyale game its so easy to gain rp with camping. Honestly i agree if someone say matsuri and aqua skills not in master yet

[@Skelyos]

​@@axeldareen721 The fact that you think you can get to upper diamond by camping alone tells me you don't play the game...

[@bananasenpai]

I like how that dude probably slipped off the charts by now, and Selen is playing with THE rpr, Tempplex, Restia (he changed from Restya) and many other, not just preds, but pros and champs, that I've literally lost count. Love how the world works. and shit, we might even get a Selen, rpr and ImperialHAL collab soon, now that's exciting. The amount of yelling is gonna be amazing, and the toxicity is going to make Joker's acid tank look like a relaxing onsen LMFAO

[@blacksiopao]

rpr just needs to reach Masters now....

[@hccand0613]

why did restya change his name lol

[@bananasenpai]

@@hccand0613 idk man, I didn't know until Selen mentioned it the other day. Iirc, even Selen didn't know until she saw Restia's twitter. His acc is still @restyat but the name is Restia and so is the banner

[@scyred4568]

Lmao idk about Hal tho, but I'd be real interested to see Selen play with Taxi and Mande hahaha

[@blacksiopao]

ey rpr reached masters now, so this collab is definitely happening

[@Gilgamesh-em6ru]

I was there in her small community when it happened. she told us this and we did support her decision to push those people away if they were willing to say those things to her when we all knew how good of a player Selen was and still is in Apex.

[@スノーハッピー]

This is why "Sticks and bones may break my bones but words will never hurt me" is such bullshit I think we can all agree here that Selen has more mental fortitude than most of the people we know. But even she was affected by a comment like that, plus I mean it was probably more like a barrage of comments. And that's just human (or dragon). Take care people~ Be mindful of what we say to others. But also we don't have to take shit like that sitting down because "I'm not a pussy".

[@FerunaLutelou]

Its not bullshit. These words, this saying, just doesnt apply to everyone.

[@diligentone-six2688]

Words can hurt too. My professor remind us that. Even Priests in their sermons. But that's for everybody to think.

[@nothingnothing3366]

I think you got the phrase wrong

[@lukakatunaricskaro]

@@nothingnothing3366 Ikr? It's clearly "Sticks and bones may break my stones, but words can never hurt me."

[@imLumineux]

It makes sense, it's mainly because that person and Selen were close considering she said they played all the time together back then. If it's a random person , you probably won't care what they say. but if it's someone who you thought you were super close with pointing fingers then it's a different story all together.

[@Slamdere]

Thanks for clipping this! It was really kind of Selen to share her story about the obstacles she faced and how she overcame them, so I'm glad you're helping to spread it around.

[@SoShiBias]

Now imagine these young prideful individuals in team game eSports. Must be living hell for developing youngins.

[@Chopchopok]

That sucks. Being called something like that is already pretty awful coming from a random person, but to have it come from someone in your own static group is super messed up. Anyone who's played as a static group together knows that getting a good teammate willing to play with you consistently and is similar to you in expectations, attitude and skill level is *extremely* rare and difficult to do. Blowing up your own group with toxicity is so stupid.

[@jeevanraj619]

Exactly

[@watashogun]

Yea game is super fun when you play for fun (sometimes troll your teammates which i usually do) and also you could notice if their blames/trashtalking are genuinely toxic or just joking tho much better if dont say some nasty words to certain person cuz it might affect them in many ways. Remember guys games are meant to be fun even in competing so just have fun winning or losing. Keep grinding

[@painpeko8524]

i know right but most rankers take it too seriously like their lives depends on it

[@cherryrook8684]

Inb4 all the ”its just a game is such a weak mindset“ bots roll up

[@ryanvenjoyer]

Now instead of looking for good teammates, good teammates look for her. (Totally not because she left them for dead again)

[@astraeadelta7]

And this is just a team of 3 persons. What more if it was 5 man team like Valorant or any other competitive fps game. The blame game is real.

