My impulse is to appreciate what Carter preaches. The difficulty is that at the same time, to me at least, he seems to discourage people from having any interest in prospering or succeeding in their lives. It becomes a schizophrenic understanding of the gospel. My dilemma is that I need to prosper just a little bit so I can keep my bills paid. Apparently to even desire that, is to be in active rebellion against the kingdom of God. It also seems as though to even have these concerns at the top of my mind, is a selfish and rebellious behavior. If the above things are true, then I really do need to reconcile to myself that I need to deal with suffering, loss, despondency, and desperation, for the rest of my days. Life was never supposed to be easy to begin with.