2 Years ago I wanted to Hurt Myself

It has been two years ago now since it was the last time that I wanted to kill myself. Time to look back and on the progression I have made since. Gladly I see the steps forward although I sometimes want to go a little too fast. Welcome to my Journey sweetlings.
Have any questions or feedback for me? Leave a comment and I´ll be happy to get back to you!
Thanks for watching, more to come!
Love, Mischa
Instagram: / post.mischa

[@cyberintervention]

My boyfriend and myself discovered your channel looking for berghein videos a year ago before we travelled the world. We loved your videos and I binged your channel. I live in sunny Sydney, Australia and we recently had a summer that wouldn't stop raining. I felt like I was in berlin and couldn't go outside and it got super depressing. Struggled to get out of bed some days. Looking back, it wasn't just the weather, it was a lack of having daily goals that I wanted to achieve to lead me towards the person I wanted to be. Easier said then done. Once I found out that I liked videography/cameras/making videos, I was able to obsess over it until I realised that life isn't about me, it's genuinely about finding the thing that you like that you are also able to give back to others through. I asked myself, how could I become the best videographer possible to help others share their feelings, stories, emotions for their music/brands/whatever it may be. I immediately shifted from a person who felt stuck in a system that makes me work jobs I don't like to pay bills I wish I didn't have, towards a completely different world view. I wanted to wake up, I wanted to meet new people, start my own business, be my own boss, I wanted to learn, I wanted to make meaningful work, for the first time in my life. And yes, being in a sunnier place helps and in the beginning you have to do the boring jobs before you can make the full time jump to your hobby. But that is the most beautiful thing that we have the opportunity to pursue anything you put your mind to. Seriously anything. No one goes around telling you that because they're too busy chasing some other companies dream rather than their own. You will be in an incredible place in 10 years time if you just start making one small change a day to take you towards your dreams/interests. For example, you could be a renowned tattoo artist who gets paid to travel the world and spread your iconic art style. Or maybe it's designing motorcycles. Who knows?! We tend to really struggle when we feel stagnant and with so much instant comfort at home through the internet, it's really easy to get stuck in life now. Think about how many people who work jobs they hate. Sure, a job is always going to feel like a job but this is just what worked for me. Not a diss on Berlin, I loved visiting but it did feel like most people were working at cafes/restaruaunts/jobs they hate only to just cope with it on the weekends through drugs, rather than trying to work on their passions that also align with solving in demand problems. Find your ikigai (Japanese word) and I promise you it will slowly start to change your life. It did for me. Love your vids x

[@post.mischa]

Hey! Thank you for your long message, you quite nicely describe, what I have in my head as well. I am happy to hear that you found your Ikigai, that's currently also what I am focusing on. It's really kind and helpful to read your message.

[@Malarone_]

❤❤❤

[@post.mischa]

I see I made an editing mistake, O well nothing is perfect

[@Lilablaublassgruen]

Nothing and noone is perfect and I am happy that this is a FACT! ☺️🫶

[@Lilablaublassgruen]

So proud of you. But most important is, that you are proud of yourself! 🖤 Yes, it can be very challenging to "face" yourself and all the hidden or suppressed feelings, to really get to know and understand it "all" and yourself, but its worth all the time and energy to work on it. All the best, the kind of progression you wish for/ need and much love from yourself for/to yourself and from friends and family, Mischa! 🖤💜🖤

[@post.mischa]

Thank you so much! Gladly I got a boost of energy from making new videos the last few days which is honestly such a relieve. Working ahead now and trying out some new things

[@cranedaddy678]

I'm glad to see you around still, buddy. Keep on working on yourself! Miss you! (Rennitt)

[@post.mischa]

Miss you too Rennitt! Will get on Discord soon again

[@eXelenCe]

miss you around brother.

[@post.mischa]

I'll be back online soon Slack