[@uuu12343]

I also had a similar case with Selen but it was in my team at school where we passed multiple projects with As, but the final presentation came, something broke (as Murphy's Law states), the group leader blamed it entirely on my feature when it was literally her part. We passed but needless to say, I refused to partner unless forced to From that day forth, I couldnt find myself working well in a team when programming, I preferred solo and when my friends asked if I wanna work with them on a programming idea, I told them that "maybe I can help by the side, but I doubt you'll need me long term" The imposter syndrome still exists to this day and everytime I have group work, I hardly talk and just start coding the feature if my team has decided on it, I dont add to the conversation in fear that I do anything wrong Same goes for interviews, I feel that no matter how much I do, I feel that I'm never ready for any interview - especially Software Engineering

[@joedirt370]

That intro is glorious

[@mantidream8179]

Selen is built for that game, and shooters in general. Her skill is undeniable

[@khoanguyenanh6138]

The best things of this story is selen meet true friend and teammates, and the old "teammates " got stuck in master.

[@adventpsyop]

Trophy to the chatter that said "amogus syndrome". Fucking cracked me up

[@elkofdeath]

You can be technically the very best individual at a team game and it will never amount to anything with your team if it doesn't want to believe in you, and in that pressure there are so many ways to break the belief.

[@randomboiyo6254]

Now she got all sorts of people backing her and willing to play with her: RPR, Restya, Uto, Templex, Bobon, etc.

[@nickpapadopoulos9978]

Reimu endou: "Drop the ungrateful besh"

[@heideknight9122]

That's people for ya. And then they wonder why no one likes them after pulling shit like that.

[@Shft-T4b]

My respect for Selen went up a couple levels after this clip.

[@Dreamspan]

she's so brave telling her own experience with impostor syndrome, really respect selen for that

[@renshi101]

at some point, I felt like her voice cracked and it made me so sad... I definitely knows what she's talking about

[@arqueiroXD]

I did get one impostor at one time at league of legends. It only happened because i had like 12 and i played jax with a strange build. Is not like the build was slight strange...it was a really wacky build. But it worked for me...and i had tendencies to win a lot of games with my Jax. Then a group of friends of one of my friend showed up and started bashing me...it go to the point that i tried to do their build(failing horrible) and giving up in the game. This was so bad that i never actually manage to go back to league, even when my friend asked.

[@fshen6914]

Not sure if they were a terrible friend for constantly bullying your or a good friend for saving you from the curse of League of Legends

[@スノーハッピー]

Doesn't sound like a friend. But I hope at least you're enjoying whatever you're playing now!

[@saltylemonz258]

They are good friends for getting you out of league of depression. That game is just frustrating and depressing after some point. Will make you salty about people flashing forward just to kill you, or when you go in and you get hit by a 2 hour long CC without doing anything. Jokes aside, gamers will always look for something that they can blame when they lose. I do it, you do it, everybody does it.

[@blacksiopao]

getting punished by thinking outside of the box, what a society we live in...

[@girlfailure-]

tbh meta builds aren't really good unless you play is super optimized. if your gimmick build works, it works. your friend(?) is stupid lmao

[@MasaruMirai]

People who only sees the mistakes of others rarely see their own.

[@fordknievel2607]

I think it's actually great that her self-esteem remained intact after that, even if she cut them off. I can only slightly relate when it comes to writing. I used to be told that I was a great writer and debater, where like my classmates would actually feel like they hit the jackpot when I get grouped with them. Of course, when the time came when it really mattered and everything was taken seriously, the standard they expected from me was suddenly gone (non-placers) and because of that, I was left out of many training sessions to improve my "skill". I was basically an afterthought, and it only tales a silver lining and extremely positive thinking to even be grateful that I got grouped up with them. I would never join another division debate contest. I never joined any writing or spelling contests anymore. I don't even want to write for anyone anymore. I think one day I started thinking that I was the problem. It stuck ever since. Now, whenever people compliment my work, I ignore it and think that "they don't know that I copied from one of my classmates who joined regional writing contests". I don't even think I call my works inspired any more. It doesn't look like imposter syndrome, I know. It seems more like…disillusionment. People can say I have a creative mind, but my experiences only prove that I'm hardly ever creative. What I enjoyed doing then became torture. So now I end up doing nothing. Nothing at all.

[@MuStCoMmEnT09]

That's kind of how I felt with programming really. It's a pain in the ass, I know the feeling. To the inexperienced, basic intellect carries you miles, but once you get with the people who have passionately dug at it for ages, and people with very formal training, it gets a hell of a lot harder to stay confident.

[@ItsHaoHere]

That dude probably dropped back down to platinum or whatever rank he was originally from.

