Maybe he didn't intend it fully that particular morning, but he was heading there. hide could somehow ingest amounts of alcohol that the human body couldn't possibly survive and instead of dying, he went into a blackout, ended up in LA ghetto and literally disarmed hardened Gangstas so completely, they didn't shoot him, beat him or even robbed him. If you throw a naked human being from the shuttle into the Space, he won't survive. There's no chance for that. The same absolute certainty goes for this scenario: If you put a pink haired, very distinctively clothed, doll-like faced Asian man of somewhat petite stature into mid90s Los Angeles ghetto, there's no way this ends favourably for the said living Volks BJDoll. Yet, hide accomplished THAT. While drunk out of his mind. He was capable to survive anything, except himself. He was so unique, profoundly gifted individual and in a sense absolutely pure human being, that for him, living itself was like being naked and trying to survive in Space. One day, he inevitably would've ended himself in a way that would be abundantly clear: as in, intended, premeditated, clearly thought-out suicIde without any room for speculation that it was anything else. I'm sorry, but I fear I'm right.