[@jundahbalafif2610]

hard stuck gold mentality right there blaming team for their loses

[@randomboiyo6254]

@@jundahbalafif2610 Im confused how people can even be hardstuck gold. maybe it's possible if it's king's canyon but like sheeesh

[@PvtCaboose2961]

@@randomboiyo6254 I’m hardstuck gold but I know it’s because I suck/learning how to play again. It’s wild how toxic people get from playing and treat their “friends” like how they treated Selen.

[@elfireii328]

hah, those "team mates" dont deserve someone like Selen. Good riddence.

[@youravghuman5231]

Plot twist: It was rpr's fault that they break off

[@saltylemonz258]

He lost the best hommie out there. Glad I am always on Solo que(Not Apex but all of the games I play). It might be painful but everything is all because of you. Never had this impostor syndrome. I only blame the ping. Kekw

[@schwarzerregen9338]

Selen works so hard and is such a bright and bubbly person not to mention she's the best Apex Player I've ever seen, I'm so happy she is where she is now and got rid of all those toxic people, I hope they're seething and miserable that she's doing so much better than they ever could

[@IamSoSadisticLawl]

Thanks for clipping this.. Its really overwhelming to hear her confide I can only empathize with Selen..

[@GhostRevenant]

Imagine losing Selen Tatsuki as a friend due to gamer rage. Keep your asses in check while gaming yall

[@chapter23]

*Selen procced to play with apex national champions*

[@icebear010]

Actually she's such a girlboss for cutting of that person after that, her resolve after is even more girlboss, omg she's sooo coollll I'm glad she's doing well now!

[@blacksiopao]

it was that day that she lost a toxic team, but gained the power of *SPITE*

[@Lobstersarefabulouz]

I totally get it. Especially if friends can't be positive or supportive during a bad game i immediately lose interest in playing anything further. I know when I am trying my best but doing badly. No need to yell it in my ear.

[@JohnTrustworthy]

:'( TFW you can hear the pain in the AGG.

[@-Raylight]

Yeah rank competitive games are such too toxic. They need to understand it's a game to play, to have fun. I'm just happy that Selen proved she's better than that person and reached predator rank! Awww Selen is such a wise dragon. She's still a -human- dragon by the end of the day. Words can hurt her It was such a good decision to cut off that person, sometimes people scared of losing friends, but not Selen.

[@Axel8745693]

That's a difference between ranked and unranked though. Ranked at some point I think gets too serious especially if you're grinding for top ranks where little mistakes can derank you fast so when in teams people tend to not take responsibility or even if a teammate is at fault they will condemn them instead of support and gloss over it.

[@wakipai3D]

Games? Fun? What are you saying

[@MysteryFaceX]

Don't stay with people who put games before friendships.

[@kevo31415]

"It's easy to blame me about something" -> The guy blamed Selen because she is a girl. I see so many instances of people being downright nasty to girls in online video games. Look at the comments to clips of girls playing various game. Look at how female pro teams are treated. We all play a role in making games more inclusive to everyone.

[@allie4867]

sometimes when i look at the attempts to make female pro teams i honestly wonder if they're really being set up to fail, so that someone can go "hey, we tried but it cant be helped". Like the most prominent i can think of off the top of my head is the female league pro team that was put into the russian leagues, except that they were all diamonds against challengers and stuff. Felt more like a pub stunt or humiliation. and as a girl i think like, its kind of weird playing ow (a few years back), apex and league now, where people see your name and say weird shit like "oh did u get autofilled" (i'm a top main and he was implying i normally play sp) or like "ah gg" - in league and ow. in apex its more of harassment rather than quitters talk, but gets extremely uncomfortable fast. and i think like, i feels more accepted these days, but still a lot of skepticism and sexism which becomes almost "normal". Like being called an egirl, which is normal now to the pt whrre lots of people call themselves that, even though its still pretty sexist. it just feels weird, i think that a whole 50 ish % of humanity is just discredited at the highest levels of gaming (and other stuff...)

[@allie4867]

sorry for writing an essay but i just wanted to put my thoughts out there

[@kevo31415]

@@allie4867 I can only guess one factor is this myth that video games and nerdy stuff is for dudes and girls only get into them for attention. This is of course patently untrue. Plenty of girls play video games and plenty of them are very good at video games. But as you even say yourself, people online are downright nasty to women. And while people like Selen and yourself "put up" with it, countless others just stop. I have a good friend who loved to play Overwatch but is now terrified of playing any multiplayer games because of how mean people were to her. It's just really frustrating to see in 2022 that people still act like this to 50% of the population.

[@allie4867]

it sounds like gatekeeping yikes, and the thing is a lot of female streamers actually lean into the stereotype for views, i feel. which is understandable (hey, money) but kinda feels weird sometimes.

[@azuraug8693]

Hope that team lost rp after they lost Selen

[@Phoenix1024]

This is why I solo because I can't keep up with my friends and I'm feeling bad

[@ashle9034]

It's all fun and games until somebody gets hurt.

[@smug880]

ngl i thought the "imposter syndrome" in the title was going to be some kind of amogus joke lmao

[@undyingdiligence4106]

Holy shit.. this is what I sometimes experience after a heavy session of grinding w/ my team and I thought it was just me taking the stuff they said to heart.. didn't know at all about this and the constant blaming made me feel like I dont even deserve my rank just like Selen did.. That was like months ago until I finally decided to retire from the game completely..

[@xd3athclawx554]

i feel like i get imposter syndrome so much for short periods of time in apex in general, the way you can go from winning to being absolutely demolished in what seems like an instant is insane, it feels like whenever you do anything good the game instantly sends the best team in the lobby after you and makes sure they are backed up by a third party. that apex loop happens to me almost every other game and it really made me think for a while whether the people i killed were just bad or not.

[@Siscon92]

What I’ve seen for preds is that most of them 3 stack from Diamond. Imo all of them boost eachother because it’s a team game. You can’t prove otherwise except if it was impossible to build teams and everyone could only solo queue. Then you would see who are actually the real individual preds and who benefits from being in a good comp, but that makes absolutely no sense since this is a damn team game. Ppl that complain online about someone being boosted probably simply got no friends to play with and are jealous

[@josephsaga]

Online shooting game can ruin your friendship

[@szm5004]

Wonder if those teammates will ever chance upon this clip

[@parkiranhonda7138]

Competitive game do be like that, one day you rank up insanely, then the next day all the worse thing happened as if all your luck has been drained for yesterday. Blamming others teammates because of that is foolishness. Its just another day.

[@Kareszkoma]

I know the pressure, of talking with a person being like walking on a field of landmines. Always worrying when will you say sth wrong. Or gaming and when will you do sth wrong. Of a person constantly being like "this is a shit game, why is this wrong, why this why that". I used to be very toxic too. It's Karma for sure. I think, that it was time I had changed, and time that I cleared toxicity out of my life. She did the right thing. Absolutely the best solution.

[@JohnTrustworthy]

Sure, it's only a game. But it is never only a team.

[@goku_dunker_420]

Jesus diamond 4 to masters in one day? That's fucking crazy

[@FBread-xj8qk]

I don't even play Apex at all. Not a drop of FPS gaming blood in me. I only play Dota 2. But I watch Selen's Apex streams quite a lot. She always seems to be having fun, and that makes it fun and entertaining for me even if I dont have any idea what's going on. Mad respect for her and her mental fortitude after all she went through.

[@Robotose]

I watched Aceu's recent vid and he killed a guy with the name "Selen Tatsuki's foot stool".... thought it was hilarious

[@Mikozee]

Can you imagine having your Apex rank be your sole validation in life? I kind of pity him. I mean I guess if my life were in shambles, I were incompetent at everything, and the only escape I had was Apex, I guess I might react that way too at even the slightest thought of losing the only thing that makes me feel capable in life.

[@PlushLordOfTheSeas]

I was in the top 40 in a game once, now I just avoid competitive games because like selen said, it's just stress. I just wanna have fun, so it's mostly Co-Op games and goofing off for me now

[@Shakukirai]

D4 to masters in a day? Oh shit Selen is WaterGotHim confirmed

[@cailinch.6633]

I can totally relate, there was a game I used to pay competitively a hell of a lot. Played with some really good players, but their attitude towards the game and, well, the team and who comprised it was awful. Any clutch or round you lost and it was a constant barrage of insults. I honestly don’t know why I played with them lmao, guess they were just the best at the time. I’m happy I left though. I’ve been able to get better for myself and find new teammates

[@pensmith]

Respect.

[@ameermz]

If you can solo q to d4 you deserve it. Plain and simple. But climbing to masters is a comms thing. You need teammates. No one has ever, EVER, got to pred without teammates…

[@diligentone-six2688]

When playing Warzone, you have to deal with stupid shit nowadays since Infinity Ward was no longer in control and they added Black Ops lore into the goddamn Tarpit. I do get good teammates when they wanted to work together no matter win or lose. Sometimes I get bad teammates and they just instantly left because either they are experiencing shitty frames and connection, or the fact that they need a fresh start. Dealing with Lag and shitty frames made me leave instantly because I can't play properly without stuttering. Overall, Selen needs to understand that Friends come and go. True friendships value your personality and your human values the most above all else. It's okay not to associate with those Selfish pricks anymore. They're not worth selen's time nor they need to be part of Selen's life.

[@noelmacaraeg2544]

this is one of the reasons why I dont play ranked I dont want people getting mad at me

[@ayaya439]

Yes it's so hard trying to find a good teammates who works with you a lot, i never have those impostor syndrome but, look at where Selen now, playing with her friends and laughing her ass off Everytime, Meanwhile me and my friends just trolling at high elo cause why not,why stress or something if you can have fun with your friends or something

[@aguinaldoferrer6491]

People forget it's ultimately just a game and treat it like it's life or death smh

[@Necroneer]

This was a nice story. 1:29 Probably sitting 2:42 That's going way too far man.

[@xii8307]

Maybe yelling at my teammates isnt something I should be doing but my god are they stupid sometimes Good decision by her though, I probably wouldn't want to deal with something like that either, even though I never get bothered by trash talk

[@greenlandpatriot]

"It's just a game." usually really gets on my nerves. Like yes, it's a game, but I like committing serious effort and focus. Success feels better when you strive for it. But that kinda bs is not condonable, even at the most serious. F those guys. You don't undermine your teammates. That's toxic for everybody, and just plain disgusting on top.

[@AlexReTard.]

"It's just a game" >like yes, it's a game /thread

[@fajrul2800]

Actually we shouldn't judge this, coz we dont know the real scene. The blame, gameplay or their relationship. We just know selen pov. But, they shouldnt said "boosted bitch" to her. Thats too much.

[@Axel8745693]

The "It's just a game" thing is also very situational. Like another talk that Botan from Hololive had (she is an ex-pro on Rainbow Six Siege) and she shared why she doesn't want to join any kind of tournaments. If she joins an actual hosted tournament and not a fun event dubbed as a tournament pretty much her whole perspective of "it's just a game" is going to become a very serious situation. On that note I 100% agree that toxicity is the worst thing even in pro-level competitive settings. It's one thing to be harsh and critical of someone and another to be toxic.

[@kelnhide]

But it IS just a game though. At the end of the day, it's still just a video game. If it's turning you into an obnoxious toxic person, then you should probably stop playing.

[@justnnyf4108]

Still It's Just Game, if you lose a friend because of it then it's not worth it.. imagine you have a best friend for a years than breakup because a game lol. seriosly you are stupid if you still picking up the game, because still .....it's just a game.

[@jundahbalafif2610]

bruh this is exactly why i dont play with team if i have the option, not just in apex but in every pvp game that i played, like destiny 2 i solo grinded to max rank point and got legend rank and as soon as my friend know about it they be like "bro carry us" i was not about that shiet but i did it anyway cause they are my friend, what do you know everytime we loose a round, not the entire match , just 1 round lost andthey either blame me or call the other team cheater , its dumb

[@insignificant2368]

LES GOOOO BROOO! THAT"S MY OSHI RIGHT THERE BITCHES!

[@yuuki_a7424]

That's not a true friend, a true friend will still play and will not trash talk u if y'all got lose-streak, well-well look at her now wrecking and playing with top players now

[@demon-likejudgeoffire4895]

thats rough, this is why its very lucky for me and some people when were a good team and we actually know each other irl so even if we curse at each other for being downbad (bad perfomance at the game, not bad player but only at that game) still i know what they think of me (not when im raging) so its very lucky. and Yes before i found these friends i only had online friends so their Cursing really got into me. it really did affect me. now i dont just use it when im raging or angered but i casually just say "fuck you" like its such a light thing its actually weird. how do y'all calm down when raging? i usually just splash water to my face and listen to my fav music but sometimes it just doesnt work..

[@rauntche]

amogus

[@RenoKyrie]

When Selen talked about her being in Nijisanji and felt the same imposter syndrome To me thats ridicilous because to me at least she is a VERY different person, not just as a Vtuber for Nijisanji, but as a content creator aswell

[@RyuzakiHazumi]

it kinda sucks when people take ranks in games too seriously, sure its nice to be in a high elo but if you take it till the point you get mad at your own friends for such a little thing and blame them for it, it really sucks. this is why most of the time i play alone.

[@chomosuke7147]

I just started playing apex(Oct 2021) and had my friend(he insisted on helping) teach me how to play it. Its so hard tbh, maybe because of my friend's elo. he is a platinum player(highest platinum II). So while we were playing, his other friend saw him online and invited him to play but my friend declines and told him that he's helping me to get used to the game atm. This friend of his is really hot tempered, even the slightest mistake can make him complaint and talk trash at u. He wanted to join us but my friend told him in advance that im a new player(was my 2nd day) so im still learning with the basics. He responded sure no problem at all and joined us... The more we played, the quieter he become. Guess hes holding the rage inside of him. After awhile the atmosphere become too awkward so I decided to call it a day. After I left, his mouth started to open up to my friend. We were just playing trios and this man was complaining like he lost a major competition because of me. After hearing it from my friend, I felt so down and lost my confidence to progress further. I told him that if u want to play with him sure but I would never play with that man again. Because of him I nearly quit playing, I feel like im not good enough to play apex. Not sure if this is related but I understand the feeling of not belonging at the place that ure currently on because of someone's complaints.

[@Toxicbirb]

That was unfortunate, Hope you can find another team in the Dragoons discord. I know that there will be plenty of friendly dragoon willing to team up with you, they even hold some competitions. So if you really feel like geting back to the game, you can find the dragoons. The dragoons squad will always be there~♥ Here's the discord link if you wonder: discord.gg/selen

[@chomosuke7147]

@@Toxicbirb Ohhh how kind of u, I'll try checking it out. well I nearly quit but I pushed myself to play it. But after trying solo-ing, I felt more free cause I can make my own decision cause when i was playing with my friend, I usually follow his instructions/calls like when to push/run. Its been exactly a month since Ive started playing, and I can see a lot of improvement on my movement/aim/rotation. i only play trios now. after this half season is over, I would try grinding my rank and see if I improve while playing trios/firing range only.and I swear to myself that I would never play with that guy anymore even if I got better in apex, not willing to risk my mental health playing with him.

[@Toxicbirb]

@@chomosuke7147 Well you should just choose to leave him and not suffer him for that long. There are plenty of people that are nicer. Btw you shouldn't push yourself too hard just to play a game, a game is for fun. If you didn't have fun at that game, you should quit it and try something new. But yeah, if you just check out the dragoon squads.

[@houseoffoam]

And Selen still think that they are "good friends"

[@wolfe9655]

Bruh all humans have is feelings yo

[@Serges6578]

kind of sad

[@YasaiTsume]

Idk how anyone can say boosted in Apex of all games. If you're talking about other ranked sweat games, then maybe yea cos those games have huge hyper carry potential. Apex is really hard to hyper carry at the peak, because the more skilled the player pool becomes, the more stacked your odds become vs other games where you can basically bully the enemy team's weakest link and then slam them with pure advantage.

[@3zzzTyle]

like like, like, like

[@tysonfontanez]

Does anyone know where the current version of her bgm is from? I can only ever find the original one (without the humming)

[@Toxicbirb]

If you're looking for it, the person's name is tachibana Video link: kzbin.info/www/bejne/kInSaY2PaNOcqqc Selen metioned him as well in her stream

[@tysonfontanez]

@@Toxicbirb yo, thank you!

[@Toxicbirb]

@@tysonfontanez You're welcome

[@MJSGamingSanctuary]

Well considering that she turned the number one player in her current server into embers snack. Recently I'd say that case of Imposter Syndrome should get just yeeted. We all know if Selen were to go actual full sweat she could probably carry a team to like top 10 predator easily. If anything someone who wants to make a team that could be almost called like above Predator we could call it like alien at that point. Selen is genuinely one of the top picks. Like if Selen didn't like pity enemies and went full savage burn out Apex predator I'd honestly be willing to bet Selen could beat the under 24 hr predator rank. If she actually like tried.

[@momogi618]

luckily when i'm playing dota i'm hard stuck in 4k mmr so i never had impostor syndrome and just playing for fun with my friends and now i'm playing alone i had such bad attitude toward any competitive games and swear a lot (talking to myself not using voice in game for bashing them)

[@tristancoffin]

Never played any mobas huh. You get used to it. I think for literal years of my life I got yelled at daily by people three years older than me for being the shitiest team mate.

[@GamePlayuh9510]

Once again, I read through comments before watching the video, thinking the story is gonna be awful, and it ends up being pretty normal-ass, toxic online behavior. Don't get me wrong, she was right to leave. I'd have done the same. But this "imposter syndrome" is a pretty normal thing most people go through at least once in their lives. Just about everybody has that moment once or twice where they think "did I earn this?" Unless you were somehow born a narcissist. And the way the comments frame the story, without getting the context straight from the horse's mouth, makes it sounds way worse than it actually is.

[@Bwern]

I don't mean to be rude but what's the point of subbing english on an english video? Especially since the subs are kinda incorrect anyway

[@MuStCoMmEnT09]

Subtitles are nice to have, since it gives you the option to mute, and gives more people access to content in the event they're not good at processing audio. Or even if they're deaf That said, yeah, would've been nice if they proofread the subtitles a bit.

[@shinji136]

I don't know if you're aware of it, but deaf people exist, as well as those whose english is not their first language.

[@Toxicbirb]

Sorry if there's any incorrect subs which might be my mistake, i just feel that sometimes the words is hard to listen as even when i'm doing subs, i sometimes listen wrong or had to listen a ton of times just to make sense. Truely sorry if i cause you any trouble.

[@fischwell]

To justify the behavior of the ex teammate, probably they had their worst day at that time, but hey they might be just rude. Good riddance anyway.

[@gretafreitag2041]

You don't need to try and justify someone saying something like that to a teammate. Bad day or whatever, you could seriously wreck someone's confidence and self-worth.

[@axeldareen721]

Idk man sometimes my teammate also mad at me but i dont mind at all. Well its competitive game even hal always blaming snip3

[@aiden5847]

i know its really bad for that guy to say that and all and selen made the right decision but wouldn 't of it been good to talk about it with him first instead of just cutting it off like people sometimes lash out when they tilted not trying to defend him but it mught of been better to try and resolve it

[@MuStCoMmEnT09]

A comment like that only comes from somebody who doesn't respect you in the first place. The word choice alone probably indicates that he would never have been capable of respecting her in the first place due to likely being a bit sexist. She definitely made the right call. You don't treat your friends like that, and even if you're lashing out you're still responsible for your actions, and choice of words.

[@LoLFeVerry]

Yea that guy is rude, but sorry , my hot take is that at least current Selen doesn't deserve Masters , Id agree with Diamond 1 . Sorry , but Selen is just equally toxic LMAO . Its a toxic v toxic world out there.

[@sunfish_bloop]

You're entitled to your opinion, but I haven't seen Selen be toxic on the level of what that guy said, or blaming teammates or sending hate messages to other players. She BMs enemies sometimes and ribs her teammates (friendly messing around) but that's totally different from getting loud and angry, or sending hate.

[@PandaXs1]

"deserve" lol okay, as bad as toxicity can be in games idk what sort of ranking based on toxic behavior you got going on here lmao. if anything compared to some of the shit I put up with in bronze she deserves pred.

[@AmeJellyKimura24]

Hahahaha if you think that was so toxic bruh you ain't ready for any competitive games you might even cry. Also you probably haven't even watched any of her Apex streams and she's crazy good even for a washed up ex top 500 pred like her.

[@Toxicbirb]

There's different types of toxic okay, like Selen's is kind of making fun with friends, but that guys is just totally dick. Selen mention that it was unlucky matches and you can't just yell at your teammate when you losses. That is freaking rude, plus Selen actually deserve pred if you watch her stream. Don't judge if you didn't watch her stream.

[@shittydrawersden3329]

Rpr claims otherwise from the ex teammate

[@wisefelipe]

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[@takashihernandez4298]

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[@av88id85]

You cant just drop that bomb and leave. Give us sauce

[@juanrolandodelarosa1550]

What do you mean?

[@hajiku3575]

What?drop the link babe.